{"version":"1.0.0","segments":[{"startTime":2.614,"endTime":5.654,"body":"Hey everyone, this is gonna be kind of a rambling video."},{"startTime":5.654,"endTime":8.374,"body":"I know it's been quite a while since I've recorded."},{"startTime":9.254,"endTime":11.854,"body":"Just haven't had the spoons, honestly."},{"startTime":13.214,"endTime":23.114,"body":"So it is now Thursday, two days after the election, and I just wanted to just address some"},{"startTime":13.214,"endTime":23.114,"body":"things for some people."},{"startTime":23.114,"endTime":30.838,"body":"People ask me my thoughts, and I type things out, and yada yada yada, I post, I delete, I"},{"startTime":23.114,"endTime":30.838,"body":"post, I delete."},{"startTime":30.838,"endTime":41.678,"body":"whatever, so just want to get this out there for people to hopefully be able to find some"},{"startTime":30.838,"endTime":41.678,"body":"help in the advice I'm going to give you."},{"startTime":42.401,"endTime":51.144,"body":"It's very clear that myself and many others in this country are now considered the enemy"},{"startTime":42.401,"endTime":51.144,"body":"within."},{"startTime":51.958,"endTime":59.002,"body":"We have the Matt Walshes and the Nick Fuentes of the world that are full-on gloating about"},{"startTime":51.958,"endTime":59.002,"body":"it."},{"startTime":59.414,"endTime":61.494,"body":"yeah, Project 2025 was real."},{"startTime":61.494,"endTime":63.994,"body":"Well duh, we've known that the whole time."},{"startTime":67.607,"endTime":71.499,"body":"Number one for everybody, protect yourselves."},{"startTime":74.102,"endTime":75.582,"body":"Cut out toxicity."},{"startTime":76.323,"endTime":78.743,"body":"Reduce your footprint where you can."},{"startTime":78.743,"endTime":89.979,"body":"I personally am going to start shutting down my social media presence and I am removing"},{"startTime":78.743,"endTime":89.979,"body":"those that support hate from my life, from my presence, whatever."},{"startTime":89.979,"endTime":95.552,"body":"It's not easy, but it's okay to be scared."},{"startTime":95.552,"endTime":96.453,"body":"It's okay to cry."},{"startTime":96.453,"endTime":99.934,"body":"It's okay to be fucking pissed because I know I am."},{"startTime":102.976,"endTime":107.208,"body":"both surprised and not about the results of this election."},{"startTime":107.629,"endTime":115.593,"body":"If you want to know who to point at, to blame, whatever, there are other creators that can"},{"startTime":107.629,"endTime":115.593,"body":"give you better concept of that."},{"startTime":116.093,"endTime":123.737,"body":"Alex Cascio has some good things to on it, Chasing Oz, Danielle, she has some good things"},{"startTime":116.093,"endTime":123.737,"body":"to say, Tizzyent."},{"startTime":125.419,"endTime":131.081,"body":"You're not going to get that from me other than extreme disappointment in the 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done."},{"startTime":248.267,"endTime":255.81,"body":"My first recommendation would be to reach out to Planned Parenthood and see who they"},{"startTime":248.267,"endTime":255.81,"body":"recommend if they can't do it themselves."},{"startTime":258.866,"endTime":274.466,"body":"The right has been empowered and yes, I realize that the really militant and violent ones"},{"startTime":258.866,"endTime":274.466,"body":"are a minority, but those are the people that are going to be put in charge."},{"startTime":274.866,"endTime":281.358,"body":"We are entering a fascist state of this country."},{"startTime":282.218,"endTime":285.76,"body":"We are repeating what happened in Germany in the 30s."},{"startTime":285.76,"endTime":290.804,"body":"We are repeating the fascist situation in Italy."},{"startTime":293.446,"endTime":297.819,"body":"It's not time to say, to try to explain to these people anymore."},{"startTime":297.819,"endTime":301.491,"body":"It's time to protect yourself and protect your loved ones."},{"startTime":303.133,"endTime":311.028,"body":"We tried, we tried asking, we tried begging, we tried everything to stop this from"},{"startTime":303.133,"endTime":311.028,"body":"happening."},{"startTime":311.722,"endTime":314.804,"body":"But it didn't, by a huge amount."},{"startTime":315.765,"endTime":317.105,"body":"People didn't show it."},{"startTime":317.746,"endTime":320.947,"body":"So now we have to protect ourselves."},{"startTime":321.108,"endTime":324.629,"body":"So as I said, if you have a uterus, take care."},{"startTime":327.936,"endTime":334.311,"body":"For minorities, for the queer community, be vigilant."},{"startTime":334.992,"endTime":337.234,"body":"Do not be afraid to ask for help."},{"startTime":337.234,"endTime":340.116,"body":"Do not let anybody talk over you."},{"startTime":340.546,"endTime":343.68,"body":"I can speak on behalf of what it's like to be a trans person."},{"startTime":343.68,"endTime":348.864,"body":"I cannot speak on behalf of what 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don't."},{"startTime":386.887,"endTime":392.129,"body":"And it's, it's an entire cacophony of just utter complete bullshit."},{"startTime":392.129,"endTime":395.24,"body":"And what we need to do is stop inviting."