AR20: Finding Peace with a Difficult Childhood and Overcoming Dark Energies

In today’s episode, we dive deep into the emotional journey of healing from a challenging childhood and learning how to forgive your parents—a struggle many of us can relate to. We also explore two of Jake’s past lives to uncover insights into his life purpose and understand why he continues to encounter darker entities. 

Transcript

00;00;00;01 - 00;00;19;04
Annette Dalloo
And so once you can find that trust in self, the fears that you have will literally melt away. So what does that look like. That looks like the trust in your abilities, your power, your ability to put up that bubble of protection around yourself. And contrary to this particular lifetime where you didn't know that that was a thing.

00;00;19;05 - 00;00;38;22
Annette Dalloo
You don't need a church or anything like that to do that. That you just put up the bubble and set the intention and it is done. And no entity can take your energy, no entity can interfere with your energy.

00;00;38;25 - 00;01;12;17
Annette Dalloo
Welcome to the Akashic Recordings. I'm Annette Dalloo Akashic conduit channel and spiritual guidance coach. I want to thank you for joining me today. The Akashic Recordings is created through the cooperation of my clients who have agreed to have their sessions recorded. Of course, with their permission, I am able to share these beautiful sessions with you. If you are interested in booking a session with me, you can go to my website at Infinite Soul love.com.

00;01;12;20 - 00;01;45;25
Annette Dalloo
I am inviting you to take your intuition to the next level in the next couple of months. I am launching Soul Discovery Workshop online. This is a three month program where you meet with me every single week and practice not only your intuition and your spiritual gifts. Discover who you are as a soul as well as connect with others and practice your intuition so you can have the confidence that you need when you are tapping into that Divine Source energy and you're trying to get those messages.

00;01;45;25 - 00;02;12;07
Annette Dalloo
This workshop is going to take you to the next level. You will also start to learn how to access your own Akashic Records. I will teach you how to clear vows and ancestral line traumas. The spots are limited. So I'm going to open registration for a limited amount of time. If you are interested in joining us in this beautiful group of like minded souls.

00;02;12;08 - 00;02;46;06
Annette Dalloo
Head to my website at Infinite Soul. Love.com. There you can head to the contact page and fill out the form. Put in the Message Soul Discovery Workshop and I will put you on the waiting list. Jake came to me with some questions about his childhood, in addition to some questions about dealing with negative energies and negative entities. We dive right into both of these subjects, and we do some timeline work towards the end.

00;02;46;06 - 00;02;56;26
Annette Dalloo
Regarding both of his parents.

00;02;56;28 - 00;03;17;06
Annette Dalloo
So tell me, what would you like to cover today? I got a lot of family stuff going on. Let's just put that out there. And I know that that's part of, like, my karma this lifetime. And I'm getting stuck because my father died two years ago, and that was actually a big release because I had gotten no contact with with the family because of toxicity.

00;03;17;08 - 00;03;36;02
Annette Dalloo
But now that he's passed, I kind of took on a lot of responsibility for being his executor and dealing with my mother and my autistic brother, and just trying to figure out what's the truth. Mom's still gaslighting me about, you know, what the truth is? Do I need to know the truth in order to heal for my inner child work?

00;03;36;09 - 00;03;59;16
Annette Dalloo
Also, I tend to have a lot of dark entities trying to come in and paranoid thoughts that I'm trying to to clear. So if I could get any any clarity on that, something I need to know, or if it's just something I need to clear. I'm having an issue with having empathy for these things and not just being told, let it go like I need to clear it from my body or get some clarity around how to do that.

00;03;59;18 - 00;04;21;22
Annette Dalloo
The first thing I'm seeing is there is some darkness in your root chakra, and this is from many lifetimes ago, where you did have some interactions with some some entities, is what I'm hearing. We'll dive into that lifetime as well, so we can kind of take a look at what happened. The thing is, is that entities and darker energies are nothing to be afraid of.

00;04;21;24 - 00;04;44;02
Annette Dalloo
It's kind of part of all of us. And it is about the perspective that you can look at these entities and energies as souls that are covered in gook and dirt and all kinds of heaviness due to their experience. So this is needing to be cleared out of your root chakra because it is affecting how you're moving forward.

00;04;44;05 - 00;05;04;13
Annette Dalloo
It's old. It doesn't need to be there anymore. So I'm getting like this, this kind of push pull going on. So like your current self is balanced in and not afraid. But then there's this, this older version of yourself that is terrified, that is still hanging out in your energy field and just absorbing that lifetime should be enough for you to be able to move past it.

00;05;04;14 - 00;05;24;08
Annette Dalloo
And so I'm just seeing like that'll be lifted and you're going to feel a lot lighter after that. Okay. So let's move that energy up to the sacral chakra. You've got very strong creative energy and there is a little bit of a blockage there. But it's like it doesn't matter. It doesn't matter that it's there because your energy is so strong that it's like it's kind of growing around it.

00;05;24;09 - 00;05;47;19
Annette Dalloo
It's doing its things. All of your your creation, your manifestation energy is is thriving in spite of this little blockage that you have. It feels true. Where is that blockage coming from? Is it past life or current life? It's current life. Okay. He asked to be more in alignment with his divine feminine version of himself. Okay.

00;05;47;21 - 00;06;20;16
Annette Dalloo
It's part of what your your ex has been showing you. Okay. I'm not seeing any blockages, but I am seeing a little bit of an inconsistency. So I'm seeing a big, bright, beautiful yellow light. And it's super, super strong. And then it just goes out. It, like, flickers and it goes out. So when it comes to your personal power and how you feel about yourself and how you show up in the world, it's like you have this incredible motivation and incredible feelings of self-confidence and showing up in the world in a really authentic way.

00;06;20;18 - 00;06;45;02
Annette Dalloo
And then it just dies. Like it's just the energy just falls away because it's almost like you're using that energy, like almost too forcefully. I don't know if forcefully is that is the right word. But it's like it's you're using all of it up all at once. And then, then you have to go and retreat and you have to like seclude and, and and like not heal but recover your energy.

00;06;45;05 - 00;07;09;04
Annette Dalloo
Right. That's just about learning a balance and how you are going to be able to move forward with the right amount of energy and not having to deplete yourself entirely each time. Okay. Boundaries. Does that make sense? It does. Yeah. I am seeing this is not from a past life. This is a current life thing. I'm also hearing you haven't had this much power in recent lifetimes.

00;07;09;06 - 00;07;34;05
Annette Dalloo
And so that's. It's part of you just getting used to having as much personal power as you have now. Well that's interesting. Okay, so I'm seeing the entire right side of your heart, like basically fall off. So you're only left with one half of your heart and it is the left half. But that's not a bad thing because what it is, you're literally standing at the top of your heart going by, like you're saying, you're waving goodbye to the other half of the heart.

00;07;34;05 - 00;07;55;05
Annette Dalloo
That is like falling away because it's it's like an old version of you. What's sprouting up in its place is a is another tiny, tiny version of your heart that is growing ever so slightly. And this is the new energy. This is the new version of your heart, and this is what is going to lead you for the rest of your life.

