{"version":"1.0.0","segments":[{"startTime":8.717,"endTime":10.01,"body":"Hi. Hi."},{"startTime":10.01,"endTime":12.262,"body":"Welcome to what we thought."},{"startTime":10.01,"endTime":12.262,"body":"What happened? I'm."},{"startTime":12.262,"endTime":13.471,"body":"I'm Laura Kightlinger."},{"startTime":13.471,"endTime":17.892,"body":"We are so excited"},{"startTime":13.471,"endTime":17.892,"body":"and thrilled to have a mega superstar."},{"startTime":17.892,"endTime":20.979,"body":"Hilarious comedian,"},{"startTime":17.892,"endTime":20.979,"body":"a great writer and legend."},{"startTime":20.979,"endTime":23.773,"body":"And please welcome Julius Woo."},{"startTime":23.773,"endTime":27.402,"body":"We've already been having, like, pastry"},{"startTime":23.773,"endTime":27.402,"body":"nosh talk."},{"startTime":27.527,"endTime":28.319,"body":"Mm hmm."},{"startTime":28.319,"endTime":31.906,"body":"It started with Laura asking, Julia,"},{"startTime":28.319,"endTime":31.906,"body":"what's your sign?"},{"startTime":31.906,"endTime":33.033,"body":"And it devolves."},{"startTime":33.033,"endTime":36.036,"body":"Well, I know that that was my stupidity."},{"startTime":36.119,"endTime":38.413,"body":"My sign and stop. 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My age."},{"startTime":224.015,"endTime":224.349,"body":"Yeah."},{"startTime":224.349,"endTime":224.849,"body":"Uh huh."},{"startTime":224.849,"endTime":226.351,"body":"Uh huh, yeah."},{"startTime":226.351,"endTime":227.977,"body":"What were you doing in Ireland then?"},{"startTime":227.977,"endTime":229.896,"body":"I was after I graduated from college."},{"startTime":229.896,"endTime":234.275,"body":"I spent four months just going around"},{"startTime":229.896,"endTime":234.275,"body":"Europe with my brother backpacking around."},{"startTime":234.317,"endTime":236.277,"body":"Mm. Amazing."},{"startTime":236.277,"endTime":237.737,"body":"Because that's where Laura was the most."},{"startTime":237.737,"endTime":239.739,"body":"I know. I keep blabbing about it."},{"startTime":239.739,"endTime":241.908,"body":"Well, and enhanced take taken with them."},{"startTime":239.739,"endTime":241.908,"body":"Everything else."},{"startTime":241.908,"endTime":244.118,"body":"I would buy my affection."},{"startTime":244.118,"endTime":247.205,"body":"I know, I know. I. I've just."},{"startTime":247.205,"endTime":251.918,"body":"I've already proposed because I think it's"},{"startTime":247.205,"endTime":251.918,"body":"the only way I'm going to get there."},{"startTime":252.001,"endTime":255.338,"body":"And Julie, you're in the process"},{"startTime":252.001,"endTime":255.338,"body":"of becoming an Irish citizen, right?"},{"startTime":255.546,"endTime":256.172,"body":"So what's that?"},{"startTime":256.172,"endTime":258.716,"body":"I mean, what do you have to do exactly?"},{"startTime":258.716,"endTime":261.177,"body":"1200 dollars."},{"startTime":258.716,"endTime":261.177,"body":"Okay. You have to hire a lawyer."},{"startTime":261.177,"endTime":263.513,"body":"Mm hmm. I brought my lawyer."},{"startTime":263.513,"endTime":266.557,"body":"You have to gather a lot of documents"},{"startTime":263.513,"endTime":266.557,"body":"to prove,"},{"startTime":266.683,"endTime":268.851,"body":"Like I had to get my grandfather's"},{"startTime":266.683,"endTime":268.851,"body":"birth certificate."},{"startTime":268.851,"endTime":269.602,"body":"My grandfather's?"},{"startTime":269.602,"endTime":272.272,"body":"Actually, that's what's holding it up,"},{"startTime":269.602,"endTime":272.272,"body":"because my grandfather."},{"startTime":272.272,"endTime":275.358,"body":"Won't tell the. Irish."},{"startTime":275.441,"endTime":276.526,"body":"Oh, you tagalong."},{"startTime":276.526,"endTime":279.195,"body":"When he. Died the year I was born, 19. 59."},{"startTime":279.195,"endTime":281.364,"body":"And he was a construction worker."},{"startTime":281.364,"endTime":285.159,"body":"But he was in Ecuador when he was killed"},{"startTime":281.364,"endTime":285.159,"body":"in a construction accident."},{"startTime":285.201,"endTime":285.952,"body":"Oh, God."},{"startTime":285.952,"endTime":289.414,"body":"The death certificate from Ecuador"},{"startTime":285.952,"endTime":289.414,"body":"is difficult, but I did get a State"},{"startTime":289.414,"endTime":292.917,"body":"Department announcement"},{"startTime":289.414,"endTime":292.917,"body":"that he had died from 1959."},{"startTime":292.917,"endTime":294.252,"body":"But they're saying that's not good enough."},{"startTime":294.252,"endTime":297.171,"body":"I need to get actually"},{"startTime":294.252,"endTime":297.171,"body":"an Ecuadorian death certificate."},{"startTime":297.171,"endTime":299.465,"body":"And my dad was born in 1878."},{"startTime":299.465,"endTime":302.385,"body":"Like,"},{"startTime":299.465,"endTime":302.385,"body":"can't we just assume he's dead? 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Because"},{"startTime":335.376,"endTime":338.004,"body":"once you do get Irish citizenship,"},{"startTime":338.004,"endTime":340.882,"body":"then you have EU citizenship,"},{"startTime":338.004,"endTime":340.882,"body":"which is very valuable."},{"startTime":340.882,"endTime":341.591,"body":"Right?"},{"startTime":341.591,"endTime":343.176,"body":"Damn, you still can do it."},{"startTime":343.176,"endTime":345.011,"body":"I mean, if you go on the Irish website"},{"startTime":345.011,"endTime":346.22,"body":"that'll tell you everything"},{"startTime":345.011,"endTime":346.22,"body":"you have to do."},{"startTime":346.22,"endTime":348.931,"body":"But it's taken me like three"},{"startTime":346.22,"endTime":348.931,"body":"or four years. 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Oh, jeez."},{"startTime":384.634,"endTime":387.261,"body":"You going to Ecuador right after,"},{"startTime":384.634,"endTime":387.261,"body":"like rifling through old papers?"},{"startTime":387.261,"endTime":391.766,"body":"Well, the actually, the lawyers, this is"},{"startTime":387.261,"endTime":391.766,"body":"like three weeks ago saying to work on it."},{"startTime":391.849,"endTime":394.56,"body":"I would very bad"},{"startTime":391.849,"endTime":394.56,"body":"sent me the place that I need"},{"startTime":394.56,"endTime":397.271,"body":"to contact to get the Ecuadorian"},{"startTime":394.56,"endTime":397.271,"body":"but I just have to do it."},{"startTime":397.271,"endTime":399.524,"body":"Yeah. 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Yeah."},{"startTime":1848.346,"endTime":1849.931,"body":"But here's the crazy thing."},{"startTime":1849.931,"endTime":1851.724,"body":"She didn't get anything right."},{"startTime":1851.724,"endTime":1853.142,"body":"Not one fucking thing."},{"startTime":1853.142,"endTime":1856.646,"body":"And I guess that she was a Leo."},{"startTime":1856.729,"endTime":1858.606,"body":"You got her first, man?"},{"startTime":1858.606,"endTime":1859.899,"body":"Yeah, yeah, yeah."},{"startTime":1859.899,"endTime":1860.984,"body":"She should have paid me."},{"startTime":1860.984,"endTime":1862.944,"body":"He had gone to her and he felt like she."},{"startTime":1862.944,"endTime":1864.571,"body":"Oh, yeah, Yeah."},{"startTime":1864.571,"endTime":1865.738,"body":"He's the bad."},{"startTime":1865.738,"endTime":1870.702,"body":"Thing about such a as a known"},{"startTime":1865.738,"endTime":1870.702,"body":"skeptic is no one tells me things anymore."},{"startTime":1870.785,"endTime":1872.662,"body":"Like that. You're telling me. Yeah. Don't."},{"startTime":1872.662,"endTime":1874.122,"body":"Don't go to shock."},{"startTime":1874.122,"endTime":1875.832,"body":"Psychic energy that it was Michaels."},{"startTime":1875.832,"endTime":1878.126,"body":"Because it just seemed like a showrunner."},{"startTime":1878.126,"endTime":1880.962,"body":"We both know. Uh huh. Oh."},{"startTime":1880.962,"endTime":1885.3,"body":"It's like the psychic guy just."},{"startTime":1885.383,"endTime":1888.428,"body":"You would be this goddess, Julia."},{"startTime":1888.469,"endTime":1891.973,"body":"Oh, do we both know who you would be?"},{"startTime":1892.056,"endTime":1893.933,"body":"Hi, Julia. You're."},{"startTime":1893.933,"endTime":1895.852,"body":"You're an amazing psychic to that."},{"startTime":1895.852,"endTime":1897.395,"body":"You could be."},{"startTime":1897.395,"endTime":1899.397,"body":"You know, you and Bret Butler could."},{"startTime":1899.397,"endTime":1900.44,"body":"Be way too."},{"startTime":1900.44,"endTime":1905.111,"body":"But like, a factor to that is"},{"startTime":1905.194,"endTime":1910.658,"body":"psychic."},{"startTime":1910.742,"endTime":1913.494,"body":"you know, mindfulness"},{"startTime":1910.742,"endTime":1913.494,"body":"as a as a meditation."},{"startTime":1913.494,"endTime":1918.374,"body":"I do what I do on waking up meditation,"},{"startTime":1913.494,"endTime":1918.374,"body":"but not every morning like that."},{"startTime":1918.374,"endTime":1919.584,"body":"Morning. What is that?"},{"startTime":1919.584,"endTime":1922.921,"body":"You know, Sam Harris,"},{"startTime":1919.584,"endTime":1922.921,"body":"He has an app called Waking Up. Mm."},{"startTime":1923.004,"endTime":1923.546,"body":"It's great."},{"startTime":1923.546,"endTime":1926.132,"body":"He does a ten minute minute."},{"startTime":1923.546,"endTime":1926.132,"body":"It is very science based."},{"startTime":1926.132,"endTime":1929.135,"body":"It's not Well this is what happens to me"},{"startTime":1926.132,"endTime":1929.135,"body":"and a lot of meditation"},{"startTime":1929.135,"endTime":1934.14,"body":"breathe in"},{"startTime":1929.135,"endTime":1934.14,"body":"breath is the basis of all life."},{"startTime":1934.223,"endTime":1935.642,"body":"That is 100% not true."},{"startTime":1935.642,"endTime":1936.476,"body":"Yeah."},{"startTime":1936.476,"endTime":1939.479,"body":"There are animals that don't breathe."},{"startTime":1936.476,"endTime":1939.479,"body":"Yeah."},{"startTime":1939.687,"endTime":1941.898,"body":"Passive is created by."},{"startTime":1941.898,"endTime":1944.734,"body":"The synthesis of different things."},{"startTime":1941.898,"endTime":1944.734,"body":"Yeah, it's not true."},{"startTime":1944.734,"endTime":1946.819,"body":"Yeah, it's like they're not meditating."},{"startTime":1946.819,"endTime":1948.738,"body":"Oh, my God. Then I have to go."},{"startTime":1948.738,"endTime":1950.198,"body":"But the point is."},{"startTime":1950.198,"endTime":1952.283,"body":"Calming yourself with the breath. Yeah."},{"startTime":1952.283,"endTime":1955.328,"body":"So I need to have somebody"},{"startTime":1952.283,"endTime":1955.328,"body":"who really isn't going to do that."},{"startTime":1955.328,"endTime":1956.996,"body":"So Sam Harris really doesn't do that."