As law enforcement officers, we often bear witness to the harshest realities life can throw at us. My recent involvement in a "Shop with a Deputy" event was more than a sobering experience, it was a stark reminder of the pressures and responsibilities that some children are forced to endure. Tune in as I share the story of a nine-year-old boy, who, despite his struggles, put the needs of his younger brothers before his own.
But it's not just the victims who bear the brunt. We officers carry a heavy emotional load too, especially when dealing with child abuse cases. How do we cope? What resources are available to us? I discuss my experiences, shedding light on the importance of learning from our mistakes, being patient, and the dire need for supporting infrastructure in our line of work. In the realm of social media, I delve into the controversial world of TikTok battles and the destructive impact they can have on a user's attitude and behavior.
Finally, we discuss some of the more alarming events making the headlines. A Deputy and his wife causing a ruckus at an adult toy store, an officer involved shooting during a traffic stop - incidents that raise questions about accountability and the misconceptions that law enforcement can act recklessly without consequences. We also tackle the sensitive topic of suicide, emphasizing the value of life and the importance of reaching out for help. It's a tough job, but sprinkled with lighter moments too. Like that time when there was a prank involving a decomposing body. So join us, as we traverse these sensitive topics, providing honest insights and sharing some laughs too.
Thank you all for all the support! I couldn't do this without everyone's support! Please have a great week and stay safe! Please check out our Patreon to support us and help us grow! https://www.patreon.com/DEPUTYDANE
As law enforcement officers, we often bear witness to the harshest realities life can throw at us. My recent involvement in a "Shop with a Deputy" event was more than a sobering experience, it was a stark reminder of the pressures and responsibilities that some children are forced to endure. Tune in as I share the story of a nine-year-old boy, who, despite his struggles, put the needs of his younger brothers before his own.
But it's not just the victims who bear the brunt. We officers carry a heavy emotional load too, especially when dealing with child abuse cases. How do we cope? What resources are available to us? I discuss my experiences, shedding light on the importance of learning from our mistakes, being patient, and the dire need for supporting infrastructure in our line of work. In the realm of social media, I delve into the controversial world of TikTok battles and the destructive impact they can have on a user's attitude and behavior.
Finally, we discuss some of the more alarming events making the headlines. A Deputy and his wife causing a ruckus at an adult toy store, an officer involved shooting during a traffic stop - incidents that raise questions about accountability and the misconceptions that law enforcement can act recklessly without consequences. We also tackle the sensitive topic of suicide, emphasizing the value of life and the importance of reaching out for help. It's a tough job, but sprinkled with lighter moments too. Like that time when there was a prank involving a decomposing body. So join us, as we traverse these sensitive topics, providing honest insights and sharing some laughs too.
Thank you all for all the support! I couldn't do this without everyone's support! Please have a great week and stay safe! Please check out our Patreon to support us and help us grow! https://www.patreon.com/DEPUTYDANE
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Speaker 2:Good morning everybody. Welcome to the deputy dane morning show. I appreciate all y'all for being here. We got some stuff to get into. I really don't know what we're gonna get into, but we'll get into something.
Speaker 1:Sit back, oh oh, yep, there's the sirens. I think we're all gonna be detained. Sit back and enjoy the show.
Speaker 2:Good morning everybody. Welcome to the deputy dane morning show. Hopefully everybody's doing great. We've had a week. We've had a really, really crazy week. We are supposed to well, I was supposed to, and I even promised my wife I'd be taking the week off and then not have plenty of time with her or help her with the babies and everything. Well, that shit didn't happen. I ended up I was on call because I'm on call every other weekend ended up getting a bad call last weekend which pretty much took my whole week up. Sometimes it's that way. Right now my caseload is pretty high, pretty high, especially with me dealing with all this congestion. We can tell that my voice doesn't sound the same.
Speaker 2:Something's going on. I got a lot of congestion. My wife actually looked it up and I guess that's going around the US. It's pretty bad. It's I don't know. It's like chest congestion, just coughing. It says it can take up to eight weeks to get rid of. That sucks. Eight weeks. I don't really feel like dealing with this. Eight weeks, this coughing. And I mean just a minute ago I got up after setting this up, got up and as I'm walking I had a bit of a coughing episode and then I was lightheaded. So that tells you this sucks. But I guess yeah, I guess it's going around the nation.
Speaker 2:Everyone's getting it. You test for all this stuff. You got to test for COVID. Nowadays we are all negative with COVID, strep flu, everything, so it's just some virus that gets in there and we're all hacking shit up and it really sucks. Some days, though, it's really nice. This last week, what this call yeah, some of the smells and the. It's kind of nice. Besides, I mean hacking shit up but can't smell as well, which is nice. Hold on, there's going to probably be a couple of breaks in between here for my little coughing fits. Yeah, crazy, crazy, crazy. This stuff is nasty. I'm tired of sitting here with this nasty, nasty, nasty man. So we did a shop of the cop this week or this week shop of the deputies, really what it is. It's been fantastic, it was awesome. It's one of the most amazing but yet sad times. To do this. You get to give these kids something that they don't really get a whole lot and that's some one-on-one attention and just show them that we care about them. Some of these kids are battling things that grown adults couldn't even deal with.
