Beyond the Role: The Fire That Sets You Free

“To heal is to be the fire—both the burn and the rebirth.”

⚠️ Trigger Warning:

This episode contains references to sensitive and explicit content, including rape, molestation, pedophilia, and abuse. Please listen with care and ensure you are in a safe and grounded space to receive this material. The content is shared in service of healing, remembrance, and transformation—but may be activating for some listeners.

This episode invites you into one of the deepest transmissions yet—a journey into the sacred paradox of healing. We explore the truth that healing is not just about light, softness, or restoration… it is also about grief, endings, identity death, and sacred destruction.

Together we’ll explore:

•Why roles like victim and aggressor are soul contracts, not fixed identities

•How trauma can create energetic imprints that transfer behaviors across polarity

•The subtle and uncomfortable truth of how we sometimes become what we survived

•Why pain is not punishment—and how remembering that gives your power back

•What true creation looks like when it’s not a bypass but a return to soul

This episode includes several intuitive segments, spiritual downloads, and lived insights to support your release of identity and embodiment of soul-level wholeness.

✨ This episode is paired with the following healing experiences:

🌀 Energy Therapy Session

“Becoming the Phoenix: An Energetic Rebirth Through Fire and Frequency”

A frequency attunement to clear past roles and ignite your inner rebirth.

💫 Guided Meditation

“I Have Been All of It: A Meditation for Dissolving the Divide Within”

A gentle yet powerful journey to reclaim all parts of self beyond judgment, polarity, or shame.

