The Ceremony: Part 1 - Surrendering to What is

If you really knew me, you would know that I dedicate my entire life to following the calling of my soul and being guided by the love of the angels. The scariest part of following this guidance is the depths that it asks you to travel within yourself. 

When I moved to Mount Shasta in 2022, this move was 1000% directed by my soul's calling. A deep, unavoidable, yearning that said, “it’s time to go home.” I had big hopes for my life here in Shasta, fully believing that a new version of me was being born and abundant connections and success were in store for me. Unbeknownst to me, the Divine spirit had a course of initiations in mind - leading me to travel to those inner depths, once again - so that I could heal the lingering pain of my past. I persevered one step at a time, and that moment of HUGE transformation and rebirth finally came for me. 🎉 

I stand now, in the process of introducing you to my new self, Erin Harbin. But before we get to know who she is, I want to share with you exactly how she came about. Please do me the honor of joining me on a magical journey where I share how I pulled myself out of the depths of despair, received the most powerful Divine miracles, and transformed into my new higher frequency of self.

See you there,
❤️ Erin

Links:
Connect with me on Instagram
https://www.instagram.com/erinharbinofficial/

The Lake Is Medicine - Previous Podcast Episode
https://www.buzzsprout.com/2126188/13252522

Dr. Schulze's Website
https://www.herbdoc.com/

Irish Birthday Song
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sE0ZYg1FSHA



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The Ceremony: Part 1

I would define ceremony as:

An experience of collaborative flow 

with the energies and orchestration of Divine love, 

while embodying symbiotic action and receiving 

in an art like movement and expression. 

This is how I live my life.

I’ve surrendered into the orchestration of Divine love.

And I’ve moved through my life with this constant intention:

to continuously become the higher version of myself, 

for the benefit of all beings, 

so that I could truly fulfill the purpose and mission that I came to this planet to fulfill.

As I’ve navigated the year of my life, and the last few months,

I found myself at a crossroads. 

It actually wasn’t really a crossroads. It was more like the edge of a cliff.

So here I found myself in my life, standing at the edge of the cliff,

With the only way to keep moving was either to fall off the cliff - or quantum leap to the next plateau.

Falling off the cliff meant the doom of my life and health going downhill for the rest of my time on earth. 

So of course, the quantum leap to the next plateau is the only viable option.

but how? 

For me, this 3 month long journey, that is still in motion, is a ceremony.

It began in August, just after the time of my last solocast in July - the podcast episode titled, “the lake is medicine.”

At that time, I got moved into a process - one that guided me to begin a 30 day cleanse. 

When I was praying for guidance, and receiving the insight to do the cleanse, I was in a space of profound suffering - mostly in my body, but it also felt like every area of my life just wanted working. I felt like I was suffocating, drowning, and in my body, I couldn’t even stand being in my own skin. 

Not just in the way I was viewing myself, but I had been gaining weight without reason, experiencing some kind of intestinal dis-ease that brought extreme bloating for months and was experiencing other odd symptoms that were very persistent and starting to cause concern.

When I moved to Mount Shasta in 2022, this move was 1000% directed to relocate by my soul’s calling. A deep, unavoidable, yearning that said, “it’s time to go home.”

I had big hopes for my life here in Shasta, fully believing that a new version of me was being born and abundant connections and success were in store for me.

Unbeknownst to me, the Divine spirit had a course of initiations in mind - leading me to travel to my inner depths - so that I could heal the lingering pain of my past.

Over the last year, this showed up for me in a number of excruciating ways - and a lot of it has been documented in earlier podcast episodes.

The passing of my uncle, unkind and violating experiences within my new community, a gnarly car accident that I was lucky to be alive from, miscarriage, health issues, and near-death experiences that my parent’s endured.

Jeez - 

Perhaps you can relate to having “one of those years”?

Of course, there were a lot of miracles within each experience, and I’m definitely the kind of person who seeks out the lessons, blessings, and love within every tragic situation. I knew the angels were by my side, and after experiencing a “dark night of the soul” in 2018, this time I KNEW that one day things would turn around to my upmost delight.

So I persevered one step at a time, and found myself here in August, diving deep into this 30 day cleanse.

I was calling in a miracle breakthrough, 

asking to step into my highest version - 

AND I had no idea of the HUGE transformation and rebirth that was waiting for me.

The Cleanse:

I did Dr. Schultz’s 30 day cleanse which consisted of juice fasting, a raw food diet, and bowel, liver, and kidney regimens.

I Highly recommend Dr Schultze’s cleanses if you are in need of a mental, emotional, and physical uplevel. You can even find big results with his 5 day cleanses. His website is herbdoc.com and I will leave a link to his site in the show notes for you if looking into it further is pulling your heartstrings.

The thing about these cleanses is that they are a vibrational detox, - mental, emotional, physical, and spiritual. 

The whole 30 day process for me involved being present with my body, deep diving into emotional and mental wounds and baggage and purging it. Throughout those 30 days I had powerful life changing Divine occurrences - one a native american led sweat lodge, one with being with mama shasta and finding a heart shaped cave of the mountain, and ultimately, the magical experience I had on my birthday.

Birthday Surrender

It was my birthday on August 21st and I was at the end of my cleanse. 

I woke up in the morning, with the deepest urge to head straight up the mountain. 

I listened to this urge and I felt so grateful about getting to spend another birthday with Mount Shasta.

When we got to the top, I partook in the Mount Shasta Birthday tradition by listening to the “Irish Birthday Song”, this time from the car. It was POURING rain with low visibility.

You might remember this day because it was the heavy rain that was moving through the west coast thanks to hurricane hilary.

But when I got to the top of the mountain, and got out of the car, getting drenched instantly, I knew this was a special birthday gift from the mountain herself.

