Breakfast of Choices
Everyone has stories of transformation. And some of them include moments, or years of intense adversity, a time when it felt like there was no hope. This podcast, "Breakfast of Choices," holds space for people to share their true, raw and unedited stories of overcoming extreme struggles, like addiction, mental illness, incarceration, domestic violence, suicide, emotional and physical abuse, toxic family structures, relationships, and more. Trauma comes in so many forms.
Every week, as a certified Peer Recovery Support Specialist, Recovery Coach, Life Transformation coach and your host, I will jump right into the lives of people who have faced these types of adversity and CHOSE to make choices to better themselves. We'll talk about everything they went through on their journey from Rock Bottom to Rock Solid.
Through hearing each guest's story of resilience, my hope is that we'll all be inspired to wake up every single day and make our own "Breakfast of Choices". More importantly, that we'll understand we have the POWER to do it.
When someone shares their story, it can be unbelievably healing. And it can be just what someone else needs to hear at that exact moment to simply keep moving forward. So I hope you can find "that one little thing that sticks," along with hope and encouragement to just keep taking it one day at a time.
And now let me be the first to welcome you to the "Breakfast of Choices" community, a non-judgemental zone where we learn from, lean on and celebrate one another. Because the opposite of addiction is "connection", and we are all in this together.
If you would like to tell your story, I sure would love to listen. Please email me at Breakfastofchoices@gmail.com.
Respects,
Jo Summers.
Breakfast of Choices
Navigating the Dark Night of the Soul and Reclaiming Your Spiritual Identity with Demetriah Annenayah
Welcome to another episode of Breakfast of Choices. I’m so excited to have Guest Demetriah Annenayah on the show today to share her powerful story of transformation. Demetriah's journey is one of resilience, self-discovery, and the ultimate triumph of the human spirit. Growing up with a challenging family dynamic, including an alcoholic father and a mother seeking spiritual enlightenment, Demetriah faced immense adversity from a young age. The trauma of a violent assault during her adolescence left deep scars, leading to depression, suicidal ideation, and a fractured sense of self.
Despite these obstacles, Demetriah found solace in her spiritual gifts and a deep connection with God, eventually becoming a licensed minister. However, a devastating scandal within her church shattered her faith, sending her spiraling into a dark period of addiction and self-destruction. It was during this rock-bottom moment that Demetriah experienced a profound awakening, realizing the power of choice and the importance of self-awareness.
Demetriah's "Freedom and Love Tour," where she and her friends courageously confronted their past lies and manipulations, was a pivotal step in her healing journey. Through this process, she learned to reframe her negative thoughts, cultivate gratitude, and focus on the positive changes she desired to create in her life.
Today, Demetriah is a spiritual life coach, guiding women to embody their true purpose and heal from toxic patterns. Her trauma-informed approach empowers her clients to reclaim their power and manifest the life they've always dreamed of. If you're struggling with past trauma, self-doubt, or a lack of direction, Demetriah's story and insights are sure to inspire and uplift you. Remember, there is always hope, and the power to transform your life lies within you.
Connect with Demetriah:
Visit her website: https://iampoweredbylove.com/
IG: https://www.instagram.com/iampoweredbylove/
From Rock Bottom to Rock Solid.
We all have them...every single day, we wake up, we have the chance to make new choices.
We have the power to make our own daily, "Breakfast of Choices"
Resources and ways to connect:
Facebook: Jo Summers
Instagram: @Summersjol
Facebook Support: Chance For Change Women’s circle
Website: Breakfastofchoices.com
Urbanedencmty.com (Oklahoma Addiction and Recovery Resources) Treatment, Sober Living, Meetings. Shout out to the founder, of this phenomenal website... Kristy Da Rosa!
National suicide prevention and crisis, hotline number 988
National domestic violence hotline:
800–799–7233
National hotline for substance abuse, and addiction:
844–289–0879
National mental health hotline:
866–903–3787
National child health and child abuse hotline:
800–422-4453 (1.800.4.A.CHILD)
CoDa.org
12. Step recovery program for codependency.
National Gambling Hotline 800-522-4700
Welcome to Breakfast of Choices, the weekly podcast that shares life stories of transformation. Each episode holds space for people to tell their true, raw and unedited story of overcoming intense adversity from addiction and incarceration, mental illness, physical and emotional abuse, domestic violence, toxic families, codependency and more. Trauma comes in so many forms. I'm your host, Jo Summers, and also someone who hit my lowest point before realizing that I could wake up every day and make a better choice, even if it was a small one. So let's dive into this week's story together to learn from and find hope through someone's journey from rock bottom to rock solid, Because I really do believe you have a new chance every day to wake up and make a change, to create your own. Breakfast of Choices. Good morning, Welcome to Breakfast of Choices life stories of transformation from rock bottom to rock solid. I'm your host, Jo Summers. Today, I have with me someone very special.
Speaker 2:Her name is Demetria Anna Knight. I met her on Facebook, really in a podcasting group, and she was so interesting in her words of love and wisdom.
Speaker 2:Everything that I read, I just loved. Everything that I read, I just loved. And when I went to look her up just to see if we might be in alignment and might want to ask her to be on the show, her first link that I saw was called I Am Powered by Love. Y'all know I just love that. So Demetria is coming on today and she's going to share her life journey with us. She's sharing about overcoming trauma and really finding her true self. She grew up in a pretty challenging environment an absent alcoholic father, a mother who was seeking spiritual experiences.
