Let's Be Clear Podcast
Let's Be Clear with Pigg and Ant Cook. Where we take various topics, some that may offend, and transform them into a dialog and debate we can all learn from.
Let's Be Clear Podcast
Episode 17 | "Me and My Dawg"
In Episode 17 of Let's Be Clear Podcast Ant and Pigg link up in Columbia, South Carolina. The guys start off by discussing the controversial "bodies" conversation started by Brittney Renner (4:10), drake new album release (23:20), finding happiness (34:52), toxic relationships (49:59), and much more!!
Yo, yo, yo, what's good? It's your boy Ant Cook, man. Here with my boy, Pigg. I don't know what to say. Hey, for y'all watching, give me a cool intro, bro. I don't have a cool intro. That's why I just tried to put you on the spot, cause you just gotta let it flow. Like, you just, how do you naturally introduce yourself to, which I don't naturally introduce myself. Like, yo, yo, yo, it's yo boy Ant Cook? Like, I don't have a, I don't have a social media, like, Go to. Like, with me, it just flow for the moment, though. Like, that's what, like, I did this a thousand times in the mirror. I ain't gonna lie. I hate, I hate being like so cliche. I hate like the YouTube videos. Yo, we back with another one. Like everybody says that. Give me an intro. Tell me what to say. Thank y'all. Episode 17. With that being said, man, what's up with you, man? How you feeling? First, you need to let the people know who you are. My at is below. I'm pigg. All my social media platform is pig papii, but those that know me. Everybody that know me, call me Pigg. And I am Ant Cook, A N T underscore F C E. You know what I'm saying? And we Let's Be Clear Podcast, episode 17. I had to do a lot to make this happen, man. We in Columbia, South Carolina right now, man. Facts. But we here. Facts. We had a good episode 16, man. You know, reintroduced ourselves to people. How did you feel about the episode, bro? I felt good. I felt like we had some... Very good positive feedback. We took constructive criticism, but everybody that reached out. I appreciate y'all For sure for sure. I definitely I definitely got a lot of uh A lot of positive feedback also. Yeah. You know what I'm saying? Um, you know, we, we taking, you, taking a risk. When you try to go back and tell those life stories you always left looking back on it feeling like, dang, I left out a part. Hey, at the end of the day it's always more to be revealed, And I, I feel like I'm naturally a re reserved person. So you are, as the episodes go, definitely look forward to opening up and reintroducing and, and telling. Different parts of the story. Yeah. So, let me ask you this. With the feedback that you got from other people, what did you learn about yourself from other people's point of view? I've never realized that I was reserved until they pointed it out. I'm sitting back watching myself and listening to myself like, dang, why aren't you going into details and telling more? So, 2023 as a whole, I, I kinda made it a point to try to open up more. And, you know what I'm saying, tell more about what I got going on in my everyday life or different stuff that I'm working on and different projects and stuff like that, but yeah, definitely I've, I've definitely learned that I'm really. I'm reserved, you I never realized that before, but we got a whole podcast now. So, you know That's what we, we both here to entertain and, and to bring value to people. What I learned about me from other people's point of view, I learned that people actually like me. Like, people think I'm, people think I'm funny. People want to hear, people want to hear my strong opinions. For sure. I hear that I'm controversial a lot, but I'm just strongly opinionated. You know what I'm saying? I just have a strong opinion and a different opinion about certain things. hearing people's feedback that like, they thought I was funny. I was entertaining. They could listen to me all day. Like this type of stuff like that, man, that was real encouraging, you know, because, um, I'm I'm more of a in person type of person like once you come around me like yeah, you're gonna love me Yeah, man, I didn't I didn't know that like people like me like that. They really they really enjoyed the episode Yeah, I definitely got a lot of feedback from a lot of people I haven't heard from in a long time hit me up like hey, man I remember that like y'all told those stories like I was done. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah. Yeah, this felt good Actually touch people like that bro, We're going to hop into it man current events Right now, Britney Renner was on you said, you brought that up to me as soon as I walked in the door, right? You really want to talk about that bad. Yes, I do. I don't even know who Britney Renner is. I aint even going to cap to you. Okay. All right. Well, good enough. That's good enough. So you have an unbiased opinion. Yeah. So what'd she do? So Britney Renner was on Club Shea Shea. Who is she? First of all, She is a social media influencer slash, um, soccer player slash. Oh, she was a soccer player? Yeah. Slash an NBA player's ex girlfriend and baby mama. So she's in that realm of people. Okay. Okay. But great personality. Okay. Great woman. I think so, you know? Okay. All right. So she was on Club Shea Shea, right? Yeah. And she has like, she's like Drea Junior, I would, I would say like she has that, that light of being the industry whore, you know, the media paints her out to be that image. So she went on club Shay Shay and she said that her body count was 35 and she's 31 years old. She's 31 years old. She said her body count. It's 35. I see your reaction. I want your opinion. Oh my god. I can see, I can see we've been in, we've been to have a disagreement. Why is he trying to make me talk about this? Her body count 35. She's 31 years old. That's a no go for me. Wow. What? You telling me that's cool with you? I would never know. I don't give a You're not gonna know until you, you start feeling different. What you mean? Till you start feeling different. How you gonna feel till you start waking up. A negative energy over your body for no reason Like you, you paranoid for no reason. You feel uneasy. You feel like something bad about to happen. Like sex is a spiritual thing, bro. And every person that you lay down with, you taking a piece of their spirit with when a man, when a man feels some type of way about a woman with bodies, it's just that thought in the back of my mind. You taking on the spirits from 30. different people, their past traumas, the people that they've slept with. So you taking on all of that, you don't say like, okay, 30 different niggas. Now, how many them 30 different niggas got slept with and how many or how many niggas that and like, before you know it, you got a big well, it's all leading back down to you. Have you ever heard or thought about it or heard it from, have you ever heard it from that point of view before? Of course, I've, I've heard that. And what do you think about that? I don't think that a woman's body history should even concern you as a man. I feel like it's insecurity. If you, Oh, you got 35 bodies. Ah, because what happened before you ain't got nothing to do with you. That's just like her asking me how many bodies I got. Like, what the Why do you care? Why do you want to know? I feel as if anything that happened before you Ain't got nothing to do with you I feel like that's insecurities as long as my woman is my woman. I don't give a Whatever the she did. This is my woman now what happened before me ain't got nothing to do with me So the fact that she has 35 bodies, I don't care. I'll never know because I'll never add really feel like you having two different conversations I'm not saying that it's gone. I'm not that it's gonna matter. I'm not saying that it's gonna affect anything But I need to know why You going to be, you going to be accurate. I mean, you're going to be honest and tell her your body count. The facts are you going to be honest and tell her your body count, or you going to lie, you're going to manipulate them to the best of my ability. She deserved to know. Well, why the is that even a conversation? Because you're taking on those spirits, bro. I need to know. No, you don't. That's insecure. Nah. And then you gonna be, oh, what's the, what's the biggest dig you had? Nah, how his love Or you like, oh, that's why you like getting from the back. Who turns you out? Who, what nigga taught you how to suck Nick, bro. It, it, it leads into a rabbit hole of that doesn't even matter. You get to ask me that's different levels. That's different level, bro You get to ask the woman her body count you get to looking at her different and she's not even that woman that she was 30 bodies ago if it makes me look at you different then I gotta know that there's a reason it's insecure Man, you looking at man 35 niggas gonna my 35 niggas, that's what you looking at her and saying, man, nigga, 35 niggas had my bent over. But you ain't thinking the fact of, you know her love language, you know how she like to be touched. You know what turned her on. Like, you know what I'm saying? Like, yeah, me and all 30, all 35 of us