This Country Was Built On Racism & Pedophilia |CIBG Podcast|

In this week’s episode i talk about

Clearing some things up from the previous episode 

Animated blunt rotation 

A strange conversation i had with a doctor 

Transcript

SPEAKER_01 0:10

Hey guys, welcome back to the Chemically Imbalanced Black Girl Podcast. If you are new here, this podcast is a collection of video and audio existential crisis thoughts from a chemically balanced black girl who is me, and my name is Arya. Guys, I've got one question. Let's just get right into it, you know, because there's been plenty of times on this podcast where I've been embarrassed. I think this one takes the cake though. I uploaded a video episode for you guys a few weeks ago. If you haven't watched it, I think you should. The first comment, mind you, it's the first video I've put out in a long time on YouTube. Or ever in my life. Like, right? So you know, I was a little self-conscious. Thought I'd jazz the video up a little bit. Do y'all know what the first comment is? And if you saw it, no, you didn't, because I deleted it. The first comment on the video, within the first hour, it's uploaded. Somebody say, Damn, I can tell how old you are just editing corny as fuck. I say, you punk ass bitch. I said that is crazy. That's insane. Mind you, when you get the notification, YouTube only shows you like half of what the comment says. So I'm thinking they like got offended by something I said. I'm like, oh shit, like my age and finally caught up with a bitch. You know, I'm I'm out here speaking like a boomer and shit. Like, damn, what I say. Talk about my editing. That's wild. I'm trying to jazz it up for y'all. Bet I won't do it again. Bet next video is gonna be start to finish unediting, except for you know, the parts where I fuck up. But that was crazy. I've never deleted a comment so fast. I said, nope. Nope. I rebuke. Like, corny is so crazy. Like, it's such a raggedy ass insult when you're not expecting it. Like, it catch you so off guard. Like, I call myself corny all the time. Like, corny lame. You know, like they're all cool unless you're not expecting it. Like, you could have called me anything else. Corny is crazy from a stranger. It's very, it's very crazy from a stranger. I'm not gonna lie. Did it hurt? A little bit. Am I over it? No. But you know, we're gonna move past it, and you know, I'm gonna get better. I'm gonna start, I'm gonna take a Gen Z editing class. I don't know what y'all want from me, honestly. Like, I thought that was cute. Y'all didn't like the lent biscuit part over here trying to defend myself. Y'all didn't fuck with that? I thought that was funny. Elijah fucked with it, scared him a little bit, but you know. Alright, whatever. Also, speaking of just the last video, there's so many things that I want to clear up because y'all were eating me up on in the comments and in my DMs. Why? Please, y'all. It's been how many months since I've done this, okay? I'm trying. But there are two more things I want to clear up, but then I'll get into the topics of this episode. But I had one really good question that I I guess I didn't know how to answer, but like I'm gonna try to answer it now. So somebody DM'd me and they were like, I remember you saying how like you don't like people and you just basically like animals over like in humans. But then how are you basically gonna say you would give your life to save a human when you you know basically say you don't give a fuck about them? Like, like how that's contradictory what they were basically trying to say, and I guess that's correct. That is contradictory because I really do not like people and I try to be not around people as much as possible, unless I'm like at work or whatever, but I don't know, like well, first of all, I would give my life over a butterfly, you know what I'm saying? Like, I do not like any living thing that shouldn't be in distress, like I don't care about giving up my life for it. So that was for people and like non-people. So but then also like I thought I was making it very clear that it was like a win-win, you know what I'm saying? Like, you get to live, I get to, you know? So it's like it's not just about the person, it's about I don't know. I don't know what's it what it's about. I guess I am a hypocrite in that way because as much as I talk about not liking people you think, but I'm not evil. That's the thing though, like there's such a fine there's such a fine line in words and what you say and how people interpret them and stuff like that, because I really, really, really, really, really, really, really do not like being around people. And I thrive the most when I'm alone because I get to think for myself and I get to, you know, I just get to be myself and I don't have to put on a mask of what I think this certain group would like about me. But that doesn't mean I hate that doesn't mean I wish evil on people, you know. Oh, this is pulling me into another topic, but I gotta stay on track. Um, just like when people say they don't like kids. Like, I don't like kids. I hate being around kids. I would never do anything bad to a kid, I would never wish anything bad happened to a kid. You know, I would probably wish a kid shut the fuck up. I probably wish a couple kids get their ass beat, but that's that's the furthest I'll go, you know what I'm saying? So I'm not evil. There's just some things I'd rather not, you know, be around, or you know, I don't know, but yeah, so to answer that question, if anything human or non-human needed my help in in that way, then I would just do it. So I