Episode 120: Our 7 Days of Sex

“I love wanting you so badly I could tear your skin off — and slowing down enough to feel it in my whole body.”

We didn’t set out to make this an “experiment.” We just had sex one night, remembered how fucking good it is, and said: what if we did this every day for a week?

So this is the real story of what happened when two new-ish parents, with a one-year-old co-sleeping, two businesses under one roof, and not a lot of free time… decided to make sex a daily devotional practice.

Some nights were primal and filthy, some nights tantric and slow, one night was just a blowjob (with all the frills), and one night flopped completely. But every single day cracked something open. More play. More hunger. More aliveness in the house.

We’re not handing out prescriptions here. We’re just telling you the truth of what happened when we made sex non-negotiable for seven days straight.

Here’s What We Dive Into:

• Day 1 in Jacob’s teenage bedroom (Father’s Day sex, primal as hell)
• The reality of parenting + co-sleeping and why intimacy gets shoved aside
• “The tantric night”,  soaking, breathing, and being with what is
• Blowjobs as ceremony (why Meg refuses to do them without the frills)
• The dark masculine: ravishing, claiming, and holding hunger with consciousness
• How anal only works when there’s deep surrender and turn-on
• The night that didn’t work, and why forcing sex never feels good
• What seven days taught us about variety, discipline, and devotion

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And I loved, like I love wanting you so badly and then, like, slowing down. I mean, I just like wanting to, like, like, literally tear your skin off you and, like, and just rip you apart. And it's like, such a it's such a beautiful energy to be able to not just have like, localized in your genitals, but to feel it through your entire nervous system and your body and just playing with that. And there's something so sexy and you even say this to me, but like, there's something so sexy about feeling how much you just want to fuck me and get off. Yeah. And also feeling you not choosing that. There's something so sexy about your ability. To. Hold that energy and be with that energy. And also name, it's almost like the dark masculine name, the part of you that just wants to like fuck me like an animal. Yeah. And like rip me apart and just like, like come. Yeah. Yeah. And then me feeling that in you, which is so hot. Yo, yo yo lovers. Welcome, welcome, welcome to sex, love and everything in between. Where the O'Neals. You're here with Meg and Jacob. And this is the. Place we have really uncensored conversations about sex, intimacy and relationships. Well, super excited you're here. Enjoy this. Episode. Hi my loves, it is Meg and I am here to tell you about claimed the immersion happening here on the Gold Coast at the end of November. We only have four spaces left, probably less. Now, whenever you're listening to this. This is the. Third time I'm going to be running this experience and it is. It is life changing, relationship changing. And I'm not just saying that this is the feedback I've gotten from the close to 20 something women that have been through this experience. I designed this experience for the woman that is wanting, aching, desiring to be claimed and ravished in partnership. Now we have a mix of women that come to this immersion. We have women that have been married for decades. We also have women coming that are currently moving towards partnership. They are currently moving towards meeting the man that they're going to do life with. And this is an incredible experience that gets to prepare you for that. In these three days, I'm going to teach you the art of being a woman that deeply gets what she wants in partnership, that feels deeply fed and met and satisfied. And I'm not only going to give you the tools. Right. And this is a really big part of this immersion. I'm going to offer you the tools. I'm going to teach you the art. You're going to leave the room with practices and tools to use in the moment with your partner, or in a future moment with your future partner to be able to get more of what you want, to be able to evoke more of his power, to be able to feel more deeply satisfied in met in your relationship. And we also really work in these three days schematically with your body to unplug from any patterns of control you might have. Because let's be real, if you're listening to this, you're probably a woman that wants to be ravished and claimed in partnership, and you still find yourself trying to tell your partner how to do things or telling him, hey, I want to be led, but don't lead me like this. Lead me like this. You should have done this right. You can still feel patterns of control really alive in your body. So we really work deeply to start to unplug your body from trying to grip control on your man or future man, or on life itself, so that you can truly be a woman that is able to be claimed and able to be ravished. And also a part of this beautiful experience is, a really deep one of a kind, indescribable ceremony that my husband Jacob comes in for, which is called healing. Your relationship to the masculine ceremony. I have no words for this ceremony, and I don't want to share too much because it's something you have to be in the room for. But this experience really, again, prepares your body to be able to let go of any resentments you might be carrying, any hurt, any pain that the masculine has created within you. So that you can really meet that, liberate yourself of that and experience a relationship with the masculine, a man that you truly, deeply desire. So my love, this experience is happening the 29th of November to the 1st of December here on the Gold Coast in Australia. Like I said, this is a super intimate experience. We have less than four spaces left. This is application only. So go over, DM me on Instagram. Just a word. Claimed for the details or you can head straight to Meg O'Neill on E! I double.com/claimed-immersion. So claim dash immersion for the application and all the details. This is like I said of an incredibly life changing but also relationship changing experience. And I can't wait to be in the room with you for these three days. If this is what you're going to choose. Big love. Oh hey. Hey lovers. I'm so excited for this. You just love being around me. I really do. I just said to Jacob, I don't even care if no one listens to this. I just want to talk to you right now. This podcast is just a ploy to spend more time with me first. Not just this. You saw me from my job through network marketing. Next thing you know, we're doing Instagram TV's together back in the day, iGTV series. Yeah. Then all of a sudden we're running relationship programs together. And I just. Want to be around you. I don't blink because 6 or 7 years later, here we are spending more time than ever together. Not really. No, not really. We have. We like our space. We do. We have a lot of saucy conversation on the podcast for a while. I think that's why I'm really excited. You also had a lot of coffee this morning, and I feel like I'm. You're very turned on by life right now. I am motherhood, you're rocking it. Business. You're rocking it. Thanks. Relationship. You're rocking it. Strength training. I go to the gym now, got. Crushing deadlifts every minute. On the minute list is I just copy every. I. I don't know the names. The other day they were using some like acronym and I was arms. Or PS or something. And I had to go. They had this big conversation. I was like, I don't know what that is. Can someone tell me what that means? Yeah, I had to ask. When I was talking about strength and conditioning, I was like, okay, I know what strength training is, but I don't want conditioning training is I need someone there like, that's just cardio. I was like, oh, okay, cool cardio. I know that word. Yeah, but we're not here to talk about strength. Is that is it kind of is it kind of. I got a. Ton of. Exercise. Sexy size. Yeah. Where would you like to start my love. So this episode is called our Week of Sex or seven Days of Sex. I don't know what we're going to call it. One of the, one of the two and the two. We are new ish parents. Boy is almost a year old. And the reality of having a baby co-sleeping with a baby. So having a baby in a bed, means intimacy is, a little more challenge challenging to. Choose these days? Yes. When you have, like, I don't know if anyone understands the stages of relating that. Level one, level two, level three from David Data. But a baby is level one codependent. It does not understand, it doesn't read the room. It just does whatever it wants to do. And it's extremely say you got to feed it. You've got to look after it. There's a whole lot of things that come with that that become barriers to intimacy. Yeah. And there are wonderful things like I love having a child, but I definitely notice that our intimacy and our sex life radically changed, just you, because just you to the access