Ep. 34 – Reintroducing The Wild Goddess: Finding Your Spark

In this reintroduction episode, I’m pulling back the veil and inviting you into the heart of everything that’s been shifting — both within me and within The Wild Goddess.

After a deeply emotional start to the year with the loss of my Grandad, I found myself navigating a powerful period of reflection, grief, and rebirth. Through that, I began to reconnect with parts of myself I had forgotten… and what emerged was the truest version of this space I’ve ever created.

✨ Welcome to the newly rebranded Wild Goddess — where truth, soul, power, and self-expression lead the way.

In this episode, I’m sharing the raw story of how I found my way back to my voice, my magic, and the vision I hold for this work. I introduce the powerful concept of the Goddess Spark — the essence of who you are beneath the noise — and how it might be showing up (or hiding) in your life right now.

We’ll explore:

• The signs your spark might be buried
• How the body and soul speak to you through discomfort
• Why self-expression is key to reclaiming your truth
• How this evolution is shaping the next era of The Wild Goddess

This episode is both a love letter and a soul activation — a reminder that your spark was never lost… only waiting to be seen again.

✨ Ready to reclaim yours?

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This is your time. This is your spark. Let’s reignite it — together.

Transcript

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Welcome to the Wild Goddess Podcast. I'm Kayleigh, Goddess Mentor, Divine Feminine Storyteller, Creative and Founder of the Wild Goddess. This is a space for women who are ready to reignite their spark, step into their self-expression and embody the Goddess within. Together we'll explore bold confidence, deep transformation, Goddess wisdom and the power of creating a life that looks and feels like the real you. wild, unapologetic and fully alive. If you're ready to reclaim your magic and live life on your own terms, you're in the right place. Let's dive in. to the world goddess podcast i feel like it's been ages it feels so good to actually say that again i feel really happy to be back recording it's been a little while it's been a hot minute i think it's maybe been i think i've done like one or two episodes since christmas um but it hasn't been very consistent just because there's been a lot going on there's been a lot of shifts behind the scenes within myself within my life within within this brand. And so I am back with this fresh energy, this new direction that does feel a lot truer to who I am. And that's what I want to talk about on this episode, just kind of a little reintroduction to the new version of the World Goddess, to the new this version of me because i feel like we're always evolving we don't exactly go from one version ourselves to another and that's it we're stuck there we're constantly evolving and i think if you're in business particularly your business evolves so much as you evolve just like life in general to be fair interests tastes things that you like your direction things that you want to do everything's always evolving and it's such a beautiful thing that we get to have as part of our human journey but it can be a little bit crazy it can feel a little bit um unnerving at times and a little bit confusing i definitely feel that this well the inner winter that i really allowed myself to go through helped me with really shifting some priorities or understanding myself a little bit more understanding where I want to go and where I'm perhaps not being fully aligned to myself now I always feel like this is something very difficult to to always lean into because it's so hard sometimes to know what is the path that's meant for you where are you meant to go what are you meant to say what are you meant to do and then not only that how do you actually do it how do you actually put it into practice so it's basically why I took a little bit of time off from the podcast I sort of stopped well I was posting a lot less on socials just to give myself this space to really breathe and slowly things started to come back to me I think I started to realise that I have had this wonderful vision for the wild goddess for so long I've held this vision but I feel that it became very diluted by other people if I'm honest I feel that sometimes when you're in business or when you have certain work that you want to do it's so easy to become diluted by other people simply because you look to others for inspiration and markers and guidance of what's possible of where you can go and naturally you know what it's like we always look around us to almost validate our ideas or to see what other people are doing and then you can become so consumed by that and often their messages and stories and way of doing things can then cloud and filter into yours. I think it's a really natural thing to happen and I think it's happened to so many of us so I just want to be open and honest and transparent about that and it's been something that's unraveled for me over the last few months definitely. I feel that I know what it is that I want to speak about in terms of goddess energy, of spirituality, of this sort of sense of female empowerment and wisdom and learning from the, you know, the myths and the stories that are so woven into the unseen world around us that are woven into nature, into the old folk tales that you can read, into people that you can connect with and that's something that's really important to me it's not so much um every aspect of all there's a lot in within spirituality there's so much in soul journeys that you can try out and see if it's for you and then you sort of find what lands with you so the message well the the the core of what I've always wanted to do has kind of always been that I think it's just been perhaps a struggle with the way in which I can find for me to put that out in the world it's so easy to fall into that trap of well you know everyone everybody else that does spirituality or works in this field has this