don't know how to not be a hypocrite by answering that. But yeah. And then the other thing I want to answer, because I want to hurry up and get through it so I can get through the topics, because y'all know me, I'll talk, I'll talk all goddamn night, um, is this one girl, which I did kind of piss her off, but hopefully I redeem myself. But I want you guys to know that when I talk, I in my head know what I'm talking about, and I just assume that other when the people listen to me that they follow that same brain stem. But I have to say fully what I'm talking about, or else people will get the wrong idea. So basically, this one girl was kind of irritated that in my last episode I was talking about the whole biracial thing, right? And I can see how it gets easily misconstrued that you guys would think that I think biracial only means mixed with black and white, but I know that it doesn't, you know. I always specify biracial with being black and white, unless I say otherwise, because for some reason biracial people who are black and white tend to more than other biracial groups ignore the part that isn't black, you know. Blazian people, you can't talk to them for longer than five minutes without them mentioning that they're Blaisian, you know, like every every other biracial person that's black in something else acknowledges the something else, right? And I just feel like a lot of biracial people who are white and black don't. They just want to be black, and it's just like you out of all people, like y'all know what I'm trying to say. Like, I'm not trying to be rude, and it's just my opinion, like I'm just some bitch like on her couch, like whatever. But I just feel like at the very least, it needs to be identified, you know what I'm saying? Like, these people used to fucking eat us. Like, you can't just be like, nope, I'm black. Ignore that white motherfucker. Like, no, we're not gonna do that. I don't know. I'm gonna brush past it, but I don't think that biracial people are only just black and white. I just only am talking about black and white biracial people, unless I say otherwise. So I'm so sorry to that girl if I offended you, but I just don't like to pretend like shit isn't what it is, you know. I'm gonna I'm gonna say something about it. It might make the room a little uncomfortable, it might make y'all be like, I don't know if she should have said that, but it's just like, you know, if you are 50% of something and 50% of something else, you cannot act like you were 100% of something else. I don't give a fuck about none of that. That's just a fact, and how you feel versus the fact is is is that's a that's an hour-long conversation, you know. So but I do get it, I do understand, like, I get it, but what I get versus what's what's true is like I'm like, I don't know. Okay, let's hear it and move past that. I feel like I'm offended everybody. I'm so sorry. Okay, but I just want to talk to you guys about one more thing. As long as I'm on like this topic of like touchy subjects, I want to talk to you guys about something that I saw that I really hope was rage bait, and I'm like the perfect person to rage bait because I just hate stupid shit. So, like, I'm like I'm like eating it up, especially if I see it. Like, I curated my for you page pretty well, where it's just like y'all see it, you know. I repost what it is, but I saw a video of a black girl saying that, like, why are people trying to diminish religion and we should just let religion be? And she was like, you know what people will do if um they realize religion is it real or God isn't real, like they're gonna start killing motherfuckers and stuff like that. Like, she was going crazy in the video, which I hope was satirical. Like, I hope it was satire, I really do. Like, I'm about to I'm about to say a whole bunch of stuff about it, but like at the base of what I'm about to say, I'm I'm really hoping that it was like rage bait and she don't really feel this way, but just in case, well, not even just in case, I know there are people who really feel like that because my parents are like that, and the same point that I gave my parents, I'm like, y'all don't think that that's weird, you know? I know so many agnostics and so many atheists in my life that I've met along my life, and none of them have ever had the desire to kill anybody, and I'm just like, what the hell? And I've told y'all about a long, long time ago, I asked my mom if because she's super religious, her and my dad. And I asked her, like, when she does nice things for people, or when she sees that somebody needs help, like, does she do it because she genuinely wants to help that person, or does she do it because she's hoping God see it and like sees that she does, you know, good for people and wants her to go to heaven? And she dead ass said that she hoped God sees it. And I was like, that is so fucked. I'm like, how do y'all not hear how fucked up that is? What do you mean if when people realize God isn't real, they're gonna start killing people? Can I be real with y'all? I do not think that religion makes you a good person. I really don't. I think your desires are what make you a good person. If you, if you, if something so that's such a non-issue as God not being real will make you start purging motherfuckers, I feel like I feel like God wouldn't have been able to help you in the first place had that motherfucker actually been real. You know what I'm saying? Like, what you mean? One little one little one little mishap and you just out here killing? Killing? That is so crazy. Like, I just don't get that. I