10 symptoms of Spiritual Oppression: Suicidal Thoughts

The quiet moments can be the loudest—when a plan for “relief” starts to feel like the only way to make pain stop. We tackle the reality of suicidal thoughts, share Kalina’s journey from repeated attempts to lasting freedom, and lead a prayer for those on the edge. We point to faith, community, and practical next steps for anyone who feels trapped by despair.

Transcript

Framing The Series And Theme

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It's time for some soul food with your host, Bishop Vera Joshua. Nights of Despair. Will it ever end? Paranormal Activity Series.

Naming Suicidal Thoughts

Inside The Spiral Of Despair

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May the God of the Bible bless your life. Once again, together with this paranormal activity, every week we are praying against one spirit, the spirit that attacks you. And today's episode is about suicidal thoughts. That is the third one. I encourage you to go to the previous videos and watch about depression and undiagnosable disease. Today is about suicide. You are going to learn the story of this lady Kalina. She had in suicidal thoughts. The first time I swallowed pills. The second time I put a gun to my head. She had the suicidal thoughts. What about you? Perhaps you have the gun loaded. You have already a knife. You have already pills to take your life. Yes, just uh as you see now, you have a bunch of pills. You want to overdose, to kill yourself. You have over there the rope that is ready for you to hang yourself. You don't need to do it. I'm going to show to you right now what suicidal thoughts is all about.

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You're completely exhausted, physically, mentally, emotionally. The weight of everything you've been carrying feels unbearable. And no matter how hard you try to push through, it just keeps getting heavier. You've reached a point where giving up feels like the only option left. It's not just a fleeting thought anymore. The pain has lingered for so long that you've started to think seriously about how to make it all stop. You've thought about the details, planning a way to finally escape the overwhelming pressure and sadness that never seems to let up. Your world feels dim and distant, like it's covered in a thick fog that clouds your thoughts and blurs your vision. In this state, ending it all begins to feel less like a tragedy and more like relief. You just want the suffering to end. And right now, it feels like there's no other way.

Scripture And A Different Path

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There is a voice in your head. This voice that's always telling you, take take your life, kill yourself. You have this suicidal thoughts. Your mind is so confused. The scripture says over here, this I said, I came to give you life and life more abundantly. Just life is a blessing, but more abundantly, he came to give you this life. You don't need to take your life to solve your problem. What you need to do is take this life that you don't want, put in God's hand. Let God do the rest. Prepare the couple for after her testimony. We are going to be back here to pray for all of you.

Finding Church And Deliverance

Baptism, Understanding, And Joy

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I felt like I wasn't wanted in this world, so I tried to commit suicide. Um at the age of, I think I was 20, I tried to commit suicide. Um, and I tried to commit suicide again at the age of 25. I tried to commit suicide again. So I had three suicide attempts. The first one, I held the gun to my head, um, and I didn't put the bullet that I didn't put the bullets the right way, so when I shot it, it didn't, it didn't go off. The second time I swallowed pills, and then the third time I the bullet was correctly in there. When I shot it, it just twisted. My ex put me into a place where I got bakeracted because I was trying to attempt suicide for the fourth time, but this time I made sure the gun was loaded the right way and everything this time. So when I got bakeracted, I was there for three days. I always wanted to be isolated in the dark. I really didn't want no friends. I couldn't trust nobody. But that was all in my mind. The root of the depression was me growing up in a household where my dad was an alcoholic. So he used to come home, he used to beat on my mom. Like our household basically divided. My mom is an assistant in the church, and she's been trying to invite me to church for it since she's been to come into church. So one Friday I came, and that day, no kidding, I felt like the pastor was speaking directly to me. It's like if you're suffering depression, if you're suffering anxiety, if you're suffering from any type of um thing that makes you feel like you're not wanted, that's a demonic spirit. I received a strong prayer of deliverance that Friday. That Friday was like everything that I was basically praying for the past three months because I came to church January. So everything that I was praying for, I received literally that one service, that one Friday. He said, um, cast out the demons. And um, he came and did a prayer. He touched your head, he anointed you with the oil, and it was like you really felt like God Himself came down and delivered you from everything. I was like, I want to get baptized, I want to give my life to God, I want to be renewed, I want to be refreshed. So the next day I went to, I went and got baptized. Then you notice that he also left something behind, and that's the spirit to also guide you so you could continue on that path, continue on that journey. And when I tell you when that spirit came on me, it was like I it's not no filling, because it's the spirit isn't a filling. It's like my mind, now I could literally understand more. Like it's a better understanding of the scriptures, it's a better understanding of what's going on. And I've never in my whole 30 years of life was able to understand scriptures ever. I was like, what is this gibberish? I never could understand it. But now it's like the words are are literally coming at me, and it's like, okay, eat it. I'm sorry, I was trying not to cry. Oh.

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Come on, Kelina, you got this. You got this. It's a tears of joy that I could tell. My testimony is to help people and save people from where I came from because I didn't have this. I didn't have nobody come tell me their story. I didn't have nobody to come lead me or guide me or tell me, you know, hey, I've been through it. So I want to be able to be that voice. I want to be able to be that person, even if I don't care about what nobody thinks, because I'm doing this for God. I'm not doing it for nobody else. I'm doing this for God. He needed me to come to this church to let people know that this the universal church really changed lives. It really does. Strong prayers work.

Live Prayer For Freedom

Next Steps And Helpline

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She's now completely free, no longer crying. She now can smile, she's now free from the uh suicidal thoughts. And right now we are going to pray for you. Please get your cup of water and close your eyes. In the name of Jesus Christ, my Lord and my Father. We pray to you right now for this person that has suicide or thoughts. Lord, come to bless it this water. When this person drink of this water, let this perspose be free in the name of Jesus Christ. Amen. Put the water aside, raise now both your hands to have to close your eyes. In the name of Jesus, oh Lord. Right now we bless their hands to free, to deliver this person from all evil, suicide or thought. Place your hands upon your forehead, upon your forehead, close your eyes. In the name of Jesus Christ, suicide of thought, the spirit of suicide in the sponsor's mind. Jesus is in prison trying to kill himself, himself. Jesus Ponsor every single day has Jesus suicide or thought. I rebuke you evil spirit. And I command the spirit to offer the devil, leave the mind, them entirely to offer Jesus. Somebody in this family committed suicide. Somebody in this family took his life, her life. Not the same spirit. I rebuke you, evil spirit, and I command in Jesus' name, put your hands upon your forehead, you say after me, in Jesus' name, suicide or thought in Jesus' name. You take off your hands, say get out and never return. Be free right now. Be set free. Amen. Take now your cup of water that is blessed, drink your water. Amen. Praise God. You are free. The Lord has set you free from this suicide thought. Now, what is the next step? You are going to watch this video now, you are going to have the helpline, you are going to have the website that you can find us, you can text us, and we are going to be available to assist you. Next week, we are going to talk about constant headache until we finish the 10 symptoms of spiritual oppression. May the guard of the Bible bless all of you. Share this link, this website with somebody. God bless you. Have a good one.

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