"For the Love of Sadness" - May 25, 2025

Samples of Matthew McConaughey, Al Pacino, John Goodman, Gil Fronsdal, and more!

Transcript

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Broken Window Garden. Broken Window Garden.

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Broken Window Garden.

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Live Improvod.

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Live Improvod. Sound could flop.

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Good afternoon. It's Sunday, May 25th, 2025. 2.05pm. You're listening to the Broken Window Garden. Let's get started. Closure. No.

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No, no.

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Nothing is ever over.

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Loneliness and silence envelop a heart that pounds like thunder. All the love I have inside is ripping me asunder.

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The

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city is a jungle

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of pain, but my love

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is from the soul. So be so kind as to answer the Z that you can write on my pole. Oh, come on. Give the guy a break. This is a

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major lonely answer. Major?

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like a hut within the woods. I keep my odd eye upon a shelf barren of other goods. I need another's arms to reach for it and place it where it belongs. I need another's touch and smile to fill my hut with songs.

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Benjamin.

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Benjamin. Benjamin. Benjamin. so so

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I'm in love with sadness. I'm in love with sadness. It seemed like a good idea at the time. And this is where I come to relive it.

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Listening to the Broken Window Garden Sound Collage

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I can always come back here

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to

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relive it. And that's okay. This is a safe place to relive the sadness. It is my sadness and I want it. And I don't want it to go away. I just want to visit a woman. I think, you know, is it really right that I'm just doing the same fucking thing over and over and over? But then I can refer back to 104 Haydn symphonies, all of which are, all the two or three or four movements, almost every one is allegro, minuet, or allegro, slow movement, minuet, finale, rondo, and he did, you know, same things, same kinds of stuff. So all the great people, they... They have their repertoire. They have their language that they would work with. And they weren't ashamed or embarrassed to keep going back to the well. Every work is different. Every work is different. And people want to look at one at a time.

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Thank you.

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to this glass of water that I'm drinking, and you tell me to let go of it, and I think I'm supposed to let go of the glass, it would be a mess here if I drop it. But that's kind of saying that it's the problem, it kind of implies the problem is with the glass. What I'm supposed to let go of is the clinging I have to the glass of water. I don't have to let go of the glass of water. I can still use it, but I can let go of the clinging to and the grasping onto it, the clutching it.

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And the only prescription is for a cowbell. Oh, they got my cowbell!

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My cowbell's there! Turn those machines back on! Turn those machines back on!

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Okay.

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You are listening to The Milk and the Indigo, live, improvised, sound flash. Thank you for

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listening. We appreciate your listening. We appreciate, we really appreciate your listening.

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So back to relax.

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Enjoy the show!

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This is my garden of feelings. This is where I harvest and grow and cultivate feelings. This is my garden. And it's a little crazy. And that's how I like it.

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It might seem hard by saying that, but it's true. Life goes on.

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In hindsight, I could have made different choices. I'm not saying it's all on me. It's not, but... If I had to do it all over again, I would maybe do some things differently. I just thought you should know that. I have regrets.

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is being active and doing things is that I think it's quite possible to do all sorts of things and at the same time be completely dead inside. I mean, you're doing all these things, but are you doing them because you really feel an impulse to do them? Or are you doing them mechanically as we were saying before? Because I really do believe that if you're just living mechanically, then you have to change your life. I do think that you have to constantly ask yourself the question with total frankness, is the sacramental element in your work, is it still there? It's a very frightening thing to have to suddenly realize that, my God, I thought I was living my life, but in fact, I haven't been a human being. I've been a performer. I haven't been living, I've been acting. I've lived in the same room with this person, but I haven't really seen them. I haven't really heard them. I haven't really been with them.

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Somewhere in the back of my mind, I keep thinking we're going to wind up together again. I don't know why. I'm still hanging on. I'm still waiting around.

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I don't think she's coming back. Yeah, I don't either. I don't know. Sometimes you

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just have to let go. Just get yourself a new watch.

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Let's let her go.

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That's why I'm sitting here right now, and that's why I'm fucked

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You know what I think? I think you're addicted to it.

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Have you thought this through? You dip so much as a pinky back into this pond, you may well find something reaches out and drags you back into its depths.

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Turn those machines back on! Turn those machines back on!

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When I say love, the sound comes out of my mouth and it hits the other person's ear, travels through this Byzantine conduit in their brain, you know, through their memories of love or lack of love. And they register what I'm saying and they say, yes, they understand. But how do I know they understand? Because words are inert. They're just symbols. They're dead, you know. And so much of our experience is intangible. so much of what we perceive cannot be expressed. It's unspeakable. And yet, when we communicate with one another and we feel that we have connected and we think that we're understood, I think we have a feeling of almost spiritual communion. And that feeling might be transient, but I think it's what we live for.

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And that's it. Take

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care,

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everybody. Bye.