I Took A Long Break, And Here Is Why I Am Back

I vanished for a while, then came back with a mic that finally works and a life that looks completely different. It’s windy, I’m a little out of breath, and I’m talking straight through the mess because sometimes you just need to say things out loud to feel the relief. Prime Example Podcast is back, and I’m catching you up on why the break happened and what it takes to restart when you don’t feel “ready.”

The big updates are real: I’m a homeowner, I’m deep in remodeling, and I’m about five months pregnant with my first baby. I talk about the kind of nausea that hits at night, the sleep that gets harder when your mind won’t shut off, and the pressure that shows up when you realize you have more to lose than you did before. I also open up about working since I was young, always chasing the next shift, and why stepping away from work and tattooing even for a little bit feels like a whole identity shift.

We also get into body changes, confidence, and why having a supportive partner makes a difference when you’re growing a whole new human. I share how quitting smoking changes my emotions, how pregnancy turns the volume up on everything, and yes, we end with a funny story about mango ice cream and why “sharing” gets complicated when you’re feeding two.

If you’re into honest life updates, pregnancy talk, mental health, body image, and the behind-the-scenes reality of staying consistent with content creation, hit subscribe, share this with a friend, and leave a review so more people can find the show. What part of this season of change are you navigating right now?

Transcript

Mic Check And A Fresh Start

SPEAKER_00 0:00

Okay, guys, we're actually back in action and the mic works.

unknown 0:03

Hold on.

SPEAKER_00 0:04

The mic works great actually. And it's like really windy. So, like, for it to work the way it's working, I'm actually kinda happy. Okay. Um, I don't know where I want to go with this podcast, but I just know I kinda wanna do an introduction with just me. Um, I might have someone come on a little later on in the um podcast. But like, I don't know. I kinda wanna basically just talk about what's been going on, not like in my life personally, like too much has been going on, but a lot has been going on where it feels like maybe I need to talk about it, where it feels like maybe it's therapeutic to talk in a sense of like just saying it and feeling a relief in a way. But this

Returning After A Long Break

SPEAKER_00 0:49

is Prime Example Podcast, and I'm your host Leslie, and I am back like I never left, which I did leave for quite some time. It's been like I think two to three months since I've posted or made any videos, and I'm kinda upset because it's just feels like I've been so out-of-tuned of what I want to do and where I've been going. I'm back. Um, I have technical difficulties. Uh yeah, so I'm back. And actually, when I said three months, it's been more like seven. I don't know why I take these like breaks. Well, actually, I do know why I haven't moved. Um,

Homeowner And Five Months Pregnant

SPEAKER_00 1:23

a girl's a homeowner now. Um, and I just thought uh most people already know, but I'm having a baby. Um now I'm like five months, I believe. Uh, and I'm really excited. I think in the beginning it was hard because I was having like a lot of um not morning sickness, it was like night sickness, honestly. Like I would go to sleep feeling like I have to throw up. If I ate certain food, I feel like growing up and like all this extra stuff. It was not good. I feel like I couldn't work, uh, I felt drowsy, I wasn't tired as much, but I was at the same time, um, as of lately, it's been harder for me to get good rest. I just think with the overthinking and having to feel like there's so much pressure going on since this is my first kid, I feel like I have a lot to lose now. I feel like before I wasn't in the mindset of like, oh, I can't lose anything. Like, I honestly feel like if I die tomorrow, I'll be fine, like you know, but like now it's like no, I have someone like a little mini me coming into this world that I know I have to take care of and I have to eventually look after and make sure that they're in the right hands, and you know, I have to think about those things now. And it's just like before I didn't I like I did kind of think of those things because I do take care of like my brother and stuff, but like that's not the equivalent of like having a whole child, so um, you know, I'm blessed and I'm grateful to have um a baby that's coming, um, hopefully help like healthy and nothing's like wrong, you know, and that's some sort. But um, you know, I'm just learning how to adjust my life to what's coming, and I've been a lot of overall like all over the place, like in general. Um, I've been preparing for the baby shower and that's will be coming soon. Um, obviously you guys probably won't see it unless it's like on Facebook or something. Because I don't really post like too much about like my content of my tattoos and stuff, which um, you know, book because why you can because um soon enough I won't be tattooing for a little bit. I won't take that long of a break, but I'm gonna take a break. I'm also taking a break from work, which is probably hard for me because I've been working like all my life. Um, I've been working since I was like 14. Um