},{"startTime":395.604,"endTime":397.734,"body":"We need to listen to each other."},{"startTime":397.755,"endTime":399.195,"body":"We need to act."},{"startTime":400.135,"endTime":402.236,"body":"I'm going to address allies here."},{"startTime":403.436,"endTime":414.38,"body":"Do not be the person that says, I'm rooting for you or hang in there or the worst thing"},{"startTime":403.436,"endTime":414.38,"body":"ever, which will flat out get a go fuck yourself for me."},{"startTime":414.38,"endTime":415.86,"body":"I'm praying for you."},{"startTime":416.12,"endTime":418.792,"body":"That shit doesn't do anything, especially prayers, prayers."},{"startTime":418.792,"endTime":420.501,"body":"It's such an empty fucking promise."},{"startTime":420.501,"endTime":423.178,"body":"I know I have religious people that"},{"startTime":423.178,"endTime":424.639,"body":"that listen to me as well and follow me."},{"startTime":424.639,"endTime":428.44,"body":"And I respect your religion for you."},{"startTime":429.641,"endTime":440.285,"body":"But those words are so empty when you're talking to somebody who is facing such danger"},{"startTime":429.641,"endTime":440.285,"body":"that we are."},{"startTime":440.798,"endTime":447.828,"body":"And it's the same words that we hear over and over again with people saying, we're praying"},{"startTime":440.798,"endTime":447.828,"body":"for Trump, we're praying for this, we're praying for that."},{"startTime":447.828,"endTime":450.249,"body":"No, we don't want your prayers."},{"startTime":450.249,"endTime":452.374,"body":"We don't want your best wishes."},{"startTime":452.374,"endTime":458.019,"body":"We don't want your phone to be ringing like mine just did."},{"startTime":458.019,"endTime":460.09,"body":"I need to silence it, because who is in Alabama?"},{"startTime":460.09,"endTime":461.894,"body":"I don't know anyone in Alabama."},{"startTime":464.574,"endTime":466.145,"body":"Anyways, we don't want that shit."},{"startTime":466.145,"endTime":467.386,"body":"I'm not cutting things in this video."},{"startTime":467.386,"endTime":468.596,"body":"I'm just, I'm just posting it."},{"startTime":468.596,"endTime":470.318,"body":"I'm just stream of consciousness."},{"startTime":470.519,"endTime":471.68,"body":"What we need is action."},{"startTime":471.68,"endTime":474.742,"body":"If you really want to be an ally, you need to show up."},{"startTime":475.323,"endTime":482.908,"body":"First and foremost, Cishet white men, you are our most powerful and influential allies."},{"startTime":483.79,"endTime":487.192,"body":"And there's not a whole lot of you that are on our side."},{"startTime":487.953,"endTime":494.718,"body":"you are going to actually face your own sort of discrimination that you are 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care."},{"startTime":688.796,"endTime":693.61,"body":"And my body no longer produces hormones naturally."},{"startTime":693.814,"endTime":699.454,"body":"So without access to them, I will wither away, possibly die."},{"startTime":699.454,"endTime":710.854,"body":"I had an experience earlier this year where Rite Aid Pharmacy fucked up big time and they"},{"startTime":699.454,"endTime":710.854,"body":"were giving me the wrong prescription for my estrogen injections."},{"startTime":710.854,"endTime":714.334,"body":"That was only 20 % of polyp in CETA was supposed to be."},{"startTime":714.694,"endTime":717.794,"body":"And so I was running on almost no hormones in my body."},{"startTime":717.794,"endTime":723.892,"body":"Since I've had both an orchiectomy and then a full depth vaginoplasty, my body does not"},{"startTime":717.794,"endTime":723.892,"body":"produce hormones naturally."},{"startTime":723.892,"endTime":728.523,"body":"I have to take artificial hormones in order to live."},{"startTime":729.184,"endTime":736.716,"body":"So I was running for about six months with with hardly any hormones and it quite literally"},{"startTime":729.184,"endTime":736.716,"body":"drove me nuts."},{"startTime":736.716,"endTime":743.075,"body":"wound up, if you listen to former episodes, I had a suicide attempt and I wanted to"},{"startTime":736.716,"endTime":743.075,"body":"possible lies for it."},{"startTime":743.075,"endTime":744.568,"body":"And I'm pissed about that."},{"startTime":744.988,"endTime":746.369,"body":"I don't want to go through that again."},{"startTime":746.369,"endTime":752.05,"body":"It was, I couldn't think straight and no one could."},{"startTime":752.266,"endTime":756.027,"body":"get me to think straight because my body was working against me."},{"startTime":757.568,"endTime":766.17,"body":"I know this is a rambling message and that's why this is going to be a YouTube video and a"},{"startTime":757.568,"endTime":766.17,"body":"podcast."},{"startTime":766.17,"endTime":767.59,"body":"So this is you."},{"startTime":767.59,"endTime":774.312,"body":"If you're interested enough in me to, for what I have to say, you're just listening to me"},{"startTime":767.59,"endTime":774.312,"body":"yammer and give advice and tell my own stories."},{"startTime":774.312,"endTime":781.594,"body":"Cause it's all about, you know, I know my own lived experience anyways, don't be afraid to"},{"startTime":774.312,"endTime":781.594,"body":"ask for help."