Who Decided You're Worth $20 an Hour?

I'm tired of living paycheck to paycheck. 

This episode is about breaking patterns, questioning what we've been taught, and finally choosing to build something for myself.

If you've ever felt stuck... this one's for you.

Transcript

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Hey, welcome to Freckles and Chaos. Let me ask you something. Who decided what you're worth? Because I heard something the other day and I haven't been able to shake it. So first and foremost, this is gonna be a quick episode. I am not feeling my best. I was even I even considered um skipping tonight, but I can't skip. I have to be consistent, so quick episode it is. So I've had some shit on my mind, and you know, I'm always ways thinking of something. A way just a way to make it. Does anyone else get tired of living paycheck to paycheck? I mean I understand not everybody lives that way, but I think most people do. Because um I am tired of living paycheck to paycheck. A few weeks ago I bought a a digital marketing program, and I've been learning a lot. Um, it's not just about making money. I mean, obviously they teach you how to do that as well, but it they have a whole lot of shit. And I could turn around and resell the program, which I would if I had to. I don't feel like I have to because I got my own shit going on. Um I created my first product, my break the pattern workbook, and honestly, that felt like the first real step in doing something for myself, other than my ebook that I wrote. Because so many of us were taught to just deal with shit. Keep the peace, don't rock the boat, and I'm done with that. I'm tired of living paycheck to paycheck. I'm tired of being in debt, I'm tired of working my ass off to make someone else money. That's a big one. That one I've been thinking about for a long, long time. And I know it's the American way. You you get a job, you buy shit, you live in debt. Like that's the American way, but I'm over it. I don't I want to have a job to live my life. I do not want to live my life to have a job. Does that make any sense? Makes sense in my fucked up head. The other day I saw a video and this woman said something I cannot get out of my head. She said, Someone told you that you were worth twenty dollars an hour. That hit me. Because who decided that? Who decided what we're worth? Obviously the company you work for, but I mean like just to say, oh hey, you're worth$20 an hour. Anyways, I started thinking, what if I actually went all in on myself? So I did the math, what I make per day, per week, per month, and now I have a new goal. To make enough money that I don't have to work like this anymore. Maybe that means part-time, maybe that means building something from home, but either way, something has to change. Because right now we have no benefits, we have no real vacation. We get one week of vacation a year, and that just started this last year, and we're shut down for two weeks the first part of January. So we, if we want to have any kind of money coming in, we have to use our vacation for that shutdown. Which is that fair? No, not the fuck at all. But we chose these jobs, and we like our job for the most part. I'm just tired of I'm gonna, I'm fixing to be 47, guys. I want something that is gonna benefit me and something that's gonna benefit our family. And I know our job does that right now, but I feel like deep down inside, I honestly, honest to God, feel like I have it in me to build my brand and have my own business. So that is my goal. Um, we have no retirement. I can't, I don't even remember if I said that. I'm telling you, I do not feel good. Um yeah, we don't have shit. We don't get to see our family because we're always working. And I don't want I don't want this to be the rest of my life at all. So yeah, I'm making changes. I'm building my brand. I'm gonna get into UGC, which is user-generated content. Um, you basically make videos for products and you pitch to brands, they buy your content, they use it on their social media platforms. It's not something I post videos about and put on my content. So um a lot of people are doing it. I'm gonna go for it. I do c I make content every single day, so I'm I think, I think I'll be good at it. Um, so that's something I'm working on. I'm learning new things, all kinds of new things. I'm gonna start showing up live on TikTok and Facebook. I've gone to I've gone live on TikTok twice, maybe three times. It is super fucking uncomfortable. You're just talking into a void, and TikTok goes so fucking fast. You see shit at the top of your screen, just roll by, and I don't think it has anything to do with the live that you're doing, it's just other nonsense just fucking flying around, and it's so confusing, but people do it every day, so I guess I'm just gonna get uncomfortable and I'm just gonna fucking do it. And I'm not gonna be in there selling anything, I'll be in there to talk, you know, hang out, chat, both TikTok and Facebook. Because if I'm doing this, I'm doing it all the way. For me, for us, whatever it fucking takes. And honestly, shit's about to get interesting. Really fucking interesting. So yeah, short, short, sweet, and to the point. Um, like I said, I'm not feeling very good. I've been nauseous all day. I feel like I could vomit. I did eat, it made me feel worse. I have a low-grade fever, I'm not sure what's happening. I have a pain in my abdomen, and I'm not gonna go into a giant long story, but for the past 20-some years, I have what my old doctor considered chronic appendicitis. Is that a real thing? A lot of doctors disagree. I don't really care. I just want whatever this is to fucking stop. So I'm not gonna freak out and think it's my appendix. I'm just gonna fucking wait and see what happens. At this motherfucker Versa, I'm gonna be super angry. I'm just gonna chill at home and wait and see what happens. Hopefully I'll feel better. Alright, so if you're in this place right now, just know you're not alone. And if you're ready to start changing things, even just a little, that's where it starts. You can check out my Break the Pattern workbook. It's linked in my bio on all my platforms. And I'll be going live soon, so come hang out with me there. If this resonated, take what you need and leave rest. I'll see you soon!