that we have to each other as lovers has been drastically reduced due to the fact that we have a child. Like, it's just the nature of parenting. Yeah. And I feel like our intimacy, like our connection and like feeling deeply connected to each other has hasn't really wavered so much. As parents, I feel like we have such a solid foundation and that's so important. I think we really, genuinely love each other. Like, I actually like you, and I like being around you, and I like our life, so it's like, it's. That's always a good thing. It's like. But the. Yes, but the physical. Intimacy, has there's, there's been more times where it's been, very spaced out. Yes. In the last almost year we still had some great sex. Yeah. But definitely have. The quantity of it has been a lot less than usual. And also we were talking about this. We are a couple that maybe at the beginning like we've been together 11 years, coming up on 11 years, maybe at the beginning we were having a lot of sex, but we've never been a couple that had sex every day or huge amounts of sex. We've had very good quality sex for a long time, and I think both of us choose that. We're never gonna we've never been a couple. That's like, let's just get it done. Yeah, we know, like, I need you around. I don't feel a neediness around sexual. I said like, oh, if we don't have sex every night this like, oh I need, I need, I need, I need, I need I, I feel there hasn't been like that neediness. And unless we've gone like ten plus days it's like oh hang on. Like we need to reconnect here. Yes. And that's probably our like you usually it's like ten days of like if it's been a week or ten days, it's like okay, we like, you know, come on. Yeah. We're more in parenthood. It's like a month. Yeah, yeah. And so we were in Jacob's childhood bedroom. We had a video. Go, and we'd been at your parents. Place for like 3 or 4 nights. And on the final night, I don't even know. What. We could just feel. It'd been a while. Maybe three weeks since we'd last had sex, maybe longer. Probably three weeks. Yeah, maybe three weeks. And I think that day it was Father's Day. Oh, it's Father's Day. Yeah. So maybe I, I can't remember, but maybe I'd been like, you know, wait, wait till tonight. You'll have another gift. Yeah. I don't remember if that's going down, but. Anyway, language. Is normally a little more graphic than. That. Oh, like what? Share with the people. What do I usually say? Say to you? I'm going to suck your cock. I'm going to suck the soul out of your body through your cock. Just you. Are. I are incredibly crushing. Yes. And so we. Were just really hungry. For each other on that particular day. And then it got really? We didn't go to bed till late, and I didn't think we were going to have sex. And you'd gotten into bed. It's probably like 1130. This is at your parents house. And then I think we were like, oh, I don't think it's going to happen, but it's tired. And then you land over and was like, let's just have a kiss. And as soon as you kissed me, it. Was just on. It was on. And then he said later, yeah, I knew that. It's something about releasing expectation. Yeah. It's like, oh, we release the expectation that it's like you need a catalyst. Like something that like lights the spark, sparks like, oh, that's that's really fire this baby up. Let's turn it to 11. Oh. And we had incredible sex in your childhood bedroom. Can you stop saying childhood. But I was a teenager when I moved into that room I was 11 in. Your. Team bedroom. And then after we do that I think I don't know. Which. Of us made this up, but we were like. It was me. I'm the leader. I'm the this girl. And I was like, let's make it. Let's my head let let's let me take the lead here. I know, I suggest, I think what happened was we were both like, oh, that was so fucking amazing. How do we forget how good that is? And I remember we. Had sex a few months ago in your. Office, and I literally said this to you. I said. How how do we forget how good this is? Like, how why aren't we doing this every moment of every day? Like, why, why don't we prioritize this more? And so we had a moment like that after after making love. And. Then, yeah, we we were like, let's. Let's commit to seven days of sex. Let's commit to seven days of sex, which I don't think we've ever in our relationship had seven, not even on our honeymoon. I said, I don't think again, we we just. Yeah. When I think we have great intimacy and that carries us like that carries us. We don't rely on sex for intimacy. That's a very. Yeah. So like I can feel deeply connected to you through other means. And I think because we have similar values and we both enjoy similar things, we built such a solid foundation of love and intimacy that sex is like the cherry on top. Totally. Why quality is really important for us. And we don't I don't feel that we've ever really forced ourselves on to relate or force the need for sex onto the relationship. But this was a whole I was like, let's actually, like, commit to this as a practice. Like, what if sex became like a, what? It's like a daily sex. Daily sex was like a devotional practice for us this week. And we had, like, we got to have fun with it. And I think that that was that was such a shift in my I think it was a great shift because before we were like, well, let's allow the energy to build and when we're ready and when the time allows, we will have sex. But now, because of the, Little the little creature, the little nuggets. Yeah. But now that our life is, is is more full, those moments and the energy and as, easy to cultivate organically without directing more of our attention towards, hey, let's fuck. And the reality is, is, you know, we've got two businesses under the one house, we've got a house that needs cleaning, a garden that's still needs looking after, and like, we like, there's so many there's that life happens and it's so easy to sweep this under the rug or allow it to be like, oh, we'll get to that later on. But for me, this was like, let's make this the one thing that we crush every day. Let's have sex, let's fuck, let's do this. And then everything around that will just trust it. It'll it'll happen the way it needs to happen. Yo. What's up? It's Jacob here again. I just want to drop in and remind you about the gathering of men. This is an incredible men's retreat that's happening on the 3rd to the 6th of October. Here in the Gold Coast hinterland. Tickets are only $999. That's for four days. 15 incredible experiences. We're going to have 30 world class facilitators. We're going to feed you incredible food, put you through an an amazing rite of passage so that you can step into and cultivate your masculine leadership. This is in service to you and all that you care about. So if you're a man who's ready to step up, if you're a man who's ready to live fully in alignment with the truth of who you are, and you're really ready to do that in a way that's appropriate, then come and join us at the Gathering of Men. We've got an incredible lineup. We've got an incredible, incredible piece of land that we do this work on, and we'd love to have you there. Hit my Instagram bio. It's Jacob O'Neil. There's a link there. Click on it. Go out and check out the page. Grab your ticket and we'll see you on the land in the circle on the 3rd of October. Let's go. And I love that you just spoke about it being like a daily practice, because that's what it was. And we'll get into more details because it kind of tells detail. But if I think about like when someone when you devote yourself to a daily practice, whether this is like going to the gym, meditation, yoga, like whatever it is, it's like, and this is this. Is the true. You know, essence of discipline. It's like you show up to that practice, even when you don't feel like it. I don't I think the gym is just like a perfect example because I'm a gym junkie now. They need the gym three weeks in a row. Some gym four times more. But yeah. This I do like in order to. You know, devote yourself to that practice. It's it's knowing that you're not always going to feel like it and yet you're still going to show up. And I think there was an element of us waiting for the time that we felt like having sex, waiting until both of us one tired, waiting for our son to be asleep, waiting for both of us to feel like having sex. And there's so many. There's a lot of external variables. Variables that when you have a really full life. And now, as parents. For all of that to line up when our son is asleep, when someone else has our son is very, very unlikely. And so to wait for that, we weren't having a lot of sex. So just coming into this week of sex was really this remembering of, oh, we've actually got to hold our physical intimacy and our sex life as this practice. And it's something to prioritize that we're not always going to feel like it. And that doesn't mean because I teach women this all the time. This doesn't mean you're just letting yourself be penetrated or letting your partner have sex with you when you don't feel like