know. No, no, no, no, no, no, no, no, it doesn't work like that. It doesn't, it doesn't work like that, bro. And then I wanted to break it down like this, bro. 35 bodies at 31 years old. Let's just say she started having sex at 18. Let's just say 18. Most of us have, start having sex before that. But let's just say she started having sex at 18. So, like, probably, like, I'm just rounding probably an average of two niggas a year. Average of two niggas a year since 18? Two different niggas every year of your life. You laid down and opened your legs for two different niggas. Every year. That's not a lot. You just like, oh. That's not a lot. One n a, two n a, three n a, four n a. Every year, bro. That's not a lot. All the way to 30. That's not a lot. You gotta think about the whole phase, too. One year, she probably f ed five n s. Exactly. Then out, the older she got, one, probably three years, she don't have sex with one n a. You telling me, you telling me it took you 15 years to learn how to respect your body? Oh my God. You niggas, niggas like, niggas like you, niggas, I do not like niggas like you, bro. I do not like niggas like you, bro. Nigga, do you respect yourself? So how can you judgment? It ain't judgment, it's me being wiser. You know what I'm saying? I'm not about to look You're not being wiser judging a woman. You're not being wiser judging a woman because she have a sexual history. You niggas out there that are concerned about your woman's body count are insecure. Nah, man. Yes. Nah, man. Cause why do you want to know? You done already fell in love with her and you've been, you done already fell in love with her. Aye. And stuck your dick in her. Why do you want to know? Hop in the car with me, big. And I ain't telling you where we going. We just gonna hop in that and start driving. Don't worry. You gonna be safe. Yeah, that sound crazy to you. You wanna at least listen. You wanna at least listen. That is not the same thing. You want to at least not the same thing. You wanna at least know where we going. That's not the same thing. You wanna at least know where we going's the, so you can make a decision whether wanna go that's not the thing or not, right. Exactly. That's not the same thing. Exactly. So i's the, I'm not gonna get mad at you for asking. I'm not asking that to any female. It is only, it is only the one. I'm not saying any female. I'm talking about your. Woman. Yes, you're woman. You acting like it's something we gonna talk about every day. Like if you it is, it's gonna, it, it's going to lead to other questions. No. And if that, and if it does, then that's issue. It's inevitable. The issue. That's the issue then if a woman asks you that, what's your body count immediately, that's gonna trigger you. Yes. And where is it gonna go from now? Why do you care? That's my first question. Why do you care? What does it matter? And if it bothers her and if she's showing signs that it bothers her that you don't want to discuss your body count Man, you can leave That's crazy. You can leave that's crazy. It's really irrelevant. It doesn't matter. That's crazy That's not love then bro. What you mean? It's not love Cause if I love you, then I'm not, I'm not, I don't feel like I have a reason to hide anything. It's not hiding. It has nothing to do with you. It's nothing we can't talk about. It's nothing I can't ask you. It's nothing you can't ask me. I'm not hiding I don't got to hide. I never hid Like when you, when you choosing to be in a relationship with somebody, like that's what you saying, that's what you putting on the table. So with that, with that being said, that question might come and it shouldn't be, it shouldn't be an issue on either side. Um, I don't, I don't want to talk about past sex, uh, body count, all of that I don't want to talk about that. But that conversation has been around social media. Yeah. Yeah. And me, I just don't understand it. I'll never wrap my head around it. I feel like it's one, it's one of them things you just come down to like. Because you what type of person you are, bro. Like it's not a one. You can't have 50 bodies. You can't have 50 bodies and feel away because she got 35. How can you feel away? If you got 50 you arguing that he's going to feel away. It ain't about whether he's felt he's going to feel away or not. It's about whether he has the right to ask her at all. And I feel like yeah, you got a right to ask. Okay. You gotta write the facts. We can, we can agree to just decide. You can ask me if you want to. You probably ain't gonna like what I gotta say, but you can ask me. God, nah, I'm good. You know what I'm saying?, you go like the answer if, I mean, that's correct. That's just, that's, that's a You want to go playin in them waters Get. You know I'm saying getting deep so nigga feelings get hurt so that, I mean, that's why it's best. Say stay away. Say a number. That's more than yours. got more bodies than you. That's why it's best to stay away from that conversation. I wouldn't have five, but two. Two a year though. You think two a year is locked.. But you gotta put it in perspective. Like I said, bro, hey, two years, lemme finish 15 years, lemme finish, lemme finish. And then some years five and six. You think that's a lot. Listen, listen bro, you said two years, she a single woman. What is she? A single woman, two niggas a year for 15 years. And you telling me sometime in between it was, it was even five or six. You know what I'm saying? But the average was missing maybe the last four years. She probably had sex with one man and it should never go back. After that, why not? If she's single and she just want to, man, you shouldn't be out here making that many mistakes. What mistakes? Uh, how is having sex mistakes? You don't think, you don't think you could be, you don't regret some of your sex partners. I have, but I mean, I shouldn't have that I have, I have. He put me on the spot there. There have been a time where you, where you get them nut senses, where you bust that nut and you like. And I should have never up woman. Is no way you out here making that mistakes. Why? Why is a double? Why is it a double standard? Why is it you can make you telling me you can make mistakes but a woman can't make mistakes. So you regret two a your thing? No. Who said that? Her body count that she regrets. So if I don't regret a body count, then I shouldn't keep on increasing. If, if you not, if you, if you having sex with somebody, you like it. Alright, hear this nigga being politically correct, bro. Come on, bro. This is how I think, bro. I'm, I'm sorry, bro. So you ain't made no mistakes? Everybody make mistakes. Okay, so how can you look at her and say, She shouldn't be making that many mistakes. I'm not making two a year, bro. For 15 years in a row. So you ain't just having meaningless sex? As a woman, it's a issue. Nigga, I said you. I said you. I said you. Are you just having meaningless sex? No. You've never had meaningless sex? Meaningless sex fit in the category of mistakes. And we make mistakes, but I'm not making two mistakes a year. P I'm not making mistakes a year. Possibly five questions. Answer my question. I'm not making five and six. Have you ever had meaningless sex? I, I've got me. Boy, shut the up. This nigga tryna... Say it yourself, Jay. We ain't gonna be real. I don't wanna talk about it. I don't know if I'm out here having an accident. Man, we ain't being real. I don't wanna talk about it, man. Man, I'm just, I'm just different, you know what I'm saying? Okay, alright. Well, I ain't. I ain't. I done had meaningless sex. I done been like I should've never that But we not arguing about that. We arguing about two a year. That's not a lot, nigga. It's not a lot. It's actually a respectable number from what the media paints her out to be. That's actually a respectable number. Cause I know that's in they 20's and got 35 bodies. And you gotta respect her honesty. She's woman enough to say I got 35 bodies. Yeah, I know a lot. I know that's definitely a conversation. I know, uh, people definitely go, uh, back and forth about that on social media. Yeah, I know what I'm saying. I mean, hey, at the end of the day, to each his own, man. Relationships, marriage, that's, it's, uh, I don't know if it's a right or wrong way to do it. I don't know. It's not. It ain't a right or wrong way to live life. I don't know if it's possible to have one person that you want to be with for the rest of your life. I do. I think that's, I think that's very possible. I think there is someone on this earth that could like, fulfill everything for you. And y'all can fulfill. Everything for each other. Does kids change a woman? That's what I believe. I feel like they change a woman and you never know what type of woman about to come out on the other side. You know what men, we don't understand the changes that a woman go through during pregnancy and after pregnancy. And what changes a woman is that non support system. Because a lot of men don't know how to support their woman through pregnancy or after pregnancy. Because I've dealt with my. Kids mom having postpartum depression. I knew what it was While it was happening, but I had the education Before it