Speaker 2:I had three boys. I took three boys. That's who I was shopping for. We didn't have. We took 40 kids this year. We didn't have enough. We don't have 40 deputies. The fire department helped out, city police helped out, a bunch of us. It was an awesome deal.
Speaker 2:So I had three brothers. The nine-year-old brother was far, far more mature than he should be at his age and you can tell that he is more like a father figure to these kids in their home. He was telling them hey, don't do that, don't do this. No, no, no, can't do that. And it was just, it was crazy to see this nine-year-old being so mature for his age. You know, I kept the puppet that I have in my car and they were playing with the puppet and tell me, they've seen this puppet before on some YouTubers thing and they were talking about things and they wanted to play with it. Well, and they had the one puppet, so they're going back and forth with it. And the older brother was like okay, that's enough time for you, now give it to him. Okay, it's enough time for you, give it to him. He is nine years old.
Speaker 2:When we got to Walmart the two boys the younger ones were just ready to go. They were go, go, go, I want to go to toys, I want to get this, I want to get that. They knew what they wanted to get. And the older one he just kind of sat back and watched. He had a sucker that he had bought on his own at school. I found out and he just sat there with a sucker and he just watched his brothers do stuff and I said hey, bubba, I go, this is also a day for you, what would you like? So what do you like to do? He said he likes video games, he likes Pokemon cards, stuff like that. And I said listen, man, you can go get that stuff. What do we want to get? What excites you? What makes you happy? What do you want to get?
Speaker 2:Finally, after a little bit of watching his brothers get everything they wanted to get, he ended up saying what he wanted. So he starts getting his cart full of stuff. It's just crazy to see, nine years old I remember, sitting there circling the JC Penney catalog or the Sears catalog or whatever it is, with all the toys. Tell my mom I want this, I want this, I want this and I want this. And you just sit there and you do that over and over and over and stuff. Well, this kid wasn't worried about himself, he was making sure his brothers were taken care of.
Speaker 2:So, with this shop at the cop, with the way the inflation is going, we ended up knowing normally we'd give each kid $100 and tell them hey, you have $100, let's make this happen. And then you just sit there and you have to try to figure out what the hell they put in the cart and how much that cost before stuff keeps racking up. Because then you have to tell these kids no, and that sucks, man. I tell them well, no, kid, we have enough, you've already hit your limit. A lot of us deputies, we end up taking money out of our own pocket because sometimes these kids ask for things they should not be asking for. Well, mommy and daddy are struggling with formulas. I want to get baby girl some formula. Mommy and daddy can't buy me clothes, so I need to get me a new shirt and some underwear, stuff like that.
Speaker 2:It's hard to let a kid on Christmas buy necessities that he needs or his family needs over what he wants. I know that this sounds kind of dumb, but the whole reason we're taking these kids out is to let them feel special. Let them know this is about them. We give them a pizza party, we get in a parade, we ride lights and sirens as we're going from wherever we have the pizza party to Walmart. It's supposed to be about them. It's not supposed to be about necessities of life, such as cookies and candy and stuff like that, which is not necessities. But you know what I mean. It shouldn't be. Oh, I don't ever get this at home. We need spaghetti at home. Something like this shouldn't be that way. It always touches you. It always does so. This that older brother he finally end up buying some Pokemon cards and some toys that he wanted to get along with those brothers toys and stuff and it was just. It's like. So it's one of the most beautiful, amazing, sad things to see it. Really it touches your heart.
Speaker 2:If anybody's been following me on tick tock this week and hanging out with our lives and stuff, we're raising money for a good cause. We're raising money for a child advocacy center and if you really don't know what that means, it's. So there's people specializing friends again of yours. We talked about this last week a little bit and they, they talk to these kids, to these kids first of all, they know how to talk to them better than deputy day and that's out here trying to do stuff. They know how to talk to them better than I do. They're specialized in this and they take care of these kids. They, these kids, are stealing with some of the worst shit and you see these kids that we're helping with shop of the cop and you see this and you see that and it just kills me that some kids are dealing with so much in our own country but yet our government wants to send money elsewhere. Our government says, oh, we got to go help these people. We got to go help these people. What about the people in our own country that is struggling? People live it in cars and still getting their kids to school? We have so much going on in our local areas that we could help. And the Zaviky C Center they were absolutely amazing. I had to go there this last week for this call and to watch the way that they took care of these kids and want and not just the kids. They took care of the investigators. They took care of me. You know I came in. These kids were hungry. I had been on the scene all day. I was hungry, so they bought us all pizza. We did the pizza thing. A couple of days later I had to go in for another thing there, same case, just another thing. They bought me lunch. They bought the kids lunch. They get it's just and they were so Open about stuff so helpful.
Speaker 2:In law enforcement you get a lot of these type A mentalities where people want to do this and they want to do that, but they don't want to help each other because no one helped them, and I think that's the dumbest thing you could ever do. I Try to learn from people and they wouldn't show me so a lot of the stuff I'm having to do on my own and I'm having to learn on my own. You take these classes, but these classes only help so much. You take a one-day class on search warrants. They'll go. This is what a search warrant is. Here's a template. Use this template, but they don't break down stuff. They don't. You don't write us. You know you do write search warrant but it's not very good and there's so many verbiage in this and that to make yourself sound better and stuff.