Speaker 1:They kind of put her in a predicament that changed the course of her life and she really felt she experienced emotional abandonment, violence, rape, which really led to feelings of unworthiness for her and she is going to tell us her journey from rock bottom to rock solid and really going to highlight the power of choice and transformation. She has some beautiful words of wisdom. She has a lot to say, a lot to talk about.
Speaker 2:I wish I could have talked with her. Well, I did talk with her longer. I wish you all could have talked with her longer too. Just a beautiful, beautiful soul. One of the things that she said that I just really love so much is when she said transformation is one step away. You can change the story. You know, no matter where you are in your life, there's always hope and transformation is one step away.
Speaker 2:Super excited to have her here today and I'm just going to let her get started and share her story. Welcome, hi. I'm excited and honored really to be here with you and connect to what I feel is a not feel. I've listened and in the discovery, you know, of your podcast and the transformations people are talking about and sharing, is an amazing way to, you know, uplift and empower people, to encourage them to face you know their own inner complex. Thank you so much for saying that that's exactly what I'm trying to do. Is you know their own inner complex? Thank you so much for saying that that's exactly what I'm trying to do. Is you know? We just want to be a source to offer hope and encouragement to others.
Speaker 2:People are struggling every day and being able to maybe hear that one little thing that sticks from something that you might have to say today is beautiful. So thank you for agreeing to do this with me. I appreciate it so much and, again, thank you for having me Absolutely. So go ahead and tell us a little bit where you grew up and how things started for you and kind of some of the things that you shared with me that you have been through that can help others kind of relate and pick themselves up. Certainly, I'm going to kind of jump the timeline so that you can better understand why my story is important. Today I work as a spiritual life coach for women, specifically to the embodiment of their design and soul's purpose and healing old conflicts. I call them toxic healing old conflicts.
Speaker 2:I call them toxic, and so the beginning, I guess, of my story how I got here to be that person is a long journey and I'm going to try to hit the highlights of the story while overextending the story. My biological father is an alcoholic. Early memories of him were always intoxicated and while my mother you know this was the 60th and you know so there was a lot of psychedelics and things happening and she was seeking spiritual experiences, while my father was, you know, trapped in his own parental wound cycle, this part is, you know, a tree that I know of, through his own admission. He had been drinking, you know, since middle school. By any chance, by the time I came about, he had been an alcoholic already for a really long time. So I got to experience, you know, life at its hardest, with an absent parent, which is a form of emotional abandonment, and a mother who was trying to find her essence and her truth. You know was surrounded by hippies and artists, and you know the magical things about crystals and meditation, and so I would go to these things with her. My mother used to make crystal jewelry and she also is an amazing artist. When I say amazing, I'm not just saying that because she's my mother. She taught art for a long time as well. So, being exposed to these two different sides, I started meditating when I was really young and exposed to distant healing. What is now considered rape, considered rapey that's not what it was called. It was still going by its eastern name. So, working in prana and chi were, you know, my early beginnings in astrology and all these these things that are just coming up back around, yeah, have been my life. That's what I was introduced to as a kid, so it's always been present in my life.
Speaker 2:So then my mother, you know, left my dad and married another high school sweetheart. They all went to high school together and my stepdad was in the military, so very, super, disciplined, super, you know, hardcore, very everything has to be done to a military standard Was also a philanderer, you know. He cheated on my mom at every corner of his life and he was also extraordinarily instrumental in teaching me how to control my thoughts. So at a very early age, it was why did you do what you did? That's an excuse, that's a reason. What's the real reason why you did it? So, getting beyond the thought to the emotion of why was very important to him and his teachings and understandings.
Speaker 2:He came from the James Allen school of as a man thinks, so that was one of the very first books that I started reading as a kid. So I started really paying attention and so everything that I did came under question and I wasn't allowed to say, well, because other kids are doing it. My dad told me you're a leader. You were born to be that. You came here with a purpose. You need to know what it is and what's your special gifts and talents that you're going to contribute to society. So I had a very hard core upbringing, defining who I was on my own terms, while also still needing my parents to be there for me. So my dad was really great helping me construct an adult mindset. But then, you know, they also needed counseling. They were always going through things and they leaned on me as a child to help them sort out their stuff. So it was a crazy dynamic, you know, child parent. But then I am punished for things.
Speaker 2:During that in between the marriage there was some. Also, like I said, right, my dad cheated on my mom, so there were always times when I was the one that she took that out on and through the constant moving and military, and separations and breakup. I found myself a victim of a violent trauma where I was raped still at a very early age I was barely in junior high school, which they now call middle school and the circumstances behind it. Extraordinary, because my parents were also responsible partially. They left me to teach me a lesson somewhere that we were as a family and they decided, because I wasn't in obedience, that they were going to leave me in a public park with no way to get home, and so I was attacked in this park and the people who brought me home brought me home and the first thing, you know, my mom opened the door and you know they told her. You know what they walked up on.
