My Disobedience Is No Longer Cute To God.

There comes a point in your life…

where doing what you want is no longer an option.

Where God stops whispering…
and starts shifting everything around you.

In this raw and unfiltered solo episode, Jenelle Simpson shares what it means to step into a season of true obedience, even when it hurts.

This is not just about faith.

This is about:
– Letting go of people you love
– Grieving relationships that no longer align
– Releasing control
– Trusting God when nothing feels comfortable
– And understanding why elevation requires separation

Because obedience doesn’t feel good at first.

It feels like:
Loss.
Discomfort.
Loneliness.
Uncertainty.

But on the other side of obedience…
is alignment, clarity, and purpose.

If you’re in a season where things are shifting, relationships are changing, and you feel like God is forcing you to move differently…

This episode is for you.



💬 Reflect with me:
Where are you being disobedient?
What are you holding onto that God told you to release?

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Transcript

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Hello guys, welcome back to Lice to Seat, Season 4, Legacy by Choice, Chosen, Not Inherited. I'm your host Jen Simpson. I hope you're having a beautiful morning, afternoon, night, wherever you are in the world. Welcome, welcome, welcome, welcome. If you are new to this channel, please do your girl a favor and hit the subscribe button, give me a like, or simply leave me a comment. There's something deep, really deep, that I need to say to you guys. However, I am not going to whisper it, I'm not going to say it calmly, and I'm certainly not going to dress it up in a pretty box or cute dress for you. After my conversation with Keisha Blair last week, I remember after my husband died, Jen, and I had two young babies.

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One was eight weeks old, one was three years old. And I said, I have to live for them. I have to figure out a way to live for them. Because a lot of people burn themselves out so much that they would not be able to do this work. Some of them die. You just hear, oh, you know, that guy at work, he just had a heart attack. That one had a stroke. That one had an aneurysm. That's all you're hearing about now. They die.