it. I'll get into more of that final day of sex. It's not about doing it when you don't feel like it, but it's like show up to the practice and be with those feelings. Like, be with the part of you that doesn't feel ready. Be with the part of you that doesn't feel turned on and let that be alive. Yeah. Let that be part of the practice. Yeah. And that's the and we can speak about this but that like what gets to outcomes when you don't try and push any of that away. And when you just show up as you are is I felt in the last week that's been so beautiful. Totally. And it allows you to redefine sex for you if you have it, if you've got a very narrow version of sex, narrow definition, like for us, it was such a beautiful thing to like, have seven days of sex and feel like the difference in each day and feel that. But also feel the excitement and the giddiness. Be like, oh, have the fucking today. Like let's have goes that like, let's do it. What are we going to do it? How's it going to happen? When are we gonna do it? 1138 39 that was a common variable. It was at 1130 at night. I think that, yeah, the I don't know what I. Was going to say just then. What where do we want to go now? Do we want to start to talk that that's how I was going to say. That was one of my favorite parts of last week, too, was we probably unlocked different flavors of our intimacy and sex life that we haven't actually unlocked before. We tried different things, not because we're like, let's try different things. It's just because we were having so much sex that it was like. Oh, what? It doesn't feel true. We've, you know, had three days of fucking. Okay, like just getting all that, like. Primal energy out on. On the fourth day, like, oh, like. Neither of us really feel like. Oh, let's just be. Let's just just be in the more, like, tantric, presence of sex. I'm not saying we weren't present with the others, but it wasn't that, like, primal animal. Let's fuck. Each other. It was. Like, get comfy. Let's soak into that. He said what it's called soaking. The Chad. Yeah, I think it is. But, like, that's just. That's your heart soaking. Just a moment. Yeah. Like I think it's there. Yeah. But then there is a tantric term I don't actually know it. But it's in that that book we read, I don't actually know the term, but it's, it's literally when a man puts his, it can be, you know, soft penis inside a woman and then literally just breathing. Yeah. And that's something we, you know, played with. Well thank you. Once you went soft. Don't give it away too soon. Like you're going to start a day one. Day, one Sunday. Go my childhood bedroom. Day one was day one Father's day. Great way to finish the day. Like you said. Like the kiss was kind of the catalyst. It was like we let go of the expectation, the kiss and then, like, I came around and, pretty much pounced on you. I just started I don't do it now. I started, like, writhing. Yeah. Kiss me. Because I had promised you a blowjob. And when you'd come into the bedroom, it was like 1130. And I was just. I think I was like, water. And I was feeling really, really tired. So giving the caliber of. Blowjob that. I wanted to give just didn't feel. Possible. True. And so we let that go for like, yeah, just. Give me a kiss. And then as soon as we kissed. It was on and you. Came around the right side of your childhood. Bedroom is a. Hostel of my trophies and photos and Lego and. Truly. Yeah, we made love. And it was like, yeah, that was like the primal part of us came alive. Was like, yeah, this is animalistic. It was so much fun. And I do enjoy that feeling because something I noticed when we were having a lot of sex last week, I didn't feel, especially at the end of the week, that like, primal, so when there is a bit of space between us being physical and having sex, there is that time for it to build. And that, yeah, it's a hunger. It's really it's like a primal hunger. It's like when you don't eat and you get hungry and it's like, oh, I'm ravenous. I want my mouth filled with food. That's what I feel like when we haven't had sex. Fill me. I'm quite aggressive. Yes yeah I do. Day to. What. Have a day. To I don't even remember. It was in in your office. Oh. Day two. We drove all the way back from Louisville. So we drove like ten hours. That's right. I got back with a baby. With a baby big big day. We go. Back. We had dinner. You all fishbowl if I remember correctly I skipped dinner. Wanted to stay in ketosis to keep the energy up. But like yeah we put a little bit and it's the same thing like the same story came up. I was like do we really need to have sex six last night. Why do we do we really want to commit to this. We've just had a huge day. Use it again. We've left this length. What do. We like? Yeah I think do we both jump in the shower together? Yes, we did that night. You'll remembering. So I'm going. To be I can't actually remember. I'm I think. We did both jump in the shower together. And like just like don't even if you're not into showering together like, I'm not a big I like to be in the shower by myself and just have that. That's a bit of me time. Yeah. And we have diff. I like to stay in the shower forever. And you like, have 32nd showers and showers together. Just not like someone's going to be called. Someone's not under the water. Like. Yeah. Feel so like we, we I'm not having shower like sex in the shower person I don't I don't get how people do that. We're not into that. We're not a sex in the shower a couple, but we're not really selling the shower together. But I really just like getting naked. Yes. You know, being in the shower, rubbing up against each other and like, it just it started that the it got the ball rolling in. And I was like, oh, this is on again where we're going to go to from to. And then we went like went into my office and the office is my office. Like, you can see into the bedroom where, oh, she's asleep. So it's like a good angle. Yeah. And yeah, we just like, I just faced it on here. Was that when we did anal. Yeah. Do don't tell them that. Oh yeah I want the details and. Yeah I filled all your holes like the dirty little hole that you. Oh yeah. That was really amazing. I think there's still that primal part of us. Yeah. Totally. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. That was like it felt there was an ease to that as well. It was like even though we didn't really feel like having sex. Then as soon as we got in the shower it was just yeah there's a, there's a feeling of that kind of sex and we'll see that that doesn't always happen with us. But when it is on, it's on. And yeah, I feel like in my own turn on there is when there is that hunger, it's very easeful to just be in the moment and be there with my body, because access to like that, that build of energy and that build of pleasure, I don't go like in and out. I don't think about other things. It's just like I'm I'm in my animal body in this moment. And that was very. And I feel like if we do speak about anal, I need to be in that energy to be able to open. Yeah, my butthole. To have. Sex. Because that's for anyone who wants to play in the anal or already does it is it's like to enjoy that experience and not only to enjoy it. For that to be quite an erotic, pleasurable experience, there needs to be such a depth of turn on and opening and slowness and respect of that space. Yeah. So that, like when I'm in that primal feel, every fucking part of me, like that's when anal just feels so easy to get to that place and also so fucking delicious. Yeah. And I feel like once you like that primal part of us, it's like you can still. You don't have to rush it either. Yeah, you don't have to rush to get it, but you get to like. Yeah, yeah. Like the sensory experience of just like exploring each other's bodies and being and then like, oh, this doesn't, we don't have to get anywhere but like, fuck, it's like so good. And you can, like, feast on each other. Like you can really like ravage. And I really love the, the language. And I like the dialog that starts to unfold. As always, I'm really, really like, explicit. Oh we have to pause this part. Yeah. Yeah. Cause it's fun cause you're looking at me like I'm a fresh slice of meat. You know, chilling. I'm feeling hungry. Yeah. And I think like back in if we rewind right to the beginning of our relationship. All. The way back. I don't even remember. I have a really bad memory, guys. I remember a lot of things. Yeah, but, like. I'm just thinking of, like, how long we would have had sex for. Probably. No. I feel like we had, like, a routine. Like there was a routine to the sex. Yeah. And the duration of blackout. And not just like you being inside of me. I don't consider that sex, but like, the great. Like, that's just not sex. But the duration of, like, start to finish might have only been a small amount of time. Maybe ten minutes, 15 minutes. No, don't tell him that now. But I'm just I'm not saying that was a you thing. I'm just saying that's what I thought sex was. And, like, even I love that you said even when