{"version":"1.0.0","segments":[{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":10.89,"endTime":12.6,"body":"Hey everyone, thank you"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":10.89,"endTime":12.6,"body":"so much for joining us this"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":12.6,"endTime":15.15,"body":"weekend transcending humanity. I"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":12.6,"endTime":15.15,"body":"just want to let you know that"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":15.15,"endTime":17.1,"body":"next week we're not gonna have"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":15.15,"endTime":17.1,"body":"an episode because I'm still"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":17.1,"endTime":19.74,"body":"going to be recovering from"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":17.1,"endTime":19.74,"body":"surgery. But we will hopefully"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":19.74,"endTime":22.5,"body":"be back up and leaving a week"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":19.74,"endTime":22.5,"body":"after that. 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Love it."},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":1629.839,"endTime":1637.519,"body":"That is beautiful. So"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":1629.839,"endTime":1637.519,"body":"I'm going to do one the next"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":1637.519,"endTime":1642.019,"body":"ones are all kind of my personal"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":1637.519,"endTime":1642.019,"body":"ones will be shorter. So I'm"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":1642.019,"endTime":1645.439,"body":"going to do one more listener"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":1642.019,"endTime":1645.439,"body":"submission. 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Yes."},{"speaker":"Erica","startTime":2820.15,"endTime":2822.16,"body":"My mom doesn't watch"},{"speaker":"Erica","startTime":2820.15,"endTime":2822.16,"body":"this. And no, you cannot live"},{"speaker":"Erica","startTime":2822.16,"endTime":2822.73,"body":"with my mom."},{"speaker":"Taryn","startTime":2824.38,"endTime":2826.33,"body":"My mom watches this and"},{"speaker":"Taryn","startTime":2824.38,"endTime":2826.33,"body":"she loves it."},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":2826.36,"endTime":2833.5,"body":"Does she? Taryn? Yes."},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":2826.36,"endTime":2833.5,"body":"Thank you. That's yeah,"},{"speaker":"Taryn","startTime":2833.56,"endTime":2835.75,"body":"I think what episode a"},{"speaker":"Taryn","startTime":2833.56,"endTime":2835.75,"body":"couple of weeks ago. She's like,"},{"speaker":"Taryn","startTime":2835.78,"endTime":2838.27,"body":"Oh my god. That was so good. 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If you have any closing"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":2891.49,"endTime":2896.8,"body":"thoughts."},{"speaker":"Taryn","startTime":2897.04,"endTime":2900.7,"body":"closing thought I have is"},{"speaker":"Taryn","startTime":2897.04,"endTime":2900.7,"body":"people if you enjoy this podcast"},{"speaker":"Taryn","startTime":2900.7,"endTime":2904.51,"body":"that we do has meaning to you or"},{"speaker":"Taryn","startTime":2900.7,"endTime":2904.51,"body":"that you can resonate with it."},{"speaker":"Taryn","startTime":2904.96,"endTime":2908.5,"body":"For the love of the goddess"},{"speaker":"Taryn","startTime":2904.96,"endTime":2908.5,"body":"smash that subscribe button and"},{"speaker":"Taryn","startTime":2910.18,"endTime":2910.9,"body":"help us grow?"},{"speaker":"Erica","startTime":2911.92,"endTime":2919.15,"body":"Yes, subscribe, donate,"},{"speaker":"Erica","startTime":2911.92,"endTime":2919.15,"body":"recommend, share, comment, write"},{"speaker":"Erica","startTime":2919.15,"endTime":2921.97,"body":"it and like do all the things we"},{"speaker":"Erica","startTime":2919.15,"endTime":2921.97,"body":"need your love and support. 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So I"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":2938.65,"endTime":2942.1,"body":"trimmed down the cost of the"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":2938.65,"endTime":2942.1,"body":"show to about 130 a month or so."},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":2942.1,"endTime":2946.48,"body":"But, you know, the more the more"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":2942.1,"endTime":2946.48,"body":"the better. Because I'm"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":2946.48,"endTime":2951.97,"body":"unemployed and it's expensive."},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":2946.48,"endTime":2951.97,"body":"And this one is okay, that's"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":2951.97,"endTime":2954.1,"body":"just that's just a full on Delta"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":2951.97,"endTime":2954.1,"body":"flight from"},{"speaker":"Taryn","startTime":2956.56,"endTime":2958.42,"body":"using your dog. How dare"},{"speaker":"Taryn","startTime":2956.56,"endTime":2958.42,"body":"you?"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":2959.469,"endTime":2965.649,"body":"I know. She stinks."},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":2959.469,"endTime":2965.649,"body":"She's She needs a bath. So it's"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":2965.649,"endTime":2968.409,"body":"an adventure giving her a bath"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":2965.649,"endTime":2968.409,"body":"and you can't train her now. She"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":2968.409,"endTime":2971.949,"body":"will not let you surf. Let's go"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":2980.17,"endTime":2983.68,"body":"okay, well, thank you everybody"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":2980.17,"endTime":2983.68,"body":"for joining us. What is this"},{"speaker":"Erica","startTime":2986.56,"endTime":2987.88,"body":"standard Gabrielle show."