00;07;55;10 - 00;08;22;22
Annette Dalloo
And it's open and it's full and it's full of fulfillment, and you just cannot wait to get there. But it's like you're standing. It's almost like you're standing on top of the the other half of the heart, which the other half of the heart will fall away as well too. Once this smaller version of the heart starts growing a little bit further and it's like you're directing it, you're the the foreman on the construction site, so you're directing it.

00;08;22;22 - 00;08;39;15
Annette Dalloo
You're like, okay, we got to do this and we got to do this. All right, cool, we can do this. And then it's going to be able to come into its full expression. You feel that, don't you? Yeah, I get really stuck because my mind is it's very active. But I'm trying to let the unconditional love come through.

00;08;39;15 - 00;09;01;27
Annette Dalloo
Yeah, well, and that's where the foreman is coming in. You're trying to direct. You're trying to make sure that everything goes according to plan, when in fact your heart knows exactly what to do. Right? So your crown is really good. So they usually show it to me as an actual crown. And the state of the crown is sort of telling me like what the chakra is doing, your crown chakra is super open, ready to receive any information.

00;09;01;28 - 00;09;24;03
Annette Dalloo
I'm not seeing any blemishes on the crown. They're everything is shining really brightly. You've got all kinds of gemstones up there, you've got all kinds of things going on. So it's like everything is operating exactly as it should. And then let's move that energy into your third eye. Your third eye is like looking at the shadow and it's looking at the shadow going I have my eye on you have my eye on you.

00;09;24;03 - 00;09;43;15
Annette Dalloo
I'm not looking away and making sure you're not coming towards me. And then meanwhile your crown is like don't pay attention to that. Like you don't have to worry about that. Like pay attention to what's going on here. Like, pay attention to this beautiful light that's coming into your body, this beautiful information that's coming in. Stop looking at the shadows that aren't yours.

00;09;43;18 - 00;10;04;21
Annette Dalloo
That's the key distinction. It's like the shadows that you're looking at are shadows of other people or entities or other spirits or things like that. And you don't have to worry about it. It's understanding where your energy is. Obviously, putting up your divine bubble of protection is is always good to do. Understanding that it's not something you have to be in constant vigilance about.

00;10;04;22 - 00;10;28;28
Annette Dalloo
Yeah, I, I feel a need to eradicate the shadow. And that's part of the challenge because you can't eradicate the shadow. The only thing that that integrates the shadow is love. So if you're able to walk up to a shadow and love it, that is what is going to get it to not be a shadow anymore. It's that that really wonderful universe paradox that happens.

00;10;29;03 - 00;10;51;26
Annette Dalloo
You want to get rid of something? Well, you have to love it first before it will go right. Your your throat chakra is pretty strong. I would say that you let your voice almost run away with you. I'm seeing your crown chakra. Almost like speaking to your throat chakra, saying, wait, wait, wait. Hold up. Don't say that yet.

00;10;51;27 - 00;11;13;29
Annette Dalloo
No, no, wait. There's more information you're speaking before you get all of the downloads or all of the information. It's it's not a problem. It's just sometimes they want you to to go within and and really get the whole message first before you speak it. Yeah. I've actually got a blockage there I've had for a long time.

00;11;14;03 - 00;11;35;06
Annette Dalloo
It's mainly on the back of my throat chakra manifesting in like C7, but it's like wanting to express to the world, right? And not feeling like I'm being heard. Yeah, and that can definitely manifest in wanting to speak with conviction and being able to see what you want to say with conviction and what they're saying is there's nothing wrong with that.

00;11;35;06 - 00;11;54;18
Annette Dalloo
But then you're going to get more information and then you're like, oh crap, I wish I would have said that because then I would have said this other thing that would have been like ten times better, you know? So like, okay, so you can you can sort of find that balance in and checking in with your guidance and with your intuition, you know, just for a couple of seconds before you say something.

00;11;54;19 - 00;12;16;19
Annette Dalloo
If you notice a lot of really, really good public speakers have a tendency to to pause before they say things. And part of that is they may not realize they're doing it, but part of that is they are actually sort of checking in with themselves before they speak, especially with what you do for a living. It's not unusual for you to be able to do that.

00;12;16;23 - 00;12;42;15
Annette Dalloo
So that's a practice that they'd like you to start to polish. Yeah. Because I feel what's happening is I'm reacting as opposed to responding. And part of the reaction is that I am so sensitive that I'm feeling everything going on from who I'm talking to and the environment. There's this anxious energy that forms a feeling that I need to respond to get the energy back out I guess.

00;12;42;20 - 00;12;57;16
Annette Dalloo
Yeah. Yeah I want to thank Hulu, my Akashic guide, I want to thank you for being here. So good to see you as always. Thank you to Archangel Metatron and Archangel Santa for being here as well. Today we are opening up the Akashic Records. We're going to go into this lifetime that they wanted to show us regarding the root chakra.

00;12;57;19 - 00;13;21;07
Annette Dalloo
Oh, interesting, because they're saying that actually this lifetime is going to give us a little, a little glimpse into your soul purpose as well. Okay. So we're there sort of diving into this particular lifetime as you're running sort of on the edge of a forest. It's like you're just coming out of the forest and you're running down a path towards home.

00;13;21;08 - 00;13;46;22
Annette Dalloo
I'm seeing like wooden roofs, very, very tall peaked roofs. And you're running because you're seeing everything. You're seeing entities. You're seeing ghosts. You're seeing people. You're seeing. I mean, you're seeing all kinds of things. This had never happened before to you in this lifetime. You had not been able to see. And something happened in there going to show us what happened.

00;13;46;22 - 00;14;08;21
Annette Dalloo
But something happened in that forest where you were finally able to see, oh, okay. That makes sense. You ate some hallucinogenic mushrooms is basically what you did. Nice. That makes I was like. Because, like, what you were seeing, I was seeing what you were seeing. And I'm like, wow, that's crazy. Like, I haven't seen it presented that way.

00;14;08;22 - 00;14;45;10
Annette Dalloo
Like, okay, now that makes sense. Yeah. So you're just you're absolutely just floored at how much is unseen. And you're like, how is this even possible. Like as you're running you're seeing shadows run beside you. You're like jumping over shadows. You're bumping into things and you can't find a space where they aren't. And it is freaking you out because you're like how is it that we live our lives walking through this earth, not knowing that all of these things are around us all of the time?

00;14;45;12 - 00;15;09;10
Annette Dalloo
As you were getting closer and closer to where you live to, to your house, the amount of spirits and the amount of entities got lessened, if you will. There were more in the forest and there were more on the edge of the forest than there were in the village itself. You thought it was just because you were in the the warm light of the candle light and the fires that were around like that.

00;15;09;10 - 00;15;37;17
Annette Dalloo
Maybe you just couldn't see them because of because of the light, because when you were coming out of the forest, it was kind of dusk ish. You thought that maybe it was just because you couldn't see them, because the light was on, or because there were other people around. But actually what the reality of it was is that the energy fields of the people around you in that village were sort of keeping all of those entities and spirits at bay.