},{"startTime":783.19,"endTime":784.491,"body":"Ask people what you need."},{"startTime":785.272,"endTime":788.855,"body":"And if you're an ally, ask people what they need."},{"startTime":789.796,"endTime":800.285,"body":"Because we don't always know what we need, but at least knowing that someone cares enough"},{"startTime":789.796,"endTime":800.285,"body":"to actually want to help."},{"startTime":803.23,"endTime":810.575,"body":"I ask 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now."},{"startTime":858.263,"endTime":860.551,"body":"This isn't about politics anymore."},{"startTime":860.654,"endTime":861.676,"body":"What is, is."},{"startTime":864.832,"endTime":879.57,"body":"We are now in the face of showing each other our humanity, that we care, that, I'm just"},{"startTime":864.832,"endTime":879.57,"body":"coming from an autistic girl that can't process emotions, but."},{"startTime":883.136,"endTime":887.834,"body":"showing each other who we can trust and who we can't."},{"startTime":889.896,"endTime":892.858,"body":"Again, you look back to the thirties in Nazi Germany."},{"startTime":892.858,"endTime":904.175,"body":"Yeah, there were a lot of people that might not have necessarily directly supported the"},{"startTime":892.858,"endTime":904.175,"body":"Nazi party, but they were still Nazis."},{"startTime":905.577,"endTime":907.958,"body":"Just like, and it's the same with MAGA."},{"startTime":907.958,"endTime":910.23,"body":"If you voted that way, that's what you are."},{"startTime":910.23,"endTime":919.382,"body":"And you can make amends for that, but it's going to be really hard for people to trust"},{"startTime":910.23,"endTime":919.382,"body":"you."},{"startTime":919.382,"endTime":927.642,"body":"And you're going to have to prove that you fucked up and actively work to correct things."},{"startTime":928.562,"endTime":930.582,"body":"personally, I have nothing to do with you personally."},{"startTime":930.582,"endTime":932.302,"body":"You're dead to me."},{"startTime":934.122,"endTime":942.422,"body":"most of the people I know that, would have voted that way are educated people and they"},{"startTime":934.122,"endTime":942.422,"body":"don't have an excuse in my eyes."},{"startTime":943.342,"endTime":944.562,"body":"they watched the news."},{"startTime":944.562,"endTime":946.942,"body":"They chose money over."},{"startTime":946.942,"endTime":953.627,"body":"over life and that's going to bite them in the ass too because we won't even get 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lost."},{"startTime":986.794,"endTime":991.696,"body":"I am in her reports, but I just know, and..."},{"startTime":993.924,"endTime":997.114,"body":"It fucking chills me."},{"startTime":1001.16,"endTime":1005.062,"body":"even know what to say to their families, to the people that love them."},{"startTime":1006.71,"endTime":1012.037,"body":"All I can say is anyone that knew them that pushed them away that didn't support them, you"},{"startTime":1006.71,"endTime":1012.037,"body":"can go fuck yourselves."},{"startTime":1012.518,"endTime":1015.141,"body":"You're gonna hear that from me a lot is go fuck yourself."},{"startTime":1019.38,"endTime":1020.936,"body":"I don't even know where I'm going with this."},{"startTime":1020.936,"endTime":1023.503,"body":"just, I needed to record something."},{"startTime":1027.026,"endTime":1034.148,"body":"My advice again to everybody is be careful, be safe."},{"startTime":1034.968,"endTime":1037.909,"body":"I am not a person that should own a gun."},{"startTime":1037.909,"endTime":1043.31,"body":"I am a person who used to own a gun and sat with that gun in her mouth."},{"startTime":1044.711,"endTime":1053.583,"body":"So don't tell people that they need to get guns because there's a lot of people out there"},{"startTime":1044.711,"endTime":1053.583,"body":"like me who purposely choose not to."},{"startTime":1053.583,"endTime":1056.644,"body":"There's trauma around that."},{"startTime":1060.924,"endTime":1063.52,"body":"That's not a way for us to live safely."},{"startTime":1065.79,"endTime":1069.531,"body":"If you choose to stay where you are, do it."},{"startTime":1070.191,"endTime":1072.832,"body":"But don't shame people that want to leave."},{"startTime":1074.293,"endTime":1082.245,"body":"I'm afraid of kind of seeing whispers here and there of, you know, well, if you leave,"},{"startTime":1074.293,"endTime":1082.245,"body":"then maybe you're part of problem."},{"startTime":1082.245,"endTime":1083.07,"body":"don't know."},{"startTime":1083.07,"endTime":1088.157,"body":"I want to leave to protect myself so I can still be here in the future."},{"startTime":1088.27,"endTime":1091.878,"body":"I want to say the implications of me leaving, which are hard."},{"startTime":1094.352,"endTime":1096.743,"body":"One, I have a son that I haven't seen three months."},{"startTime":1096.743,"endTime":1106.127,"body":"I'm actually, shortly after I'm done recording this, I'm to be talking to a lawyer about"},{"startTime":1096.743,"endTime":1106.127,"body":"what I need to do to at least get visitation."},{"startTime":1107.087,"endTime":1108.848,"body":"I've been cut out of his life."