Energy Crue
Welcome to 'Energy Crüe', the podcast that dives deep into the heart of industry innovation, entrepreneurship, and personal growth. I'm your host, JP Warren, and each episode, we embark on a journey to uncover the passions and motivations that fuel industry leaders. We're not just talking business here; we're exploring the personal drives, the triumphs, and the challenges that shape today's pioneers. Alongside these inspiring conversations, I'll be sharing my own story - the battles with imposter syndrome, the pivotal mindset shifts, and the lessons learned throughout my entrepreneurial voyage. As a certified coach, my goal is to empower you, our listeners, to break free from the barriers holding you back. Join me as we navigate both the professional and personal landscapes, learning and growing together with 'Energy Crüe'
Energy Crue
Rough Week: Check in with Yourself, and your Community
When the veneer of professional triumph belies a deeper, personal struggle, where does one turn? I'm JP Warren, and today I lay bare the complexities of entrepreneurship intertwined with mental health. My journey through detachment and dips in mood, despite the booming success of my ventures, uncovers a truth many of us shy away from. It's a candid look at the internal battles that often go unspoken, as I recount the influence of these challenges on family dynamics and the necessity of vulnerability. This episode serves as an outstretched hand to anyone navigating the same turbulent waters, as I stress the critical role of support and open conversation in weathering these storms.
Zevent, the, known the, and welcome to a new energy crew podcast. I'm your host, jp Warren. I want to thank everybody out there for tuning in. If this is your first time tuning in, I want to thank you.
Speaker 1:These podcasts are kind of a dive into what started off. I mean, if you go back throughout the catalog, it started off as kind of a podcast to bring leaders together, to bring characters together and kind of and learn about kind of what drives them, what motivates them and what keeps them going. However, recently we've kind of dived into a more of a, I guess a leadership, holistic leadership, conversations, whatever. What helps you internally, externally? Small tips, small mindset shifts that can really kind of help you navigate throughout your day. The stuff that I've tried and the reason why I'm doing this because I'm still in this process of kind of organizing our thoughts and that's. I think we're all in this process together. However, there are some things that I've struggled with, or my entrepreneurial career that I think you know through these podcasts and kind of shining light on it. The kind of stuff that I've struggled with, that I've kind of figured out a system that works. That's what we're here to do to share this with you and this is kind of a personal journey on kind of an experience that I have last week and it's one of those things where it's kind of still occurring today, as I record this on the Saturday.
Speaker 1:And again, you can find Energy Crew Podcast on YouTube. You want to go over there, subscribe? We see that there's 85% of the people that watch the videos don't subscribe. So if you're one of them, I know who you are hit it and then also you can find this on other channels. But this is kind of a personal one. They're all personal, but this is kind of more of a vulnerable one. And it's kind of an interesting one because I pride myself, my platform, on a healthy mindset, on just kind of, you know, focus on what you can control or linkers what you can't. Yeah, that's what I promote. That's kind of what I want to talk about. That's how I try to help people and that's the feedback that I'm getting from my conversations about just helping people.
Speaker 1:However, this subject is kind of one of those things where it's like it's completely opposite of what I'm preaching, the image that I'm putting out there and also, yeah, I guess, the brand I'm putting out there, because it does fall really behind the curtains. On a personal level, and it's kind of something I experienced last week in a pretty heavy manner. I don't know. You can call it a depression, a funk, a wave of something, whatever you want to call it. It was a pretty low point and I'm going to kind of. I just want to kind of share this with people out there, and this might be whether I'm thanking the people that were there for me, who I reached out to and talked to, or as people that might be kind of going through something similar in their personal life.
Speaker 1:It's a new year, you know, the news is out there. There's a lot of stuff that kind of can get in our heads externally and kind of bring the mood down, whether it's us doing mindless scrolling through things that kind of rob our focus and our energy, things that are designed and the algorithm is designed to kind of elicit a response. Whatever it is, it doesn't matter. You know, last week, sunday, I kind of started kind of having a feeling inside me and I can't describe it. It was kind of a wave. It was kind of like a tide coming in. I've never had this feeling before.