},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":2988.87,"endTime":2993.52,"body":"Asha. What is it? This"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":2988.87,"endTime":2993.52,"body":"little scared? I leave it on our"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":2994.51,"endTime":2999.01,"body":"thank you for joining us on"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":2994.51,"endTime":2999.01,"body":"transcending humanity. I don't"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":2999.01,"endTime":3005.19,"body":"know what next week's episode So"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":2999.01,"endTime":3005.19,"body":"it's going to be I got, we there"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":3005.19,"endTime":3008.58,"body":"might actually be a week off"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":3005.19,"endTime":3008.58,"body":"after this one. Because I don't"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":3008.58,"endTime":3011.13,"body":"have anything planned. This"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":3008.58,"endTime":3011.13,"body":"one's going to come out after my"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":3011.13,"endTime":3012.99,"body":"surgery. And I'm still going to"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":3011.13,"endTime":3012.99,"body":"be in the hospital after that."},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":3012.99,"endTime":3015.63,"body":"So let's we can squeeze"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":3012.99,"endTime":3015.63,"body":"something in. But I don't have"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":3015.63,"endTime":3017.67,"body":"any. Any thoughts. So,"},{"speaker":"Erica","startTime":3018.119,"endTime":3021.599,"body":"in that episode, we will"},{"speaker":"Erica","startTime":3018.119,"endTime":3021.599,"body":"all go to Vanessa's bedside and"},{"speaker":"Erica","startTime":3021.659,"endTime":3024.089,"body":"interview her where she is. Hi,"},{"speaker":"Erica","startTime":3021.659,"endTime":3024.089,"body":"Alex,"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":3024.239,"endTime":3030.209,"body":"that would be kind of"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":3024.239,"endTime":3030.209,"body":"actually. Maybe I was thinking"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":3030.209,"endTime":3034.859,"body":"about doing a like a post on my"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":3030.209,"endTime":3034.859,"body":"ama YouTube channel the post up?"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":3035.879,"endTime":3038.669,"body":"Maybe I'll just pop that on"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":3035.879,"endTime":3038.669,"body":"there or something? I don't"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":3038.669,"endTime":3044.429,"body":"know. But thank you again,"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":3038.669,"endTime":3044.429,"body":"everyone. You two are beautiful,"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":3044.429,"endTime":3048.389,"body":"wonderful people. I'm so happy"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":3044.429,"endTime":3048.389,"body":"to have you in my life and the"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":3048.389,"endTime":3052.619,"body":"sacred this podcast and I"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":3048.389,"endTime":3052.619,"body":"really, it's the best. It has"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":3052.619,"endTime":3058.259,"body":"transformed my life. So and"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":3052.619,"endTime":3058.259,"body":"that's all thanks to you, too."},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":3058.979,"endTime":3061.469,"body":"So thank you, everyone."},{"speaker":"Taryn","startTime":3061.5,"endTime":3067.68,"body":"Okay. What? 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So because"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":3083.129,"endTime":3086.639,"body":"also it's allowing people to"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":3083.129,"endTime":3086.639,"body":"that that's part of our thing is"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":3086.639,"endTime":3088.769,"body":"it's hard to get everyone"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":3086.639,"endTime":3088.769,"body":"together with because y'all have"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":3088.769,"endTime":3091.829,"body":"such crazy schedules. And I'm"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":3088.769,"endTime":3091.829,"body":"not paying anybody here to be"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":3091.829,"endTime":3094.409,"body":"here. So it's, it's all"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":3091.829,"endTime":3094.409,"body":"volunteer."},{"speaker":"Erica","startTime":3094.59,"endTime":3098.58,"body":"So she has blackmailed us"},{"speaker":"Erica","startTime":3094.59,"endTime":3098.58,"body":"into being on this show. That's"},{"speaker":"Erica","startTime":3098.58,"endTime":3102.21,"body":"the dirty secret. Oh, yeah."},{"speaker":"Erica","startTime":3098.58,"endTime":3102.21,"body":"Yeah. So she hasn't. It's all"},{"speaker":"Erica","startTime":3102.21,"endTime":3104.73,"body":"volunteer, volunteer"},{"speaker":"Erica","startTime":3102.21,"endTime":3104.73,"body":"organization."},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":3104.85,"endTime":3107.88,"body":"Volunteer. Exactly. But"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":3104.85,"endTime":3107.88,"body":"it's hard. You know, we're all"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":3107.88,"endTime":3111.15,"body":"adults with different schedules"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":3107.88,"endTime":3111.15,"body":"in different time zones. So it's"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":3111.15,"endTime":3113.61,"body":"hard to get us all together. But"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":3111.15,"endTime":3113.61,"body":"so yes."},{"speaker":"Taryn","startTime":3115.67,"endTime":3118.94,"body":"Y'all have a great rest"},{"speaker":"Taryn","startTime":3115.67,"endTime":3118.94,"body":"of your day. I've still got"},{"speaker":"Taryn","startTime":3118.94,"endTime":3120.08,"body":"another Five hours of work"},{"speaker":"Erica","startTime":3120.71,"endTime":3123.92,"body":"Oh, that sucks. All"},{"speaker":"Erica","startTime":3120.71,"endTime":3123.92,"body":"right. Have a good day at work."},{"speaker":"Erica","startTime":3123.92,"endTime":3124.28,"body":"Taryn!"},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":3124.98,"endTime":3128.07,"body":"thank you for joining."},{"speaker":"Vanessa","startTime":3124.98,"endTime":3128.07,"body":"Bye"}]}