Speaker 2:And then you have these people you try to ask help for and they won't help you. They'll help a chick with her tautos hanging out, but they won't help you. And it's hard, because I'm trying to do the justice for these kids and I'm trying to do the best I can and I'm struggling with what I'm dealing with Already and then to have somebody not show you what to do and not help you. It's really, it really sucks. So when you find a place like this, this center that we're doing the donations for, they were open to everybody, everybody. They specialize in this stuff they know I don't specialize in this and instead of like beating you down, they're super nice, super polite, super helpful to me. They made me feel as comfortable as I made those kids, and that is awesome, awesome to do because, to be honest, there's so many times that people look at us like we're all knowing in law enforcement, we know everything and we're just flying by the seat of her pants just sometimes, just trying to figure this shit out.
Speaker 2:For someone to take the time and show me kindness during this whole ordeal and help me out was absolutely amazing and that's why I have a big heart for this place, because I've been to some where they I mean they're great to the kids. Don't get me wrong, they take care of the kids. But that's it. This place goes above and beyond for the kids, the investigators for their own employees that are working there, they go, go above and beyond and it's it's. It touched my heart. It really did and that's why we're doing it for them, because again, they're dealing with children in the worst times of their lives, the worst time these kids are being taken from their parents because of a terrible deal. I've seen kids that have been absolutely abused by their parents but don't want to leave their parents because that's all they know, that's their parents. So that you're asking a kid to come in and tell you things that you could not even imagine, you could not and then Realize also you have also not just had this kid relive everything, but you have also uprooted them from everything. They know everything. So just a little bit of kindness can go so far for these kids. So far, just Don't know. That place really, really touched my heart.
Speaker 2:So what kind of went on a tangent there? It's crazy, but the shop of the deputy was absolutely amazing. 40 kids are great. I took four kids in my car from the school to up there. One of the kids was saying this is the best day ever, while screaming out the window and telling me that there's a best pizza party They've ever had and all this stuff.
Speaker 2:And you, it really you feel for them, because some of these parents they're not bad parents. Not all these are bad parents. Some of them are just struggling to make it by for these kids. Some of them are going through some terrible deals. I've helped families where they were amazing to these kids but the mother was a stay-at-home mom, the dad was the worker and he passes and they didn't have crazy insurance to take care of them. Now the mom's having to work and find a way to take care of these three kids and then they don't have anything. You never know what kind of situation you're gonna get. Some of them are very bad. Some of them are in homes they shouldn't be in, but some of them are just because one parent is struggling, because they used to have two parents and they no longer do. And it just it kills me, it just it hurts to see these kids In that state and some of them they don't know they're in that state. Some of them that's their normal and they're doing good, but I Don't know. It's just. It's an amazing thing to see. It's very sad but it is amazing, amazing thing to see and it, it.
Speaker 2:It takes a toll on Officers and there's a lot of officers that won't admit it and for the longest time I wouldn't admit it. This week it definitely take a toll on me. I've got a lot on my shoulders, personal, life-wise, and then your work and then and seeing kids going through such tremendous, terrible things. It's rough and you don't really realize it takes that much out on you Until you, like, really sit back and look and it's just crazy to think. So. As I was telling you, we don't Get a whole lot of. I mean, you do get training, but if you're on a smaller agency, such as I am, you only get so much training and so much help that sometimes you just really have to learn on your own. And to me I tell people and I tell young rookies and I tell other cops and they all look at me like I'm dumb. But I tell them the best way to learn is to mess up. The best way to learn is to sit there and f something up to where you go. I will never do that again.
Speaker 2:I Can recall I got out of the academy and I dealt with the suicide I had been. I just got out of the academy, put on my own shift and when I'm at we don't really have a 16 week FTO. A Lot of agencies that it's not like what you think on TV, whether these people just go to this, this and this. I had a couple week FTO before the academy and really what it was was just riding with somebody and learning, but it's. We didn't have a real in place program. I learned a lot. So I go to the Academy, get out of Academy and I get a suicide and I just got in my own truck. I'm ready to go, I'm ready to hit the streets, I get this and I didn't know exactly what I was doing. I had a deputy there he's actually being a school resource officer at this time and he was like don't worry, I'll help you through this. I was like awesome, I appreciate that.
Speaker 2:We get to the scene. There's a 16 year old boy. We get to the scene and a Lot of these places they're. They're not, they're nasty, just nice, nicely put, they're nasty. A lot of dog crap everywhere, no carpet, bare floors, dishes that have been in the sink probably three months, stuff like that. A 16 year old kid was living with his dad and I go to the room and you see him there and you see him laying there and I'm like, okay, okay, I gotta go do this, god, do this, god, do this, take a mind, I bet they're barely have any training.