happened, you know what I'm saying? So I was able to step in and take that load off until she was able to bounce back Yeah, yeah, so she had a good support system But I also know women that have not had a support system when it comes to that postpartum depression if that woman is having A moment, and she just need a break. You in the game play you in the living room playing 2k, and you in a match, you Do you Oh, what the Man, why you All she need is five minutes. Do you feel like women can Like lump all men together and try to compare them all. Every woman that I've dealt with, they put me in a separate category. Swear to God. They put me in a separate category. And it's not no bragging boasts. It's just my mind is, I just think different and I understand different. I'm more mature. I've always been mature. I'm a sponge for information. Like I love to learn, you know? So when it comes with things like postpartum depression. If I hear some that I've never heard, I want to know more. I want to learn about it. And then when it happens, I can react or it happens. I'm like, damn, that was a postpartum depression moment. Let me, let me read back. Let me go, let me go fix this. Let me make it right. As things happen, if I don't know about it. I still go back to those conversations and I'd be like, damn, this is what was happening. This is what I should have did. I have no problem saying I was wrong. It might take me a while. It might take me a while. And even as a 31 year old man, I'm still learning myself. I guess at the end of the day, I know for a fact different things affect different people different. It just be so hard to like, when you see different people. Making it happen with way less, you know what I'm saying? And it's like, bruh, how can't you appreciate it when you're way, you got, you're in a way better position and you're not, you're letting this little small situation break you when it's people that did more with way less. Survival mode. It's a switch, survival mode. Some people, all they know is pain and resilience. Some people, that's all they know. And some people, they don't even know pain or resilience at all. So, it's some people, they can see this bowl right here and know that, okay, this bowl is right here, I can just walk around and I can still get to where I need to be. And it's some people that can walk to this bowl. Oh my God. What do I give up? Hey, hey, hey, I can't do it anymore. There's a bowl in the way. Nobody will help me. I don't know what to do. I just. Exactly. You have those two different people. You know, you have some people where all they know is pain and survival. Yeah. It's a woman out there. They got six kids, six baby daddies, and she won't pick up the phone and ask them for Yeah. And there's one woman out there that got one kid. And she don't know what the to do. Yeah, it's it's men like that too. It's men out there that don't realize that their job is easy as a breadwinner. Thanks. All you gotta do is bring home the bread. You complaining because you gotta bring home the bread. Imagine the woman that has a man in the house. She gotta go to work. Come home, clean up, cook, get the kids ready for bed, get up in the morning, get the kids ready to school, drop the kids off at school, pack they lunches before they go to school, earn they clothes at night, then go to work. And all you gotta do is go to work. You don't wanna help around the house, you splittin the bills 50 50, and you think just because you the man, you ain't gotta do It's some men out there that don't realize that they the head of the household. What's the, what's the goal of life, man? Is the goal to find love, or is the goal in life is to find happiness. You gotta find your happy medium. What makes you happy? I think that's the goal in life. Can you be happy without love? Yes. Absolutely. There's some people in the world, they don't even want kids. That's they happiness. But it's a lot of happy people that's lonely as too. Yep. I've been one of them. For real? I've been one. I've been in a happy place. But nigga, just be lonely and then a You happy, you get everything you want. Anything you want in life, you can have it. So just wanting something, you're gonna naturally always have But there's some people that just never want out of life. Or they don't know what to want out of life. Or they don't know how to get it. They don't know how to obtain it. Yeah. At all. But if you don't know what you want, bruh, you're gonna go in circles forever. So what did you think about, um, What you think this new Drake bout to sound like? You know, I'm a huge Drake fan. You were the first person, bro, I ever, that ever put me on Drake, bro. And what's the what's the chances, like, cause everybody was looking at me crazy in high school, and this nigga turns out to be the biggest rapper in the world. He was the first of his kind. I remember sitting in your car like, what the is this? Yeah, and I was just going through like, bro, this this is the hardest nigga out, bro. This nigga about to take over, bro. You was like, bro, what the hell is this man? But yeah, um, he, he, he about to drop a new album. Some kind of way he, he always managed to. Get everybody excited for his albums. Every time you think it's over like it's nothing else he could do is nothing else He could really you know, I'm saying get people excited about yeah, but he always come through every time My thing is why do he always drop albums at the end of the summer? I that's always a strategy of his why is that it's something about this time of the year, bro He's a he's an October Scorpio though I'm a November Scorpio. What you doing for your birthday this year? You've never, I've never seen you celebrate your birthday. We've been friends since the 5th grade and you always used to come to school and hide the fact that it was your birthday. Why you don't celebrate your birthday, bro? Why you feel weird? Bro, it's, I don't know, bro. Did you take your birthday off Facebook? Even on Facebook. Your don't even pop up on Facebook. It be on Facebook, bro. Man, when we was little, I used to always, bro, we used to stay, No, The skater rink used to be lit. We used to all load up in the van, go to the skater rink to celebrate your birthday, bro. You said hi. I didn't start celebrating my birthday until I was like 23. And, and every year on your birthday, you lit. Like you want to go out. It depends on the mood that I'm in. Exactly. It's some years. It's some years, bro You don't want to be around nobody. Yeah, I don't wanna be around nobody and that's always how I feel This nigga said always This nigga said always That's always how I feel, bruh I don't wanna be around people You need a turn up, bruh You need one good You need one good interruption birthday, nigga At July, I'm lit I'm lit. In August. I'm lit. September. October. I'm lit. November comes. You crash. Do you club? Have you ever clubbed, bro? Cause I know you're not really a drinker. You know, I used to perform in the club. That used to be the only time I go in the club when I used to perform. But once I stopped performing. Nigga, do you, where are the lit clubs at? Have you ever been to a lit club? Yes! Because all the ones where we from, brother. No, not where we're from. Yeah, but I'm talking about like So those are all my references. You live in Atlanta, what are you talking about? Who, who do I have to go out with? Who gonna take me out of Atlanta? You can go with your old lady. Yeah. Yo, your wedding was the first wedding I've ever seen, bro. You was acting like a professional bro. I, I, I'm still trying to find the video. It's my army experience. I'm still trying to find the video from the speech you did, bro. That off, that felt like a movie, bro.. Hey, that was from the art though. I been looking like who got the video of. That was from the heart, though. Yeah, real talk. I really meant this I felt it, but I'm like, nigga, we young as I'm like, how did you know to like, the way you was talking, I'm like, where the I ain't never heard this nigga talk like this, bro. That was from the heart bro. Yeah, that was just that just came natural. I ain't writing nothing I ain't know what the I didn't even know I was gonna give a speech, bro It felt like you rehearsed that all night, bro, and I bet i'm like who the got that video I know somebody recorded that i've been trying to I've had this for about 10 years now, bruh. Bro, that was from the heart, bro. That was how I really felt about you and your old lady, bro. I'm surprised you remember that bro. Bro, that was really inspiring. That was my first wedding I ever seen, bro. I ever even been a part of. You know what I'm saying? So I'll remember that forever, bro. Yeah, man. How long y'all been married now? be going on. A good amount of years now, man. The No. No. I said it it, I said it's a good amount of years, bro. I did not say no. I did not say no, but it's how many years? It's a good amount, bro. It's like, you don't wanna say how long you've been married, nigga. No, I'm saying it's. Nah, uh, I got married. What year was that, bro? You know, you remember what year was bro? You know, you remember that year, bro? What? Quit plan. Pig Quit Plan Pig. This year will be nine years, bro. 2024 will be nine years.. Nah, nigga. So you got, so you got married in 20. What? Why do you keep asking me questions, bro? I keep answering your questions and you keep thinking of new questions to ask me, bro. Nigga, cause I'm curious, nigga. 