Transcript

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As within, so without, as above, so below, this Hermetically Speaking.[Bell ringing] Welcome, welcome, welcome to Hermetically Speaking with your vessel, Toriea, transmitting alchemy, mystic psychology, and channeled messaging for all of our days. Here we explore the sacred, the shadow, and the infinite spiral path of awakening. So you can remember who you are beneath the programming, and rebuild yourself from the inside out. And as always, go back to episode one for my disclaimers on mystic psychology and the fact that I am not a medical professional. And everything I speak on is through experience and an energetic standpoint rooted in the ancient wisdom of hermeticism. Therefore, if you are seeking medical advice of any kind, please consult a licensed professional. Welcome back to the 20th episode of Hermetically Speaking with myself, your vessel, Toriea. Transmitting alchemy and mystic psychology for all of our days. And today's episode is one of those transmissions that may not land on the first listen, and that's okay. It's meant to open something ancient within you, a complete remembrance. We're exploring healing, not just as restoration or recovery, also as a sacred paradox. We are going to dive into how healing is both creation and destruction. Because no matter how gentle your healing looks on the surface, underneath something always has to die. An identity, a role, a memory you thought defines you, a timeline you clung to out of pain or hope. And here's the part that no one tells you when they hand you the crystal or the affirmation card. Healing will ask you to grieve things you once thought were holy. It will ask you to forgive what you said you'd never forgive. And it will ask you, at some point, to admit that you have been both the one who was hurt and the one who has hurt. We live in a realm of polarity. That's the architecture of this plane. And yet, the goal is not to pick a side. It's to remember that the sides were only ever part of the dream. That to heal is to dissolve the illusion of separation between creation and destruction, between victim and aggressor, between who you thought you were and who you actually are. Some say the soul makes sacred contracts before it enters this life. And some of those contracts are not pretty. They don't come wrapped in light or bliss. They come as heartbreak, as betrayal, as the kind of pain that forces a transformation so complete. You forget who you were before. And that is ultimately one of the major harmonious and main points of having an experience that is so controversial. Because we try to get back to who we were before that experience. The point of that experience was to move on from who you were. So what if that too, that whole process is just as holy as you yourself are and anything else in creation? What if healing isn't just the light at the end of the tunnel? What if it's the fire that burns the tunnel down? This episode isn't offering to that fire. To the part of you brave enough to stop trying to fix yourself and instead let the old self die. And then coming back to this tunnel and this fire, right, in this light, what if the fire is what is pushing you through the tunnel? When I say what if it's the fire that burns the tunnel down? What if you're in this tunnel and this fire starts on the external side of it and just starts coming into the tunnel and pushing you through that tunnel? That is how it is for me. And it might be for you as well. Let's begin. We're going to step into destruction as sacredness and sovereignty because destruction is often feared because we think it means that we have failed. That something went wrong, that we've lost control. In truth, destruction is holy. It's not the opposite of healing. It's a phase of it. It's not healing to feel like a sunrise, like clarity, softness, grace, real healing though. It's often a wildfire. It's the storm that rips off the roof of your life so you finally see the sky. Sometimes what we call breakdowns are breakthroughs. They are destruction, wearing sacred clothing. Seth Speaks, channel through Jane Roberts, articulates this with masterful clarity. This is kind of what brought it back into the forefront for me because this is something that's been a part of my journey for quite some time. However, I have just really committed to listening to the Seth Speaks audibles and listened to one on a long drive. And this, it gave me more insight to what I have already unveiled to myself along this healing journey but then allowed me to bring it back into perspective to write this episode. And that is that the soul chooses its roles long before this lifetime. And those roles include both the victim and the aggressor. And we can very much parallel them with creation and destruction in a lot of ways. And so this episode is a kind of wrap all between those four terminologies. And this is not because the soul is cruel. It's because evolution requires contrast. It requires karmic inversion. It requires us to experience all sides of the spiral until we stop clinging to any of them as an identity. There is a prophecy spoken in the soul realms that for humanity to truly evolve, these roles must reverse. So keep that in mind, right? Like if you're not ready to embody yourself as both, then understand that for the soul's journey, roles must reverse. Now again, infinite universe, right? But this is something that from my path has been extremely solid about because it eliminates the non-duality. It creates compassion and that true realm of unconditional love, that true frequency, that the victim will one day carry the power and the aggressor will taste the pain. However, it's not going to be as revenge. It's going to be as reconciliation. And that's all part of the path. This is why destruction is sacred because it tears down false roles, false power and false identity. It