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Healing Emotional Wounds and Rediscovering Self-Worth with Nicole Harmony
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What if your self-worth was tied not to what you do, but to what you've healed? Join us as we explore this profound question with holistic practitioner Nicole Harmony. Through her deeply personal journey, Nicole sheds light on the powerful process of recognizing and mending emotional wounds. By examining the role of childhood experiences, particularly with emotionally unavailable caregivers, we uncover how these dynamics often replicate in adulthood. Her story is a testament to the reciprocal nature of healing, where mending oneself can also create space for others to heal.
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Josh Porthouse:Today on Transacting Value. How do you know your own self-worth when maybe you're emotionally unavailable? More importantly, how can you effectively communicate it, gain awareness and develop it to the betterment of yourself, your family, your friends and all your other relationships? Today on the show, we're talking with holistic practitioner Nicole Harmony all about her insights, her advice and her recommendations on how to do it. I'm Josh Porthouse, I'm your host and from SDYT Media. This is Transacting Value, nicole. How are you doing?
Nicole Harmony:I am absolutely fabulous today. Josh, thank you for asking. How are you?
Josh Porthouse:I'm good, I'm good, you know, for asking how are you? I'm good, I'm good. You know I don't get many people asking me that I start with a greeting and then we roll into the intro and things tend to go the same format every time. But I think you're one of single digits that have been on the show so far that actually asked me in return.
Nicole Harmony:Wow, wow, that's interesting. Yeah, no, it's a reciprocation, right the way that life is supposed to be.
Josh Porthouse:Well, that's just it, isn't it? That's not the way that it is, though I think oftentimes, you know, we start to get into this routine or this rhythm, how we want to be perceived or how we tend to act, or whatever that pattern of behavior happens to be, and then it just sticks. Even though we're not trying to be rude, it just is. For example, before I get to talking about me being emotionally unavailable, let's talk about how you got into identifying emotional unavailability as a primary focus to get you started. So how about in the next couple minutes? We just set the stage first. Who are you, where are you from If you could, I guess, summarize that and what sort of things are shaping your perspective on the world as it applies to all these things?
Nicole Harmony:So, yeah, that's a loaded question as to where I'm from. Question as to where I'm from, I so originally I'm from Texas, which is where I currently am recording this. I spent majority of my life in Florida, st Pete specifically, that is. If I'm going to call home, that is what I call home. But recently I have called home in Asia Southeast Asia, thailand specifically and I plan to go back there in April.
Nicole Harmony:So you know what, when people ask me where home is, home is where my heart is and home is inside of here. It doesn't have anything to do with where I hang my hat. It's, you know, it's within me, and so I've started to identify with that more as people continue to ask me where are you from? So that's it for in a nutshell for me, for where I'm from. I know that's probably longer than two minutes, but to answer your other questions, how I came upon the emotional unavailability that is definitely a deep question. My dad was emotionally unavailable to me and I didn't have recognition of this until probably my late 30s, early 40s, and I'm 51 years old, so it was very much late in life.
Josh Porthouse:You're 51?
Nicole Harmony:Yeah, I'm 51.
Josh Porthouse:Oh good genes, I guess for you.
Nicole Harmony:Thank you. I think actually getting rid of the emotional baggage helps to reverse the aging. Getting rid of the junk that you're holding on to helps to reverse the aging. When I look at a before and after picture of me, back when I was still very much in the dark about what had happened to me as a child and the abuse that I have experienced within relationships, both professional and sorry my car accident concussion sometimes gives me a little bit of brain freeze but romantic, romantic, intimate and professional relationships, you know you can experience emotional abuse. You know, through all of them. And it wasn't until probably 2012 is when I started. No, 2010 was when I really started to dive deep into the emotions. And when I look back at pictures of myself before 2010, and even actually after that, you can see the age reversal that I have experienced in the last few years when I really started doing the deep dive, the work, the work with the psychedelics you know, the ayahuasca, the psilocybin and then also doing the emotional healing on myself through the support of others who mentors and just you know me, myself and I as well and then finding the work that I actually facilitate as practitioners, as holistic practitioners, people who create and hold space for others. When we hold space for somebody else to heal, we inevitably heal a portion of ourselves as well, and so when we are creating that space, we're healing those parts of us too. So the healing happens every single day. So, yeah, of us too, so the healing happens every single day. So, yeah, I mean, reversing of the age is kind of inevitable when you start doing the deep work on yourself.