2015 sound like, bro, that's what it sound like. If it's going to be 9 in 2024, subtract 9, then that's 2015. Oh, this is what I want to ask you. What? Why are you ducking my uncle? Who's your uncle? The preacher. Why are you ducking my uncle? Cause I know he gonna ask me cause he, he really want to come over here. You know what I'm saying? He really want to speak to us and represent and be able to have a voice for the pastor since we got to speak our habit. You know what? To answer your question. Why you ducking him? I'm not ducking your uncle. At all. I'm, I'm going to be me. Around your uncle. That's what I, and I don't expect nothing less. So, I don't expect nothing less. When he comes and he gets here, we gonna have a conversation. It ain't like he's inviting us to come to his church. He's asking to come to our Cause I wouldn't go. Cause I wouldn't go. Oh God. I ain't going to no nigga's church. No, listen though, listen though. He asked to come to our platform. So therefore, We're going to be ourselves regardless, you know what I'm saying? But we men, you know what I'm saying? We know how to have a respectable conversation. I just want to just, you know, see if you was ducking him or not. Because I felt like you was ducking him a little bit. Definitely not. Definitely not. I've always wanted to have a conversation with a preacher, bro. How can I put it? It's two... rims of categories I want to have a conversation with. Yeah. One is preachers and two is gay people. I wanna have a brutally honest conversation. I'm pig. Yeah. You know what I'm saying? Like there is no way to put it. Like pig is just pig. Yeah, yeah. You know? Yeah. And I just, I don't have no, I ain't gonna say I don't have a filter because I am respectable. Like I ain't gonna disrespect nobody. Yeah. But at the same time, what I believe in is what I believe in. Do you think we bring value with our platform? Yes. What type of value do you think we bring to people? I think we bring, um, you can be yourself around whoever, whenever. Because you ain't never, Nick, you've been the same person since fifth grade. You think that for real? Yes. No matter, I'm very strongly opinionated. You have never changed your morals, beliefs, and values because you friends with me. I have never changed my morals, beliefs, and values because I'm friends with you. I'm so glad that you're saying this because people don't believe that, bruh. What? People do not believe that, bruh. People think that you cater to me? Yes. Nigga, you ain't never, changed who you are. You've literally been the same person since I met you, bro. You've grown. Yeah, okay. You've matured. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. But Ant has always been Ant. That's crazy to hear you say that, bro. Nigga, I don't be knowin how people look at me. I be like, damn, I, I, I... Damn, do you wanna be the same person always or do you wanna change? Do you wanna be unrecognizable? Of course you've changed. Yeah. You've matured. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Throughout the years. But... You believe in God. Yeah, you know what I'm saying? People listen, you a wholesome man. Hold on bro, people who listened to our last episode and actually thought that I don't believe in God. no. Like what are y'all listening to? Like, you've never changed, you've never changed your morals, principles, and beliefs. You've always been who you are bro. You've always been who you are. Appreciate that. Um, through in and throughout, even when it comes to, when it comes to music, I give you my opinion on who the I want to hear and who I don't want to hear. You say, man, this is X, Y, and Z. You ain't never differentiated from that. You've never detoured from my opinion. Et cetera, et cetera. You've always went with your morals, principles, and beliefs. Thank you. Always. A hundred percent since the day I met you, bro. That's how I look at us also. I just don't, people be thinking we the same though, for some reason, we are completely opposite. That's why I had to stop you when you was building up to that. I'm like, bruh, thank you. I'm so glad to hear you saying this because people think that I'm you for some reason. And I feel like when it comes to being a man. You know what I'm saying? I think we, our, our views Are parallel, you know what i'm saying? But yeah other than that bro, it's not really too much Like it's not too much. We agree on we maybe have a conversation and we could be cozy like this. Yeah The conversation gonna end like this If you let that go on a good two, three minutes, bruh, that gon veer off, bruh. It's gonna veer off, because you not, you not gon deter what you believe in. I'm not gon deter from what I believe in. Yeah, you know what I'm saying? And you've always been like that. I'd rather take the chance and walk with God, bruh. You said that. I always said that. You always say, but there's... There's nothing wrong with believing, etc, etc. Well, I believe and I pray and I do this. But you listen, you're a good listener. You're definitely 100 percent a good listener. Anybody that can't listen to the point of an opposite opinion that they have. You, you're not too strong in what you believe because you scared by listening to this other person that they gonna make you change how you feel about it. So, it's like people that can't listen to somebody that look at they're completely different from them, like, you're not, you're not, for one, you're not too confident in what you believe in. That's what make this show so great, bruh. The, like, the fact that we... Having these two different points of views and we, we bringing the, the two worlds that we come from, bro, we bringing them together. You said you feel like the purpose of life is to find happiness. This place that you at right now in your life. Would you say you're getting closer to it? Do you think you're on the right path? Do you think you following away from it? Do you think, you know, it's somewhere in between, like, right now, where do you feel like you fall on that scale? I feel like I'm starting over. Starting fresh. I feel like I'm starting over. I feel like, who I am right now, I erased the dry erase marker board. Everything 13 years, and I'm getting to my principles and the foundations of myself. You feel me coming to and being in Louisiana, bro, that has been like one of the best things that happened to me. Like I've never been around family consistently in the past 13 years. It's kind of like you live in your childhood again. That's exactly what it is, bro. I'm living a childhood. All over again. Yeah. You know what like what, finding your true happiness, that's what, at least when you on that path to finding your happiness, I feel like that's the, that's the road you gotta go back down. You gotta go back down that childhood lane, you know what I'm saying? Go back. What was you missing? What was you, what did you want when you was at your most innocent stage? I just feel like I'm starting over and I'm okay with that. I got patience now. I'm 31. Yeah, I got patience. I can draw out the blueprint of where I want to go and I know how to get there Because the experiences that i've been through in my life, you feel me? So the last from july to We're gonna say september 25th Bro, I just been chilling eating breakfast with my grandma. Yeah. You know what I'm saying? Yeah. I just been chilling. You feel me? Yeah. I text my cousins yesterday like, damn bro, I miss y'all. Yeah. I ain't been able to text a family member I missed them in 13 years. That's crazy. Cause I don't really know what it feel like. I left at 18. 