00;15;37;19 - 00;16;01;00
Annette Dalloo
We always have natural energy fields around us, and it just so happened that the village that you lived in had a church in the center of it. And as was often the case and this is I'm seeing it's like Austria as it was in a lot of European towns. You have a like a church or a cathedral in the center of the town, and all the houses are sort of built around it.

00;16;01;00 - 00;16;26;07
Annette Dalloo
And it does have those energy protections around it. If you think about some of the rituals of religions burning incense and saying prayers and things like that, all of those things actually serve to protect. And so what I'm seeing is that this giant bubble of protection that is sort of surrounding this church is enveloping the rest of the building.

00;16;26;07 - 00;16;50;23
Annette Dalloo
So there weren't that many buildings around. I would say that there were probably only about 20 homes around this church. It was a relatively small village. And so what you didn't understand was that the entities and the spirits were not able to come any further because of that protection. It's why a lot of superstitions have come about over the course of time that spirits live in forests.

00;16;50;23 - 00;17;27;04
Annette Dalloo
And it's true from one perspective, but only because in times of civilization you have things like churches or religious buildings or people who put up protections that prevent them from going into populated areas. A lot of that sort of folklore or superstition has a basis in truth. The next day you went back out not to the forest but just to the edge to see if you could still see them and you could, you were surprised that you still could because you weren't on the mushrooms anymore, even though you didn't really know that it was the mushrooms that did it.

00;17;27;04 - 00;17;42;15
Annette Dalloo
But like you could feel the effects of what you would eat and sort of like dissipate. And then you went out to the edge and you still could see them. You ended up speaking to a woman who was very kind. She was a guardian. She wasn't a spirit that needed to have help crossing over or anything else like that.

00;17;42;15 - 00;18;01;21
Annette Dalloo
She was there by choice. You started talking to her about what those other entities were. She tried to explain it to you, but you didn't want to hear a lot of the information she had to say because it actually scared you. Okay. What she was saying was, was sort of contrary to what the church would say or what religion would say.

00;18;01;21 - 00;18;27;00
Annette Dalloo
You weren't particularly super religious, but you were part of the community, in which case everybody went to church. Everybody did the the rituals. It was just sort of part of life because what she was saying was sort of against that. You assumed that she was actually the devil in disguise, and that she was trying to lure you in some way away from what your beliefs should be.

00;18;27;00 - 00;18;53;23
Annette Dalloo
And she wasn't she was actually just a really awesome, beautiful soul who was trying to help you. And you were like, no, you're trying to trick me. And she's like, no, I promise I'm not. And you're like, yep, you are. So you have a hard time trusting the information you get sometimes. And that is because you have this sort of thread that goes back to this particular lifetime, where you knew what was in your heart and what was true in your heart, but you couldn't trust that either.

00;18;53;23 - 00;19;13;29
Annette Dalloo
And so what that does is it manifests in a way that has you not trusting other beliefs or other people. And in fact, where it it comes in the strongest is the trust of self. And so once you can find that trust in self, the fears that you have will literally melt away. So what does that look like.

00;19;13;29 - 00;19;32;26
Annette Dalloo
That looks like the trust in your abilities. Your power, your ability to put up that bubble of protection around yourself. Contrary to this particular lifetime where you didn't know that that was a thing. You don't need a church or anything like that to do that. That you just put up the bubble and set the intention and it is done.

00;19;32;26 - 00;19;56;04
Annette Dalloo
And no entity can take your energy, no entity can interfere with your energy. And having that trust is what makes that stronger. Okay. So I'm going to I'm going to pause for a second just to ask you if you have any questions about that so far. I was just wanted to ask because part of what you're saying is kind of conflicts with my reading I had last week.

00;19;56;06 - 00;20;16;26
Annette Dalloo
You said this is the first life that I really had, this kind of personal power. And the other reader was saying how I did have a lot of personal power, but it was focused on power over others. Is that a different kind of power? Power over versus personal power? Yes. 100%. So personal power versus power over others.

00;20;16;27 - 00;20;45;09
Annette Dalloo
I mean, that's essentially the shadow of each other. Right. So the thing is, is that when I'm seeing your personal power in this lifetime, it is pure meaning that there is no hidden agendas. There's nothing behind it. It is simply your ability to be exactly who you are and embody the sole signature that you have. That's not to say that in in previous lifetimes that you haven't had power, because we all have.

00;20;45;09 - 00;21;07;08
Annette Dalloo
Every single lightworker on this planet right now has had their powers and has had access to their powers. If you consider the time of the witch trials. That was a really good example. So only about 20% of the people that they convicted as witches were actually witches. But the people who did, we received our powers and some of us abuse them.

00;21;07;08 - 00;21;33;29
Annette Dalloo
Some of us abused the power, some of us did good with it. Some of us were terrified of it and couldn't use it. We have had moments in time where we've the veil has been thinned, or we've been able to sort of check to see where we are energetically. And the reason why they're saying this is the first time for you, that you're in your personal power fully, is that this is the purest version of your personal power without having that shadow side of it.

00;21;34;01 - 00;21;59;08
Annette Dalloo
Okay. It's part of the sort of balancing where if you're having these fears of either having too much power or having fears of abusing it in any way, oftentimes that's just sort of the reminder of what happened in the past. That's kind of coming up to say, hey, remember to keep the balance. This is what happened last time.

00;21;59;10 - 00;22;24;12
Annette Dalloo
And that's part of what this previous lifetime that they were showing us is part of what they were kind of getting at is that to have the confidence in the strength of your own power to prevent those energies from affecting you is going to be your biggest ally. That is going to be your biggest ability to then be certain that everything that you have in your energy field is only yours.

00;22;24;15 - 00;22;43;10
Annette Dalloo
Okay. Do we need to look at any past lives for his life purpose for this lifetime? Yes. Okay. How many? Just one. So the first thing that I'm seeing is you're coming back from a long trip. You were gone for a while. I'm getting. You were gone for four years. You arrive on the doorstep of your home that you don't really recognize as your home.

00;22;43;10 - 00;23;00;18
Annette Dalloo
I mean, it is your home, and you understand that it is. But it's something that you haven't seen for so long. It feels foreign to you. Where you've been is so different from where you came from and where you live now. A woman comes out of the house. Everything falls away. You run into her arms and you give her the biggest hug.

00;23;00;19 - 00;23;19;13
Annette Dalloo
In that moment, you realize that is the most important thing. There is nothing more important than her. There is nothing more important than this moment. There's nothing more important than love. You have a release. You start sobbing. You didn't realize you had been holding on to this energy that you've been carrying for so long, and just being able to hug her was allowing you to release it.

00;23;19;14 - 00;23;36;06
Annette Dalloo
You were very easily able to let go of all of the things that happened. It's almost as if you don't even want to look at them now. Like it was a completely different life, that it was something that didn't happen to you. It happened to somebody else. You're able to let it go and move forward in your new life.