we're in that primal animal, kind of energy out. And I don't really remember exactly the second day, but. Hours and hours and hours. But it could have been like we're talking like 45 minutes, maybe, maybe even longer hours of, like, building and being with that and playing like, you know, it's not just like, okay, wait, animal, stick your cock up my ass. Like, no, like I just really I think that's an important piece, especially again with. Yeah, just like, especially playing in that space of anal or just like, really wanting to have deeply pleasurable sex, especially as a woman just honoring that time and being in that energy and like, not racing to the penis and vagina or penis. All the climax. Yeah, I think that's like you can enjoy animalistic sex without needing to get somewhere still. Yeah, I love that. And I loved like, I love wanting you so badly and then, like, slowing down. I mean, I just like wanting to, like, like, literally tear your skin off. You and, like, and just rip you apart. And it's like, such a it's such a beautiful energy to be able to not just have, like, localized in your genitals, but to feel it through your entire nervous system in your body and just playing with that. And there's something so sexy and you even say this to me, but like, there's something so sexy about feeling how much you just want to fuck me and get off. Yeah. And also feeling you not choosing that there's something so sexy about your ability. To. Hold that energy and be with that energy. And also name. It's almost like the dark masculine name, the part of you that just wants to like, fuck me like an animal. Yeah. And like, rip me apart and just like, like come. Yeah. Yeah. And then me feeling that in you, which is so hot. But also what wouldn't be hot is you just doing that without any. Awareness or, Attunement to my body. So there's, there's this real. Yeah. Just really want to, like, presence. The fact that like that dark masculine, like, oh, I just want to rip you apart and ravage you is so hot. But I only find it hot when a man has been able to contain that energy and be really, intentional with that energy. I. What I take is, I know what I want. I will say what I want, and I will allow what I want to transpire while whilst not losing awareness of what you need as well. So like I'm going to get what I want. However, I will not come at the cost of your pleasure or your your your your body. Yeah. It will not come at the cost of your, at the cost of whatever it is that you need as well. Yes. And I think that's where consciousness is important. Like having a feel like knowing like how I touch your body. What I'm feeling from you is, is just as relevant as my desire that's moving through me as well. They're both valid and both necessary for a really epic experience to take place. I also just want to present what you said I'm going to get what I want, like yes. And underneath that is also if something came up for me where I was like, this isn't feeling right anymore, or there was something just there and I didn't want to have sex, you would honor that. We've had that happen many times. I told you that straightaway. Like it doesn't happen. But then the next morning we have, like, fucking wild sex. Like when we did the second engagement. And I remember, like, you wanted that, you were like, oh, so we're going to have, like, we kind of tired, full. We've been we've been playing with the energy and we just ended up laying down and then falling asleep. Then the next morning I remember just like, fuck you in the ass up against the wall. And you were just like, oh, this is what I wanted. Yeah. As and you're like. Commentating as you like coming. And I'm like, it was the funniest thing, but it's like. I knew what I wanted. I knew I was going to get what I wanted, but I was not attached to win. Yeah, that was going to happen. I was willing to wait because it's worth it. And there's something, and I'm sure every woman listening feels a sense of like, oh, like, like safety in that. And yes, it's and it's such a fine dance because we as women, there is something really sexy. I can't speak for all women, but the women I work with, a lot of the time we want to feel the hunger of our man. We want to feel that dark, masculine quality of like claim and ravish men and like, oh, I want to take you. And we want that energy to come with such a huge degree of respect and attunement and consciousness. That. And also this like a piece. Sorry. There's also a piece of I don't know what word to use there, but like also like a patience or like if, if you want, if your hunger wasn't to be met in that moment, you would be okay. There wouldn't be like a tantrum about it. That would be like a you didn't give me what you wanted. Like you said, there's a I know I'm going to get what I want. It might not be tonight, it might be tomorrow. And I know the way to get what I want is by honoring this woman and her body and her needs and really attuning to that and really pressing my consciousness into that. There's a key difference that I, you know, that I think here is like when you receive my cock by choosing to be taken and that's met with my taking, like when I feel you press up against me and like, receive and like take me inside of you like that, we can we are so like, I'm so close to this that when you do that, I'm like, this is the point where my taking and your being taken is being met in like, in harmony. And I can feel and like the way that you like you literally your body literally writhes and adjusts. So like, like, like consumes me and it's like it's this beautiful moment of connection. Yeah. Which really I find is like we connect in so many other ways, but, like, sex is like we're lovers. We're in a monogamous relationship. There's a it's a necessary part of our lives to prioritize this. So this is why running on day two. But like day two is such a such a vibe. Yeah. Also when you speak about that like so much of our life, we do feel intimately connected. We feel intimate parenting our son together. We feel intimate when we lie together. Not like there's so many moments where we feel our hearts deeply connected. Yeah. But there is something so different about physical intimacy. Where it's a spirit, there's I truly believe sex is a way to meet God and meet God within our own body and open together like it's an embodied spiritual practice. Where we and and sharing that. Right. Like sharing that together, being in that moment where we're both devoted to opening our bodies and, and being this like conduit of pleasure and sensation, but also attuning to each other's hearts and offering each other a hot. It's just like there's nothing like that. There's nothing like. That. So fucking good. Okay. Day three, day three and a half to remind me what a day three was. We sit in your office again. I think so, yeah. Did I. Did I was that one right when you. When I was looking you out and you came hard on my face. But I do. Remember why is my. They're all merging into one. Yeah. I'm, I'm having trouble remembering day three. Day three, when I was at Woolies grabbing things and you were. Like, I was at the health food shopping mall, and you were like, What did I say? Grab, grab? Oh, yeah. Yeah, let's let's see what day that was, because that'll give us a good example. Yeah. I don't actually know if we had. Did we have anal? Oh, I need you in the made you. Yeah. You remember I was looking here and you. Yeah. Yeah. Oh. What did I say? This is such an explicit. This is so sweet, I love this. I feel like we started the podcast, like, back in the day, two and a bit years ago now, almost three. We really had a lot of explicit episodes, and I feel like the people want more of that. The people. Aka Meg O'Neill. Everyone's obsessed with. I know you all want to know about us fucking, So you well, that day I actually said I was going to come in and fuck you, and then I didn't. Oh, yeah. Because nanny had. Yeah. Oh. Did someone know? Yeah I said, I said I'm coming in to fuck you before. And then he gets back with, oh, I should be ready in two minutes. But that was Wednesday. This is Tuesday. Because it's day. Three. Okay. Tuesday. I don't know what we did on Tuesday. Okay. We've we've got a day missing this one. I gave you a blowjob out here. I thought that was like day five. Yeah, I think it was two. Day three. It was very. Day three was more animalistic sex. We don't really remember. It's all blurring into one, but. But we did it, and we had it, and I think it was at 11 or 1130 at night, I guess. Oh, no. Wasn't this the day where I was like, I don't really feel like it. Remember how I came into office? And I was just a bit like, and I was tired. And yes, this okay. I'm pretty sure this is this day. Yes. And I asked to be spanked and stuff. Oh, yeah. Three. Yeah. I think that was day three. Let's just say. Yeah. Okay. Yeah. Well, then, There was one day where I came in and. This was, I would. Say three because. Yeah, you're being incredibly difficult. Yeah. You're taking it. You're just taking longer. It