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If you haven't had a chance to watch or listen to that episode, this is probably a really good time for you to pause this video. Pause this conversation. Go and listen to last week's episode with Keisha Blair, because that conversation was necessary. That conversation is essential to what we are about to talk about today. However, if you choose to watch this first and later go and visit that video, that's okay too. You won't be missing out. You won't miss out on anything because this conversation will fit right into that one. That conversation made me take a step back. I had to take a moment and sit with myself, my emotions, my feelings, my intuition. Because what she said didn't just sound and feel good. It hit me. It hit me real deep. It exposed something. It exposed me. And I'm in a season right now where my disobedience is no longer cute to God. God is no longer saying, Oh, look at my cute little daughter trying to run around and hide from me. And I need you to hear this and hear it loud. Because for a long time we get and we are too comfortable doing what we want to do while still asking God, hey, God bless me. God, you said do this, but I'm not gonna do it. I still want you to bless me. Do the things that I need you to do, but I'm not gonna do anything for you. And that season ended. It ends. There comes a time, a point in your life where God will put you in situations where you don't have options anymore. No more options. He is your only option. You don't get to go left when he said go right. You don't get to hold on when he said let go, release, give it to him. You don't get to negotiate your disobedience, your disobedience. You don't get to this, you don't get to say to him, Well, I'm gonna be obedient in this, but not that. One of the most powerful things in that conversation with Keisha was grief. And not just grief, not just the grief of losing someone to death, but grief of losing people while you're still alive, while you're still living in the same neighborhood with them. They're down the street, they're not too far, 30 minutes, five minutes away from you. Because let me tell you something. Grief isn't just about, hey, this person passed away and they're no longer physically here. Grief is letting go of people you thought would be in your life and go on the journey with you to your next seasons, your elevation, a new job, a new business, kids, marriage, outgrowing environments, releasing relationships that no longer align, that no longer sharpen you, that no longer make you feel good, becoming someone your old circle can't access anymore. And that grief, that grief hurts just as much as losing somebody physically. And I'm going to say something that a lot of us don't want to admit, don't want to say it, say out loud, don't want to accept. Elevation requires separation. And that separation is painful. We see it all over. Oh, in order to elevate, we gotta let go of some people. But do we really understand that? Understand that concept? Because sometimes the people you have, you must let go of are the people you love. You love deeply and dearly. You've built history with them, memories, created things with them, you've invested with them, energy, time, loyalty, even businesses. But they are not aligned with where God is taking you. And holding on to them is disobedience. We gotta listen to what God tells us to do and follow the directions. Keisha said something that confirmed it for me. She said, When you listen to God, he will guide you into purpose. When you listen to God, he will guide you into purpose. But what we don't talk about enough is when you don't listen, he will force the lesson. And that's the season I'm in right now where God is no longer whispering and gently telling me to do things. And I have no choice, no option, no other dance around, run around the circle like I'm a mouse, but to be obedient, but to obey. That's my only option. Now let's go into something real. Trying to build something while grieving is one of the hardest things you will ever do. The hardest things you will ever experience in your life. And if you've ever experienced it, you know what I'm talking about. And it's hard because you're losing people that you want to take with you. Letting go of the version of yourself that you're familiar with. People are familiar with it. People are okay with that version of you, and you don't want to lose anybody, so you stay okay with that version. Being stretched emotionally, still expected to show up, still expected to lead, still expected to build. And nobody talks about that part. How hard it is, how painful it can be. Another thing is how much we try to control things. We try to hold everything, hold people, hold material things, control how things are being laid out in our life, planted the seeds. We try to control the outcomes, we try to control the people, we try to control the timing, God's timing, control how things unfold. But the truth is, the hard truth is, we're trying to control things we were never meant to control, we're never meant to have our hands in. And God is like, let it go, let it be, let me be, give me space to move in your life. Because obedience requires trust. We gotta trust God. And this is the part people truly miss. I missed it because obedience doesn't feel good at first, it feels like loss, discomfort, uncertainty, loneliness, you feel like you're breaking, you don't know where to turn, you don't know who to call. But what Keisha, what Keisha's story showed, and what I'm living right now, living proof, living proof, is that there is beauty on the other side of obedience. Because when you obey, when you follow the instructions that God has given you, when you follow the roadmap that He laid out for you, you align with your purpose, you make space, you make room for the right people to enter in, you stop carrying what was never yours, and then you begin to see God move in ways you couldn't force. So I want to leave this with you. I just want you to think about this. I want you to ask yourself these questions. Where am I being disobedient? Think about it. Write it down and be honest with yourself. What am I holding on to that God told me to release? You know that thing He's been telling you to release for years, months. Who still has access to me that shouldn't make your