I want to be my own motivation, I understand what I have against me , and even with all of this I still believe the world wants to see the best version of me, when I don't show up for myself the world test me to see what a badass will do in times of when things go as way the fuck "not as planned" and so as I continue with my adventure-life, I am only getting started and I can only go up, with nothing to "lose" , I am in real time looking for a way to better my situation and so I am trying to enroll in a CDL program, and so far there is a tech school in my city, and I called to see if they accept FAFSA the response I received is pretty funny bc I was told "need to have kid(s) be unemployed and be married, and if you don't get what we taught 'you' the first time then you have to pay again and that's why fafsa is only for college and I have been doing this for 9 years and so I know what fafsa is" okay I know that this episode is not talking about my cdl plan, so this is what my next episode is about, and the information that I got is just an example of what perspective I have to shift and focus on me and what I can control and so this is what I am choosing to focus on, this is what I am excited about that I am able to tap into the type of person that I want to be and allow the world to let me become that badass that even with the things that are not great or ideal I will still chose to learn how to manage my mind in a productive way because it will do me no good to focus on negative dumb shit like "the world is against me" bc all that really is, is the world asking me to show up like the badass I know I can be, I just need to breathe in and breath out and remember that if I die today, nothing else would matter, and this in turn helps me remember what matters and this is always me first, the only thing that matters is what I can learn from this.... so continuing.
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