00;23;36;07 - 00;23;52;20
Annette Dalloo
Even though it was your old life, it's still new to you now. You want to live your life for you and for her and for your family. And that is it. You don't want any outside influences. You don't want anybody else involved. You want to cherish where you are. All right. So do we need to know what happened prior?

00;23;52;21 - 00;24;14;12
Annette Dalloo
No. Okay. Do we need to fast forward? Yes. Okay. You are a natural protector. Part of the. The issue I'm seeing in this lifetime that we're seeing right now is that energetically, you're protecting your wife. You're protecting your family, but you're not protecting yourself. So you spend a lot of time protecting and helping others, but you don't necessarily do it for yourself.

00;24;14;15 - 00;24;37;21
Annette Dalloo
They're saying in your current lifetime right now part of your life's purpose is putting on your oxygen mask first. It is about looking after you and your energy, your emotional, mental and physical well-being before you look after others because you have this incredible power and this incredible ability to intrinsically know when somebody needs something or when somebody is hurting.

00;24;37;21 - 00;25;00;20
Annette Dalloo
You are incredibly empathic, so you know what you need to do when you are in a space of needing to take time for yourself. It's sort of the last thing that you think of for this particular lifetime that you're currently in. This is about doing things in the order that they need to be done, and not skipping around.

00;25;00;20 - 00;25;22;01
Annette Dalloo
So a lot of the distortion that happened in previous lifetimes where there was either abuse of power or maybe there was a selfishness in abandoning the people that you loved. Things like that happen because you're not listening to your inner self, telling you that you need time, or telling you that you need healing, telling you what you need.

00;25;22;01 - 00;25;44;03
Annette Dalloo
And because you're abandoning yourself, you have to abandon others. It's just how it works. And that's where distortion can start coming in. So being aware of that distortion is what can help you build that new foundation, that new, beautiful, bright root chakra where the foundation is built on your energy and your energy alone. So you can be the lighthouse for everyone else.

00;25;44;04 - 00;26;03;15
Annette Dalloo
Okay. Can you tell me how you're feeling about that information for your life purpose? Yeah, there's there's a fear that's coming up. If I don't say them, no one's going to do it. They can't see it but I realize that that's a blind spy that I'm not seeing that I need to take care of myself first.

00;26;03;22 - 00;26;29;14
Annette Dalloo
Yeah. Well and also you know to that can sort of eek over into the codependent energy. Oh yes. What happens there is that you're not giving the person the opportunity to learn, to fall, to grow, instead of looking at it as well. I have to save them or they they really need my help. You can look at it from the standpoint of, okay, maybe they need these experiences so they can grow themselves.

00;26;29;16 - 00;26;51;15
Annette Dalloo
And sometimes that's hard. Sometimes that's hard to watch people we love fall because that's what they need in their lives in order to grow. But sometimes it's necessary. Yeah. Yeah. Even if they're on their deathbed. I'm thinking of my mother right now who is probably not going to last through next year. You can be there for them energetically, and you can send her healing energy.

00;26;51;15 - 00;27;10;29
Annette Dalloo
You can send her all the things you you want to send her. The the challenge is when somebody isn't doing the things that they need to do for their own bodies, their own energy, their own health. If we do it for them or if we force them to do it, it will work for a time. But it won't be long term and won't stick.

00;27;11;00 - 00;27;32;11
Annette Dalloo
Right. And you can't be with somebody of 24 hours a day, seven days a week. Right. That's true. That's what you're learning to accept ultimately is coming back selfishly because I really want her to heal. So she'll validate me in my experience with her. What about that? Would validate it for you? So, you know, she was extremely traumatized.

00;27;32;11 - 00;27;51;03
Annette Dalloo
And I'm realizing she's dissociative in my childhood, so she wasn't really a mother. And she's still delusional and dissociative. And so I'm trying to help her see how she was traumatized and she won't look at it. And selfishly I think a part of me is like well if you see it then you'll realize how you were to me.

00;27;51;03 - 00;28;15;25
Annette Dalloo
And that's not going to work. So the, the best and easiest way that you can get to that place of peace surrounding that relationship is by connecting to the version of yourself that is feeling that way. So if it is the younger version or many versions from when you were a child all the way up until now, and we're going to do a little exercise right now.

00;28;15;25 - 00;28;44;12
Annette Dalloo
And once I show you the exercise, you'll be able to do this on your own. I want you to be able to do this exercise and and continue doing it for as long as you want to, and see if it shifts and changes the way that that things are showing up with your mom. I'm going to put you in a divine bubble of protection, and I would like you to imagine the very first age you were when you felt unloved or you didn't feel safe to be loved.

00;28;44;15 - 00;29;06;02
Annette Dalloo
What is the first age that's coming to you? I think it was five years old. Okay. I want you to connect with that five year old version of yourself. Okay. And I want you to ask that version of yourself how he's feeling. Terrified. Abandoned. Does he know what he needs right now? I don't know exactly how old I was, but my intuition says five.

00;29;06;03 - 00;29;31;05
Annette Dalloo
I was in the neighborhood, and we lived in a trailer that at that point, and for some reason, I want it to come back in the house. And my mother wasn't answering the door. And this, this terrified feeling came over me like she's she's not there. She's not there for you. I don't know where she is. And I started banging on the glass door so hard that it shattered and sliced my arm.

00;29;31;07 - 00;29;53;25
Annette Dalloo
And I didn't even realize that. I sliced it until she opened the door and looked at me, stunned that I'm bleeding, you know, on the doorstep and pointing at it, but still, like, in a dissociative way. She's pointing at it. She's not really showing emotion. And she was washing her hair, which is something she did throughout my childhood, like this, this big thing of washing her hair and dyeing it and curling.

00;29;53;25 - 00;30;14;23
Annette Dalloo
It was like her thing, which kind of took precedence over being present for me. So it's kind of a trigger that she was doing that, but it was somehow important that I was so freaked out that I, you know, broke the glass and sliced myself and didn't even realize that I had done it because I was so focused on getting her attention.

00;30;14;26 - 00;30;32;04
Annette Dalloo
I want you to connect to that. That feeling, that panicky feeling. And was that the first time that you felt that panicky feeling? I'm not sure, because a lot of my childhood is a blur. Like I can't remember it. So I'm not I'm not sure if it was the first time or not. You don't have to remember it.

00;30;32;04 - 00;30;52;17
Annette Dalloo
So just be the observer for the moment and ask your intuition. What age were you when you first felt that panic? I think it was in the womb. Yeah. Yeah. Because that was what I was feeling. Is that this entire scenario that you just outlined for us, it's it's like this was almost like the manifestation of something that was leading up to it.

00;30;52;24 - 00;31;28;01
Annette Dalloo
Okay. What we're going to do is we're going to do a little bit of of timeline work. So what this means is that we're going to go back into that moment in time with your mom, and we're going to put the fetus you in a bubble of divine light protection. And you're just going to imagine that this bubble of protection is insulating this baby, you, from any of your mother's anxiety or any of your mother's fears, removing any and all energies that do not belong to you.