Speaker 2:So both Paul and Agatha are and you know the person that my stepdad says to me and by this time you know I'm calling him dad, he's my dad, he raised me from a very young age. So you know, the first thing that he says is you brought that on yourself and so there was no psychological treatment, there was no hospital and it's a cultural thing, you don't invite people into your life and so I had to live with that and the executive blamed that I had done something wrong and that me shrank and that me shrank. So the bar one was even more magnetized because I did something to provoke that level of stalking. You know, domestic violence we're talking the same type of scale and those things impact your psyche, soul on a very different level of struggle or broke, or, you know, lost my job, or we're homeless. Now it's a different entity on its own.
Speaker 2:So, amidst all these great things that he was teaching me also, I never got treatment for them and internalized that moment because it was extraordinary. You disassociate, the brain has to survive, and so when you experience a trauma of that, of that magnitude, you just associate that part from yourself and what happens in that? In that moment it's like a part of you leaves you. So that part, that was the joy and the love and the safety immediately when the sicks get wished the back. Part of my life was gone, so it kept me from really deeply connecting with others because I never felt safe. And so then a lot of other behaviors exhibited. And then there was depression throughout high school, which you know your hormones are already changing, but you have action and then there was suicide attempts and suicidal ideations, while all at the same time I'm operating at a high level of spiritual gifts and abilities. So can I ask you something?
Speaker 2:You sure can you got home that day and they basically said to you, that was your fault, you caused that and that was all that was ever said about it. Just that's it. No. Well, my mother asked me if there was penetration and because my dad had already said what he said, I said no, there was no way I was going to let them know that anything other had happened that he'd already said it was my fault. So there was tremendous shame and guilt there and inside that trauma. And you know, even when, as an adult, having, I mean, yeah, I said well conversation, they swear to God it didn't happen.
Speaker 2:And then I'm producing memories that you know you are so hyper aware after that, every little nuance, and still to this day, there's a level of hypervigilance about my surroundings, my details, down to the music, the backgrounds on the ice, things on the wall. People are like you've got an incredible memory. I'm like I know I can recall lots of things and things that people are saying that was a pivotal moment. So everything that was said, yeah, I intentionally said no, nothing happened. But who's going to admit to that after? You already feel like I did this to myself? You know my parents didn't have us to ask. These are your authorities protectors. You know the riders and they think that you're, you know you're less likely to own up to the whole story. So that not only changed you in your soul, that also changed the relationship that you had with your parents that day, absolutely yeah. There was no trusting them, there was no communicating with them, there was nothing that they could say to me that, amidst all the problems that they were having, that I felt like they were, that they were stable entities to subscribe any kind of authority at all, that they were mismanaging everything in their lives, wanting me to have all kinds of control of self. They were also unself-controlled and self-managed, you know. Multiple relationships, multiple partners, multiple siblings without the same parents, I mean. So I just I looked at it and just said I need to leave. So I did.
Speaker 2:I moved out of my home, I ran away early in Lyotard and then left home early and saw a mass patient and then also was extremely, you know, reprimanded for thinking they should, you know, do different things. So there was a fighting battle behind time for school set about, you know, because the generation where you know you apply your words to your family, you know, is a extraordinary patient that I pose to personally. So that part of you take care of all these kids while we go out and take care of you. I'm like, but you didn't, you didn't, you know you didn't take care of me. Actually, you're the ones who left me in a wrong place. So I don't know that I want to babysit your kids. You know you had them paying for someone to do that. You know, I'm, yeah, I'm, I'm doing this.
Speaker 2:So we we found ourselves quite a bit, which, you know, made my decision in life to leave early and then seek out my own relationship foundations based on ideas that I was having and and vision a different world in a life for myself, led me to two marriages. The first didn't last very long at all, only on paper, because he refused here the ensue sign of the papers. But he cheated on me very early, even, despite the fact that, cognitively, I explained to him as I watched my parents do this and experienced having been taken to people's homes playing like their kids, making friendships with other women's kids. You know, a lot of my childhood friends were the women that my dad was sleeping with and I knew it and I couldn't say it to my mom because it would be my fault for not doing that thing. Stop it. You know, I mean I tell him 12, 13. Who am I to tell him who he could be with? But so most of my childhood friends were mother children of Mother James. You know I had explained all these things, you know, to my first husband. This is something that will not be tolerated, and so he did. I left. There's no repairing something that you already explained. This is going to be a problem for me. Fidelity is a big deal. And so he did and I left. So he didn't want to divorce me, though, although he had been served multiple, multiple, multiple times, hit me on for quite a while, but so I had left a long time prior to the finalization of the divorce.
Speaker 2:Then I was married again and we were together for some time and I sabotaged that particular relationship. You know there was already multiple abandonments, you know from my biological father choosing his addiction over his family, being abandoned by my dad Because, according to my mother, after the fact he said let's leave her here to teach her the lesson. And I'm like, like how did you just think that was okay? You didn't even fight for that, like I, how can he news out why this was a good idea? Is over 10 miles from home. You know I had no way of transportation. So you know, just not having any role models, that even looked normal to me. I mean, I'm not sure everyone can identify with some level of discord in their house. How do you make normal, how do you normalize that when already you know you're feeling so deeply undefined and trying to be as deprived as possible? So I downsized that relationship simply because I played the victim.