},{"startTime":1956.996,"endTime":1961.25,"body":"Oh, so you can't read Allure magazine"},{"startTime":1956.996,"endTime":1961.25,"body":"because they say, What are the things"},{"startTime":1961.25,"endTime":1962.752,"body":"you can't live without?"},{"startTime":1962.752,"endTime":1964.504,"body":"Oh, this. Lipstick."},{"startTime":1964.504,"endTime":1966.297,"body":"My eye."},{"startTime":1966.297,"endTime":1969.3,"body":"I know I ten things."},{"startTime":1969.509,"endTime":1971.427,"body":"I know,"},{"startTime":1969.509,"endTime":1971.427,"body":"but I always think that's so crazy."},{"startTime":1971.427,"endTime":1974.18,"body":"I can't live without food, actually."},{"startTime":1971.427,"endTime":1974.18,"body":"How about you?"},{"startTime":1974.18,"endTime":1976.683,"body":"Yeah, there is, like, a lip gloss, though."},{"startTime":1976.683,"endTime":1979.227,"body":"Yeah, everyone needs a lip thing, right?"},{"startTime":1976.683,"endTime":1979.227,"body":"Yeah."},{"startTime":1979.227,"endTime":1980.603,"body":"Yeah. A good moisturizer."},{"startTime":1980.603,"endTime":1984.232,"body":"So a question is Mac,"},{"startTime":1980.603,"endTime":1984.232,"body":"twig, twig is my color."},{"startTime":1984.232,"endTime":1986.275,"body":"Really? And I can't live without it."},{"startTime":1986.275,"endTime":1988.444,"body":"It's the little green, the little squeeze."},{"startTime":1988.444,"endTime":1989.696,"body":"No, no, it's just a little black."},{"startTime":1989.696,"endTime":1992.073,"body":"It looks like a Kotex thing."},{"startTime":1992.073,"endTime":1993.866,"body":"Like it's like a little man bullet."},{"startTime":1993.866,"endTime":1998.329,"body":"When I first moved to L.A., there was this"},{"startTime":1993.866,"endTime":1998.329,"body":"weed lip balm like CBD thing."},{"startTime":1998.329,"endTime":2000.164,"body":"Right on your lips? Yes."},{"startTime":2000.164,"endTime":2002.458,"body":"And it would"},{"startTime":2000.164,"endTime":2002.458,"body":"your lips would get, like, bigger."},{"startTime":2002.458,"endTime":2003.501,"body":"Hmm. Or whatever."},{"startTime":2003.501,"endTime":2003.918,"body":"I don't know."},{"startTime":2003.918,"endTime":2006.796,"body":"But it was like they were like peppermint"},{"startTime":2003.918,"endTime":2006.796,"body":"and it was the biggest lip boost."},{"startTime":2006.796,"endTime":2007.672,"body":"It was so good."},{"startTime":2007.672,"endTime":2010.216,"body":"And then they went out of business"},{"startTime":2007.672,"endTime":2010.216,"body":"or illegal the whole time."},{"startTime":2010.216,"endTime":2012.176,"body":"But now I can't find it."},{"startTime":2012.176,"endTime":2013.302,"body":"I've tried all the other."},{"startTime":2013.302,"endTime":2014.929,"body":"But what about online?"},{"startTime":2014.929,"endTime":2018.599,"body":"There not seems like it would really go"},{"startTime":2014.929,"endTime":2018.599,"body":"in your system fast from your lips."},{"startTime":2018.683,"endTime":2021.978,"body":"I was like, I have an entire"},{"startTime":2018.683,"endTime":2021.978,"body":"like an intolerance level."},{"startTime":2022.103,"endTime":2025.064,"body":"But you know, you call a business"},{"startTime":2022.103,"endTime":2025.064,"body":"and it's clearly someone's phone."},{"startTime":2025.064,"endTime":2027.942,"body":"Oh, it was that vibe. Yeah."},{"startTime":2027.942,"endTime":2028.943,"body":"there was someone who called me,"},{"startTime":2028.943,"endTime":2032.488,"body":"I guess it was an assistant because"},{"startTime":2028.943,"endTime":2032.488,"body":"I was just trying to get into the anti."},{"startTime":2032.488,"endTime":2034.115,"body":"But everybody's,"},{"startTime":2032.488,"endTime":2034.115,"body":"you know, working at home."},{"startTime":2034.115,"endTime":2035.867,"body":"And this woman sounded very professional."},{"startTime":2035.867,"endTime":2038.911,"body":"And then I heard a baby"},{"startTime":2035.867,"endTime":2038.911,"body":"wailing in the background."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2038.911,"endTime":2044.083,"body":"00 up."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2044.167,"endTime":2044.375,"body":"Yeah."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2044.375,"endTime":2044.709,"body":"Yeah."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2044.709,"endTime":2049.589,"body":"Not to always bring it back to this,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2044.709,"endTime":2049.589,"body":"but this thing's like it could"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2049.672,"endTime":2053.301,"body":"You could hear her dog"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2049.672,"endTime":2053.301,"body":"and kid in the back."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2053.301,"endTime":2053.676,"body":"Yeah."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2053.676,"endTime":2056.345,"body":"Like they clearly. Live"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2053.676,"endTime":2056.345,"body":"Well that's kind of part of the tradition."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2056.345,"endTime":2058.431,"body":"It's like it's right in front."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2058.431,"endTime":2061.225,"body":"Yeah, I live in the back. Yeah,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2058.431,"endTime":2061.225,"body":"Because I started in Pandemic."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2061.225,"endTime":2062.101,"body":"I started going around L.A."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2062.101,"endTime":2064.228,"body":"and taking pictures of all the second"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2062.101,"endTime":2064.228,"body":"neon."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2064.228,"endTime":2065.855,"body":"Oh, wow."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2065.855,"endTime":2067.315,"body":"Oh, yeah. It's very. Cool."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2067.315,"endTime":2072.236,"body":"You hear the late night sounds with,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2067.315,"endTime":2072.236,"body":"like, the door open, Home sounds."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2072.236,"endTime":2073.112,"body":"Right. You know what I mean?"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2073.112,"endTime":2076.115,"body":"Like a TV or like,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2073.112,"endTime":2076.115,"body":"I get back here, that kind of stuff."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2076.115,"endTime":2078.076,"body":"you know, the Greystone mansion here."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2078.076,"endTime":2079.035,"body":"Oh, yeah."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2079.035,"endTime":2082.121,"body":"I like to go on tour,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2079.035,"endTime":2082.121,"body":"and I go to a very proud L.A."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2082.121,"endTime":2082.955,"body":"Angelino."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2082.955,"endTime":2085.958,"body":"and they had a ghost"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2082.955,"endTime":2085.958,"body":"tour of grace and magic."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2085.958,"endTime":2087.794,"body":"This is how secular I am."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2087.794,"endTime":2090.88,"body":"It never occurred to me that somebody"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2087.794,"endTime":2090.88,"body":"would seriously talking about ghost."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2091.005,"endTime":2092.799,"body":"I thought it meant the history."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2092.799,"endTime":2095.051,"body":"Yeah. Oh, no."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2095.051,"endTime":2095.384,"body":"So then I."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2095.384,"endTime":2098.221,"body":"Get there, and the first thing"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2095.384,"endTime":2098.221,"body":"the guy says and I bring my husband,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2098.221,"endTime":2101.39,"body":"Michael, who's, might,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2098.221,"endTime":2101.39,"body":"he is beyond skeptical."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2101.474,"endTime":2102.433,"body":"And and the"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2102.433,"endTime":2106.145,"body":"guy goes, My first question is,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2102.433,"endTime":2106.145,"body":"how many people here have the site?"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2106.229,"endTime":2111.4,"body":"I fantastic looking at me like, oh."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2111.4,"endTime":2112.36,"body":"Have you brought me?"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2112.36,"endTime":2115.78,"body":"I like almost everyone's"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2112.36,"endTime":2115.78,"body":"hands go up and I'm just."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2115.78,"endTime":2118.783,"body":"Like, I think this goes."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2118.908,"endTime":2122.87,"body":"And it's like, yeah,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2118.908,"endTime":2122.87,"body":"this tour name is the Ghost of Greystone."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2122.87,"endTime":2124.122,"body":"Mansion. I go."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2124.122,"endTime":2127.792,"body":"I thought you meant just like the ghost,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2124.122,"endTime":2127.792,"body":"like what's happened here?"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2127.792,"endTime":2130.294,"body":"Yeah. Uh."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2130.294,"endTime":2132.004,"body":"One has got to know about what's."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2132.004,"endTime":2133.089,"body":"Happening, right?"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2133.089,"endTime":2134.841,"body":"Like, just stories that go on."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2134.841,"endTime":2136.676,"body":"Yeah, we're on Ghost."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2136.676,"endTime":2138.427,"body":"And then we did the whole tour."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2138.427,"endTime":2139.929,"body":"It was like a three hour tour."