was just a long a different a different entry point. Yes. Yeah. Oh different. Yeah. Energetically. Because I remember coming into the threshold of your office and you were still I think you were doing a bit of work and again, it was, you know, late. We are not owls. If you didn't already know. That about us. Who did? And I came in and I was like, I just yeah, I was tired and all I want to do was go to bed. And I came in and I was like, oh, we know you're doing the thing. Oh, yeah. Exactly. And you were like. And you held it so strong. You were like, yes, we are. And I said, oh. And you were like, what's that? And I said, Where I'm at. Now to where I know I. Need to be to be open to for you to, you know, penetrate me or to be in pleasure and just like, feels like such. A huge. Distance. That's right. Yes. And then you said something like, I'm, I, I'm, I'm, we've got until midnight. Yeah. No it wasn't, definitely wasn't 1130 was for the study because you it was probably like an hour and a half into you were like. We've gotten we've gotten to I've got until midnight. We've got until midnight. And I'm not leaving this room until I take you to that place. Until you come. Yeah. Until you come. And it was like. And then you also may. There was also an element there of like, I'm. I'm willing you said something which is so beautiful where I or you said something like you're you don't have to be anything else than what you are right now. It was just that reminder of like, oh, I don't have to come in and being like, yeah, like, especially because the Last Sex felt really animalistic before that. I don't have to be fully fucking turned on right now. Come as you are and. Will work with us, work. With what we've got. And yeah, I think you just like, worshiped my body and really turned my body on. And I knew if this is the night that where I like wanted to be. You needed. A little bit. And you needed some spanking. And you needed a few little, like, dirty things with spit in your eyes. And that was really me. I was realizing that, and this is really important as a woman, especially, to know what it is that you need and be able to communicate that because you were touching my body in beautiful ways, and then I could feel like, what I need tonight, like the containment I need to be able to open and let go is I need I need a spanking. Yeah. Like, I need to be. Need to get. Into your. Body. I need to be drawn deeply into my body right now. I need to be activated. Okay? Yeah, I was just. I just had this feeling like I should. I remember to hit record. I thought that before I was like, this. Better be fine. Yeah. That's right. Yeah. I just had a moment. I thought, this is a good. Yeah. I knew that I needed the containment to be so deeply in my body, so my mind couldn't be anywhere else, and I couldn't. I couldn't get out of this. And I noticed when I'm spanking, you also need something to like. I need to wrangle your mind with, like, a like a, like a fantasy or something. So there's like, there's the getting to your body naughty girl. And also this is what's happening. And I think. Yeah, you go kick off like I. Want you to like. Yeah. I want you to know what I'm going to do to you. And this is just going to happen. And then we're very monogamous. But then I talk about another woman coming in and, like, feasting on you, and then that instantly, like, I'm sure that you're more than 12% bisexual, like the woman. Very right. Yeah. And like talking about that and bringing, like, another layer. It's like I can feel your mind with, with a fantasy rather than the feeling of like, rather than where you want to go with, like, this is too hard. Yes. I'm like, let's actually like brings bring some material in for your mind to feast on. Yes. Whilst I'm bringing you into your body. And then by then the way that your hips are moving will tell me whether you whether we're moving in the right direction or not. And you start to literally grind and feel and I'm like, here we go. And then all of that. And I just want to say one thing. Just when I said I'm very bisexual, I really love and I've never heard this term before, Layla Martin spoke it and she said she's she's bisexual, but she's hetero romantic. And I feel that way. Yes. Like I would. I want to be in relationship and in partnership with a. Man. Yes. But having sexual experiences with other women, not that I've had very many, but that like that, that's a turn on for me. Yeah, but being in partnership with another woman that I'm very much attracted to men in that in a partnership way, I just that was really clarifying for me when I heard. That female is such a G at communicating things like creating, yeah, a language for how sexual or how the dynamic plays out for other people. Yeah. And I just think when I realized that when I was feeling myself a bit in my head that night and you were you were touching my body, you knew you were being so nourishing and beautiful with me. And I could just tell, oh, I need a different texture here. I asked for it. I said, I think I even said, oh, I have a desire right now. And may I share it? And like, yeah, I said I would love to be spanked. And. And then you were spanking me. And then, I think I said, oh, I love it. I would, I would love you to, to say some dirty things to me. You know, it would love you to tell me what you're about to do to me. Yeah. So that was really beautiful. And it was not that it was an edge for me to speak what I desire, but it was really cool to just see in that moment, I was so clear on all what I need. What what do I need in this moment? I think to we've had, like discussions in the past of, like, me taking responsibility for your turn on and your, your pleasure and like that, you asking those desires could have easily been seen as like, oh, you're outsourcing. But no, you're asking for what you want. And we're in a dynamic where that can, you know where that is available. Yeah. I think the outsourcing piece and this kind of we had a kind of energy like that on the final night, but I used to do this a lot in our partnership where I would just expect you to know what I wanted. So yes. Moment. And just for anyone listening, if this is helpful, there's a difference between you just lying there and expecting your man to know exactly where to touch you and exactly how to take you from not feeling turned on to feeling really turned on and, you know, open and ready in pleasure versus, I'm not feeling turned on right now. I would love to be turned on and in pleasure. It's my responsibility to communicate what it is I need to get to get to that place and arrive at that place. And a lot of that also, he can touch all the right places is a lot of that is like you also being able to internally take yourself to that place and it's beautiful. There's some sometimes in our partnership where you take me there before I'm even aware of what I need, and you just you are in a deep place of leadership in that moment and attunement. But to think that you just need to find the most masculine man, and he's going to do that every time you make love, know, like to feel deeply satisfied in sex and in intimacy, you have to be attuned to what you need in each moment. And it's, it's it's a it's a relationship of two people, of two bodies. So you must be willing to communicate what your body needs if you, if you're not fully open as well, or if you're feeling like you want a different texture, then you have the responsibility to support the the art that is being created. Day three. Done. Day four. What was day four? Was that the. Was that the one where you text me saying buy lube? Yeah. Did we have anal again? Oh, know. Is that when you put. Your finger. Up. My. Yeah. But I just said if you go to get lube for your tight little ass and I didn't get a reply, but you did get the like. But I came in five minutes later, I brought it home. And I got it off a shelf which a 75 year old man was stacking. He was stacking condoms, and I was like, hello. This is from my ass, boss. I she's in the bed. Literally pulling down my top so he. Can have boob in. What's so funny? What happened? I feasted on your pussy, fingered your ass, and you came home. Did you? Then. And then I fucked you. And that was just a it's just a solid session. I don't feel like there's anything magical or crazy about it. It was just a really. It just felt really good to touch your body. Yeah. I feel like every time. Again, the last night. Was, But every every night we had sex, it was just like, oh, I feel like I've, you know, I know. Right? And commentate everything. But I was like, oh. This is so good. Why are we always cheating? Oh my gosh, this is this should do this every day. But it was I just felt. So connected and. Every. It really just. Felt like this, this. Ease and effortlessness most of the nights of just even though it was really late and even though there was some moments of like, oh, do. We, are we really going to do this? Yeah. Just very quickly finding that flow and. Yeah it was beautiful. Yeah. If you are visionary woman, if you are a visionary woman that is ready to amplify your love life, your leadership, your entire life, if you are ready to stop performing in your business, if you are ready to be claimed in partnership and really feel satisfied in partnership. The doors to Full Spectrum Woman are opening once again in November, and they are opening in a way that they have never opened before. This whole experience is being transformed and uplevel and elevated in a way like it never has before. So if you had this kind of woman, I highly recommend you get on the waitlist because everyone on the waitlist is going to get first access discounts and special bonuses. So my love, you're going to want to head to. Or you can DM me on Instagram at the dot, or just the word waitlist, and I will send you the link to get on the waitlist. 