Speaker 2:Everything was happening to me and I needed him and then I made additional victim stories just because I felt like that's how his love was being derived. So then at some point he started figuring out that these stories weren't true. One of them had to do with a medical thing that I had made up a story that I had this and I did it and I actually went to the hospital. He asked the doctors about it and then the doctor said we see no sign of that. So then he called my dad because he was in the military and it would have been on military better had I used my dad's military benefit On my dad.
Speaker 2:And after I came to, came home and a few days of recovery you know he likes to call things out and just get you know things cleared. And so he asked me about it and I had to tell him yeah, I now, mind you, my dad had been really good about making me understand where things came from, but I didn't know where this victim was coming from. I could not answer the question. I wanted to know why I did it and I didn't have an answer, and then that destroyed the trust that he had, because he was like if you lie over anything, then anything that you're saying could be a lie. And I understood exactly where he come from because my dad had me on. If you don't know your why that you, you don't understand your behavior, you're responding from something that you don't understand, your behavior. You're responding from something that you can't see. And so I understood why my husband was upset and I didn't know how to fix it.
Speaker 2:And slowly, over time, my husband started drawing his love, attention, affection because he no longer trusted as more things lies and manipulations he felt was being manipulated and that weren't like. He told me I just don't even know who you are and that those, those were the words that rocked my soul. And then he divorced me and what I walked away from that was hey, I don't know who I am, and he's right. So I can't balk him for having said it, because those, those are true, because I don't know who I am. Number two, I watched him make a decision that was painful for him, because I do believe that he loved me. As a matter of fact, I'm almost positive that he was in love with me long after he chose to love himself.
Speaker 2:He said, as I, as I'm sure you know, president, that I told you and you told me that these were things that our parents this is my second marriage and we talked about what happened in the realms of marriage and what we saw our parents do to each other, and we had made an agreement that we would not do that to one another and that we would be okay if one of us decided that this was no longer working and we weren't going to try to make the relationship work and drive us into the tyranny of anger. So when he said he didn't want to, I had no other thing to do but capitulate, because that was my verbal word and re-event, and despite how I felt and what I wanted to do, I understood where he was coming from, because he delineated all the things, what it made him feel what it was doing to him and I don't ever want any. I love you, I don't have any pains, I don't have any other thing but to let you walk away. And I saw self-love from a whole different standpoint and I think I was about 26, 27 at that moment and I was like that's some power. That's some power to walk away in a different light. Because there was, there was no cheating, this was just my emotional and emotional was being destroyed and all the trust and love that I have for you is fully interiorating. Uh really stays in the belt. He had to save his own mental well-being and that that's huge, like that's somebody that really knows themselves yeah, really knows themselves and really had to tell you you're not doing right by me and you're not doing right by yourself. Is is essentially where he was telling you. So right man, god bless him.
Speaker 2:And that sent me straight to Christianity. And so that's kind of what really was a staple in understanding my purpose and things that I had already been experiencing the skills, talents, abilities and skills in the spiritual realms, because there's things that I've been able to witness and do that even predicated these moments. So I didn't even talk about that part of my upbringing because I started seeing crossover loved ones early on, seeing and hearing and knowing future events touching people and seeing present moment outcomes and hearing predictions about those things. So it made my, which led to the suicide. So not only was there rape, but I had all this spiritual power that I had no right to have, so not feeling worthy and God giving me these gifts.
Speaker 2:So the second marriage, just same way me right into. I have to. I didn't go into church. You know my parents went through the phase of being in new age Donnie L Aquarius moment to this is wrong. We're going to get our life right, we're going to go to God, type thing. So very confusing period where I was introduced to Christianity but I made it my own professional choice through the side of marriage, and so that gave me some sound space to really develop a connection with God through prayer. And the visual is I want to say I don't know about anybody, but I want to send it to one. But I threw myself into the only safe pocket in the world. I felt unsafe, unloved, and there was only one source that could trump anybody on the planet. It was God. And so then I went to seminary school and became a licensed minister, and then I went to evangelical school, and then I went to take my master's in world religion. Let me ask you something. Let me ask you something.
Speaker 2:Let me ask you something. You went through a lot of emotional trauma as a child. How did you cope? What skills were you using to mask and cope? Was there drugs? Was there alcohol? Was there anything that you used to mask and cope, or were you able to not use anything and feel those feelings? I'm very curious. Actually, I didn't start using anything until I was an adult, so alcohol later became much later, by the way, and drugs also much later by the way and cigarettes.
Speaker 2:So now all cigarettes, the masking for me, proving that I was none of the things that I had so exceeding in school, creating achievements to circumvent the feeling of unworthiness. So I was able to accomplish things like finishing high school by the 11th grade with some fairly decent grades and honors. I mean, I wasn't valedictorian or salutatorian, but I was right up there and competing with some of the smartest kids in my school. So I drew myself into vehicles where other gift, talents and things that I appreciated in life were that were important to me. So being great at them, the details and orders and the structures of them, and so also being the smartest person in the room was important to me. So perfectionism a little bit, being perfectionist and really striving to be perfect. So also being the smartest person in the room was important to me.
