guys, here we go. Uh, what the unstoppable. With my wife and I and I kind of blundered that bit howdy y'all this is a contagious smile. Unstoppable with victoria, the lovely vixen that she is, and stucco who's under her feet, laying there dead asleep I shouldn't say dead, should I. Let's not say that. He's very much, very much alive, and Rusty's on the other side of their desk. And then you have me in the background. So let me put out there that our hearts go out to everyone infected by the current or the past hurricane those without power, food, water, shelter. Our hearts goes out to y'all, and I don't know if y'all will listen, but you know we hope y'all find the help that y'all need. My dad is one of those affected down yonder in the south. What's up?
Speaker 2:Sorry, I gotta kind of so we do have some great news. As many of you know and michael have not seen this yet we have released a series dana diaz and myself called nart nart who's there? Help, I'm gasping for air which is the combination of my new released book and dana's new released book, and we have released two episodes and I'm going to show my husband because he hasn't seen this yet. So, as of about 10 minutes ago, on TikTok, you read this out loud how many?
Speaker 1:Holy shit, 2.6 million. And then Really.
Speaker 2:I released this one yesterday and this is as of about five minutes ago. It is our world 3M 3 million. It is our world record holder right now. We've never hit over 3 million on anything ever.
Speaker 2:The podcast for y'all that is talking about narcissism and it's a topic nobody talks about. We had uh tracy gold, who everybody knew from. Thank you, tracy. Uh, growing pains. Reach out out and say to both Dana and myself what a I lost my word, what a necessity this is that we discussed this. And I went back and looked and I have not told my husband about this. He's been a little grouchy today, so I I'm going to just surprise him with this. One of our top episodes in the moment he'll realize what I'm about to do was when he discussed the abuse I went through with my abuser and it is coming up and will be domestic violence awareness month when this releases. No, yes, so I am, I am. You're gonna support me through this.
Speaker 1:No, I am I support you well I am now. Where are you going?
Speaker 2:to no, I can't ask other people to come on to this platform and not be. It's so rough, yes, but you know, I can't ask people to trust me and believe in me when some of them I'm just meeting for the first time and they don't know my story and they don't know what I've been through. And I want them to know that they can come to me with understanding and I understand and I have empathy for them because I've been there and I went through a horrific abusive situation. And I want everybody to know and I say this a horrific abusive situation, and I want everybody to know. When I say this, a lot it sounds like a broken record and for that I apologize.
Speaker 2:One hit, one kick, one punch is one too many. It's not a competition, it's not well. I've had beautiful people say to me I just feel like it's not been like a huge violent situation, because he only hit me a few times. That's a violent situation. It's not a competition between us. If he's laid his hands on you in an unwarranted manner, it's a violent situation. And if she's laid her hands on you in an unwarranted situation, then it's still a violent situation. And we're not here to compete, we're here to support. So I can't ask that you trust me unless I show you how vulnerable I am on this and this is probably the hardest topic for me to talk about, even more so when I've been interviewed, and so I've kind of cut back on the interviews about this because it is so hard, especially with a stranger. I've had a lot of men interview me and that's even tougher for me. But when my husband is here it's easier for me because it's not easy for me what's that all about you?
Speaker 1:But I'm here. I'm part of this.
Speaker 2:But, wouldn't it be beneficial for you to know that. What if this helps one person and it saves their life? Yes, well then, I'm the one humiliated, not you. It's not about your humiliation. I'm the one who's going through and reliving this in order to help.
Speaker 1:I know person and I have to see it well and that's painful on me if it helps one person, I'll do it a hundred times I don't want to be the cause. I don't know if I'm asking you these questions, if I'm making you relive these moments.
Speaker 2:I want to help as many people as I can and if I can do that and show them that they can come to me and I will help them prepare their TPO, prepare their you know documents that they need for the court, if I can help them, you know, get the house a little safer until they can get out and make their own home, because it's not a home where they are right now.
Speaker 2:They can get their children out before the children start getting abused, then it's worth it. What if you know what? I would say so no. What if I want to know? What if I? Well, tough shit, because you know what. I went through this all by myself when it happened and now I'm here with you. So then support me.
Speaker 2:I don't want to waste my air time when I could be helping people who are sitting there all alone, scared out of their mind to the unknown of what happens. When is the most dangerous time? I want people to know that they're not alone. This is not uncommon, and we're never going to get this to stop unless we actually use our voice and stop the cycles. What are you doing?
Speaker 1:Telling your daughter to take a bath.
Speaker 2:Why is she my daughter now?
Speaker 1:Okay, so why is she my daughter now? It's been what. It's been a while since we did that interview. Yes, why is she my daughter now? It's been what. It's been a while since we did that interview.
Speaker 2:Yes, why is she my daughter now?
Speaker 1:Because I'm thinking about this horrible situation that you went through eight months of hell with that monster and then I have to sit here and talk about him and ask you questions to bring up that nightmarish event you went through for eight months.
Speaker 2:Let me go and redouble that for a second. Okay, imagine that somebody else was doing a podcast with their soulmate, with their best friend. I understand.
Speaker 2:And think back to when I sat on the floor in the bathroom alone with my face down on the floor because I wasn't even allowed to have ice pack. I had no one. There was no ear pods. Back then charismatic, sweet, charming facade of bullshit that was presented and sitting there thinking am I going to die at the hands of this monster? I have no hope. I have been isolated from family and friends. I have been isolated, financially controlled. I have been physically, emotionally, sexually, whatever. It is all of them, one of them? I have no one. I can't go and start looking at things, because he checks my history, he checks my phone calls and you know what. Maybe he's in the shower, maybe he's asleep and somebody has an ear pod in their ear and they're listening to this and this is their hope, this is their shining light that helps them realize that they are stronger than they know and that they can survive this.
Speaker 2:And we're going to help them every step of the way to hell with what it makes me feel like if it saves that one person and this is why I love you so stop bitching about the fact you don't want to do it because I don't want to do it either but I have been that girl on the floor bleeding from orifices that should not have the ability to bleed while pregnant, and for that reason I will say there are going to be horrific triggers in this episode, but I will lift you up and remind you that even the tiniest little spark that's within you can start a wildfire and you are not alone.
Speaker 2:And that is so important for you to know you are not alone. Would you rather have 15 people? That's just an acquaintance, or one person who has your back, who will help you through this? Because, let me tell you, I had no one, absolutely no one, and it was the hardest time of my life. I need to be able to be that voice for the voiceless until they make their comeback and realize that they are stronger than that piece of shit is who is taking out their insecurities and overcompensating for whatever it is. I need to help them. That's what I'm here for and that's what I have to do.
Speaker 1:And that will be next Sunday's episode.