don't get that. Like, even if as somebody who is not a believer, even if I found out that he was real, do y'all know how many questions I would have? Like, can we talk about your first and and only project, please? Because this shit is going to sh- have you seen it lately? Like, is this a science project you forgot to check back up on, nigga? We need help. We have needed help for many, many years. What is he? I like I would want to pull up a seat and have a conversation. Like, I would almost want to put on some boxing gloves. Like, hey, hey, hey, hey, hey. But it wouldn't make me want to purge, like, it wouldn't make me want to hurt anybody. I've never wanted to well, I'm let me not even say that. I don't know why I'm thinking that I could just lie like that. I was about to say, I ain't never thinking about hurting nobody. Half. But I've never had the desire to actually kill anybody. I've talked about what I do to a motherfucker because they may be bad, you know, but like never have I actually had desire to take somebody's life. And if all it takes is an entity for you to not be real to start killing people, I think that that's deeper than what people are like. I I think, you know, do y'all feel me when I say that? Because like that's some deep shit. Like, damn. All that's all it's gonna take. Like, I don't think people realize how serious killing somebody is or what it would take, like what it what type of person it takes to actually kill somebody. You know what I'm saying? And that, and that y'all would just do that if he wasn't real was crazy. Imagine how that sounded to people who don't think he is real. Like, oh my god, so y'all are just like waiting to be murderers? I don't know. I really am not trying to offend anybody, but like I hope that's not true. I really hope that was satire. Because girl, you just said a lot. That was a lot of that was a confession, really. Because how can you be uh anyway? Let's let's let's change the subject, but y'all get what I'm saying. Like, that was crazy. Okay, I have a pretty cool next topic that I saw while I was high as fuck, and I was watching um Kid Cudi's podcast, which Kid Cuddy has been doing some real real weird shit lately, but it's okay, I guess. But I was watching uh the episode with uh him and Wiz Khalifa, and he asked him a really cool question that I never really thought about. It's like a real pothead ass question, but I thought it would be cool to answer it on the podcast, and also asked y'all uh to answer it for me because I really want to know, because I just think it's a fun question. So he asked Wiz like what his blunt rotation was with like animated characters, and I think I gave y'all like my real people blunt rotation, which is probably changed, so I'll do that again, but not in this episode. But I've never thought about an animated blunt rotation, and I thought about it for a couple days after I watched it, and I think I got it, and I'ma I'ma put it down to five because I feel like that's enough, and like you know what I'm saying, I feel like it's a good amount, and you know, whatever. So after I tell you mine, you guys think about it and tell me yours. So, okay, my top five animated blunt rotation, and it's weird, but you know, it's not real, so just have a little whimsy in your life, bitch. Damn, laugh. No, just okay. So the first one would be Daria. If you guys don't know Daria Morgendorfer from the um that old MTV show, I guess it's not that old. Anyway, I just used to really fuck with her so hard. Like she was just like I really used to feel like her when I was younger. Like I used to just say blunt shit all the time, like hmm. Ain't nobody trying to laugh, bitch. Have you seen the state of everything? It's it's which is kind of how everybody should be now, but everything is a fucking joke, or whatever. So Daria would definitely be number one, and I don't even think if this is in order. This is just in the order I thought of them. The second would be Fillmore. If you guys know Fillmore was one of the best black cartoons back then, and weren't even a lot of black people in that show, if now that I'm thinking about it, but he was he was black enough. I love that shit. I love him so much. He was also very blunt, very like, oh shit. Um, so yeah, I feel like Daria and Fillmore together would really have some interesting conversations. And then obviously, my third one, which if if there was any question about any anime character involving me, I'm always gonna say this bitch, regardless of what the question is. Garnet from Steven Universe. That's my favorite cartoon character in the whole entire world. I don't know. If she takes them shades off and expose that third eye, like I feel like she'll start reading the room, like, bitch, you want to know what's about to happen in seven minutes? I don't know. I just feel like that'd be real nice when I'm high, be like, whoa, do it again. Like some real stupid high shit. Okay, the next one I kind of stole from Wiz. But when I thought about it, well, he didn't say this one, but I kind of thought about the group and I was like, Yeah, that'd be a good person to smoke with. But it's Michelangelo from the Ninja Turtles. Tell me that wouldn't be an excellent nigga to smoke with. Like what? Nigga start beatboxing, start flipping this shit. Nigga, take me to Master Flanner right now. I'm trying to learn how to karate chop. Like, what? That'd be a crazy adventure. And then the fifth one for obvious, obvious reasons, is Choji from Naruto. I feel like the snacks and meals we would acquire on like a wake and bake would go crazy. Oh