Speaker 2:So I look at my other deputy that was there is like, well, what do you think? Sorry. He says well, what do you think I go? Well, it looks to be an apparent suicide by a 22 rifle, and I'd seen there this room was. It was hard, to hard to deal with anything. The room was a very small. At one time I don't know if it was like a mud broom or like a porch that they had Turned into a room. It was this tiny, tiny room there was. He had been shooting his 22 in the house into the door. It was a door that led to the outside of the house and he was just shooting into it. There were 22 bullets everywhere, spent casings everywhere, actual bullets everywhere, um, everything. So I find I Kind of talked to him.
Speaker 2:I kind of talked to the, my deputy that's supposed to be training me again, supposed to be. I'm doing quotations, you can't see. He's supposed to be helping me. Well, he's playing the whole. Well, what would you do now? What would you do now? So I was like, okay, well, we know we haven't a suicide. I need to call the medical Xamarin's office. Good, good job, good job, call the medical Xamarin's office. First time I've ever done, it Called them. They showed up In route.
Speaker 2:There I go and I talked to the father and this father's pretty distraught, understandable a 16 year old son just shot himself in this house. I Go, what did you hear anything? He said no, I go. Would you ever hear anything? Shooting wise is like oh no, never I go. Sir, there's bullet holes all through his door. This kid has been shooting at this door for a while, which that's normal. They normally do things like that before they decide to do something.
Speaker 2:The father was very distraught and he kept saying I Didn't see this coming. He was the happiest I've seen him in a long time. He was super happy, very happy. Normally he's pretty down, but we went and help family do some stuff we're doing stuff over here and he was really, really happy. I don't get it. I don't get it a Lot of these people that before they do commit suicide, they know what's gonna happen. They know what they're about to do and they feel a sense of ease. They know what's coming, they're done with the pain, they're done with the sorrow and they sense a bit of happiness, knowing that they're about to do it. And that's what this father was dealing with and he couldn't wrap his mind around him doing it. So he, I get the kid's name, and, and his name was Dan is what I was told. And when the Emmy got there, I go well, his name is Dan, such and such and such and such. This is what I got. Well, then the Emmy.
Speaker 2:This Emmy likes to mess with deputies and cops and stuff. He found out as a rookie and he really got into it. Now, take in mind, I've never done this, I don't have evidence bags, I don't have anything. So he starts hounding me about not having evidence bag. I'm like this is my first day on the road, I don't have much at all. I just got my truck today and I got this call before I could even do anything. Then the deputy that's supposed to be training me jumps in and they both start hounding me and they think it's funny, it's great.
Speaker 2:I'm dealing with a 16 year old kid that shot himself and I'm trying to learn and I'm trying not to mess up. And he got people sitting there messing with you. That's part of this profession. That part didn't bother me, but I was like you're supposed to be training me. Long story short, I found out he didn't know what to do. He didn't even have evidence bags, he didn't have anything in his car. But the way to make himself look less stupid was to make me look stupid. And the ME was sitting there and messing with me too, about oh, your sheriff is going to be so upset with you and your sheriff this and sheriff that. And I finally looked at them both and I said, if you don't quit, you're going to have to have someone come and work y'alls, because I'm about to end both y'all. I'm trying to learn and I'm trying to get this together. I was so mad when I left that scene. So mad, just furious. So we helped load the body up and I left.
Speaker 2:And that day I learned the best way to learn is to fail. Yes, everything got done. Yes, everything was okay. But I tell you right now, I always have a plethora of evidence bags in my vehicle.
Speaker 2:I have a plethora of forms that help us through this process. We have made forms. I have made forms that help you. Okay, so with this, make sure you fill every one of these blanks. Fill every single one of these blanks, and as you fill those blanks out, if you fill them all out, and when they call the ME and you deal with the ME, you'll be good to go, because these are the questions that they're going to ask you.
Speaker 2:Luckily, I'm married to an individual death investigator in the ME's office, so I got a lot of the stuff from her on top of what I already dealt with in my years of doing first responding. So I said you know what? Let's make a form that way. If we give it to anybody, we got it. Sadly, there's still cops this day that I try to give them that form like, hey, man, this will help you, I already know what I'm doing. And then they butcher it and you're like dude, come on, man, accept help, accept, help.
Speaker 2:Like I said, I've had people tell me they're going to help me with learn how to do search warrants and learn how to do this, but they won't. And then I ask them why, dude, you were supposed to help me. Well, you know, I had to learn on my own. You might have to learn on your own. Okay, kudos, the thing is I try not to do that. I've learned on my own for the most part. Yeah, you take these trainings, but you really learn on your own.
Speaker 2:This last week I even messed up on my first search warrant not my first, but my first of the week. I took it to the judge, went to have the judge sign it. Judge said hey, you need to fix this, this and this. And then come back and see me deal. No problem, some judges will just sign your stuff and go. Okay, if this goes to court and something happens, it's on you. Some judges will read your stuff and actually help you and I explained to the judge I'm just now getting to be an investigator and do these type of things. Our agencies normally looked at outside agencies, bigger agencies, state agencies to help us with these things, and I'm trying to make it to where we don't always have to rely on those and it's really to better myself so I can learn how to do these things. So I went to the office. I felt that I redid the whole thing.