Nicole Harmony:But anyway, I just sidetracked a little bit. But my dad was emotionally unavailable. I didn't realize it until I started reading books on just different daughter wins, you know with the father wins, and I recognized all of these points of references that these authors were making and I was like, wow, that's me. And so I reached out to my sisters, and my sisters have kind of a different point of view and perspective on my dad's only flesh and blood. My two sisters were adopted by him and so they look at him as their savior. But I had to kind of take a really hard look and be like, yeah, I mean, he's an amazing person, he's an amazing provider. He just doesn't know how to be emotionally available for the women in his life. I have two sisters, my mom, we didn't have any brothers, there were no other men in the family, and he just didn't know how to because he wasn't taught how to and his grandpa you know his grandfather wasn't taught how to, and so it was a generational trauma and curse that kind of trickled down to me, and then I became the breaker of the chain, right which there's a lot of us in this lifetime right now, and so I started doing a lot of work.
Nicole Harmony:It was dark a lot of the time, and every single relationship that I've had with a man was a reflection back to the relationship with my father, and in good and in bad ways. And so I really had to start, you know, kind of taking a look, and thank God my dad is still with us, and at that time he did still have his faculties. He has since become, you know, extremely mild cognitive impairment within the brain, and so I was able to have a couple of really good years of having, you know, deep introspective conversations, and I actually received the validation and the apology that that younger version of me was really needing in order to push past it. And now we have cultivated this beautiful relationship and I'm able to be honest with him and say openly you know how I felt as a child and again receive that validation. You know being able to be feel, seen and heard was monumental for those younger versions to be integrated back into to my soul. So yeah, did I answer your question? I'm not sure.
Josh Porthouse:Yeah, yeah, yeah. So there's. There's a lot of things, I think, that everybody brings in as they grow through life, unwittingly so, like in your case. What was it, then, that triggered you? Instead of looking in, I got to look back, or instead of looking forward, I got to reflect. What was the trigger?
Nicole Harmony:The failed relationships, I was the common denominator.
Josh Porthouse:Oh, interesting yeah,
Nicole Harmony:I mean when you go into your relationships and you give it all you got, it still fails. You have to start taking a hard look at yourself and what you're bringing in. What traumas and distortions are you bringing into the relationships? What challenges are being shown to you? I mean the Latin have this beautiful explanation and definition of what a relationship is and it's where the soul goes to heal. People feel like they get into a relationship and it's going to be all rainbows and unicorns, but your intimate relationship is going to push you and reflect back to you and show the dark spots that need to have the light shown on in order for it to heal, that need to have the light shown on in order for it to heal. And if you do not have the framework and the skill set in order to move past and shift through it and the support, then the relationship is going to fail because the younger version is going to want to sabotage and it's going to want to run because it doesn't want to face those shadows.
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Nicole Harmony:The younger version is going to want to sabotage and it's going to want to run, because it doesn't want to face those shadows.
Josh Porthouse:Okay, all right, so that makes a lot more sense now. See, because I saw a little bit about you before we got to record and I kept seeing inner child, inner child, inner child. I kept seeing inner child, inner child, inner child, and to me that meant more whimsical or more sensitive or maybe less resilient or less flexible, right, but now basing some degree of behavior off of that kind of cognition, I think changes everything. Yeah, because, yeah, I guess it is sort of a self-sabotage, but then how do you identify some sort of a group or some sort of a family system in any kind of relationship where you start to feel comfortable without accepting how things were, because then you have to reinvent, right?
Nicole Harmony:I'm going to need a little bit more clarity. I'm not following and that could be my concussion.
Josh Porthouse:No, no, no. So what I mean is, if you have to let go of whatever was, then you have to reinvent to a new version your thought process, your behaviors, your relationship, conversations, biases, whatever. So how do you? find a new comfort system then. So how do you find a new comfort system then, as you're starting over, but as an adult?
Nicole Harmony:Right, Absolutely. Yeah, you just, you know, I want to say you kind of just have to throw spaghetti at a wall and just see. You have to really kind of check in with your body and see what is dysregulating your nervous system. You know the emotions. Do you have the skills set in order to regulate your emotions?
Nicole Harmony:So I grew up in a household where my mom was extremely affectionate but my dad was emotionally unavailable. So I have since seeked out women that are very loving and, you know, huggy and cuddly, but the men have been emotionally unavailable to me. Because that's where my nervous system felt normal, felt comfortable. Because the ages of zero and eight years old, your beliefs are created, your belief systems are created.
Nicole Harmony:And if your baseline is emotional unavailable, men are safe to you, then when you go out into the world as an adult and you start to date and a man is overly supportive, then that's not going to necessarily bring you peace because it's going to dysregulate the nervous system, the baseline Again, it feels safe when they are not available to you. So you're going to create scenarios to make them emotionally unavailable. That creates the friction in the relationship because the man may want to be available to you but you're trying to change that. You're trying to change him into something that was your baseline, was your safety, and until you actually have recognition of this and you have shifted and integrated these parts, that's part of the work that I do. You integrate these parts so they're not out there sabotaging, they're not out there trying to make the decision and create the scenarios to get you back to your baseline of having emotionally unavailable men in your life. Does that resonate?
