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And cute today 60 seconds of heaven, what's going on zone it's given and croak on the joke. What's going on in this segment, I tell you what's gone on in my life since last episode. The love of my mike Foxtrot life is so he sent me money for Father's Day. And I know he heard my podcast. Matter of fact, he told me he heard my podcast and sent me money for father's day anyway. I still thanked him because you know, I'm appreciative and I cried a little bit. I love the sweet thing that he does for me, even if it's at the expense of being petty cuz oh my gosh, he will poke poke poke me. And when I'm almost ready to win a pillow, you know, back off. It's like yes, it's innate. I don't know about that. Okay, now I pushed it too far. But that's what I get with being with a Panama, like me. Alright. So let's see what else what else what else? I went out with my dad for Father's Day. We went to Red Lobster, Red Lobster. And I did enjoy the cheddar biscuits. Okay, now I had already ate prior to going out with my dad. Because I gave my honorable and inline ancestors. A ritual and I would deal with a dead end need to know that because I want to spend time with him. All right, so anyway, we're up at Red Lobster. And we take a selfie sock and posted on social media. All right. This patron was like, Oh, you look so cute. Kevin. I said this is my dad. And she's like, oh, oh, and the dad was like, oh, so which one of us are you insulting? And see, that's the importance of us having these discussions like we had last Thursday about what's the difference between Friday or Saturday? Your DNA dad and that's why I call my dad dad is sometimes I might call Him Father. But I never call him daddy. Because Ill alright. But yeah, we get ourselves a break. time we enjoyed each other's company and stuff. The problem with me is, unfortunately, every time I see him I get so like anxious and not in a good way about like, is this going to be our last time? I guess because I have so many people around my age who are experiencing the loss of their parents and stuff, and I get super nervous about mine. Because as y'all know, I'm super close to my father more than I am with the woman gave birth to me. So if something happens to him, like my world, oh my gosh, I'm gonna be so sad and stuff like that. So I'm not talking to my therapist about this on Tuesday because I'm having a whole lot of anxiety, anxious type of thoughts. Okay, so you know, it is what it is. All right, say more so anxious shares news made me way more places away from me. She went to the jail. Oh, by our sale. And like, again, I'm struggling with like, letting the bird fly from the nest. Oh, man, you know, dude, me wanting to be like a helicopter mom and just have our own every little thing Okay, the soundbanks you're just gonna have to deal with them today. Okay, but in all seriousness, that's what I struggle with. And everything so like I can handle when she goes out with her friends. And she leaves herself I mean sorry, I'm okay with her going out with our friends and growing up you know, but I don't like when she be without me babe and my Mary J. Blige boys, and stuff and Alicia wishes with her friends. Hopefully there's somebody who can like pay attention to the grace is around when she's by ours. Applying but it all worked out. She went to the jail. And my baby lover my mother fucking lied. He was like, hey, you know he caught are caught in jail. So he's my god and job. When you go to the jail, make sure you get on the Stairmaster. And let me tell you see, wait on the Stairmaster. And when she got done and I picked her up. She was like Khaleel call you right now. So yeah, he's not just made it with me. He sped it with our golden child. Okay. Any what else? She did? She went to the store power South Wales. I gotta go. Okay, so like I said, she went to the store Barcel. Oh, we have ever seen an episode of blackish when the two kids, the twins. Oh, I forgot their name. But anyway, in this episode, they went out to visit. I don't don't just explore around their city and stuff. That's what that's what I felt like when my child because she had her GPS. And she still got lost. Like, wow. So luckily, I'm able to know where she is installed. So out like would drive a little bit further to make sure she's good. And then I drove a little further away in a park to make sure that she walked past me. She did not and I got nervous. I looked on our vocation and she was going the opposite way. So I'm my brain brain brain. Why are you going that way? You suppose? The opposite way? Yeah, she just I don't know what was going on with there. But unfortunately, she did. She still got lost weirdest thing ever. But she said Hey, can you come pick me up? And of course I did. Now first of all, I thought she was going to fail. Because of the simple facts she got on. What is up with these kids weren't one we live in Memphis 10 Among the fucking key is chill. Most ally like what the fuck? Anyway, so and it was all there is but she was as prepared as she could be. You know, I'm saying she told me where she was going. She had a stick with her. And she also had some bear spray. So where we cut a leash she thought about that. So it's like it reminds me when I was younger about like, trying to go to the store, up the street around the corner in my neighborhood. And the woman that gave birth to me was awesome. Well, I don't want you to go or she would be like When I got a little older, okay, okay, you can go whatever I you sure, or whatever and like I try not to raise her the way that I was