Speaker 2:No, it's right now.
Speaker 1:No, it is right now. No, it's not right now. I'm doing it right now. No, you're not doing it right now.
Speaker 2:I am, you are not. I am.
Speaker 1:I am.
Speaker 2:No, let me tell you why. Because this is the beginning of October and this is domestic violence awareness month and I will be speaking at events. I will be talking to many, many organizations. This is no prep.
Speaker 1:I know I did not prepare my mindset right for this shit.
Speaker 2:I, you know what. A woman or a man who is getting beaten doesn't have their mindset right for this win. You are not expecting it and all of a sudden you get your nose broken because you got food touching each other. When you put it on the plate and then you put it on the table, it doesn't get any more raw than the unexpected. Here it is. We never prep for our shows.
Speaker 1:We just do them. No, I think I have a mindset, you know, okay, I've got a week to think about this.
Speaker 2:But you'll forget about this by morning.
Speaker 1:And see some people are like that.
Speaker 2:Great and you're one of them. So let's get going. My.
Speaker 1:God, I don't even know where to start again.
Speaker 2:First time you hit me, no no, go back to shit y'all.
Speaker 1:I I really hate this, I really do, and I don't like it either. And to our audience out there listening and those y'all going through this I'm not saying anything to purposely uh, hurt my wife or whatnot. I know it's going to be triggers and you know, if she breaks down, if I break down, uh, y'all just put up with us, you know and if it saves someone's life, if it saves someone's life, it's worth it. We'll read the comments.
Speaker 2:What about another woman who's carrying a baby, like I was, and had no one to help her get through it?
Speaker 2:If it wasn't for faith kicking me, I would have died. If I wasn't thinking about that feeling of you running your hand down my face, I would not have been motivated to keep going, because I thought he was going to take my life, and damn if he didn't try on so many occasions. My life, and damn if he didn't try on so many occasions. And nobody, unless they are walking that life which is not a life unless they're walking that prison sentence, knows the isolation you feel and just a little spark of hope or inspiration that makes them feel, feel like they can come back from. This is what I want to offer, because I had none and I don't ever, ever want anyone else to go through what I went through, with no one helping them if I had anything to do with it, because it is so unbearable.
Speaker 1:All right.
Speaker 2:I want people to know that they can absolutely come back from this. You know they try to change you Because if you hear like I heard every day oh, you know what you used to turn heads, now you turn stomachs. Only reason I'm with you is because of how much money you make. You are so ugly. People feel horrible for me that I'm married to such because of how much money you make. You are so ugly. People feel horrible for me that I'm married to such a disgusting ugly fat pig.
Speaker 2:I can't believe that you would think someone who looks like me, by the way, who looked like the inside of a hemorrhoid he did that you should be lucky. And when you hear that every single day, you begin to believe it and you get torn out. Your self-esteem goes to nothing and you know what. You can go back to where you were before, because these are all issues within the abuser and he is projecting onto I can't say victims, because they're not victims. You're not a victim, I hate that word. You're not a victim because you know what.
Speaker 2:I'm scarred like 70 plus percent of my body and you know what. I go and look at that and, yes, back then I thought, oh, my God. You know I've had people in my life say I look like Freddy Krueger and the elephant man had a baby next together and I look back now and thought you know what you MF these are as many times as you tried and you failed because I'm still here. So I know he's going to be upset with me and I know he's going to be Whatever. Don't be upset with me.
Speaker 1:I'm not upset with you. Don't be mad at me. I'm not mad at you.
Speaker 2:And I have to tell you, in all the time I've known my husband, which has been his 20s, 30s, 40s and now 50s we've he has 20s, 30s, 40s and now 50s. We've never fought, we've never had a fight. Is that right or right? That's great, and I couldn't do this with anybody else.
Speaker 1:I need people to see they can find their forever after. So why him? Why did you choose him? Okay, and I make that statement because I know he's a predator yes, and predators hunt their prey. Okay, he was put in my life without my knowledge. I know you didn't choose him. No, I did not, and so that's why I worded that Okay him.
Speaker 2:No, I did not, and so that's why I worded that okay, and I I'm gonna put this little thing out there and tell you I'm sorry, but you know, I'm not someone who lies and I have to just be honest. I put him around you make you jealous, because my husband was the love of my life. He is the love of my life, and when we broke up I was beyond devastated, like in a place that I just never thought I would be. I was heartbroken and I thought well, you know, I've never had a one-night stand, I never had a rebound until this. And, ironically enough, you know, when you're in the middle of something, you don't always look at it like that until you're later on and you can look at everything.
Speaker 2:And this creek came in, knew exactly what I wanted in life, which was to be a mom, and really to this day I never thought about how he knew that and I even brought him around, michael, and my husband even told him if you hurt her, I'll have a conversation with you. I'll say that, um, and I really thought, because I gave my husband the best four and a half years of my life back then and I really thought that if he saw me with someone else that would do it, because my husband back in the day was very protective of me and I thought that was just the best trait ever and like if a man looked at me or whatever, he's like that's my girlfriend like I just thought that was the most honorable, sweetest thing ever.
Speaker 2:and then he's like why are you looking at her? You know, and it it was always with integrity and respect. But it was wonderful. And I thought, oh, let me bring this ale cavity around and maybe he'll be like what am I doing? I'm going to lose her, I need to get my head out my ass and get her back. And it didn't happen that way.
Speaker 1:at that point, but obviously it did happen later. So he knew what he wanted. He came into your life, he was put in my life, let's be sure we. He came into your life by outside means, by another narcissistic man I don't call him a man and you decided to accept his proposal of marriage.
Speaker 2:I wanted children. I actually did say to him.
Speaker 1:Wait, you waited, go ahead.
Speaker 2:No go ahead.
Speaker 1:Well, I don't. No you, no you. I can't say that I need you to. No you, I can't say that I need you to.
Speaker 2:You became pregnant are you talking about from him or you? Yeah, yeah, not after we were married yeah, yeah so before we got married. I even told him I wasn't in love with him and he had they.
Speaker 2:They had the most charismatic, charming, like dictionary for the dumb, really, because he was dumber than a box. But like he would say to me you know, haven't you given enough of your life to somebody else? You know the wrong ones and now you have the right one and you have this wall up and you won't let anybody in. If you would just take that world down, then we could finally be, you know, unconditionally happy and have the family we always wanted. And yada, yada, yada.
Speaker 2:And I felt horrible for a minute and I actually called my best friend who's passed, and I said to kim, I was like I'm being such an ass because you know he's kind of right in a weird work way, because you know I've always given my best to people, but then I'm being horrifically like standoffish to him because I'm like, well, you're not Michael, you're not Michael, and he was just very, you know, like, but you're not even giving me a chance. And I told him I wasn't in love with him. He said, well, you'll grow in love with me if you put the walls down. And I honestly, at that point, never thought you and I would ever reconcile again and I was heartbroken and all I wanted was a family.