beautiful aesthetic of the the flowy dresses and the the love and light and the beautiful crystal circles and going to all these wonderful ancient sites which I love to do and that what that thing that you so often see and perhaps has become maybe a little bit more associated with this type of work. And you can then start to think, oh, maybe that's kind of the vibe that I need to go down. And what I've realised is that's really not my vibe at all. It's not often that, well, it's not really ever that you necessarily find me in that type of aesthetic and environment. And I began to realise that the person that I am is often probably more come out in my other business, Callie Marie Designs, because As I've mentioned before, that's very vibrant, that's very bold, that's very maximalist, it's saturated, it's confident, it's colourful, it's me, that's who I am. Anyone who knows me will tell you, give me a bit of hot pink every day of the week and it just makes me so happy. I am that person that loves all of that and I began to realise why am I not infusing that into the world goddess because that's who I am. Granted it's not for everybody, my aesthetic definitely isn't for everybody. And perhaps my expression, the way that I come across, the way that I interpret things isn't for everybody. And that's totally fine because I know that it is for the people that get me, that connect, that are like, yes, I love that energy. So I was like, I really want to put me into it. That was the whole point of me doing it in the first place is to express it in the way that only I can express it, to create my aesthetic in the way that only I can create it. And visuals are very important to me. I'm a very visual person. Being like a designer in my other business is, you know, I am that person. It's like when I do meditations, I really see it in a visual way. So when I create things for like social media or email campaigns or the website, I want it to visually like match the energy of what I'm feeling or what I'm wanting to put out there. So it was just time for this overhaul. I was just sensing this rebirth of the world goddess mystery school becoming just who I am and being able to express it in the way that I want to express it and share all the stuff that I want to share in a way that is just solely me that is aligned with me that feels good and that's basically what I've been working on and I came up with the I had it's been slowly coming to me and I shared that I was coming out with this coming back with this rebirth and I was feeling just so good about it and life threw me a massive curveball as it does I always think whenever you feel like you're on track whenever you feel like you've got everything going no like always be prepared that the the way isn't smooth the line isn't straight things are going to happen things are going to come along and you're going to get tests and you're going to get just so much stuff thrown at you nothing is perfect and it's not meant to be that is the both anguish and joy of living this life of living this human life so the day that I announced my like business sort of rebirth I think it was I want to say March the 12th um it's just a few days after my birthday actually and my granddad was actually in hospital he'd been in hospital for about a week um he had with pneumonia and I was sort of taking my nan up to the hospital dropping her off to visit because hospital parking ridiculous um and then we got a phone call to ask us, well asked my nan if she could go up to the hospital to see the doctor so I went up with her on the Thursday the day after I'd announced everything that I was getting on, I was actually working and getting all my plans into place and dropped everything, we went to the hospital and they out of the blue just gave us the news that there was nothing that they could do and he was deteriorating his organs were closing down and they're putting him on end of life care, I mean he was so out of the blue, it was like what you're like yeah shocking and so obviously that became the most important thing to me everything else was like no I'm not I can't think of anything else but this and obviously we all went up to busy and it changed we're a very small family there's only me I'm the eldest my brother and my sister and my mum and dad and my dad is an only child so my nan and grandad they've just got my dad and there's also none of see our partners and my little nephew now but we're a very small family and we've always been super super close my granddad's always been like the head of the family like the I always like to say like the rock like he's the foundation like the glue that kept us all together yeah and then the next day we all went up on Friday we spent most of the day there and he asked us to leave actually I think I'd gone just before everybody else and then he asked everyone else to leave because he was tired and he wanted to wanted to rest so everybody left and then within about 30 minutes if that 30 minutes after the hospital phoned and asked everybody to go back and he'd gone he'd he passed away in that time i feel that he asked us to leave because he wanted to do that in peace in his own you know in his own way without everybody been there which the nurse said a lot of people do so it was horrendous obviously it's only been a few weeks so it's still very raw and very difficult um i didn't actually plan to to talk about it on this episode but i feel like i want to be very transparent about everything that's been going on and how i've been trying to navigate everything because of all that when we share our stories it's actually helpful it's cathartic for us and you don't know who Who else can find something from it that helps them in a situation that they're in? So, yeah, I've been dealing with a lot of the admin, like for my nan, all the, you know, there's so much to do, like changing all of the suppliers over, contacting the bank, all of this stuff. Because, you know, my nan's 88, my granddad was also 88 when he passed away. And there's a, you know, it's difficult for my nan to do anything