},{"startTime":1110.109,"endTime":1112.89,"body":"It's a whole other story that I don't want to get into."},{"startTime":1112.89,"endTime":1120.332,"body":"I'm sure people that know that there are two sides to every story, and let me just leave"},{"startTime":1112.89,"endTime":1120.332,"body":"it with that."},{"startTime":1122.534,"endTime":1123.85,"body":"But by moving..."},{"startTime":1123.85,"endTime":1125.321,"body":"I'm going to have to leave my son behind."},{"startTime":1125.321,"endTime":1129.334,"body":"And that breaks my heart."},{"startTime":1130.015,"endTime":1131.296,"body":"I'm not a good parent."},{"startTime":1131.296,"endTime":1131.906,"body":"I admit that."},{"startTime":1131.906,"endTime":1132.777,"body":"I'm horrible."},{"startTime":1132.777,"endTime":1134.218,"body":"I'm not a good mother."},{"startTime":1134.699,"endTime":1138.331,"body":"am a level two, I'm level two autistic, level one slash level two."},{"startTime":1138.331,"endTime":1144.106,"body":"It's with ADHD, CPTSD, major stress disorder and anxiety."},{"startTime":1144.486,"endTime":1148.509,"body":"I cannot handle being in a room with a child that's melting down."},{"startTime":1150.49,"endTime":1157.056,"body":"And I flat out was about to give up all parental rights on my son, but I decided that's"},{"startTime":1150.49,"endTime":1157.056,"body":"no, that's not what I should do."},{"startTime":1157.15,"endTime":1159.258,"body":"I feel that I was coaxed into that."},{"startTime":1160.758,"endTime":1168.578,"body":"Besides the point, people like me that are leaving are leaving behind things that major."},{"startTime":1168.578,"endTime":1169.567,"body":"I'm behind my son."},{"startTime":1169.567,"endTime":1173.32,"body":"I am leaving behind the woman that I love."},{"startTime":1184.534,"endTime":1187.794,"body":"I just, it's too much, you know?"},{"startTime":1189.214,"endTime":1193.514,"body":"So don't shame me for it, don't shame other people for it."},{"startTime":1193.514,"endTime":1197.274,"body":"Because it's hard enough, it's scary, I'm so scared."},{"startTime":1197.954,"endTime":1204.856,"body":"I have lived here, I'm 43, I've lived here all 43 years of my life in Ohio, it's what I"},{"startTime":1197.954,"endTime":1204.856,"body":"know, I've traveled."},{"startTime":1206.408,"endTime":1214.022,"body":"And places I'm looking at going, particularly the Olympic of Washington area, because I"},{"startTime":1206.408,"endTime":1214.022,"body":"know some people there."},{"startTime":1215.884,"endTime":1218.925,"body":"Or possibly Illinois."},{"startTime":1218.946,"endTime":1223.148,"body":"They're both safe states, quote unquote."},{"startTime":1223.148,"endTime":1230.672,"body":"still, Washington's my preference, but it's terrifying because I don't know what I'm"},{"startTime":1223.148,"endTime":1230.672,"body":"getting into."},{"startTime":1230.713,"endTime":1232.413,"body":"I'm getting up and I'm leaving."},{"startTime":1235.68,"endTime":1237.084,"body":"Because I have to."},{"startTime":1239.355,"endTime":1240.958,"body":"And I'm scared."},{"startTime":1241.905,"endTime":1243.408,"body":"A lot of people are."},{"startTime":1252.628,"endTime":1254.076,"body":"Be true to yourself."},{"startTime":1256.586,"endTime":1258.246,"body":"Be true to your friends."},{"startTime":1258.467,"endTime":1263.968,"body":"Remember that blood does not make family."},{"startTime":1263.968,"endTime":1265.348,"body":"Period."},{"startTime":1266.509,"endTime":1268.409,"body":"You make your own family."},{"startTime":1268.869,"endTime":1275.371,"body":"Keep the people who love and respect and support you close to you."},{"startTime":1276.512,"endTime":1278.292,"body":"Know who your enemies are."},{"startTime":1278.812,"endTime":1281.313,"body":"Keep your head on a fucking swivel."},{"startTime":1281.973,"endTime":1285.546,"body":"Don't let people tell you that you're overreacting."},{"startTime":1285.546,"endTime":1288.358,"body":"by wanting to leave by being scared."},{"startTime":1290.464,"endTime":1293.617,"body":"Let me see if I can just bring up some quick points about."},{"startTime":1295.19,"endTime":1300.23,"body":"the, what Trump wants to do with our community."},{"startTime":1302.57,"endTime":1308.95,"body":"I mean, the platform he wants to completely outlaw gender affirming care for minors at the"},{"startTime":1302.57,"endTime":1308.95,"body":"federal level."},{"startTime":1308.95,"endTime":1311.65,"body":"I want to make something abundantly fucking clear."},{"startTime":1311.65,"endTime":1313.99,"body":"Being trans is not a choice."},{"startTime":1313.99,"endTime":1320.91,"body":"The only choice in the matter when it comes to being trans is whether or not to come out"},{"startTime":1313.99,"endTime":1320.91,"body":"or whether or not to continue living."},{"startTime":1321.69,"endTime":1322.99,"body":"By"},{"startTime":1323.356,"endTime":1327.128,"body":"not allowing kids to transition, you're going to wind up with a bunch of dead kids."},{"startTime":1327.949,"endTime":1331.512,"body":"Being trans is genetic."},{"startTime":1331.512,"endTime":1333.032,"body":"We're born this way."},{"startTime":1333.873,"endTime":1335.094,"body":"I don't want to live."