00;31;28;03 - 00;31;46;04
Annette Dalloo
And we're going to put some soundproofing in this bubble as well. Any harsh words that were said? You are not going to be able to hear. You will not be able to feel the energy of those harsh words coming from her or from my father to her. Yeah, yeah. I'm just hearing you don't feel safe because she didn't feel safe.

00;31;46;07 - 00;32;07;03
Annette Dalloo
Okay, so now I want to check back in with the five year old version of yourself. And how is he feeling now. I'm seeing him standing outside the house the trailer and not needing not needing to bang on the door. Good. Yeah. So I would like you to approach him and if you want to you can pick him up and put him in your arms.

00;32;07;06 - 00;32;44;24
Annette Dalloo
Give him a big hug. Yeah. And ask him if there's anything that he needs from either you or from his mom right now. He just seems to be full of energy. Good. Yeah. I think he's good. So you can just let him know that any time he needs you, that you can be there for him in the best way that you can do that is by understanding that if you get a intuition or a thought in your head about a particular moment in time in your past, or something that happened with your mom or whatever it happens to be, that's going to be your little indication that that version of yourself, that that

00;32;44;24 - 00;33;01;17
Annette Dalloo
inner child version of yourself is saying, hey, can we take a look at this please? And then you can go back and check in with that version of yourself. Ask him the questions. How are you feeling? What do you need. And go back into your intuition as to where the origin point was, because that's what we need to get to.

00;33;01;17 - 00;33;41;20
Annette Dalloo
We need to get to the origin points of each one of these things, so then they can be cleared and healed. Okay. What I'm seeing is that once you are able to move forward in this new heart energy of looking after yourself first and moving into this new energy, it's when you are going to be able to really connect with somebody who is aligned for you, and it's going to be supportive, and it's going to be loving, and it's going to be a little scary for you, because it's not going to be something that you've been entirely used to in terms of, like having that energy matching, but you're going to fall into it

00;33;41;20 - 00;34;06;24
Annette Dalloo
pretty easily. You'll fall into that comfortability of having like, energies together, if that makes sense. Right? Okay. Like I said before, I just I need to clear a lot of my control and power and paranoia thoughts around people in general. What does the paranoia show up as well? It seems like anyone who can can hurt me can get close to my heart.

00;34;06;24 - 00;34;31;29
Annette Dalloo
I start wondering if if they betrayed me, which I, I think that comes from this life and maybe past lives of feeling betrayed by people close to me. They're saying to me that the betrayal can be a little bit insidious because of where you are and what you're working on when you have these fears of betrayal.

00;34;32;00 - 00;34;56;26
Annette Dalloo
And let's say somebody who is in a healthy space puts up a boundary or says, I need to take a few days to myself, that triggers that feeling within you that you are not creating that space for yourself. It's kind of this sort of mirror that's showing you when you have these feelings of, oh my gosh, is this person betraying me?

00;34;56;27 - 00;35;22;29
Annette Dalloo
Just the very reaction that you're having, the person doesn't even have to betray you in order for you to see that. When you see that, I want you to look at it as a clue and say, okay, if I'm feeling this, what does this mean about what's going on inside me? What am I betraying about myself and turning that around and really checking in with yourself each time can really help you to understand, okay, is this true or is this not?

00;35;23;00 - 00;35;41;18
Annette Dalloo
Because it's not to say that you're never going to be betrayed in your entire life ever again. Human. We have experiences. We have things that are unpleasant. It happens. But what it does is it helps you to determine, okay, is this something that's just going on within me, or is there something really going on in in the 3D?

00;35;41;18 - 00;36;05;03
Annette Dalloo
And that's where you need to sort of decipher, because when all of those things are kind of mixed up together, it's kind of hard to see what is real and what isn't. Let's take a look at what we can do to help you with that. It is very similar to what we did with the feeling of panic is to to go back and get to the origin point of that betrayal.

00;36;05;05 - 00;36;28;15
Annette Dalloo
So if you want to sort of connecting with that very first time that your intuition is telling you that you felt that feeling of betrayal in this life or previous lives in this life. Yeah, that would be with my father. Okay. And how old were you? I'm really not sure. It feels very young. It seems like I was kind of forced to be more awake at one years old.

00;36;28;15 - 00;36;50;10
Annette Dalloo
Like, more conscious because of what I was dealing with. He was a forensic psychologist, and I feel like there was a lot of manipulation and dark energies present that I needed to be aware of. I'm not totally sure exactly what happened. I just know growing up I felt like I was always on guard with him. So the first age that I'm getting is the age of two.

00;36;50;11 - 00;37;09;24
Annette Dalloo
And again, this is not something that you were even really conscious of happening. I'm hearing and like a conversation that your father is having. You don't understand what he's saying, but you feel the energy of it is the betrayal towards it is not. It is towards somebody else. Okay. Got it. But he's picking up on the energy. Okay.

00;37;09;27 - 00;37;27;16
Annette Dalloo
And I'm hearing you say he can't be trusted. So I would like you to imagine that you're grabbing that two year old boy by the hand. And I want you to approach your father, okay? And I want you to ask his higher self what was happening in that moment. Why did you feel this feeling of betrayal? And what was it about?

00;37;27;18 - 00;37;47;26
Annette Dalloo
I'm not getting anything. It feels blocked from me somehow. Okay. It's not in words. It's pre-verbal. Just like an energy. Yeah. So the first thing I'm hearing him say is I have no idea what you're talking about, and. And I'm hearing your two year old version say, well, I heard you say this, and I'm hearing your dad say, I didn't say this at all.

00;37;47;27 - 00;38;08;17
Annette Dalloo
Oh, wow. Okay. I'm hearing your two year old version say, I heard you were leaving. You said you were leaving, and your dad is saying. That's not what I said at all. I was talking to somebody else. He was talking to somebody on the phone, maybe. And it was like an energy that you felt from him. That he was going to leave you, or that he was never coming back or something to that effect.

00;38;08;17 - 00;38;33;10
Annette Dalloo
And it was a complete misunderstanding. It wasn't anything that was actually happening, but it was your perception of what was going on. And that happens a lot actually with young children and babies. Like if they hear something or sense an energy and they, they get it in their, their energy field that, oh I, I'm not safe or I, I'm being abandoned or my parents don't love me because they left me crying in the crib for an hour.

00;38;33;10 - 00;38;58;05
Annette Dalloo
You know what I mean? It's like, it's so interesting that sometimes just even the smallest of misunderstandings can actually create an entire belief system that carries throughout our entire life. Okay. I want to have you check in with that, that two year old version of yourself. And then I want to check in with yourself right now. And how you're feeling when it comes to betrayal, abandonment.

00;38;58;05 - 00;39;21;12
Annette Dalloo
Do you feel the energy dissipate knowing this particular instance? Yeah, I can I can understand that. Maybe that's what happened there. But there's so many instances of just things not adding up with him and and my and my family system in general that it I don't I guess it feels a little bit invalidating to, to believe that all of my betrayal could be coming from that.