list, write those names down? And am I delaying my own elevation because I refuse to let go of the things that I know I shouldn't. God told me to let go. This season I'm in is not comfortable, it doesn't feel good all the time. Sometimes painful, tears flow, but it's necessary because I'm continuing to learn more and more and understand deeper that obedience is not punishment, it's for my own good, it's preparation, and if you're in that same space, that same season of your life, trust it. Don't deny yourself of what God has for you. Even when it hurts and it feels painful, obedience is greater than you can ever imagine. Trust the things that God is trying to bring you to, even though you cannot see the vision, you can't see the road clear, you can't see how it makes sense right now, you can't see how letting go of people that you've known for years, people that you've been friends with for years, people that you've had relationships for years, people that you've grown, people that you've gone through situations with, you've experienced life with, people you've even grown with. You can't see how releasing them makes sense. You keep replaying in your head that maybe you're wrong, maybe that's not what God's telling you to do, and you're second-guessing what you're actually supposed to do. In those moments, you need to get quiet. In those moments, you need to learn how to fast. Your fast doesn't have to be something major with food. Your fast can be you, for example, if you know that you're always on your phone and you're watching something that is negative, it could be a show. You're always watching shows instead of praying, instead of worshiping, instead of focusing on yourself and pouring back into yourself. Turn off the TV for a week. Turn off social media, give social media a break. Your fast can be as short as three days, five days, seven days, 21 days. Get rid of a food that you love if you know that you have a sweet tooth like me and you love chocolate, you love candy. It could be pop, it could be a show, it could be something you love to do that you can't see yourself separating yourself from. Fast from that. If it's always being available for people, you're always picking up the phone and you're pouring into them and you have nothing for yourself, you're empty. Text them and be like, hey, you know what? I'm fasting, and this is what my fast is. So I won't be available right now, and I won't be available for such period. You have to align yourself where you can go silent, turn off the noise so you can hear God and the things that He's trying to tell you, so you don't confuse the voices and think that it's yourself and maybe your insecurities and your imposter syndrome or the devil that's telling you things that's not really real. But you gotta turn off the noise so you can hear what God has to say to you and the things that He's trying to direct you to do, so you can see the roadmap, so you can stop getting lost in those voices. But I can tell you this from my own experiences, and I'll give you this quickly being disobedient, playing cat and mouse with God and saying, Oh, I'm gonna hide here, oh, I'm gonna run here. Oh, I that's not for me. Oh, psych. No, that cost me a lot. It delayed things that God wanted me to receive in a certain period, season in my life because I didn't think I was worthy of it. I didn't want people to be uncomfortable being around me and my calling and my purpose and the gift things that I have. I wanted people to be okay with me. I wanted to be that person that people are just happy with till I didn't even realize, hey, Jen, you are a people pleaser. And listen, people pleaser, the definition that we see all over people have given so many different definitions for people pleasing. People pleasing is many different things. That's for sure what I know, because I would swear blind, I'm not a people pleaser. I'm not a people pleaser, but I was a people pleaser because I was that person, even if I wasn't at the capacity, I didn't have the capacity to do something, or I wasn't physically feeling well. I was tired, I was burnt out, just wanted to be at home and just Netflix and chill. I was saying yes to doing things I didn't want to do. I was going places I didn't want to go to to make other people happy with me, to make people comfortable with me, to make sure that they still liked me, to make sure that they were okay with me and said, Oh, Jen is my girl. Until I learned that I couldn't keep doing those things. I had to do things that pleased me. And it was no hate towards you or no love loss. I just didn't want to do that. And if you don't want to do something, your people that are there for you, your people that are in your circle, should understand that nothing should feel forced in your relationships. I was so disobedient to God that when God would give me what I asked for, I was just talking to somebody, and I'll give you this quickly too, where we all pray for it. I don't know if you guys ever prayed, and like when you're praying, you said, God, give me the spirit of discernment. God show me things before they arrive, and then show me how to handle it. God, give me that spirit of discernment that I can see things that are coming my way before it happens. God, show me the people that I need to see that are for me and not for me, and remove the people that aren't for me so I can receive the people that are for me, that's supposed to sharpen me, and I'm supposed to sharpen them and I'm gonna align with. We pray those prayers and we don't realize when God is giving it to us, we push it back. You ever find yourself in a situation where God's given you dreams, he's laid out things to you about somebody, he's like, this is who this person is. Let that person go. But we want to coddle that person and say, mm-mm, that's not true about that person. It could be our subconscious mind that's telling us something wrong, or the devil that's trying to break up the relationship. When we ask for the spirit of discernment, we ask God to show us things, we ask God to reveal things to us, and then he reveals it to us, and we're second-guessing it, saying, No, God, that couldn't be it when it was it. Sometimes we pray for things and when God gives it to us in God's way, in God's form, in God's timing, and the way that He wants us to receive it, we don't want it, we reject