levels the ego and the playing field and it humbles the righteousness of pain. It teaches us to stop asking who was wrong and start asking what is being revealed. Here's what gets revealed when destruction is honored instead of feared. And I do apologize if you hear a little bit of background noise. It sounds like there is a semi with an engine brake going by on the main road. And so it might have caught some of it in the background. So anyways, here's what gets revealed when destruction is honored instead of feared. We begin to remember that we have been both not just in this lifetime, across many. Think about it. I'm just going to take a side note for my script here. Go down a little rabbit hole. Think about it. It's not finite that we incarnate in the same lineage each time. However, there is a probability ratio that that definitely does happen with souls. If you were your third century grandmother reincarnated, right? And life was much tougher back then abuse was more rampant, things like that. Or the grandfather, right? And then you reincarnate as a woman in the same lineage in another life. Do you guys see like where I'm following the rabbit hole of how you know back in the day, molestation and rape of women was very, very common. It was considered normal. So normal that you know there were no charges for it. Women didn't have those rights. And the reality of it is that any one of us could have played the roles of the males in those families and then pivoted to the women or vice versa in different incarnations. And whether we were in the same lineage the whole time is kind of a moot when you break it down because even if you did different families, right? Like even if you did different if you incarnated in a Smith family and then incarnated in a black family, right? Like they might not have direct genetic lineage, but it doesn't mean that you didn't play the different roles in the different in those in those different ones. So it can be broken down and broken down and broken down and when time is not linear, right? We're living all of those lifetimes in one like beam of light within us. And so it gets somewhat complex, right? But that's where our minds start to expand and be able to hold more understanding is in some of that complexity when we ask these questions of, how is that even possible? How do I, how would I know if this applies to me? Right? Like, and your specific, I mean, that's what past life regressions are for, which I do facilitate by donation basis and a kosher record reading. So those are great too, right? All of those things are part of my path of how I've gotten here and yes, they are part of the things that I facilitate. But yes, so that's food for thought. So what happens when we begin to remember that we've been both it's, you know, we become the victim, I'm sorry, I lost my place. So we begin to remember that we've been both not just in this life across many, right? We just discussed that. And when we forget, when we forget that we are both sides of the plarity, we become dangerous to ourselves and to others because we become the victim who refuses to forgive, who lashes out with punishment, carrying the karmic thread of aggression forward. We become the aggressor who refuses to feel shame, who buries their guilt so deep that it becomes generational and destruction comes to end that loop. And so does creation all in one because you can't have one without the other and to reduce the karmic echo to ash. To say, this pain stops with me. This role ends here. I will not become what I survived and I will no longer hold others hostage in my memory of what was. So when you feel your life falling apart. When relationships end, identities collapse. When truths shake the bones of who you thought you were, don't panic. Don't be silly. Bow. Because you are witnessing sacred destruction. And without it, there is no space for your creation or rebirth. So when roles leave traces on the body and the soul, we call this the imprint effect. And now we're diving into segment two of the podcast. And sometimes healing doesn't just ask us to release the pain. It asks us to release the person we became because of the pain. And it also asks us to release any individuals that contributed or are entangled in the pain. And that's where things get complicated because some of those behaviors or responses, these, those strange new habits, right, that we experience, they didn't always come from us. They came from the ones who contributed to the experiences who harmed us. This is something I don't think we talk about enough because I had never heard about it in my entire life until I ventured into my own journey. And I have been in a plethora of therapy and all of it. So we're going to talk about it. And there's a really, and what we're going to talk about is this very real phenomenon that I call the imprint effect when an intense relationship, especially like them, obviously it's always going to be the more trauma, the more chaos, the more abuse, you know, the higher the probability ratio of this imprint effect being stronger. And so what happens is it leaves behind a behavioral or energetic residue in our fields, even after the relationship ends, something of them lingers. And this imprint can show up in subtle and very uncomfortable ways. And this imprint can really go kind of along with the trauma bond, but when I was dissecting a trauma bond, some of these symptoms could be seen as evidence of a trauma bond. However, for me, this went a layer deeper and wasn't just about, they were about the aetheric ties. However, these were very different aetheric ties. And I'm not to say that they're not one and the same, right? We might do a future episode where it's like the imprint effect and the trauma bonds are one and the same. And I believe that they are in some ways. However, again, everything is in layers, right? So the imprint effect is a layer of