Speaker 2:Halfway through redoing the search warrant, I get a gunshot call, so I jump in my vehicle. We go deal with that gunshot call. And there was another suicide 20 year olds in his 20s. He ended up shooting himself. I leave that. I go back to the office and I'm typing my search warrant again. Start getting into it. Get the search warrant done, take it to the judge. The judge signs it and I explained to the judge. I appreciate you working with me. I am trying to learn and I appreciate you and if you ever see any problems with my stuff, please let me know, because that's the only way I know to fix it. So they explained that they will and they helped me out on several things. So, long story short get search warrant. We execute the search warrant. Get stuff we need to do. Then, after you do that, you have to do a turn of the search warrant or what you got. Well, then now I've got phones and stuff that I want to do a search warrant on. So now I've got to fill out all the paperwork, get the search warrant for the phones, took it to the judge, just said good job, signed it off and then we go.
Speaker 2:But it's a very stressful week, if not only dealing with the crap you're dealing with, but you don't want to look stupid to the judge, you don't want to look stupid to your fellow deputies, you don't want to look stupid to any of these other people. So you try to do it all. You try to do it all and act like you know what you're doing and for the most part I know what I'm doing but it eats me up. I'm stressed out Because sometimes the DA wants more than what you feel comfortable with. So you're like I don't really feel comfortable asking for that, I don't feel comfortable doing this, but you try to figure it out to make your DA happy, make you happy, make the victims happy. So it's a lot to bear and this week I really felt it. I really felt it and I looked back and I go suicide didn't bother me. The stuff that happened to these kids. I mean, it bothered me. A lot of the stuff was just stressed of doing that kid justice. And then you gotta realize is this kid telling the truth? There's a whole lot to it. Either way, we executed a warrant, got someone arrested, did some search warrants, doing some stuff and some kids aren't safe or home and I can look back and go. At least I did that.
Speaker 2:It was a crazy, crazy week of just beating myself down and going man, you could have done better this, you could have done better that. But when you're so tired I'm working on a couple hours of sleep, I try to wake up and help my wife with the baby. She really does the majority with the kids right now, majority of the house, because I mean she's at home all the time. And I feel bad because I know how hard it can be. We love our babies but, good Lord, they can worry you out. And I realized I just I need a mental reset, I need it. And I told one of the other deputies like, hey, man, I could have done better here, I could have done better there and I could have done better. And I was like, look, dude, you are tired, you're taking on too much and you need a break. And I sat back and I go you're right, I need a break.
Speaker 2:It's been a week and I know there's agencies that deal with a lot more. But when you deal with the stuff over and over, it doesn't matter how big of your agency, it doesn't matter if you only get one of these calls. If it affects you, it affects you. And it's taken me a lot to realize that because I sit here and I can compare myself to other agencies and I say, oh man, I could have done this better. I could have done that better. Look how many calls they're getting, how many calls they're doing here. But there's differences. Some of your bigger agencies yeah, those detectives might work more of these things and get used to it, but once you get better at search warrants, you get better. It's like a routine. Oh, I know how to do search warrants like no issue. But when you're trying to learn and trying to do it but you're also also doing patrol, it takes a lot out of you. It really does. There's a lot of those agencies. If you're on patrol, you do the call, you're done, you handle detective, detective does the next thing, that's it. But there's a lot of smaller agencies like me where you get thrown into it and you better figure the fuck out.
Speaker 2:It has just been one of those weeks and it's okay to every now and then just need to say I need to break, I need to figure this out. I need some time to me and figure me out, and that's what I'm doing this week. I'm excited Again we're going to be doing more fundraisers for that place. Maybe we can help someone's Christmas that's coming there. Maybe some kids are going to come there Not a case that I'm working, they take care of several counties. Maybe some kids are going to come there that doesn't have a Christmas, that really needs this, this and this. Or what if a kid comes in because his parents got murdered and he has to tell why his kid, his parents, got murdered and he's not going to get a Christmas this place? Hopefully we can help with the funds to maybe give someone we're not going to I'm not going to be their top donation or anything like that. We're not I'm not saying I, because this is from all of us but maybe we can give something a little bit more, just to help a little bit where they. They can help that kid. You never know what they're going to get. And there was a guy in there that he's an ex-officer from a bigger department and everything, and we were kind of talking about what we were just talking about a minute ago, about how some agencies, this, some agencies, that he's like, brother, you have to do it all. He was like there's a lot to bear and that really stuck with me. So, that being said, guys, we're going to do some amazing things this week. We're going to be doing battles.
Speaker 2:I don't do battles. I think it's a bag of dicks. I watched a battle the other day. I do not understand. I'm not going to lie, I feel like a sellout doing them. Just in general, I don't understand how people can treat people like shit. All these battles are doing on TikTok is asking people for money and the way you beat the other person is you get more gifts. You get more this.
Speaker 2:I watched one. This dude banned gifters because they didn't give a big enough gift. They blocked them. They blocked those guys. Those gifts aren't big enough. That is absolutely absurd to me.