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Cause that's what I is. A what a consolation that is. Damn. And so I was going to say where we did it, but I didn't know if, future podcast guests will. Oh, yeah, it was on that say right there. On this day, right? Yeah. And. Yeah. And then you were like, yeah. Let's just do a no frills. Just do a no frills, nothing. Do you, do you say that on purpose? Well, you said let's. Just do a no frills blowjob tonight. I kind of like, let's just get this done. Yeah. Let's just take this on this. And I was. Excited to give the vlog. Like, I was like, I. It wasn't as if, like, oh, let's just get this done. But we were like, okay, this is we don't both feel like we have a lot of I. Don't have much to. Give. So, so let's I'll just give a later. And then you were like, yeah, no frills blowjob. So we came out here and I. Don't have too many different. Like you don't need to tell me too many things. I don't need to be touched. I was like, no, you say the word blowjob and I'm instantly like, yeah, yeah. And I've thought of something I want to pocket and go back to, And so, yeah, we came out here and I gave you a phenomenal blowjob and frills. Afterwards I came out and I was like, I don't. Do no frills blowjobs. I like, literally looked you in the eyes. I was like. I do not do. No frills like those. You are always going to get the frills. There is only one way I do blowjobs, and that's with all the frills. I. And this. This has been a journey for me to get to this place, but I feel like the most powerful, I mean, I feel. Like a powerful motherfucking woman in my most expansive level of power when I'm sucking your cock. Like that. And it is when we think about it, it's like I've got this, this very, sensitive appendage in my mouth. Like it's such a vulnerable experience for you. And it's such a. Yeah, it feels. It feels powerful. It feels like there's a I guess there's a seat of like. Like this dominatrix. Kind of like being in control, being dominant, leading the experience. And I used to give blowjobs and maybe back in the day, when we were first together from a place of like, oh, I know I'm going to get you off, but just kind of like doing it. Now I'm like, this is a ceremony, and I'm going to like, you know, I'm really here to worship you and give you a, give you a, an experience. Unlike any other. Yeah. And so I really I came alive as well. Yeah. You got up and then started cleaning the house. I think I started dancing, I was just naked, like dancing around. It's like going clubbing. Can I just say that last week I literally said that to you. I was like, I don't know if it's all the sex for having or what, but I just feel like going. Out and dancing, like I just felt. So yeah, I. Just felt so alive last week and this is what I was going to say before. I would say you're like, you're not someone who is like, alive in your sexual energy, like every day. And I don't I don't mean that in like a, an offensive way. I just mean, like, you're not I wouldn't you're not an incredibly, like, sexual person in terms of, like, always wanting to, like. Yeah. Is that is that okay I said that. Well you said it I outwardly I don't express sexually. Yeah. Like I'm not in my eros like moving through the home being like oh I mean I'm, I mean rupture and I mean pleasure delicious juicy I don't that's not. But even like, you're like, oh like this season. And maybe it's a seasonal thing too, especially when you're really in your work that might not always be fully present. Last week you would like come up to me most days and be like. Oh, I can't. Wait to fuck you will like you. Oh my gosh. I'm feeling like there was. So I really felt. You're. Like you're fuck. You're like. Feeding that. I was feeding my fuck. Yes. In the in not just in sex, but in the, you know, the the leading and laid out that was like. Yeah, it was, it was present. Yes. I would agree. Yeah. And I felt that we. Have not spoken out of turn. I do leave that in. And I felt that in my own body like just, just like, yeah. Eroticism in that, that pleasure that was just filling my body and wanting to dance and move and feeling really alive. I would say that having that energy moving through the home, I felt happier, I felt more open, I felt more fun, and I feel that you're the same. We were. Very playful. Yeah, I felt a playfulness, a laugh, like it felt jovial. And in that there's been like, oh there's a lightness to life. It doesn't it doesn't have to be heavy. And I feel like the prioritizing of sex amongst the other ways in which we connect has like really exacerbated this, this joy, you know, home. Yeah. Yeah. I want to like I want to oh yeah. I want to fuck you. I want to hang out and be present with you for dinner and ocean like this. And I'm excited by my work. Life has, like, life is colorful and vibrant. And I think it has a lot to do with, like, feeling pleasure and having an anchor for pleasure and then letting pleasure be a part of life. I've just realized something. Day three was actually when we did the quote unquote smoking and day four where we spoke about day four. Was. The one where you were like, I'm going to when you get me out the ass. Yeah. And you spanked. That was all in one. Oh, it was all in one. And day three was when, remember when we just lay there? You I. Lay on top. Of you. Yeah. You put your cock inside of me and we just breathe together. That was. Yeah. Let's revisit. That. Yeah. Okay. Sorry. I'm saying that was day three. Let's just. Guys. So those listening bring together day three and four. That was actually one experience. Yep. And we're going to track back to day three for the tantric night. Yes. So yeah we might turn this into a seven day that turns into. Seven seminar course. Seven eight. Know this is a cool thing. Like I think this is work. What's out for our next product with live videos? Come on. So yeah, I think it was day three where we were both like after having a few days of like, wild sex. Maybe it was. Who knows what it was. We just were both feeling more like, yeah, we want to be connected, but the energy is lower. We also didn't want to move from the bedroom. Yeah. And you just put yourself inside of me, and I just lay on you, and we were just breathing. You set up on top of me, and we were breathing together, right? And then I was like, oh, we could just stay like this, and. Yeah. And then put yourself inside of me. Oh, yeah. That's right. And there was like this really gentle. There wasn't there was no primality to it. It was just like, oh, I want to be connected to you want to be inside. You know, this is real gentle. Gentle moment. And then you laid back and I laid back and just like in this, like, really beautiful position of just like being able to breathe deeply and connect with each other. And it was a six as well. That lying back one. Oh, my legs like that was that. Day six. Oh good day three and six. So day three was just when we breathed with each other and then we like we both kind of had these like wait. Yeah. But it wasn't. Necessarily a huge climax or anything, but. Day three and I doubled up. Yeah. Sorry, I'm a. Problem when you have. So much sex. That's the problem. I can't remember at all. Yeah. Day three was just. We didn't actually lay back. We just breathe. Yeah, I remember that being, like, quiet. We were just breathing. It was so beautiful. And we were just breathing down into, you know, our genitals and just breathe. Oh, and then I was this circular breathing. Breathing and, Yeah. And. And I've forgotten the name of micro overalls. Yeah. The micro breathing. And. Yeah, we just it was just, like, such a delicious experience. Like, just like these gentle, gentle way. Felt. Regenerative and nourishing. Yeah. And then I was, I think I was just like, I feel complete and I got off when we went to bed. Yeah. Got off like, got off, you know. Yeah. We didn't. I was nice. Myself. And then I guess. Giving off to day five blowjob day six was more of like a tantric style sex. Where I don't even know how we got into that position. That was it on me. I don't think we've done that before. I didn't even. Know I'm not. Even though I teach sex, I more teach the energetics of sex I do not. If someone asked