AR31:Soulful Acceptance & Embodied Reverence – A Journey into Self-Love Through the Akashic Records

In today’s episode, Marie opens up about her journey with loneliness and the deep desire for connection. We explore the roots of her codependency and people-pleasing patterns, uncovering how they have impacted her health and overall well-being. I offer her practical, actionable steps to cultivate self-love and step into a more empowered, fulfilling relationship with herself. Together, we redefine what it truly means to prioritize self-care and put herself first. 

Soulful Acceptance is the deep, spiritual embrace of who you are at the core—your soul, your essence, your divine truth. It’s about moving beyond the stories, the conditioning, and the self-judgment, and instead recognizing your inherent worth.

From the perspective of the Akashic Records, your soul has traveled through lifetimes, accumulating wisdom, learning lessons, and experiencing love and loss. Every experience, even the most painful ones, carries a purpose. Soulful Acceptance means allowing yourself to see your journey with compassion rather than criticism.

Reflection Questions:

If I viewed myself through the eyes of my Higher Self, what would I see?

What parts of me have I struggled to accept, and what would happen if I embraced them with love instead?

How can I show up for myself in a way that honors my soul’s truth?

Transcript

00;00;00;00 - 00;00;25;20
Annette Dalloo
But if you look at this from the perspective of both the soul and the physical body, and try to marry those two things together, it will make things much more coherent. It will help you to start to have that embodied reverence. Now, what does that mean? Embodied reverence? Well, it means that you are physically expressing reverence for yourself.

00;00;25;23 - 00;00;56;03
Annette Dalloo
A lot of people, when they talk about self-love, they talk about physical care, whether it's dance or getting a massage or something physical that you're doing with your body that is making you feel good. That is really only a very small part of the entire process of that self-love embodiment. It's about how you speak to yourself. It's about how you carry yourself, how you nourish your body, how you enter a room with confidence.

00;00;56;05 - 00;01;19;28
Annette Dalloo
It's how you draw boundaries. It's how you show up for yourself by knowing what it is that you want and asking for it. It's about asking for help. It's about stepping out of that people pleasing nature. Getting rid of that codependency.

00;01;20;00 - 00;01;44;03
Annette Dalloo
Welcome to the Akashic Recordings. My name is Annette Dalloo. I'm an Akashic Conduit channel and spiritual guidance coach. What you will be hearing today is a real session with one of my clients. All the names have been changed for privacy and of course, with their permission, we are privileged to hear these beautiful stories to allow us a small glimpse into the Akashic Records.

00;01;44;03 - 00;02;07;05
Annette Dalloo
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00;02;07;07 - 00;02;33;09
Annette Dalloo
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00;02;33;10 - 00;02;51;22
Annette Dalloo
Go to that homepage, click sign up for the waitlist, send your email, phone number as well as your first and last name, and I will make sure that you get that registration email as soon as the next course is ready to launch. In addition, you will get a little discount code for early bird sign up. So if you're interested.

00;02;51;24 - 00;03;30;02
Annette Dalloo
Head over there now. Today's episode is all about self-love. Now, the reason why I did not name this episode specifically with self-love and instead named it with the title of Soulful Acceptance and Embodied Reverence. It is because I feel like self-love is overused and many people don't really know exactly what that means. Marie came to me with some lifelong issues of not loving herself, and after losing her husband, then dealing with those feelings of extreme loneliness.

00;03;30;06 - 00;04;01;15
Annette Dalloo
Not only do we tackle the subject matters, but also in the discussion afterwards, I'm going to really dive into my own personal journey and what it means to be alone, or to be lonely, or to have self-love, and what exactly that means on a physical level and on a soul level.

00;04;01;17 - 00;04;23;11
Annette Dalloo
So tell me, what would you like to cover today? I have so many questions. So many questions. Okay, I've never done this before. I'll just start by saying that this is the first time that I've had an Akashic Record reading. I don't 100% know what to expect. I'll just say I have been through a lot of changes over the last handful of years.

00;04;23;11 - 00;04;48;00
Annette Dalloo
Like, I just feel like I'm being guided from one thing to the next thing to the next thing to the next thing. I just ran across your path by accident. It just resonated so much with me. I'm so glad. So I think where I'm at right now, I really need to focus a lot on self-love, heart healing, raising my baby, my healing trauma.

00;04;48;01 - 00;05;04;24
Annette Dalloo
So a lot of my questions are around that. I don't know how many will get to. I have like several questions. Should I just ask my first question? How does how does this work? Yeah, so you can actually ask all of your questions. Because what I like to do is I like to ask the guides where we need to go.

00;05;04;25 - 00;05;23;23
Annette Dalloo
Okay. Ask all the questions up front and then we'll just let your angels and guides tell us where to go. Okay, so bear with me. There's a lot. Sure. No. That's fine. What is my self-criticism and unease with myself? And how is this held in my mind, body, heart or soul? What am I carrying that I haven't been able to let go?

00;05;23;25 - 00;05;45;07
Annette Dalloo
How do I hold myself back from fully loving myself? And how do I embrace a deeper sense of self-worth? What do I want when I overconsume and why do I hold extra weight? What fear or otherwise is keeping me from overcoming the self-abuse? Why do I repeat the pattern of taking care of others needs, so much so that I ignore and neglect my own needs?

00;05;45;10 - 00;06;06;08
Annette Dalloo
What was my soul contract with my husband and did I fail? What work do I need to put in to heal from the traumas and griefs of this lifetime? And do I hold any guilt related to the more recent passings of my loved ones? What is the lesson that I was destined to learn from going through these specific trials and tribulations?

00;06;06;08 - 00;06;27;11
Annette Dalloo
And have I successfully done so? Or is there more work to do there? What is my soul calling and purpose in this lifetime, and what is blocking me from understanding my purpose? What are my spiritual gifts and what are the key things I need to learn or do to continue to open myself up and raise my vibration and bring more joy and laughter into my life.

00;06;27;13 - 00;06;49;06
Annette Dalloo
Soulmate question mark and twin flame. What is unresolved that caused friction in this lifetime? Do I have a deep rooted belief that I am meant to be alone in this world, and then just anything else that may have happened in a past life that is contributing to, like my current interest or dryness. There's a lot. No, that's great.

00;06;49;06 - 00;07;14;04
Annette Dalloo
And anything we don't get to today. Yeah, we can certainly do in another session. Okay, okay. All right. Perfect. Your root chakra is quite stable. I'm not seeing any big traumas in the root chakra. I'm hearing that you have been really good over the course of many lifetimes. In fact, at creating your own stability. While you might have, you may have chaos that is going on around you.

00;07;14;06 - 00;07;34;12
Annette Dalloo
You've always been really good at continuing to check in with yourself and creating that stability within yourself. And then in the shadow side of that, you have a tendency to be other people, stability as well, which that can be very, very draining on your energy. So let's move that energy into your sacral chakra, okay. This is where a lot of the trauma is.

00;07;34;12 - 00;07;53;10
Annette Dalloo
I'm just hearing trauma. Trauma and trauma. And I'm seeing like a lot of gray and some a little bit of black bits in the, in the chakra. And that usually indicates past life. All right. So then let's move that energy up to your solar plexus chakra. And immediately I'm getting the feeling that like well I'm feeling basically nauseous.

00;07;53;12 - 00;08;23;02
Annette Dalloo
Okay. So what is that from. It is from the current life okay. Is this anything having to do with previous lifetimes in the solar plexus. Yes. It's in tandem okay. So I'm hearing that you have to dig really, really deep because what's happening for your solar plexus is that whatever traumas you went through in this particular lifetime, those are first and foremost, it's like those we have to clear first, and then we can possibly go down deep into the past lives of the solar plexus.

00;08;23;03 - 00;08;44;04
Annette Dalloo
Okay. All of the issues that you had asked about having to do with self-love. Holding on to weight, being able to be in a space of autonomy without people pleasing and not worrying about what other people think of you. All of that is stemmed from this. Okay. So we're going to actually do quite a bit of work on that today.

00;08;44;05 - 00;09;02;08
Annette Dalloo
We'll do some work on the sacral as well. All right. So then let's move that energy up to your heart space. Yeah that's not a surprise. So your your heart chakra is just super big super big super bright. And it's almost as if your heart is saying, I'm big enough to do all the functions, all of all the rest of the chakras.

00;09;02;08 - 00;09;25;01
Annette Dalloo
Like, I can do all the work for everybody. And that's sort of trickling down in the energy of you just lead with your heart and overextend. And part of that overextension has to do with the challenges in the sacral, because the sacral is about receiving. It's about divine feminine energy when you're not doing a lot of receiving, but you're doing all of the giving.

00;09;25;04 - 00;09;57;05
Annette Dalloo
There's that energetic imbalance okay. And I'm seeing they're just showing me eating right now. And they're saying to me that this is how you give back to yourself because others aren't giving back to you. So you sort of feed yourself in order to have that balance come back into play. That makes so much sense. Yeah, because it's almost like it's the only thing you feel you have control over in terms of being able to receive or being able to give back to yourself because you feel you don't have control over whether somebody else gives back to you or not, which is true.