Speaker 2:Perfectionism, a little bit, perfection, really striving to be perfect. I found a lot but wasn't attracted to doing any of them, even licensed in a lot of things and did them, and did them extraordinarily, and then I was like, okay, done, conquered, what's next? So that drives to produce some form of greatness and overcome some something that someone said that couldn't, uh, create a reality. So, if you dare me and say you can't, I'm getting ready to show you that I absolutely can, because it hinged on myself, you know. Know, that was the biggest mask, but also part of my deepest core functionality. So, yeah, holding something that was already there, bold and inherent nature, so I could pinpoint that to you on astrology, where that is in my chart. So that became my greatest asset. And then the other thing that I amassed was how people perceived me. I was aware that people's perception is, you know she's really pretty. You know she's really, you know, bubbly and effervescent. And so that gregarious, charismatic energy of my personality was kind of where it rested, because I didn't know self.
Speaker 2:I reflected what people's opinions were from the external version. So I became hyper-vigilantly aware of those who were trying to, you know, come into my world because I was just pretty, those who were trying to come into my world because they saw something deeper, beyond the pretty. There were some who were magnetized by, I seem to fearlessly and effortlessly go into new situations and make friends. In every arena there's people that are drawn to that. So, and then I also draw in those experiences because I believe life affords us the luxury to manifest every experience we want. So I was having some fabulous life, although still feeling super I wouldn't say it just shitty inside. The smile on my face was the mask to hide it. And then I could see people who were, you know, leaning and glomming on, you know, to my life in a leech type fashion, because of the types of people that were coming into the sphere of my world. They wanted a part of me being my entourage, and I'm not saying that in a bloatish way, I'm just saying I could recognize all the categories of people that were around me and I understood that they still don't even know me, right, that's a hard place to meet. They don't know who I really am. They're only attracted to these, these essences. And that mask I've worn for a really long time and the peeling of the mask off is what produced the drugs, the alcohol, the cigarette. And that was after Christianity. So my world was rocked because my church I'm not going to name it, it's still in existence, it is a meg. It was rocked by a story of its head, so this was a headline story. It went around the world and I had already heard it. That's the crazy thing. God had already shared that with me, that this was happening behind the scenes. So for it to hit, the headline news of this major thing that was happening, I was asked to leave. God asked me to leave and I was already under the process, or in the process of trying to leave. You know, there was. You're going to go to hell. This is Satan tempting you. This is a vision.
Speaker 2:But also, likewise, those same people I couldn't see it were following in those categories. The light that I brought to the ministry and my drive towards human and all of that went towards God, and so they were also using the mask. And because I couldn't feel people people not really. I didn't really know why people loved me. There was always these other things about me, other than the mask and the coping. I'm just so believable and black and bold and accepting.
Speaker 2:The mask was, and it also is, an original part of me. I am all those things. I'm'm gregarious, you know. I'm following. I'm adventurous. I love meeting people the workier the better, the weirder, the stranger, the better. You know we're going to be the best friends. We're the most wounded. I'm going to love you. I'm going to nurture you to death. You know all of those things. So that's really incredible. It was like I was aware people could, they will, wear up and if they lied to me because of that, so that's too old indeed.
Speaker 2:With masks, let me throw a big guess out there very codependent, 100 people pleasing and any arena that you were in, you were doing that, yes and just, and that causes you to not know who you are. Right, 100%, yeah, yeah. And by everything that you're sharing with me, I can. I can really put this together and feel what you must have been going through. I'm not going to say I know everything you were going through. I'm not trying to say that, but I can feel where the trauma and where the hardship in all that was for you. And then you have your husband saying I don't even know you, right, while you're inside saying shit that makes sense because I don't know me either. Right, slowly, right, yeah, absolutely Slowly. Hey, yeah, absolutely, yeah.
Speaker 2:You take that even you know just a little bit deeper and not only do you not know yourself, but then you don't trust. Yeah, oh, I get it, I even went into the world, yeah, and people talk about security or finances and stability. So you go one level deeper and you told people's faith around people. You think and believe that people were all. You will never be able to trust anyone with who you are. You were never. You're never going to feel like you can reveal your truth without criticism and enduring rejection and abandonment and judgment.
Speaker 2:And that's where real people pleasing comes in. That's where it comes in Because you feel all those things, whether they're valid or not valid, that's how you feel. So that makes it valid, right, because that's how you feel about yourself. And so now you're like this is what makes them love me, let me do this, this is what makes them love me, let me do that. And that's you know, sharing stories with your husband that weren't true. You were getting what you needed from him and that validation that you needed. You were getting that and you figured out how to get it and he did you. Now, whether that was the most hurtful time in your life, he did you the most gracious favor that someone could do for someone else. I had an ex-husband who committed suicide in 2013, but he was very much that person who he portrayed on the outside. You never knew who he really was and whoever he was around. You know he would.
Speaker 1:He would say certain things and I never knew where we stood.
Speaker 2:He would tell you what you wanted to hear every second of the day and we would be making big life plans and he would just tell you what you want to hear. So you're making your life plans on these things that you're hearing going. Ok, that's what we're doing, and the next day that could be something totally else or something totally different, and it was very confusing and very difficult and we ended up separating as well. I ended up saying I can't do this anymore. I cannot do this with you, but not for the same reasons. I don't think that your, your husband, did for you and I and I very gracious, honestly. Yeah, it was. It was a tremendous lesson, you know, and I was.