me name five sex sexual positions, I can tell you. Missionary doggy 69. Yes. Reverse cowgirl. For how much? I don't know any more. Wheelbarrow. I'm sure that's fun. I thought. Oh, I will tell. You would love the Eiffel Tower. You'd love that. But yeah, I mean, I like that card. Gay. Yes. Yeah. So we I don't even remember how we got into this position or how it started, but. It was so it was like a stretch. It was like yoga. And yes, it was like working together. We were in that yum yum position. Yeah. So it's like Jacob's seated in a, like, cross-legged seated position. Then I like, hop on top of him in a seated position with my legs around him. But I find that a bit uncomfortable because it's like my my back. I'm so used to like sitting with my hips kind of like forward, and it's kind of concave. And I just felt, I don't like that position. No. So then we kind of got I just laid back and we were both like, oh, this feels delicious. And then, well, you said that. I said, this feels really good. I don't say this, but you know, I'm not there yet. With my pleasure. And then you put. Yourself inside of me. I asked for that. Yeah. And then I was just. Breathing, and it was so. Yeah. So good. You managed to, like, feel your hips were, like, oscillating, and you higher and higher on top, like, getting, like, hips on top of me and just, like, gyrating. And it was just like once it was like that kind of like, oh, we don't actually have to. We're not getting anywhere. I just like enjoying this. Yeah, it was just a lot of just a lot of pleasure. And then I saw on Wake Up. He did. And then I respin. Set him. Back to site, and then we go back. In the yes. And I can't remember how we. Closed. I touched your clitoris and you came. Yeah. And we were like, fucking. And you came. And then a little man woke up and I was just touching myself. And yes, you were like. And then he fell back asleep, and then you leant over and finished me with you? Yes. Dirty little mouth. Yes I did, this is. Slightly. This is. There's gonna need to be a warning on this one. I think this is like, What do they call it? Smut. That's very smutty. Truly. I feel we haven't talked about this for so long, so I've done it with. Maybe we have talked like this before, but everything has been so different than, like, all the last podcasts. Nothing has been as graphic sexually. Yes. But we we almost had that was a that was a really nice night. I really I really loved that. And that was again one of those things where we were like, oh, we've never tried that before. And just because we're really in this energy of like making love that that was and really being with, okay, you know what, energy is alive tonight. I would say that was probably the most that felt like the newest experience. All the other experiences like, I know, I know this, I know these. But then that night was just like, oh, this is where it's going and how it's unfolding. I love it. And then I'll final and I. You where are you? So those of you that. Don't know my husband is a celebrant and officiates weddings, and he's phenomenal at it. Incredible. So you had a wedding to officiate, and so you didn't get home till late. To last night and. Yeah. And then you were home. This is on the Saturday night. And I was in like. I'd gotten in all kind. Of I hadn't worked for like days. And I finally, you know, not a PM. And I had a workflow. And when you're in a workflow, you're not as open to know. And I was like in the middle of something as you go home. And then when I finished that, it was probably like ten once we again like 1030 finished, like, and you had a shower and then I showered and then. Well, okay. And you text me. Oh, you sent me this beautiful voice note when you were coming back and said you were just like, I'm so grateful for our life. I'm so grateful. That was just such an amazing, an amazing wedding. And I got so much great feedback, and I'm just so grateful. And when I got home, thanks for being with that little man. And when I get home, I can't wait to just worship your body and nourish your body and love up on you. And you told me that earlier in the day too, that that was going to be the intention. And so then you lay me down in your office and you just massage me, and you massage my feet. And you were like, doing lots of almost like Zen tai on my legs. And. It was. Not very activating. There's many of you wanting to, like, build energy. It's more about grit. It's very grounding. Nourishing and then you massage my head. And I had to get up a few times to feed arch. But again, that was the beauty of it, too. Like coming back and being like, oh, this is part of our practice. Like, you know, we were just both really available for that. And then and then you touching me was so like, massage and being me is so fucking beautiful. And as part of me that, and then I think I got to a stage of being like, are we having. Sex? Yes. Because it was the last night. It was like the high achiever in me was like, are we getting this done? Yeah. Not getting paid. Plus, yeah. We're gonna we're going to do it. So finish what we start. And you were like, and I was so tired because you were massaging me. And that was part of me. That was just like, oh, I just want to go to bed. But then I was like, no, let's do this. And yeah, you would, you would. I was not in a place then to like I didn't feel turned on. I felt tired and very, very nourished and relaxed and delicious. So you started to touch me. But I was just like my pussy was just so sensitive. And then would just eat. It was just a time of me feeling a bit. Then I'm taking too long and I'm actually going to get to that place. And, and it was just probably 45 minutes of like. Trying to get there. And then we did finally get there. And then afterwards both of us were just like, oh, it's really funny now because I think the truth was and it was like, we probably could have closed out, that had the foot massage. And the glorious massage and the head massage and then been like you even said, this gets to be sex tonight. And I was like, no, it doesn't. This isn't sex. This is. When cheating. We're making up our own rules because I did. I wanted the satisfaction of like having seven days. And yes, I think that I think this is a beautiful learning moment. And like a beautiful teaching moment, to have like, that kind of sex is just not as satisfying, like both of us felt like we pushed. Yeah. And we tried to get somewhere that wasn't the truth of the moment. And I had an orgasm, but it honestly just didn't hit the spot. Right. It's like that orgasm where it's literally just like, I need the genital sensation to feel like I can take it off. And you are always so attuned, like you knew that was kind of energy. And you even said afterwards you're like, I wish I just, I, I could have said no. Like, yeah. I, yeah, I could move on in my feeling towards it instead of like trying to give you what you wanted. Yeah. Rather than honoring what you actually needed. Which I knew as soon as I'd finished messages like, I think that this is it. I could have just, like, got my dick and tapped it on you pajama like done that. That counts. But we had sex. You had a little. Like, you went inside of me, and it was beautiful. And then I think I was chasing the orgasm night. Yeah, yeah. And. And that's not a bad like. It's all like, great information. It's like, oh, we had, like, we had seven days of sex and we had such a variety of sex. It's such. A. Full spectrum experience. We didn't 69 that's like the, the one thing that I know I'm. Only into that when it's like so I'm feeling so animalistic and it's been so much build up and then. Yeah, we need to factor that into our next seven days of sex when we do that. But, We get that we only have sex in seven day increments. Yes, Fifo, fuck in and fuck off. What was I saying? Yeah. Mood to have that. Like, that variety of sex. Like it's all we now. We have such a vast experience. A vast experience or vast. Yeah, yeah, the vast experience of what we've of what we've had of sex. It's like now we like, oh, cool. We know what we like, but we don't like. We know what works, what doesn't work. We know that what it feels like to push, what it feels like to force what it feels like, say like a, like a wrapped into, like compassion. It's so beautiful. You look like I've learned so much about myself and like. And about you and about what's what feeds our family and our life. Yeah. And I think coming back to what I said at the beginning, like when, when meeting sex as a practice, like a daily practice, I don't think this is going to be a daily practice. Or is it. Well if we keep talking about it, we're talking like almost everything down here. Like when's it going to be an hour so we. Can turn. On and get home. Yeah. Yeah. Like I think we're going to have a lot more sex now than what we have had. And like, I think coming out of this, we've again, it's almost like the week was so important to choose that anchoring to that. So that we can really somatics like remember how glorious practicing