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2139.929,"endTime":2142.306,"body":"Grace And imagine every story."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2142.306,"endTime":2146.811,"body":"Michael's favorite line from"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2142.306,"endTime":2146.811,"body":"the whole thing was this is not hearsay."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2146.894,"endTime":2148.771,"body":"I heard it firsthand."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2148.771,"endTime":2152.066,"body":"Oh, nice. I heard that."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2152.316,"endTime":2153.151,"body":"Yeah, just."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2153.151,"endTime":2154.026,"body":"It's still. Hearsay."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2154.026,"endTime":2156.362,"body":"Yeah. 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Upstate New York."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2177.049,"endTime":2179.468,"body":"Yeah, it's between Jamestown and Buffalo."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2179.468,"endTime":2181.846,"body":"but anyway it does have a feeling"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2179.468,"endTime":2181.846,"body":"I have sex."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2181.846,"endTime":2185.224,"body":"I've been went there with my mother"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2181.846,"endTime":2185.224,"body":"and there's a gate"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2185.224,"endTime":2189.562,"body":"and then there's this big pond"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2185.224,"endTime":2189.562,"body":"and it's like a black mirror,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2189.562,"endTime":2192.565,"body":"this pond, it's"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2189.562,"endTime":2192.565,"body":"huge and everything's very still."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2192.732,"endTime":2197.82,"body":"And then you go in and you hope that"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2192.732,"endTime":2197.82,"body":"you get a decent psychic people with you."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2197.82,"endTime":2198.863,"body":"Somebody when you."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2198.863,"endTime":2202.325,"body":"Know, you just"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2198.863,"endTime":2202.325,"body":"I guess you just kind of walk around and."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2202.408,"endTime":2203.117,"body":"Yeah."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2203.117,"endTime":2205.411,"body":"It's like sort of like legal prostitution."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2205.411,"endTime":2208.247,"body":"You kind of go to some area"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2205.411,"endTime":2208.247,"body":"and pick your purse. And slip money."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2208.247,"endTime":2209.457,"body":"What is it? The money?"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2209.457,"endTime":2211.042,"body":"Yeah, Yeah."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2211.042,"endTime":2214.045,"body":"I do think people"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2211.042,"endTime":2214.045,"body":"there's people who have a second sight."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2214.128,"endTime":2214.921,"body":"All right."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2214.921,"endTime":2217.34,"body":"And this woman took off my ring and"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2217.34,"endTime":2220.509,"body":"and she was saying, well,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2217.34,"endTime":2220.509,"body":"this is going to happen when you're 30"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2220.509,"endTime":2222.261,"body":"and this is going to happen"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2220.509,"endTime":2222.261,"body":"to bye bye bye."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2222.261,"endTime":2223.596,"body":"But you've been lucky"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2223.596,"endTime":2227.391,"body":"because hasn't been that much death"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2223.596,"endTime":2227.391,"body":"except for your father, who you have."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2227.558,"endTime":2229.477,"body":"And I mean, that was pretty good."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2229.477,"endTime":2231.854,"body":"She goes,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2229.477,"endTime":2231.854,"body":"I know that you don't have anything"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2231.854,"endTime":2234.106,"body":"in common with your father and that."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2234.106,"endTime":2235.858,"body":"And so I don't know. I kind of believe it."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2235.858,"endTime":2238.361,"body":"Yeah. I'm illegitimate."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2235.858,"endTime":2238.361,"body":"Did he take you around?"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2238.361,"endTime":2240.404,"body":"No. because it was a secret."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2240.404,"endTime":2240.738,"body":"Yeah."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2240.738,"endTime":2243.574,"body":"So, And in fact,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2240.738,"endTime":2243.574,"body":"I think when I was really young,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2243.574,"endTime":2245.993,"body":"because he was never around"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2243.574,"endTime":2245.993,"body":"and my mom didn't really explain to me,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2245.993,"endTime":2248.746,"body":"I think I thought he was a spy for like,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2245.993,"endTime":2248.746,"body":"you know."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2248.746,"endTime":2251.249,"body":"When she didn't explain"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2248.746,"endTime":2251.249,"body":"that he had another family."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2251.249,"endTime":2252.083,"body":"Yeah."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2252.083,"endTime":2253.584,"body":"She didn't. And when did you find out?"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2253.584,"endTime":2257.546,"body":"Like, she's kind of explained it to me"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2253.584,"endTime":2257.546,"body":"when I was like, seven or eight and like."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2257.63,"endTime":2259.966,"body":"Okay, yeah, big. Thing."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2259.966,"endTime":2263.01,"body":"And I always wonder"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2259.966,"endTime":2263.01,"body":"and we used to always argue"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2263.01,"endTime":2265.429,"body":"because I wanted to know about my half"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2263.01,"endTime":2265.429,"body":"brother and sister"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2265.429,"endTime":2268.516,"body":"especially in Junior high,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2265.429,"endTime":2268.516,"body":"I was having a hard time in my dad"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2268.516,"endTime":2270.81,"body":"and I just did not,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2268.516,"endTime":2270.81,"body":"you know, have anything."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2270.81,"endTime":2273.354,"body":"He would come over really"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2270.81,"endTime":2273.354,"body":"just to see my mother. And I knew that."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2273.354,"endTime":2274.146,"body":"But it was funny"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2274.146,"endTime":2277.316,"body":"because we'd have nothing to talk about"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2274.146,"endTime":2277.316,"body":"and I'd say, So how the wife and kids."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2277.4,"endTime":2280.403,"body":"And then he would just ignore me"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2277.4,"endTime":2280.403,"body":"because I, you know,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2280.444,"endTime":2283.698,"body":"wanted to find out about my,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2280.444,"endTime":2283.698,"body":"you know, sister and brother."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2283.698,"endTime":2284.782,"body":"That's ballsy."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2284.782,"endTime":2287.535,"body":"But I also because I thought. It."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2287.535,"endTime":2290.288,"body":"Maybe a little because"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2287.535,"endTime":2290.288,"body":"I was having a hard time then in school"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2290.288,"endTime":2292.415,"body":"and I just wondered"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2290.288,"endTime":2292.415,"body":"like where they popular"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2292.415,"endTime":2294.25,"body":"or were they, you know, and all that."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2294.25,"endTime":2296.168,"body":"Kind of crap, how far away to visit."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2296.168,"endTime":2297.044,"body":"you know, I don't know."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2297.044,"endTime":2299.88,"body":"Julia It's not that there weren't that we."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2299.88,"endTime":2301.299,"body":"Were in that. 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Yeah. Yeah."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2334.707,"endTime":2336.125,"body":"You know, No, that was it."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2336.125,"endTime":2338.21,"body":"But I guess my name was on"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2338.21,"endTime":2342.214,"body":"will or survived by,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2338.21,"endTime":2342.214,"body":"and so they thought I was his mistress."