00;09;57;06 - 00;10;20;10
Annette Dalloo
However, the one thing you do have control over is whether or not you give to that person, if they are not reciprocating, or if they are not giving you an equal energy exchange. And I want to state that it's not about keeping score. It's just a love balance with the universe that when you are in a place of doing things for others, you always have to be intentional about checking the reasons why you are doing those things.

00;10;20;10 - 00;10;41;04
Annette Dalloo
For others, it's almost as if your crown chakra is only ever like half open at any given moment. And there are like different parts of it that are open. So I'm seeing like the front, top of your head being open, but then the back being closed and then vice versa. And this has to do with you not being able to receive, but then it also has to do with the blockage that you have going on in the solar plexus.

00;10;41;05 - 00;10;58;15
Annette Dalloo
It's almost as if it's filtering the information. So it's just not as intense. Because basically what happens when we have a block in our chakra system energetically it creates a bottleneck. And so the energy can't flow all the way down through the body. And that's when you can start having pain, or that's when you can start having various different things.

00;10;58;15 - 00;11;19;08
Annette Dalloo
So I think that's why I was feeling that nauseous ness. Because if you're getting all of these beautiful high vibrational messages and information from the universe, that's great, but your body has to be able to handle it. And if it's getting stuck in your solar plexus, then it's creating an imbalance. Yeah, and I am nauseous right now. Even so.

00;11;19;11 - 00;11;37;17
Annette Dalloo
Yeah. You're definitely picking up on that. That that happens a lot. So then let's move that energy down into your throat chakra. There's a lot of anger here in your throat. Anger that has been not expressed just from past lives. No this is from this current lifetime okay. I'm hearing like you've never been taught how to express anger in a healthy way.

00;11;37;18 - 00;11;58;02
Annette Dalloo
I used to have a really bad temper when I was younger. Now I just, I think suppress it. Yeah I'm hearing that like when you were younger the temper was you were not getting reactions that you wanted. So you basically kind of stuffed it down, you know, because what anger is, is it's basically the final alarm bell.

00;11;58;05 - 00;12;21;18
Annette Dalloo
When we're in our sadness or our hurt, that's the first alarm bell. And then it grows and grows and grows and grows. And then finally when you hit that like explosive anger, that's the final alarm bell saying, hey, something's wrong and I need help. And if that final anger space was not the place where you got help or where you were able to have somebody have compassion for you, then yeah, you don't see a purpose in it.

00;12;21;21 - 00;12;38;10
Annette Dalloo
I want to thank Akula, my Akashic Guide. I want to thank you so much for being here and helping us on this journey today. I want to thank Archangel Metatron and Archangel Santa Phon for being here as well, guiding us through the records and giving us the information that we need to know today. Today we are opening up the Akashic Records.

00;12;38;13 - 00;13;04;12
Annette Dalloo
Great. Thank you. A solar plexus is where we're going first. Okay. Current lifetime. So I'm getting that eating had sort of a significance for you when you were younger. And then and then not so much in your middle adult years, but then in your later adult years started coming back again? Yes. And it's directly tied to loneliness.

00;13;04;14 - 00;13;26;18
Annette Dalloo
Can you tell me a little bit about the loneliness that you experienced as a child and as a young, young adult young person. Well I was an only child. Single mother. I didn't know my father didn't know his name where he was at. Nothing about him. I really feel like as a child I always felt. I did always feel alone, like I was loved by my family.

00;13;26;18 - 00;13;49;28
Annette Dalloo
But I really just always felt kind of out of place. Like I didn't belong. I had a hard time connecting with other kids my age. I always was drawn to talk to other parents. So I did make friends. But I even in my friends circles, I always felt like I had to try to like, keep those friends. I don't know if that makes sense.

00;13;50;01 - 00;14;15;05
Annette Dalloo
It does. And then the loneliness in your more current years. It sounds kind of contrary because I was married but I didn't get married until I was a little older. I was about 40. So even though I'd been with my husband he developed bipolar depression. So I felt very alone in that relationship with him because he couldn't give me him, you know what I mean?

00;14;15;05 - 00;14;36;10
Annette Dalloo
He was consumed with dealing with his illness. And so I feel like I lost a lot of him. So I would say I've felt very alone in, in our marriage. And that's really when I started, like eating and gaining a lot of weight again. A couple of years ago he, he passed away suddenly my mother passed about a year and a half prior to that.

00;14;36;10 - 00;14;56;02
Annette Dalloo
So I've been you know the last 3 to 4 years I've been going through a lot of loss, a lot of grief, a lot of loneliness. I'm just really trying to get myself back to a place where I feel like I can insert myself back into the world and live. So I really feel like I've just kind of been stagnant.

00;14;56;03 - 00;15;17;04
Annette Dalloo
So definitely a lot of loneliness. And you know, even in my middle aged years, you said there was a break in. There was I think it was. I had a very wide friend circle for a while that I think kind of kept me going, but that where I'm at now, they're not here. So. I lost that. When did you start to become more spiritually aware.

00;15;17;08 - 00;15;50;01
Annette Dalloo
I'm going to say about ten years ago it started maybe when I moved to Arizona. I think that's what started it. That's when I was really drawn to see a medium in kind of started exploring. There are a lot of things going on and what has been transpiring over the course of your lifetime. The first thing is that you have to understand that when you are on this spiritual path, the falling away of people is part of the journey.

00;15;50;08 - 00;16;23;15
Annette Dalloo
So in other words, you will lose friends. You will lose people in your life that are not necessarily aligned. Whether or not you realize that that's what's happening or that's the case. It's not important to know that, but it is important to recognize that those people that were in your life prior to your spiritual growth, to your self-awareness, those people who may not be growing with you or at the same pace that you are needed to fall away to allow you to grow.

00;16;23;19 - 00;16;54;05
Annette Dalloo
Yeah, I think I felt that and part of the challenge with that is that we have a tendency to make ourselves small or diminish who we are. As we go on this spiritual journey, in order to try to fit ourselves into the box that we used to fit in. You might have found yourself when you were losing touch with those friends, let's say, like trying to not be who you were trying to become in order to sort of fit in.

00;16;54;11 - 00;17;22;16
Annette Dalloo
And that's sort of energy can permeate everything. And even with your husband dealing with the energetic challenges that he was dealing with also can sort of pull you down. So you had multiple factors and multiple things going on that were sort of tugging at your energy. Yeah, his energy definitely affected me. I'm an empath and I've known that since I was really young, so I really felt his energy hard.

00;17;22;16 - 00;17;40;11
Annette Dalloo
You know, I even had one of the mediums that I saw pull me aside afterwards. And she said, I've never done this and this is not me. Like she goes, I don't normally remember my readings, but I will remember this. She goes, I just feel compelled to tell you like that your husband's energy is like physically killing you.

00;17;40;13 - 00;18;04;18
Annette Dalloo
This is when he was still alive. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. I'm just hearing it was his gift to you. I really have a very strong feeling that there was something I was supposed to to learn from that. Like I just, I'm not sure what it is. Patients I don't know. All right. Let's actually ask that question before we finish diving into the solar plexus chakra there, guiding me to actually ask about that.

00;18;04;18 - 00;18;31;12
Annette Dalloo
So we're going to ask about your connection with your husband. Okay. So I'm hearing that it wasn't you that needed to learn. It was him okay. And what he needed to learn, he wasn't getting. And that's why he he sort of checked out. There were multiple other reasons why he checked out as well, but he took one of his exit points because he was not able to do the things that he needed to do in this life.

00;18;31;12 - 00;18;56;17
Annette Dalloo
Okay. Now, this is the reason why you feel like it's something that you didn't do because you were not able to fulfill your soul contract with him, and it's not because of something you did. It was because he wasn't able to learn or get the work done. Okay, so I'm going to have you just close your eyes and imagine that you're standing in a field of grass and flowers, and surrounding you is a circle of trees.

00;18;56;17 - 00;19;13;07
Annette Dalloo
And I want you to imagine that there's a door right in front of you, and I want you to open the door and walk inside. Inside this space is where your Akashic Records are held. Then I want you to imagine that you see a pedestal with a book on it. And inside this book are the signatures of every person, every soul.

00;19;13;07 - 00;19;33;18
Annette Dalloo
You've ever had any encounter with connection, soul, contract, vow, anything with. And I would like you to open it to the page with the contracts between you and your husband from this current lifetime, and I would like you to sign the book, Releasing You from your soul contract to him. And we're going to ask him to release any soul contracts to you.

00;19;33;19 - 00;19;55;14
Annette Dalloo
And I'm also going to ask you to remove any vows you made during your marriage, clearing those so you can have your free will to either incarnate with him again as you choose, as opposed to being connected to each other due to the vows and the soul contracts. So I'd like you to imagine that you're signing the book, releasing you from all vows and soul contracts between you and him.

00;19;55;14 - 00;20;16;01
Annette Dalloo
And I just felt a huge, huge, huge weight lifted off your soul. And it's really beautiful too, because it's like you're free to love him and love his soul and who he was without the weight of the obligation that you seem to have. Yeah. Okay. So how does that feel? Feels good. Like I'm breathing, crying, but I feel like it's.

00;20;16;04 - 00;20;34;14
Annette Dalloo
Yeah, definitely release, but, like, out of love. It's the one thing that a lot of times people are afraid to let go of. So contracts and vows. And I wasn't sensing any fear from you today. But sometimes that can happen because we're afraid that if we get rid of these things, that we're not going to be able to love the people that we love.