trauma bonding. That's where we'll go. And so the energetic imprinting, right? I have some numbered bullet points here. So we're going to start with energetic imprinting is when you are in close contact with someone, especially in a dynamic where there's control, fear or imbalance, and your nervous system begins to adapt. Their frequency can override yours and their dysfunction can start to feel like the baseline for yourself. And over time, the imprint of who they are begins to write itself into the pages of who you are. And so what happens here is that it goes into basically like there's different stages of it, right? Like the encoding is almost unnoticeable. Like you don't even realize that it's happening because, you know, especially back when I was younger, energy was less talked about. And so this wasn't something that, you know, was knowledge to consider before going into a romantic relationship or before making any big life decision moving out of the house at 18, picking a college, picking a job, picking, you know, to mean like the environments that you're going to be in. And so the next stage that kind of develops is number two, the behavioral transference or activation, which is where you may start doing things you never would have done before. It's or at least thought you wouldn't have done right like your ego like was like, I'll never do that. No, that'll never happen to me. I won't behave that way. However, it's not mimicry, it's activation, it's behaviors you didn't resonate with suddenly emerging and it may feel random, but it's not your body, your psyche and your energy field were entangled. So you have that entanglement shows up in your actions. Sometimes we become the one who hurt us in small ways, not because we want to, but because they're imprint fused with our very own subconscious, which brings us to number three. Identification as a safety net. On some level, becoming like the aggressor can feel safer. And this is something that we have seen in a lot of circumstances, a lot of circumstances of unvergiveness in society, right? There are a lot of rapists, child molesters, and other, you know, things that we believe are completely diabolical, that at some point in time had those circumstances happen to them. Right? And that's because on some level, becoming like their aggressor somehow someway started to feel safer. You know, their mind or ego or their programming begin to develop things like, if I'm like them, maybe I won't get hurt or if I adopt their behaviors, maybe I'll stay in their good graces. And it's not logical thinking, right? It's biological. It's the survival based nervous system trying to find control inside chaos. But the danger. We internalize the distortion and we forget where we come from. And then we start calling it our personality when really it was a scar. Which then brings us to stage four, the erosion of self worth. Sometimes it's not about survival. It's about self worth being chipped away slowly and intentionally. The aggressor drags you down to their level because power is easier to maintain when you stop remembering who you are. They don't they don't just want you to hurt. They want you altered because if you start living like them, even in small ways, they've won. Because what they're really afraid of is you and your power and who you are and what you remind them that they have either lost, have not remembered or have not yet accepted they could be. You can reverse the imprint at any time. You can remember that that behavior wasn't you that reaction wasn't you that version of you was a reflection of what you endured and not what you believe. This is part of the destruction. It's not just burning away the relationship or the pain. It's burning away the false selves that were born in the fire. And mind you, every single one of these stages may not be a rape victim turning into a rapist like that stage of number three can happen in very subliminal ways as well. You might not go to the extreme that a rapist or a molester did, but you might still have some of those underlying behaviors that were transferred upon the commitment of the act is what I want to say. Of the experience of what a lot of people and what we would call the tragedy, right? It's okay to call it a tragedy because that's what it is. However, finding the non-duality and how it serves you is part of next week's episode. So stay tuned for that. And so when the wounded become the wound, the other side of the imprint, right, when we start adapting even the most subliminal behaviors from our aggressors, it then becomes not always the aggressor who leaves the stain because the victim becomes the one who actually carries it forward. And this isn't about blame, guys. This is about honesty because just as the aggressor can imprint the victim, the victim, if they have never truly healed, can become the aggressor. Not always physically, how about energetically, they're right, emotionally or behaviorally. So we're going to go through a couple of the most common ways that this shows up. And number one is mimicry turned harmful. In some cases, the victim adopts the behaviors of the one who hurt them, not just as a trauma response, as a template for power. If the only time they felt in control was when they were being dominated, the mind and body can start to believe that control equals safety. So the behavior is repeat, right? We talked about rate victims becoming rapists, the abuse becoming the abuser, and that's on any level, right? Abuse can be mentally, physically, emotionally, spiritually, sexually, and it's not because they're evil. It's because they were never shown a different way to feel powerful because someone dominated them and forced their beliefs of power onto them. This is, of course, what we know, like if you watch like criminal minds or any of those old shows, this is the copycat wound where pain is passed down like an