00;39;21;14 - 00;39;50;11
Annette Dalloo
No, it's not that. All of your betrayal comes from that. It's simply that that particular moment is an important moment to be able to clear. Okay. When we look at these individual moments it's never just one thing. It can be multiple things but it's just the first point of healing. Okay. When we do this healing oftentimes people will try to heal like what's in the immediate present.

00;39;50;12 - 00;40;12;09
Annette Dalloo
And if you don't go all the way back to the original points, it's going to keep on coming back and it's going to keep on coming back. So now that we can look at that point as okay, so that particular moment was a miscommunication or a misunderstanding, then it's time to go into okay, so where's the next point and where's the next point.

00;40;12;10 - 00;40;36;14
Annette Dalloo
And then to be able to then have conversations with your father about those particular moments is going to be really important for you. And conversations in the spirit in five D right? Not necessarily in the three D when you're in that conversation in spirit that can allow you to start releasing all of these, these feelings of when is the other shoe going to drop?

00;40;36;16 - 00;40;59;02
Annette Dalloo
I just wonder if we could talk to his higher self about the whole life with him. And sure to get to get some clarity on that. Yeah, there is some context that you need about the relationship that we had. There are things that you don't know yet. This does have to do with some past lives that we have had in the more recent past.

00;40;59;03 - 00;41;22;12
Annette Dalloo
We are not soul family, but we have chosen to be in each other's lives for a reason. You fulfilled your soul contract for me. I did not fulfill your soul contract for you and I'm sorry for that. I was supposed to help you to transform by giving you certain experiences. Not all of them were meant to be good or helpful experiences, but I was here to give you contrast.

00;41;22;13 - 00;41;43;03
Annette Dalloo
I didn't want to do the things that I did. There are parts of my soul that weren't available to me during that lifetime. I had blocks in my human form that go back many, many lifetimes. You did know this when you chose me as a father, when you chose both of us as parents, you knew what our shortcomings would be.

00;41;43;04 - 00;42;00;13
Annette Dalloo
It was part of your life purpose to move through them and to overcome. I wanted to be more supportive, but I couldn't be. I was weighted down by so much of what I dealt with in my own childhood. I didn't know how to be. I tried to emulate everybody else I could possibly think of other than my own self.

00;42;00;16 - 00;42;19;07
Annette Dalloo
I put on many faces. I put on many personas. I tried to be a different person all the time. It never worked. As you can see, I was focus so much on myself how I was showing up, what I was doing, what I was not doing, what I was failing in. How do I have any room to be a father when I can barely function as a human being?

00;42;19;10 - 00;42;38;17
Annette Dalloo
None of this was your fault. None of my behavior towards you was out of malice or lack of love. It was simply the lack of love that I had for myself. I didn't know how to express myself. And when I did, it came out wrong. You don't have to choose to incarnate with me again. And I understand if you don't, because we were not particularly successful this time around.

00;42;38;17 - 00;43;00;17
Annette Dalloo
But you have excelled in spite of the experience you had with me, and for that I am grateful. Just know that my soul loves you, even if my human self was not able to express it or even know what that feels like. But as you know, when we're all in soul, we are love. And you may not want it, but I am here for you if you need my help with anything.

00;43;00;17 - 00;43;18;19
Annette Dalloo
I don't know how much of a help I could be, but if you do need help, you only need to ask. Thank you. Is there anything else you wanted to say? No. He is still going through some elements of healing himself on the other side. Can I can I ask where he wants his ashes to be? The first thing he's saying is with you.

00;43;18;19 - 00;43;36;11
Annette Dalloo
But he understands that if you don't want them near you energetically, he understands, and that's fine. I just wondered if you want it. Some of them put in the mountains where he always wanted to be, which is where I live now. He's saying it doesn't really matter. He's saying put them where it makes you feel good to put them.

00;43;36;13 - 00;44;05;11
Annette Dalloo
Okay. He didn't have a memorial when he died. And I'm wondering if he wants an online memorial. He's showing me hearts. If you're able to have an online memorial for him that would boost him up. Meaning? Like giving him that, that love energy. Then do it. But I'm feeling like if if you don't feel like that's how it would sort of play out, then no, because what I'm getting is that, like, he would love to have that loving energy coming from the people who knew him.

00;44;05;13 - 00;44;33;24
Annette Dalloo
I'm actually kind of doing it more for me to try to let go of him as well. What is your heart telling you to do? Oh, I'm conflicted about it because part of me is wrapped up in eventually wanting to get validation for how he actually did treat me. I'm conflicted about it, and he was kind of a public figure, so that there's a lot of people that would want to have this memorial, but I'm just trying to make sure my heart's in the right place.

00;44;33;25 - 00;44;57;14
Annette Dalloo
One of the things that I did feel, though, while I was in the channel, and you may have picked up on this as well, but it's like even in the channel, he was still very focused on what he was going to say. Like he didn't he didn't ask you things about yourself. It's still very focused on him. And that's that's part of what he's still trying to heal right now.

00;44;57;15 - 00;45;17;16
Annette Dalloo
It's very focused on where he is now. That's something to to actually kind of pay attention to as well, because it's what he needs. Like that's what he needs right now is to pay attention to himself because it is about his own healing. You have to do the same, right? So you have to focus on you for your own healing.

00;45;17;17 - 00;45;35;21
Annette Dalloo
I think that's part of the mirror he was supposed to be for me. All right. So how do you feel? I'm glad to have some some clarity about this. So I'm going to close the Akashic Records. I want to thank my Akashic guide, Akula, for being here. I think Archangel Metatron. Archangel Sandoval. Fingers. Well, the records are closed.

00;45;35;21 - 00;45;52;01
Annette Dalloo
The records are closed. The records are closed. Thank you. I heard that you were writing throughout the session, which is great. So I want you to write down anything that pops up for you over the next couple of weeks. Like if there's any feelings or emotions or memories or anything that pops up, just make sure you're writing it down so you can be sure to address it.

00;45;52;01 - 00;46;11;12
Annette Dalloo
Okay? Because I feel like this is like unlocking some of those things from your your current life, in your childhood that had been kind of stuck and it's starting to loosen them up. And now that they're being loosened up, some of that other stuff is going to start coming into into your consciousness. Okay. So I want you to make sure that you're paying attention to what that is and write it down.

00;46;11;12 - 00;46;31;16
Annette Dalloo
So then it can be addressed okay. All right. Sounds good. All right. Wonderful. I'm sending you tons and tons of love. And. Yeah. Until next time. Okay. Thank you so much in that. You're welcome. Bye bye. Bye.

00;46;31;18 - 00;46;59;29
Annette Dalloo
I would like to thank Jake for his vulnerability, for his ability to move through the things he needed to move through in this session, and for allowing me to record it for the podcast. There is a lot to cover for this particular session. This was an incredibly rich session, full of nuance and content that is really important for almost everybody to know.

