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Time Loops and Transformation: The Story of DeAnna Torres

• James LaPann • Season 4 • Episode 14

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We meet DeAnna Torres from California, who shares her journey from a traditional military family to a profound spiritual awakening.  Raised without strict religious boundaries, DeAanna's life took a pivotal turn when her mother joined a Hindu commune during her junior high years. 

Despite experiencing depression and a tumultuous marriage with an evangelical fundamentalist, DeAanna's latent psychic abilities began to resurface, accompanied by intense spiritual experiences and spontaneous past life recollections. 

A significant moment came when she felt an urgent message from her future self that sparked her quest for self-discovery and transformation.  DeAanna's story showcases the resilience of the human spirit and the profound impact of spiritual guidance across time. 

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Well, hi to Deanna Torres, from California. Welcome.

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

you, Jim. I'm glad to be here.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Oh, it's great to have you here. I've been really looking forward to meeting with you and talking with you. I was introduced to you by my buddy

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

Yeah.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Byers and she indicated that you were her mentor. And I'm like, well, if you can be her mentor to Beth Byer, then you've gotta be pretty far up there. So that's really exciting'cause I consider Beth as being a really incredible person and just very. Lucky to

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

Yes,

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

her. You live in California? Have you always been a California

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

I mean, since childhood, my parents were in the Air Force, so I mean, all the, both families are on the east coast. Dad from New York, mom from West Virginia sort of thing. And so when my dad was stationed out here in the late sixties then of course the whole family moved out here.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

I remember the late sixties.

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

barely do so.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

It was a very nice time,

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

peace, love, and all that. And yeah.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

So

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

you're a California girl.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Now let me ask you this, you are a very spiritual person now. This is your thing,

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

Hmm.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

you do. But was it like that in your military

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

Well, no, my dad came from a Catholic family and my mother came from a Protestant family and so they, when they married, they decided they were gonna let us kids figure it out for ourselves.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Oh, that's pretty liberal for a military

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

Yeah. So, well, he, yeah. So we weren't raised in the church at all in either church. We were free to go with our neighbor friends if we wanted to.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Okay.

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

So I would explore that, just because this is something my friends did, so. Okay. Yeah.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Did you draw any conclusions there in your high school

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

In my high school,

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

whatever

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

well,

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

religion?

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

interestingly, when I was in junior high, my parents divorced when I was young, so my brother and my younger brother and I lived with my mom. And when I was in junior high, my mom found a Hindu commune out here. Yes. And so we moved there for my junior high years.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

You

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

yes, we moved there.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

not like

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

No, we

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

there.

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

and then we moved. We, we lived there. Yes.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Oh

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

Through the years, in my junior high years.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Okay. Okay. when I 16 or so, I had met somebody on a vacation, on a family vacation that lived in the Boston area. Of course, it was a young lady. I was 16 or 17. So I was very geared up to go and visit this girl. And at that time people hitchhiked. My parents brought me down to Albany, which is then the, the straight shot over to Boston from there, Albany, New York, where I was living. And I was out there with a sign, Boston, and about 15 minutes later, this, this car pulled up. And wasn't it a Buddhist nun that was heading out to, out to Boston and she says, this is not an accident that this happened. This is meant to be, I was meant to pick you up and talk to you about this. And, it really changed a lot of things for me. I spent a lot of time looking at, Buddhist practices, not Hindu, but Buddhist and it really was, it's so interesting that that one. Pitch hacking incident had such a big

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

Right,

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

on me. So I can only imagine what it was like to be actually living there

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

right.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

of time amongst who I guess that's kind of a way of life.

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

Yeah. There was, meditation,, was expected, and we were schooled there.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Mm-hmm.

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

There was a built around a swami. And so, it was interesting because I was a precocious child where my mother said I was always a little adult.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Nothing

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

with that,

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

There's

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

but that allowed me to see beyond the glossy veneer to the kind of not so kosher things underneath, you know?