inheritance, wearing a different face, but carrying the same signature. So number two is punishment as justification. So this is the one that this episode, if we're really going to target a specific pinpoint, this is one of them. And this one is punishment as justification. The second pathway, this pathway is quieter. It is more socially acceptable. And however, it is just as destructive. This is when the victim, holding unprocessed rage, turns to hatred, vengeance, justification, you know, all of those things, righteousness, and maybe not outright. It might just be through judgment. It might be through condemnation, hatred disguised as empowerment. The victim becomes the Punisher. And we're seeing a lot of that in this world today, right? Like this is literally breaking through in our realities on a societal level, where people think that because they were harmed, they can, right, they can do harm. And it might be in a different way. It doesn't have to be in the way that they received harm, but it's still some level of it. And while the original wound is valid, the need to see the other suffer becomes its own form of aggression. The soul becomes attached to being right and never becomes free. Because whether it's mimicry or revenge, it's still a loop, it's still a chain, it's still an imprisonment for humanity. So I will speak on two things before moving on to this next little segment. And that is going to be, "Do you want to be right or do you want to be at peace?" And Mother Teresa always said, "Do not invite me to an anti-war protest. Only invite me to a peace rally." So at the center of all of it, right? At the center of every bit of anger, justification of punishments, any form of victimhood or aggression, because ultimately they end up being one in the same, is unhealed worth in the lack of your remembrance of who you are. When we don't remember who we are beyond pain, we keep trying to prove our value through power, control, or punishment. And we stay bound to the very thing we are trying to escape. This is why we must do more than survive our experiences. We must alchemize them. We must name the ways pain echoes so we can stop mistaking the echo for our voice. And maybe now is a good time to remember something. Pain is not punishment. It doesn't mean that you've done something wrong. It doesn't mean the universe is angry or that you're failing. That belief strips us of our power. Because if I believe I'm being punished, then someone or something else has control over me. Then I'm a victim again, and I've handed my power away. And in some circumstances, we're ultimately punishing ourselves. And playing this loop that something external is punishing us when we're really doing it and playing the victim with this invisible power really. Because the power lies with you. You are your own creator. You are your own creator. You are a sovereign, divine being of infinite potential. And your power always lies within you. So here's what I choose instead. If I say this experience really, really, really fucking sucks, right? Really freaking sucks. It's flucking awful. And I don't know if I can bear it. It's extremely painful. Why did I sign up for this? How is this serving me? What am I supposed to learn from this? So that way, I don't have to feel this way again. That way, this pain, this specific frequency of pain ends with me. It doesn't mean you won't experience pain in other ways, right? Because it is part of our learning. But those questions, that curiosity, you are remaining teachable and that changes everything in just a moment, a split second, a nanosecond even, your entire frequency changes. And it will remind you how your soul may have chose this. That you're not being punished and that you're being initiated into the school of mystery. And maybe this pain is here to help separate from centuries of ancestral patterning, from poverty, from victimhood, from shame. And maybe it's here to help you release people that you once thought were yours, right? People being possessive is one of the biggest victim aggressor roles that you can possibly play. And your soul is absolutely ready for more. Any time that pain shows up, your soul is ready for more. And maybe that's the difference between staying stuck and rising, being the phoenix, right? Only then does healing become freedom, not just from what happened, from who we became because of it. Because there are so many stages of life that we move through, who we were before, who we were when it happened, who we, what was created out of that, and then what we create from that. Right? No one else is writing our story, but in those experiences, it feels like someone else is. It feels like someone else has the quill and the ink and the parchment and the pen and the paper and whatever else floats your boat in that visual scenario. So now that we've named this, we're going to talk a little bit about what creation really is, because it's not just building something new. It's remembering how to be you again. And that can be the absolute most difficult part of this journey. Because creation ultimately is not escape, and we're looking at it as an escape route, it can create a distortion. So once destruction clears the field, we're left with this strange sacred emptiness, and that emptiness is terrifying. Because for the first time, you're not who you were. You're not who you thought you were. You're not who or what you thought would ever happen to you. And at the same time, you're not yet who you're becoming. Right? And as I speak, like you can draw the parallels in your own mind of how even when I speak of creation, it's still destruction. Right? So after emptying out, we end up binging in some way, shape, or form. Right? So we're moving through, like, say the creation destruction parallel, right? And we're actually kind of stepping out of, we're stepping into a new form of creation, because creation is different