Speaker 2:I was born with that gift and then my dad instilled it, so it was really easy for me to see. Of course, it was heartbreaking, right? Yeah, because I really loved him and I saw. I saw all the things that he was helping me become as a woman and he was a great man of his word and integrity. We had very similar life values and the 96, 27,. He was the only one that he got to see a little bit more of who I was, so he didn't see. He didn't see what 25% of who I was, but he loved. He loved me, so I didn't have to always be wearing the mask of any identity that I am, I am all those things, but I could also just be relaxed with him. I felt safe enough to allow him to die in a discharge. But also, he's older than me so he had some discipline in the military helped him with that. And he's older than me, so he had some discipline and the military helped him with that. And he's very scientific. The way his mind worked was also very attractive to me because I needed the analytical quotient, because my emotional world was completely unhinged, like literally unhinged. I'm proud to say that it's regulated. For the better part it was definitely unhinged, but he was a big catalyst in that. He was a big catalyst in you learning how to regulate. And what a gift he gave you. Can I share how much of a regulation and a revelation that was?
Speaker 2:Yeah, because of the things that were happening in my marriage and its dissolution, I immediately went to my best friend at the time and I said, hey, I want to get a group together. Let's go out to lunch and I sat in front of seven of my then besties and I told them about all the lies. That's how I broke the pattern. I divulged every lie that I never told them. The reason that my marriage was going south because no one knew. I didn't talk about it. You would never know. I'm always. But you know, life is great, everything's fine, you know, it's wonderful. Let's party, let's have you know, let's celebrate. So I sat there at his lunch date sharing this with them, and then everyone started busting out in tears. All of them then started admitting they were doing the same things. Oh, wow, people, we were all crying and loving and forgiving each other.
Speaker 2:Then we decided that we were going to take this show on the road. So we created a road trip to all of our external friends, our external friends that weren't part of this. So we visited each other's friends, so we took it on the road, so we kind of that was the launching of where I'm at today, that that moment was pivotal. So we went Alabama, mississippi, texas and Georgia because every you know, all of us had friends that we really cared about, that we had done these things to, that we really just wanted to, you know, just be able to say hey, I need you to accept me for me I don't know who that is, but I also. You don't deserve any likes. You manipulated and you know thinking that it's this or that. So it was a beautiful wake up call for those in my life at that time and I would say some names. I don't want to offend anybody, but I do know that those people are better people and they're living a more authentic expression in life and calling in experiences you know, that really were defined by that moment.
Speaker 2:Wow, you know mine was completely opposite, demetria.
Speaker 2:I would hide who I was and things that I'd been through, instead of, you know, sharing those parts. I would hide those parts because of, you know, fear of judgment or whatever, and so I completely understand what you're saying. But it was like the opposite, you know what I mean of hiding really who I was and things I had been through in my life because I didn't know how people would take them. And the fact that you guys did that is just incredible really. Yeah, it was definitely. We called it the Freedom and Love Tour and it definitely it set the tone for where I was in the dismantling process of my church, because all of those events that enforced that freedom and love tour and where I was going in religion, it did make it a lot easier for me to say this isn't untrue and this is the most second horrific thing that could happen. And this is this is the most second horrific thing that could happen is the one place I felt safe in the world where I could just express my inner spirit, my soul, and start healing.
Speaker 2:That part was built on deception, lies, and you name it. I mean it was, it was, it was a trying time, so that that is that is where my addiction was picked up, because when I walked away from Christianity, having devoted, this is not I'm going to say this, but I'm going to give this disclaimer because I don't want people to think that whatever practices you have make it any less real to you For me. I'm an all or nothing person that's just made up either all way in or I'm just out, and then, once, once I make that determination, there's no stopping me then. So when I just when they, when I knew that I was called by god, it was all that. I didn't have anything else. There was no other love in the world other than the feeling of the spirit moving through me, communicating with me and being with God.
Speaker 2:So I was in church seven days a week. I was running children's ministries, women's ministries, youth ministry, and so we traveled, we did a lot of events. And then there were, you know, other parts of the church that I was in departments and worked in. So I was very interwoven. I just wasn't. We're just going to church you were. I wasn't just going to church, I worked in the church, right.
Speaker 2:So this is a devastating moment for me, wow. And so it was almost like being raped all over again. These were people that we traveled. You know, we did. You know, in the name of god. You know laying hands and shame. You know changing people's lives convocations, indications, shenanigans, revivals, you name it, you know. And so it forgot to tell me to walk away and I was having conversations with the hierarchy that I was in to be villainized.
Speaker 2:And then for this truth to come out, I was. It was a whole, nother level of lost in the world. I can't really explain it. I was able to process and get through just on sheer will, but that's stripping away of god and what that meant to me and what it was. It was a. It was the only shelter that I honestly, I'll say about that thing is emotional, because that's it was for me. I had no place to go. God was the only one that was convinced that was going to love me, through all the ugliness that I was.
Speaker 2:And for that to come out in the extraordinary length of things that they did, it was. I just went literally to the dark side. I'm not even going to lie about it. You know I was so done with God because I felt like God led me there. I felt like these people just that I actually still have them and still use them to this day needed them because they didn't have them, and so these things were bringing people to the face because of things that I could do, and so I went completely to the dark side.