18, I was ready to leave, so I ain't miss nobody. Yeah. And then coming from that, I don't miss that. I don't even like being down there. Bruh, it's crazy. I miss it, but I don't wanna go back. I don't miss it, bro. I don't even think about it. Remember you used to talk about high school? I'm like, bro, what the I don't even think about that bro. I don't even think about it. I don't care about it. Yeah. It's not, I ain't gonna say I don't care about it. Cause I really do. You feel me? I think about this sometimes. But, it's just like, it happened. It's over with. All right, we're adults now. Yeah, yeah. Like, we was in the middle of COVID, we didn't have a 10 year reunion. Out of all the history of life, a pandemic happened on the of 2010's 10th year anniversary. Like, damn, like. I think, I think we the chosen ones. I think 1990 through 1994, we the chosen ones. And what you think we meant to do? Change the world, impact the world. America ain't gonna change until somebody from our generation get in there. I, I feel a lot of pressure. Why? You know what I'm saying? Cause I'm always trying to outdo myself, bruh. I'm always trying to outdo myself and I'm always trying to think about the end. Like I, I made a post on Facebook like, Start everything you do with the end in mind. And I feel like that. That, uh, that that drive me crazy sometimes, bruh, cause I'm like, I'm always overthinking You know what I'm saying? These episodes, like I'm just always stressing out. I want everything to be perfect. I want to make sure the audio is going to be perfect. I want to make sure You go biggest critic. Yeah, yeah, man. And I, bruh, like we just talked about happiness. Like man, I want to be remembered, bruh. You do. I want to be remembered. Can I ask you why? It's crazy because when you think about it, bro, in a hundred years, they all gonna be gone. You know what I'm saying? It's different now. Like. We got, we got evidence now that never goes away. Once you put it out there, it's never going to go away. You know what, what, what bothers me the most though? What's that? We don't have our community. It's outside we do bro. I think we do more than we think we do, bro I think we do more than we think I don't see it. You're not gonna see it though That's the thing. You're not going to see it, bro. We got outsiders. And that's why you gotta, that's why you gotta damn block that out. Because you're not going to see it. You know, I don't, I don't, I see it but I don't care about it. It's not a thing. Because we done dealt with it our entire lives. Yeah, exactly. I don't know. I feel like as I'm getting older and as I'm maturing, that's one of the things that I realize like, damn, there's a reason. And I feel like it's way more love than we can see. You know what I'm saying? And there's a reason for that also. You know, it's just all about growing. Understanding that for yourself. At the end of the day, I love where I came from and I, and I always love it. That's one thing you gotta love where you came from, bro. Bro. You, you've never, you've never came shy of that, bro. Yeah. Regardless, and I don't, regardless of the situation, that's, even though your support system should have been 10 times better than what it was, bro. Yeah, yeah. You've never shied away from Yeah. Where you come from, who you are. And it's only God, bro. Like, once again, it's only God. I think it's you, bro. He put that in my heart, though, bro. I think it's you, bro. He put that in my heart. I think it's you and you're eager to learn and be who you are, bro. Like, especially from where we come from, bro. And you never deterred from who you were slash who you are and where you come from, nigga. I appreciate you Bro! That mean a lot, bro. Bro! With that being said, bro, I'm like... What's next? I, I'm restarting, bro. Do you? I'm having fun all over again. Do you know what your end, what you want your end goal to be? 15 acres with a 2, 500 square foot house. With my kids to say, that's your lot right there. That's your lot right there. That's my end goal. That gonna happen. Nigga, I already know. That gonna happen. I already know, it's in the making. That gonna happen. It's in the making, bro. You feel me? And, um, it's going to happen within the next 24 months. Damn. What, uh, what year you see yourself retire? For good? Like, for good? Like, not working no more? Before I'm 50. 50? Yeah, before I'm 50. I'm not one of them people where I don't want to work at 25. Because, you know, the world now, you can literally turn on a camera and get rich. Yeah. Do you think something wrong with it? Everybody can't do it. Everybody can't try to do it You got to know if it's for you or not Somebody got a working Amazon ship the packages out Somebody gotta know somebody gotta work Saying everybody can't do it. It's the right message though. It's it. That's just Cuz you can do it Like 90 percent of the this that's got the biggest YouTube channels they introverts That didn't have no friends or didn't with nobody and but they they have something to offer people you know I'm saying so I just don't want to tell people that everybody can't do it because I Feel like everybody can do it. I don't think everybody Nigga, this this light and this ain't for everybody. That's just like when it comes with with it when it comes with you, bro I think your greatest when it comes to the music industry is the background. Nigga, nigga, you are a magician. Yeah. Nigga, you can literally do everything behind the camera and behind the mic. I don't know. I feel like I get caught up a lot between what you love doing and what you really good at doing. You know what I'm saying? Cause at the end of the day, I love this You know I love producing anything. You know what I'm saying? You Spike Lee. I think podcast is a thing. Podcast and like I told you, you're with your fam, vacations with your family. Bro, that's your lane. I really got a lot of faith in this podcast, bro. I really, and I, I wanted to grow, I wanted to blossom, bro. I wanted to blossom and you're a big part of that, you're a big part of that, bro. I think it will. You're a big part of that, man. I think it will, bro. I think it will. You know what, you know what, you know what demotivates, dude, what demotivates me? What's that? The people that I expect to promote the people that I expect to, uh, support, that's what demotivates me. But they never going to be the ones that support. Yeah. They never going to be the ones that say, Hey, I knew him when he was nobody. Yeah, you right. I knew him, I went to school with him. Oh, that's my cousin. We think that we're on everybody's mind. We think all day long is somebody sitting around thinking about it. Or is somebody sitting around thinking about Pete? No, that's not happening. Nobody's sitting... People know Jordan. People know Adidas because they're constantly putting themselves in front of people's face. For one, they're another thing, they're a brand that's been around for decades. Adidas didn't become Adidas in three months, or four months. You know what I'm saying? Like, all of these brands that we love. And this is your competition, bro. Like, yeah, they say, yeah, they say, oh, your better than, your feel better than Nike, but then guess what? You haven't, your, your website ain't up or you haven't released no new, no new designs. But guess how many new designs Nike came out with this week. Guess how much money they ain't spent on marketing this week. Guess how many commercials they ain't made this week. Guess how many free, guess how many millions of free product they can send to millions of creators all over the world. You know what I'm saying? It's like, so it's just, we can't let that deter us, bro. Like this is a marathon. But listen, bro. It's a marathon. Listen, bro. I'm the type of person where I feel like, if you tell me what the you going, nigga, your problem become my problem. You know what I'm saying? I'm the person that I just feel like I got a solution for everything. You feel me? It don't matter what the I'm going through. If you tell me what you going through, all brought down this, what you could do to make it better, or this what you could do to this. You do? Yeah., you feel me? Yeah. Yeah. So life just be here. That nigga, the clothing line, nigga. That's to, that's what be making a nigga don't wanna down, talk about be going through. Because I know once I tell you now, now you gonna be thinking about it too. And it's like, bro, as a man, like I don't like. We won't be trying to put our damn problems on nobody else, but that end up being a negative because now we trying to carry that weight by ourselves. Yeah. And it, but it's like, damn, I don't want to tell, tell you now that, cause this hard for me now, I tell you, you dealing with it and now I could have just dealt with this by myself. That's the, that's the mentality that most men have, bro. Yeah. Like, is it worth it, bro? Yeah, it is, bro. You gotta be a man the day. You gotta, it's cheering up Chexstar at the end of the day, bro. Cause there's so many people depending on you, bro. That's your, that's your dominant trait. That's right. As a man, as a man, nigga. Like, nigga. Will the black man and the black woman ever get back on the same page? I think there are black men and black women that are on the same page. I think social media be having us going at each other next. Yeah, but bro, we... From, I don't know what it is, bro. For whatever reason, bro, niggas just Wanted to deteriorate black women and black women wanted to deteriorate black men, bro But and I don't know if that's really happening or or or if that's what they put in in front of us What they put it in front of us is other people's problems and making it your problem Yes, nigga Sit in front of TV and watch that for three four hours. Next thing, you know, she in my face Even your life. I'm like turn it. I hate when she watches. Yeah, bro That's what I'm saying. Like baby all the people problems become your problems You don't understand and then it'd be like bro you be going throughout your day Thinking about the podcast you just heard, nigga, that ain't even your life. That never even happened to you. You're not even accountable for that. That's why, that's why I be, that's why I be wondering, like when it comes to the black man versus black woman thing, I don't know if that's a real issue because it's something that is pushed so much by the mainstream media. It's what they push to make that our issue. Are we really in real life when we go outside? Is it really it's an issue? It's really like that bro Yeah for no reason You don't understand like like I said them watch podcasts and they like make that they like bro like that They make that they problem. It's just like with the with the conversation about bodies Mm, conversation about bodies, right? Some, you can easily just say, if I was easily persuasive, you can easily look at my girl, like how many people we'd have been, we'd have been together for 40 years, toxic as That's what it is though. Is, is in vain. So many relationships. You can persuade me. I can watch your podcast. I ain't never thought about asking my girl by her body count, but you can persuade me. Now I'm going home. Like. Damn, baby, what's your body count? And she flirty, and you, oh, you got flirty, and, oh. Real niggas not doing that though, really. But I'm just saying though, but that's happening in real life. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. You done been with her ten plus years, but you listen to her nigga podcast. And now you looking at your girl different and she done had your back do thick and thin and she ain't never done you wrong. This media ain't no joke man. It ain't bro. This media ain't no joke. This ain't no joke. You got a responsibility when you behind this mic bro, you definitely got a responsibility. Bro, this been a relationship podcast. Yeah, but you know, that's what we always used to talk about on live with. Cause you know, we used to have a lot of females in our lives. That's all they used to want to hear us talk about when we was on Facebook. Okay, we talking about toxic relationships. What makes a relationship toxic? One word. Manipulation. Okay, what is manipulation? When you have somebody basically in the palm of your hand. And you just have them doing whatever you want them to do while you over here doing your own thing. Toxicity isn't the only, like it isn't just with cheating. You could still be in a toxic relationship and nobody's cheating. Couple examples. A could be abusing alcohol and you ain't, you ain't cheating or doing nothing outside the house. But you drunk as And every time you get drunk, you causing commotion. You causing, you know what I'm saying, different type of inside of the household or whatever. That affect everybody. Yeah, that toxic. You a toxic person. Every time you get drunk, some going on. You ain't necessarily cheating, but damn, a just... I never looked at it like that. Your wife could be leaving the house, going to work every day, stressed out as Cause she like, damn, this gonna get drunk. I don't know what the he gonna do, if he gonna break something, if he gonna, damn, drive the car and wreck. Like, now she stressed out all day. Cause you drunk all the time. I never, I never looked at it like that, bro. Now that we're talking about that, do toxic relationships affect children? Hell yeah, definitely. Definitely. Okay, I probably could argue that that's the, that's the key to it all. My wife, she doesn't make my kids play with nobody. You know how most kids you go to the park and they like, go play, go play with him, go be nice. Like my wife don't teach my kids to be forced to have to interact or play with nobody that they don't want. Me as a parent that have kids that are people persons, like my kids can walk in a room That's Cinco, that's Tristan, I can walk in a room and be like, that's Pig, they all have my aura. Yeah, yeah. You know what I'm saying? So my kids are naturally going to play with everybody in the room. Yeah, yeah. But you got kids like. And I got girls too, so you got to keep that in mind. And that's one thing, and that's why it's hard for me to disagree. At the end of the day, a lot of things I disagree with my wife about, but at the end of the day, I'm not a woman. So that keeps us out of a lot of arguments because at the end of the day, if we disagree, I'm not about to sit here and argue with you with how to raise a woman. I'm not a woman. You know what I'm saying? I, I got to just fall back and just be like, all right, you the mama, you want them to be like this. And, and you don't know how to raise a woman, women being too friendly. Puts them in a lot of situations. I don't, I disagree. A lot of compromising situations. I disagree. I disagree. Bro, you, a woman being too friendly at the bar can lead her getting into the car with the wrong man. They end up taking advantage of her. Hey, I'm not going to be too quick to talk to him. I'm going to wait and see and peep out his body language or let me see how he moving. Let me see. You know what like you gotta be friendly to whoever in the room. No, you don't have to talk to this person just because you in the room with them. Yeah. You know what I'm saying? I agree. So that's what, that's what, and that's different with a man. Like you bring, you raising boys. You want a man to walk in the room with authority. But I don't teach them that though. I promise you bro, I don't teach my kids to walk in a room and demand attention. Yeah, I've never told them that when you when you are well kept and well respected, man, you don't have to beg for attention. It's gone. It's just a natural thing. And I think I think that's the thing that rubs off on my kids because I get teary eyed because when I come around them, bro, I see younger me. You knew me from fifth grade. You knew me from kindergarten. My kid, from what you've seen from me, my kids are literally the exact same thing times two. It's scary having conversations with your 10 year old son about, it didn't even, I, I didn't, I never spit out the words, but having a conversation about arrogance and confidence. Some people are going to look at you like you arrogant, but you really just confident. And you really believe everything that you put out in the earth. Facts. Bro, you gotta take this opportunity to live life again. In a way, that's kinda what you have, when you have kids, bruh, it's like you getting a second, you get a second chance at life when you have kids. So when you see yourself, you gotta also look back and go into that mind of 11, 12 year old David. Yeah. What was I missing? Yeah. What did I need to hear back then that I didn't? Right. Now I, I got an opportunity to fix that path, to correct that now, you know what I'm saying? And it's like, as a father and as a man, you got to constantly, cause even with my girls, I do the same. I'm a parent. So I look at my son, I'm like, I, you was sitting in the stand last, I said, bro, I'm teary eyed looking at my son, bro. Yeah. Think about what you was missing, bro. I was missing, I was missing guidance. That's what I was missing, but I give you that guidance. If you, if you mastering everything that's going on down right now, look down the line. When you, when everything, if everything in front of you is straight, look down the line and go ahead and start straightening that up. So, if you feel like everything that he's doing now is... But I'm confident though. I give them confidence because I'm, I'm not arrogant. I don't think I'm arrogant. I feel like your arrogance stop you from seeing what you missing. How? So you feel like I'm arrogant? You so arrogant that you don't think nothing is missing. No, I'm not. So you feel like I'm arrogant? I... I feel like me along with many other people think you're arrogant. I've heard that my entire life. Exactly. Even in the army. So you understand what I'm saying? Even in the army. So you understand me saying that? Even in the army people tell me, are you arrogant? So you understand me saying that? I don't think I'm arrogant. And I'm your best friend and I'm telling you the same thing. So you say I'm arrogant? Yes. I feel like you are. Yeah. Wow. Because I believe in who I am and because I know, I know what I bring. But it's a thin line though, bro. It's a thin line between arrogance and confidence, bro. Really? It's a damn lie. So you think I'm arrogant? It's a damn lie. I don't think I'm arrogant. I'm so humble. I'm so humble. I never put myself above somebody else, bro. You never. You don't come off like that though. Bro, I give you the shirt off my back, bro. You have empathy. Okay. I believe in my ability. How does that make me arrogant? Hey, I was listening to somebody once and they read the definition of humble and, um, I'm going to read it. It says having or showing a modest or low estimate of one's own importance. Why would anybody want to be humble? Why would anybody? Everybody got to be humble. Why would anybody want to show a modest or low estimate of one's own importance to show grace to someone who showed us who showed us grace? You got to show grace. It's just like your woman. This is like your wife, bro. Your wife. You got to show grace. You get definitely out the home like your children. You got to show grace. you nigga. I got to show you grace at some point. Facts. Facts. You feel me? You're right, you're right. And just like, there's just like a woman that I love in my life. I gotta show her grace. So the rest of the world gotta, gotta get grace to who you are as a human. You gotta show them grace. You gotta dim your light. You gotta. Sometimes. You gotta