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2342.298,"endTime":2343.257,"body":"They didn't know that they had."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2343.257,"endTime":2346.844,"body":"He had a kid with. With my mother. Yeah."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2346.927,"endTime":2349.388,"body":"And everybody's"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2346.927,"endTime":2349.388,"body":"finding all this out at the funeral."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2349.388,"endTime":2353.517,"body":"And No, they find it out"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2349.388,"endTime":2353.517,"body":"I guess probably like a year later. So."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2353.768,"endTime":2355.019,"body":"Yeah. This."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2355.019,"endTime":2357.271,"body":"This was in, 84."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2357.271,"endTime":2359.19,"body":"Wow. That's crazy. Mhm."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2359.19,"endTime":2363.486,"body":"So I honestly not to get dark about it,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2359.19,"endTime":2363.486,"body":"but like as a nonbeliever,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2363.736,"endTime":2365.78,"body":"like losing someone is traumatic"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2365.78,"endTime":2369.45,"body":"for all kinds of reasons,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2365.78,"endTime":2369.45,"body":"but like, funerals for me are very."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2369.533,"endTime":2370.576,"body":"I feel like you sitting at this,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2370.576,"endTime":2372.411,"body":"like living"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2370.576,"endTime":2372.411,"body":"like we all know this is a shame, right?"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2372.411,"endTime":2375.206,"body":"Like where everyone's like,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2372.411,"endTime":2375.206,"body":"they're in a better place or. Mm."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2375.206,"endTime":2378.542,"body":"I find funerals to be very light because."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2378.542,"endTime":2379.168,"body":"Yeah, well,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2379.168,"endTime":2382.755,"body":"because it's really not about the Denver,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2379.168,"endTime":2382.755,"body":"it's about the people who are surviving."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2382.922,"endTime":2384.006,"body":"Yeah. Right."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2384.006,"endTime":2384.298,"body":"Yeah."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2384.298,"endTime":2386.217,"body":"And well I'm just,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2384.298,"endTime":2386.217,"body":"I just went through this"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2386.217,"endTime":2387.718,"body":"because my mom died last November."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2387.718,"endTime":2389.512,"body":"We had her celebration of life in August."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2389.512,"endTime":2393.432,"body":"And so I just went to Spokane"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2389.512,"endTime":2393.432,"body":"for two weeks now."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2393.516,"endTime":2395.518,"body":"Yeah."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2393.516,"endTime":2395.518,"body":"So anyway, there's stories about that."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2395.518,"endTime":2396.394,"body":"But anyway."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2396.394,"endTime":2396.894,"body":"Yeah, yeah."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2396.894,"endTime":2401.273,"body":"And, but you know, like, and it was"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2396.894,"endTime":2401.273,"body":"a Catholic service, but I was glad for it."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2401.273,"endTime":2403.609,"body":"There was something to say."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2401.273,"endTime":2403.609,"body":"There was a ritual."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2403.609,"endTime":2404.193,"body":"Yeah."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2404.193,"endTime":2406.654,"body":"Pre subscribed way to be with each other."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2406.654,"endTime":2409.323,"body":"We knew it wasn't just like,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2406.654,"endTime":2409.323,"body":"well she's gone."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2409.323,"endTime":2412.159,"body":"Yeah. 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Came from Japan."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2444.984,"endTime":2446.902,"body":"And she hasn't been here for like,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2444.984,"endTime":2446.902,"body":"many years."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2446.902,"endTime":2449.572,"body":"And my mom was a really difficult person."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2449.572,"endTime":2450.614,"body":"Oh, it was."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2450.614,"endTime":2453.951,"body":"Although I was thinking my parents"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2450.614,"endTime":2453.951,"body":"had the most success with the youngest kid"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2453.951,"endTime":2458.914,"body":"because he was the most like my dad"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2453.951,"endTime":2458.914,"body":"and he was the most like my mom. Oh."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2458.998,"endTime":2461.417,"body":"Ah, you know, so."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2461.417,"endTime":2464.378,"body":"So here I think it's kind of"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2461.417,"endTime":2464.378,"body":"what personalities come out."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2464.462,"endTime":2465.754,"body":"Yeah."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2465.754,"endTime":2471.135,"body":"And I had a really hard time with my mom"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2465.754,"endTime":2471.135,"body":"and made more than me, but I did too."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2471.135,"endTime":2473.512,"body":"so it was a complicated situation."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2473.512,"endTime":2476.39,"body":"We were really happy to be free of her."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2476.39,"endTime":2477.308,"body":"Oh, yeah. 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Yeah."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2516.931,"endTime":2517.223,"body":"You've"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2517.223,"endTime":2520.476,"body":"been doing a lot of like,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2517.223,"endTime":2520.476,"body":"one woman shows, basically."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2520.476,"endTime":2521.936,"body":"Yeah. since SNL."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2521.936,"endTime":2524.188,"body":"Yeah, but I mean, do TV work"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2521.936,"endTime":2524.188,"body":"and things like that."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2524.188,"endTime":2526.899,"body":"You write your own stuff"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2524.188,"endTime":2526.899,"body":"and they're all one woman shows."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2526.899,"endTime":2529.36,"body":"What's your writing structure process"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2526.899,"endTime":2529.36,"body":"like?"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2529.36,"endTime":2532.446,"body":"it's really out of laziness."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2529.36,"endTime":2532.446,"body":"No, no, no, no."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2532.488,"endTime":2533.113,"body":"I remember."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2533.113,"endTime":2536.158,"body":"I think, okay, well,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2533.113,"endTime":2536.158,"body":"it really started because of the uncle,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2536.158,"endTime":2538.619,"body":"because I was my brother had cancer"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2536.158,"endTime":2538.619,"body":"and I had cancer."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2538.619,"endTime":2541.497,"body":"My parents moved in with me"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2538.619,"endTime":2541.497,"body":"and the only outlet I had"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2541.497,"endTime":2543.04,"body":"because they were all living"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2541.497,"endTime":2543.04,"body":"in this house."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2543.04,"endTime":2545.501,"body":"Oh, I'm living in now."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2545.501,"endTime":2547.836,"body":"My parents, my brother was dying. Me?"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2547.836,"endTime":2549.755,"body":"Yeah, we're"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2547.836,"endTime":2549.755,"body":"all in this house for nine months."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2549.755,"endTime":2551.715,"body":"And your parents moved in"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2549.755,"endTime":2551.715,"body":"to take care of you?"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2551.715,"endTime":2552.216,"body":"Yeah."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2552.216,"endTime":2555.469,"body":"Oh, so the"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2552.216,"endTime":2555.469,"body":"they need taking care of people, then."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2555.469,"endTime":2556.345,"body":"It's like you're."