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Cats, Dogs and Humans: Part 4 - Trauma Whisperer: When Your Body Remembers What You Can't
Your body whispers truths your mind has yet to comprehend. The nervous system, with its intricate web of responses, stores experiences that predate our ability to form words—carrying forward relationships, traumas, and joys long after conscious memory has faded.
Dr. Scott Conkright takes us on a profound journey through the landscape of emotional integration. We begin by exploring how adulthood marks a pivotal shift from mere emotional reaction to reflection. This threshold isn't simply about maturity; it represents the moment when our fragmented experiences begin weaving into coherent narratives. The prefrontal cortex, now fully developed, collaborates with our emotional centers rather than being overruled by them. Our feelings don't diminish—they become richer, more nuanced, carrying layers of meaning across time.
Trauma disrupts this natural integration. When overwhelming experiences flood our systems, the body remembers what the mind cannot narrate. This isn't just about troubling memories; it's about protective patterns that once saved us but now limit our full expression. The nervous system gets stuck in survival choreographies—shoulders that curl inward, voices that remain flat, bodies that brace against even loving touch. These aren't personality traits but embodied strategies from when the world felt dangerous. The profound confusion that follows affects our very sense of identity: "Who am I if I can't trust what I feel?"
The path toward healing isn't found through cognitive insight alone but through relationship. A traumatized system requires presence, patience, and bodies that don't flinch—because what trauma breaks isn't just affect regulation but trust in human connection. Healing begins in that sacred space where someone can recognize old protective patterns rising and choose something different, not through force but through awareness. It's the moment when the body says, "This happened," and someone responds, "I believe you." Ready to discover where you are on your growth journey? Take our free self-discovery snapshot at scottconkright.com and join our community of healing.
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Hi, I'm Dr Scott Conkright. What if your body is holding memories your mind can't access? We explore how early relationships shape your nervous system and how healing it begins through relationship, not just insight. Tune in now your body has something to say. In now your body has something to say. There is a quiet threshold we cross, often without noticing it, where our feelings begin to look backwards, not just in the sense of memory, but in the way we start to gather who we are through patterns of experience.
Speaker 1:This is the beginning of coherence, not the kind born from consistency, but from integration. Affect once impulsive, emotion once flooding. Now they begin to orbit around each other and around meaning. In adolescence, our stories began to take shape in fragments A betrayal here, a moment of pride there, a diary entry that tried to name a truth, a conversation that stuck longer than it should have. The threads began. But in adulthood something changes. We begin to weave. This weaving is not automatic. It is an achievement, because coherence true coherence is not a clean retelling of facts. It is the ability to feel across time, to make meaning of past affects and to sense the relevance now it is saying that was then, but it still lives in me and then choosing what to do with it. From an affect, relational theory lens.
Speaker 1:Adulthood is where narration and affective integration begins to stabilize. The system has matured, not in the sense of emotional control, but in the sense of emotional reflection. The body still remembers, the nervous system still registers, but now the cortex has more to say. The prefrontal cortex is fully online. The cortex has more to say. The prefrontal cortex is fully online and it can collaborate with the amygdala instead of being overruled by it.
Speaker 1:Affect can be noticed without being obeyed. It can be paused, graded, called into question. This doesn't mean the feelings are weaker. Often they are stronger but more complex. Joy carries with it a tenderness. Anger may carry sorrow underneath. Longing may carry a trail of memories that don't surface but still shape the tone of the moment. We're no longer just reacting, we are recognizing. Recognition is different from recall. To recall is to access a file. To recognize is to re-feel with insight. It's what happens when a smell brings back a childhood kitchen or a song tightens the throat for reasons you can't quite explain.
Speaker 1:The feeling rises with context and with it the possibility of coherence. This is why so many adults began asking not just what happened to me, but why did that matter? Or what does that say about who I've become? The emotional questions shift from reaction to reflection. We begin to trace patterns across time and notice how we've shaped the self.
Speaker 1:This is also the age when unfelt feelings demand attention the sadness that was buried, the rage that was rationalized, the joy that was never allowed. They return, not as intrusions, but as invitations, invitations to make room, because coherence doesn't mean resolution. It means an attempted wholeness. It means holding contradictions, such as loving someone who hurt you, grieving a life that also brought joy and forgiving a version of yourself that didn't know better at all. It means feeling all of it at once and not falling apart. This is emotional authorship. It's not flashy, it's not constant, but when it arrives it's unmistakable. The moment you say I know this feeling, I've met it before and I can be with it now without becoming it. And perhaps most powerfully, I can tell the story differently now. That's the essence of lay lessons not perfection, not closure, but ownership, the ability to shape how feelings live inside you and how they move forward in your life.