00;20;34;14 - 00;20;58;20
Annette Dalloo
And that's actually the opposite. We are able to more fully love that person or that soul without the weight of what we were here to do or what we were meant to do. Yeah, yeah. And I remember he even asked me this days, literally days before he passed away. But I always told him, I feel like I'm here to help him in some way.

00;20;58;23 - 00;21;15;25
Annette Dalloo
And he asked me literally couple, I don't know. Within a week prior to when he passed away, he asked me, do you still feel like you're here to help me? And do you feel like you are or have and I said, yes, I still feel like I am and I don't feel like I have. And what did he say?

00;21;15;29 - 00;21;44;04
Annette Dalloo
I don't know that he said anything. But I remember him saying anything specific. So that question wasn't for him. It was for you. That was him pointing to the soul contract okay. Without him realizing that he was doing that. Yeah. The interesting thing is, is that when when people are about to cross over, they spend a little bit more time sort of straddling the two realms, and so they can have a tendency to be very connected without even realizing that they are being connected.

00;21;44;07 - 00;22;04;18
Annette Dalloo
And I'm hearing that even though it was your soul contract with him to help him through this, help is given in the way of way showing and support. It is not you doing the work for the other person. Yeah, I did give him all of that. He just he couldn't. Oh yeah. I'm hearing he didn't have the capacity.

00;22;04;20 - 00;22;30;01
Annette Dalloo
Yeah, yeah. So let's take a look at this loneliness piece. And I want to see how far back it goes. Because it does go back to previous lifetimes. And I need to sort of connect the dots with you so we can get to a, an action step, if you will, to be able to start clearing and integrating this feeling because loneliness comes and goes.

00;22;30;01 - 00;22;50;06
Annette Dalloo
But for you, it seems to be a constant. And it's like what we need is an interruption in that constant. It's like a moving train that isn't being stopped. It's like a manifestation that you're like, well, I'm lonely and I'm always going to be lonely. And so it's going to continue. Yeah, I've always had that very strong feeling that I was meant to be alone in this world.

00;22;50;09 - 00;23;09;21
Annette Dalloo
It's always been with me. All right. So I'm going to ask your guardian angels of the highest light to step in and help share with us the reasons for those feelings and which life times we need to look at in order to get to the solution. For this, we need to look at two lifetimes. Okay, let's see the first one.

00;23;09;21 - 00;23;28;19
Annette Dalloo
You're a little girl about nine years old. You have blond hair. You have two braids on the side of your head. You're living in what would be considered to be modern day Amsterdam. You're quite a joyful child. You love where you live, you love your family. You feel full, provided for taking care of your friends. You have a dog.

00;23;28;19 - 00;23;55;25
Annette Dalloo
Your dog is your pride and joy. You just absolutely, absolutely love her. She goes wherever you go. This is before you knew or understood what it feels like to lose something. Up until this age of nine, you have felt nothing but love and warmth and wholeness within yourself. Within your relationships. You feel supported and never even crossed your mind that there would be a time where this feeling could go away.

00;23;55;25 - 00;24;21;05
Annette Dalloo
In this particular lifetime, you had not ever experienced loneliness. You had, of course, in other lifetimes, but not in this one. The very first time you experienced it in that lifetime is when your dog died. You were inconsolable. You were not prepared for the kind of pain that that created within you. You closed up within yourself almost unwilling and unable to receive the love and the support of your family.

00;24;21;06 - 00;24;48;03
Annette Dalloo
You didn't really know how to cope. Your family didn't really understand the level of your grief for various reasons, but mainly because they understood the ebb and flow of life and death. Everyone else in your family had gone through it, but nobody had actually taken the time to understand that this was your first experience in this and that to them, your reaction to it was much more severe than anyone else in the family would have thought.

00;24;48;10 - 00;25;07;27
Annette Dalloo
And seeing that you carried her around with you every day, the memory of her. So there was just that little empty spot every single day, whether it was in your routine, whether it was on the way to school or anything else that you were doing, it made you fearful that if this is how you feel about your dog dying, then what happens?

00;25;07;27 - 00;25;34;17
Annette Dalloo
Like when your parents die and when other people in your life die? You created this fear that was bigger than it needed to be. Mainly because when a pet dies, it can be significantly harder than when a loved one dies, especially as a child, because that animal loves you unconditionally and they are usually part of your everyday experience, whereas most people are not part of that everyday experience.

00;25;34;24 - 00;25;54;27
Annette Dalloo
And so instead of taking that as that almost bittersweet lesson of what it is to love something so deeply, you looked at that as, oh my gosh, this is the first of what is to come, and it's just going to get worse from here. So you started asking your mom like, what's going to happen when you die? What's going to happen when dad dies?

00;25;54;27 - 00;26;14;02
Annette Dalloo
Am I going to outlive my siblings? What happens if I'm the only one left? What if everybody in my family dies and I'm the only one left? That's where I'm at right now. And this was a big fear. And this is a lot for a now ten year old. Your mom although she meant well she was dismissing your fears.

00;26;14;02 - 00;26;30;21
Annette Dalloo
She was basically saying oh honey don't worry that's never going to happen. Your father and I will live a very long life. You're not going to have to worry, but you're pointing out situations. So, for example, you had neighbors that had gotten sick and the whole family got sick. But then, like, only one person survived or two people survived.

00;26;30;21 - 00;26;48;07
Annette Dalloo
And even though you knew those stories beforehand, you didn't have a frame of reference for the grief until your dog had died. And so now you're questioning all of that. So was this an intuition that she had as a child? It was not. This was just the fear. Okay. Got it. So did she in fact, die last out of her family?

00;26;48;07 - 00;27;09;02
Annette Dalloo
She did not. Okay. She did outlive one of her brothers, but her other two brothers that she had with that were younger than her were still around when she died. Okay. Her parents had died. Obviously before that, but she still had family. Okay. She did have a husband as well later on in life and his family. And it's interesting because his family was very, very large.

00;27;09;02 - 00;27;26;27
Annette Dalloo
And that's one of the things that appealed to her when she met him. Is that she felt that if he had a large family, then there would be a less chance of her being alone. And so the question to ask is, what is the fear of being alone? Why the fear of being alone? And what is the purpose of being alone?

00;27;26;27 - 00;27;53;26
Annette Dalloo
These are not necessarily questions that you may be able to answer now. But they are questions that we encourage you to connect with. What is that fear? Is it rooted in not being able to take care of yourself like this ten year old version of you from this previous lifetime, where she didn't have the knowledge or the experience as a human to understand that when she gets older, she will be able to take care of herself regardless of anybody being there.

00;27;53;26 - 00;28;14;19
Annette Dalloo
But as a ten year old version, she didn't understand that. So is there's that fear of not being able to take care of your basic needs, not having help in that respect, because they're saying to me that a lot of that from this previous lifetime also stemmed from the period of time that it was, because at that time, it was very frequent that women would not be able to survive on their own.

00;28;14;22 - 00;28;40;06
Annette Dalloo
Back in those days, men had to do most of the work in the relationship in terms of bringing home money and things like that. So those fears were sort of isolated to that particular lifetime. Yeah, that's definitely not my situation. This lifetime. I would say I was the primary provider. I'm very self-sufficient as far as like, you know, providing my basic needs, physical need, needs.

00;28;40;10 - 00;29;03;28
Annette Dalloo
And that's something that you have cultivated over the lifetimes. From what I'm saying, another aspect of the fear of being alone has to do with not being loved. I'd say that's definitely what it is. So the one thing that is difficult for us to recognize because we're such tangible beings, is that there is so much love for us in the spiritual plane.

00;29;03;29 - 00;29;30;29
Annette Dalloo
There's so much unconditional love for us. That is 100 times what that beautiful dog you had when you were nine in that past life was giving you. It is about being able to access it, being able to feel it, being able to connect with it and although it is different than what we experience in the 3D, whereas for us as humans, we look to physical contact, we look to connection to fulfill that within us, which is necessary.

00;29;30;29 - 00;29;54;05
Annette Dalloo
But also it's not the whole picture. That is where as you experienced with your husband, you can have the physical contact, you can have the connection, but you can still feel lonely within that connection. If you don't have that connection to your heart space, to that love within yourself and to that universal love, that's the message that keeps coming back to me, is I have to work on self-love, self-love, self-love.

00;29;54;05 - 00;30;16;00
Annette Dalloo
Like I'm now going to be open to receiving what I need to receive if I don't take care of that. So let me ask you this do you know what self-love is for you? I don't think I do. A self-love is different for everyone. I think I've just always been very critical of myself. Everything way being perfect, you know, like it's just always been a theme that I'm not good enough.

00;30;16;00 - 00;30;40;12
Annette Dalloo
Even though I very successful, I still like self criticize and it's this isn't good enough or I'm not perfect here. And so that's always been I don't know where that stems from if it's now or in the past, but I've never I think allowed myself to love myself. Okay. So we're going to look at the second life time now because they're saying that that one is actually important for this particular piece.

00;30;40;12 - 00;31;02;04
Annette Dalloo
Okay. So after that lifetime that we were just looking at and you had those fears of being alone, the fear sort of grew inside of you and continued to grow. And as that fear grows, it cuts off your ability to connect with others. Any sort of fear, anger, sadness, grief, pain. If you are not feeling it and moving through it, you can put up walls and avoid it.