underestimate. If I'm, if I'm, if I'm reading a comment and they say some that's like valuable, man, I gotta show grace. I gotta dim my light. Cause you right. Man, I will sue up man. You right? I ain't saying you argue with some folks for the hell of it though, bro No, no, no if I argue with somebody i'm very strongly opinionated about my opinion Very strong opinion. I got seen some weird people that argue just for the hell of it on social media. That weird, bro. I feel like people argue with me for no reason, bro. I don't know. Especially. I don't see all your arguments, but a lot of them that I see, I feel like the person that you going back and forth with, they kind of got a good point. I don't really see it. Really? A lot of people, I feel like they just be wanting to argue and they just be wanting attention. As much as Dion pray and give glory to God, it must have been too many calls on the prayer line this Saturday. God told Marty, that's some arrogant, arrogant and disrespectful to the Christian community. That's me being, man, I ain't worried about this. I don't care about what people say. All right. That's arrogant. Is it? It's disrespectful. Okay, I'll take that. I'll take that. Why do you do that? Because that's what I want to say., do you not know and understand offend a large majority of people? Yeah. I like that's what it come down to. I know that, and that's why you have the perception of being an arrogant person after, after I per, after I post it. I know that what's, I know that there are opinions that are gonna come behind it, but do I care? No, because if I cared about everybody's opinion, I would never boast, but that's arrogance though, man. everybody. everybody, man. I only, if somebody, if somebody that I'm close to be like, man, delete that, that's X, Y, and Z. Maybe I delete it when I post certain things. Yeah. I don't post things. And in the back of my mind, I'm like, okay, I know people are going to say X, Y, and Z about this. It's literally just my opinion. Whatever transpires after I press post or send? That's whatever happens just because I feel opposite because of how you feel. That means I shouldn't express myself, nigga. We got two different opinions. I should be able to express myself just because how you express yourself. Just because yours is godly and mine is not. That don't mean I shouldn't be able to express myself, nigga. Before you get to your question, I just want to ask you this. Can you believe it's some people in the world who never experienced love? In this life, I feel like I spent, I experienced all three loves. I feel like I experienced the, um, karmic relationship, the twin flame relationship and the love of your life relationship. For whatever reason, in this lifetime, I experienced all three. It's very rare that you experience all three. But for that, for whatever reason, I feel like I experienced all three of them. And I think I was sent back on this universe. How long away you think you were sent back? I think I was sent back. You think you already lived once? Yeah, for sure. I have dreams of like past life experience. Damn. I have dreams since I was a kid. My grandma can tell you this, bro. Me being a toddler. About me running through the woods with hearing chain shackles in the background in dark and seeing flashlights. Like I thought I was a runaway slave when I was in elementary school. Damn. My grandma can tell you that. That deep, bro. I told my, she broke down, started crying and started praying. I woke, I woke up one morning, right? I told my grandma, I said, Grandma, I think I'm gonna go to jail. She like, what? Why you say that? I'm like, I had a dream. I've been having a dream for like the past week while I'm running and I can hear dogs barking, but I can hear like chain shackles in the background, but I see flashlights in the darkness as I'm running. I've never been caught. But I'm just running in my dream and like she just broke down and started crying like I have a big community name with Jesus so in my past life, I feel like I was like a runaway slave or like some like that because I'm very Defiant I'm very like Go against the grain type like nigga if you say some I don't believe in that I'm not going with it. Yeah , you feel me? Yeah, yeah, yeah. So like that, that, that, that's a key to your arrogance, but yeah. Hell yeah. I definitely know what you mean. But yeah, I, I, 'cause I feel like our conscience don't die, bro. It doesn't, it doesn't. Like when you having those dreams, bro, that's nothing but your conscience. You, no matter how many it happen, it happen in real life. No matter how long you go in life, that is just gonna keep coming. It's not going to leave whether you understand it or not. Yeah. So when it comes to bad or so-called sins that we commit in life, I feel like that is going to forever be in our conscience. I feel like when we die, we're going to have to answer for that I don't know in what way, but I think that we have a choice at that point, whether we feel like I want to go back. I don't feel like, I don't feel like I learned my purpose. I don't feel like I did. And that's crazy because that's the next topic. Yeah, I don't feel like I fulfilled my real purpose or learned my real lesson. So I feel like some people choose to come back. When it comes to our purpose in life, bro, It's in our face. Whatever our purpose is, it's in front of us the whole time. Like, I just feel like my purpose in this lifetime and how I am right now is to just be with one person. I think it, whatever your purpose is, it definitely has something to do with a message, with speech, with broadcast. With reaching a broader audience, with reaching people, whatever your purpose is, is something to do with that. With me. Yes. And I feel like your purpose is also something to do with love. I feel like when you looking, when you figuring out your purpose, you gotta connect all the aspects of your life together. It's like a puzzle, and once you figure out how to put that puzzle piece together, that's when great happen. And like, for me and you, I feel like our purpose, I feel like we gonna bring this city back together. You know what I'm saying? Like, I feel like, I feel like I feel like, bro, we're going to bring, we're going to be the voice, like you said, and the fact that, the fact that you got on this microphone, the first thing you started talking about was the 1991 and the 1992, like, we're going to be the one that changed the world, bro. We're going to be the one, bro. It start at home. And it's like you, you keep saying how, like, we don't have that much support, but bro, it's so many people from back home. That reach back out to me on us. But they don't talk to me though. And it's a lot of people that talk to you that don't talk to me. That's right. That's why I said we bringing two different worlds together, bro. And it, and it's like when you discovering your purpose, you gotta see the bigger picture. You gotta be able to step outside of how you normally look at it and be like, damn, okay. This may not make sense to me now. Now. No, but I see. The overall picture. We only get one shot at this bro. You ever think about that? We only get one shot at this You know what? I don't. We only get one shot. Well, I don't know. I guess you say you been here before. So I guess we might get more than one shot. That's why you don't give a That's why I don't give a That's why I don't. That's why it never phases me, bro. Yeah. We got something. This gonna burn the city back together, bro. Remember I said that. Hey, that's gonna be the name of this. We're gonna bring the city back together. What city? The town. The town. Y'all niggas keep saying the city, bro. We gonna bring the city back together. Alright, check this out. Like, I don't know, you can correct me if I'm wrong, but we haven't experienced that much loss throughout our life. Like, as far as death. You're right. You know what I'm saying? So, that's why only person I've lost in my life is my great grandmother. Yeah, me too. And my oldest cousin. When, when you don't lose, when you haven't lost somebody close to you, bruh, I just don't want it. I don't want it to be. Do you have a dream about it? The closest person. Yes, all the time. Does it make you cry? My, my wife tell me all the time. I cry in my sleep, bruh. Really? Yeah, she be waking me up and Literally crying out loud. But do you remember what you dream of and why you cry? I, I remember it for that split second when I wake up. And then when I wake up and I'm like, Oh that was a, that was just a dream. I instantly try to erase that out of my mind. And that's one thing that a lot of people tell you not to do. They say, I've had, I had some person, I had a guy tell me like, whatever you dream about, you need to instantly write that down. Really? Like quick as possible. But I'm the type of person. I dream a lot. I have some horrific dreams. I dream a lot. I dream about running through the woods, dogs barking and seeing flashlights since I was a kid. I have dream about that since I was in elementary school. I'm 31 to this day. I still have that dream. So I know in my past life, I was a runaway slave. You feel me? That's what you take from it. That's what I take. Cause I hear the shackles and I hear the dogs bark. How you know that ain't something that got you tied down in your life right now as an elementary school child, maybe it's been on you that long. Who knows? That's what I take from it. Maybe you need to cut those chains. But I take, I take from it as far as being like a past life trauma. Yeah. That I'm carrying into this life. Yeah. You feel me? Like I said earlier, bro, your conscience is something that never goes away. That's why people say you have to be careful of what you take in now as an adult in this life. Because it's going to follow you. You know what I'm saying? You can't go backwards. Like once you learn something, you can't... unlearning. You know what I'm saying? So whatever you learn in this life is going to follow you to your next one. So you're not going to go backwards. So that's why people be saying you got to be careful what you take care of. Somebody asked how old was Ant when he got married? Uh, 23. 