layers, destruction is different layers. And maybe I didn't dissect that enough, but it wasn't really called to in writing this script. So maybe that's something for a later date. So we went through the different layers of destruction, right? The different layers of imprinting and aggressing. And so now we're at a different stage of creation. And we're at the stage of creation where we're relieving ourselves of those behaviors, of those learned patterns of that subconscious frequency. We're emptying ourselves out, whether it's through somatic breathwork, intense therapy, whatever it is that your heart follows your pathway, right? Like yoga, it could be anything and everything, because it is anything and everything. And whatever it is, it works for you and that's beautiful. So we're talking about the in between is what we're talking about in this stage of creation. The one where we have filtered it out, we've gotten it out, right? Like the spiritual journey and healing and awakening is filled with binging and purging, especially at the beginning, because the void doesn't feel familiar to us. Being empty inside, like those frequencies, those old frequencies that no longer serve us, leaving us and leaving this open space, it doesn't feel familiar because we're used to being weighed down by the density of those lower frequencies, right? I think about it as the lower and vibration they are, the heavier they weigh in a sense, which is really, really funny though, because the whole etymology of the meaning of guru is like being heavy, it has to do with weight. So again, there's the paradox that the higher in frequency you go, the lighter you get, but technically the heavier you get, because guru status, which you are your own guru, don't let anybody tell you anything different, nobody is your guru but you. Alright, anyways, so I always have to reiterate that. And so what feels familiar in the organs, the muscles, the tissues, riddled with repressed trauma and suppressed emotions begins to release, it feels weird and uncomfortable. And you don't need always know that that's what's going on, because we have no visual tangible way to evaluate that sometimes, right? So in this in between, in this void, most people rush to fill it, they mistake creation for control, they try to rebuild too quickly, they try to slap new affirmations on old wounds and they call it healing. And real creation doesn't come from fear, it doesn't come from panic, it doesn't come from the need to prove that you're okay. Creation in its highest form is surrender, surrendering to the void, allowing it to guide you where you need it to be. It is the quiet decision to plant something new after the fire, even while the ground is still warm. It's listening for the blueprint of who you actually are, not who trauma taught you to be. And it's okay that we binge and purge in this type of way, because it's also surfacing what has been exiled, what is still in the subconscious, right? And it needs to come up in layers, but as we invoke on this journey, we start to notice this pattern and we start to want to free ourselves from it. We start to want to not dive directly into creation, but instead allow creation to come to us, right? In a more sovereign way of remembrance of what our divine blueprint is, as well as what it is that we want to do, what it is that we want to make what we remember that we're here to do. So it is, you know, that quiet decision, that peacefulness, that not having to earn or keep, right? And so the mantis frequency reminds us that nothing is truly created until energy is reorganized, that you can't build from the same frequency that broke you. And you can't create from the vibration of defense and expect peace, right? This goes back to aggressor and victim parallels. And you can't manifest a life of clarity while still clinging to identities rooted in chaos, right? I am not a rape victim anymore. That is not part of my identity any longer. I am someone that is free from that. And our body cellularly regenerates every seven years, right? Like every part of our body is new. And therefore this body was never harmed in that way. It never suffered the abuse that I went through for a decade or even prior to. This body is new, this body is mine. And this body is never ever endured those things. So if I choose to carry it with me or if it still needs healing, it's because it's in my energetic field, it's in my frequency, it's in my aura, it's in my astral, you know, all of those different fields. And that's what needs cleaned out. That's how it's carried with you. So creation is born from coherence and coherence only comes after the destruction, right? Again, one and the same. After truth, after grief, after the quiet collapse of everything you no longer need to carry, the anger, the vengeance, the judgment, the righteousness, the victimhood, the wanting to see your aggressor suffer, feeling like they have to die for you to ever be safe because I've been there. I've wanted that. Creation is not escape. It is return, return to wholeness, return to choice, the choice to forgive, return to the original spark of your soul before the stories, before the pain, before the polarity. And when you return to this, you return to deeper understandings that were not available to you at the time of being trapped in those roles. Deeper truths on a soul level, on an Akashic, aetheric level, on a soul blueprint, soul contracts, karmic, whatever you want to call it. And that's what healing really is, right? Not fixing, not erasing, returning with new eyes, new hands, and a new commitment to never again abandon yourself in the name of any role whatsoever. So we're going to pause here just for a moment, not to think, not to analyze, just to feel, where do you sense destruction in your body right now? Is there a tightness, an ache, a numbness? Allow it to speak to you. Mine is in my heart. I am