raised. Also, the world makes me feel so comfortable, especially for a black teenager, okay? Like, blah, blah, blah. So like, it makes me feel uncomfortable with the way that she's growing up. But again, I know where my therapist is, she'll be okay. The positive thing out of this is I don't project my fears onto her. So yay, for that, I guess. Pashto hotel, my therapist, matter of fact, I'm gonna write this down to tell my therapist. Alright, so my job was my neighbor about power works as they should. Like I had said earlier, I did a ritual with my opponent line ancestors. So there's this ritual called Dom, supper day, U, M, B. And so you're very solid with it, and stuff. I have recently learned about it. And so what all I did was asked my ancestors, what kind of meal would they want? And I use my pendulum to talk to them figured out what kind of meal they want, which was great. And then from there, what else did I do? From there, I went ahead and was like, Okay, I got all the ingredients together and the food is put it on their altar. I lit some candles at a prayer and everything, just sat with them and ate and stuff. So it was really nice. So that's why me like, I wore my Juneteenth shirt. And every time I saw a black box, I was like, back out and and stuff. What else? What else? Oh, yeah. And like I said, I'm getting better with communicate with my ancestors with my pendulum and stuff. So I'm enjoying the progression. And I'm to this bike and about how things are starting to line up about it. So it was, it was a good two weeks Great. It's giving up giving you the encouragement to make it through the week. Let's tackle eating that elephant gather one bite at a time. As you should know, unless you've been under the sea. There are a lot of pieces about the billionaires. Of course, some IGE can go down when there are a few billion dollars on that elevator. I mean, the submersible. The bank bases range from giving a grace to the 90 year old son when they only Grace black people are given this before we eat. Speaking of eating, I'm sure grace was given before they become entrees on an eat the rich seafood platter. Another joke I'd heard was, the orcas asked for five guys. So you know, it's like people want empathy for billionaires, because they are humans, even though they did in new main things to amass the riches. We noticed that billionaires received attention whereas migrants that drifted off to their deaths because they were quote unquote poor, heavy emphasis on the poor unfortunate souls. Me. I recently changed my POV for being empathetic to the son a spurred initially led me to believe that he was forced into it because you know, he's 19 There could be no flippin way they will be like, Yeah, I want to go dead, you know, and stuff. So luckily, other content creators did the work for me. Thank you for showing your perspectives. The song was no different than oh boy in the book, Kindred by Octavia Butler, a master usually becomes big, massive. So what does this have to do with the encouragement for the upcoming week? You X, I encourage you to sit with your thoughts about what happened this previous week, for you the isms that accompany these deep dives of the billionaires hubris and the events of last week. classism, elitism face ism, racism. I mean, I don't know why I said faces I'm sorry, racism to name a few. Think about the lies you were told growing up. ancestors and spirits aren't real, despite the events that occurred at Legoland near which side note that town if you didn't know was intentionally flooded by the government. So that means all the houses that graves, everything like that was flooded, and people are enjoying being on top of a lake that has like all these horrific deaths and just spirit and energy with it. Okay. And let's not forget the Atlantic Ocean, or enslaved Africans die by diving off the boat or forcibly pushed off the boat for various reasons, such as death, sickness or mass have been sick individuals. Okay, How money in arrogance led to the deaths of the bore on the Titanic and the billionaires poor unfortunate souls do not disturb the dead yo, especially those that died or rapidly. Think about the empathy that some have for the 90 year old kid, as they call him. But first of all, if you're 19, that means you are an adult. So you no longer a kid. And that's what sometimes aggravates me is because they'll give these white people grace as far as Phillips, what's his name? Mike Phillips, I can't remember. But he's a swimmer. And I forgot what he did was up years ago, it was one of the Olympic events. And they called him a kid and Rocker from the Today Show. Again, I'm paraphrasing, because it's been a while, but he had said like, He's not a kid. So it's like, you know, when you reach a certain ages, oh, you're just a kid, just a kid. Okay. But none of them said that when it came to Trayvon Martin, matter of fact, a lot of people talk ish about the picture of Trayvon Martin that was first put out, because they was like, now why don't you put out the picture of him looking thuggish with a grill in his mouth. Like, what? Whatever. So the way people get protected, protested for the rich, but not the migrants, both the campsite, and Yasha, you can do both. You can be empathetic to the migrants, you can be empathetic to the billionaires and stuff. But more of the people at least when I saw my timeline, were empathetic to the billionaires I guess, sometimes I wonder, is it because they are hoping as well to become billionaires, which I mean, how can you do that in one lifetime, there has been a lot of math to put in there that