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Are you still waiting for that lightning bolt of enlightenment? 

Tonight could be the night it finally lands. In this 14-minute journey I reveal how a childhood of chaos, a mind-blowing mushroom trip, and **ONE ruthless question** shattered the illusion of a separate self—and how you can run the same experiment before you go to sleep.

**WHAT’S INSIDE**
• The exact million-dollar question that stopped 20 years of seeking
• Why affirmations, vision boards, and guru quotes keep you stuck in “spiritual waiting rooms”
• A live, on-camera inquiry you can follow alongside me to taste silent awareness
• How to face the fear that rises when you see there is **no one inside** running the show

**⏱️ TIMESTAMPS**
00:00  The endless search & the promise to end the waiting
01:18  Growing up in a war of words
02:46  The night my mind went silent
04:10  University theories vs. real-world pain
05:35  Jed McKenna and the belief-system punch
07:14  The forum that said “there is no you”
08:29  The million-dollar question lands
10:12  Seeing life with no controller
12:03  Practical demo: look for yourself in 30 seconds
13:27  What to expect after the first glimpse
14:20  Your invitation to walk together

**CONNECT & CONTINUE**
Subscribe for weekly pointers, real-time Q\&As, and success stories from seekers who have already ended the waiting. Comment below with the question you’ll ask tonight, then share the video with a friend who’s one breath away from awakening.

**KEYWORDS**
awakening, end the waiting, spiritual awakening, no self, enlightenment, self inquiry, trauma healing, Jed McKenna, consciousness, meditation, stop seeking

Let **tonight** be the night. Ask the question, press play, and see if there really is **NO ONE INSIDE**.

DISCLAIMER: This content is for educational purposes and does not replace professional mental-health or medical advice. Always listen to your own inner guidance.

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Transcript

what I am about to tell you changed everything I knew about awakening and if you are still looking for enlightenment to happen to you listen to my story because I will share what worked and I will give you a million-dollar question that you can ask today and have your answer by the end of this

video i didn't grow up in a peaceful home my parents were arguing and shouting and crying and mom was suffering and even to this day when I go back home I can still witness the same pattern i remember nights when I was waking up the little girl just checking if my parents are okay because I could hear screams and crying and it felt terrifying and it was traumatizing so I I grew up with that question why my parents can be nice to me why they loving and kind to me but they cannot be living happily with each other which led me to study psychology at the university and when I went there I thought "Oh I'm going to finally get all my answers and I'm going to be able to help my suffering mother and get her out into a peaceful happy place

by kind of a superhero but I got deeply disappointed because at the university I did not learn anything that I could apply what I was learning was theories about theories of old people long dead that supposedly knew about life but I couldn't I couldn't use any of it

so after graduating university me and my boyfriend then we left for London and I had to say bye-bye psychology welcome real life which meant working hard being a waitress and later tattoo artist which was fun but the question of how the mind works what's going on in our experience what is this reality kept bugging me and I kept reading books about it and I was curious and I didn't have much information but that question was still alive and I needed to work it out one night some magic happened well literally somebody brought us some magic mushrooms and said "Oh do you want to take it?" I said "Yeah okay we never did that let's see let's see what happens." And boom the most incredible thing happened my mind went silent not just quiet silent there was not one thought coming up i was just sitting there for hours being seeing everything hearing everything experiencing and no narrative was going on in the mind that was shocking in a good way and I tasted that freedom of mind and I wanted that this was a beginning of my search like real search before it was just like playing now I really wanted to find out what is reality and how does it work uh yeah I was going into different ways and trying different stuff and some of them helped and most of it didn't like for example repeating to myself I am the power of the universe i am the light trying to convince myself of this it didn't work affirmations didn't work maybe for a little bit just to get me into the bubble of illusion but after that more pain more suffering more questions

unanswered until somehow mysteriously and very lucky I would say an email came through and said "Oh you should check out Jed McKenna's books." At that point I would read anything whatever was you know promising the exit of this misery I called life and I read these books three books 13 days i had a massive hit into my belief system it felt like a punch in the gut and then I recognized a very important thing