},{"startTime":1335.094,"endTime":1347.402,"body":"I never signed up to live life in hard mode, but it was either this or not be alive"},{"startTime":1335.094,"endTime":1347.402,"body":"because I would not be able to live in the body that I used to be in."},{"startTime":1347.826,"endTime":1350.725,"body":"I was born with a female brain."},{"startTime":1350.725,"endTime":1352.225,"body":"My body was male."},{"startTime":1353.302,"endTime":1355.502,"body":"doing my best to correct that."},{"startTime":1355.582,"endTime":1358.322,"body":"And everybody with trans experience has a different experience."},{"startTime":1358.322,"endTime":1360.062,"body":"There's no right or wrong way to transition."},{"startTime":1360.062,"endTime":1363.642,"body":"You don't have to do medical transitions because there are so many different ways."},{"startTime":1363.642,"endTime":1369.622,"body":"The number one thing is that there is a disconnect that is not our choice."},{"startTime":1369.622,"endTime":1374.412,"body":"I have known since I was four or five years old, it has been persistent my entire fucking"},{"startTime":1369.622,"endTime":1374.412,"body":"life."},{"startTime":1374.412,"endTime":1380.002,"body":"I didn't come out until I was 40 because it was not safe to, my dad likely would have"},{"startTime":1374.412,"endTime":1380.002,"body":"killed me."},{"startTime":1380.782,"endTime":1382.76,"body":"Don't stop kids from"},{"startTime":1382.76,"endTime":1384.25,"body":"transitioning."},{"startTime":1384.25,"endTime":1393.933,"body":"It's not the government's decision to have any say in any healthcare period that's between"},{"startTime":1384.25,"endTime":1393.933,"body":"the kid, their parent, and the doctor."},{"startTime":1394.313,"endTime":1402.135,"body":"For parents, I have plenty of episodes on this show earlier on about how to be a good"},{"startTime":1394.313,"endTime":1402.135,"body":"parent to trans kids."},{"startTime":1402.135,"endTime":1410.237,"body":"Those shows are co-hosted by actual parents of trans kids, sometimes trans parents of"},{"startTime":1402.135,"endTime":1410.237,"body":"trans kids."},{"startTime":1410.578,"endTime":1412.378,"body":"Defer to those that know."},{"startTime":1413.174,"endTime":1415.534,"body":"The same goes with abortion rights."},{"startTime":1418.802,"endTime":1422.547,"body":"We cannot let the government have control over our bodies."},{"startTime":1422.547,"endTime":1425.45,"body":"And the two are actually connected very tightly."},{"startTime":1430.774,"endTime":1432.455,"body":"Let's see what else we have here."},{"startTime":1432.455,"endTime":1440.218,"body":"We have a quote from Trump saying, my inauguration, I will direct the FDA to convene an"},{"startTime":1432.455,"endTime":1440.218,"body":"independent outside panel to investigate whether transgender hormone treatments and"},{"startTime":1440.218,"endTime":1445.48,"body":"ideology increase the risk of extreme depression, aggression, and even violence."},{"startTime":1445.74,"endTime":1451.843,"body":"That right there is the terrifying part for myself and other trans people, because this is"},{"startTime":1445.74,"endTime":1451.843,"body":"not about kids anymore."},{"startTime":1451.843,"endTime":1453.473,"body":"They said it was about kids, but it's not."},{"startTime":1453.473,"endTime":1454.864,"body":"This is for everybody."},{"startTime":1454.864,"endTime":1460.424,"body":"This is a nationwide ban on trans health care based on"},{"startTime":1460.424,"endTime":1469.597,"body":"absolute bogus science made up statistics where they're just using it to other us and to"},{"startTime":1460.424,"endTime":1469.597,"body":"exterminate us."},{"startTime":1469.597,"endTime":1471.477,"body":"The Nazis did the same thing."},{"startTime":1471.618,"endTime":1473.438,"body":"We were the first people to go."},{"startTime":1476.379,"endTime":1484.982,"body":"they want to, the goal, the overall goal, you can look up this article that I have in"},{"startTime":1476.379,"endTime":1484.982,"body":"front of me."},{"startTime":1485.62,"endTime":1491.454,"body":"It's the GLAD, G-L-A-A-D, the fact sheet, Donald Trump on LGBT issues, transgender"},{"startTime":1485.62,"endTime":1491.454,"body":"Americans."},{"startTime":1491.454,"endTime":1495.016,"body":"I'm not going to go through all of it because frankly, it just pisses me off too much."},{"startTime":1496.117,"endTime":1504.423,"body":"All I can say is that campaign spent millions and millions and millions of dollars"},{"startTime":1496.117,"endTime":1504.423,"body":"directly targeting people like me."},{"startTime":1504.743,"endTime":1511.268,"body":"And we are at risk of great harm."},{"startTime":1511.268,"endTime":1514.93,"body":"Hate crimes were already up."},{"startTime":1515.664,"endTime":1525.997,"body":"Now his supporters, the 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live right now is an actively dangerous area for me."},{"startTime":1567.718,"endTime":1572.718,"body":"Ohio has shown to be very red and I live in the reddest of red areas of Ohio."},{"startTime":1573.418,"endTime":1576.478,"body":"Before all this, I've been afraid to leave home."