still learning how to love myself. I had a somatic breathwork the other day. And, you know, being guided through it and one of the things towards the end was, you know, to let love in. And I had this very real, very loud voice, just say to me, in my own mind, what is love? Like my whole being was trying to understand what love was. And then I slowly felt ascended masters, angelic realms, the murean, Atlansian, everything that I have ever worked with, and everything that guides me and aids me. They're just pouring this soft, sweet sorrow of remembrance that I ever forgot what it was into my heart. And it was just mind-blowing to understand that every part of my being finally grasped what I have known for a very long time, and guiding me. To how I can now love in a new way, not in any way that I've ever known before. Let these parts speak to you. And then now, where do you sense creation? Sense creation in your body, maybe it's subtle, a soft pulse, a spark maybe behind your ribs, which is kind of where mine is ironically. It tingling in your palms, the sense that something wants to emerge, and isn't quite ready yet. Let them both exist. Let them both be the synchronization of the spiral in your DNA. Let the ache of what's ending in the innocence of what's beginning coexist in the very same breath. And when you inhale, you can state, "I allow the clearing." And when you exhale, "You can state, I welcome what wants to come through." There is no rush, no forcing. Creation is not a race, and destruction is not failure. Both are part of your becoming. Sorry, my phone just vibrated. I have it on do not disturb, but of course there's a few people that can get through that. So, if you heard any background noise, when you're ready, return to this space, and we'll explore what happens when the illusion of separation dissolves.[silence] All right, so I hope I've given you plenty of time to come back to this space, and we're going to step into the collapse of polarity. Where we're going to talk about what if you were never just the victim, what if you were never just the healer, or the wounded, or the one who made it out, what if you were all of it? All of it at once. All right, this is where the healing ultimately leads us to. If we let it, not to perfection, not to clarity that never wavers, to the realization that every identity we've clung to was temporary. A mask the soul wore to learn something deeper. And the longer we hold onto it, the maybe further away we become from the lesson, right? Maybe not necessarily. That's a rabbit hole for another day, right? Like my brain's going in like five different ways. So, not to perfection, not to clarity that never wavers, to the realization that every identity we've clung to was temporary. And sorry, I apologize for the repeat sometimes when I pick back up, it's on the same line or the same paragraph that I'm in. So when we wear these masks, the masks of the victim, the masks of the aggressor, the destroyer, the creator, the savior, the sinner, none of them are who you are. Their roles, the soul agreed to inhabit briefly so that it could evolve. You are supposed to leave these roles behind, reduce attachment, release, and allow them to have been a doorway that you needed to walk through to a higher frequency. Even those, sometimes we go down in frequency to raise, right? That is hermetic vibration at its finest. And when we finally remember that, the war ends, not just the outer war, the one that we've carried inside, because polarity isn't just between people, it's within us. And the part of you that wants to forgive, and the part that still wants justice, the part that wants to move on, and the part that still needs to grieve, the part that feels powerful, and the part that still feels broken. The real healing is the moment those parts stop fighting each other. It's the remembering that they are not enemies. They are fragments of the same truth, you. And you need to fit them into your puzzle for completion to see your sovereign being, right? And when you stop choosing sides, when you stop labeling parts of yourself as wrong or shameful or weak, you become whole, not healed, not done whole. The man just frequency teaches that wholeness doesn't mean completion. It means integration. It means holding contradiction with grace, and understanding that dualities exist in a non-duality realm. Frequency, whatever word you want to use. It means becoming large enough to contain both light and shadow without needing one to dominate the other. That's where healing ends, not in a happily ever after, in the quiet collapse of separation. You were never only the one who was hurt. You were never only the one who hurt. You were always both, and you were always more. So let's soften into some reflection, not to fix, not to explain, just to witness. You've just journeyed through the fire and the bloom, through destruction and creation, and through roles you've played and roles you've cast others in. And now I want to invite you to pause and ask, right? So for this episode, we have some journal prompts to go with it. And the first journal prompt is going to be, where in my life am I still seeing through the lens of blame instead of balance? Where in my life am I still seeing through the lens of blame instead of balance? And a lot of times if I'm doing mantras or repeats, I like to repeat it three times. For the Trinity, but also because the first time, the, I obviously look at it as, not obviously, but this is how I look at it. And this is how I've been taught it through the psychosis is that every time I was reprogramming something, my first thought was out of survival. My second thought, so it would be an extreme response, right? Something of one polarity. My second thought would be the other polarity. And then my third, if I take the time to find it, achieves the balance between the two. And I also look at it as one size