the answers that I've been looking

for will never give it to me i needed to look for questions for the right questions to open up to dismantle to dissolve the stuff I believed was true

well reading these books set me on a journey to start dismantling my belief system and which felt really painful and tragic and at some point I remember I was going on the bus from work home and I was crying because I recognized how everything I knew and I thought it was me and mine and true was what other people told me literally everything I knew was what I learned from other people i am this I am that well this like this and like that none of that was coming from me i didn't know i didn't know how to think for myself and the tragedy of this was that I recognized that everyone's like that like we all are human Pinterest boards of somebody else's beliefs ideas and theories and thinking that this is original that

hurt yeah so reading these books kind of set me on a depression and I was questioning everything like what is hope do I need hope what is truth i don't know what is truth but I knew I had to look inside in my experience to figure it out for myself by myself because nothing else is going to do that for me this was a huge tip or pointer look here then after a few months I kind of relaxed a little bit and I thought I'm gonna Google Jed Mckenda and see if there are any more people talking about this and if I could connect with them and I didn't find anything cuz back then it was just the beginning nobody was talking about no self or liberation but I found one forum and people on that forum were saying this there is no you

look it was staggering they were so convinced and they were so insistent that I had to look i actually looked and thank you thank you universe for that that was the exit that was what I was waiting i was willing and ready to ask the question for myself by myself and see the truth of it so the milliondoll question that showed up one morning was so powerful and so instant that everything changed in that point and I remember I was drinking coffee looking through the window another morning of desperation trying to figure this out and then this question came in is there Ilona running the

show my mind went silent again just for a few seconds

and that silence was the recognition that there was nobody here there never ever was anyone here running the

show the next question that came into the mind was how I never questioned that before how I never looked this way and checked it for myself because it was so it's it was installed by the default that there is this I running the show that this character is me and I am in control and I'm making life happen and I am in charge and I have to do this and to do that and make this eye better somehow to become a better control of life but when I looked I was met by silence and in that silence this false idea fell away and since then I have been sharing this message year after year and I'm sharing this today with you because this is the the last question you may ever need to ask to end the waiting and start seeing what is actually going on here how is this life

working and there are many variations of this question is there I is there I at all who am I

do you have any control what I am controlling right now but it it doesn't matter the question as much I still looking itself so what is this

looking it's the readiness the openness and the willingness to question what you think you know is true

it's like letting a little doubt in saying "hm maybe I don't know let's see let's see." So here's an invitation for you if you want to see it you have to look you have to look in your own experience and you can do it right now are you running the show what are you doing right now okay there's sitting or walking or laying there's just listening to this hearing the words understanding feeling thoughts come in what else is there you are here you are here but not as somebody that is controlling anything but there's this space in which everything is happening the silence that is underneath all the movement

The difficulty here is to take that answer to recognize that this is what you're looking for this is the way out this is the entrance into home into freedom by truly deeply

recognizing what's going on

so my invitation to you is to stop to stop with other people's opinions descriptions pointers this is the pointer this is exactly the one that can cut through all the illusions and get you to look

inside are you running the show

and if you are having difficulty that's okay because it's so radical it's so different than what the mind has been taught and programmed to believe that you may meet some blockages and expectations and fear even on the way but it's okay now you know where to look when you're ready you can take a look look for yourself nobody else can do that for you this is your quest this is your journey what is true to you intellectual understanding has its place and by now the internet and YouTube is saturated with this no self no separate self no control no free will but none of that is going to help you the only thing that will help you is looking for yourself and you don't need to wait any longer no one is coming to give you permission or invitation it's your turn right now the only pointer that is needed is the one that takes you to look for yourself and here you are it all reveals itself right here right now

and if you need somebody to walk with you to hold your hand I'm here you can set up a 30 minutes conversation and we can talk together and we can look together and you may need and you may need a few sessions because of all the barriers that are going to come up against the recognition of truth because the old belief system doesn't want to collapse and it's not going to give up so easily but that that has to happen it's inevitable the end of suffering is the recognition that there is nobody here running the show

bye for now