},{"startTime":1576.478,"endTime":1579.528,"body":"So people in Washington state are like, well, you know, there's Trump people here too."},{"startTime":1579.528,"endTime":1580.798,"body":"I'm like, you don't understand."},{"startTime":1580.798,"endTime":1585.238,"body":"I am surrounded by Confederate and Trump flags pretty much anywhere I go."},{"startTime":1585.818,"endTime":1588.438,"body":"And I have no healthcare protections."},{"startTime":1589.258,"endTime":1590.438,"body":"So."},{"startTime":1591.53,"endTime":1595.192,"body":"Don't belittle, don't talk over people when they say that they're scared."},{"startTime":1596.053,"endTime":1600.756,"body":"To sum all this up, I don't want to make this episode 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money."},{"startTime":1676.978,"endTime":1680.28,"body":"This is coming from a girl who is absolutely fucking horrible with money."},{"startTime":1681.221,"endTime":1691.288,"body":"My business was doing good for a couple months over the summer, so I spent, I racked up"},{"startTime":1681.221,"endTime":1691.288,"body":"about $9,000 in credit card debt to upgrade all my equipment and then business died."},{"startTime":1691.288,"endTime":1693.449,"body":"And now I've lost a bunch of clients."},{"startTime":1694.21,"endTime":1697.392,"body":"Frankly, I'm not going to work for somebody that voted to kill me, period."},{"startTime":1697.392,"endTime":1698.832,"body":"I just can't."},{"startTime":1699.233,"endTime":1700.494,"body":"I can't do that."},{"startTime":1701.915,"endTime":1706.646,"body":"So that's another reason I probably need to move is because I don't have much of a client"},{"startTime":1701.915,"endTime":1706.646,"body":"pool."},{"startTime":1706.646,"endTime":1718.382,"body":"anymore because most of my work is in real estate photography and most of the realtors"},{"startTime":1706.646,"endTime":1718.382,"body":"around here are Trump supporters so I have a few that aren't that are loyal that"},{"startTime":1720.116,"endTime":1721.651,"body":"need to go to PlaySworders."},{"startTime":1724.212,"endTime":1725.65,"body":"not in constant fear."},{"startTime":1728.192,"endTime":1734.215,"body":"Do I think the trans sanctuary states are going to be safe forever?"},{"startTime":1734.215,"endTime":1735.085,"body":"No."},{"startTime":1735.706,"endTime":1737.967,"body":"I think that's going to be temporary as well."},{"startTime":1739.388,"endTime":1741.869,"body":"By moving there, I'm buying myself time."},{"startTime":1745.63,"endTime":1750.413,"body":"Anyone that says, you know, this place is any better than where you are, you're not 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saying, it's just as"},{"startTime":1786.631,"endTime":1791.816,"body":"bad."},{"startTime":1791.816,"endTime":1793.237,"body":"Like I hear a lot in Canada."},{"startTime":1793.237,"endTime":1797.739,"body":"Yeah, I understand that Canada is also turning pretty conservative."},{"startTime":1798.5,"endTime":1799.67,"body":"It's not as bad as it is here."},{"startTime":1799.67,"endTime":1803.542,"body":"And I am hoping that..."},{"startTime":1805.526,"endTime":1813.286,"body":"other people in the world, Canada, wherever, see what's going to start happening here in"},{"startTime":1805.526,"endTime":1813.286,"body":"the States and be like, fuck, I don't want that."},{"startTime":1814.566,"endTime":1819.006,"body":"Okay, there's people all over the world that are terrified of what's going to happen here."},{"startTime":1819.006,"endTime":1820.986,"body":"And rightfully so."},{"startTime":1821.505,"endTime":1829.146,"body":"And if you're terrified of what's happening here, imagine what it's like to be in here in"},{"startTime":1821.505,"endTime":1829.146,"body":"a community that is being directly targeted for eradication."},{"startTime":1829.146,"endTime":1830.886,"body":"Hi, I'm trans."},{"startTime":1832.726,"endTime":1833.786,"body":"So..."},{"startTime":1834.688,"endTime":1835.622,"body":"Just be helpful."},{"startTime":1835.622,"endTime":1838.391,"body":"And if you can't be helpful, just shut the fuck up, please."},{"startTime":1841.394,"endTime":1847.517,"body":"As for social media presences and stuff like that, be loud when you feel it's safe to."},{"startTime":1847.517,"endTime":1852.418,"body":"Remember, we're putting a bigger and bigger target on our backs the more the louder we"},{"startTime":1847.517,"endTime":1852.418,"body":"are."},{"startTime":1852.459,"endTime":1857.48,"body":"I already know I have a big one on my back, which is another reason I need to get to a"},{"startTime":1852.459,"endTime":1857.48,"body":"place that's safer."},{"startTime":1858.801,"endTime":1870.356,"body":"As a trans person that made national, international fucking news for running for office,"},{"startTime":1858.801,"endTime":1870.356,"body":"I'm sure there's a few that still remember me and remember things, criticisms that I've"},{"startTime":1870.356,"endTime":1871.046,"body":"had."},{"startTime":1871.254,"endTime":1875.314,"body":"So if you can, lock down your prisons."},{"startTime":1875.514,"endTime":1877.234,"body":"This goes for everybody."