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

I think that's really something, because many of us in, in our junior high

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

Hmm.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

are basically whatever you're telling me I,

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

Hmm.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

it. But that

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

No. I mean, I would for a while, but I'm gonna test it. I'm gonna run up against it. I'm gonna, if it doesn't stand up to scrutiny, that then Okay. And that happened, I think in every religion I have experienced. If the teacher isn't standing in their well having accountability or,

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

yeah.

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

and that happens in every religion,

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

right. whenever there are people involved.

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

Yes. Every religion and no religion, it's, it's people. Exactly. And so I think, being able to see that early helped me not get stuck in one particular religion, but I kind of bounced around for a bit trying on different things But nothing ever really, really stuck

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

And you went on to high school, and I take it that you probably went to some higher

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

I did I, well actually I studied, got my teaching credential after my bachelor's. I got my teaching credential and I said, yeah.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Okay.

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

20 plus, you know, 20 years with teaching in and out of the classroom, homeschooling being a supervising teacher, overseeing students, you know, with math and English and all I spent a lot of years in education in various ways.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

And I know teachers, and I know. It's not always the

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

no.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

of

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

Yeah,

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

And and over 20 years, I would think that the students probably changed a little

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

they definitely did. They definitely did. And also my

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Mm-hmm.

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

tolerance for it. You get tired after a while, or at least I did. Right?

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

you were, 20 years on, so you're, probably in your forties or whatever, and my understanding is, is that you decided let me try something else. Is

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

That is accurate. Yes. So we skipped a large part of my life there where I had been married to a fundamentalist Christian and. Yeah,

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

okay. Okay. don't wanna skip. Okay. Well, and at the time we were dating, he made a point to tell me, look, I'm not as right wing as all those others. I'm more open and understanding. And as the marriage progressed, I got, I went more this way and he went more that way. And then we had three kids in a very short amount of time. I'm like three kids in three years. It was like, yeah. Oh boy. Is a big juggling act. That's a lot of socks. That's a lot

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

well, I had a friend.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

laundry. That's

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

A friend asked me once, what's the difference between having two kids and having three? And I said, laundry becomes a way of life.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

It's like, yeah. Hello. It's just another

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

Moral under it. Yes. And so in the last eight years of my 17 year marriage, I was severely depressed. Just severely depressed. I could barely function My kids are what kept me on this earth, Yeah. So. during that time, I'd been kind of a psychic kid and I shut it down because my dad would react in anger to things like that, and my mom would react in fear, and I was a little kid. Those are not the emotions you want aimed at you. you want us right?

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Let's stop there

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

Okay.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

second and, and tell me a little bit about that. Would you, because it, I've interviewed a lot of people that have had connection and

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

Mm-hmm.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

it down because of interpersonal relationships. And it sounds like you had that same thing. What, what kind of psychic things did you have what you had gifts obviously right from early age. When was your first

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

Well, the first time I realized was around three. Okay. And I just remember insisting to my dad, it's like we have to have candles at dinner. We have to, we have to have candles. And I was just starting to get worked up about it. We have to. And he's getting mad, you know, like, no, no, no. And mom's like, you know, it's okay. We don't need them. And, and I said, but what if there's a blockout? I mean, I'm practically crying at this point, right? And so they got me calmed down whenever we're eating dinner, no candles at the table. And in the middle of dinner there's a blackout, major blackout. It wasn't just our house, it was close to half the city or something. It was a big blackout.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

okay. Okay. And of course your parents said, oh, you were so right.

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

well, I know I said, I told you we should have had them. Yeah. Dad got mad. Mom got.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Yeah, that went over.

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

Yeah, like a lead balloon. So that's the first one I remember.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Oh

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

mother talks about me having this invisible friend as a child that We lived on, Air Force base housing, just a series of personnel that rotate through there, depending on where they're assigned. Right?

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Right, right

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

and so this one room that they turned into a playroom, apparently I had this invisible friend and I've talked to him and I think they found out that that had been the name of someone who'd used to live there, but he died. While serving, overseas or something.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Okay. Okay.

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

doing that, but my mom

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Okay.