Josh Porthouse:Well, a little so when it comes to, for example, emotionally unavailable men and generational traumas. That's sort of my MO. So everybody that I've talked to at least that I remember talking with throughout my entire life has said why are you so distant? Why are you so cold? What is it, um, you know about? Pick a relationship, uh, that just turns you off about it. Why can't you be more affectionate? These types of comments, but I feel normal. I don't feel like I'm ostracizing people or intentionally distancing anybody, or you know, I'm engaging to the extent I feel appropriate. I'm just not emotionally engaged, I'd say 90% of the time. But until this conversation I don't think I ever attributed any of that sort of, I guess, loosely behavior to anything generational. But as soon as you brought it up, it was Absolutely.
Nicole Harmony:I had all the hair on my body just stood up when you said that.
Josh Porthouse:Yeah.
Nicole Harmony:That's beautiful that you were able to make that awareness and recognition.
Josh Porthouse:Well, I mean, that's only half of the equation, isn't it? I mean, what do you do with that kind of insight? What do you do with that kind of insight?
Nicole Harmony:If you're a client and I was I would start asking a series of questions. You know where, when was it, who was it that was emotionally unavailable to you? And then you know again, with the dialogue, figuring out when that first time that you felt like you didn't have the affection from that primary caregiver that you wanted to receive what need went unmet, at what age. And then we start to practice the memory integration technique, which is a series of questions, a sensory exercise, you meeting that younger version of yourself, going in and champion as the adult, breaking the contract of keeping you safe, because that's essentially what he is doing right now. Is he's keeping you safe from emotional connection? Because that's not, he's not used to that right, because he experienced non-emotional connection, emotional unavailability. That's where he feels safe. Like you said, this is all that I can give, because this is all that I was taught.
Nicole Harmony:The expansion isn't there, mm.
Josh Porthouse:Okay. Does this always have to happen with this process, with a coach, with a winning second party, or can support of another, of an emotional healer?
Nicole Harmony:Like. That's kind of how I found this work in the first place was in 2010. I worked with an emotional healer. She uncovered a memory that I had suppressed. I didn't even know it was there and it wasn't sexual abuse or anything like that. But I carried that belief of I'm not worthy, I'm not worthy of love, I'm not safe for 30 years or something like that. It was when I was eight years old. So I uncovered it when I was 35, 27 years later and it was stapled to every single relationship, every connection, every life decision that I made for the next 27 years.
Nicole Harmony:So for me personally, I feel like when it is the darkest of the spots, that it's almost like a blind spot and sometimes we can't see it without somebody else a skilled professional to help you see that and have the skillset. Now, as I am right now, I have the skill set and I have the support out there. But I also have the skill set myself that I can do, you know, emotional releases and things like that on my own. But I would say that the average person walking around on the street without some sort of deep work or introspective experience cannot process something like that. It's not just going to dissolve on its own because it's deeply rooted. It's almost like a weed that has grown such huge roots. A rainstorm is not going to come and wipe it away. Wash it away. Does that resonate?
Josh Porthouse:Yeah, yeah. Do you think maybe it's cultural and not just generational?
Nicole Harmony:Oh, definitely.
Josh Porthouse:I mean, that's gotten worse, yeah.
Nicole Harmony:Yeah.
Josh Porthouse:Because it gets reinforced and repeated. I mean inculcated, I think, is a better word.
Nicole Harmony:Yeah, absolutely my dad. He is a pastor's son. His dad or I think it was his grandfather was part of the church as well and so this was, but he wasn't. My dad wasn't, this was, but he wasn't. My dad wasn't, but he just wasn't. He gave to his church and not to his family. And even when I have the conversation with my dad, he still defends my grandfather and I have to tell him it was not okay for you to not feel, for you not to have a voice.
Nicole Harmony:I mean, I've had to do a little bit of work with my dad, just helping him integrate, you know, parts, those younger parts of himself, just to kind of give him a better life.
Nicole Harmony:You know, because the anxiety and the depression can be overwhelming, you know, when these parts are just out walking around. And to answer your question, to go back to, yeah, it's not just generational, it's definitely a cultural thing. And if you look at different cultures outside of, like the westernized cultures, I mean it can be even worse, you know. And the ones where they are, you know, the little boys are brought up to be men right away and they're not even allowed to have a childhood. You know, I would be interested to see these different cultures and how they are reacting and what level of anxiety and depression that they're experiencing, because they're still humans, even though they haven't been in the Westernized culture, they're still humans. Has anybody asked them? You know what they were experiencing not being able to have a childhood and having to start working in the rice field to the age of eight years old.