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2556.345,"endTime":2560.849,"body":"Oh, have to go to your own chemo and"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2556.345,"endTime":2560.849,"body":"they're asking you to stop and get a diet."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2560.933,"endTime":2562.518,"body":"Oh, my God."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2562.518,"endTime":2563.269,"body":"Like, it would be"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2563.269,"endTime":2567.439,"body":"so much easier to handle having cancer"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2563.269,"endTime":2567.439,"body":"if I didn't also have to take care."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2567.439,"endTime":2568.232,"body":"Of my parents."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2568.232,"endTime":2570.234,"body":"Wow. You feel like you're."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2570.234,"endTime":2572.987,"body":"They're taking care of you. But also,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2570.234,"endTime":2572.987,"body":"are you confident?"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2572.987,"endTime":2574.029,"body":"Oh, my God."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2574.029,"endTime":2577.741,"body":"So you're constantly like,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2577.825,"endTime":2579.785,"body":"Oh, I'm done with."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2579.785,"endTime":2580.953,"body":"You making. Dinner."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2580.953,"endTime":2582.538,"body":"Yeah. Oh, I want you to."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2582.538,"endTime":2584.665,"body":"Oh, wow."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2584.665,"endTime":2588.419,"body":"This really is the only outlet I have"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2584.665,"endTime":2588.419,"body":"is that I'm calm."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2588.502,"endTime":2593.632,"body":"Julia, When you did and God said hi,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2588.502,"endTime":2593.632,"body":"I thought that meant you were religious."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2593.757,"endTime":2595.092,"body":"Well, I was religious."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2595.092,"endTime":2595.634,"body":"Oh, okay."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2595.634,"endTime":2599.972,"body":"I had a kind of benign idea of God"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2595.634,"endTime":2599.972,"body":"as kind of I would say"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2599.972,"endTime":2604.31,"body":"my vision of God was like a very friendly"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2599.972,"endTime":2604.31,"body":"uncle who really has no power. Mm."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2604.393,"endTime":2606.395,"body":"Oh, he sees everything."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2606.395,"endTime":2609.064,"body":"Actually,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2606.395,"endTime":2609.064,"body":"I'm using that in something great."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2609.064,"endTime":2612.443,"body":"I didn't realize that, but"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2609.064,"endTime":2612.443,"body":"I really, is like a compassionate uncle."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2612.526,"endTime":2616.78,"body":"Like. Oh, Julia may. Not get that."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2616.864,"endTime":2618.324,"body":"But with dementia,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2618.324,"endTime":2623.746,"body":"it sounds like he has, like,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2618.324,"endTime":2623.746,"body":"a dementia village, like in Amsterdam."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2623.829,"endTime":2626.874,"body":"Yeah, I meant to stop that fire."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2626.874,"endTime":2630.294,"body":"And I started it. 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Well, how? Why?"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2699.947,"endTime":2701.49,"body":"So I know actually,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2701.49,"endTime":2705.744,"body":"one of the biggest mysteries in my life"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2701.49,"endTime":2705.744,"body":"is why I cared so much about him. 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Me, too."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2733.397,"endTime":2736.233,"body":"The one that broke my heart was that guy."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2736.233,"endTime":2737.067,"body":"Oh, yeah."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2737.067,"endTime":2740.237,"body":"It's like that date"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2737.067,"endTime":2740.237,"body":"was if you lined up these people."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2740.279,"endTime":2742.906,"body":"Fortunately,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2740.279,"endTime":2742.906,"body":"I'm with the most appropriate person."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2742.906,"endTime":2745.909,"body":"I think I just had to get to a certain age"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2742.906,"endTime":2745.909,"body":"where I could identify"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2745.951,"endTime":2748.078,"body":"somebody who was right. 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In any way."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2780.778,"endTime":2785.532,"body":"couldn't keep up with me mentally, which"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2780.778,"endTime":2785.532,"body":"is okay, but not by that big of a margin."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2785.532,"endTime":2786.492,"body":"Right?"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2786.492,"endTime":2789.745,"body":"Where you have to explain"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2786.492,"endTime":2789.745,"body":"every single thing."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2789.828,"endTime":2790.954,"body":"Yeah."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2790.954,"endTime":2794.208,"body":"And He broke my heart"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2790.954,"endTime":2794.208,"body":"and it took me like a year to get over it."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2794.208,"endTime":2797.503,"body":"Like I had nine months where I was like,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2794.208,"endTime":2797.503,"body":"I really was the biggest depression."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2797.503,"endTime":2799.046,"body":"Like, I couldn't function."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2799.046,"endTime":2801.423,"body":"I was like I couldn't get over it."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2801.423,"endTime":2803.675,"body":"I couldn't believe it."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2803.675,"endTime":2804.676,"body":"Couldn't get over it."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2804.676,"endTime":2806.47,"body":"and I didn't have a uterus."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2806.47,"endTime":2808.514,"body":"I wanted to be a mother very badly."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2808.514,"endTime":2810.307,"body":"so it just seemed like"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2808.514,"endTime":2810.307,"body":"the end of the line."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2810.307,"endTime":2813.185,"body":"And and I have this religious experience."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2813.185,"endTime":2815.103,"body":"I was praying a lot. Huh?"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2815.103,"endTime":2819.024,"body":"And I have this religious experience where"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2815.103,"endTime":2819.024,"body":"I felt like God came into my bedroom,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2819.149,"endTime":2822.986,"body":"not like a person,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2819.149,"endTime":2822.986,"body":"but like a like a spirit or something."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2823.07,"endTime":2826.698,"body":"And something physical happened to me"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2823.07,"endTime":2826.698,"body":"where I knew I was over it."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2826.907,"endTime":2828.158,"body":"Oh, nice."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2828.158,"endTime":2832.704,"body":"So I was like, and it felt like"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2828.158,"endTime":2832.704,"body":"God was saying, You're going to be okay."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2832.871,"endTime":2836.5,"body":"And this is all like part of a plan"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2832.871,"endTime":2836.5,"body":"and this is okay."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2836.583,"endTime":2839.711,"body":"That's really big spiritual."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2839.711,"endTime":2841.88,"body":"Well, something happened to me."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2841.88,"endTime":2843.59,"body":"It wasn't just a feeling."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2843.59,"endTime":2845.509,"body":"It felt physical. Wow."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2845.509,"endTime":2847.803,"body":"And I knew I was on the other side."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2847.803,"endTime":2850.472,"body":"I knew is going to still be hard."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2847.803,"endTime":2850.472,"body":"I'm going to cry a lot still."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2850.472,"endTime":2852.182,"body":"But I was past the worst of it."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2852.182,"endTime":2855.477,"body":"It was like nine months,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2852.182,"endTime":2855.477,"body":"so it was really like a year altogether"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2855.477,"endTime":2857.145,"body":"to get over this guy. Yeah."