Speaker 2:And so, you know, I sat there on the day um, I did wear all black, believe it or not, and I sat there and talked about age. I'll show my age here. I was on my palm, pilot trying to find plane fare back, or airfare back and plane tickets back, because every bit of me knew it was wrong. And I sat there and I don't push religion on anybody, but I sat there and literally just prayed about it and prayed about it, and prayed about it, and I felt this overwhelming sense come across me that says something amazing is going to come out of this. And so I got up, dust myself off, not really understanding what I had just realized, and I can't even say it. So not that far later we ended up pregnant. I ended up pregnant and as soon as he got confirmation that is exactly the same day with me and you, speedium I ended up pregnant.
Speaker 1:And as soon as he got confirmation that, is exactly the same day when the abuse began. What happened?
Speaker 2:I'm sure you remember oh, I remember every tiny detail the first time he was arguing about something and he took his phone and he threw it, hit me and I couldn't believe. I literally went into that. I know you didn't just do that like I know that you did not just throw this in my face and I was dumbfounded. I was like he just had a fart, a brain fart. This is not just half. And then he walked up and I was like did you really just? And before I can finish the sentence, I mean he took my face to the side of the wall by hitting it so hard, like he hit me so hard and knocked my face in the wall and I just was dumbfounded. I literally was like that's not going to happen again. He basically told me what are you going to do to stop it? And he went towards my stomach and I made a deal with the devil.
Speaker 2:I testified to that in court. I have nothing but respect for the fact that what I did, I own what I did. I won't deny what I did. I made a deal with the devil. I told him that as long as he did not hit my stomach, I would never fight him back Because he was going to hit me whether I fought him or not, and if I didn't hit him back it would be done and he'd go about whatever he was doing. And so I absolutely made a deal with him that I wouldn't fight him back if he stayed away from my unborn child.
Speaker 1:This was right after you got confirmation Same day. So the chances of the fetus the fetus being hurt was extremely slim, right?
Speaker 2:Well, I had already miscarried.
Speaker 1:Right that same year, but suppose at that time. No it would be easier because you could have got out of that relationship.
Speaker 2:No, because of the stress of it and everything that went with it. Literally, I could have miscarried at any time.
Speaker 1:Okay, but you could have ran from the situation, right.
Speaker 2:I could have, and I tried one time, and I don't want to give out everything because you can go and read the the book who kicked first, which is 1000. I'm not reading that book, no, you're not allowed, which is 1000. Y'all go read her book. Um, I tried to leave and it was.
Speaker 2:I didn't even live with him until after we were married and I was in the apartment that you knew, and so a mutual acquaintance that you and I both know had helped me move the furniture, and so when we were there, I moved into his excuse me, I moved into his house. I moved into his house and I he started yelling at me and so I told him that I didn't have to deal with this and he reminded me that I was pregnant blah, blah, blah. And then he shot and killed our puppy to show me what he would do if I ever tried to leave again. And I knew at that point that this was fire play and I knew I had to get enough evidence in order to get out and keep my child away from him at all costs.
Speaker 1:This is at the very beginning of the relationship. This was after we were married. Well, you're married, you're conceived or you're pregnant. At the time, two pugs in a push doesn't mean you could, yeah. And then he he comes in strong arm, yes, and starts with the simple stuff, so to speak yeah, and then to demonstrate his authority, his power, he shoots your puppy. Okay, that's correct. So his power, he shoots your puppy, okay. So, as most people say, you know, this is not a man, this is a coward, this, this is someone you know um a predator. You know not that you were weak at the time. You were vulnerable because of the pregnancy, correct?
Speaker 2:And I had an outstanding, already diagnosed heart condition.
Speaker 1:Because I know for a fact you were anything but weak. Okay, even though you're one-armed now, I wasn't one-armed then you weren't, and you happen to be on. You have been employed by a law enforcement agency. Just what. A couple years before that, and in your teenage years, you competed in national martial arts, mixed martial arts. So there's nothing weak about you. Plus, you're a freaking redhead that's fire right there. Y'all, I guarantee y'all, she wins most of our conversations. I get some of it.
Speaker 2:So I watched this sweet baby who was incredibly healthy. Everything was great. Again, I apologize. I want to announce another trigger warning. And this sweet puppy just started urinating everywhere. He lost control of his bladder After he was shot Mm-hmm, and so he said all right. The acquaintance said you need to take this dog to the vet and we had moved. I had moved to a town I did not know and had never been to before.
Speaker 2:And so he said I'm going to give you directions, get in the vehicle, I'm going to hold the dog. And he actually gave mouth to mouth. I actually saw him give the dog mouth to mouth. Well, when I was driving he kept taking me all these different ways and he kept asking me do you know who we are? Do you know who you are? Do you know where you are?
Speaker 2:So we get to some facility. It's pretty late in the evening and he walks in carrying this sweet, beautiful, innocent puppy. And they come in and get him, uh, from the vet, but, uh, tax them all come again and said we need to go take him back. And so they do. And they said he's been shot in the heart and or right outside of the heart and that, um, they want to know what happened. And I stood there thinking that's it, they're gonna call the police. This is, this is over, right, this is done.
Speaker 2:And he, with the straightest face I had never seen something like that ever With the straightest face, looked at this woman and said my wife and I had gone out for dinner and when we came back, the dog that we had had the other dog we have was going crazy and he was trying to let us know something was going on and somebody was trying to break into our home. The whole backyard was fenced, completely fenced in, and the lady goes well, how come the other dog isn't hurt? Well, we left that dog in the house and we must have let the other dog isn't hurt. Well, we left that dog in the house and we must have let the other one stay outside, which was absolute crap. And how fast he came up with this was mind-blowing to me. And he had the straightest face like I literally probably, if you looked at me, didn't know me, would have thought she came home and saw the dog had been shot. Because I was so mortified by what he was saying that I was just dumbfounded, like I was standing there going what, what you know. So people not knowing what's going on, of course they're gonna look and be like, look how upset they are and I'm thinking this is it, they're gonna call the police, this is what's gonna happen.
Speaker 2:So the lady, the veterinarian, says well, I'm gonna call the police, can make a report. And he just looks at her without missing a beat and says I don't think I can do that right now. You know, we're going to have to say goodbye to our, to our baby. I just don't think we can do this. I don't want to make a report, I don't want an autopsy done on him. He didn't deserve any of this. You know, and I'm standing there like literally, if you can imagine, just dumbfounded at this. I know, thank you, stepo. And he said this, and the lady's like I really need to call the cops.