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Nicole Harmony:Has anybody asked them? You know what they were experiencing not being able to have a childhood and having to start working in the rice fields at the age of eight years old.
Josh Porthouse:Okay, well, let me try a different perspective then. So by rice fields I assume you mean more eastern hemisphere type cultures or rooted yeah, sort of agrarian type cultures. Right zero to eight years old, you just have to work because you got to survive right. So it's right, it is what it is. But so a childhood in that regard maybe just qualifies differently when the bias or the baseline is a westernized sort of more I don't know traditionally playful childhood uh where you have the luxury to be able to not worry about survival as often or at all.
Josh Porthouse:Yeah, but how do you think that stacks up to if we use a baseline and I'm not a psychiatrist, I'm not even a neurosurgeon but how do you think that stacks up against the sort of prevailing standard that, if your frontal lobe isn't really even fully developed until your mid-20s, that the majority of individuals that join first responder occupations in the Western Hemisphere, service members in the Department of Defense in the Western Hemisphere, albeit 17, 18 years old, are still learning how to embrace the world, find their place emotionally, respond to triggers, but conditioned to respond from a distanced, more ostracized position. Is it going?
Nicole Harmony:to be the same result. Are you talking about the two different cultures being within the military? I'm talking about two different age groups, two different age groups.
Josh Porthouse:So you're saying zero to eight not having a childhood, but theoretically 17, 18 years old is still young enough to not need to care in a Western hemisphere. So in a parallel concept, right, is there still the same degree of emotional detachment or unavailability then from adults that are experiencing this at 17 to 18 compared? To adults that are experiencing it zero to eight.
Nicole Harmony:Yeah, absolutely. I mean, you know, the zero to eight years old, that's just the, that's the baseline that the psychiatry, whatever neuroscience, um, uh, groupings, whatever, the, the division of created. So again, I don't like to speak in absolutes, but when you so, if you have the Eastern hemisphere, the zero to eight years old, and you don't have the childhood, and then you go into the military and the frontal lobe hasn point, so just going towards the military, let's just break that down for just a second. Again, the concussion is a little bit throwing me for a loop right now, but when you are 17 to 18 years old, I actually have a client that experienced severe trauma in the first years of the military as a man, and the distortions that he experienced in the military were very similar to things that he experienced in his childhood, and so I was able to help him connect the dots.
Nicole Harmony:When we have that baseline of zero eight years old, the brain will inevitably try to recreate scenarios to go back to that baseline and that that could be abuse, and so it's going to seek out scenarios, if you believe in this type of thing where we co create our reality, right, and thoughts become thoughts become things. And so if you are in a position and I know a lot of people are not going to agree with us but if you are in a position and I know a lot of people are not going to agree with this but if you are in a position where you're experiencing sexual or physical abuse, then I would bet the house, bet the farm on it, that you may have experienced sexual or physical abuse in your childhood.
Josh Porthouse:Okay, the farm on it that you may have experienced sexual and physical abuse in your childhood. Okay, well, gaining exposure, gaining experiences and just growing up, I think helps right, because then you start to learn other ways to perceive different events and other applications of whatever you just perceived, right? So what role do you think travel has on healing any of that or increasing a self-awareness around any of those traumas?
Nicole Harmony:that's a beautiful question because the travel, for me, has really healed a lot of my soul. Just being able to zoom out from the Western culture for me personally has been monumental, especially being over there during the election, this past election, and being able to witness what was going on within society that when you're here you're so indoctrinated and ingrained into it. But when you can zoom out and heal those parts of again the indoctrination that we are experiencing in the healthcare system, for example, being over there and being able to receive healthcare that would have possibly put you into bankruptcy in the United States, it's just a part of healing yourself being able to know that you don't have to follow every single other person. You have it within yourself to make your own decisions. You have it within yourself. Well, first of all, you have it within yourself to heal yourself.
Nicole Harmony:Everybody's like oh, I'm a healer, I'm a healer. No, I will never heal you. That is not my job. My job is to create and hold space for you to heal yourself, because you have it within you. I did five ayahuasca ceremonies. On my last ceremony last year, I told myself I do not need to do this anymore because I have it within me.
Nicole Harmony:The medicine is within me and I know that that kind of gets off the track of your question, but being able to travel and rediscover myself without the pitfalls and the, I just feel like as I'm sitting here trying to think, just the noise, the heaviness that we experience in the westernized culture Needing to be something, needing to be better than the next person, always having to be a human doing, not a human being, having to be a human, doing, not a human being and that is something that I learned how to do whenever I left the United States and was able to be when I was in Thailand. I remember it was my last time to be in the water because I got a cut on my foot and you can't go into the water when you have a cut on your foot because of the flesh. You need bacteria. So I was laying in the water and the salinity levels were so high in this water that you don't even have to, you don't even have to try to float, you just float effortlessly. And I was looking up at the beautiful blue sky against these green jungle, covered mountains with palm trees, and I was just like I don't have to do anything other than just float here in the water and I'm okay and it's not.
