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When Nobody Sees You: Finding Your Voice After High School Rejection
Remember that crushing feeling of not belonging? That's what my high school years felt like—every single day. Standing at just 4'10" and weighing 98 pounds, I'd schlep my heavy art portfolio on the D train to a school I never wanted to attend, desperately hoping someone would see me.
My mother forced me to attend the High School of Art and Design despite my acceptance into a performing arts school. "You could always be an actor, but you'll be an actor who pays," she insisted. Meanwhile, my handsome brother was the "big man on campus" while I remained invisible. I perfected sneaky tactics like manipulating thermometers to fake fevers and escape school early. When a senior boy finally showed interest in me, it was only because "he liked very skinny girls"—and his girlfriend quickly warned me to stay away.
The pain of those years still feels fresh—I never attended my prom (though I pretended I did), threw out my yearbook, and endured disastrous computer dates that ranged from inappropriate comments to a literal car crash. Without guidance counselors or understanding parents, I navigated those turbulent years completely alone.
That's why I now reach out to teenagers struggling through similar experiences. You're not alone, and high school doesn't define you. Whether you're questioning your identity, dealing with rejection, or simply feeling lost in the social hierarchy, TikTok Bubby is here to listen. Life gets so much better afterward—I promise. If you're gay, trans, lesbian, drag, bi, or just feeling misunderstood, know that I accept you completely for who you are. Message me anytime, and remember: if nobody told you they love you today, I love you because you're you.
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morning bitches and doll. If no one told you they love you today, then I love you because you're you and I love you. Is it your tiktok bub on the morning bitches podcast? I almost forgot the name of it. Well, I'm trying to go live every week on my podcast again and talk about what's going on and what's happening in my life, and I just thought I would, you know, talk about high school today. Okay, if that's okay with everybody.
Speaker 1:I don't know if everybody went to high school, but I sure did, and I'm going to say this flat out, up front, right away I hated high school. Hey, hey, hey, hey, hated. So I was forced to go to the high school of art and design by my mother. I was an actor or I want to be actor when I was a kid and I got into performing arts, which was a special school for actors, and my mother pushed me into art and design. Oh, you could always be an actor, but you'll be an actor who pays. I threw out my yearbook. So if anybody has 1965 from the High School of Art and Design with my picture, you'll see it says something like oh, an artist with an acting thing or an acting thing with an artist. I don't know If you have it, send me a picture. You know my email Mark anyone at Gmail is this email for my podcast. But I hated high school. Hated it because, number one I was forced to go to that high school and you know, when you're a kid, especially in your teenage years, everything is upside down, inside out and all around. And you know, my life was not a great life during those teenage years. It was a terrible life. My father was around some of the time, he wasn't out, maybe in jail, wherever, and my mother worked all the time. And so I, you know, went to high school every day carrying that schlep in that gigantic portfolio that we had to bring every day, taking the D train to 57th Street and walking, you know, three long blocks. There's an airplane. We now live in the airplane, you know wherever, whatever it's called, I don't edit, so I'm not an editor.
Speaker 1:I can talk on this, but I don't edit. I don't know how to edit. And guess what? I applaud you editors, but I'm not a good editor. Okay, anyway.
Speaker 1:So you know schlepping, walking down the block with a heavy goddamn portfolio with all the artwork, and so, of course, when I went to high school I was a late bloomer. I didn't have a period, so I didn't develop a body, so I was like flat-chested skinny. I think I was 98 pounds when I went in, 4'10". Well, I'm almost 4'10 now, shrinking, but I'm not 98 pounds. I think I'm about 125 now.
Speaker 1:So, anyway, so I went to that high school and, oh God, it was just like I was not popular. You know, when you're a little person like me, like I am today, still you have a bigger personality because there goes another plane from Burbank Air Force, I'm sure you all could hear it. Anyway, you have to stand out in some way because you know you want to be liked. I desperately wanted to be liked. I wanted, you know, the emotional connection. I wanted a boyfriend. I wanted all these things in high school, you know, and I did a lot of plays in high school because that's the only way that I could get any kind of art. You know, thing that worked for me and like you know what I mean by art is that you know singing, acting, but I hated high school.
Speaker 1:Okay, so then you take the subway home and sometimes I would sneak out, and the way I did it was we had a nurse. If you weren't feeling well, they send you to the nurse. One of my old tricks was to take the thermometer. If you were over 100, they let you go home the thermometer. I'd shake it the other way and then the thermometer would go and they would you know. Then I would get home and I remember one time I was like helping a couple of girls do would get home and I remember one time I was like helping a couple of girls do the same thing and I thought we would all hang out. Well, they blew me off, they don't want to hang out with me, they just wanted to know how to get out of school. Hello, anyway, so I love.