Speaker 2:I sit back and I watch some of these dudes. I watch the manurisms and there are some turds on there. I've learned how to scope out turds just in this profession and I watch them. I'm like this guy is shady as hell and he's making five to 10 grand a day doing this shit and he's treating people like shit. He's a big, muscular dude. Women love him. I think that's where a lot of his money is women. How times have changed, good lord. But then he's like banning people that don't give him enough. It's hard to watch, but I'm going to sell myself out. I don't care, as long as it's going to a good cause.
Speaker 2:I even have some cop friends that when they first started TikTok they're TikTok cop friends they would send me messages on how do you do this, how do you do that, how do you do this? I helped them out. Now that they're doing battles and they climb these battle rankings, they think they're better than me type deal. I've tried to talk to them. I tried to do some battles with a few of them just for this fundraiser and they won't even accept your battles because you're not a big enough battler to do it and I'm like man. That is absurd to me. You were just worried about making money for your personal gain. They give it out to some people, but you're just worried about that. That you're like looking down upon other people that helped you.
Speaker 2:I've helped people throughout TikTok. I lucked into what I have. I lucked into my followers. I lucked into everything I have. All you amazing people I could. You really are what keep me going, because I've wanted to quit so many times. Just the negativity I get, but to see the positive outcomes and the positive words that I get from people. I've had people told me they almost committed suicide and they came and hung out with us and they determined I'm going to give it a little bit longer, maybe they'll come to the next time. I'm going to give it a little bit longer, and that helps me. That helps me to know that we're helping people in the best way that we can.
Speaker 2:But to see some of these guys that, like on TikTok, they let it get to their head Like they're Brad Pitt or something, I'm like listen, dude, you need to chill. Like I helped you and that's awesome. But then I asked for some help and you don't want to help because it's not going to help benefit you, and it's just ugh, it's rough, I don't know. Some people let the shit get to their head and I realized I'm in my head too much this week. So I don't know, just watching some of them, it's sickening To me. It is. I mean, these people love it. I mean they're like oh, we won, we won Like no, he won because you guys paid him to win. And then they're like hey, thank you, becky.
Speaker 1:Appreciate that it wasn't 10,000 bits, but I'll take what you can give me, I mean God. It's rough.
Speaker 2:I don't know, it's rough, it's rough, rough, rough, rough, rough. Speaking of rough, I was looking through the news and there's a deputy. Him and his wife go to a sex store, an adult toy store, so you would say. According to this news article, this deputy goes into the toy store with his wife, the clerk is sitting there and the deputy and his wife get into argument because she's trying to buy toys that are bigger than him, and that upsets him and he gets angry and starts yelling at her. The clerk tells them hey, hey, y'all need to leave. Like this is too much, you all need to go.
Speaker 2:The deputy says fuck you, I'm a cop. That's never a good thing. If you have the mentality that you can do whatever you want just because you're a cop is absurd. And the fact that he said, fuck you, I'm a cop, I'll do what I want, that just shows you what that wife is doing with that home. Well, then, it gets better. The guy then goes OK, never mind. Then Probably he said hey, y'all need to leave or I'll call the cops. The guy is fuck you, I am a cop. And he's like well, I'm shit, I looked in.
Speaker 2:So the guy goes to the register they come to pay for said items. And according to the story I'm not there, we're listening to third party stuff. So according to the news article, the clerk says hey, do you want any batteries for that? Which then, in rages, said deputy deputy. Then grabs the clerk and starts beating the shit out of them to the point where he's bleeding. The report said that when cops showed up the victim was covered in blood.
Speaker 2:The deputy and his wife leave. They take off speeding, probably because right now he's in an anger mode and he's I don't know. You can only imagine what the wife has to deal with, like at home. In my opinion, I don't know how her home life is, but if that's how it's going to be at a sex store, like bro, what the hell? Like you guys are there. So eventually you could have some fun and you start a fight with her in there. And then you start a fight with the clerk because he said you want any batteries. The best part was he got, he got charged with the salt and battery. That's freaking fantastic.
Speaker 2:And then the news thing said the sheriff came on there, was like well, we're going to investigate it. He's on paid time off. In my opinion, I don't. And like I listened to the, the, the, the sheriff talk on there and the sheriff's like I told him hey, buddy, take a few days off, it'll be okay, we'll look into this. I know he's also just trying to be a buddy buddy and this guy's like a commander or I don't know what their ranks are. He's like a commander there and yeah, and he gets paid time off like bro.
Speaker 2:You've got some anger, anger issues that need to be worked out. I don't think paid time off is right on that. That's pretty crazy that that goes goes down. But then you have other circumstances. So that that was one example.
Speaker 2:Again, I don't know the full story, I'm going by what the news article says. And you have a clerk that's covered in blood when the police get there. So I To me it's pretty obvious. I don't think the guy went over there. It's like you need batteries and start hitting the cop. I don't know, I could be wrong. No, I could be wrong. Maybe he grabbed one, those 13-inch dildos and started beating the cop. I don't, I don't know. I wasn't there. I can't judge. I wasn't there. So there's so many times to sit like that. You know you got news article, you got that going on.