00;31;02;06 - 00;31;22;19
Annette Dalloo
And so in this next lifetime, we're going to look at it was two lifetimes after. And you were not consciously aware of this, but you remembered on a soul level what it felt like to feel whole and to be completely loved and connected to the universe and connected to that universal love connected to your dog, your family, your friends, everybody.

00;31;22;19 - 00;31;43;12
Annette Dalloo
And how wonderful that felt. And you had no idea how to get that back. So instead of addressing the fear, which is what needed to be addressed, you blamed yourself for not being enough. This particular lifetime. You were a man. You worked with your father from the time that you were 13 to the end of your life. You did the same thing, which was your father's business.

00;31;43;16 - 00;31;59;26
Annette Dalloo
You inherited it after he passed on. It was soulless work. You didn't like doing it. You really wanted to do something else, but didn't have the courage or the strength to say anything to him. And by the time he passed on, you had been doing it for so long, you didn't know that you would be able to do anything else.

00;32;00;03 - 00;32;20;09
Annette Dalloo
You were a tailor. That makes it. That makes sense. Actually, no. Yeah, I just one day started sewing. I never learned I just in this lifetime, like, I just knew I wanted to sew something and I just did, like, I didn't know how, but I did it. Oh, how cool. I love when we're able to tap into those gifts from previous lifetimes.

00;32;20;09 - 00;32;39;21
Annette Dalloo
It's awesome. You didn't like making other people look good because you see it as a facade, but you really started questioning yourself because initially that's exactly what you thought you were like. Yeah, it's just a facade. These are just nice clothes, and it doesn't mean that this person is a good person, or doesn't mean that this person is really good at what they do.

00;32;39;21 - 00;33;19;18
Annette Dalloo
They're just dressed well, you saw it as a mask. Yeah. But then you would see your clients go out and and be super successful and you're like, how is that even happening? I know this person. They're like completely uneducated, have no clue about the world, and yet they're able to be successful. Like, what is that? And so you really started to identify that looks and perception went a long way where you were, and that you knew other people who were very qualified and very smart, but maybe didn't have as much money and didn't present themselves as well physically that were getting overlooked in jobs or in opportunities.

00;33;19;20 - 00;33;42;13
Annette Dalloo
Is that why I always go at the underdog. You have compassion. Yeah. You have compassion for the underdog because of that fact, because you're like, hey I know that this person could do so much more if they were given the opportunity. You were running a little secret thing on the side when your dad was alive. And then when he was gone, you did this more overtly.

00;33;42;13 - 00;34;03;28
Annette Dalloo
But I'm seeing you in the back of the store. And, like, there's one of your friends who's a little bit older than you. He was trying to get a job and couldn't afford a nice hat and, like, the things that he needed. So I'm seeing you in the back of the the shop, like just handing him a hat and a tie, and you're just like, okay, just make sure to bring it back before closing.

00;34;04;01 - 00;34;24;16
Annette Dalloo
So you do things like this just to to help out, to give people an edge. Well, that's very nice of me. Yeah, it was very nice. Your dad really hated it, but he didn't know half the time. He caught you a couple of times, but, like, he wasn't super angry, but he really didn't like the idea that you were doing this mainly just because of money.

00;34;24;17 - 00;34;46;06
Annette Dalloo
He's basically saying to you, Will you realize this is the used goods now? Like, we can't sell this as new, even though like you'd get the items back and they look brand new. Like it's not like anything was wrong with them. The one time he did catch you, it was because you did get a hat back, and there was something that got frayed on the top of the hat, and he's telling you that you need to pay for that hat out of your own money, out of your own wages, which you happily did.

00;34;46;09 - 00;35;15;15
Annette Dalloo
Funny. This is the lifetime where you very strongly created this idea that the world is unfair, that essentially looks, and how you present yourself is all that matters. And society reinforced that. Now you were not particularly handsome in this lifetime, but you you were good looking enough that people did notice you and people did respect you, and you were well put together enough that you were able to get through this lifetime with grace and accomplishment.

00;35;15;15 - 00;35;35;12
Annette Dalloo
But it was something that you really carried with you and you wanted to carry with you into the next lifetimes. To help you remember how backwards it is that people think this way, and how much your self-image can have an effect on an entire lifetime. Yeah. What was her soul trying to accomplish then with holding on to this or remembering this?

00;35;35;12 - 00;35;57;02
Annette Dalloo
She wanted to hold on to this notion because she didn't want to be one of the people who only favored the rich or the well put together. She wanted to make sure that she saw people for who they were within their hearts and lived her lives moving forward. Accordingly, the challenge with wanting to carry that into the future lifetimes is that it was a very stagnant energy.

00;35;57;02 - 00;36;20;27
Annette Dalloo
It was an energy that states, this is how things are and things aren't not going to change. And so therefore I must do this, this and this in order to make sure that other people still have a shot, no matter what happens with their exterior package. And things have shifted and changed since that time. Yes, of course, some things have gotten worse, but some things have gotten better.

00;36;20;28 - 00;36;48;20
Annette Dalloo
This is also where you get your giving nature your big heart. Seeing other people suffer makes you very uncomfortable and very sad. Yeah, so you would much rather give somebody the coat off of your back rather than to watch them freeze? Yeah, the problem with that is then you yourself could freeze. Well, so the first thing that we recommend that you do in order to move into more self-love is think of yourself first.

00;36;48;21 - 00;37;11;27
Annette Dalloo
And this may feel uncomfortable because we are being taught on a regular basis that doing things for others first, ahead of ourselves makes us selfless, makes us kind, but it also makes us tired, exhausted, and energetically drained. Yes it does. So being able to ask your body what it needs right now, in any given moment is an act of self-love.

00;37;11;29 - 00;37;31;04
Annette Dalloo
Okay, have you ever asked your body what it needs? No. Okay, let's do that right now. I just want you to close your eyes, take a deep breath, and I want you to just connect in with your heart. Imagine a beautiful cord of light going from the top of your head, going all the way down, down, down until it reaches your heart space.

00;37;31;04 - 00;37;53;08
Annette Dalloo
The heart is that energetic center of your entire body in your org field, the command center. If you will. And I would like you to ask your heart what it is your body, your physical body needs at this time. Are you able to sense anything, feel anything here? Anything a little bit, yeah. I keep feeling like strength and strength.

00;37;53;10 - 00;38;28;04
Annette Dalloo
And nutrients okay. Let me to strength as in like physical strength. Can you ask your body what kind of nutrients it needs. I'm not necessarily picking up on anything okay. I'm hearing that it doesn't know what it needs right now because it hasn't had the opportunity to know what it needs from. That would make sense. So if you start paying attention like work with your body on a regular basis, have you ever had like cravings for a particular food because of some sort of maybe deficiency?

00;38;28;04 - 00;38;56;27
Annette Dalloo
So I know when I was iron deficient, I would crave raisins for like no reason. And I'm not a big raisin person, but like, I just needed to have them and it was because I was iron deficient. Okay, pay attention to those types of cravings, if you will, or to those types of things that your body wants. So if your body is like, oh, I really I need blueberries or I need, I don't know, a steak, you know, and I don't know if you're vegetarian or not, but like, regardless of whether that is if it's like, oh, I need a steak.

00;38;56;27 - 00;39;16;00
Annette Dalloo
Okay. Well if you don't eat meat then okay. So what do I need? Oh, maybe I need vitamin B12, or maybe I need omegas, you know, something like that. So you can kind of start to identify those places where you might need some, some help in the nutrition department. Okay. And the more you listen to your body, the more your body will talk to you.

00;39;16;00 - 00;39;38;11
Annette Dalloo
So the other thing that I was getting in addition to that is that your body needs love. Do you know how to give your body love? I don't think I do. I mean, I know from other people like, you know, we talk about love language like touch. Touch is a love language for me. I mean, I do a lot of massage work, Reiki, things like that.

00;39;38;13 - 00;40;01;21
Annette Dalloo
And that is important. So especially if you are not in a relationship where you're getting physical touch on a regular basis, doing things like getting massages and things like that, are they do definitely help to get that physical contact right. I'm also I'm just hearing that you've been holding yourself back from trying to meet new friends, trying to get out there and date.

00;40;01;24 - 00;40;39;16
Annette Dalloo
Yeah, because you're afraid you're not going to be accepted. And so what they're saying is that when you accept yourself for who you are and lead with that beautiful, beautiful energy and that beautiful heart that you have, that's what people are going to see first. Have you ever been in a situation where you have a friend or somebody you know who maybe you don't necessarily consider to be that great or that attractive or anything like that, but for some reason they just attract significant others, like flies, like it's like they're just constantly in a relationship or they constantly have people falling all over them.

00;40;39;16 - 00;41;08;09
Annette Dalloo
Have you had that situation before? Yes. Yeah, I've had that situation in my life as well, and I've always been so curious as to like, why does it happen? Like why do some people have boyfriends or girlfriends just flocking to them when other people there's like crickets, right? And the answer that I've gotten more times than not is that person is leading with their energy.