like that by herself. And I just live around the corner from her and being the eldest and having the flexibility, you know, working for myself gives me that flexibility, which I'm super grateful for so it's been a lot to navigate the past few weeks so obviously everything business-wise has kind of just been in the background but I don't know it's been a little bit weird because I've had like these days of like inspiration or like I've suddenly found this next level of confidence of who I am and what it is I want to do within me and I don't know if it's just the when you go through these things it's you uncovering different layers isn't it it's you finding new parts of yourself it's you stepping into new parts of yourself and I feel like he's with me and like encouraging me because I know that he would be like he's always like I want you to you know I want you to do well I want you to be successful in your work and do the things that mean something to you and make the differences that you want to make so it's kind of giving me an encouragement in a way and on the days where I feel like it's just too much I will just go and have a massive cry and let all that come out and then there's other days where i feel really productive and really creative and it's like comes in waves i feel like it will for a long time and it will be a whole new way to navigate um because i was so close to him so it is very very shit but yeah that's kind of what's been going on and it's why I've slowly bought this rebrand into existence and you know what it's actually felt so good to do it slowly because I feel like I haven't come up with this big plan like I normally would this sort of launch and you do this and you do that and everything's like you know go go go the way that you would normally launch things I've just done it as I felt it I've felt into it and I've shared things that have come to me and in the way that I want to share them and there's not been that pressure so it's actually felt really nice to do and it's different it's probably not the way everybody would do it or say you should do it but I want to do it in a way that feels aligned and organic to who I am so that's where I've been with it that's why it's been slightly sporadic and there's been a few days of posts and then maybe not anything but I feel like that's okay I feel like it's okay to do things your own way you don't have to follow a blueprint all the time in life and you go with where you are you kind of have that flow that you move forward with so yeah i feel like we'll see how everything comes through me you know now because it's obviously i don't know i feel almost a closer sense of intuition as well in a way which feels quite beautiful it feels almost like my granddad is there with me so much now when i'm creating and it's really beautiful actually um so yeah i just wanted to share that with you so you kind of knew what's been going on and where i'm at and it's funny because it does link in a lot with the base of where i really um started in terms of this thought of this this sort of rebrand of i hate the word rebrand but i can't really think of a better word at the moment the foundation of it was what i call the goddess spark and that is going to be the base of everything that i will build from within the world goddess and it's basically just that that essence that soul essence that makes you who you are that spark that makes you feel alive radiant and truly like yourself you know you know it's like when you there's just a spark it's like when you go in a shop and you see an outfit and you love it and it's just like oh i love that and then you try it on and you look in the mirror and you actually love it and you're like oh my god i feel amazing there's like a spark like when you meet somebody for the first time that you really click with whether that's you know a lover or just a friend just someone and you're like there's that spark there's that theme like when I don't know you get it when you go to places or eat amazing food or do a banging painting like whatever it is that spark that was that's something that keeps coming to me because I feel like it's so easy to lose it in this world and I think we all go through times of feeling very lost and very disconnected and and like that numb feeling like where you're just feeling really flat and you don't exactly know where you want to go or what you want or it's just that weird feeling you know and it's like that that just odd feeling and it shows up in different ways like you know sometimes when you just feel really exhausted and tired and drained all the time there's no joy or motivation everything just feels oh like I can't be that bothered even in the things that you might have loved once and sometimes I feel like it it's like a voice in your head that's a little quiet voice or sometimes it literally can be a massive scream and you feel like I just want to burn everything down to the ground and run away into the hills and live like a hermit I just this is too much i don't feel anything anymore um i felt it so many times i'm sure so many of of you have because i feel like it's something we go through so much and it manifests in so many different ways anxiety sadness rage apathy comparison jealousy that's you know self-doubt that creeping sense of restlessness almost it's like this deep soul ache that you can't always explore lane and nothing really seems to satisfy you that is kind of when you've lost your spark that's when you don't feel like you know where you're going or what you want but if you do have those feelings if you are feeling like that now um i said there's numerous times where this comes back up because we go through cycles and it's not a bad thing to feel that way it's not it's not you're not a failure it's not like oh things haven't worked out for me i can't ever find happiness like that's not what it is it's just a signal it's like this message from your body or from your soul that's sort of whispering to you or literally sometimes shouting at you that something isn't aligned and that you need