23 year old to 31 year old Ant. What advice would you give to him looking forward? as far as life, I would have, I would have invested earlier, early as possible, you know what I'm saying? So that's the number one thing I would have invested more. If I could go back, I would have down, put some money into stocks, you know what I'm saying? And, and different like that. And, um, as far as marriage. I would have told myself to trust the process. Would you have gotten married at such a young age? Would you have told yourself, don't get married right now, wait it out? Would I have told myself to wait it out? I would have told myself to trust the process. I feel like that was believe you can read. I would have told myself to trust the process, bruh. Do you regret it? Do you regret getting married early? Hell nah. Really? I got everything I wanted, bro. Cause I ain't gonna lie to you. I ain't gonna lie to you, bro. Everything that I've been through in my life, I wish I would've never got married, bro. Either time. No, 21 year old me is not the same as 31 year old me. I have proved that, bro. And, and the woman and women in my life can testify to that. You feel me? It's previous women in my life to be like, okay, David wasn't experienced to be like that. Your conscience. Yeah. Nigga. So that's going to be something you got to answer for. I got to ask you for the rest of my life until I make it right until I make it right. I can't believe you just admitted that that easy just now. I think about it every day. I don't regret nothing. I don't regret nothing. No, we just, yeah, because had I went through those past experiences, you wouldn't be who you is. I wouldn't be who I am today. I wouldn't have boundaries, I wouldn't have expectations, I wouldn't have nothing. You feel me? It's sad to say, but a lot of people come to, into each other life just to, for an experience. Yeah. You've, you, I have been in people life where I'm, I know. I'm just an experience. Yeah. Everybody has different experiences. So let me just say that first and foremost, right? There is some women that could meet a man at 19 and marry them and be with them for the rest of their life. But there are some women that could meet a man at 19 and at 20 they could be like, this was just an experience. Yeah. Yeah. Facts. But you gotta be able to differentiate that. It's okay. It's completely okay with spending five years with somebody and being like man I'm I know I'm not gonna be this nigga or this but it's not for me. Yeah, but when you Build actually build something with somebody when y'all both come from nothing and you get to build something with this person and it's like damn that's why when you asked me if I could go back and do it over it's like hell I would I would still do it this way. Bro you are rare though the 0. 99 that is very rare. Yeah. I've been out here in the world bro I've been out here in the world. Yeah, that's rare what you got is rare you feel me The woman that you got in your corner is rare. I'm the 99. 1 percent I have found a 99. 1 percent I found it. I Felt it not have I found it, but I felt it. Yeah, but I had to go through 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9, 10 experiences to feel that you went through one. You went through one experiences and you found it. Why do you think people stay with people they know they don't have a future with? For one, I think kids. People I, the number one reason. And is that not a good reason? No. Me personally, no. Whoa. You don't think so? No. But kids, see, kids experience the trauma that you put them through. Nick, at least I can teach you along the way though. I don't think presence brings value. I think principles bring value. Presence can bring toxic relationships. Just because you present. I think kids are worth it, bro. I don't think so. I think kids are worth it. I don't think you should be in a marriage or relationship because of the kids. The kid's going to feel the neglect, the the unlove, the abandonment. Did you see parents love each other? Yes. I didn't. Even though it was flaws, I still can appreciate. That I was meant to take something from this. I, I can't, I can't. I went through Constantine Elementary. I remember being bullied. I remember being picked on at Constantine. So when I went to C. E. Hannah, I was the ones that picked on kids, and the ones that bullied on kids. So when I went to Muffer Elementary, I had a different perspective. I never wanted to pick on kids. I never wanted to bully kids. Because you knew in Muffer we was going to whoop your Nah, look, that's just some real Nah, look, no, no. Bro, we didn't play that in Muffer. I'm just saying, bro. I'm just saying. Keep it 100, bro. The different lifestyle from niggas in Muffer. And they're from lifestyle from niggas and constant time. We didn't play that You're not about to come bully us. No, it's totally different. You're not about to bully us. You're not about to come from Michigan. You're definitely not about to come from Michigan and come bully us. I'm telling you. I'm just keeping it one handed. I'm telling you, it's totally different. That's why you.. You change your damn point of looking and when you're a mother... Y'all muffin niggas more open to me open. What you mean? Y'all were more welcome to me. I came up in the Anderson and the Oxford system. And when you got, I came up, in a constant town and then I came up and see him. And then I came up in. Mumford Elementary. Sit your down somewhere and play basketball. No, they humble me. Yeah, you right, yeah. That's, you saying the same thing. Like, what? I ain't gonna lie to you, eh, I ain't, eh, eh, I ain't gonna lie to you. We not letting no Michigan niggas come, come from out of town and, and try to step on Like, that just wasn't gonna lie to you. Especially in that era. I ain't gonna lie to you. That was a different era. I ain't gonna lie to you. That could probably happen now, in this new era, but back then, like, that wasn't just gonna go like that. I ain't gonna lie to you, it's two different school systems. I grew up in two different schools. Keep it 100, man. You don't think I'm keeping it 100? From Michigan. I didn't say I was a bullying muffin. I was never a bullying muffin. Yeah, and I'm agreeing with you. I never said I was a bullying muffin. I know. You retired that once you got the muffin. Y'all were totally different. Y'all were warming and welcoming. Facts. That's what I'm saying. Cause could get ugly. And it gets ugly. We like to keep kosher cause she can go crazy at any given moment. Like That's capital. That's capital. Niggas at Marvel was not getting into it, bro. Exactly. Next topic. Well look, bro. That's just the type of person that I am, though. You said you was restarting on life. Mm hmm. You said you had a new love and all that. You know, we found out a lot today about you. Hey, I hope you, I hope you find what you're looking for, man. Yeah. I hope we keep being great. Keep seeing each other, be great, do great. I love you, bro. I love you too, bro. Another one in the books. What's this, 17? Episode 17, Let's Be Clubbed. We're gonna keep pushing. We're gonna keep keeping this bit live for y'all coming back. You know what I'm saying? Trying to keep, be more consistent. You know what I'm saying? I'm happy I was able to make it here with my boy today. This was a, a big occasion and a big moment. I appreciate you bro. This meant a lot to me bro. This conversation meant a lot to me. I, it's crazy. I will be having, like, damn bro. I will be having no idea what the we gonna talk about when we get in this video. I appreciate you bro. Really, I appreciate you. I appreciate you too bro. I appreciate you for, uh, making me vulnerable. Man. For real, you, you make, it's only so many people that make me vulnerable. Yeah. You know what I'm saying? Yeah. And I appreciate you for opening that. You know what I'm saying? So. It's important, bro. We gotta get that off our chest, bruh. Yeah, for sure. We got to. We gotta talk. We gotta open up. For sure. For sure. Cause some of this get too much to care about ourself, bruh. It really do. It too much. Wait. Hey. Episode 17. Let's be clear. We out. We out.