Nicole Harmony:I'm not, not, I'm not doing anything wrong by being here, but in the U? S or even Canada you know the UK, these other westernized cultures you would be looked at as lazy. You would be looked at as unmotivated. But over there it's different. Hmm.
Josh Porthouse:Is that why you chose to go over there?
Nicole Harmony:Yeah.
Josh Porthouse:Just for 180 degrees different exposure.
Nicole Harmony:Yeah, yep, because I did it for six months in Mexico and so that was kind of my real breakaway, not backpacking, I did that in Europe, but breakaway right after COVID and just live someplace else in another culture. And I was in kind of Mexico light. So I don't really count that. But I had this block of time and I'd always been fascinated with the Asian culture and just the beauty of Asia, southeast Asia, specifically. Bali, you know, was everybody's like I want to go to Bali, the secret of Bali, the love of Bali. He's like I want to go to Bali, the secret of Bali, the love of Bali, the whole yoga and meditation. And I got over there and I was like I do not see it. I see tourism, I see charlatans that are parading around as influencers that are trying to quote, unquote, heal people, and it was a huge turnoff. And so I went to Thailand and I found what I needed in Thailand and that's the reason I'm going back. I, you know, I've been back here for 10 days, 11 days now, and I'm like already booking my ticket back Cause I just, I just can't.
Nicole Harmony:I especially after being in this car accident I see how broken the medical system is and how much red tape we have had to go through, even though we have an attorney working for us. Just the red tape that we have to go through in order to get any kind of treatment. I'm like what is going on? We were injured four days ago going. What is going on? We were injured four days ago. Why are we having to walk around in pain just so you guys can get your ducks in a row and the red tape cleared? It's just crazy. And there you can go to a state of the art hospital, receive treatment right then and there. And it is a fraction of a cost over here. And then again the simple life over there, the cost of living. The doctors over there are not elite, they're just doctors. They have just studied the medical system, but they're not the elite of the country. They don't live in the million-dollar mansions and drive the fancy cars and go on the fancy trips.
Josh Porthouse:That's the westernized culture over here, all right, folks sit tight, We'll be right back on Transacting Value.
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Nicole Harmony:The doctors over there are not elite, they're just doctors. They have just studied the medical system, but they're not the elite of the country. They don't live in the million dollar mansions and drive the fancy cars and go on the fancy trips. That's the westernized culture over here. It's just crazy. It's very backwards.
Josh Porthouse:So yeah, Well, so we don't necessarily have any doctors when it comes to holistic healthcare, right, Obviously there's plenty of people that are licensed MDs and RNs and have all these certification things.
Josh Porthouse:I know RNs and have all these certifications and things. But to say holistic healthcare, I think implies a certain degree of integrity in the foundation, where it's wholesome, not specialized in most. So how do you view that? Maybe detriment, maybe detriment? How do you view that qualifier here in westernized culture where, if you apply it to, like I said earlier, service members, first responders or any type of psychographic here, if we can't find that kind of care because it's not covered by insurance or because it's not something that exists wherever we're at, what then are some options to work through those kinds of things?
Nicole Harmony:wherever we're at. What, then, are some options to work through those kinds of things? I mean, we do have the integrative healthcare. Obviously, you're going to have to pay out of pocket. I mean, I haven't gone to a Western doctor. This is the first time that I've had to go to one with the accident in years. You have to pay out of pocket. The insurance game that was the other thing that I had a problem with the other day is that the insurance game keeps you bounded to the healthcare system. Right, the revenue that they have created, the revenue stream that they have created. They are putting you into a place of fear, making you think that you need all of this coverage.
Nicole Harmony:When, if you do everything right with your body you eat healthy, you exercise, you process your emotions, you meditate daily then you're going to be healthy. You're not. You don't necessarily everybody's like oh no, you have heart disease and that's hereditary. Well, guess what? My dad had a quadruple bypass surgery five years ago. I went in for the heart scan or the calcium score scan a month after his surgery. Two months after his surgery, I had zero. So don't tell me that it's hereditary. Everything is reversible. The genetics loads the gun, but the lifestyle pulls the trigger. So to answer your question is to figure it out and don't allow a system that is there to put you, that is put into place to put you into fear and to keep you sick, to keep you down. Figure it out on your own. Start to pull back the curtain on the wizard, start to see beyond the veil, start to think for yourself instead of following what everybody else is doing. That's probably going to get me killed.