my gosh. I feel like that's a necessary person to have in your in your blunt rotation for sure. Um, so let me know what you guys think about that, and also let me know your animated blunt rotation because y'all might have some people that I forgot about. Y'all might have some people like, bitch, how could you not include this person? Okay, and then there's a couple more things I want to talk to you guys about, and then I'll wrap the episode up. I'm trying to get in the habit of like doing shorter episodes so you guys will listen to the whole thing. I've been looking at my analytics and like girl, the 45-minute episodes are I don't know, so I'm trying to break them down to like 30, 35, okay? But I want to run something across you guys because I have all these random thoughts, and sometimes I forget to write them down, and sometimes I don't. And even when I have conversations with people, I'm like, hmm, I'm gonna talk about that on the podcast because something about that didn't sit right with me. But I was at work and I was talking to a doctor, and somehow we got on the conversation of having kids young. Now, y'all know I'm a very stern, stern, stern, stern, stern person when it comes to first of all, just not having kids, period. And having kids when you're mentally, physically, and emotionally ready, right? And and I just do not believe that that is when you're under 30. I don't not that I'm saying it's wrong, I'm just saying it's it's you know, it's something. And I don't think anybody under that, you know, I'm not trying to say that's a bad thing. Anyway, we got on the topic of having kids young and this like this like pedophile ass country that we live in, like systemically, like everything is either racist or riddled in pedophilia, and it's actually insane. So I don't know how we got on the conversation, but I was saying like how I didn't know like I don't know how people could be attracted to a 16-year-old, a 15-year-old, a 13-year-old, you know what I'm saying? Like how it used to be legal back in the day and stuff like that. And I really don't give a fuck what is legal, like you should know that that's wrong. And I was like, it doesn't even make sense. Like this country is so stupid, like it doesn't even make sense for a 15-year-old to bear children, like the fact that that was even a thing is vile as fuck. So then the doctor started talking about like, well, scientifically, our bodies are, you know, more habitual to have kids around between the ages of 16 and 22. And I was like, So, you know what I'm saying? I was like, you know how much shit is like scientifically correct but shouldn't be done because it's morally incorrect? Like, what the fuck? And I don't even think she said 16 to 22. I I deadass think that bitch said like 13 to 18. I deadass think she did. I'm just trying to butter her up. But that shit disgusted me because I was like, what do you mean because science says it's alright to get a 13-year-old pregnant because she in the prime of her life and her body is more ready than ever to have a kid, and that's the reason she should have a fucking kid. Not that she not mentally ready, you know what I'm saying? Like she got a whole fucking life lived. Like, I don't I don't understand shit like that. I don't. And like, I don't know. The rape culture goes so fucking deep because people deadass think you can hide being some freak nasty ass bitch behind science and religion. Like, you know what I'm saying? Like, that's so crazy. Maybe that's why the earth overpopulated with mistakes because y'all be letting science dictate how you should morally live in a time period that doesn't even compare to when this shit was discovered. I'm so confused. Like, maybe if we slow this motherfucker down, we could actually have some patience and room to evolve. We're living in an 8 billion member rat race. That shit is crazy, just to die, mind you. Like, stop making people for a while and see. I just want to see something, you know what I'm saying? 13 to 18 is when our bodies are at the most prime to have a child. And people say that with so much, like, you know what I'm saying? Like, that's crazy to me. And I'm not trying to belittle science or anything, is like obviously these people are correct in some way, but it's just like everything that's correct is not right. I don't like that. I don't like that. That made me so uncomfortable that she was even saying that, like, yeah, well, you know, if there was any perfect time, it'd be when you're a minor. Like, what are we talking about? That is why this country is like this, because everything is riddled in either pedophilia or racism, and it's just like science can back up another, so it's okay. But then, like, history can back up another, so it's okay. I don't understand, none of it is okay. None of us is okay. And and I don't even know if I articulated that right, but I hope I did. Cause what do you mean? What do you mean? If we slow the fuck down, and then it's just like, do y'all really think do y'all really think less people in the population is a bad thing? I really want to hear y'all's answers to that because look at how everybody is living. You know what I'm saying? Look at how overpopulated we already are. Y'all can't tell me that a decline in the birth rate would do us any harm. Like at this point, like we need it. We need it. We gotta figure some real shit out in this country on this planet, and we just keep bringing motherfuckers into it, like just overloading the fuck out of this earth with just unnecessary ass motherfuckers. Y'all listening to one, just unnecessary.