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

tells me for sure that that happened.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Okay, so that really was a natural part of you then from very early on. You were born with it,

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

Well, I think children in general are far more open than we give them credit for, and

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Absolutely.

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

I'm not saying that, it's like, Ooh, I have this amazing gift. It's just at that point in time it was showing up and So yeah, there were other things throughout my childhood that I either knew ahead of time or recognized that things were happening, but the people around me always freaked out about it. So. As a child, you have to be. If you're not receiving that acceptance, that support, you're gonna shut it down.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Most everyone do that. And a lot of women that I've interviewed said they, wanted to have a boyfriend, they weren't gonna be talking about that stuff. And it didn't come back until their later twenties for a lot of people. And when was there a time when you started to feel comfortable with it coming back?

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

It did, yes and no. I would say, yeah, it started coming back right around age 30. But see, I was still married to the ex still in this evangelical, Pentecostal

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Okay.

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

So they would accept it if it was considered prophecy, right? If it was prophecy, it was okay. But then a lot of other things started happening. I mean. The part of the reason I was in such a great depression, or the end of my marriage there was that number one, I was seeing a lot of things, not just psychically, but you know, the veneer was wearing off and I was seeing the hypocrisy underneath. Right.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Yep.

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

but I'm in this very. Rigid kind of marital structure. The wife will submit to the husband who submits to the pastor, who submits to God. And there's no room

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Yeah.

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

for women. Right. And I wanted to start going to a different church. I mean, I had three young kids at this time. I was home all day. I was losing myself, and I wanted to go to a different church during the week, and my husband complained to the pastor. Our church and the pastor called, us in, and my best friend and her husband, decided that for the good of my soul, I needed to be shunned. By the church, my friends, yes. I needed to be taken to deliverance counseling. Now what that means is, you know, they thought I had a demon that needed to be driven out of me. And, oh yeah, and you think in this day and age, and I'm like, yes. In this day and age, so,

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Well, lemme just

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

okay.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

there. People all over the country and all over the world listen to

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

Hmm.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

and this account that you're giving us of what happened to you that happens all over the

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

It does. It really does.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

That women are, are told to the line

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

Mm-hmm.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

and if not,

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

Mm-hmm.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

be trouble. And you ran smack

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

I did,

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

it.

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

yes.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

it's horrifying to me. But I know, It's so real. And, wow. No wonder you were depressed. Wow.

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

Yes,

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

a lot going

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

there was a lot going on there. So that was in the late nineties. My brother died in 1999 he was three years younger than me and

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Okay.

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

he was gay and my ex could not accept that. I basically tried to tell me that I couldn't have contact with him. Right.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Oh

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

I mean, this is my brother, my kid brother. We were like twins except, we were three years apart. And

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Right?

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

and so when he died that was such a shocking thing. that was a huge part that catapulted me into that depression. And then there was no support, from my ex. So he just went straight to hell, you know. Good. You know, good riddance. The world is one fewer and Oh yeah. No support at all.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

The opposite of Christ's behavior. Chrysler,

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

But you know, I knew if I were to leave him, he would keep the kids and I would have nothing. I'd lose my home, my family, my children, my church, my support group. But as the time went on, I was losing them anyway,

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

wow. Wow. This happens all over

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

It does

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

world. So yeah, that's brutal. Brutal.

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

So then the psychic thing started coming back, like I said, around this time.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Okay.

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

And what the big catapult, the big shaking. Okay. There were several. That started happening. Little earthquakes in my life, I call them.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Okay. Okay.

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

So the first one is, you know, I was just standing at the kitchen sink one day and I just kind of zoned out. I don't know if you, when people are so depressed and I've dissociated basically for a moment, I wasn't there. Right. It was as if someone physically grabbed onto my shoulders and shook me. I mean, it was that I physically moved and I heard a voice saying, you have to wake up now and you have to deal with this, or you're gonna die. And I, my eyes were like,

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

wow.

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

just happened? Right?