Speaker 2:So drugs, alcohol, smoking I am smoking before, which is one of the problems with the ex-husband because I lied and said I quit, he got it. So the lying just never was, just in the opinion, just never stopped. Like you're lying about everything, I'm like I don't know who you are and so it. It was like how much bad can I do? Because obviously god also thinks I'm a shitty person. He would send me to this wolf den of debauchery, limiting everything else. But, holiness, you know deep and systemic, you know, into the system of the organization. So it was yeah, I'm going to. Just, I'm going to go all in. I have no recourse now because I'm not even sure God is real. You know I had a major crisis and I just didn't care anymore about it. I was glad you didn't care about myself, so you take, take God away from me. It was like, whatever we're going to do, it.
Speaker 1:What you created for yourself though was some of that world, and I'm just asking I don't know, so forgive me I'm not trying to be offensive Was some of that, somewhat of your creation of that world and people pleasing with the?
Speaker 2:people in that world and making it what you needed at the time. Yeah, I needed God, and it was also the only available thought available. So I don't know, I don't know that I made them do what they were doing behind closed doors. I don't mean that. I don't mean that. But giving my life to God or anything of your safe space, giving your life to God Also didn't have anything to do with them, which is why, when God told me to leave, I was ready to leave because it was me and God. So I did leave.
Speaker 2:I left right at the moment where it was starting to break the news. I was getting calls that hey, this is happening and this is going to be on the news. I had already stopped going, despite them threatening that I was going to go to hell. I know what I hear. I know what I've been experiencing my whole life. So what you can't tell me is that now I have this connection, it was the part of the exposure to what had been going on led me to believe that, and God led me I have these extraordinary abilities. I don't feel safe. So some of that yes, I would say is a creation of multiple things. Part of the world. Christianity is the only thought that we have about what religion or God is. So not feeling safe, going through an extraordinary life-changing moment with divorce. It was the safest space and so, you know, I wasn't doing the things to please people. These things were, and I was inspired to do my heart and but, yes, okay, being in in with, moving in the energy, working with, working with others, seeing transformation, seeing the light. It was addictive, definitely Because I now, instead of those one or two last, I now had another space where this is also part of who I am. I get to express and be this part, which was healing my soul as well. So I did a lot of free counseling through the ministry and was able to.
Speaker 2:I have a belief system that every this is just me. Every word that falls out of my mouth I'm accountable to. This is the creation of Pathlife Carter. So every minute I'm staying and then if I'm hearing something or let's just say I was hearing something for Joe and I started sharing with Joe hey, joe, you should do this this is also accountable. If those words are going to heal her, then I also have to be. I have to stand on the integrity of those words that are coming out of my mouth, because that's the prerequisite for me.
Speaker 2:Is that what I have? Are you talking about Akashic Records right now? Say that again. Are you talking about Akashic Records right now? I am, I'm in Akashic Records. Okay, that's what I was getting from that.
Speaker 2:So I thought I would clarify. I don't know if everybody knows what that is, but that's what you're telling me, right, what that is. But that's what you're telling me, right? Without telling they they, I didn't know. That's what I had been doing my whole life, but it was later.
Speaker 2:I had to leave the church. I discovered that. So I went three years I've got to leave rather of it, and after seven years I was living very holy. I realized that pentecostal is where I think the discrimination leads. So I went straight to the kingdom of darkness. I did any and everything you were able to.
Speaker 2:Abandonment was the antithesis of all forms of abandonment. It was all of them wrapped up together. So when I told my closest friends you know, I don't know what the current music is, I don't know what the current fashions are, I don't even identify with any of the things that are happening in the world around me. You know it would be the looks on their faces and the things that they would say. You know. So for a very long time they called me the Oracle, the Holy Bowler, you know. So it was funny.
Speaker 2:And then I ended up doubting myself the devil's knees and I just needed a break from god, and my base was really, was really torn, and so that is where the drugs came in, because I was like then there's no hope, there's just no hope in the world. Let me stop you right there. You just hit the, you just hit the whole premise of what we're doing. When people feel like there is no, that is when things just take a turn and go downhill quick, and there is always hope, and you know that. You know that now. You know that now there is always hope, and that's the whole premise here from rock bottom to rock solid. You would hit your bottom.
Speaker 1:You were there, feeling hopeless, like there was no hope. And there is hope and there is always hope. And you were able to, and you're going to tell me how, but you were able to get yourself out of that.
Speaker 2:That is the spot that people don't want to be Absolutely. That is a destroyer of a different level of psyche. When you become hopeless and see no point, then you are an open flooded gate of self-harming. It doesn't need to be a physical self-harm, it can just be cutting off friends, isolating all of those different things that then become self-destructive. You are so right, I mean you are so right. I know that you and I sit here and talk about this all day. I know that we could obviously right, I'm just like nobody can see me and I'm up at the screen going tell me more. Tell me more. Definitely we could Tell me, kind of, how you got yourself out of that, that hopelessness that you were feeling at that moment and you turn to the drugs and you turn to alcohol and I know there's some other things you turn to in that moment. Tell me how you got yourself out of that, man.