that together is so that we can prioritize this in our life 100%. Again, it's like going to the gym. But if you. Went to the gym for seven days and they were like, oh yeah, I remember how good I feel, and I remember how like how much energy I have, and I just remember how turned on I feel for life when I'm going to the gym. It's like, that's what I feel like in our relationship and in committing to that. So yeah, it just feels so good. So fucking good. Yeah. I also just want to present the fact that a big thing, I teach a lot of my work that I teach as well for women is sometimes you need like this was just a season and maybe seven days is sex isn't the season you're in. Maybe actually you need two months of penetrative sex so that you can learn how to not have expectations on your body and how maybe you're a woman that feels, your man's hunger and he's not actually closes you, and that actually has you feeling, closed down and disconnected because you don't want to kiss him or start anything because you fear that it's always going to lead to penetration. And I might not be ready for that. It's actually a beautiful practice. If this is what you're experiencing, to have a certain amount of time off, penetrative sex or any anything, any boundary that you have. So maybe it's all anything genital related, so that you can learn what it feels like to just be in the turn on and the attraction outside of when that's off the table. So I just want to preface that, that this was something that really worked for us because at the season of life we're in, and just that was what was true. But we're not. You don't use this as a prescription for every relationship. We're going to use it. As a way to get what you want, like to like, oh, I want more sex. I'm just going to use this as a ploy. Like, we were like, cool, this feels exciting. For both of us. For both of us. And it's also like this season that we're in. We're like, there's a lot of other things that are a priority right now. Can we actually make sure that the the love of ship is steering in the right direction? We make sure that our love is alive and romance is alive, and our passion is alive. Because when we're turned the fuck on and when we're feeding each other, our life gets better. So this was a way for us to to reactivate that and to remember the importance of sex, even when we've got a almost one year old, even when we've got stuff to do for our businesses, even when the dishes are dirty and the gardens over running, like all these other things happening, we must know that it's important to to feed this, this, this relationship and this. The physicality is so important and it's not something that needs to be swept under the rug. It's not something that you wait until the kids are grown up. It's not something that you do when you have time. You make time. So I think it's important that you honor the season that you're in and not just place this into your, your life because it's another thing to do. I've got one question. Yes. What was your. Yeah. What, what's, what's your biggest takeaway. Like what was your favorite thing about that experiment. Challenge. Well my favorite thing is how the house has felt outside of the, the fucking like the, the play and the fun and the, the I felt really open and light and connected to you. And I just, I feel like we've just been a real I feel like we've had so many like, feel like the quality of presence that we've had in the home is felt really nice. We both really loved up on each other and the the love is kind of overflowed into other areas of our life. Would you agree? Go. And then my favorite moment, I really enjoyed the tantric night, but I also really enjoy following you in the office. And I love when you want it. Like when I was talking about taking you and you being taken, I when, when, when we really harmonize and we're like energetically aligned and I feel that moment where you like, literally, like allow yourself to be taken and you receive me and I feel your whole body like surrender is it's unlike anything else. And it's such a like for me just feeds me. I feel powerful and I feel strong, but I also feel like deep devotion to you. So it's like this wonderful experience. So I love that those like that specific moment. They all my favorite moments. I love those. And for me, you know, I talk about this about. Anal all the time. But it for me to get to that place, it's because I'm. So. Open and so surrendered. It's like the practice that has, you know, when I'm in, when it, you know. Yeah. Deep pleasure in anal is only possible from a deeply open, surrendered, relaxed space. So I always just love that feeling of what it means. You know, I'm practicing in that moment. And then. Yeah, the tantric, more just subtle, intimate moments were really beautiful. And my favorite thing, it's actually been feeling your hunger and feeling your turn on and just feeling that, like. Yeah. And what the moments of that throughout the day, which is the play you're speaking off like you sending me texts or, you know, having a moment in the kitchen and like, yeah, just just feeling that the aliveness outside of, you know, the fucking hell yeah. I just want to check the URL for this, but I'm sure there's a bunch. Of, People listening to me like, I want more of this energy in my relationship. And the desire date is something that Jacob and I created. How long ago? Like 3 or 4 years. Oh, yeah. 3 or 4 years. Yeah. That's what. Really. I'm just checking what the URL is. So we say, yeah. We did the, we did that, we created it and we completed it. And then you, then you literally receive my cock in your ass. Not I remember it was like that. Not only not off. Yeah. Like we you go like. So I remember being so fucking turned on with like, we had to get home. Like it was like the hunger was real. So this is an experience we created for ourselves. When we got to a place, it was probably five years in. We're almost 11 years in to our relationship where we were like, oh, we want to like I was having a bit of a sexual a not a bit of a I was having a bit awakening. Yeah. And we wanted to like ignite and like try different things in our sex life. And so we decided to write heaps of questions down and then answer them separately and then come back together. So questions like, what's your deepest fantasy? What's the favorite? What's what's your favorite moment of of us having sex? What is sex to you? Yeah. What is sex to you? Just like all this. So we could have this really almost like, contained conversation around that and go away and tune into this and then come back together with such a depth of intention around non-judgment and just being a space for each other's fantasies, desires, you know, longings, all of you being. Able to have the conversation outside of the bedroom as well. Yes. Not having like the physicality of sex and the conversation around it all intertwined. It was like, okay, let's actually have the conversation in a contained way. So that when we do step into the bedroom, we've got this beautiful blueprint, this beautiful map that we can explore together. And it worked so well for us. Like I said, oh. We created this as an offering. It's only $27 and we've created it as a date night. So you can, do the questionnaire separately and then you come together. You know, facilitate a date night where you watch videos of us and we, you know, facilitate and guide you through expressing, you know, your shares and your desires and your fantasies and some beautiful intimacy practices. So it's so beautiful. We've had probably hundreds and hundreds of people do it by now. So I highly recommend you can find it in the show notes or just go Meg O'Neill. So now I double l.com/desire-date. Or you can just DM me on Instagram. Desire date and all the energy. Right on. That was amazing. I love you so fucking much I. Love you so much. Such a beautiful, beautiful woman. I love I'll keep going in that. I want to say one thing. I love every part of you and I can't wait to hit stop on this. Okay, well, I. Went I was just going to say. I will say, love. You always speak. You always say beautiful things about my body and beautiful things about just my energy and who I am. But last week, I just feeling like you. I want to just. Yeah. Okay, let's let's. Just go and do it. Bye bye. Thank you. Bye bye. Bye bye. Yo yo yo. Thank you so much for tuning in to another episode of sex, love and everything in between. Now, if you'd like to stay connected with Megan, you can head on over to Instagram and follow me at the Jacob O'Neal. And where can people find you over. At v Dot? Megan. Oh. Amazing. And yeah, guys, check out the show notes for all other information in regards to what we've got coming up. And yeah, we're super, super grateful that you guys are taking the time to listen in to this podcast. If you do have any topics or any questions, like I said, hit us up on Instagram and we'll see what we can do. Apart from that. Have a beautiful, beautiful rest of your day. Thanks for being here. Big, big love.