to slow down and come back to yourself because our bodies and our emotions are these powerful messengers they can't speak to us through words our body and our emotions can't physically stand in front of our face and tell us this is what we're going through so they send us these signals through our bodies through through our feelings through misalignment through issues with nervous system through illness that they're trying to capture our attention and when we finally stop ignoring it and when we begin to listen and find the ways that we can connect we then start to uncover that truth that's been buried deep down behind all of the noise and for me this is where the concept of the goddess spark really was born it came through to me through this wintering period that i went through where i felt like i'd lost my own spark just like i was saying before where i felt like i wasn't being me the the things that i wanted to say were coming up through my body but it was like they were getting to my mouth or to my fingertips for me to type and then going through this screen of like filteredness into the world and i was like no this is bullshit this is not who i am and this is not what i'm doing and i felt so lost in it i become rather untethered from my own joy from my own truth from the way that i want to share my own magic my own experience what what i feel for the goddess it became so dimmed and filtered so that spark that you can then reignite that's the goddess spark that is your essence it's the truth of who you are the core of who you are when you strip back all of the layers all of the conditioning all of the sheds and the woods and the roles that you've been forced into it's your soul truth just the raw honest unfiltered this is me and like rediscovering that spark I'm still on the journey to rediscovering it because I don't think you just wake up one day and you're like boom yes this is it I feel like you're still kind of walking that path rediscovering it a little bit but it's really become the anchor of this this work this version of the business what I want to do this again once for a better word rebrand the foundation of what the world goddess stands for it's why it's Not the world's best mystery school anymore. It's the world goddess because it feels real to me. And you could probably be listening now and thinking, okay, I want to find that spark. I know that I'm feeling a little bit lost, a little bit stuck. I don't quite know where I want to go. And what does light me up anymore? how do i feel confident again how do i trust myself and trust my decisions how do i stop comparing myself to everybody else who seems to have everything figured out and you're not alone in thinking that because i feel like that is what we all think We've been raised in this crazy world that praises the rat race that loves productivity and constant hustle. It doesn't always honour the soul truth, the rest, the expression of who we are. And so we kind of forget that. We bend ourselves to fit in. We silence a lot of the things that we want to say. And a lot of our dreams we put away into a box. We shrink ourselves to just conform and fit in. And this is what makes me so sad. because for me the goddess path is what has been my way back home to myself it helps me peel back all of the layers all of the noise all of the bullshit and just unlearn everything that didn't feel like me it's helped me reconnect with my intuition and it's helped me rebuild my confidence from the ground up and it showed me that like my self-expression is is the gateway it's the key for me to unlocking who i am unlocking my truth and my actual confidence confidence and my groundedness in who I am, unlocking my voice, unlocking my joy. And I think that that spark isn't always found in the obvious places. It's not always where you think that it's going to be. sometimes I think it shows up in in comparison it shows up in jealousy and in bitterness it sounds a bit weird but when you actually think about it it's fairly logical because there are times when you can feel that and I'm sure deep down you can probably say yeah I've felt this before that twinge of like jealousy or irritation bubbling up especially when you're scrolling online and you see somebody's account that you're like oh my god that's you know I love i love her business i love her life she looks like the perfect mother they've got the perfect relationship whatever it is you can feel that slight irritation or that slight sense of jealousy and sometimes not every time but sometimes that can be because they're embodying something that we want for ourselves that we desire for example it could be i don't know the woman that lives off grid out in the life that she's showing online where she's growing her vegetables and flowers and you know all of that stuff and you're like oh you have that irritant you know oh what's all right for some or i'm sure she got to do that easily because she had a load of inheritance left to all or whatever it is um you know even though bearing in mind um most of the things you do see online are just the highlight reel but it's triggered something in you do you know what i mean and perhaps when you actually sit and look at it maybe deep down it's because a part of you wants that maybe you're triggered by that woman because a part of you yearns for that slower life you want to be living out in nature you want animals you want to grow your own food you want more space to actually breathe so when you reinterpret that jealousy or that irritation perhaps a part of that could be the spark your spark calling you back home it's sort of you know standing there waving its arms going hello this is who you are this is what you want and it could be anything I've just used the countryside off grid woman because it's the first thing that came to my head but it could be anything whatever it is that you perhaps see as somebody else it's because it's something that you want i've had it myself when i've looked at other women that are further ahead of me in their business journey because i know that that's