Working Young And Learning Hard Lessons

SPEAKER_00 3:45

I had my first job was like this factory kind of job, but it was like I was working under the table for like these Arabs. They were kind of racist, honestly. But I mean I was getting paid. I wasn't getting paid enough though, which I should I really like start a union or something around here and be like, hey, what uh rights to pay, but there was a lot of immigrants going out, so I was like, couldn't do that. But uh, I'm not an immigrant by the way. Wait, I don't know if I should say that. Um scratch that. Uh anyway, but yeah, I was working since I was 14. Um, I was working in this factory with some Arabs, and they were cool for the most part, but like I just knew them because of like family I lied. Like, I was saying I was like 16. I feel like they basically knew because I did not look 16, like at all. Um, I was literally starting high school. Um, yeah, and around that time, uh, when I was working, it was cool, but I didn't like it because I felt really nauseous every time I went. Like the product of the like the chips, it was like a chip factory, and the product of it made me like want to vomit every time I was there. And then the ladies, like the senoras there, they were so mean because they thought I didn't know Spanish, like which I am like a no Savo kid, but I know, and you'll see Savo, but like not really. And basically they were like talking like crap on the loafer, and I'm just like, damn, like and I'll look at them and they're like, oh, like they were confused because they're like, dang, she really does she really know Spanish or she don't? Like, I didn't say nothing because it's like bruh, like I'm young, but what I'm gonna say to these old ass people, like I feel low key disrespected and like mistreated, and like there's fucking bunch of racism going on, and I'm just like uh yeah, so I don't know, at a young age, I felt like there was a lot of mental stuff growing up, but I only worked there for like I think two years up until I was able to like turn 16, then I had two jobs after that. I was working at KFC, the zoo at the same time, clocked out at one job, went to the other one during the summer. Like, I was always about my money, and like yeah, and honestly, like to this day, I'm still working like two plus jobs, so it's like I still don't have time to stay still like as much as I want to, and like I love shooting like podcast videos because it's like something I really genuinely love to do.

Why Creating Still Matters To Me

SPEAKER_00 5:56

I love filming, I love talking, I love editing, I love the editing portion of it because it's like I get to make this content and bring it out to you guys and show you guys what I'm about, and you guys might not be able to see all of it or like see what's behind the whole like shebang of what's really going on. But I kind of want to start filming more. I'm gonna start filming better content. Um I feel like I'm speaking too fast or I can't like breathe. Like I'm pregnant and I'm fat. I'm not really fat, but you guys want to see the belly peep it, or people don't I mean peep, don't peep, I don't know. But um damn, it's kinda hot now. They're gonna get at me. This is my documentary of my last I don't know what's gonna say after that, but back to what I was saying, yeah. I don't know, just no adjustment of and then having to realize I'm not gonna have to work, I started saving not like crazy, but like crazy, and because like now I have a house, so I have to pay that, and like you know, stuff that comes with the house, and there's like a lot of remodeling that needs to be done. That's why another thing that's why I didn't um shoot my podcast because with the house, I was doing a lot of remodeling, which I still am, and like that's a big investment for me. And if anyone knows me, when I invest into something that I want to do, I invest my all and my time to it, and it took me a year to start the podcast, and I'm not even consistent as much as I want to be. And I hate that because I'm a very consistent person, but I need the time, and it hurts because it's like bruh, where could I find the time to do it? And today I felt like you know what, this is the time for me to actually put like my effort into filming this podcast and shooting it and like getting it out there. Um,

Body Changes And Support At Home

SPEAKER_00 7:46

and like I feel kind of like bummy right now because like I don't like none of my clothes fit. Uh, and that's like maybe that's like a whole thing about postpartum. I don't think I'm gonna have like a drastic postpartum, I probably will. And that's like something I'm having a little bit in between. Like I felt like I had some sort of bi dysmorphia, um, but like I didn't, but I did like with working out because I feel like with working out, I feel like when you're working out and you're in the gym, I feel like I don't see a change because I'm looking at myself in the mirror every day. But now that I'm like pregnant and like since I was remodeling stuff, there's not a lot of mirrors in the house, so it's like I'm not looking at myself consistently, but I know the change because none of my pants fit. I was like, I was just able to fit this two months ago. A girl isn't like so small no more. She a little bit, she a little thick, she a little dump in a trunk, you know, like she she's getting somewhere, but like I don't look too pregnant, but I'm getting up there, and it's like goes to show like uh this is so hard for me. But I know for the women out there, um, how do you do it? Uh advice in the bottom, comment, share, subscribe. Yeah. But uh it's like it'd be a struggle sometimes, um, having to think about that. But I'm glad like the partner I have, he's very supportive. Um he's not like disregarding as much as some people would assume people are. Um, I wouldn't want to say anything that I shouldn't because I don't know. Um, but like I don't know. I think having certain people around you and them not making making you feel any like less about you gaining weight or some sort of stuff helps a lot better too. And I feel like having just the support in general and knowing that like they recognize that your body's gonna change over time, that they shouldn't make you feel less of yourself or put you down because you're changing. Um, because like you're growing a whole nother human being, like that takes a lot of you, and like that takes a lot of energy and stuff like that. Like, it changes the person, and I feel like me being pregnant changes a lot. Uh, I