},{"startTime":1877.314,"endTime":1889.634,"body":"Anybody that does not conform to the new norm, that does not conform to the ideals of"},{"startTime":1877.314,"endTime":1889.634,"body":"Project 2025 slash Agenda 47 slash whatever it's going to be called now, it's all the same"},{"startTime":1889.634,"endTime":1890.054,"body":"thing."},{"startTime":1890.054,"endTime":1893.294,"body":"It's all real and it's all going to effect."},{"startTime":1893.594,"endTime":1895.834,"body":"You can deny it all you want."},{"startTime":1895.834,"endTime":1899.334,"body":"The people creating them are flat out saying it's happening."},{"startTime":1902.953,"endTime":1903.953,"body":"Be careful."},{"startTime":1904.834,"endTime":1906.155,"body":"Stuck up on meds if you can."},{"startTime":1906.155,"endTime":1907.315,"body":"Stuck up on everything."},{"startTime":1907.315,"endTime":1909.576,"body":"Stuck up on birth control."},{"startTime":1910.237,"endTime":1912.658,"body":"I believe Plan B has a four year shelf life."},{"startTime":1912.898,"endTime":1913.759,"body":"Get as much as you can."},{"startTime":1913.759,"endTime":1916.58,"body":"Reach out to your doctors if you have a friendly doctor."},{"startTime":1916.58,"endTime":1920.752,"body":"And just hoard shit."},{"startTime":1922.294,"endTime":1926.463,"body":"keep things safe, keep things close, keep people safe, keep people close."},{"startTime":1927.728,"endTime":1930.713,"body":"And I don't know what's going to 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right away."},{"startTime":1977.758,"endTime":1980.586,"body":"He will do the dictator day one thing."},{"startTime":1981.024,"endTime":1982.836,"body":"But I don't think he's going to be in office for long."},{"startTime":1982.836,"endTime":1993.004,"body":"I think that he's either going to be removed or he will step down to hand the power to"},{"startTime":1982.836,"endTime":1993.004,"body":"someone else after he has done the damage that he's going to do."},{"startTime":1994.886,"endTime":1999.96,"body":"I do believe that he is currently in the throes of mental decline."},{"startTime":1999.96,"endTime":2002.202,"body":"It's pretty obvious to a lot of people."},{"startTime":2002.202,"endTime":2008.877,"body":"And there's going be a point where he's just not going to be able to lead."},{"startTime":2010.622,"endTime":2017.033,"body":"The others that follow him, they're just going to vulture up and just eat them alive and"},{"startTime":2010.622,"endTime":2017.033,"body":"move on."},{"startTime":2017.033,"endTime":2028.37,"body":"So whether that means JD Vance becomes the president or I honestly think that he would"},{"startTime":2017.033,"endTime":2028.37,"body":"step aside and let Mike Johnson take the reins and that would be even more terrifying."},{"startTime":2029.011,"endTime":2031.772,"body":"Whatever's going to happen, it's going to be ugly as fuck."},{"startTime":2032.152,"endTime":2034.733,"body":"It's going to have implications for decades to come."},{"startTime":2042.108,"endTime":2043.138,"body":"to say."},{"startTime":2043.259,"endTime":2049.465,"body":"So to sum up, trans people, protect yourselves."},{"startTime":2049.906,"endTime":2054.81,"body":"Don't be afraid to cut people out of your lives, the same goes for any marginalized group."},{"startTime":2058.89,"endTime":2060.604,"body":"Women, protect yourselves."},{"startTime":2063.252,"endTime":2064.448,"body":"much as you can."},{"startTime":2066.806,"endTime":2072.314,"body":"If you're in a dangerous situation and you think you can get out, get out."},{"startTime":2072.596,"endTime":2078.916,"body":"If you know someone that you believe is in a dangerous situation and you have the means to"},{"startTime":2072.596,"endTime":2078.916,"body":"help them get out, help them"},{"startTime":2083.846,"endTime":2089.838,"body":"No one can truly predict what's going to happen over the next months to years."},{"startTime":2090.421,"endTime":2093.486,"body":"All I know is it's not going to be good for a lot of people."},{"startTime":2098.246,"endTime":2099.767,"body":"It's time for you to show up."},{"startTime":2099.767,"endTime":2106.884,"body":"Remember that ally is a verb and it's a title that's given, not self-appointed."},{"startTime":2109.408,"endTime":2119.348,"body":"You're not being an ally if you are talking over us, as I said, if you are just exuding"},{"startTime":2109.408,"endTime":2119.348,"body":"toxic positivity, which helps nobody."},{"startTime":2120.678,"endTime":2124.674,"body":"If you really want to help, have compassion."},{"startTime":2126.582,"endTime":2128.942,"body":"Just help us with whatever, with what we need."},{"startTime":2128.942,"endTime":2131.782,"body":"If you know that we need to move, help us pack."},{"startTime":2131.782,"endTime":2133.562,"body":"Help us get a U-Haul, whatever."},{"startTime":2133.562,"endTime":2136.112,"body":"Help us travel across the country."},{"startTime":2136.112,"endTime":2144.022,"body":"That's a big risk I'm gonna have, is traveling across the country as a trans woman, alone."},{"startTime":2145.142,"endTime":2147.022,"body":"Well, hopefully I'll have my dog."},{"startTime":2147.262,"endTime":2152.802,"body":"But it's still scary to places unknown."},{"startTime":2153.546,"endTime":2157.729,"body":"I'm just one of millions that are faced with the same kind of thing."