Speaker 2:And the guy goes well, he didn't get into the house so he probably got scared by the dog and I just I can't't, I can't do it, you know.
Speaker 2:And then so ends up that that was done and then we had to pay um the report. And so he looked at me and he goes well, you know, I ran out grabbing the dog out of my wallet so I paid for it and I paid for the appointment or whatever you want to call the er visit. And later on, as I got out, I went back to all my credit card um transactions and found the name of that animal clinic because he wanted to make sure I didn't know what it was and got the phone number. And then I called and asked for a copy of the report and I got it. Um that they did, or the medical record. I should say not the report, but I got a copy of the medical record that clearly said that the sweet baby had been brought in um a gunshot wound and that he refused to do a police report due to the trauma of how terrible this was on us.
Speaker 1:So that was just the first of many months of the lies that he told you and the cons that he poured over friends, family, co-workers, bosses, employers, whomever you know, during your time. Yes, so after that first time that he threw the phone and struck you and then pushed your face in the wall, it just progressed through that worse. Daily Daily, it was now a daily occurrence.
Speaker 2:Basically, I think maybe a couple days. I mean he testified if he hit me once, he hit me over 200 times and that was just hitting. I did okay him to continue to see other women and people thought I was crazy.
Speaker 1:Absolutely.
Speaker 2:Because, well, a I wasn't in love with him and, b, if he wasn't home he wasn't hurting my unborn child, and so he was going to do it anyway. So I absolutely told him that he should go out and continue with his living, because those other women weren't going to get hurt at that point. He was courting them so he would not be endangering them and he wasn't at the house hurting us. So, yeah, I okayed him. He was going to do it anyway.
Speaker 1:Some of the you mentioned before that you woke up to him straddling you and just pounding on your face asking you to get up to go get a glass of water. Yes, you know, in my mindset I can't fathom that why someone you know he's, you know these guys, gals, whatever they're wired so different that I cannot comprehend and I'm not a smart fellow, you know you, you had three doctorates, you know you, you were, you're freaking awesome. I know, yes, you are, but I don't understand how I just I can't. I don't know why, how? The purpose, the meaning, the reason behind it, it's a control.
Speaker 2:It's the act of control and power. If he hit me and I cried, he would hit me again. If the first time he stabbed me, I cried and he stabbed me again and I learned that I had to keep my mouth shut. And I truly believe and I did talk to my sensei after all of this that my sparring through all of my training really kept me alive. Because when you're sparring and anyone who's done any martial arts or really has ever watched it knows when you're sparring you're learning how to take the hit and learning how to deliver the punch.
Speaker 2:And the one thing that we learned is you always escalate the situation but never try to de-escalate something that you know is about to go and start escalating again. Like right off bat, you get out, move away, you don't try to get away and literally he would hit me. And then I literally would go into my mind and say just imagine that I'm in a dojo training. Just imagine that I'm just not here. But I am, and I always put my hands over my stomach, always. So I never guarded my face, I never got into a defense stance, I never did any of those things, because if I did anything to made him feel I was willing to come back at him, then he would do it again, or and he would threaten my other child.
Speaker 1:And before I ask this question, I already know the answer. Back then, probably even now, do you think you could have whooped his ass?
Speaker 2:Not a doubt in my mind. What do you think?
Speaker 1:Absolutely.
Speaker 2:My husband is 270, and I can pick him up and I only have three limbs.
Speaker 1:Yeah, well, they're sexy limbs, Whatever. So y'all, two of our golden retrievers are in the office with us and when my wife started talking about the puppy and all that transpired there, her service animal Stucco immediately came to her and started licking her and giving her comfort. It was kind of cute. Just to let y'all know, golden retrievers are freaking awesome.
Speaker 2:Yes, so Uh he.
Speaker 1:I'm trying not to keep this so morbid.
Speaker 2:But you know what? It's Awareness Month, and we're never going to get this epidemic to stop if we don't talk about it.
Speaker 1:So, okay, it came into your life, it started, it continued, it got worse. Now we're months down the road. It's still the same. It's never the same. What else? The beatings, uh, the punishments, the control, the control, isolation, isolation. You said he had control over your phone. He wouldn't allow you to go anywhere. He gave me, he kept it secret to places that he took the puppy.
Speaker 2:He would not allow me to go anywhere. He thought you were first and foremost. He would follow me to the exit where my office was and then turn around and go to the base where he was, and then I would have to get into the office and call him on his phone because my office number would show up on his phone is on caller ID. So he knew I was in the office because I parked in a secure parking area just for me People, so he couldn't get down there to see if my car was there, which he hated. And if I left work early, early I had to call him um, and when I left on time I had certain designated spots. I had to call him to let him know so he would know what to expect me, so that he would get rid of whatever women was there before I got there but you already knew he had women.
Speaker 1:So, yes, it didn't matter.
Speaker 2:No, so it's another game to him well, it wasn't just that he um also was participating in some horrific which I did not know about. I thought he was having me call just because of the fact that he wanted to get rid of the women that were around. But it wasn't just that it was. He had begun participating which I didn't know about until much later into child pornography, and so he didn't. For some reason, there's multi-layers to these psycho pathic narcissists and he, for some reason, no matter what all he was doing, he did not want me to know about that at first or for a while.
Speaker 2:So whenever I would get there, he would no longer be on those sites when I would walk in the door to you know, to me I would think there's automatic jail time well, not if you have people covering for him.
Speaker 2:Yeah, and then I started doing things and I really hope people really really listen to this um that I started doing things around the house to make the pain not as intense Not that that really makes that big of a difference, because you know they're still going to be aggressive. You know they're still going to do things. I had a metal brush that I used on my hair and he walked into the bathroom because I had the bathroom door shut and wanted to know what I was doing, why I had the bathroom door shut. I grew up with the mentality that it's a respectful thing and that you shut the door when you take a bath, that you shut the door when you go to the bathroom. I mean, that's how I've been with faith is that you know that's your personal time, that's your time to shut the door. That's just how my grandparents were. You know that's. Even my parents were that way. But you shut the door and you're in the bathroom bottom line and he slipped that. That bathroom door was shut. So he grabbed a metal brush and started beating me in the face with it and took the door off and said I could not have a bathroom door anymore. And so I went to the dollar store and got one of those plastic brushes, because they don't hurt as bad as the metal, because I knew he'd do it again. So I also started removing glass things and replacing them with plastic, little by little, because he would throw the glass and I didn't want my stomach cut up.
Speaker 2:Um, just so many things that are what people don't think about.
Speaker 2:Like he controlled the money, even though I'm all the money, um, and so, hey, rusty babe.