00;41;08;12 - 00;41;26;06
Annette Dalloo
It's not to say that every situation is going to be the same. So if somebody is attracting a lot of people, does that necessarily mean that they're in full self love and that they're able to attract the person that they want? Nope. Yeah. That means that they're attracting like energy. So they in there. They may be in codependency attracting other codependency.

00;41;26;06 - 00;41;54;21
Annette Dalloo
So that can also be a thing. But when you are shutting yourself down and shutting down your entire energy field and making yourself small, nobody sees anything about you because you're basically hiding. You're hiding your energy field. Yeah. So if you imagine your big bright light at your heart and how if you're at your full expression of who you are, that energy field is going to be sticking out like 6 or 12ft out in every direction around your body.

00;41;54;21 - 00;42;19;04
Annette Dalloo
But if you're sitting here in shame, guilt, fear, sadness, unworthiness, that energy field gets smaller and smaller and smaller and smaller and smaller until it's like inside your body and there's no exterior of your field. Yeah. And so what is somebody seeing when they approach you? They're not seeing your body. They are seeing your energy of sadness, of closing off, of wanting to hide.

00;42;19;04 - 00;42;44;21
Annette Dalloo
And when you want to hide, they oblige. They're like, oh, you want to hide? Cool. I'll ignore you. I'll go over here. I'll go do something else. Yeah. So I want you to imagine that beautiful light within your heart and imagine that light sort of unfurling like a butterfly's wings from the center of your heart space going all the way out to the edges of your body and then expanding out past the edges of your body to six feet in every direction around your entire body.

00;42;44;21 - 00;43;04;28
Annette Dalloo
And I want you to feel that energy, feel that beautiful love energy within your heart, that beautiful soul energy that you are, that soul signature that you are. And how does that feel? Feels good. Feels good. Can you feel that love within yourself in that field? Yes. So this is something that I would like you to practice as often as you can.

00;43;05;02 - 00;43;21;14
Annette Dalloo
Okay. So if you are about to go out and do something, I don't care if it's to the grocery store, put on something that makes you feel good. You don't have to get dolled up or anything like that. I'm just saying, just like put on something that makes you feel good. Imagine that beautiful bright light. Do the same exercise we just did.

00;43;21;21 - 00;43;39;14
Annette Dalloo
Okay. Before you walk out the door, okay. And I want you to just acknowledge the changes that happen when you do this. Maybe something small, like maybe if you're at the grocery store, somebody will approach you and tell you how nice you look. Or maybe you'll just start up a conversation with somebody, or maybe you'll just receive a smile from somebody.

00;43;39;14 - 00;43;59;05
Annette Dalloo
You just don't know how it's going to unfold. But I want you to write those things down as they unfold, okay? Because the more you acknowledge those particular occurrences, the more the universe is like, oh, she wants more of this. Okay, we'll give her more. Okay. Yeah, I definitely think my energy is off putting right now to people when I'm out.

00;43;59;09 - 00;44;23;13
Annette Dalloo
Well, it's not necessarily it's not off putting in the sense that you feel like somebody wants to be away from you. You are you are actually actively saying, get away from me. Like in your energy. Yeah. So that doesn't allow anybody to come to you. Okay. Okay. This is the other thing that and I've struggled with my weight my whole life as well.

00;44;23;13 - 00;44;54;02
Annette Dalloo
And I always used to hate when people say to me, oh, you have to love your body. Okay, cool. Thanks. What if I don't? And the answer to that is you don't have to. So am I going to love the fat on my thighs? Am I going to love the little role I have on my side? No, probably not, but what I can do is I can love my body as a whole, saying things like, I like how strong my body is.

00;44;54;02 - 00;45;11;10
Annette Dalloo
I like that it can get me from point A to point B. I like that I have curly hair, you know, whatever those things are that you can identify that you like, start there. Okay. But don't try to force yourself to like something that you really don't like because energy doesn't lie. Yeah. And so it's not going to matter.

00;45;11;10 - 00;45;34;15
Annette Dalloo
You can say oh I love this little roll on the side of my stomach. If you don't, it's not going to make a difference. Right? So like try to not focus on those things that you don't like about yourself and just say, okay, I acknowledge that. I don't like that part about my body or about myself, but I'm just going to I'm going to leave it for now, and I'm going to acknowledge that I don't particularly really like that, and that's fine.

00;45;34;15 - 00;45;55;22
Annette Dalloo
But I'm also going to focus on the things that I do love about my body and that I do love about myself. Yeah. Okay. And start there. Okay. So once you dive into this feeling of loneliness and this is going to be a journey for you, connecting to that feeling of loneliness, in various different ways. And it'll unfold for you.

00;45;55;22 - 00;46;16;15
Annette Dalloo
The universe will present you with opportunities to face it and address it, and you will get to a space where you will see that balance. So I remember when I was in my 20s and I was just newly out of college, and I went to Chicago, and I remember I couldn't be alone with myself for more than five minutes.

00;46;16;17 - 00;46;49;10
Annette Dalloo
I had to be always on the phone, always with somebody, always doing something right. And that was just my own insecurity of being with myself. Right. And over the course of years, or as we get older, we get to the point where we start to like being on our own and like our own company. The challenge with that is that there needs to be a balance, so you can sort of go extreme on the other side, where instead of having to be with somebody all the time, then you're just like, oh wow, that's too much effort.

00;46;49;10 - 00;47;08;10
Annette Dalloo
I don't want to go out with somebody right now, or I'd rather sit and watch my spiritual YouTube videos or read my spiritual books, rather than putting in the effort to go and talk to somebody or go out and do something on the spiritual journey, that's totally normal. And that happens a lot where we get into these little reclusive phases.

00;47;08;13 - 00;47;26;28
Annette Dalloo
But you do have to know when it's time to kind of come out of those. When you start feeling antsy, when you start feeling like you really want to connect to somebody, and that loneliness, that loneliness is telling you something. So sometimes we feel like we cannot do anything about our situation, but there's always something that can be done.

00;47;27;03 - 00;47;43;15
Annette Dalloo
So it's about being open to what the universe is going to present to you. Okay. Tell the universe that you're open to meeting new people, new friends, new significant other when you're ready. Yeah, because you can tell the universe and all you want. If you're not ready, that it's not going to, it's not going to fly. So okay.

00;47;43;17 - 00;48;05;16
Annette Dalloo
So let's take a look at that sacral chakra. Yes. Okay. The part of you hiding and part of you not wanting people to come near you is the over giving. So when we don't want somebody to give to us, we give to them to kind of push them away. And I know that sounds bizarre, but it is.

00;48;05;16 - 00;48;24;11
Annette Dalloo
It's an energetic push. So if you can imagine you're standing on a stage and you don't want anybody on the stage to look at you, what do you do? You become Oprah and give everybody a little gift under their seat. And so they're focused on the gift that you just gave them and not on you. Does that make sense?

00;48;24;13 - 00;48;54;10
Annette Dalloo
When somebody gives you a compliment, how do you feel? I am not good with compliments. I always snap back with some not not on that rude way. But I always come back with some something that diminishes it. So as you open your energy up and you imagine that light beaming out from your heart center. And the compliments that you receive, I know it's really hard initially, but practice receiving practice simply saying thank you without the need to compliment back.

00;48;54;10 - 00;49;12;27
Annette Dalloo
So these are things that will take some time. These are little tools that they're giving you to just sort of work through these. They're saying that this is as far as we're going to go with this particular subject for now, because this is a lot of information, and it is going to take time for this to start taking hold and for the practice to start in.

00;49;13;01 - 00;49;36;21
Annette Dalloo
So it's like you've you have enough now to get started. Okay. And it's going to be baby steps. So just give yourself a little bit of grace and space to do the things as they come up. Yes. They know I like to take on too much and then it's I don't like to do this too. So it's like I want everything and then I like get overwhelmed and fail so.

00;49;36;24 - 00;50;03;08
Annette Dalloo
Yeah. That's. Yeah. Exactly what I need. Yep yep yep. Of the questions that she had. What are the next questions we need to address. Well that's interesting A twin flame okay. When did you meet. I'm going to say like 15 years ago maybe. Okay. Ish. And he may not be I just kind of when I, when I met him, it was in a crowd and I just saw him and I just immediately walked over to him.

00;50;03;08 - 00;50;21;07
Annette Dalloo
It was like I had known him, like my entire life. Just that strong of a connection. My head's tingling, so I feel like my team's like saying, there's something. All right, let's take a look at what kind of past lives you've had with him so we can kind of take a look at the context of your relationship.

00;50;21;10 - 00;50;38;25
Annette Dalloo
He is part of your soul family. He was your brother in the last lifetime that we were looking at when you were the little girl in Amsterdam. Oh, okay. He was one of your younger brothers. You're very close. You two have been incarnating for many, many lifetimes together. When we are part of Soul family, we do incarnate often.

00;50;38;25 - 00;50;58;12
Annette Dalloo
But you didn't really spend a whole lot of time with his soul prior to the most recent lifetimes. Meaning the last 20 or so you were off doing other things, and I didn't really spend a lot with him in this lifetime either. So I do have a question for you. So was he in your opinion, the catalyst for your spiritual awakening?

00;50;58;12 - 00;51;20;28
Annette Dalloo
I don't know, maybe. I don't know like in is that like around the time when I started exploring, or like, did he get me interested in it for some reason? Well, so the reason why I was asking that is because typically twin flames are two humans with one soul, and the purpose for the splitting of the soul is for rapid spiritual growth.