Speaker 1:It started slow. It was one of the things where I just couldn't get. I just started feeling a little bit detached. Okay, it was not that I couldn't get happy, I just started feeling detached. My thoughts kind of started getting heavy, like, just like the responsibility, the accountability. However, the realistic part of my brain was saying, hey, jp, it's time out. A second Like let's realize where we're at Crew Club, one of your companies, your operator, producer, network and events, you just introduced a new level to it and it's increased the demand. It's you're validating the value of your networks. So that's going great. Not only that, we're reaching capacity.
Speaker 1:So, on paper, one of my businesses which is bringing people together is it has a rocket launcher full of jet fuel on its ass. On the other another piece of paper in my life, it's tremendously successful. I just launched an exec crew, a mastermind. It's actually an. So it started off as just a network of people, but it's I've developed and put a lot of time, work and effort and tried into it. It's something I'm proud about and it's actually an executive development program. So on paper that's, we're full at capacity and I'm really seeing the community come together. I'm seeing the kind of I'm seeing everything work out better than expected. So on paper, both all businesses is surpasses my expectations of where I want to be. So maybe not financially, but hey, that's fine, that's why we're doing this, we'll eventually get there. But just kind of, the momentum is there, but again, on paper, externally, the optics it's all there. It's all there, it's all there.
Speaker 1:However, what was a real big disconnect was happening internally. Sunday I started feeling extremely disconnected. I started having a real kind of short fuse towards my family, towards my wife and my daughter, and it just it just sucks. I know what I was doing, I could identify it, but I always identified after I responded, after I acted, and then that compounded, I started feeling I started being hard on myself, started having more guilt to it. So, anyway, sunday it really kind of started, started kind of kicking on and I was just kind of one of those things.
Speaker 1:Well, maybe it's a long weekend, maybe it's this. You know I haven't been. You know it hasn't been dry January. You know my wife and I we haven't really been partaking in that much of a boost since last February actually. So it wasn't the chemicals from the boost. So I could, so I could cross that awful list. So I was thinking, okay, what's going on here. Okay, so something's going on, something's happening. Maybe it's just a good night's rest and we'll be gone tomorrow. That's what I was hoping, all right. So I apologize for taking me a little bit. I'm just kind of jotting down. I jotted down notes here that I kind of don't want to to miss during this conversation.
Speaker 1:Again, the goal is to share my experience and the hopes that it helped me one person out there, all right. So, oh, that's my. It's so amazing, I was on the actual wrong thing. So yeah, so again, everything on paper, everything externally, everything that I was communicating out, everything that should feel great, it was not happening, it was not clicking. Well, monday came around and just started kind of getting deeper and started kind of getting heavier and heavier, and this is something I've never really experienced. Whether it's depression, I've never really experienced this thing where I just can't shake this feeling of attachment, this feeling of doom and gloom, which is random because, if nothing and I knew this it's nothing but hopes, promises and potential that I was dealing with. However, internally, I could not get there, I could not break through a wall. So Monday was pretty tough and I just kind of sunk in deeper into it. I wasn't reaching out. I was kind of faking it until I make it Same thing Tuesday. However, tuesday it was really kind of started building. The storm started kind of building in my mind.
Speaker 1:I just when I was around people, I felt connected is the wrong word I felt engaged. When I was around people, I felt engaged, not really connected. We had a great exact food lunch. We really saw some great connections happen there and all stuff. However, when I got in my car, I just started getting in my head and that really kind of started taking the toll and going home, I had a podcast on kind of like the power of positive self-talk and framing things and just kind of like really kind of trying to separate yourself from your limiting beliefs, and I started kind of going through this process and after I talked to my wife and all that stuff kind of mentioned, kind of brought stuff, what I was going through, and she said the things that obviously I knew and she gave me some to do, like turn off the music and do yourself talk, do your affirmation.
Speaker 1:I started doing that. I couldn't get there. I was saying the obvious hey, jp, this is happening. That's great. You have a loving dog, you have a loving wife, you have great friends. This is really happening. You're living your dream, literally. I was saying it, but I wasn't feeling it, my voice wasn't matching how I felt and it was such a disconnect which honestly made me feel worse. So it kind of made me feel shittier and it was just a lot. Yeah, and that was Tuesday.
Speaker 1:So I just really started kind of saying, okay, well, something's going on here that I've never experienced and something's wrong. So I started thinking about it. I started kind of researching it and it turns out it's like, okay, well, what could cause this? Feelings of detachment, of fatigue, of depression, of what could it be? And this is just my experience. I'm not a trained professional at all. I'm a certified coach, but that's not a therapist, it's not anything like that. So it's one of those things. This is not. I'm just explaining what happened with me, so this is not advised. If you are going through some stuff, please seek help out and seek 100%. But again, this is what was going on with me. So I started researching it.