Speaker 2:Um, one of the things I would tell you guys, if you're listening, is when they won't allow you to have cash and you have to go to the grocery store or you go to Walmart or whatever it is, and you go to checkout and it says do you want cash back? Always say yes and get $20 here, $20 there and with the price of everything going up and up and up, uh, it won't be noticed. And then if he goes and looks on the bank statement and he sees instead of 168 or whatever the thrown out number is at walmart, and then he sees instead 188, he's not really going to pick up on it because it doesn't say that you got cash back. And so I started doing that and I started um saving emergency money so that, if and when the time came I could get out and survive, that I would have the cash, because no credit cards can be traced and they can see where you are, and so I wanted that to not be an option so in preparation you also did.
Speaker 1:You have clothes and a bag of hygiene products. No documentation stashed somewhere.
Speaker 2:In the beginning I did not. He made me get rid of my car and made me get this dreadful, top-of-the-line, outrageously expensive vehicle that I thought was a waste, because he wanted everybody to want what he had. And so here's these expensive vehicles, ridiculous, but it had a hidden compartment in the back and so I started putting money in there. He would not let me have a car charger in the vehicle, so I bought one with some of the cash and I put it in there. I bought a burner phone and put it in there.
Speaker 2:Um, I started putting stuff as I got further along to the baby and, like some diapers or clothes or blankets or you know something of that nature, he watched my mileage, like I was a 16 year old girl, um, and so he knew how far it was to work and back, um, I was five miles off. I had to give an explanation, you know. Oh, there was really bad traffic, so I took a different way back. He would try to pull up the traffic to see if there really was, or was there, an accident or what, or why was I 15 minutes late, you know? Instead, why didn't I just run that one red light instead of wait when it turned yellow. These were all things that I got constantly asked. And then I started to gather information.
Speaker 2:Um, I started taking pictures and he found them um, not by choice, I didn't think I had taken him to the hospital for his treatment and he reached into my purse when I had gone into the bathroom because you feel a lot when you're pregnant and I heard him getting loud and I walked out and I went oh my god, because he had my camera that was buried into the bottom of my bag and I kept it in my bag because searched everything in the house. Right, I couldn't have a phone if I was with him. He had the only phone. He wouldn't let me have a phone with me, so he had it, so I couldn't make a phone call to anybody. And he found the camera and he looked at the pictures and saw that I had been taking pictures in the bathroom of what he had been doing.
Speaker 2:And when he found that out, he lost his shift and we were in the hospital for the military and he took out his knife and he put the tip of it in my throat and I thought he couldn't possibly do something like this right now, before we are, and so I started to raise my voice. And I started raising my voice and the nurse came in and asked why we were being so loud, that there were other patients on the floor and that we weren't being very, very respectful. And he basically just said you know, I'm so sorry, the baby had just kicked and I can't add more, understand how to come up with something that quickly. Like, how can you literally come up with something that quick? And he had me by my shirt, um, holding it, because I had blood dripping and he didn't want me to turn around, and so he said he was sorry it wouldn't happen again. And then he told me I needed to go wipe off my face and then afterwards I needed to go get him something from the vending machine.
Speaker 1:See, you know, I know I did stop with it right there. Yeah, I know that did stop with it right there. Yeah, because y'all were in the hospital for whatever reason. I know that it continued and that's not the. It wasn't the last time we pulled an iPhone in.
Speaker 2:No.
Speaker 1:And actually stabbed him? No, but was that the last straw? No. When they stabbed you for the final time? No. Were these savages for the final?
Speaker 2:time no.
Speaker 1:There was more after that.
Speaker 2:Yes, okay.
Speaker 1:Do you want to elaborate? I mean, I don't want you to.
Speaker 2:There were so many more times, like you know. I remember the first time you felt that scar on my chest and you said what is that? Because you knew that wasn't there before. And I took the tip of a knife out of my own chest but he just I mean, it was always something he spilled he got one of those flumsy, flimsy what is it called in the world Flimsy, sorrysy, flimsy, sorry, cheap pans and he'd cook barbecue ribs or something in it and he put coke in it I don't know, because, for those of you who don't know, I don't eat meat so he'd pour coke all in the bottom of the pan and I went to take the pan out and some of the coke spilled on the bottom of the pan. And I went to take the pan out and some of the coats fell on the bottom of the oven and he immediately went ballistic. And then, when the oven cooled off, I went to go clean it and I was sitting on the floor and I had the door down a part way to reach in and he took me by the back of the head and slammed my nose into the um in the handle of the oven for spilling the coat and left into the oven making a mess and it was always something I mean, it didn't.
Speaker 2:There was always some reason why I had to be punished. Or he said you put back in my place and it didn't matter. He made me come to the base constantly. He broke my face on the base and in front of his command and they did nothing, which is very, very common.
Speaker 2:Most people don't think that it is, but it is and the military does do quite cover up for their soldiers. It is a sad, sad thing because they should be protecting you know the military, who I don't hate. You know there's bad apples in every orchard. I just want to make sure you understand that. But saying that the military is there to protect its citizens and to protect the people, but they're not even protecting their own, you know, and I have the utmost respect for the majority of the military, but I don't have respect for those that turn a blind eye because they're about to retire and they don't want the trauma drama of the poe, if they call it that.
Speaker 2:I had learned all sorts of words and phrases that they use and I, you know I'm very pale and I actually went to the command on more than one occasion and like, lifted up my glasses and said what would you do hypothetically if I told you a soldier was beating their life? And all the way to the base commander, they knew I was getting beat, um and it, they thought it was being taken care of. But I had all the information from um, like the transitional compensation and private cell phone numbers and business cards. And how would I have gotten all that if I didn't keep going and asking for help, and asking for help, and I don't know why. Everybody was supposedly afraid of them, which blew my mind, to say the least.
Speaker 1:So I asked you about the stabbing. Which one? That's what I want to know. When was the last one? Was that the most brutal?
Speaker 2:it was over 12 in total. He did try to cut her out of me that's the one I want to get to again.
Speaker 2:I apologize for this to everyone, for the triggers, um, I can't, babe, I cannot tell you which one was more traumatizing than another. I mean, there was one where he cut me and stabbed me from my wrist of my arm or my forearm to my tricep, my bicep tricep, up my shoulder, down my back, as you've seen, and I had to go get all that stitched up and I refused any medication because I didn't want to affect her, because it would have and I told them.
Speaker 2:I said I didn't get any pain pads when he did it. I'm not going to take any now, and I just didn't want any of that to affect her there was.