First of all, Mount Shasta has this magical way of honoring you with the most amazing Divine occurrences - especially on birthdays!!!!

And I was fully ready to embrace this, because 1) i was in need of a miracle 

and 2) I was just at the same spot the week before talking to the mountain and asking her for healing in our relationship.

During my cleanse, I realized that I felt wounded by the hard experiences I endured in my first year of living here, and that I had been holding resentment toward her and the Divine. I went to the mountain the week prior to ask for forgiveness, healing, and to restore our magical relationship.

Back to my birthday -

Before getting out of the car, I listened to “the irish birthday song”, one of my favorite birthday traditions. 

I got out of the car, getting immediately drenched, and realized that with the rain, my magical birthday gift was cleansing and renewal.

I knew I had to rise to the occasion and receive this gift FULLY.

So what did I do? I took off my clothes, got naked in the rain, and received, and surrendered.

I was not about to let this opportunity get passed up because I was too afraid to follow my inner guidance and get naked in a public place, in the pouring rain. 

I got naked, drenched, and completely surrendered on the ancient lava rock and mud atop of this powerful mountain.

It was my birthday shower of love, cleansing and renewal. 

It came with the promise of rebirth, of a blessing filled year ahead, and all the love I could have ever asked for.

Mount Shasta gave me the most precious birthday gift, by calling me up into her lap, in the pouring rain, and offering the most magical cleansing.

I’m so grateful and I will remember this birthday forever.

And it was an important milestone in all that transpired next…

My Miracle

As amazing as that was, when I completed my cleanse, the biggest, transformative, most precious gift that I received was the readiness, mutual commitment, and Divine timing for Holy matrimony with my beloved.

After nearing 5 years of being together, this special time has finally come!

Along with it came the readiness, mutual commitment, and Divine timing, to allow our future child to come into the world. We’re ready. Aligned, and both in full acceptance of the vastness of this spiritual calling.

This was my greatest gift.

Not only the readiness in itself, but also the Divine timing and energies of NOW are proving itself to be the most amazing, humbling, soul self honoring, unfolding that I could never have ever asked for. 

This time in my life is illustrating its magnitude by the conjunction of it all occurring between two major solar eclipses!

And if you really knew me, you would know that in my heart and soul, the power, medicine and magic of the solar eclipse, is one that illustrates my power as a unique Divine goddess on this earth plane.

The guidance that I’ve received is the knowingness that our child is ready to be conceived - around now- shortly after the solar eclipse that took place a couple of weeks ago on October 14th. 

And that for David and I, our wedding, our ceremony of holy matrimony, unifying us as a holy trinity, is ready to take place on the total solar eclipse on April 8th, 2024 in Buchanan Dam, Texas.

Woohoo!!!!!!!!!!

This is the BIGGEST blessing!

For real - 

My dreams are FINALLY coming true! And I’m so so so grateful. 

This is was I’ve always wanted my whole life, my deepest truest longings - for soulmate love and lifelong partnership, 

and to become a mother - a conduit for a special soul to come into the world and my heart’s desire to nurture that soul as a parent, a goddess, a wife, and from my true highest self.

And the solar eclipse is very significant to me and it truly honors my radiant soul self, -

and the Divine wisdom that I carry forth in this world through my soul’s purpose.

I mean, almost everything that I stand for and that lives in breaths in my expression is offered in teaching from the solar eclipse.

The Moon, The Sun, the coming together of masculine and feminine.

The intensity of initiation, milestones that usher in enormous change, and the spiritual shifts that take pace during this time, so that we can ALL fulfill the mission that we came to this earth to fulfill.

I learned this about myself in 2017, when the total solar eclipse in the western US was on my birthday, August 21 2017. 

A total solar eclipse is when the moon moves in front of the sun, completely blocking it out, and it becomes dark for a few minutes…

And In 2017, that was a time in my life when I had my last huge soul self initiation, a reclaiming of my goddess self, leaping into a higher vibration of my life. It was also the time of my last “dark night of the soul” where just like now, stepping into my wholeness was preceded by a long journey through dark tunnels of pain. 

So here I am now, READY for this transformation that is even bigger, even bolder, more significant, 

and has led to the birthing of the new me, Erin Harbin - 

Who is a completely new goddess frequency of who I am on this earth plane.

………………………………………….

I want to thank you so much for being here, for going on this journey with me. 

Thank you for being my witness, and for celebrating these amazing unfoldings with me.

I know that you are here for a reason, my soul sister, my soul brother. 

These are the kinds of experiences, transformations, and healings that we are here on this earth to experience. This is what Divinely Inspired Living is all about.

YOU have a mission inside of you that you came to this planet to fulfill. 

YOU have within you a radiant soul self with magic and gifts from ancient lifetimes that is ready to be unleashed and brought into full expression NOW.

So I’m curious, 

what’s awakening within you? 

How are you moved or inspired by my sharing? 

What kinds of magic and Divine miracles do you want to call in for yourself?

Let me know by heading over to my instagram page @ erinharbinofficial and leaving a comment on one of my most recent posts.

If you’re ready and willing, this is a journey of a lifetime.

One of connection and awakening that will also bring YOU the true transformation you seek. A transformation that leads to the manifestation of YOUR soul’s deepest calling.

…What happens next in my story is the most incredible, awe inspiring rite of passage ceremony that took place on October 8th.

This is where I truly stepped out of one identity and frequency, and into a new one. 

The day where I officially become Erin Harbin in my own mind, heart, and being.

On the next episode, I’m going to give you a play by play experience of this ceremony, and I invite you to join me both as a witness, and as a participant, because if you let it, it will mark the beginning of your own rebirth and initiation.

See you there.