Speaker 2:We recently had someone jump on tiktok and they complained that someone the one of their loved ones was killed by law enforcement. Well, then they get into my life because it's recent, it's fresh and it hurts, and I understand, there it hurts, that sucks, I can't. I can't fathom that. Losing anybody at the hands of somebody else, I cannot fathom that. Um, well then they got pretty irate with me because I wouldn't jump on their story. They, they first of all asked why do you cops have to pursue everything? It's such and such, you know. Why do you need spikes, trips and helicopters and this and that? Well, there's reasons for that. That's called consequences to people's actions. If they decide to run, it's gonna happen. Well then they started saying well, you should ask for backup. He's like oh listen, I can't judge awful what happened by this.
Speaker 2:Then it turned into cops. Let their feelings get hurt too easily, were sissy's pretty much as pretty much why I took it. And cops can just kill whatever. So I Asked to get a copy. They, they sent me links. I checked the link out and this is the story that's. It's changed. Sorry, this coffee is killing.
Speaker 2:So the original story I was told was Girlfriend jumps out of the car, tries to stop cops from getting her boyfriend, who has warrants boyfriend gets in the driver's seat and tries to take off and the cops shoot him. I Said, if that is true, then you have some issues, because you gotta have a reason to. You can't shoot a fling person Just because they're fling well. I said, well, let's look, let's look into this a little bit more. So I looked into a little bit more. What I read was pretty much just, I don't know exactly because it's, I think, canada car Pulls into a stall, which I'm assuming is a parking spot.
Speaker 2:I could be wrong again, I don't know. And in the process cop C said car and If you're not law enforcement, I guess sometimes it's hard. So we get warrants for people and we know these people. We know a lot of your habits, we know who you hang out with, we know where you stay and if you're a person that we want to bring in and you have a big Enough warrant, we're gonna get you. We know enough about you. We know more than you probably realized and so what I'm assuming I don't know this is just judging third party outside.
Speaker 2:Okay, I tried to listen to their story. They told me. And then I said let me look at this story and I'll kind of compare the two. So they pull in the stall, cops somehow come to them, assuming because the cops already looking for him as my opinion, I don't know, I wasn't there. So then girlfriend jumps out to try to help her boyfriend get away. So she jumps out of the car when cops get there and starts trying to interact with the cops. Boyfriend jumps in the driver's seat and starts to take off, pinning a nether officer with his car. Then the other officer shoots the dude and he dies. It sucks, it really does. I'm not gonna sit here and say someone's life being lost is ever gonna be easy, no matter what side you're on. But at the same time I'm not gonna just say because he lost his life, he was innocent.
Speaker 2:They told me he was unarmed as soon as you got in that vehicle. First of all, that's not being unarmed. You are armed with a motor vehicle. That's several thousand pounds of being armed. Then they hit an officer who had to go to the ER, or you hit an officer, pinning them. The only way I can think is like they have a car there and the officer was out and they got pinned in between the cars.
Speaker 2:I don't know exactly. I'm kind of going by everything and I'm kind of going by like I don't know if pinning in their country is different I think it's Canada. I don't know if it means something different, but from what I read, I read that and I read the comments of some of the people, I think pins the same thing Pretty much. The car cop got pinned in between two cars and the other cop shot him, and that is a hundred percent in my opinion. With that, just reading articles, I still don't know, and I don't like to play armchair quarterback. But reading articles and listen to what they're saying, in my opinion that's a hundred percent lethal force Approved.
Speaker 2:You sitting there watching your partner screaming being pinned up against a vehicle, I'm gonna shoot that guy too. I mean I think I would. I don't, I don't know for sure. This is a prime example. I don't know. This is going off the story. This person is attached them through family. So I understand why you're a little bit upset. I do completely, and it sucks that someone lost their life, no matter what. But this is a prime example. We're just looking off stories, I don't know. So I don't know, maybe the deputy got hit upside the head, 15 inch deal. No, I don't know. And that's what caused him to beat the dude. I don't know, it's speculation, but Either way, we got to get full stories.
Speaker 2:Everybody wants to jump to conclusions, everybody wants to go oh, the cop did this, the cop did that, this went on, this went on. Everybody wants to jump to these, these Automatic conclusions and say, oh, this happened without even being there. If you've never been in this situation, it's what I don't. Really, it's hard to say what you're gonna do. You know, I could say what I told you can talked about.
Speaker 2:Before the Medal of Valor I received, I Was ridiculed ridiculed by other law enforcement officers in my area, because I didn't shoot the suspect when I had every right to. Until you're in that situation, you don't know what you're gonna do, I know. So I'd like to say, yeah, I'd shoot that guy if he's got my partner pinned up. That one, I'm pretty sure I would. If my partner is screaming, you better believe I'm gonna do everything I can to help them. I Don't know. I think we need to wait. Wait to see some body cam. Maybe there's body cam, let's see. Okay, there's no body cam footage yet because they're still investing in.