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Not

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

No, no subtlety at all. And, which is wonderful. I've probably been avoiding all the subtle signs.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Wow. That is wild. You physically,

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

physically moved, I felt it move, and so I walked out of the kitchen onto the sliding door to the patio and we had a little table out there and there'd been a plant that was out there and it had been a very rainy. April, it was in April that year,

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Okay.

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

and the plant's roots had broken through this plastic pot, and we're halfway across the table trying to find more. I mean, it was, and I looked at it and I went, the pot's too small. I can't shove myself into this anymore. This container is too small for me. Right. It was just this,

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

right. You just. Opened up

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

Yeah.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

it,

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

Yeah.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

how wonderful I, sorry that it took all that to get there,

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

Well I was still in it.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

helped you, helped guides,

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

Oh, I know what happened. And I'll tell you that it's called a time loop, but we'll get to that.'cause we have to go forward first. So a few weeks later, I wake up and I hear my ex is furiously pacing, praying in the living room, and so I get up, it's like 6:00 AM and I'm like, what's going on? And he says, I saw a demon in our room. And I'm like, what do you mean? And he's, I had bought a wind chime from. A metaphysical store and I didn't have a place to put it, so I just hung in my room. I mean, it's a little wind chime. Okay, well he says

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Pretty

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

it's a benign thing. He says, I saw this demon went in her room and it was under that thing that you bought from that store. And I'm like, okay, so what did it look like? And he says, it was an old woman. And I, I said, well and I started feeling this boldness. Just to keep talking, which was odd for me at the time. And I said, well, in some cultures, old women are considered, wisdom. they've experienced things. They're, they're wise teachers. And he got even more mad. And he's like, I know what I saw. And he looked at me and he gets this look, and I could see him deciding something and he says, I'm going to go gather the men to pray. And he walked out the door. Yes. Right. Well, I didn't feel my body collapse, but in the next moment I was in the body of another woman back in like the 15 hundreds watching her husband storm out the door saying, I'm gonna go get the priest to pray. Oh, and I I could look down, I could see, I'm wearing this brick red skirt. I could see the cottage all around me. I could feel her.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

and it's, it's you, right?

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

I'm there. It's happening. I could feel her terror because her terror was my terror. And she collapsed down to the floor and I, I heard us both go, like this kind of sobbing sound. And then I was back in my own body and I'm curled in the corner of the living room going, what? Just

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Huh? What

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

What be and what I think happened. Have you heard of like string theory where you've got two different realities? The timelines happening and because in that moment our trauma was so similar, it like briefly crossed and.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Yeah.

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

I didn't even believe in past lives. I didn't even, and,

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Right.

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

And that happened and I knew, I knew that was me or past

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

I mean, it's one thing if you say, I'm going to go to a past life Regressionist so that I can seek out

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

right

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

lives, but you didn't do that. You hadn't, you didn't even

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

at that time. Yep.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

all of a sudden you had a spontaneous past life

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

Yes, yes.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Well,

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

That was the major

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

wonderful,

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

earthquake.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

a wonderful thing that

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

It was wonderful. Absolutely. And it was one of those, like when you met the Buddhist nun, that signpost was preordained in your lifetime.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

yes,

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

This major earthquake shook the foundation and I,

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

that is an earth. That's an

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

yeah.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Big

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

And I knew it needed to be. Because what I was allowing myself to continue in was killing me slowly, emotionally, mentally, spiritually. And that began my quest. what the bleep happened and why. Yeah. Yeah. No, I, I do that. It's, I, I, I enjoy it and I love the look on people's faces when I um,

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

and he's off gathering the men, and you're like, oh, wow. And you had already

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

The first one.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

the,

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

Mm-hmm.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

shaking one, and then you

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

Yes.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

happen and, what did you do?