Quitting Smoking And Feeling Everything

SPEAKER_00 10:00

definitely stopped like you know, doing stuff I was doing before. If you guys know me, I used to like smoke and stuff, and I don't do that anymore. Um, but it was really never a necessity for me. It wasn't hard to stop either. Like, um, it wasn't a big thing for me. Like, smoking never been like uh it was always a luxury, not a necessity, not a want. It was more of like, well, it was more of a want than a need, if anything. I didn't need it. Um, most of the time I did want it to go to sleep better, felt like I was soothed a lot better. It was soothed my sleep. Um it calmed down a lot of my emotions. I feel like my emotions now that I'm pregnant are like everywhere. Um, I'm crying a lot more. I've never been this emotional before, which I hate because I am so emotional. Like, any little thing bugs me, I'm overthinker. When I was overthinker before, I used to just smoke and get it over with, and that's like probably like I wouldn't say the worst trait of mine, but it was a nonchalant trait I had because of smoking. I wasn't a nonchalant person, but I made myself nonchalant by smoking because it helped me light forget and could care less like about other people's feelings and disregard them and how they felt and made it all by myself and I was selfish, but now that I'm bringing a whole nother human being, I don't I can't be selfish, but with my food, that's different.

Food Boundaries And The Ice Cream Story

SPEAKER_00 11:18

Don't touch my food, don't touch it. Like when it comes to between me and my food, yeah, that's something else not to be played with. Don't like it's crazy. Even my man will tell me, like, you are stingy with your food, and it's like, look, with men, they like to when they you when you want to share a food and they be like they take a bite out of it, they're not taking a small bite. I'm like, hey, take a bite. I have ice cream. I'm gonna tell you in a second. It's just like taking a small bite out of it, they're gonna take a small bite, but it's like a big ice bite. And if you have this much, you're gonna take a big ice bite to make it this much. It's like I'm feeding two. Let me let me be send you my food while I can because then I'm gonna have to feed somebody else, and they're gonna be asking for my food, and I'm gonna be left with nothing. I just want to be selfish for a little bit. Like, let me be selfish. Like a girl just wanna be a girl without having to feed into feeling some type of judgment because I don't want to share my food. Like, you should have got some of yourself, sir. But yeah, I don't yeah, that was just a the other thing. It was like a couple days ago, it wasn't even a couple days ago. It was like a mango ice cream. I knew there was three left. I knew there was three left, right? I took one to the um to the room and I ate it. And he was like, Why are you he's like, Can I get a bite? And he's like, Is there more? I'm like, no, there isn't no more. There's two left now. He freaking was like, and I was like, damn, there's only two left, so I kind of want another one. I knew I was gonna want another one, so that's why I was like, no, there isn't no more. I went back and I shared a little bit of mine, and then I went back to get another ice cream and I was like, There's no more, but I'll share this one with you, and then I went back to get another one, and then I came back and I was like, Yeah, he's like, You said there wasn't no other one. I was like, Yeah, well, I lied because you're gonna eat it all. I basically, I mean, I shared that one with him too, so it's like sharing is caring, you know. I'm feeding two, you're feeding basically like five, but whatever, you know, no judgment here. It's just funny. But I don't know. Yeah, that whole pregnancy thing is just to take a toll on me. Just went on a little rampage about it, but I guess I'm joining the um not the baby mama team, but the mama team. I wouldn't I don't like the term baby mama and baby daddy, like I don't know. I'm just gonna say father of my child. Just me though. Just me. Who's to say? Who's to say? But yeah, I don't know. I think

Closing Thoughts And What Is Next

SPEAKER_00 13:47

that's gonna conclude this podcast. Oh well, I wouldn't say this is gonna conclude it because I wanna talk more. I think I'm gonna save it for another day. Um, but that's kind of the life update, honestly. Um it's just really just a life update of where I've been and I'm gonna start filming more and I wanna be more consistent in what I want to do. Um in hoping that people actually watch my stuff because I mean honestly, it's not for people to watch. It feels like it's more for me to know I'm doing something I want to do, you know? And I shouldn't want anyone else's uh validation or like judgment on what I want them to think. Like at the end of the day, it's my life, I'm gonna live it. So yeah. Um, but yeah, there's gonna be more videos soon. So just like share and comment. Um, I will be on Spotify if you guys are listeners. Hello and come back again. I hope you guys are listening to my splurges um every now and then. Uh that was just my little rundown of what's going on. Uh my actual next podcast is gonna actually be more segments. This was just about like a little update of what's been going on and why I'm coming back or how I'm coming back, and you know, hopefully come back in better. And it'll be a new scenery. I actually like this scenery by far, I think, out of all my podcasts. And I got this little new mic, it's cute. Um, it clips, but I kind of felt like it didn't work. I went in kind of close because it's kind of windy, it's actually a lot of windy. Um, so I didn't know if you guys can hear me, but um, yeah, that concludes my podcast, and then I was your host, Leslie. This is Prime Example Podcast, and um hope to see you guys again.

unknown 15:30

Bye.