00;47;00;02 - 00;47;27;16
Annette Dalloo
The first subject that I'm going to tackle is the the negative entities that Jake was talking about. I want to be very clear about this, because it is important that all of you know that you have the power. You have the power to overcome your fear when it comes to any negative energy or entity. I have come across certain people where they have negative entities attached to them.

00;47;27;17 - 00;47;54;13
Annette Dalloo
I have come across all kinds of different scenarios when it comes to these negative souls. If you want to call them that, I personally don't like to refer them as such because all energy is divine source energy. If they are a negative energy, if you will, that simply means that that soul or that energy has been through some pretty challenging times or some pretty challenging lifetimes.

00;47;54;13 - 00;48;17;28
Annette Dalloo
In which case, as I mentioned in the session, the only thing that can really help that soul is love and acceptance and non-judgment. Sometimes that may not be your job though. It may not be your job to help those energies or those entities, in which case that is where your own personal power comes into play. And this is what we talked a lot about in the session.

00;48;17;29 - 00;48;41;02
Annette Dalloo
Your personal power plays a huge, huge factor in being able to not let these energies affect you because they can affect you. If your energy is wide open, you don't have your bubble of protection. Let's say you're in lower energies yourself. Let's say you're drinking or doing drugs or anything else like that. That's a really prime time for those energies to attach to you.

00;48;41;04 - 00;49;03;27
Annette Dalloo
If you're not putting up those bubbles of protection, if you're not clearing your energy on a regular basis, then yes, of course these energies can have an effect on your energy field. Now, I meant what I said in the session where they they cannot harm you in the traditional sense. They can influence or affect your energy. So if you're feeling really low, you could feel a little bit lower.

00;49;03;28 - 00;49;28;03
Annette Dalloo
If you are having really dark thoughts, those dark thoughts could be amplified okay. Basically, the entities or the energies work with what is already within you. So it's not something that they are necessarily putting in your energy field. It's more of an application of what you already have. This has just been my experience. Now other people may have other experiences as well.

00;49;28;03 - 00;49;58;01
Annette Dalloo
This is just my perspective. What I've seen with my clients and what I've experienced with myself. So when it comes to being able to rise above, first of all, bubble of protection, clearing your energy, always a good practice to get into. Secondly, if you have some great fear, which I certainly did when I was in my younger years, and even all the way up through my mid adulthood, had some really serious fears about entities, about ghosts, about negative energies, about all of those things.

00;49;58;01 - 00;50;18;15
Annette Dalloo
And it wasn't until I actually started looking at them from the perspective of the fact that they are pure energy, that they are a soul, that it started to allow me to not have so much fear and to start having compassion for those energies and understanding that they're doing the best they can with where they are at that moment.

00;50;18;18 - 00;50;42;18
Annette Dalloo
And I did mention a little bit about this in the session where we were talking about Jake's father because he had crossed over a couple of years prior, but his soul was still working on sort of clearing that psychic debris. Now, you might think that once we die, once we cross over, our souls are pure. So why wouldn't they just be pure?

00;50;42;18 - 00;51;12;18
Annette Dalloo
And that is true. But I have talked about this many times where it is like a little coat that we wear of this psychic debris. And so as we are rising up in the levels of energy, so to speak, after we cross over, we have to take off those layers of coats and those layers of energy that we have on this dense planet, this planet of duality, all of the things and the experiences and everything that our human cells have had over the course of lifetimes.

00;51;12;18 - 00;51;38;09
Annette Dalloo
And so before we incarnate again, we have to put those coats back on. Right. So his father, as he was speaking to us and channeling through us, he was able to tell us what he was working on and where he was. But as you can tell, he wasn't in his pure, unconditionally loving space. Yet he was still working on maybe taking off some of those psychic debris coats that he had had from his human experience.

00;51;38;10 - 00;52;01;07
Annette Dalloo
And that's essentially what these entities and negative or darker energies are. They are simply just souls that have these coats of psychic debris on, but maybe their coats are just a little bit heavier. Maybe their coats are just a bit stronger, or they have been around a bit longer. It is your personal power that you can step into and really face that fear.

00;52;01;07 - 00;52;20;02
Annette Dalloo
And for me, what that meant was I had to look straight at these entities. And it's funny how it actually happened in layers. So it was just one little step at a time where I had to step into that fear, and I had to look it straight in the eye, and I had to say, okay, I'm not afraid of you anymore because my power is greater.

00;52;20;02 - 00;52;37;03
Annette Dalloo
And it took me a long time to get there, and the universe gave me all kinds of situations that made me face that fear, one of which was a session with a client where he literally just straight up said to me, hey, I want to know about demons. I want to know if they exist. And I was like, wow, okay, cool.

00;52;37;03 - 00;52;57;13
Annette Dalloo
We're going to be looking at demons. I don't really want to do that, but okay, I guess we're going to have to to dive into whether or not that is real. And spoiler alert, this is exactly the same thing that we're talking about, which is these darker energies that are full of psychic debris. They are, in fact, pure souls on the inside.

00;52;57;15 - 00;53;41;19
Annette Dalloo
So when it comes to things like psychic attacks, that's something that is completely different. We did talk about it a little bit in the session where Jake was asking me about his reactions to other people's energy, and that can really happen when you are an HSP, a highly sensitive person. If you are an empath and you really pick up on other people's energy, if somebody is coming at you in anger, then that anger energy can really sort of take over your energy and then you end up reacting to that energy that is in your field versus responding in your own sovereign energy.

00;53;41;19 - 00;54;06;25
Annette Dalloo
And that's exactly what Jake was talking about, how he was reacting instead of responding. And the best way that you can combat that energy is to, again, put up bubbles of protection, remove yourself from the situation. So if you see somebody coming at you with that big, huge anger energy or the sadness energy or whatever lower energy is there, remove yourself from the situation.

00;54;06;25 - 00;54;33;06
Annette Dalloo
Simply excuse yourself. So you have to go do something and just remove yourself from that. Okay? Then once you can get clear of that energy, then you can clear your energy field. You can kind of return back to the conversation if you must, and be in that personal power and respond from that heart centered space, from that personal power, as opposed to responding with that other person's energy in your energy field.

00;54;33;11 - 00;55;02;23
Annette Dalloo
So the next subject I would like to talk about is the contradiction in readings. This one is a fun one for me, and the reason why I say that is because I have had it come up a few times where people have gotten readings from other practitioners, things like that, and maybe there is conflicting information, and I'm not going to deny that there could be conflicting information, because there could be because every reader is different.

00;55;02;23 - 00;55;27;09
Annette Dalloo
They're going to see things a little bit different. They're going to interpret things a little bit differently. So could there be contradictions? Sure. There's always room for error. The one thing I do want to address, though, is that more times than not, it is a matter of perspective when you are looking at something very close up. Let's say you're examining a diamond under one of those little magnifying glasses.

00;55;27;11 - 00;55;49;17
Annette Dalloo
You're looking at all the little individual facets. You're looking very, very closely at everything that's going to look so much different than if you zoom out and look at the whole diamond. And that's exactly what is happening here. So we are zooming in on particular moments in time. We're zooming in on particular experiences that the client may have in a previous lifetime.