you cannot spend their money in a lifetime. For you to become a billionaire in a lifetime. You can do it without being a bris oppressive to people. So like other content creators that sound tick tock, they also wondered, like, do you want to be an oppressor? Like why are you going so hard for these people? And stuff like that? So yes, you can have empathy. I don't, but you can have empathy for all people involved with that situation. Or you can bring awareness to both situations about what happened. Trust, remember, one was a choice and the other. They had no choice, okay. Candace Owens said your teeth was ghetto. Which, like, at this point, y'all, I just, it just okay. Now, I know I'm one of those people who tries to have an open mind and try to understand where people are coming from. But I just get so confused with people who are okay with the crap that Candice Owens says, like, using the word good for what they don't like. And as we know, some of that gets stripped down to respectability politics, when it comes to our blackness. And we internalize that and try to make sure that we look good for quite a while master, for example, I think it was a couple of weeks ago, applied in his said, No pundits in our business establishment and a lot of people's IKEA. Yeah, yeah, shouldn't be wearing our shoes, or bonnets or anything like that to the grocery store. It is disrespectful. I have respect for yourself, blah, blah, blah, blah, blah, you know, or people will show pictures of back in the days. And I say like way, way back in the days, but what, maybe around the 60s, maybe. I know that was like 40 years ago, but like, I mean, not 40 years ago, I'm sorry, I know the 60s was 60 years ago. There we go. Goodness. Okay. But like the Austral pictures, like let's get back to like having these men in the suits and stuff like that. Let's get back to when the women dressed this way in his life for what they steal, murdered, assassinated, Dr. Martin Luther King in a zoo. So there are plenty of me too stories of women getting right. I'm sorry, I apologize. But anyway, there's just many me two stories that involves pajamas and being young. Okay, so it's like, what are you really, truly trying to say? And let's not forget, there are some photos of white women and I want to say maybe it was like the 40s or 50s of them in hair rollers to win their business like, so it's okay for them to do that. And again, I'm not trying to like be upset at the black folks. I don't like the fact that they help they possibly have self hatred for themselves and not understand it, you know, because they're just trying to assimilate but his life. Sometimes I just wish people would just give other people the opportunity to listen to what other people say another change of thought or another point of view. So you can be like, Oh, okay, that makes sense. But I do know, even when I say that, but people will still believe what they're gonna believe. Because someone like me, I give people the benefit of the doubt as far as like, like I said earlier, with Assad, I had empathy for but until I saw Greta, talk about it on tick tock, I changed that and stuff, and I'm probably still gonna sit there, like I say, but like, you know, it's okay to have an open mind. And it's okay to change your mind and stuff because a lot of things are nuanced, but you know, whatever. So other big it said that this holiday god, that was a waste and capitalize yet again, on our blackness was sales. Okay. And it's like, it's like, again, aggravated, because yes, I do know that some black people work. I mean, that's all but I do not like black people. They do work for other big corporations. So yeah, if you pay for them, you're happy with their salary, but the people who are benefiting the most is usually the white folks. So you know, so it's like that, or they had like, have a job at the ice cream and trying to get that crap. Was the word I can hear I am thinking that I was gonna be able to say to my birthday load of other client that I didn't say the word escapes me but yeah, and a trademark, there we go. There we go. With them one of the bad I mean, trademark What the fuck. And then I think that I had read the Word doc calls or.com or something like that, that are non Hispanic, non Spanish speaking person wanted to trademark dead. So it's like, it's like, Y'all just want to capitalize off of that stuff. And it's so fucking aggravating, and everything. And it just, it just puts me in just a weird spot. Wow, I feel about that stuff. Okay. So if these people saying Oh, no reparations for that enslaved Africans. Me Wow, they forced us by folks who are still around to assimilate to their hair standards. For us to like have to have the crown Act, as I said before and on previous episodes, to have madam CJ Walker to create our relaxer, so that we can have our hair relaxed so that we could get a job, we have to have our names. not sound too black, or canto so that we can get a job we have to cold switch, we have to make sure we our voice sound a certain way, we have to put on this white voice and this white name, all of these things that we are assimilated. For them, I remember in college, some of the people were from different countries within the continent of Asia. Sometimes they would not tell us their real name, they would tell us I call it a quote unquote, Christian name, because I do notice some African tribes, they have their name of their people. And they have the name based off of their religion. A friend of mine who went to college with me, I'm not gonna say her name. But yeah, she does. She introduced me as to