Josh Porthouse:Well, red pill, blue pill, you know. So, okay, there's, I think, something interesting. When you talked about co-creating a reality, which is essentially what you were just describing like taking ownership and accountability over your lifestyle, that, I think, is maybe underrated, or at least understated. That degree of ownership when it comes to aspects of masculinity throughout Westernized culture, or even femininity, I mean, it's really the same where each has their own sort of strongholds over what you do and don't discuss in public, I think it becomes sort of our responsibility, right? People like us, for example, that are willing to have these kinds of conversations and broadcast them to the public, for example, or putting it into a book, or putting it into a practice and helping other people come to some sort of closure and direction. I think that's just the responsibility that you adopted and volunteered to take on, but I think some of those things can be taught in the beginning. I mean, you mentioned everything's reversible, which then I think also implies everything could start differently as well. Yeah, right, so this is a segment of the show called developing character. D D D, developing character.
Josh Porthouse:And now it's two questions, but here's why. And now it's two questions, but here's why I think of all the things that any individual person has in common in the past, growing up in the future, who they become at present, who they are really, the only thing is their character, because you can't control all the other variables that might impact it. So I think the qualities that describe and ground our character, those values are. If we can start to identify what they are, what they were, what they're becoming, it's a lot easier to have a starting point, a common reference point maybe, to grow from. So my two questions are about your value system. One when you were growing up, what were some of the values that you were exposed to or that you remember learning as a child? My second question is then now, what are some of your values, if they've changed?
Nicole Harmony:Religion was very strong in my household, especially my dad coming from his religious background as a pastor's son. So we went to Sunday school and we went to church on Sunday. That was a value that was instilled greatly into us as children. Now, when I started to become a teenager, I was working all the time. I was working all the time. I was working in retail. So I slowly became disconnected from the church and then I became fully disconnected from it. Whenever I got into my teens and early twenties I moved to New York. I tried to go to um, to church there, but it wasn't until probably my 30s that I started seeing religion for what it was. And now I really see religion for what it is and I don't agree with it any longer. I don't identify with the division that has been created within the religious sectors. So that's one value that has dramatically shifted.
Nicole Harmony:The other values are, you know, just and these are also kind of trauma responses where you know don't make too much noise, be a good little girl. Well, that is suppressing what may or may not be comfortable for that little girl. I do know that there are some men in my parents' circle that sometimes spoke inappropriate as I look back, but I was always told to be a good little girl and I was also somewhat gaslighted sometimes. Oh no, you're crazy. They're not thinking that. And I'm like guess what If I? Now I know I'm like if, and I and I definitely speak my voice now, use my voice.
Nicole Harmony:Now that you don't get to tell somebody how they feel because that's how they feel. So you don't get to say that they don't. All you get to say is I'm sorry if I made you feel that way. That was not my intention. Or if I did make you feel that way, I did not mean to. How can I make it better? Not, I didn't make you feel that way. You're crazy. That's like gaslighting 101. So that's another value Always be kind to others. Again, another trauma response. Yes, we should be kind to others, but we should also have boundaries set in place for us.
Josh Porthouse:Oh, I see.
Nicole Harmony:Because if we're people pleasing all the time, right, then that's we're pouring from an empty cup and we need to. We need to still nurse ourselves. So it's interesting how the values that I was given, at face value, they look like every other value that's given to. You know, the the American family, right. But if you take a step back, you see that if context is not included into the value, how they can be interpreted as being suppressing and again having, you know that trauma attached to it. I don't know if that answers your questions or not.
Josh Porthouse:Well, yeah, and you also brought up an interesting point too, where you mentioned about being kind and then compared it essentially to lacking boundaries, because there's got to be everything sort of in moderation. That I guess I hadn't considered before because I sort of always considered kindness with, I don't know, maybe just helping other people or some degree of empathy or sympathy maybe, yeah, yeah, but I never attributed it with boundaries, taking care of yourself first. And so then I guess, really, for the sake of time, I only have maybe three other questions, and this next one is based on that fact being kind and boundaries Occupationally again, since we've been talking about it, let's stick with, say, first responders and service members as an industry. Occupationally being kind actually directly means self-sacrifice, because it's your industry, that's the whole point of the duty and service you're providing, right, right.
Josh Porthouse:But so what about the boundaries then, that you can't control? Because you have to fill your mission set, you have to fill your occupation, you have to provide a service, and so you don't have the luxury oftentimes to say you know what? I need to stop for lunch, I can't take that next patient, or I need to go to the bathroom. I can't take that next patient or I need to go to the bathroom. I can't go check on that patient right now. What, then? How do we harmonize, necessarily lacking boundaries and still maintaining being kind as a value system, if that's something we hold pretty close?