it. A lot of us have that spirit of discernment, but we keep praying for it because we haven't shut off the noise to realize that we have the spirit of discernment already, and we need to start taking the things that God has given us and showed us and follow his voice, obey what he told us to do. I found myself in situations where I've asked God to reveal things to me, show me people for who they are, and God will show it to me. And because I loved the person so much and I wanted that person to do good, I wanted that person to grow, that I wasn't paying attention to what God showed me. I no longer was being disobedient, I was being disobedient. He showed me, he revealed it to me, and he was trying to protect me. And funny enough, he showed me exactly what was going to happen if I kept the person in my life and I didn't listen. But God always knows what we're gonna do before we do it, and he would show me, he would even let the person say it to me, but then not realize that they're saying it to me. And God will say, See, how much more can I show you? Stop making excuses and do what I asked you to do. And it cost me, it cost me myself, it cost me the things that God wanted me to do in a certain timing, but he didn't take it away from me because he still gave it to me once I let go of the people he told me to let go of. We have to be this, we have to be obedient to the things that he says to do. It cost me things will cost you if you do not listen to what God is telling you to do. Let go of those things, let go of those people, release those things out of your system, forgive, heal, take the time that you need. It will cost you. It cost me me. I kept second guessing who I was, who God called me to be, because I kept people in my life who didn't value me. The moment I let go and trusted God. Ooh, we aligned with the people that I needed. He reminded me of who I am. I'm a good person, I'm an amazing person, I'm phenomenal, I'm love, I'm smart, I'm brilliant, I'm powerful, I'm an entrepreneur, I'm a leader, I'm a creator, I'm a legacy builder, I'm a generational breaker, and I'm a generational builder. But when you have the wrong people in your life, you cannot see that. You need to have the right people in your life, and we gotta go through seasons where yes, we've had friendship for 20 years. And yes, you experience certain things, but not everybody can go with you. Sometimes we gotta grief people so we can now step into that season and meet those people who will help us, our help makers that will help us get to the level that we need. That company that you're planning to build, that company that you are planning to build and you have been manifesting for years, God needs you to let go of those people so that He can align you with the people that are going to help you build that business, turn it into that million-dollar business that it needs to be in. Because sometimes when we're around certain crowds and you know, people love to say, Oh, I've been with the same friends for 20 odd years, da da da. And you don't realize that those same friends that you're with for 20, 20 odd years didn't add nothing to you, didn't pour into you. So the flowers that God has, they can't bloom, those seeds that he's been planting in you for years, you haven't learned how to nurture them and water them because you haven't shifted when he told you to shift. It's time to shift. Stop holding on to things and people that God is asking you to let go of. It's time to let go and release, and that is something painful because when you love somebody, you want them to be the best and do the best and heal, and you want to take them on the journey with you. However, not everybody is your assignment. God can only change people, not everybody's an assignment. Sometimes we're only meant to plant a seed and then go and let God do the rest. Sometimes we enter people's lives just to plant a seed, just to give them a word, and that is it, and that's okay. I'm not saying that when you are separating yourself from people, you have to be mean and say mean things to them, and it has to be animosity and hate. No. It's just you know that that season has ended. You can still show love, check in, but you have to listen. You have to go quiet so you can hear what God wants you to do because everything that we go through in life will never be the same. My experience is the things that God told me to do won't be the same as what He's telling you to do. You're in a season in your life where you cannot lose the things that God has for you. You cannot delay it, and it's not supposed to be postponed unless God wants it to be delayed and postponed, and you have to be able to understand the difference. Is it God or is it me that's causing these delays? And you have to be real with yourself. You have to keep it real with yourself, be honest, be truthful. I almost lost myself, staying attached to the people that God wanted me to only plant a seed in and then let go. Do not delay the things that God has for you because you refuse to be obedient. Stop playing cat and mouse. We're not playing cat and mouse with God anymore. Because God doesn't find it cute or funny. He is your only option. He was my only option. He still is my only option. Next episode, I have something so great for you guys that I want you to listen to. Because we're going to continue this conversation. Because being obedient is easy. It's easy to say it. Oh, I'm going to be obedient. But what does it look like? What does it take? What will it cost you to be obedient? Who will it cost you? Losing and grieving friendships and relationships is not easy. It's painful. It's very painful. And we're going to go through that. Because I feel like a lot of us are in that season where we know we have to let go of certain people, but it's hard. It's not going to be easy. But you and I together are going to grow. We're going to elevate. We're going to stop playing with God and dancing around. I hope to see you next week. Thanks for tuning in with me today. Please don't forget to hit the subscribe button, turn on your notification bells, leave me a comment. If you don't want to leave a comment, just hit the like button and share this episode with someone that you know deep in your heart needs this message. Until next time, I'm Jen Simpson. What you choose today becomes the legacy you pass on.