00;55;49;17 - 00;56;17;01
Annette Dalloo
And from that one perspective, X, Y, and z is happening. But then if you zoom out in the bigger picture, you can then actually add more information. You can get more information that puts the rest of the puzzle pieces together from one perspective. If you're zoomed in on that information, sometimes it can look like that information is contradictory, but it isn't because it's just one piece of the puzzle.

00;56;17;01 - 00;56;38;22
Annette Dalloo
So that was exactly what happened here in this session with Jake, which was I was saying that this is the first lifetime that he has been in his personal power. In a previous session, he had a practitioner say to him that he had been in his power many times before and while that is true, it's a different kind of power.

00;56;38;22 - 00;57;06;17
Annette Dalloo
So the type of power the previous practitioner was talking about, I can only assume based on what we talked about, was just pure raw power, meaning that you are fully in your psychic gifts, you're fully in your manifestation ability, but you have no control over how you're using it in terms of your heart, in terms of your compassion, in terms of being in that self-love space.

00;57;06;17 - 00;57;31;29
Annette Dalloo
And that's the piece that was missing for him. So now he is in his personal power, which includes what we were talking about before, which is his psychic gifts and everything else. But it also includes him being able to operate from a heart centered space versus reaching for power, reaching for something that you're striving for, let's say. And that's a totally different energy.

00;57;32;03 - 00;58;07;18
Annette Dalloo
Then being in your personal power and operating from a heart centered space. So my advice to you, if you get readings frequently and you seem to get some conflicting information, try not to focus on it too much. Focus on the message. Focus on what it is that you're here to learn and take a little bit of a break in terms of trying to analyze everything, if that's something that you do often, because sometimes that information won't become clear for many months or even many years.

00;58;07;18 - 00;58;54;24
Annette Dalloo
So just kind of put it in your back pocket if it doesn't necessarily resonate or if it doesn't fit, just kind of leave it for now. And if it needs to come back up again, it will. This next subject is really, really big and I want to dive into it because it's something that I feel we all really struggle with when it comes to forgiveness, when it comes to letting go of the past, past traumas, past sadnesses and difficult childhoods, this is something that we covered in most of the session with Jake is diving into those difficult childhood experiences he had had with both of his parents, and the first thing I will say is

00;58;54;24 - 00;59;17;01
Annette Dalloo
that it doesn't matter if your parents are still on this earth or not, this is still work that you can do, and it's in fact even more effective if they're not on this earth, because their energy and their souls on the other side are usually much more willing and easy in terms of working together to be able to heal that particular experience or trauma that you had as a child.

00;59;17;04 - 00;59;45;06
Annette Dalloo
There have been many times in the past where I have channeled grandparents, parents, crossed over loved ones. It's not something I do all the time, but it is something that does happen and this can be very cathartic for the client because if they didn't have this closure, as Jake was talking about with his mother, he really wanted to have that validation of his experience from his mother before she passes.

00;59;45;08 - 01;00;10;28
Annette Dalloo
And sometimes it's just not possible. His mother was not ready to start working on her own trauma, so how could she even understand his the thing that stood out for me the most in listening back to this session, when we were connecting into that previous energy when he was two with his father, and that the feeling of betrayal was actually towards somebody else, and it wasn't towards him.

01;00;11;00 - 01;00;39;22
Annette Dalloo
And that realization and the fact that Jake had said that it almost feels invalidating, that that wasn't his experience. And I want to address that because it is really important to address when we go into these previous versions of ourselves and we start to see what actually happened, there are times when it did happen, exactly how we remembered it or it happened exactly the way that our intuition is telling us it happened.

01;00;39;22 - 01;01;05;03
Annette Dalloo
But there are also many times when it was a misunderstanding, when it didn't happen exactly that way, when our feelings were hurt. So we were looking at it from a different lens and all of those things change what the experience was. Now, it doesn't invalidate the feelings. It doesn't say that what you felt isn't real, because it is absolutely real what you felt in that moment.

01;01;05;03 - 01;01;30;28
Annette Dalloo
But in the timeline, what we're trying to do is go back and be the conscious observer. We're trying to look at the big picture from the standpoint of the more healed and more whole adult that you are now, and be able to take a look at that situation and see it from a higher perspective. So it's not necessarily invalidating the experience that you had as a child.

01;01;31;00 - 01;01;50;29
Annette Dalloo
It is simply saying, okay, I acknowledge that you have that experience as a child. Now that I have a different perspective, let's take a look at it again and see how much we can let go of that pain, or that hurt, or that resentment, or those feelings of betrayal or that feeling of abandonment. Can we let go of that?

01;01;51;01 - 01;02;13;09
Annette Dalloo
And that is the goal. The goal is to let go of those feelings, because we hold on to them so tightly throughout our entire adult experience, when we don't need to, and all it's doing is holding us back. So we hold on to those things because we want the validation. We want our parents to say, yes, I know I did that to you and I'm so, so sorry.

01;02;13;11 - 01;02;41;17
Annette Dalloo
I didn't realize that I had done that. Or I apologize for the experience that I gave you. And most of the time we're just not going to get that. And sometimes it's because maybe our parents are not healed themselves. Maybe it's sometimes because they don't see your perspective and they're not able to whatever the reason why you don't get that validation, it doesn't matter, because the healing that needs to take place is within you.

01;02;41;18 - 01;03;02;23
Annette Dalloo
It's not within them. Getting the other person to see the error of their ways, or to see their mistakes isn't actually helping you to heal. It's just giving you that catharsis. It's just giving you that feeling of finally they they admit it. They understand. They know what they did to me. And that is something that you don't actually need once it's healed.

01;03;02;26 - 01;03;39;15
Annette Dalloo
That's the interesting paradox about the whole thing, is that once you heal this within yourself and you fully let it go, the need to have the apology, the need to have the validation, the need to have that moment of confrontation with the person that you feel has done you wrong. It's just not necessary anymore. So find a place within your own life where you're holding on to some anger, holding on to some place where you're saying, I want this person to admit what they've done to me and feel into that energy because it's a victim mentality, right?

01;03;39;15 - 01;04;00;17
Annette Dalloo
It's victim energy. And that is a lower energy that you don't necessarily need to carry within your energy field. So if you want to do this work, I am certainly here to help you with that. But you can also do this on your own. You can do that sort of timeline work as we did in this session, and you can go back into those moments and speak to your parents and see what comes up for you.

01;04;00;18 - 01;04;23;19
Annette Dalloo
And I can't stress enough it is never too late. Even if you both of your parents have long past, you can still do this work. Have an amazing week and I look forward to speaking with you next week. If you're enjoying this podcast, it would be really amazing if you could like, share and subscribe wherever you listen to podcasts.

01;04;23;19 - 01;04;48;11
Annette Dalloo
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01;04;48;12 - 01;04;53;05
Annette Dalloo
Thank you so much for all of your support and I can't wait to connect with you next week.