Speaker 1:You know, a lot of times we see old movies folks get stabbed and it seems like nothing. But that's not the case, is it? You know we've all been cut. We've all cut our finger or our hand or something, yeah Right. And if you cut really clean, you feel the pain afterwards and you know it may be, it's not instant it may feel.
Speaker 1:You may not feel it at all. Your reaction, you know in your mind you're thinking oh crap, I just got cut, I should be hurting, so it must be in pain. But if it's a clean cut it may not be painful. But to be stabbed by whatever length blade, however many inches it went, in millimeters, whatever, that has to be painful. And I've seen this horse and you've already tested it, it's what 70, 90%, and you know they go from here to here and over there. They all know I love my wife very much and I absolutely hate this. I really do. And she is not worthless, she's not used up, she's not a bride of Frankenstein, she's absolutely gorgeous. Y'all I love you see, that is all I see I'm Pauling in the room.
Speaker 2:I knew that was going to happen so I would say one of the worst nights, without question, would be the night before I ended up in the labor and delivery ICU. He wanted me to co-sign because I had the credit and I needed money and he didn't and that didn't matter to me, as you know. And he wanted me to co-sign something and I said no Because at that point I had five car pay notes I was making For him. His mom, his girlfriend, just whatever, kept him away from us and I know's stupid, but to me, and you know me, it's money and I have to make more, but I couldn't do anything that would risk her, but then I wouldn't have. And so he was furious and so many people asked me why didn't you shoot and why didn't you do this? When you do that, when you are strung out on amphetamines and opioids and, um, all sorts of other drugs, as you know, uh, from being an officer that if you take those and you even shoot somebody, they can still, because the adrenaline is running in them. And he got really angry and I don't want to go through the specifics again, I don't detail, um, but he literally beat me with an inch of my life and when I would go unconscious. He beat me conscious, like you know how you see people like slap somebody um, there was I guess it's the hearth of the fireplace when it was bricks, and he would just take my skull and beat me into it and so that gave me secondary concussion syndrome and he would just keep beating me and beating me and beating me and he had already strangled me, he had already suffocated me and he just kept beating me, take my shoulder out, dislocated my shoulder, broke my jaw again, broke my nose again. I tasted blood. I felt blood running down my face as if I was in the shower. It was that fast, like blood was coming everywhere for me.
Speaker 2:And then when I finally tried to stand up because I felt like I had to get up, I had to, I had to get up he had me. Where I really thought this was that he was going to do it. So I had to try to get up and I tried. And when I tried to stand up, he kicked me and I went flying like literally, and that was it. And then the next day well, let me back up. After he got done, he picked up my phone, picked up my keys and left. So there was no phone, no keys, no exit, no way to call for help. No way to call for help, nothing. And if he walked in and saw blood anywhere, it was round two. So I had to get the blood up and I literally tried to crawl. I couldn't stand. Every time I tried to stand, I fell. I could't stand. Every time I tried to stand, I fell. I could not stand.
Speaker 2:And so the next morning I felt something was so wrong and I drove to work and I called my OB, who was a specialist, and he had hit me in front of them when they made a report about it and we had all of this. We had all of this in court, and so they said you need to get in here right now. So I left work and I drove back down and when I got there they said I don't know what happened. And I told them I fell trying to get into my vehicle and they all knew. They all knew. And they said you wouldn't get a bruise like that on the inner side of your leg from falling and they said it looks like a foot. And they actually were wonderful. They did sworn affidavits, um for court. Some of them went to court with me, uh, talking about how they licked and hit me and beat me in the office and that they did call his command about it and make a report, which happened, and so they did some kind of test. It said that I was in labor, I was in premature labor, and so the hospital was right there.
Speaker 2:And I went to the hospital and they told me that I had less than two percent of me through the night I had a um dbt that consumed my entire leg and then, if the clot split, that I would get a pulmonary embolism that would kill both me and them. And they couldn't put in a filter because of the fact that they go through your groin when you're pregnant. So you couldn't get a filter put in. And the doctor started enhancing her lungs with steroid shots in my back and like gotta help her. And then they were doing opposites lobinots and heparin injections, because you can't do the cumulative if you're pregnant. And they asked me, if it came down to it, what I can say for amputation of my leg. To say it's our life. And I didn't hesitate and I signed. Uh, what he didn't know and this is so important I wish more people would think about this and have this prepared is that I had a medical power of attorney and he did not know this and the hospital had it. The hospital had a record of it and so when he did arrive, he's screaming and yelling the next day by making me very happy.
Speaker 2:And security came and told, threatened some security guard told me, and so again, his commitment was called and, um, he pitched such a fit about it and they came in and said okay, we're going to give you something that will reset your jaw or no, stuff your nose. And I said you don't have to give me anything. And they said we're not going to sell, you're giving me something. And I said you're not giving me anything because I'm not gonna have it in my bloodstream. I mean, I wanted nothing in there to hurt her and so you know, even now I've never taken any payments after she was here. So I they told me well, we're not gonna set these if you're not gonna take anything. If you jump and you have a clot it could split. So you either let us evade you or you're going to have to deal with this. So I dealt with it. I didn't even get those things taken care of right away. I said it's not life-threatening. And days and days and days and days.
Speaker 2:He couldn't stop the contractions. He would come in at night and be all like supposedly I say supposedly because he was dressed and he had cologne and stuff on, but he thought he looked good. I was repulsed by him and told me that he was out with his women while I was laying there trying not to die. I tried at one point to pick up the phone and call my parents and I didn't dial the number. But he took the phone and beat me with the receiver for even trying and it was just like I gave up. I literally gave up and her and I both coded during the emergency C-section and he openly testified that he knew he would have never hit me if I wasn't pregnant. I mean, he openly stated that because he knew I would have defended myself. And I let him know that I said I'll never hit you first, but I will de-escalate the situation and I made that where he understood it.
Speaker 1:I just I'm so sorry I didn't marry you back then. We could avoid all this. But after the hospital she was born, was that it were you done with them?
Speaker 2:okay, I could not leave. I tried amn and they told me I died. Before I hit the parking lot my heart dropped to 16 beats, another cup into like severe brain cardia. And I listened to a helicopter and they told me that they were there to take her because she was having such a problem. She was tiny and I didn't need to hold her. I didn't get to talk to her. I literally saw her in an incubator and I begged the pilot and the doctor and the nurse to take care of her, like she was there. And I immediately told the nurse Laura, I have to get out of here. And she said you're going to have to walk. And I slinked out of my way Every time I tried to step. It was excruciating and I hadn't been out of bed in almost two weeks at all, not once. So I tried and tried and kept going.
Speaker 2:When I finally was able to be discharged, I was in a wheelchair. As the plot. I was in compression pose. I got started on cumulative. I was doing doppler studies to make sure that it was still where it's supposed to be. I had to have blood tests done, all sorts of stuff to, you know, make sure that everything was good.