Nicole Harmony:And that's interesting that you say that you know there are so many nurses that suffer from chronic kidney infections because they haven't been able to urinate, they haven't been able to pee for hours, and that's so.
Nicole Harmony:That's not a that's not a boundary system, that's a broken healthcare system, because you should not have so many patients on your workload that in so little support that you cannot go pee. That is the craziest thing I've ever heard in my life Out of all of the people that are involved in healthcare and the amount of billions of dollars, trillions of dollars of revenue that it generates. And you can't hire an extra nurse or somebody that is able to allow you the relief so you can sit down and have a meal and you can sit down and go to the bathroom without having to worry about it. First of all, the energy exchange comes into play. If you have a nurse that is burned out, can't pee, has a chronic kidney infection, goes in and serves her patient, what kind of energy is she going to be giving off to that patient? Probably not positive energy, right?
Nicole Harmony:Because she's got a bunch of gunk inside of her. It's just like with the surgeons that stand up for 18 hours or whatever it is and they don't have, and then they make mistakes. We should not be sacrificing the patient's well-being and the energy that they're trying to gather to heal their bodies by putting the so-called experts and professionals in there that they're not even able to be healed wholesome, whole people themselves. Right, I guess it's a broken system, if anything. So it's not a boundaries issue. Now, yeah, the boundaries do come in, but are you able to say no, I can't, for fear that you lose your job? I mean.
Nicole Harmony:So again, it's, you can set the boundaries, the system's broken. So until we repair the system, then it doesn't matter how many boundaries you have, and that's why a lot of people quit. That's why a lot of people left the healthcare system during COVID because of what had occurred. I mean, everybody says it was because they didn't want to be vaxxed. No, they were burned out and they couldn't even think for themselves and they didn't have any time for themselves anymore. That's when they set the boundary.
Josh Porthouse:Yeah, absolutely. And then the toll that it takes on their families, or second, third order sort of ripples as an effect of that Exactly. I mean, at the risk of stating the obvious here, I got to ask all of these experiences that you've had, these ceremonies, your travels at this point, all different directions around the world, and then the experiences of working with different clients, and then just your own life, what has all of this actually done to instigate your own self-worth now, in hindsight, compared to who you were? that years ago.
Nicole Harmony:Oh my gosh, I have never been so much in love with myself. I'm so proud of what I have been able to accomplish in the past 10 years. To look at myself in the mirror is a completely different experience than it was five years ago. I can look at myself in the mirror and be proud of the reflection that's looking back at me. I don't know if a lot of people can say that truthfully, like really looking at yourself in the mirror, looking at your eyes and the soul that you have become and evolved to. And that's the evolution that I've experienced and one reason why I continue to travel, because each leg that I travel gives that experience back to my clients.
Nicole Harmony:And even though, yeah, I do love myself, I love my clients, I love what I do, I hope I never have to not do it Like I'm not working towards being able to have my business run automatically you know, be automated. I don't ever want to do that. I always want to be on the receiving end of being able to serve my clients. Nice Well, that alone is powerful. So congratulations, because I agree with you.
Josh Porthouse:I don't think it's very common of being able to serve my clients Great. Well, that alone is powerful. So congratulations, because I agree with you, I don't think it's very common, unfortunately. So the fact that you were able to find some, on one hand, contentment and, on the other hand, degree of success in it, that you can sustain it, I think, says a lot. So yeah, absolutely Congratulations.
Nicole Harmony:Thank you.
Josh Porthouse:Of course. My last question, then of all the things that you have done, if anybody wants to become a client or wants to follow along with your journey or any future blogs, or merchandise or books, or whatever your travels become in the future, where do people go?
Nicole Harmony:NicoleHarmonycom. That has every single thing on there. I'm sure the link will be in the show notes, but it's N-I-C-O-L-E-H-A-R-M-O-N-Ycom. There's a couple of freebies that you can download. You can book one-off sessions if you so desire. You can book a free session with me to see how I may support you and give you the different offerings that I have. At that moment. I do Akashic Records readings as well.
Nicole Harmony:This is something that I just introduced, that's new within the last six months. I believe into my practice and, yeah, the memory integration technique is about to blow up into a global type of way. I have been kind of holding it close to me for the last two years, just making sure that the results that I was seeing were going to be sustainable and um, repetitive, and they have been um each time that I allow um that space create and allow that space for my client to heal, specifically with memory integration technique. It's 100% effective and I've never I've never seen anything like it. I've curated it over different things that I've learned and things that have just been downloaded to me via source, if you believe in that kind of thing and um. But it's time for other practitioners to learn the technique so I can bring it global. That way, more and more people can heal. So of course, this is in the process right now.