Speaker 1:Sometimes feeling is too much, too fast, too soon or too long. When experience overwhelms the body's ability to integrate it, it leaves a lasting impression that doesn't subside. The nervous system registers an event but cannot narrate it. The result is trauma. Trauma isn't necessarily the event itself. It's what happens when affect can't complete the arc, when startle has no recovery, when fear has no witness, when pain has no name. It lives in the space between what was felt and what could not be made sense of. In those moments the body does what it's built to do. It takes over, do. It takes over Fast reflexes, dissociation, shutdown, freeze. The prefrontal cortex goes offline. The affective system acts without pause, without memory, without narrative. This is survival. But survival has a cost. The feeling mind becomes fractured.
Speaker 1:In trauma, the normal integration of affect, memory and meaning is interrupted. The raw intensity of experience is seared into implicit memory, while explicit memory often fails to form the result A person who feels too much but can't tell you why. Or a person who recalls everything in detail but feels nothing at all. But trauma hijacks more than just affect. It hijacks the embodied expression of affect, our dynamic vitality. Affects become frozen into protective but limiting patterns. The body that once leaned forward in curiosity now recoils at the first sign of intensity. The voice that once lifted with joy now stays carefully flat. The shoulders that once lifted in pride now curl inward at the first hint of visibility. The breath that once deepened with excitement now stays shallow and guarded. These aren't personality traits per se. They are survival choreographies, dvas that protected us when protection was needed but now limit the full expression of who we are becoming. They are the consequences of a system that has been overwhelmed.
Speaker 1:In art, we understand trauma not simply as damage but as a disruption of the body's storytelling capacity. The body remembers too vividly. The mind cannot assemble the pieces. Affect. Now, disconnected from its context, appears in unexpected places. You overreact to a sound. You dissociate in a crowd. You cry in moments of success. You feel shame when you've done nothing wrong and your devias become stuck in protective mode. You might find yourself automatically shrinking in groups, even safe ones. Your voice might stay flat when you want to express joy. Your body might brace against touch, even loving touch. Your gaze might dart away from direct eye contact, even with people you trust.
Speaker 1:The story doesn't fit the feeling. The embodied presence doesn't match the actual situation or, worse, there is no story at all, just a body that moves through the world in patterns learned when the world was dangerous. This is why a profound confusion of identity often follows trauma. Who am I if I can't trust what I feel, if I can't explain what I remember, if my reactions betray me, if my body moves in ways that no longer serve me? The feeling mind, once a compass, now becomes a terrain of landmines. The embodied self, once a source of authentic expression, becomes a collection of protective habits that feel foreign and alien.
Speaker 1:To live with trauma is to live with affect that no longer belongs to the present and devias that were choreographed for a past that is now over. But healing is not erasure, it's reconnection. And reconnection is not cognitive, it's not insight, though that may happen. It's not insight, though that may happen, it's relational. The traumatized system cannot be talked into calm. It must be met, felt and seen, not just with words, but with presence, patience and bodies that do not flinch eyes, that don't look away, with rhythm, breath pacing and repair. Because what trauma breaks is not just affect regulation, but trust in co-regulation. It disrupts not only internal awareness but also faith in embodied connection, faith and embodied connection. This is why healing must move through the same path that it was broken through affect, through the body, in relationship, towards coherence.
Speaker 1:The goal isn't to eliminate the feelings or force new movements. It's to give them somewhere to land, to make them narratable, to return the body to time and to allow choice. Healing begins when someone can sense the old protective patterns rising and they choose something different. Not through force, but through body awareness, through recognizing this collapse in my chest. I know what it's trying to protect, but I'm safe enough now to try staying upright. Or this urge to look away. I understand why my eyes learn to hide, but this person is trustworthy enough for me to practice staying present.
Speaker 1:That's the beginning of narrative repair and embodied repair. It starts when the body says this happened and someone says back I believe you. And then, with great care, feeling begins to take on meaning, not just to wound but to witness, not just to protect but to connect. The DVA that once meant hide can slowly become choose when to be visible. The movement that once meant brace can gradually become sense. What's actually happening now? The voice that once meant stay safe through silence can learn to whisper, then speak, then maybe even sing.
Speaker 1:Trauma hijacks affect and freezes embodied expression. But affect, when held with compassion, can find its way back to flow and the body, when met with patience, can remember how to move with choice rather than just protection than just protection. If something stirred in you today some memory, some feeling, some new way of seeing yourself, trust that In the next episodes we'll dive deeper into how affect becomes identity, how relationships shape our nervous systems and how healing begins with awareness. So be sure to subscribe and follow along, and if you're curious where you are on your own growth journey, take the free self-discovery snapshot at scottconkrightcom. You can also join our newsletter for weekly insights and learn about upcoming therapy groups, meetups and live workshops. Until next time, be kind to the part of you that felt everything first.