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2857.145,"endTime":2858.522,"body":"And then I was like,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2858.522,"endTime":2862.234,"body":"I guess I should be religious now"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2858.522,"endTime":2862.234,"body":"because I have this experience"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2862.276,"endTime":2865.279,"body":"and I guess God wanted me to be a Catholic"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2862.276,"endTime":2865.279,"body":"because that's where I was born."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2865.487,"endTime":2866.822,"body":"Ha ha. Ha."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2866.822,"endTime":2868.991,"body":"So I started going to St Monica's"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2868.991,"endTime":2871.66,"body":"and also was going to Al-Anon"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2868.991,"endTime":2871.66,"body":"meetings there, which is another part."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2871.66,"endTime":2873.829,"body":"My family is filled with alcoholics. Um."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2873.829,"endTime":2874.83,"body":"So I was going to L.A."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2874.83,"endTime":2876.832,"body":"meetings, going to see Monica's,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2876.832,"endTime":2878.917,"body":"and then they had a Bible study"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2876.832,"endTime":2878.917,"body":"class, and I was like."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2878.917,"endTime":2880.002,"body":"Well, you know what?"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2880.002,"endTime":2882.296,"body":"It's time for me to."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2880.002,"endTime":2882.296,"body":"Read the Bible. 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That wasn't God."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2937.059,"endTime":2940.854,"body":"It was just my cultural upbringing"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2937.059,"endTime":2940.854,"body":"and my worldview made me think it was God."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2940.938,"endTime":2943.065,"body":"But actually a physical thing"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2940.938,"endTime":2943.065,"body":"happened to me."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2943.065,"endTime":2945.359,"body":"Mm hmm. So then I understood that."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2945.359,"endTime":2947.653,"body":"Then I was like,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2945.359,"endTime":2947.653,"body":"Well, is there even a God?"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2947.653,"endTime":2948.946,"body":"Then I couldn't stop reading."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2948.946,"endTime":2951.114,"body":"Then I have like two years of like."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2951.114,"endTime":2952.407,"body":"There must be a God."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2952.407,"endTime":2954.201,"body":"Oh, God."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2954.201,"endTime":2956.703,"body":"And then it was just finally"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2954.201,"endTime":2956.703,"body":"there's just no evidence."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2956.703,"endTime":2958.163,"body":"And finally I just had to say,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2958.163,"endTime":2960.54,"body":"okay, there is no God,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2958.163,"endTime":2960.54,"body":"I don't think there's a God."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2960.54,"endTime":2962.042,"body":"I don't think"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2960.54,"endTime":2962.042,"body":"there's any evidence for God."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2962.042,"endTime":2963.794,"body":"And then it was just kind of starting life"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2962.042,"endTime":2963.794,"body":"over."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2963.794,"endTime":2966.588,"body":"Yeah,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2963.794,"endTime":2966.588,"body":"I had a Ukrainian Orthodox Christianity."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2966.588,"endTime":2969.549,"body":"I was like, Santa Claus is mostly"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2966.588,"endTime":2969.549,"body":"he had amazing stories,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2969.549,"endTime":2971.051,"body":"but He was talking about ghosts."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2971.051,"endTime":2973.845,"body":"his personal definition of a ghost"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2971.051,"endTime":2973.845,"body":"was that like when,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2973.845,"endTime":2976.556,"body":"you know, we're electricity,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2973.845,"endTime":2976.556,"body":"your body is electrical, right?"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2976.556,"endTime":2980.602,"body":"That when you go through a traumatic"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2976.556,"endTime":2980.602,"body":"event, you're high energy, right?"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2980.602,"endTime":2982.104,"body":"And you're more electrical,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2982.104,"endTime":2985.107,"body":"your brain is burning off"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2982.104,"endTime":2985.107,"body":"your heart is your nervous system,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2985.232,"endTime":2990.821,"body":"so that hauntings and things were"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2985.232,"endTime":2990.821,"body":"an electrical like residue, so to speak."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2990.904,"endTime":2993.407,"body":"Anyway, he's explaining to me"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2990.904,"endTime":2993.407,"body":"we're at Red Lobster"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2993.407,"endTime":2997.202,"body":"and I just feel like that"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2993.407,"endTime":2997.202,"body":"DB bonk his whole face."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":2997.202,"endTime":2998.161,"body":"Yeah. 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On it."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3005.335,"endTime":3008.296,"body":"Yeah, I can't explain why that's wrong,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3005.335,"endTime":3008.296,"body":"but I know my husband."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3008.296,"endTime":3009.131,"body":"Will be like, That's right."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3009.131,"endTime":3011.967,"body":"He would go, Oh, that is such a horseshit."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3011.967,"endTime":3012.551,"body":"Yeah."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3012.551,"endTime":3014.553,"body":"I'll try to explain away. Right."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3014.553,"endTime":3016.388,"body":"That has No, is not that."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3016.388,"endTime":3017.222,"body":"But that's what I thought he."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3017.222,"endTime":3020.225,"body":"Was like I think to go,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3017.222,"endTime":3020.225,"body":"oh, we're not electricity by the way."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3020.225,"endTime":3022.477,"body":"Ha ha."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3022.477,"endTime":3025.313,"body":"I really like the voice of reason here."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3025.313,"endTime":3027.024,"body":"That's my God. We need like."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3027.024,"endTime":3031.194,"body":"I think I remember, like in eighth grade,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3027.024,"endTime":3031.194,"body":"finding out about spontaneous"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3031.194,"endTime":3032.529,"body":"human combustion."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3032.529,"endTime":3034.448,"body":"You'll have to ask your husband"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3032.529,"endTime":3034.448,"body":"about that, too."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3034.448,"endTime":3036.867,"body":"I'm sure he'll say that's bullshit, too."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3036.867,"endTime":3039.119,"body":"Which is the book where there's somebody"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3036.867,"endTime":3039.119,"body":"spontaneously combust."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3039.119,"endTime":3041.288,"body":"And one of them, I think. Cat's Cradle."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3041.288,"endTime":3043.999,"body":"Maybe. Oh."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3044.082,"endTime":3045.709,"body":"It's not like that was bigger."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3045.709,"endTime":3047.711,"body":"Yeah. 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Yeah."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3062.893,"endTime":3063.769,"body":"I'm so shocked."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3063.769,"endTime":3065.687,"body":"Like, because I feel like that's"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3063.769,"endTime":3065.687,"body":"sort of related."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3065.687,"endTime":3071.068,"body":"Just like religion never backs of aliens"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3065.687,"endTime":3071.068,"body":"because I feel like that debunks God."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3071.151,"endTime":3072.819,"body":"Even though they are saying"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3072.819,"endTime":3076.907,"body":"that a supernatural being came down"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3072.819,"endTime":3076.907,"body":"and focus on by the of thousand pregnant."