Speaker 1:So I started looking into like, what nutrients that I may have been missing. And there's B12, there's vitamin D, there's even natural getting outside against natural light, even if it was whatever. So I started kind of okay, well, I need to start get back on my multivitamins, take my B12, and get out there and start walking, all right. So number one, it was the power of kind of pausing and providing myself a little bit of grace and kind of stuff, reflecting, saying, okay, well, there might be some nutrients that are missing from me where it could fix it. It's not really my problem. So I started took some multivitamins, b12, some vitamin D, started getting outside, started moving around, started getting some sunlight. However, that was still not clearing my mind or kind of lifting my mood. I was still feeling pretty heavy and it's tough. You know it's tough. You have these.
Speaker 1:This is now we're on day two, day three, where it's just like you don't wanna move forward and like, as a business owner, it's tough. It's like, well, shit, everything's on your back. You have your family relying on you, your customers relying on you. You got your industry relying on you. Whatever, I mean, you can obviously scale it up. However, you're relying on yourself.
Speaker 1:So I had to rely on myself during this time and I still was not kind of feeling good. I was again lethargic. I could not get out of my mind. Thinking about it made me think about it more, which made me sink into it more. So, okay, so Wednesday again woke up, nothing was happening, still felt pretty damn low, still felt pretty unattached, not motivated. I knew what I had to do and I did it.
Speaker 1:When I would talk to people, I did feel engaged again, not connected, and it was kind of getting I felt a little bit better with the B12, but I was not there yet. And again, this is when it was kind of like I need to start reaching out, I need to start talking about this. There's something kind of like kind of pulling me just to reach out to people like and it wasn't people that have you know whether it wasn't for me, it wasn't people that have been through it or maybe they have, it was people that I just felt that I could just confide and just talk to. You know, that doesn't mean there it was my inner circle. There were people that I've met throughout my journey where I could just kind of pick up the phone and say I'm kind of going through this. I knew that they were listening, I knew that they cared and I wasn't looking for advice. I just kind of want to dump this on them.
Speaker 1:And you know that through kind of talking, I started doing walking and talking a little bit more, a little bit more. So a lot of, you know, wednesday and Thursday was doing a lot of walking talks and kind of talking to people and being very vulnerable. What I was going through kind of the isolation, the detachment, the inability to connect with my family, to connect with my friends, to really just like even like be uplifting. You know, again, everything on paper was great, it all looked great. It was just extremely difficult. So it was not just walking and was not just talking. I don't get me wrong, you know there's a lot to this process.
Speaker 1:So you know I was like, okay, well, I have to take, you know, start taking something you know myself a little more serious, my health a little bit more serious. So I knew something was out of whack. I could feel it. There was a disconnect in my body, whether it was the emotions, the feelings. So I decided to. You know I hate doctors. I have an irrational fear of doctors. It's not like I hate medicine, I just don't like going to the doctor. It's irrational. I know that. However, for the sake of my family, for the sake of me, I had to go get checked out.
Speaker 1:So I'm 43 years old, have never really been checked for testosterone, and you know, you go online, you start researching. You know why am I feeling low, why am I feeling so shitty, so detached, so depressed, if you will, and you know a lot of it, you know, if you're a man over X number of age could be, you know, a sign of testosterone depletion, low testosterone. I started looking into that and I started realizing, okay, well, this is. I mean, guys are talking about this, you see the sign and all that. You see the signs also, but it's always like, oh, for me it was always like, oh, well, that's not me, you know, whatever, you know I'll, you know, work out, you know I'm, you know tracking my wife and whatever all that stuff. It's not necessary.
Speaker 1:But I didn't realize that testosterone is connected to so much about as a man, or it's like it affects your mood, it affects your sleep, and I began up in the morning every a lot in the morning, around 3, 3, 3, and I thought it was just excitement. I thought it was my creative spirit waking me up. You know, I thought it was a lot of things. So pretty much I didn't realize how tied it was till I started researching what was going on and why it was potentially going on. So that day, you know, I made an appointment to get my blood checked, to get my testosterone checked. I made I ordered some, you know, multibind nutrition.