something that i really really want is like that freedom and that place to be able to really create something that means something create that business that can really help people and you can look other people and be like oh you know make that horrible comment about somebody and then suddenly you're like oh shit that's not i don't mean that to be that way it's because that's holding up a mirror to me and being like i want that so you can then turn that into something that can help you you can start to reignite that spark and you can just start small so we'll go back to the off-grid woman example um plant some herbs in your windowsill if you haven't got a garden or go outside and plant a few veggies go for a walk in nature take your shoes off and walk barefoot around the woods build a dream board with all the pins on or if you're a person print it out and make that that vision board where you can really lean into that energy create the rituals express yourself in the way that you you dress you decorate your house the things around you that make you feel alive just little things that lead you more towards what your soul is craving you know let your soul speak let it play let have fun with it let it guide you back to who you are because even though these are just little tiny things that you can do these little expressions aren't just surface level they're very sacred they're very deep and they're showing you who you are and what you want more of and when you start to lean into them and welcome them in that's when little shifts begin to happen it's where the confidence starts to bloom and it's where you start to feel yeah there is a different way for me I can start to feel good about myself again I can start to welcome in the truth of who I am and that is essentially in a what the feeling behind the goddess spark is that is a huge thing for me it's something that feels very important to me is this authenticity this finding who you are and this allowing yourself to to be all of that because i think it is so important for us as women to know that we get to have more we get to do more and be more and when i say more it's more of the truth of who you are your own joy and happiness and the things that mean the most to you in your soul so this is really what I'm building everything on and it's what I want to share more about on this podcast through all of the the different ways that that I love to do it you know stories from myth and folklore and the wisdom that that actually brings into our real modern day life it's all about using goddess wisdom energy and archetypes as these sort of signposts for our modern struggles because one of the things that I really feel is something that's important to me as I said before about the goddess journey and my own journey in spirituality is that I'm not necessarily somebody that you know goes outside and does moonlight rituals and does all of this I do love a meditation and I do love a ritual and I love my altars as anyone that follows me on Instagram will know but also I love to go down to the pub do you know what I mean I love to get dressed up I love to there's a lot of I love technology I love to watch the TV I'm not somebody that that's going to necessarily be the person that only eats organic food and doesn't watch telly and meditates all the time and there's no there's nothing wrong with doing that at all that's just not who I am I still am very much a part of the modern world and I do like you know some of it is very over the top and you know we have too much stuff going on in the world but I do like my modern commodities and I find that I can weave my spirituality my my growth and my journey into my modern living as well and I feel like it's that fusion that is something that's very important to me the fusion of this ancient like wisdom and myths and magic with this beautiful understanding of the soul journey of my own journey of spirituality and just fuse all that into the modern life the troubles that we actually face in the world right now that are very serious and just bring all that together to help women to find more of our voices reclaim our power and just build a life that is rich in soul and self-expression because none of us were ever meant to live caged or silenced we're all meant to be alive we're all meant to glow and to radiate and our spark has never truly gone it never goes out sometimes it's just a little bit buried and we have to uncover it and that's what I want to do going forward I want to uncover it together I want to be on the journey with you guys I want us to all learn and grow together and communicate and get to know each other i would love to have you come and join me um over on my free community on facebook the world goddess collective i will put a link in the show notes i've sort of rejuvenated it and i'm just starting kicking it off again and i want it to be a place where we all gather and grow and rise together and we really take this journey together So yeah, this is just the beginning of the journey and I feel really good recording this episode and being vulnerable, being open, being unedited and just sharing what my truth is and how my truth looks for me. And hopefully... it's sparked a little something within you guys and yeah you're you're excited to be back on the journey and I just can't wait to share everything that's to come and to just unravel and rewild together so until next time I hope that you all stay safe stay happy stay true stay wild and just keep seeking that goddess spark and I will be back with another episode next week so thank you so much guys thank you for tuning in to this episode of the wild goddess podcast if you're loving the show please share it with a friend leave a review or tag me over on instagram so more women can find this sacred space it's an honor to be on this journey with you and if you're ready to dive a little deeper come join my free community on facebook the wild goddess collective a space to reconnect rise and reignite your spark until next time keep showing up as the powerful goddess you are Lots of love.