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3076.907,"endTime":3079.367,"body":"I mean they are kind"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3076.907,"endTime":3079.367,"body":"of aping those stories."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3079.367,"endTime":3080.535,"body":"Oh yeah."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3080.535,"endTime":3083.08,"body":"That the Northstar was a UFO."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3083.08,"endTime":3086.041,"body":"Uh my read it theory"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3086.083,"endTime":3089.336,"body":"that yes that that the three Sure."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3089.419,"endTime":3092.798,"body":"Right. That that was a spaceship."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3092.881,"endTime":3093.131,"body":"Yeah."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3093.131,"endTime":3095.509,"body":"Yeah. 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Oh."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3141.847,"endTime":3144.307,"body":"I really felt strongly that."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3144.307,"endTime":3147.018,"body":"And now it's like,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3144.307,"endTime":3147.018,"body":"I can't even imagine a screenplay."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3147.018,"endTime":3147.602,"body":"It's a book."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3147.602,"endTime":3149.855,"body":"And how did you get interested in that?"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3149.855,"endTime":3151.648,"body":"In The Mamas and the Papas?"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3151.648,"endTime":3154.86,"body":"during the pandemic, I watched"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3151.648,"endTime":3154.86,"body":"this documentary called Laurel Canyon."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3154.985,"endTime":3157.988,"body":"MM There was two different one one"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3157.988,"endTime":3161.116,"body":"the what's his name"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3157.988,"endTime":3161.116,"body":"was the host of this song after Bob Dylan."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3161.241,"endTime":3164.244,"body":"Who's Jakob Dylan. Yes. Okay."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3164.286,"endTime":3166.246,"body":"And that one was terrible. Oh, okay."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3166.246,"endTime":3169.457,"body":"And then there was this one, this"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3166.246,"endTime":3169.457,"body":"Australian woman called Laurel Canyon."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3169.457,"endTime":3171.501,"body":"It was in two parts. 2 hours."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3171.501,"endTime":3172.419,"body":"Uh huh."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3172.419,"endTime":3173.795,"body":"And I knew all that stuff?"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3173.795,"endTime":3176.131,"body":"Vaguely. Yeah, but I didn't just."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3176.131,"endTime":3177.883,"body":"It blew my mind to watch it."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3177.883,"endTime":3180.677,"body":"So I was kind of"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3177.883,"endTime":3180.677,"body":"in love with the whole Laurel Canyon."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3180.677,"endTime":3183.471,"body":"Oh, yeah. Folk rock scene. And."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3183.471,"endTime":3186.141,"body":"And the Doors were right there"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3183.471,"endTime":3186.141,"body":"and all that stuff."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3186.141,"endTime":3186.975,"body":"Yeah. 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Ooh."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3288.159,"endTime":3289.327,"body":"And she did it."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3289.327,"endTime":3290.078,"body":"She did a crazy thing."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3290.078,"endTime":3292.914,"body":"She took all her hair and put it in front"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3290.078,"endTime":3292.914,"body":"of her face and put her like she did."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3292.914,"endTime":3295.75,"body":"She had this crazy reaction to it"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3292.914,"endTime":3295.75,"body":"and still she still."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3295.75,"endTime":3298.503,"body":"Carefully you can say, Yeah."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3298.503,"endTime":3302.841,"body":"But like, stuff like that,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3298.503,"endTime":3302.841,"body":"like these little dumb, uh, history"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3302.841,"endTime":3303.758,"body":"and stuff like that."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3303.758,"endTime":3306.72,"body":"Have you always been"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3303.758,"endTime":3306.72,"body":"kind of obsessive or. no."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3306.72,"endTime":3307.637,"body":"But I was like her."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3307.637,"endTime":3309.431,"body":"Yeah, I remember when she died, So she."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3309.431,"endTime":3315.395,"body":"Died in 1974, July 20. 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Whose."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3366.363,"endTime":3368.281,"body":"He doesn't have a sandwich by their bed."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3368.281,"endTime":3371.91,"body":"I know I, I always tell get"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3368.281,"endTime":3371.91,"body":"where you please do the dishes."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3371.91,"endTime":3373.995,"body":"Take them out of the bed sandwich away."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3373.995,"endTime":3376.373,"body":"I was in a rap group called Show Me Tiger."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3376.373,"endTime":3379.751,"body":"And with the two female front women"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3376.373,"endTime":3379.751,"body":"and we all have rap names."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3379.918,"endTime":3381.669,"body":"And mine was Mama Cash."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3381.669,"endTime":3384.464,"body":"Uh, choked on money."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3384.464,"endTime":3386.049,"body":"That was cute."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3386.049,"endTime":3388.593,"body":"But nobody knew who Mama Cass was, right?"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3388.593,"endTime":3388.927,"body":"Yeah."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3388.927,"endTime":3391.096,"body":"So I have to explain my fucking name,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3388.927,"endTime":3391.096,"body":"everybody."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3391.096,"endTime":3393.598,"body":"that I want to write about,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3391.096,"endTime":3393.598,"body":"nobody knows. About this event."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3393.598,"endTime":3396.101,"body":"Yeah, They're. Like, You're not."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3393.598,"endTime":3396.101,"body":"No one's going to be."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3396.101,"endTime":3398.228,"body":"Like, wait a second to it."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3398.228,"endTime":3400.105,"body":"But Cass"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3398.228,"endTime":3400.105,"body":"Elliot has a daughter, doesn't she?"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3400.105,"endTime":3401.773,"body":"Yes. Yeah. Yeah."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3401.773,"endTime":3403.358,"body":"Have you talked to her? 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Mm."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3426.923,"endTime":3428.383,"body":"She did give in interviews."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3428.383,"endTime":3431.01,"body":"I've seen really great information"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3428.383,"endTime":3431.01,"body":"that I'm putting in the book."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3431.01,"endTime":3434.722,"body":"Like the last time"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3431.01,"endTime":3434.722,"body":"she saw her mom, she was on a plane"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3434.806,"endTime":3437.725,"body":"flying to her grandmother's house"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3437.725,"endTime":3440.77,"body":"where she was going to stay"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3437.725,"endTime":3440.77,"body":"while Cass went to London to do her show."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3440.854,"endTime":3441.229,"body":"Mm hmm."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3441.229,"endTime":3444.232,"body":"And Cass was behind this fence,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3444.399,"endTime":3446.734,"body":"and she was on the plane,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3444.399,"endTime":3446.734,"body":"and they were right into each other."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3446.734,"endTime":3448.778,"body":"And that's her last image."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3448.778,"endTime":3452.24,"body":"Oh, okay. 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Yeah."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3459.622,"endTime":3461.583,"body":"So I've been doing it"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3459.622,"endTime":3461.583,"body":"like I have a whole bookshelf"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3461.583,"endTime":3465.587,"body":"that is just about all the moms"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3461.583,"endTime":3465.587,"body":"and lovers, everybody around,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3465.67,"endTime":3467.547,"body":"everyone she knew."