00;51;20;28 - 00;51;44;11
Annette Dalloo
And so it does have a tendency to be a an incredibly volatile, an incredibly difficult journey. When that happens, it usually triggers, like your first dark night of the soul and then your spiritual awakening. I was getting ready to say, like, I went through a very, very low point after meeting up with him. Operative time okay, love.

00;51;44;13 - 00;52;16;29
Annette Dalloo
I'm not like one of those people that gets like extremely attached to people, but I feel like I couldn't let it go. Like I just kept was so drawn to why was we not working out and I just I couldn't let it go. And there was just this very, very bizarre, strong mental, physical soul connection that I felt like we had, and I just, I hung on to it, like I would say, I was almost verge of stalking, but I wasn't really.

00;52;17;02 - 00;52;43;28
Annette Dalloo
Yeah, it's very out of character. As for me, it's just like, I. I couldn't let go of it. I couldn't let go and I couldn't move past not having him in my life. Like it was really very strange. And then I got very I wouldn't say low point, you know, I went through a period, so I would say, like, I started down the spiritual stuff within a couple of years of that.

00;52;44;05 - 00;53;14;09
Annette Dalloo
Okay. He has served as a catalyst for many things in your incarnations. He has a very sharp energy. His energy is very pointed. It is very different, almost the antithesis of your energy. Yeah. We were not the same. He is incarnated in your experience and you have incarnated in his in various different lifetimes in order to challenge each other and push each other past the boundaries that you are not willing to cross, break down the boundaries that are no longer serve you and create new ones.

00;53;14;11 - 00;53;46;19
Annette Dalloo
And this is something that you have been doing for each other for the last several lifetimes, and you're very effective at doing so. We are not going to tell you whether or not this is a twin flame connection, because that is not important at this time. What is important is that you take the experience that you had with him and understand the significance of the growth that you've had since then, and what types of tearing down boundaries and rebuilding new boundaries that serve you better, identifying those places in which you've done the work and you've done those changes?

00;53;46;25 - 00;54;04;17
Annette Dalloo
Okay, that is what's going to make the difference. Okay. Do you still feel this way about him? I still think about him. Yeah. I mean, if literally like the moment I met him, like I was like, that's going to be my husband. And then he was it was devastating. So I mean, I still do think about him, but I know he's with somebody else.

00;54;04;17 - 00;54;24;17
Annette Dalloo
So I don't go there. I feel like I, you know, I feel like I've grown and I've gotten past it like to an extent like I'm not obsessed with it anymore. But I still do always like wonder about him and like what. I try to go down that path. No because I know it's not going to be healthy for me.

00;54;24;19 - 00;54;40;26
Annette Dalloo
Yeah. And those are some of the boundaries that you're working on as well. All right. Her feelings for him. Is it residual from a previous lifetime. They are not are from just this lifetime okay. So is there anything we need to clear between the two of them. No we do not. Okay. Do you have any other questions about him?

00;54;41;00 - 00;55;03;07
Annette Dalloo
No. No. Okay. I think really for for him I just again like some of these things that I feel like it's almost like validating for myself of what I know, and learning to, like, trust what I'm getting. Like. Yeah, I recognize that person on a soul level. Yeah. And yeah, I did. So I think that's part of it.

00;55;03;10 - 00;55;22;26
Annette Dalloo
Yeah, definitely. A lot of the time with these types of sessions, aside from the delving into the previous lifetimes, these sessions are about validating your intuition and understanding that somebody from an outside perspective who knows you not at all, is able to come up with the same things that you are able to come up with in your own intuition.

00;55;22;28 - 00;55;44;17
Annette Dalloo
Yeah. They're asking me where you would like to go. I think I would like to talk about purpose and gifts. Okay. All right. Let's take a look at that. We're going to take a look at one past life that's going to give us an idea of your trajectory, your soul purpose and what your gifts are. You were a druid at one point.

00;55;44;17 - 00;56;07;24
Annette Dalloo
What's that mean. So they were a pagan sect of spiritual people in Brittany, in France. And they were also in England, Ireland, you know, sort of I mean that's, that's kind of the pre pre, which is way to say like a witch. Yeah. It's kind of like before witches became witches. You like, you do a lot of rituals.

00;56;07;24 - 00;56;36;08
Annette Dalloo
You're really, really adept at Earth magic. And by Earth magic I mean like using the elements to amplify your intentions. So I'm saying using fire, using air, using water, using light and sun, moon, planets. Astrology. Oh, well, when you start getting into the self-love and you unlock that, you are going to be a master manifester things are just going to start.

00;56;36;09 - 00;56;56;24
Annette Dalloo
Boom boom boom boom boom just coming to you. You're an amplifier. What does that mean? You amplify other people's energy, which is why part of the issue, when you are around people who are not in good energy, it becomes almost volatile because it's like you're amplifying their energy in their negative energy and it does not work out well.

00;56;56;25 - 00;57;17;10
Annette Dalloo
Okay. But when you're around people who are of like energy, who are in the same sort of connection that you are. Yeah, it's really, really powerful. What's interesting about the trajectory of this is that when you were using the Earth and the elements and all of those things, and it was just super powerful back then, because there was a lot of belief back then.

00;57;17;10 - 00;57;43;09
Annette Dalloo
And you people were more connected to their gifts back then. And as modern society rolled on, you had less and less access to your gifts because it's like your connection to the earth and to the elements sort of diminished. And that does serve a purpose. It serves a purpose because technically, in order to be able to use our gifts, we don't really need to be connected to physical objects, to physical things.

00;57;43;09 - 00;58;13;22
Annette Dalloo
So a lot of times in witchcraft and things like that, people use herbs and sage and potions and things like that. But none of that is actually really necessary. When you are able to open up your full intent of your gifts. Okay. And so this is part of what you've been learning over the course of many, many, many lifetimes is how to open up all of your gifts without any outside help with objects or tarot cards or pendulums or anything like that.

00;58;13;22 - 00;58;34;24
Annette Dalloo
Like your connection is the direct connection. What do you do for a living? Technically, I'm a pharmacist. But I really am more in manage movement. So like I'm a director of formulary development. So more on the I'm going to say project business side of things. I think that's really funny that you're in pharmacy. Yeah, I was thinking like, oh, alchemy.

00;58;34;27 - 00;58;55;27
Annette Dalloo
Totally 100%. Yeah, yeah. That's not shocking. And anyway, do you know what your dominant Claire is? I'm going to say the feeling one. So when you get your messages when we were talking just earlier and you said, I feel the little tingles on the top of my head. So that is absolutely your Claire sentience. That seems to be your dominant right now.

00;58;55;27 - 00;59;15;16
Annette Dalloo
What they're trying to help you unlock is your Claire audience right now. Okay. So hearing songs, hearing conversations, hearing things that are messages for you, I do I hear songs. Sometimes I'll just be laying in bed and I'll hear music. But I don't know why it is your guys giving you messages. Okay. Do you pay attention on what the music is.

00;59;15;19 - 00;59;39;23
Annette Dalloo
Yeah sometimes. So sometimes it's beneficial to look up the song or look up the lyrics of the song. Okay. But I've, I've more recently started like I'm starting to see like what I think is energy. Like colors. Sure. My close my eyes only when I close my eyes like swirling colors. I had a crystal move in my house recently.

00;59;39;25 - 01;00;06;06
Annette Dalloo
Nice stuff. Like just things are starting to like unravel. And I don't always understand why or how or what. But that's why I feel like I'm not quite open yet. Everybody that has gifts that I talk to or you know they're like you know you're a lightworker, you know you're an empath. You know you could probably like they're telling me like you could communicate with your husband yourself.

01;00;06;06 - 01;00;24;29
Annette Dalloo
You don't need me. You just have to like do the work to get there. But I just always feel stuck like I don't know what my next step is. This is the next step is the going again. Yeah. This is the, the next step which is the shadow work which is the self-love, the breaking down the barriers of fear.

01;00;24;29 - 01;00;46;14
Annette Dalloo
And then things will start to unfold for you. Now they're showing me that it's going to unfold very slowly and gradually. That's what happened with me. And it was literally over the course of like five years, I didn't even realize it was kind of happening. I mean, it kind of did, but kind of didn't. So it's like, you know, I would see like you were saying like little things like that.

01;00;46;14 - 01;01;11;01
Annette Dalloo
And, and I'm just like, oh, okay. I don't know what that is. And you know. All right. Fine. Okay. I don't know what that means, but. Okay. And so you just kind of move forward and you're already well on your way. I am not saying that it's going to be another five years for you. I'm saying that just as an example of like sometimes a long period of time can go by and you feel like you're standing still, but it's just because it's going so slow that it feels like you're standing still, but you're actually not.

01;01;11;08 - 01;01;32;14
Annette Dalloo
You're actually going in the right direction. Yeah. It's just that when you look back, let's say three years from now, you're going to be like, oh, wow. Yeah, okay, I can see where I was three years ago, and now I can see where I am and how how much I've changed. Yeah. So you're not stuck. You're just moving at a pace that is common with where you are now.