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

Well, I looked on it as like a spiritual pregnancy, like that there was something deep in me that was growing

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

that's a wonderful analogy, and it's a wonderful way to look at that. That's really wise, ability to do that, to look at it like that

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

right.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

self. It's one thing to look at it for someone else, but for

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

Yeah.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

That's

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

Well, and I mean, I had three kids, and I know how long it takes to show, you don't even look pregnant for almost half of it. And I knew that I needed to keep this a secret. No one could know. No one near me could know.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

yeah

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

while I looked at how do I get out of this marriage? What do I do to protect myself and my children and my livelihood? How do I, you know, not only what happened and why, but how do I shift out of this situation? I found myself in that I just can't stay in any longer, and I knew eventually it would show people around me would start noticing because you can't hide. You were changed. Yes, you're supposed to, you know.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Yeah. You're blossoming

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

right.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

I.

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

There's an an old comic. It's a one panel comic that, the butterfly and the caterpillar are having coffee. And the caterpillar says, well, you've changed. And the butterfly says, yeah, you're supposed to literally,

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

that's funny. That's funny. And that's, that was you, that was you getting

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

Getting ready to change. So that was my time of unmaking and remaking. That came later, but that's where that started. Yeah.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

wow. I thank you so much for sharing that with us, because

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

Okay.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

It's an amazing occurrence you can't make

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

No,

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

up,

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

absolutely not.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

A little bit earlier you had mentioned that when you were shaken that

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

Mm-hmm.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

loop. could you explain a little bit more

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

Yeah. Yeah. So. We like to think that time is linear, that it just flows in one direction only. But that's only true for this physical level of reality. So when you start experiencing the energetic level of reality, time is all at once, right? There's many cycles and seasons. So when I went for, if you skip a couple of years here in my life, you know, I'm out of that marriage. I am. In a new, happy, healthy, solid relationship. I am, yeah,

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

wonderful.

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

that's continuing to this day. Yay. And I was meditating one morning, just,, in that zone and all of a sudden I felt kind of down to my right side, like a tunnel, like a little wormhole through time opening up. And I felt this just wave of what I call lion energy, just this boldness. And I'm speaking into, I know somebody on the other side of this little wormhole here needs to hear this. And I said, you have to wake up now. You have to deal with this or you're gonna die. And then the wormhole closed and I went, that was me, that voice that I heard that day at the sink.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Oh

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

That was my future self speaking to me.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Oh my goodness. Now, how, let me ask this,'cause you are

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

Mm-hmm.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

you're not thinking about

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

Nope, Nope.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

years. This message that came out did it kind of come to

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

It flowed through.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

in a, like a people

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

Yes.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

or something, did it come to you and then you

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

I just knew that I needed to say something. Someone on the other end of this needed this bold energy and I just opened my mouth and that's what came out. And it wasn't until it closed and then I went, well, that was weird. And it was Oh. Oh yes.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Well, I think that is so fascinating and so wonderful that you were able to help

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

Yeah.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

earlier in this

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

Yeah.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

lifetime.

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

I've had several time loops like that in this life. Yeah, I don't, and I've had several to past lives where my past self saw this being of light, this angel, this goddess. But it was really me coming back to help them

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Oh

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

in my energy body, it's, you know, this being of light. Yeah.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Yes,

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

makes me kind of wonder. When we see angels or light beings, are we really seeing our future selves coming to help us?

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Oh, that is, that is a can of worms as they say. And I love that I'm just starting to work with some quantum, people talking about just being able to shift backwards, forwards. Kind of, in what we perceive as time and to affect in a positive way, hopefully our, other lifetimes and maybe even existences that other realms or, or whatever. And so it is the fact that you would come today and talk about this that just

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

Yeah,

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

of you. To help. You didn't even

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

I did not. Mm-hmm.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

You just knew something in this universe needs

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

Someone on the other end needs to hear this right now. Yeah. Yeah. Wormholes through space and time and, and yeah. You can do that for your younger self in this lifetime too.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Wow. And you just let

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

I did.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Well, let's, let's just, let's just finish up

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

Alright.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

on that note. That's a wonderful, wonderful thing to, for you to share with us. And then let's come back and, and talk a little bit more, if

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

That sounds great, Jim.

james_1_05-01-2025_130747:

Alright. Thank you.

deanna--she-her-_1_05-01-2025_100749:

Bye.