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3467.547,"endTime":3469.674,"body":"And I could just spend my life"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3467.547,"endTime":3469.674,"body":"reading those books."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3469.674,"endTime":3470.175,"body":"Oh, yeah."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3470.175,"endTime":3473.803,"body":"99 and then never have written the script"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3470.175,"endTime":3473.803,"body":"or the book."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3473.887,"endTime":3476.723,"body":"So now I have a new challenge"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3473.887,"endTime":3476.723,"body":"for September that"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3476.723,"endTime":3479.976,"body":"every morning I just kind of have coffee"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3476.723,"endTime":3479.976,"body":"and write for at least an hour."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3479.976,"endTime":3481.394,"body":"I can keep going. But."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3481.394,"endTime":3483.354,"body":"But I can stop after one hour."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3483.354,"endTime":3486.107,"body":"So I put my timer on,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3483.354,"endTime":3486.107,"body":"and even if I go to the bathroom,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3486.107,"endTime":3490.987,"body":"I have to pause the timer"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3486.107,"endTime":3490.987,"body":"and then I'm just in the thing writing."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3491.07,"endTime":3494.616,"body":"so now it's been five days."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3494.699,"endTime":3495.825,"body":"I'm impressed."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3495.825,"endTime":3497.952,"body":"Know. But it really is hard."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3497.952,"endTime":3498.912,"body":"It seems so small,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3498.912,"endTime":3501.289,"body":"but actually it's hard to just do that"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3498.912,"endTime":3501.289,"body":"because I always want to go."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3501.289,"endTime":3501.789,"body":"I was like, Well."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3501.789,"endTime":3504.501,"body":"I think I'll do yoga"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3501.789,"endTime":3504.501,"body":"where you don't have to run. An errand."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3504.501,"endTime":3506.252,"body":"And before I write,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3506.252,"endTime":3510.381,"body":"I have to write my journal like,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3506.252,"endTime":3510.381,"body":"I have a million excuses before I write."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3510.59,"endTime":3513.134,"body":"it's also closest to"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3510.59,"endTime":3513.134,"body":"when I've been sleeping, which I feel like"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3513.134,"endTime":3516.804,"body":"is closest to the muse,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3513.134,"endTime":3516.804,"body":"You know, like you're closer to the spark."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3516.888,"endTime":3519.557,"body":"I'm like,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3516.888,"endTime":3519.557,"body":"Just get up and go and just get one hour."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3519.557,"endTime":3522.435,"body":"And yeah, this morning,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3519.557,"endTime":3522.435,"body":"because I went to bed at 8:00."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3522.435,"endTime":3523.019,"body":"Yeah."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3523.019,"endTime":3526.356,"body":"Wow. 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I appreciate it."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3633.588,"endTime":3636.549,"body":"Whenever you were on stage,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3633.588,"endTime":3636.549,"body":"it was like it just lit up."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3636.549,"endTime":3637.634,"body":"Oh, thank you."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3637.634,"endTime":3638.676,"body":"And vice versa."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3638.676,"endTime":3639.969,"body":"Right Back at you."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3639.969,"endTime":3642.472,"body":"And right back. At you."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3642.472,"endTime":3643.014,"body":"And Julia."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3643.014,"endTime":3646.225,"body":"We'll have to get together over a map"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3643.014,"endTime":3646.225,"body":"and you can show me where things are."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3646.225,"endTime":3649.187,"body":"If you wouldn't mind, I can ask you."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3649.187,"endTime":3650.688,"body":"Okay? Okay."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3650.688,"endTime":3654.442,"body":"95. Or you can take the five"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3650.688,"endTime":3654.442,"body":"and you just drive for 20."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3654.525,"endTime":3657.111,"body":"Julia, I don't even."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3654.525,"endTime":3657.111,"body":"I don't even. I don't."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3657.111,"endTime":3659.739,"body":"I don't get on the freeway when I drive."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3659.739,"endTime":3661.616,"body":"Because I love it in Ireland."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3661.616,"endTime":3663.66,"body":"Yeah, yeah."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3663.66,"endTime":3667.83,"body":"Country road from Clifton to God."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3667.914,"endTime":3671.626,"body":"I'll just be on a bicycle going nowhere,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3667.914,"endTime":3671.626,"body":"and that's fine with me."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3671.709,"endTime":3673.628,"body":"I was like, That's it?"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3673.628,"endTime":3677.09,"body":"Yeah. Like, I get really, really"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3677.173,"endTime":3679.634,"body":"Like Michael always goes, You know where"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3677.173,"endTime":3679.634,"body":"how I know where to go."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3679.634,"endTime":3682.178,"body":"Looking to see"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3679.634,"endTime":3682.178,"body":"where you turn. It's the opposite."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3682.178,"endTime":3683.721,"body":"Oh, my God. This picture,"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3682.178,"endTime":3683.721,"body":"it says it made you."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3683.721,"endTime":3686.474,"body":"I always go immediately"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3683.721,"endTime":3686.474,"body":"go in the wrong direction."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3686.474,"endTime":3687.725,"body":"Like it's turned around."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3687.725,"endTime":3691.145,"body":"Instinct to go"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3687.725,"endTime":3691.145,"body":"the wrong way is absolutely perfect."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3691.187,"endTime":3694.399,"body":"I just know the wrong way to go."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3694.482,"endTime":3695.733,"body":"That's exactly how I am, too."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3695.733,"endTime":3698.236,"body":"I said I could walk out of a building"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3695.733,"endTime":3698.236,"body":"and be anywhere."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3698.236,"endTime":3699.737,"body":"I was like, I don't know."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3699.737,"endTime":3700.571,"body":"We do. Yeah."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3700.571,"endTime":3701.989,"body":"I guess we shouldn't"},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3700.571,"endTime":3701.989,"body":"go somewhere together."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3701.989,"endTime":3703.991,"body":"But I."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3703.991,"endTime":3706.994,"body":"We need a man to show us the way."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3706.994,"endTime":3708.871,"body":"You are so cute."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3708.871,"endTime":3713.084,"body":"I mean, Julia."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3713.084,"endTime":3713.793,"body":"Thank you."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3713.793,"endTime":3714.752,"body":"Yeah. Yeah."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3714.752,"endTime":3715.628,"body":"I like."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3715.628,"endTime":3717.13,"body":"Oh, you're going have to come over again."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3717.13,"endTime":3718.297,"body":"Okay."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3718.297,"endTime":3719.257,"body":"I want you to take both."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3719.257,"endTime":3722.26,"body":"No, it's the same side size."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3722.468,"endTime":3724.804,"body":"Oh, you don't have to just take."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3724.804,"endTime":3726.806,"body":"Well, they're both great, but."},{"speaker":"It's like, Yeah, so shall we say 4","startTime":3726.806,"endTime":3727.974,"body":"Just take this one. Yeah."}]}