01;01;32;16 - 01;01;49;03
Annette Dalloo
There will be moments where it'll speed up a little bit or it'll slow down. You're on your path. I'm not seeing anything that says that you need to speed up, that you need to hurry up, that you need to do anything quickly. Okay? So you're on your path. Just give yourself that that pat on the back for doing what you do.

01;01;49;10 - 01;02;10;25
Annette Dalloo
Are these openings, like supposed to be for my growth, or am I supposed to do something with them? They're not wanting to say that yet, okay? They just want you to focus on you for now. Because if I were to tell you what you would be moving into, potentially you would say, oh, cool, I'm going to go help everybody and they don't want you to help anybody right now.

01;02;10;25 - 01;02;30;02
Annette Dalloo
They want you to help you. Yeah. So they're kind of keeping that information under wraps for the time being. Yeah. Okay. It's so funny because sometimes they tell you information, but in the information it's actually giving you the answer without giving you the answer, if that makes sense. Yeah. Okay. I am going to close the Akashic Records. I want to thank you.

01;02;30;02 - 01;02;46;22
Annette Dalloo
Cool. My Akashic guy, thank you so much for being here. Thank you to Archangel Metatron and Archangel Santa Fe for being here as well, allowing us access to the Akashic Records. The records are closed. The records are closed. The records are closed. Thank you. Okay. How do you feel? I feel good, like, I think a lot of this really resonate.

01;02;46;22 - 01;03;08;16
Annette Dalloo
I mean, it really resonated, right? It's things that I feel like I somewhat knew. But not necessarily like 100%. And how to like move through them like the, the fear of being alone and the eating what it was fulfilling. And I really felt very strongly about that. But it's like what do I do to move past it.

01;03;08;16 - 01;03;38;18
Annette Dalloo
So definitely a lot of steps, baby steps that I need to start making. And that totally is really cool that I used to be witchy. All right. Okay. Well thank you so much. This was awesome. You're very welcome. Sure that we will do it again I think I have some homework to do though. Yes I do recommend letting everything percolate, doing some homework and everything else, and then coming back when you feel like you're guided to just give yourself some time to rest if you need it.

01;03;38;18 - 01;04;02;18
Annette Dalloo
Okay? Okay. Thank you for sharing your gift with me. You are so very welcome. My pleasure and keep me posted on how things are going. Thanks so much in it. All right. You're welcome. Bye bye.

01;04;02;20 - 01;04;27;10
Annette Dalloo
I would like to thank Marie for participating in the podcast by allowing me to record her session for the benefit of all of you, I was having a conversation with a friend of mine, and we were talking about the concept of how you can generate that beautiful feeling of love that you have when you are with another, with yourself.

01;04;27;12 - 01;05;05;08
Annette Dalloo
Some people find that that is an impossible task. How can you possibly create love within yourself that is as palpable, that is as physical, that is as magical as it is when you are with that person that you love. And I've gone around in circles on this with clients, with friends, discussing what is actually necessary for our experience as humans, what is desired for our experience as humans, and is it possible to generate that beautiful love within ourselves without someone else being physically present?

01;05;05;10 - 01;05;31;19
Annette Dalloo
I don't have all the answers just yet. Maybe I will at some point have a lot of the answers, but that's why this is open to this sort of discussion. And I'm going to give you some questions to ponder as I go through some of this information. How can I honor myself in a way that is aligned with my soul growth and my soul path?

01;05;31;20 - 01;05;59;10
Annette Dalloo
Another question to ask yourself what if I viewed my physical self through the eyes of my higher self? What would I see? What parts of me have I struggled to accept, and what would happen if I embrace them with love instead of criticism? Here's the biggest thing that I want you to really hear right now. We are taught to hate our bodies.

01;05;59;13 - 01;06;26;04
Annette Dalloo
We are taught to be critical of our physical being, our physical form, in whatever form it is. We are not born into this world disliking or criticizing our physical bodies. That is taught. It is taught by society, our parents, our classmates, our siblings, whoever it was for you that taught you that your physical body wasn't good enough, I want you to connect with that right now.

01;06;26;07 - 01;06;48;22
Annette Dalloo
And why is it that that person's judgment is more important than your own feelings, opinions, and love of yourself? Well, you might say, well, society is set up a particular way. Yes it is. And sadly enough, shaming people who are overweight or who don't have a particular body type is commonplace, even accepted in certain societies. And that needs to change.

01;06;48;22 - 01;07;10;25
Annette Dalloo
It needs to change because there are many reasons why people have different body shapes, different body types. There's a reason why we incarnate in the bodies that we do, and I've covered that in a previous episode. So if you are struggling with what your body looks like, no matter what it looks like, whether you feel like you're too thin or too fat or too tall, too skinny, too tall, too short to hairy, not enough hair.

01;07;10;25 - 01;07;34;10
Annette Dalloo
Whatever it is, ask yourself why you are feeling this way. Because I guarantee you you were not born with this judgment. I want you to understand that you are always enough. I want you to put your hand on your heart and really feel into that. Maybe even say it out loud. I am always enough through the eyes of my higher self, my soul, my guides, my spirit team.

01;07;34;12 - 01;08;04;07
Annette Dalloo
I am always beautiful. This is how you can generate that feeling of love within yourself for your physical being. Most people find it easier to practice that soulful acceptance, which means that you're able to connect to your soul and see your soul energy for what it is, and really appreciate it and love it and see the loving, kind, wonderfully humorous energy that you may have.

01;08;04;07 - 01;08;33;05
Annette Dalloo
Whatever those descriptors are, most people can look into their souls and see that beauty. The disconnect often comes when they try to embody that, or when they are in a space where they're trying to accept themselves as their physical bodies. And maybe the physical body doesn't match that soul signature that you feel like you have. The disconnect comes when we are not seeing the bridge between those two things.

01;08;33;11 - 01;08;57;24
Annette Dalloo
In the session, we talk about why Marie was hanging on to the weight, and there are many times when there are reasons why certain things are happening within our physical bodies that have to do with energy. It can also have something to do with our soul or life's purpose. I did talk about in a previous episode where my guides were channeling the information about.

01;08;57;26 - 01;09;28;12
Annette Dalloo
Sometimes you need to hold on to extra weight in order to ground the energy that is moving through your body. If you're an energy worker, if you're a healer in some way, maybe your body isn't ready to handle that type of energy just yet. And so it needs that extra bit of assistance by way of grounding. You don't understand or know exactly why your physical form has been created this way or evolved this way, but do you really need a why?

01;09;28;15 - 01;09;49;10
Annette Dalloo
Can you love and accept yourself for who you are? Many people will give you an exercise of looking in the mirror and saying, I love you. And while that is a very beautiful thing to do when I have done it myself, it can be really uncomfortable and it could feel untrue. If you don't really believe it. So I suggest that you start smaller.

01;09;49;16 - 01;10;14;20
Annette Dalloo
If you can look in the mirror and pick out something you really love about yourself, and then compliment yourself, you can say something like, wow, your hair looks amazing today. Or you could speak in the I term. I have such amazing hair today. I am the embodiment of beauty with the shape of my eyes. What else can you pick out that is going to be something you can truly, truly believe.

01;10;14;23 - 01;10;36;03
Annette Dalloo
When I used to look at photos of myself, I used to be very, very critical and I pretty much could not look at a single photo of myself without hating parts of that photo or all of the photo. In fact, the really interesting part is that when I look back on photos of myself, almost every single one of those photos that I hated, I look back and I say, wow, that's a really good photo.

01;10;36;03 - 01;11;09;28
Annette Dalloo
I look really good. So why is it that I couldn't appreciate that in that moment? It has to do with fear. It has to do with insecurity. It has to do with perception. One of the things that has been really beneficial for me to be in that embodiment is, believe it or not, making YouTube videos and TikTok videos, having to look at my face, look at myself while I'm editing a video for hours on end has been really incredibly helpful.

01;11;10;00 - 01;11;34;26
Annette Dalloo
I start to notice a little things about myself when I speak. I'm actually even charmed by myself when I speak. I'm looking at myself through another window. Being able to experience myself from a place of separation where I'm just observing myself in that space, identifying the quirkiness or the laughter or the fun. It's something I would recommend that you do.

01;11;34;26 - 01;12;13;20
Annette Dalloo
If you are struggling with this, try to have a relationship with yourself in terms of what you're seeing, what you're feeling, and what others experience as the full package of you. That's where video can be really, really helpful. Because a photo is just a snapshot. It is just one angle of one person. It gives zero context of who you are, what you were doing at that time, your experience of that one photo and feeling inadequate in that one photo could be a total lie of what the experience was.

01;12;13;23 - 01;12;34;08
Annette Dalloo
If you talked to somebody who was there with you, they may have experienced you in a completely different way. They may have been connecting to how much they love your laugh and how that lit up your face, and how you looked so joyous in that moment. They saw the beauty in you. They saw what was going on with you in that moment as a whole.

01;12;34;11 - 01;12;55;21
Annette Dalloo
They're experiencing your soul, your being, your physical body, your physical expressions, your personality, everything. But if you took a picture of that moment, what would you see? Maybe you would say, oh, my face is in a weird angle and I look like I have a double chin. Oh my, my cheeks are really bunching and I can barely see my eyes because I'm squinting.