herself and stuff and has what Bob I called her, because that was our Muslim, or Islam name, Islamic name. But when she said that also with our family, because they're from Nigeria, they will call our Europe name. So I do understand. Some people did that. But it's like, some of the people that are from different countries in Asia, some of them will say, You can call me Chris. And I would love and I'm like, How do you pronounce your name I have to worry about call me crazy, you know, something like that. And so like you, it's like some of us that have to assimilate just so we can be able to take care of ourselves put food on the table and everything like that. And they're still being homophobic, and they bring their patriarchy over and all this other stuff. So what I'm trying to say is use this week to really look dissect and unpack the way you may have been brainwash. And as I've said before, yes, it's nuanced. We are all unfortunately implicated with this capitalistic supremacy. I too struggle with wanting to be comfortable with making money to pay bills whilst spending money to enjoy traveling for self care. And feeling weird when I was in Dr. So another configurator to this, you know, on your FYP for you page on tick tock, you can just scroll through and sometimes I don't know these people are so this one content creator and I'm gonna have to sit with that as well. And Mitch, like, and I'm paraphrasing, like, okay, yeah, well, yeah, I'll go on trips, and stuff like that. Yeah, I want to be around luxury. You want to relax and everything but you have somebody else taking care of you. And I did not agree with that date that she had, but I understood where she was coming from and that's what I'm talking about when I went to the Dr. Because like I just said, I was feeling When I was in der because I was surrounded by people that look like me, but they are workers, you know, they're cleaning up my room, which whenever I have a hotel room, I try my absolute best not to destroy it. And I also try to leave a tip if I can, for them, for the person who cleans my room, and so they were giving me voting beverages. And they were being so nice and trying to communicate with me as I spoke Spanish and English with them, because I shall know. I'm not fluent in Spanish. I was intermediate at one point, but I'm not anymore. So when I went to Dr. Like I've said, Google Translate, which that helped a lot. But certain words I did not know and stuff. So they were just very nice and accommodating to me when they didn't have to be because they could have easily said to me speak our language, because Spanish is the official language within Dominican Republic, but they did not you know what I'm saying? And I tried to be respectful of them, like this is their first language, which is Spanish, let me try to talk to them in their language and stuff. And they were okay. And they were accommodating with me. You know, I intentionally tried to speak their language, I intentionally tried to show gratitude. And I'm overthinking here, but I know I have a bit of privilege out with my privilege. I try to be respectful to others listen and learn when others and diverse situations speak about their struggles. I hope you get where I'm going with this. Okay, one last thing. What I mean by that is again, so in the kink community when I was with my community, I'm pretty sure I said this before, but I cannot repeat myself. I repeat myself. But because I can see well, and I can hear well, I didn't understand and nor did I think about two people who were in the community about the disabilities that they had. So one person, she's she can't hear but she wears, mess up that word. Starts with a Z, and I know will mess it up. So I'm not even gonna say, but you know, she sometimes will have she wears it or show have I think our phone says so she can hear what's going on in the conversation. So once I'm over at the dungeon, we were playing a game and because by this time, I know what she was going through. I was I wasn't trying to speak as if she wasn't capable of speaking or she wasn't capable of hearing. But I was trying to like, auto quote, translate for her because I still want her to feel like you know, she had the opportunity to participate and stuff. And so I would like I was literally next to her, like saying things and we were in a group trying to have a group discussion, pain, playing on Family Feud. I loaded art and stuff. And the next day, she was telling me how thankful appreciative she was. And when I started the podcast, I reached out to her and I know she didn't have to tell me anything if she didn't want to. But I was just curious. Okay, this was a sincere kind of curiosity. about hey, you know, if you listen to podcasts, and if you want to answer me, what do you do to listen to podcasts and stuff? And stuff? So it's like me a kid trying to be inclusive, as much as I can. Because, you know, because I can't hear. I don't know what it's like to go around not being out there. Or with people who are legally blind, or who are blind. I don't know what it's like to experience that so again, with me wanting to be inclusive and stuff, so I guess I can't that's what I'm trying to say that out that it makes sense. But anyway, in conclusion, I know it's a daily struggle to be a writer and decolonize your brain, but I know you can do it. You got us the revolution will not be televised. On the job, that's where I give you my best jokes and we laugh together are now today's joke. One tectonic plate bumped into another and said sorry, my phone. Good. My fault. Well, I guess that's my cue to leave.