},{"startTime":2158.07,"endTime":2163.795,"body":"As I said, if you choose to stay here, don't rub it in people's faces for wanting to"},{"startTime":2158.07,"endTime":2163.795,"body":"leave."},{"startTime":2164.837,"endTime":2168.78,"body":"Let us go, help us go, and then protect yourself."},{"startTime":2170.562,"endTime":2174.285,"body":"Whatever you choose to do, just be a good human."},{"startTime":2174.886,"endTime":2176.407,"body":"As the saying goes..."},{"startTime":2181.494,"endTime":2190.416,"body":"The man that I have come to adore named Jeff Kanata, he was on a YouTube show called The"},{"startTime":2181.494,"endTime":2190.416,"body":"Dungeon Run, it's Dungeons and Dragons thing."},{"startTime":2192.157,"endTime":2201.039,"body":"He always closes off by saying, humankind be both, and it's So this is me signing off for"},{"startTime":2192.157,"endTime":2201.039,"body":"now, I don't know when I'm gonna do another show."},{"startTime":2201.319,"endTime":2204.3,"body":"Don't know if I'm gonna do it, if I'm gonna do another show."},{"startTime":2205.561,"endTime":2206.681,"body":"But I'll try."},{"startTime":2206.814,"endTime":2211.062,"body":"I signed off for another month at Riverside, so I can record."},{"startTime":2211.062,"endTime":2214.622,"body":"at another couple if I want to."},{"startTime":2216.142,"endTime":2229.162,"body":"people in the trans community, if you are looking to get out and looking for some support,"},{"startTime":2216.142,"endTime":2229.162,"body":"the Discord for this podcast, my personal Discord, I've opened it up to planning with each"},{"startTime":2229.162,"endTime":2232.522,"body":"other and how to leave, where to go."},{"startTime":2233.102,"endTime":2236.182,"body":"I think in a lot of cases we need to band together."},{"startTime":2237.898,"endTime":2241.734,"body":"meets with trans people that we've never met before, but at least we have something in"},{"startTime":2237.898,"endTime":2241.734,"body":"common."},{"startTime":2241.734,"endTime":2252.781,"body":"Because the one thing that all the safe states have in common is, or most of them at"},{"startTime":2241.734,"endTime":2252.781,"body":"least, safest ones are they're expensive."},{"startTime":2256.054,"endTime":2259.536,"body":"So yeah, if you're interested, then contact me for a link."},{"startTime":2259.576,"endTime":2268.781,"body":"I'm not widely publicizing the information I'm accessing to Discord because I don't want a"},{"startTime":2259.576,"endTime":2268.781,"body":"lot of people knowing about it unless they need to."},{"startTime":2268.781,"endTime":2271.513,"body":"It's pretty much just for people under the trans umbrella."},{"startTime":2271.513,"endTime":2278.487,"body":"Remember trans umbrella includes gender nonconforming and nonbinary and all that."},{"startTime":2278.487,"endTime":2279.727,"body":"It's an umbrella."},{"startTime":2280.768,"endTime":2284.91,"body":"And select allies that I feel that can be helpful."},{"startTime":2286.71,"endTime":2292.357,"body":"And we're small right now, but we are growing and it's a support system."},{"startTime":2292.398,"endTime":2296.363,"body":"this is Vanessa signing off."},{"startTime":2296.363,"endTime":2297.844,"body":"Thank you for listening."},{"startTime":2298.506,"endTime":2301.149,"body":"If you want to support me, keep an eye on my socials."},{"startTime":2301.149,"endTime":2302.27,"body":"I will be."},{"startTime":2305.088,"endTime":2308.84,"body":"I'll be putting your GoFundMe up sooner or later."},{"startTime":2309.0,"endTime":2313.514,"body":"You can support me directly on Venmo by sending it to Venestradial."},{"startTime":2313.514,"endTime":2319.207,"body":"The same name as this podcast, same name I use everywhere, so you can find me there."},{"startTime":2320.709,"endTime":2323.61,"body":"Any money I get, I'm just slapping into my savings account."},{"startTime":2323.811,"endTime":2333.637,"body":"I'm hoping to build up about $20,000, so I have a cushion wherever I wind up, because"},{"startTime":2323.811,"endTime":2333.637,"body":"wherever I wind up, I'm also going have to find work."},{"startTime":2334.058,"endTime":2334.809,"body":"find a place to live."},{"startTime":2334.809,"endTime":2336.141,"body":"Yeah."},{"startTime":2336.583,"endTime":2338.724,"body":"So many unknown things."},{"startTime":2341.418,"endTime":2344.52,"body":"I appreciate if you've listened this long, thank you."},{"startTime":2345.358,"endTime":2353.186,"body":"If you've listened this long, send me a message that says spork or something so I know"},{"startTime":2345.358,"endTime":2353.186,"body":"that people are hearing this."},{"startTime":2356.288,"endTime":2357.395,"body":"Protect yourselves."},{"startTime":2359.678,"endTime":2360.603,"body":"to say."},{"startTime":2362.848,"endTime":2364.859,"body":"Sage words beyond that."},{"startTime":2365.78,"endTime":2368.812,"body":"This is an unprecedented situation that we're in."},{"startTime":2368.812,"endTime":2373.686,"body":"And we are in danger."},{"startTime":2373.686,"endTime":2377.609,"body":"So my lawyer is going to call soon."},{"startTime":2378.21,"endTime":2379.27,"body":"So thank you."}]}