Speaker 2:This happened back in November. So what I read is they did a traffic stop. Looks like an alleyway of a Neighborhood and the stalls, I'm guessing, are like the driveways that go to your, your Garage. It's behind the house, in the alleyway, I don't know for sure, but it so officers do a traffic stop on this vehicle. Then the vehicle attempts to flee, pinning an officer, another officer shoots him, and then the girlfriend who, kind of trying to get cops to go away, ended up saying that the police shot an unarmed man without warning. And I'm this is third party, I don't know. And, ma'am, if you're watching this, I'm sorry, I'm sorry for lost your family member, but the way I'm reading it is, after the man tries to flee, pinning an officer, the other officer shoots him. To me that's justified, I don't know. I Don't know. That's that's crazy, it sucks and it happens, but I Don't know, I don't know. Crazy times, crazy times. And then people want to blame the cops. All of a sudden Not all sudden people want to jump on the cops real quick, saying that the cop did this. But in my opinion, the cop was justified on this one. Again, not there, don't know, just going by what I'm reading. That sucks.
Speaker 2:It's never easy for someone to lose her life. You're alone, it being your family member, and I understand the outrage. I understand the upsetness. I understand being upset I completely do, and it's awful, it really is, but I don't know. But come at first. This lady came at me a little hostile. She didn't like my answers. I was off work. I'm seeing my house. To be honest, this is one of the days that my wife and I we're enjoying ourselves having some margaritas while playing monopoly. I know it's crazy in our household, but we are trying to enjoy ourselves. And then you got something that comes in and then says I'm that cops are weak, and Well, I'm gonna reply and it sucks, it sucks. I will never downplay someone losing their life ever. But I'm also not gonna sit here and say this cops are the wrong, just because it happened, I don't know. But so we're also talking in the live.
Speaker 2:Today we're kind of talking about some of the things that people thought were funny, such as my wife putting decomp on my mask and letting me wear it. She still says she didn't. So we went to do a tour of my wife's work and this is during COVID and you have to wear the mask because the mask for everything, even though we're going to look at dead bodies. But oh well, we weren't really looking at dead bodies, we weren't allowed in that part. Nobody freaked out, we're just allowed in the office. And they kind of got a tour of the office, unlike the labs and stuff, but not anywhere the bodies. We didn't see anything. We put these masks on and it immediately smelled like decomp. So whether they have their storage supply closet in the Cooler where they keep decomp bodies, or my wife grabbed these and rubbed them all over. A decomp body thing, gave them to me, I don't know. Either way, it smelled awful, it was terrible. She still denies it. I think she's lying. And then I got called a sissy because it's not that bad. Well, it was bad, very bad.
Speaker 2:I had another one how you're kind of talking about this decant body and it was way off in the woods. This is the closest if I've ever been to puking on a scene. The smell is something Very, very big something. Well, I'm sitting there and when you decompose to the point where you're pretty much a skeleton, all that stuff has to go through and somewhere. Normally you're laying in it. So this Emmy comes out and they start scooping this stuff up and putting it in a child's bucket, as they're doing. So I'm kind of looking over and I'm looking over in this fly. I watch this fly slow-mo, fly up from this goop. I guess my mouth was dropped, was like whoa. And this fly goes and lands right on my lip and I start going but and I start coughing and stuff this lady's like sir, do not vomit on my scene. So immediately I was like, uh, I'm not going to. And everyone's looking like, damn, dane, you okay. And then I explained to him they're like, oh, my god, that's disgusting, that's nasty. So here I'm like, because this fly just flew it from the goop laying on my lip and it was whoo, it was nasty, that's real nasty. Oh nasty, yeah, that was bad.
Speaker 2:Speaking of smells, we tried the. I Tried the new Funyuns spicy queso chips last. I love funyuns. I was like man, I love funyuns, I love spicy queso, this is gonna be good. Immediately when I open it, I Get punched in the mouth of this odor and I couldn't put my finger on this odor. Kind of remind me of like your jockstrap back when you played football and had been in your locker and you never washed it. And then one day you got a big whiff. When you open you're like god damn. So it kind of remind me of that. And then I, for investigative reasons, kept sniffing this bag as I'm eating it. They tasted pretty good, it was like a funyun with a little bit of a kick, but I Realized what the smell was and I recently dealt with this. The smell of these chips was Was one of these nasty houses when there is dog shit everywhere that's been just caked and caked and caked and caked and caked.
Speaker 2:There's cockroaches. Okay, let's set the scene. You pull up, you go to the door, you talk to the man that hasn't washed his hair in six months and he lets you in Immediately. The room is dark, very dark, and you get punched with an odor in order that pushes it so far deep in your nose. You can fill it in your brain. Mmm, that odor, it's a bit too sweet, a bit something. It's not sweet. I don't know what I'm talking about. Either way, the smell was awful, awful, and it's always a house that's covered in cockroaches and dogs species everywhere and they always tell you they're clean in the house.
Speaker 2:I've never been to one where they're like yep, this is what I do. It's always like, oh, sorry for the mess, it's never like this boo shit, that dog shit is now caked into that carpet. It's got, it's white now, if you don't know, poopy turns white after, so it's dry, so it's dried poopy Inside this shag carpet. Who's to a shag carpet? I don't know, but it's there. And I realized that my wife's eating these chips. She was like I'm not a big fan and when I said that, she's like, oh my god, you're right, I'm done, can't have any more, and she stopped eating them. Um, yeah, so go get you some spicy queso funyun chips.
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