Josh Porthouse:That'd be cool, all right, well, so, first off, nicole, you're exactly right To anybody who's new to the show, if you click see more or show more, depending on the player, you're streaming this conversation on. In the drop down description for this conversation you will see links to NicoleHarmonycom and you'll be able to find some information there, which is a pretty sweet opportunity from the sounds of it, because everybody's then getting in on the ground floor before this explodes. So that's pretty exciting. Also, nicole, just for your own edification, if you're interested, we have a lady who, uh, at the time of this recording, hasn't aired yet, but we've already spoken and she'll be on next season with this conversation as well.
Josh Porthouse:Um, her name is Janelle Klassen. She wrote a book called nursing the nurse and that's exactly what she talks about. Uh, she's out in Australia. Uh, we've also had a guy come on the show. His name's Novin JC. He's actually in, or splits his time between, indonesia and LA, and his entire focus is flow state and what it's done for him in movie production and the entertainment industry here in the States and then what it's done for him in his own sort of private and personal life in Indonesia, and I think there's a lot of interesting overlap that you've just described that you may find some resonance there as well.
Nicole Harmony:Yeah, I can't wait to listen to those episodes. I actually spent 17 years in the film industry, so I'll be curious to listen to his yeah, yeah.
Josh Porthouse:Yeah.
Nicole Harmony:That's actually what got me sick was the film industry.
Nicole Harmony:Oh, so the workload burnout the workload, um, just not ever being right in your job like you were never. You were never right. Everything was always wrong. Um, it was you. It was never a good job. Something was always needed. Um, and then talk about not being able to sit down and eat or go to the bathroom. Yeah, 16 to 18 hour days of having to shovel food into your mouth for like 15 minutes and run. I was in wardrobe and then I would have to run and go get the talent dress so the crew that was getting done could go back to set and everything was ready to go. Yeah, it was. It was always, always, always about the budget of all mighty dollar over time?
Josh Porthouse:yeah, it was a lot here in the future. Come back and we'll talk about how it applies to the entertainment industry. I think that could be its own separate conversation entirely. So that'd be pretty sweet. But for right now, since we are out of time, I appreciate you making it and coming on and just talking for a little while, especially right now around dinner time. So, first of all, thanks for your time, your insight, your vulnerability and your ability to explain it too, I think, helps because it's not super spiritual and out of reach. It's still grounded enough to make sense and have a practical application. So I appreciate the opportunity.
Nicole Harmony:Thank you so much, Josh. This has been an honor. I really appreciate you. Thank you so much.
Josh Porthouse:Well, thanks for saying that, and to everybody else who's been watching this conversation or follow along with any of our other conversations. Thank you, guys, for coming back and tuning into the show. If you want to hear more of our conversations, head to our website transactingvaluepodcastcom. Here's the cool thing on the homepage In addition to finding links to all of our other conversations in the episodes tab, there's a button on the top right corner that says leave a voicemail. Click on it. You get two minutes of talk time all to yourself.
Josh Porthouse:Here's my recommendation for what you can do with it. One, let us know what you think of the show. Let us know what you think about the questions, my hosting style, the guests, the topics, the flow of the show, the flow of the conversation, anything and all the above. That'd be great and I'd appreciate it. I know my team would as well.
Josh Porthouse:But secondly, tell Nicole what you think about this conversation. Tell Nicole what you think about her practice, what you think about her background, what you think about what she's doing with it. Give her some resources, give her some love. Let her know things that maybe she's unaware of, that she can incorporate, just like she was talking about her memory technique, helping other people in the future as well, and then we'll forward that audio file onto Nicole or get you guys in touch if that's what you want as well. Get you guys in touch if that's what you want as well. I really, really genuinely appreciate having some time to talk to you about this conversation and, again, I think it's pretty underrated, so I'd love to have you come back and do something similar again.
Nicole Harmony:Yeah, I would love to Thank you.
Josh Porthouse:Absolutely, but for right now, till next time. That was Transacting Value. Thank you to our show partners and folks. Thank you for tuning in and appreciating our value. As that was TransactingValuePodcastcom, we also stream new episodes every Monday at 9 am Eastern Standard Time through all of your favorite podcasting platforms like Spotify, iheart and TuneIn. You can now hear Transacting Value on Reads Across America Radio, eastern Standard Time. Wednesdays at 5 pm, sundays at noon and Thursdays at 1 am. Head to ReadsAcrossAmericaorg. Slash transacting value to sponsor a wreath and remember, honor and teach the value of freedom for future generations. On behalf of our team and our global ambassadors, as you all strive to establish clarity and purpose, ensure social tranquility and secure the blessings of liberty or individual sovereignty of character for yourselves and your posterity, we will continue instigating self-worth and we'll meet you there. Until next time. That was Transacting Value.