Speaker 1:So if you're a kid in high school today and you don't have anybody to talk to, you know and you want to relate to somebody and you need help. I'm around. You know TikTok Bubby is around and could always talk to you. And I know on my TikTok account I get a lot of teenage girls that reach out to me because I can relate to you when you're not like. You know the idea of look at me, I'm Sandra Dee. You know real pretty or Gidget, or one of those characters. You know you're you. And who is that? You know you have a mother who doesn't like you.
Speaker 1:Your brother, my brother, god rest his soul. He was the big man on campus. He was very handsome. A lot of girls wanted him girls and women, hello, but not me. I didn't have anybody that you know was interested in. Well then, one guy named Roger. I remember, like when I was in 10th grade and he was in 12th. He was a senior, I think. He liked very skinny girls, which is why he liked me. He was a senior, I think. He liked very skinny girls, which is why he liked me. He had a girlfriend and then her friends came over and said you stay away from Roger, ok, I mean, I'm not the one chasing after Roger, he's chasing after. I felt so good, a senior was interested in me.
Speaker 1:I didn't even go to my prom. You know I did not. I pretended like I went to my prom because I really wanted to go to the prom, okay, and I did date somebody in my last year of high school. He would live down the block, he was very cute, gorgeous, and I thought we would go to the prom together. But he lost interest in me because, you know, I wouldn't put out. As we used to say back then, I don't know what I was going to put out. I don't know what I was supposed to put out. So high school was not a happy time for me. Okay, I just wanted a boyfriend. That's all I wanted in high school. That was my dream. A boyfriend I could have danced all night. A boyfriend I could have danced all night. I didn't have a boyfriend in high school.
Speaker 1:So my senior year of high school, all of a sudden my body began to change and I started looking really cute and stuff. And that was the first year that they had dating with cue cards. You know you would like write in and tell them all your likes and dislikes. You know that of the person that you were interested in. You know computer dating they used to call it and they were like those cards that you put into the computer.
Speaker 1:Anyway, I think I had two or three dates. One was a guy that when he came in he rings the bell. The first thing he says to me is boy, if I could whistle I would Forget him. The second one was like a guy who had a car. Hey, babe, I got my car, let's go, and dad's car, so we're going to go out and have a good old time. And then the third one was like he took me to Nathan's on Long Island with a bunch of other people. We got into a car crash. I was the only one in that car that laughed.
Speaker 1:I don't know, I guess I was very brave. Everybody else was crying and stuff, not me. I was laughing. Anyway, I guess I was so happy that somebody was taking me out and we were all going and we were having a lot of fun. So wow, but I just am bringing up high school because I hated high school. I mean, if you hate high school and if there's nobody to talk to, because there was nobody to talk to when I was growing up in high school, not one person was there to talk.
Speaker 1:I couldn't talk to my mother because my mother was a very popular girl when she was young. She was beautiful, she was blonde, I was a brunette, she was a beautiful blonde and she was very opulent. She was very into sports. Forget it, I was never into sports. My brother was into sports but I was not. So, mother, you know, and I had nothing to. There really wasn't anybody to talk to about anything. You know, there wasn't anything as counseling, guidance, counselor what do they do? Oh, where do you want to go to college? Mother pushed me like I'm going to go to Pratt, you know. So, boyfriend, was my goal, that was it.
Speaker 1:So you know, high school was not a big thing for me. So I understand if it's not your thing, if you don't like high school. I had no clique of friends either. You know, a lot of times you have a clique of friends. I did not. I had one friend who lived around the corner, linda Mizaki. She says that if she's married happily I hope I know she is married because you know her son is an artist as well. But that was me in high school. I hated high school. So that was me in high school. I hated high school. So that was the bottom line for me. So if you hate high school, I can relate, okay, especially having to take the trains all the time and schlep the portfolio, you know. Eventually, you know, my career became whatever the career was it wasn't, wasn't. Teaching became more important to me. It wasn't a man, you know, I don't know what it was in the 70s for me. So I understand.
Speaker 1:And if you want to talk to TikTok Bubby, about the fact that you have a problem and you hate high school. You don't like it, it's not your thing. You can reach out to me you know TikTok Bubby and message me and we'll talk. Can we talk? I can talk to you about anything and hopefully I can guide you. You know and your fears A lot of things are different now, but they're also the same. Okay, kids. And, by the way, if nobody told you they love you today, I love you because you're you. Who else are you going to be but yourself? If you're gay and gay people loved me in high school, that was my salvation. You're gay, trans, lesbian, drag bi, whatever you are, I'm around for you because I accept you for who you are. Happy Tuesday, bye.