Speaker 2:He was furious when I was getting discharged and when I told him I said just take me and drop me off at the NICU there and he wouldn't even help me, wheel me to the NICU and he had already gone up there to sign her, in which I was a wreck when that happened because I wasn't there with her and I felt my heart leave me when I heard that helicopter leave to take her and I wasn't there with her and to this day I don't forgive myself for that. I cannot forgive myself because I should have been. I should have been there, and that's really how I don't forgive myself for that. I shouldn't have been there. And as soon as I did get there, um, I never left. I stayed with her and um, there there was more, but then I finally did get out a lot more.
Speaker 2:He did try to kill both of us another time and I finally got out and I was going to do whatever it took to keep her away from him and I fought to get the rights terminated, which is very hard to do, and I told the court I didn't want any child support because I didn't want him to know where we were. I didn't want him to be able to have an address or anything, and I, honestly, I didn't want to tie to him, I didn't want anything to do with him, and so for the longest time, until we went through that process, I would always tell her we were like Madonna and Cher. We only had first names, and so the rights were terminated and I tried every which way I could to get justice. He got away with it criminally and even though I had so much evidence, like you know me, I had video, I had audio. I had 17 and a half hours of audio where he confessed to everything he'd read about it, and I had medical records I had I just lost, not as young as 14, but when is it when you're in trouble?
Speaker 2:The UCMJ? Yes, I had those. I had just everything you can imagine. I had pictures that coincided with medical records. I had witness statements, I had witnesses and you can get away with nine dollars. I was just mortified that this was our judicial system, our legal system, and I never wanted Faith to know. I didn't stop fighting for her, and so I can't go into specifics due to an NDA, but I did go after Hari Sitalian one.
Speaker 2:But the bottom line is, babe, that you and and her both but let's also say there was no monetary reward because there's a cap. I don't want you to think I got rich off of this because I didn't. It was about the principle of it. It's not about the monetary value. It was the fact that I wanted to be able to look my daughter in the eye and say I fought and we won.
Speaker 1:So sorry for them. It's just the fact that y'all you got out of the situation. Yes, I can't say you got out unscathed, but you got out and, like you have alluded to earlier, that you found your soulmate. You found the love of your life that you were my soulmate and and she found an actual father. Someone did you know to be that that dad to her?
Speaker 2:okay, but I'm gonna ask you to do this one tell everybody what she told you about dad being a dad when it came to you that my mom would never allow someone other than me to be her dad, and she said growing up my whole life, the only person, her entire life, that's all she's heard.
Speaker 1:Michael michael, michael, michael, michael, we weren't together no, but I told her.
Speaker 2:I said the only man who would ever be your dad is this guy right here. And you talked to her, you had conversations, you had interactions with her over the top. But when you first I mean he saw her and then he was there and then he went to court with me, he was my rock, he really was. He had no idea. My husband has no idea.
Speaker 1:I just had my head up my ass right then.
Speaker 2:But he saved my life and he doesn't even know it. He was my outreach call and I remember going to see you when you were at work and telling you and you saw old marks on my body and you instantly cried and I felt horrible. But you cried, but you went to court with me more than once and when you and space like got back and saw each other again after a long time, y'all just ran up to each other. It should have been a commercial. Y'all ran up to each other and I was just standing there and I'm just like looking up, like okay, and it was the sweetest thing, and I remember her asking you she could call you that and y'all both cried that girl gets you to waterworks no, it's all the pollen we got here in the state.
Speaker 1:No, no, it was like in the room a while ago it's just pollen y'all. I don't have pollen allergies.
Speaker 1:Well, okay, so I'll admit this was not as rough as the first time we talked about this, but y'all, if it helps you, if it helps one friend, one sister, whatever, then it was worth it. And do me a favor and reach out and comment on this podcast, send an email to us just letting us know that, hey, you know, this moved you, this touched you, it encouraged you to, you know, look for different way out of the situation that you're in or to go and help that, that one that is. That is hiding.
Speaker 2:They're not hiding. They're being isolated. They are prisoners to this controlling piece of shit. And you know, I would love to have a person who is not a coward, who is not a piece of shit, who is not, but you're still a piece of shit.
Speaker 2:I'll tell you that right now you're still a piece of shit to put your hands on someone in an unworn manner, but someone who maybe has done the time and has said that they are Okay. If you will Now, I'd love to have you on the show. I would love to be able to talk to you. I have spoken with a pedophile. I have spoken with a reformed pedophile. I've spoken with you, know other people, but I've never had someone with the ego. You know the jerk who thinks he's all that. Come on, and you know, come on and have a conversation with me about why he thinks that he is a quote-unquote man because he's beating on somebody. But let me tell you, I'm here to say this and I'll say this for the voiceless, because they're gonna get their voice back you're a coward, you're a piece of shit and you know what. You're not a man. You're like a little mouse, like you're like a little tiny, itty bitty mouse who's trying to bait his hands and this together on his chest, because you just feel like your shit doesn't stink and you know what it does. You're not cute. You're not good looking. Your personality makes you look like ass. You smell like ass, you look like ass. You're just an asshole. Period, all the way around.
Speaker 2:I don't care my husband's laughing, but you know what? You could be an unattractive person, but have a good heart and to me you absolutely become good looking. Do not open your mouth, michael. My husband is smoking hot. He always has been, he always will be. But you know what? It's his demeanor and disposition to me that makes him 10 times more attractive.
Speaker 2:But for you, cowardly pieces of shit who take out your aggression because you're unhappy and miserable in your own worthless piece of shit life, because somebody cut you off on the road or you went to your deli and they didn't have your soda, and so now you're whining in your milk like a little bitch baby. And you know what? Screw you. I have no respect for you. You are not a human being. You are an absolute piece of shit, and I think that all the abusers and all the pedophiles should get together and it would be like alien versus predator, because they should just go on a little island. Everybody thinks they need their own little you know solitary confinement, because, oh, woe is me if something happened. Yada, yada, yada, blah, blah, blah. Yeah, turn the table around, bitch, and look how you act. You act like a little saunty mouse, like a little little mouse wanting some cheese. And you know what? You're absolutely worthless piece of crap.