Speaker 1:I just wanted to figure out and start somewhere what was going on with me when it came down to kind of this dark week, you know, and it was something that like and maybe it was, it was it was put in my life to kind of show more empathy, to, like, you know, other people when they're feeling low, instead of, you know, being so quick to judge, saying, oh well, just put your mind right, you can do it. Like, you know, just have positive self-talk. Maybe it was kind of a you know a way for me to look in the mirror and say, hey, have a little, a little more patience, a little more empathy for people who may be experiencing, you know this, whether it's a depression, funk, detachment, whatever it is. So I'm fortunate that I went through you know that I went through that, going through that I still have another. So, anyway, got my blood work back.
Speaker 1:I went Monday, got my testosterone checked, I have low testosterone and I can say that in 2024, it's my podcast and I'm fine saying that I think there's a lot of guys and it's natural drops from your 27,. I'm 43, so whatever Age is not just a number, but no, it's like it's one of those things where it's like you know and it's like it's it's nervous to learn about. You know, it's also the reality of like you're kind of getting older, so that's it. But I think taking care of yourself and having the power to kind of move in if you just don't want to, and getting out of the house and trying to take care of yourself, even if it's small and you're not figuring it out, but having a process, having a progress of moving forward and take care of yourself, and I think there's a huge power in walking.
Speaker 1:I think there's a huge power in working out and getting those endorphins going. I think there's a huge power in sunlight, vitamin D. I think there's a huge power in getting the right nutrients in your body. And also one of the biggest powers is the power of connection and just communicating. So realizing that I had the sport to just call people and just kind of just like hey, like I'm going through this and, like you know, and then again that combats the everything on paper, things are going good and that comes. That's so against kind of like my whole personal brand of hey, talk yourself up and all that. So, being vulnerable to people, that is such a huge exposure and such huge potential to help, too, to surround yourself with a group of people that you can just kind of just talk to and they'll be there to support you. So I think there's a lot of power in that as well.
Speaker 1:And, um, you know, again, it's embarrassing talking about this. It's embarrassing talking about, you know, going through this. You know it's embarrassing talking about getting your testosterone checked and, you know, having low testosterone, like all this stuff's kind of embarrassing, but it's all stuff that we all go through. Yeah, we not, we may not all go through it, but there's an, even if you know there's again, even if one person goes through it, but there's, there's more than one person going through this and, um, there's a, there's a lot of people going through this. So again, um, I don't know kind of where to go with this. Okay, so I can keep everyone updated when I go back to the doctor Monday to, uh, back to the testosterone doctor and also I have other doctors appointments too. Just, it's like I want to take myself seriously and if it is nutrient, nutrients, or if it is this fits that, I'm going to get in there. I'm going to face my fear of taking care of myself, not just physically, uh, mentally, blood work, all that fun stuff. So, um, yeah, I mean it was one of those things. Just to kind of wrap it up Um, there was a lot of power, um, there's a lot of power, I guess, in, in, in feeling so low, I guess, uh, it it was.
Speaker 1:It sucks, you know, it really does. Um, however, if you can appreciate people around you, if you can appreciate the power of communication, reaching out and just just, even if you don't even know how to broach the subject, just talking about it, and I think it feels better. I think, whenever we go through difficult times, uh, we often feel alone. It's it's it's easy to feel that way, it's easy to feel isolated, but, uh, if you are out there, uh, going through that, you are a hundred percent not alone. Uh, you take it from someone who brands himself on being a optimistic don't can, don't worry about the stuff you can't control. Focus on what you can have positive self-talk. So it hits a lot of. It hits a lot of people, it hits everyone. It can hit anyone. So, um, take care of yourself, talk to people, move, um, be vulnerable.
Speaker 1:Uh, people who are people are going through this. It doesn't matter if you have lunch with someone you think that they had. They're the most optimistic, go forward, motivated person ever. They're probably facing something on uh internal level. So, uh, again, sorry for the uh, if this was a dooming, not a doom and gloom episode, but kind of not not the net, not the standard episode that you're used to, but again, I think it's important uh to talk about it. Uh, again, if you are kind of going through this and you do need some professional help, not that's not a problem, like a lot of people who get professional help, and I think people around you would thank you for that. So, thank you for tuning in to energy crew uh podcast. I appreciate you all. Again, try to spread some kindness, be kind to everyone, be kind to yourself especially, and we'll talk to you soon.