masculine, one size feminine, the third is combining them. So whenever I do things three times, when I ask myself three times or when I do a mantra three times, I can literally feel the difference inside me shift. And so that's something that you might take with you and just really, really enjoy using, right? Take what you need and leave the rest. Come back for more later. So journal prompt number two is what part of me still believes that healing must look like creation and denies the power of destruction. What part of me still believes that healing must look like creation and denies the power of destruction. And one more time for good measure. What part of me still believes that healing must look like creation and denies the power of destruction. And journal prompt number three, have I ever tried to create from a space that wasn't ready? What did it teach me? And this is such a powerful one because we've all done it, right? Have I ever tried to create from a space that wasn't ready? What did it teach me? Have you ever tried to create from a space that wasn't ready? And what did it teach you? And finally, perhaps the most sacred of all journal prompt number four, can I hold compassion for the roles I've played in someone else's story even when they couldn't yet hold compassion for me? Can I hold compassion for the roles that I've played in someone else's story even when they couldn't yet hold compassion for me? Can I hold compassion for the roles I've played in someone else's story even when they couldn't yet hold compassion for me? Let yourself sit with these questions not to arrive at perfect answers to open deeper doorways. This isn't about bypassing what's been done. It's about understanding that healing doesn't ask you to forget. It asks you to remember differently, not in the ways that we've been taught. Because you are not your pain, you are the soul that witnessed it, endured it, transformed through it, and still chose to love. And that is sacred. Healing doesn't choose sides. It doesn't label some emotions as sacred and others as shameful. It doesn't ask you to pretend you're only the light. And I'd love to give just a couple of real world examples from my own experience. My partner and I both have had the honor of meeting specifically each one individual that created a heinous crime in their lifetime. One that in society you don't come back from, one that people would probably still like to see people burned at the stake or hanged or right. And that was child molestation or some type of violence against a child. Now, the individual that I met, I worked with and I didn't know that at the beginning. I didn't know that until somebody found him on the registry and made it public at work. This person gave me my two-year coin when I received it in recovery. This person worked recovery so diligently and we weren't super close but we knew of each other's recovery. And this person understood or at least came to the realization of what they did was under substances and to most people that doesn't matter. However, this person achieved a change in the way they thought, the way they think, the way they speak. They transformed their lives. And my partner was able to meet someone when he was in prison. He was eventually moved to a camp and in a camp there are a lot of child molesters and pedophiles. And he met one that he said just saw the grievous error of his actions and was truly trying to make amends for them. And it's so funny because we were meeting these people at the same time, right? And we didn't know it at the time. And I just wanted to emphasize that because eventually everybody has the power to heal. And that's what we want, right? We want for these people that create and cause harm ourselves included, we want them to heal, just like we want us to heal. And it begins maybe because we want them to heal because we don't want them to hurt us any longer. Or we want them to heal because we don't want them to hurt others any longer. And then eventually the more we put into this journey, the more we heal ourselves, we realize we want them to heal so they no longer hurt. Healing is vast. It's violent and gentle. It creates and it destroys. It humbles the righteous and softens the hardened. It asks one thing from you to stop resisting the fire, to stop fearing the empty spaces, to let go of who you thought you had to be in order to survive. And I apologize. My cat is running around trying to get a bird through the window. And because you're not here to survive anymore, you're here to become. So as we close today's episode, I want to remind you this work is not passive. These words aren't just meant to be heard. They're meant to be felt to be lived. But this transmission stirred something in you. I invite you to deepen the integration with two supportive practices. Coming following this episode is an energy therapy session becoming the Phoenix and energetic rebirth through fire and frequency. And this session will help clear residue from past roles and ignite your creative rebirth and a frequency of sovereignty. And of course, as always, there will be a paired guided meditation and that one will be titled, I have been all of it, a meditation for dissolving the divide within this meditation will walk you through releasing labels, honoring both creation and destruction and embodying your soul's wholeness beyond polarity. So if this episode served you, please share it, save it and subscribe to our YouTube channel if you haven't yet. It is now at a spiritual world. Your support helps this work ripple to others who are ready to hear what their soul already knows. And as always, thank you for being here, thank you for walking through the fire, for becoming the fire. And for remembering that you are not just healing, you are evolving. So until next time, may every ending be the seed of you are becoming. 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