Speaker 2:And I know because so many times I wanted to say that and I knew if I did, I mouthed off to him only twice, which most people who knew me thought that was amazing. And the first time I did I was in the closet, not a word, and I was hanging up laundry and he said something and I will say what it was and I told him after he hit me and it knocked me on the ground and I started bleeding. I said you hit like a girl and I was like you are pathetic. And he hit me again and I laughed at him and oh, it was just. How dare I? You know, you never make them feel little. You know. Well, maybe they're compensating for other little things. I'm just saying. But when two pugs in a push and you last not even as long as a commercial between the show and that is when you're dressed to getting undressed to the end and dressed again and your show hasn't come back on yet, it's all I'm saying. It's all I'm saying. But you know so many of us want to be able to say you are a piece of crap. You do not have permission to put your hands on me and yet you're doing it anyway. Well, you know what I'll tell you? You're a piece of shit and I'll tell it to you all day long, because I'm not pregnant anymore and even that piece of crap openly stated that he would never have hit me pregnant. Well, and after this was done, I reminded him that I'm not pregnant anymore and he bowed up at me again and I reminded him I'm not pregnant anymore. So I'll hit you first, and I made that very, very clear and I never would.
Speaker 2:But that does not make you a man, that doesn't even make you a boy, because a boy turns into a woman. What does a mice turn into a mouse? A mouse never turns into anything but a mouse right, like a little robot, just like a little right. And it's just my husband's laughing at me and you can see his face. But I mean, what category do you put? The name? You know, think about it. What category could you put? This is not a man, he's not a human being. He's not worthy of a title of man. He definitely isn't worth the title of a father. If you're going to put your hand on your significant other. It's only a matter of time before you go to the pets or the kids. That doesn't make you a man. That makes you beneath fungi, literally Spoiled blue cheese mouse. My husband is just looking at me.
Speaker 1:I'll speak whatever you talk. Hey, you deserve every bit that comes out of your pretty little deaf woman. So go ahead and vent.
Speaker 2:No, what's beneath? A mouse Like the mouse grows up and he's still a mouse.
Speaker 1:Like a boy grows up and he turns into a man. A girl grows up and turns into a woman.
Speaker 2:Well, these days, you don't know, but I'm just saying like a up in terms of dual woman. Well, these days, you don't know, but I'm just saying, like a mouse turns in to a mouse, you know, and they stink and they have this little annoying thing to them, you know, and they're, they literally do the same thing over and over, and over and over again. Right, it's always the same little cheese or whatever. Chug on the shit.
Speaker 1:All i's, all I'm going to say why don't you start that new podcast session? What Vent-a-thon? Vent-a-thon, yes, and just have the survivors come on there and you can name them. Bob, for all I care. Okay, it's your Bag of bones, it's your five minutes to vent about your Bob.
Speaker 2:We'll boss kicked off the air. It's our show. Who's going to kick us off? There's regulations, like a certain thing. You can't say, oh, bullshit, bullshit, a bullshit. Okay, but seriously, there are, you're not. There's something you're not supposed to say well, regardless uh yeah, but just you know it's domestic violence awareness month. We need to bring awareness, we need to let people know that you need to stop the cycle, and that's what my husband and I both have done. We both stopped the cycle.
Speaker 1:We're just two people up here in our little office, so y'all reach out, keep supporting us, however you can. Just you know, sharing, liking, commenting, however you can. Sharing, liking, commenting. We'd like to read your comments. I just read like 18 of them while I was sitting here looking at a website full of knives. I'll give out a name I'm a knife.
Speaker 2:I love knives People say how can you? Love knives.
Speaker 1:It wasn't a knife's fault.
Speaker 2:It's not the knife's fault, because the knife didn't do it.
Speaker 1:We have multiple firearms Multiple, I don't think, is a strong enough word Over a couple dozen and we have this shit going on with the cool shootings and the stupidity, but with our backgrounds that's shootings and oh, it's all the stupidity, you know.
Speaker 2:But with our backgrounds. That's why it's not like whatever.
Speaker 2:And you know, the thing is, is that and people say well, it's crazy, because I always tell people when I'm doing a video that and I'm looking up, in a way, it's not because I'm not respectful to the person I have on the screen, it's because our entire property is, uh, recorded and we have like 15 cameras throughout the whole property, on the outside and on the inside, and we have them because we help people with domestic violence and they've come here and gotten supplies and things to help them, um, you know, for their safety and things of that nature.
Speaker 2:We want everybody to feel safe, so everything is recorded and we have an alarm and we have windows alarms and I mean it's, it's a very safe, safe place and with all of the, I mean you come on the property and and bells notify and it's to let people know, because we have had people come over that we've, you know, helped get them out of the situation and get on their feet and offer them, you know, clothes and toys for their kids and things for their home, because they're starting over again. And so you know, we protect our own, we protect our family so to end this session here, we've gone like over an hour.
Speaker 1:That's okay. Y'all hear more about everything. More is coming up this month and the mouse wants to come out of a hole data data.
Speaker 2:It's not computer data, it's Dana. Okay, what's the redneck word of the week? Because everybody loves Fur piece. You've already done that. One Did.
Speaker 1:I yeah Well, I don't rightly know.
Speaker 2:You kind of have one.
Speaker 1:No, I mean this is too depressing Talking about all this Stuff. I hate it.
Speaker 2:But what's hotter than Hades you?
Speaker 1:Stop it. No, I'm serious. I heard You're freaking hot.
Speaker 2:Whatever, my husband is Helen Keller. What is?
Speaker 1:That makes you a lesbian.
Speaker 2:You're one. I'm not a lesbian.
Speaker 1:I only wore a dress one time at band camp.
Speaker 2:What is hotter than Hades?
Speaker 1:I don't really know.
Speaker 2:It's a southern thing. I've heard a southern person say it's hotter than Hades out here. It's kind of like a bless your heart.
Speaker 1:No, bless your thumping gizzard. What's that mean? That means bless your thumping gizzard. We feel sorry for you.
Speaker 2:No, that's bless your heart.
Speaker 1:No, yes it is. Look, I was raised here in the South.
Speaker 2:I thought I unfortunately was too you are part Yank. No, I was raised in the South.
Speaker 1:Really yes, then how do you get that Yank accent?
Speaker 2:I used to imitate my dad in England Do you have a dad. I did.
Speaker 1:Sort of.
Speaker 2:But like he would say go upstairs, I'll talk to you later. And I'd say come downstairs and you can talk to me right now. And it irritated him Because I would imitate the accent.
Speaker 1:Is that why our little Faith oh, now she hears me Talks to me To irritate me?
Speaker 2:No, the two of you go at it like crazy. We were in the session here and you two, oh are listeners.
Speaker 1:The next episode of the two of y'all so well then, that means they have to keep listening. Y'all keep listening to. Contagious smile stopped. Be sure to click on the other podcast that my wife has done and y'all pick up her book who Kicked First. That way y'all can have a little bit more background as to what happened and how she came through it, and then you can follow up that book who Kicked First with her prequel, nart Nart. Who's there? Okay, thank y'all for listening. Contagious Smile.