SPEAKER_00 23:00

For what? For what? I don't get it, y'all.

SPEAKER_01 23:05

I don't get it. I don't get it. Just to be like, oh, I got a minimum. Or look, he could be a doctor. You know, damn. I don't know. I just want to chill for a couple millennia and see what happens. Like, you know, we've really, we really got to turn some shit around. And would y'all keep like we we too it like it's too overpopulated for us to actually take the time to change some shit. I don't know. I don't know. I feel like less people would really try to solve some shit, but we just keep shitting out more people into this rat race, and the motherfucker is on like a never-ending treadmill. It's just like, all right, well, fuck it, it's already working, so might as well keep it going. Like, no. Let's slow this bitch down and see what happens. I don't know. Y'all probably think I sound so crazy, but like, I I don't think I do. I really don't think I do. I think I don't know. I don't know. Have you guys seen that one video where the girl is like the rape culture is so high because why is it a bad thing when men find an easy woman? Like, shouldn't it be exciting that you want to punk her and she wants to punk you? And I swear to god, every since I saw that time somebody say something a little off to me, I'm just like, mm-mm. Mm-mm. Mm-mm. Mm-mm. Like it, it actually is so deep. It's so scary. Like, racism and pedophilia, y'all. I am not joking. R and P, P and R. Like, that's literally what this country is riddled on. And a lot of people don't even realize that they're included in it. Included in it. It's like also a lot of people don't realize, which I'm starting to see, like, the closer I get to 30, like it'd be, it'd be, it, it's, it's the, it's them, it's the 30 to like 40 year olds that I'm noticing this in. It's like y'all, y'all gotta grasp that shit when y'all don't realize that y'all slipping into y'all parents and grandparents and shit like that. Like, I knew, I know y'all grew up in the early 90s and maybe the last couple years of the 80s, but like y'all, y'all gotta y'all gotta pinch that shit off. Like, it is infectious. Like, it's it's it's it's contagious. I be hearing some of that shit that sounds like a motherfucker was born in 46 and you was born in 89. Y'all gotta chill. And it's easy to just say shit that y'all you hear y'all parents say, but you gotta be careful, you gotta be careful.

SPEAKER_00 25:38

And that's another thing, like, you can't give people the benefit of doubt because there's too much awareness on what shit means, and like how to express what you say.

SPEAKER_01 25:57

This is coming from a bitch who cannot express one singular thought, but like, y'all know what I'm trying to say. There's too there's too much shit that's telling you you know how deep some of this shit is, and the fact that we still got black women saying that walking outside in a bonnet is ghetto, it's crazy to me because it's just like when when are we gonna be tired of that shit? You know what I'm saying? We still got black women that are homophobic as fuck. When are we gonna what are we gonna retire at? Y'all not tired? Like, I'm the most I am probably the most judgmental bitch I know. Like, I walk outside ready to judge because I hate stupid shit, you know what I'm saying? And I and I feel like I should be able to tell you that you just did stupid shit and and you should be able to just take that on 10, you know? But that's the way I'm judgmental. I see stupid shit, I say something about stupid shit, hopefully stupid shit don't happen again. I'm only but a person, you know what I'm saying? I try to do my due diligence, I'm like a vigilante, but not really, just a bitch on the couch. But the fact that people walking out of their house in a bonnet is more ghetto to y'all than some of the shit y'all praise is absolutely diabolical. And I'm not gonna give an example because I don't want to offend nobody. Like, I be doing that sometimes. I'm like, you got seven baby daddies, and you think a bitch walking outside in a bonnet is ghetto. Look up the definition of ghetto and it's your driver's license picture. Like, I don't know. I don't want to compare it to a offend and compare, but I'm like, damn, we really not going nowhere. We just kinda I don't know, y'all. We need to we need to do something. This episode got so sad, but I'm serious, like seeing it is it's insane. But okay, guys, I am I am gonna end the episode. I just want to give you guys a quick little 30-minute, quick little 25-minute. And I did try to do a video episode, by the way. My cats were just I don't even know if you can hear that in the background. You can, you can. My cat is just beating up his litter box, but that's the exact reason I couldn't record a video episode because my cats like to whenever I push record, they they like to slam each other all across this fucking apartment. So next episode will be a video episode, and I'm gonna lock my cats in their room. Um, guys, I will be posting about Patreon soon because I'm gonna get back on there. I'm gonna do an apartment tour and just some random ass videos, and uh, I hope you guys want to see that and hope you guys join in.

SPEAKER_00 28:36

Um, and I'll be posting about it soon, so I'll see you guys in the next episode. Bye.