01;12;55;23 - 01;13;21;01
Annette Dalloo
These are all things that I've said about myself in photos, by the way. It is a process. It is something that takes some time. But if you look at this from the perspective of both the soul and the physical body, and try to marry those two things together, it will make things much more coherent. It will help you to start to have that embodied reverence.

01;13;21;03 - 01;13;51;03
Annette Dalloo
Now, what does that mean? Embodied reverence? Well, it means that you are physically expressing reverence for yourself. A lot of people, when they talk about self-love, they talk about physical care, whether it's dance or getting a massage or something physical that you're doing with your body that is making you feel good, that is really only a very small part of the entire process of that self-love embodiment.

01;13;51;05 - 01;14;15;24
Annette Dalloo
It's about how you speak to yourself. It's about how you carry yourself, how you nourish your body, how you enter a room with confidence. It's how you draw boundaries. It's how you show up for yourself by knowing what it is that you want and asking for it. It's about asking for help. It's about stepping out of that people pleasing nature, getting rid of that codependency.

01;14;15;29 - 01;14;38;12
Annette Dalloo
It's about all of these things. Listening to this podcast, in fact, is an act of self-love. You are taking the steps that you need to take in order to more fully embrace who you are. So let's say you get to that place of soulful acceptance and embodied reverence. What then you might still say, I'm still alone or I'm still lonely.

01;14;38;15 - 01;15;02;29
Annette Dalloo
You may be in a relationship right now, or you may not be. It is still possible to be alone while being in a relationship. How do you deal with that loneliness? How do you deal with being alone? I've heard so many people say it's not possible to generate that feeling of self-love. It's not possible to generate that feeling of love that you have with another by yourself.

01;15;03;01 - 01;15;28;29
Annette Dalloo
The message that I have come up with is this when you have your energy, your beautiful divine energy, your energy fields, your personality, everything that you bring to the table and you have another person who is bringing their energy, their divine nature, their personality to the table. It creates something new. It creates a third energy, if you will.

01;15;29;01 - 01;15;51;27
Annette Dalloo
If you can imagine you're a blue crayon and the other person is a green crayon, you're going to mix those two colors together and you're going to get a really beautiful teal color. It's not the same color as you are energetically or the other person. It is something completely new and different. That is what people are talking about when they are saying that it cannot be replicated on your own.

01;15;52;00 - 01;16;21;29
Annette Dalloo
And from that perspective, they would be right. You cannot create something brand new if you are just existing in your own energy, with no other outside influences, can you still generate those feelings of divine love within yourself? Absolutely. What we're responding to in another when we generate that third energy, is the newness and the collaboration of our energy with another.

01;16;22;02 - 01;16;49;26
Annette Dalloo
The seller creation of those two energies together, creating that third energy. It is something that is different, something that we're not used to experiencing. And especially if you are in beautiful divine energy together, it is something that is undeniably incredible to experience. I always say this when you are connecting with other like energy souls, you are going to amplify each other's energy.

01;16;49;29 - 01;17;13;03
Annette Dalloo
There's a reason why when you gather together in a circle, like a women's circle or a men's circle or a combined circle of any kind, you will amplify each other's energy. That is what you are looking for. That is what you are desiring or longing for. When you're in that loneliness, you're looking for that connection. I often tell people that you can find that connection anywhere.

01;17;13;10 - 01;17;35;19
Annette Dalloo
You can find it in friends and family, even connections with strangers just on the street. If you do something where you are interacting with that person for a brief moment, it can create that energy. And most people will say, well, it's not the same. It's not the same as when you have that beautiful divine connection with another in a romantic partnership.

01;17;35;21 - 01;17;56;21
Annette Dalloo
And that is correct. It isn't the same. You have to ask yourself, what do you truly want in that romantic partnership? Do you want something that is aligned with you that is going to be able to create that beautiful third energy, or are you going to be able to just be with whoever is there that may not be able to create that third energy with you?

01;17;56;26 - 01;18;20;05
Annette Dalloo
Or maybe that third energy that is created is less than the energy that you have on your own. Maybe it's darker, maybe there's more shadow, maybe there's more work to be done and you've already done that work. You see how that can make a difference and what that third energy is. And this is why it is important to connect with somebody who is on the same frequency as you are, either same frequency or similar.

01;18;20;05 - 01;18;48;20
Annette Dalloo
You can be at different stages, but the stages cannot be so far apart that one person is bringing the other person down. It is important to be able to understand that when you are looking for that beautiful, divine love that is rooted in unconditional love, you have to be able to understand your own energy, to love everything about who you are as a soul, as a body, as an energy.

01;18;48;20 - 01;19;14;23
Annette Dalloo
In order for you to be able to reach the highest energy possible with another, there can be discrepancies. Sometimes when you meet somebody who is, let's say, in higher energy than you are, let's say they have embodied their self-love and you haven't. It can create this imbalance where you are constantly striving to be with this person. But maybe it's not the person that you really want to be with.

01;19;14;26 - 01;19;41;24
Annette Dalloo
It is simply their energy that you're striving to be in and that respect, you can absolutely work towards generating that energy within yourself. You have to ask yourself, when you were with somebody, is it their specific energy that you love? Or is it the way that you feel in their energy? Are you getting that feeling of love from them?

01;19;41;27 - 01;20;07;26
Annette Dalloo
Because if you are, then that is not self-generated. It's not to say that you can't receive love from others that is absolutely untrue. You can receive love from others and you should. But that shouldn't be the only goal and the only purpose for having that person in your life. You should be able to generate your own love within yourself, and receiving that love from that other person is a bonus.

01;20;08;03 - 01;20;28;16
Annette Dalloo
It is that third energy. It is that extra added color to the rainbow that is, you connect to yourself and how you feel about all of this. What places are triggering you in what I'm saying? What places are you resistant to? Because I can tell you right now that whatever you are resistant to, that is the place where you need to start looking.

01;20;28;21 - 01;20;55;15
Annette Dalloo
That's where you need to start making your little investigation. The reason why I know all of this to be true is because I've lived it. I've lived it myself. I have spent many, many years being single. I have not had a relationship for ten years, and this is the reason why I have had other relationships where our energies haven't been in alignment, where I've strived to get energy from somebody else because my energy was not in alignment.

01;20;55;17 - 01;21;24;29
Annette Dalloo
I've had the inverse happen. I have had so many different experiences of codependency, so much so that I had to learn what that was and how to overcome it. I had to learn what it means to really love myself, to embody that, to not just say, oh yeah, I love myself and not mean it. To understand what it means to really see my soul and love that soul and not look at it as separate from my physical body, but look at myself as a whole.

01;21;25;04 - 01;21;50;05
Annette Dalloo
And when you do that, and you've never done that before, it's new territory. You have to get used to it. You have to accept things about yourself, and you have to accept the fact that people are going to show up differently in your life, and you have to accept that, and you have to learn how to receive. When people start showing up for you in ways that you never expected them to, and it's in a beautiful way, sometimes it can throw you off balance because you're not expecting it.

01;21;50;08 - 01;22;09;06
Annette Dalloo
Maybe you've always been rooted in codependency and you have no idea what unconditional love is. And when you start experiencing it, you have to learn how to experience it. And that's something that is a journey for you and you alone. Another person cannot do that work for you. They can show you the way, certainly, but they cannot do the work for you.

01;22;09;09 - 01;22;35;17
Annette Dalloo
So you might ask me, well, if you haven't had a really significant relationship in the last ten years, isn't that lonely? It can be, sure. But can. I remember most of the time in this last ten years as being fulfilling? Yeah, a lot of this last ten years has been about me on my spiritual path, learning the things that I need to learn, going through the shadow work I need to go through, clearing the old, outdated energies that don't serve me anymore.

01;22;35;18 - 01;22;59;02
Annette Dalloo
Going through dark nights of the soul again and again and coming back out the other side and being brighter than I was before. I knew that if I was in a relationship during any of this time, that I would most likely not do any of that work. And why? Because I was in codependency and I was looking for another to fulfill those energies.

01;22;59;04 - 01;23;32;05
Annette Dalloo
And when you're looking for another to fulfill those energies, you're going to continue going in and out of relationships that do not work, that are unhealthy, abusive, even. You start to learn to draw your own boundaries, soft boundaries with love and strength and trust in yourself. Not harsh boundaries with hatred and walls up and locked gates, you learn how to respond to your own inner compass and to observe and understand and listen to others in a discerning and loving way.

01;23;32;08 - 01;24;02;01
Annette Dalloo
You learn how to argue constructively, express your feelings, all of the feelings that you have constructively. Just because I went through this entire process and I'm still going through it, doesn't mean I don't get angry, or doesn't mean that I don't get disappointed or insecure or sad or lonely. I do. I just handle those emotions differently. Now I have the tools that I need in order to move through those emotions without throwing grenades on all of my relationships.

01;24;02;03 - 01;24;27;20
Annette Dalloo
If you need help getting through this, don't hesitate to contact me. You can always book a session and we can work through this together. Thank you so much for listening. I love you and I'm looking forward to connecting with you next week. If you're enjoying this podcast, it would be really amazing if you could like, share and subscribe wherever you listen to podcasts, whether it's Apple or Spotify.

01;24;27;22 - 01;24;49;29
Annette Dalloo
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01;24;50;00 - 01;24;54;23
Annette Dalloo
Thank you so much for all of your support and I can't wait to connect with you next week.