Speaker 2:Uh, first of all, it was a very deep vortex and you know I'm sitting here looking back at it and, uh, it went on for some years. That's a and I write it and and quite a few things did happen that almost when I tell people they're they are almost shocked when I say it. This is you went from god to jail. Yes, I the opposite, right, it's usually the opposite, right, it's usually the opposite. You go from jail to God and you went from God to jail. And I was beyond angry. The ultimate of fathers had said you're now being rewarded to your religion and your service. That's nothing to me. You've given heart, soul and complete obedience, and I'm going to stick you with a bunch of man. Nothing to me. You give in heart, soul and complete obedience and I'm going to stick you with a bunch of vipers. So my reaction to that was everything that was a sin. I was now going to find the most ultimate pleasure in it. And so if there be a hell, I guess I'm going to be the one to lead everybody. I can't say you're going to be the leader, yeah, guess I'm going to be the one to lead every guy. I can't say you're gonna be the leader, yeah, I'm gonna be the leader. Because again, that that part of me is a real part. I'm a very achievement goal oriented as a human, not by all I know you're all in. When you're in, you're in and yeah, I'm, I was all the way in. So then.
Speaker 2:Then it was let's use those other charismatic masks. They're not technically masks, those are, you know. So, while we're saying that, what we're really saying is well, part of your personality are you using to be the front man over your woes, right? So you know, I try to be very careful with words because they're so triggering. We already have self-criticism and self-judgment. I really work really hard not to reach traumatized people. We're already actually sitting in the trauma, living it every day. For that, those parts of me that are gregarious then turn into. Now I'm going to.
Speaker 2:Now I'm going to use this magnetism to magnetize all the people who want to just party like rock stars, you know, do the most debaucherous things and live with no inhibitions. So I flipped all of that to being this you know guy. But everyone had a good time partying, you know. Clubs, all these short things that we got to do, all the people that I I met and were also gravitated to the fun, adventurous, let's do anything you know type person. So I have a strip club, something that I think everyone has probably done, but I had never done it. So I was like, hey, let let's do that. Hey, let's drink. Hey, let's, you know, go to this concert. Oh, and the celebrity wants us to go out to the VIP. Hey, let's go to this basketball game. Hey, here's concert tickets, here's airplane tickets, come to this, do that. So you name it.
Speaker 2:Every experience that I said, I just I want to be out here living. I lived to be out here living. I lived. I've been a really good kid. I was a great wife to the best of my ability, I served God to the fullest of my heart and I was on a mission. To know that I was saying it to people.
Speaker 2:So it was self-sabotaging. You were self-sabotaging in the biggest way. Those people were my friends. Yeah, you know, they were along for the ride because I was man of that. I would ride to this NFL, fga, major concert events. People were just giving me things and you watch the show because I was this very lively. You know, bring curious stuff. And then people you know all the pretty girls and all the you know the sexy women and all the girls who wanted to party with these types of people were. We were the crew, we were the clique, we were the group.
Speaker 2:So I got to do a lot of things and so, yeah, I made some choices because I was still very angry that that landed me in a county jail and all very public record. So I'm not saying anything that you can't find if you really truly Google me. So I practice transparency because I want people to understand how deep this can go. It doesn't hard. Once rage kicks in anger, you might find yourself slapping the crap out of your husband or your wife or your kid, and that could land you a case. It just that's just the law. Yeah, there was a lot of drinking and driving, so there's, you know, duis on my record, and so these things were the checkpoint. Is this what you want? Remember what you know? Know your thoughts are creating. You are in control of them. These are things that my dad had been teaching me. You know you're responsible for your creations and how you create.
Speaker 2:It was really at that, that point, that I really started remembering who I really was and what the experience of God was for me and the joy that I live when helping and serving others. Now, I wasn't healed even when I was in church, but I started to recognize that I'm going to have to fix whatever this is that is driving this story, because so I had to determine how I was going to create value and income. So that that was a game changer too, because trying to figure that out when you don't know who you are, what you are going to be, when you could just be anything, led me to to also taking jobs, playing below my worth and value and working extraordinarily hard. So a lot of things were starting to add up. I don't like this experience. And then not having a steady relationship. I was dating but wasn't finding fulfillment. I was really only in it to work, so I just try the I'm not worthy part. And when I started realizing that that is what I was doing, I had the greatest awakening in my life. So it was years after I left church.
Speaker 2:I was 30 and I believe by the age of 37, I had self-admitted that. I know that I'm called. I know this is a soul urge that is so deep I don't know how to come back to God because all of the things that I have done I can't even tell anyone who's meeting me new. There's some people that might listen to this, who may know me, who are going to be very shocked to hear this story. I share as much as a human should with a client because there's you know there's privilege on both sides. You don't get to know everything about me, but this is a no-holds barred moment because I want you to know that, no matter where you are in your life, transformation is one step away. You can change the story. It doesn't have to define you. It doesn't have to be the end of the way you live. It is not the truth of how your story can be rewritten.
Speaker 2:So I'm sharing this on a very, very deep level because I really, really want you to know that it was rock bottom. It was rock bottom and having to reconnect back to God after having done some very extraordinarily crazy things. I'm not going to go all the way into the details. Like I said, if you really want to go, you can find that out. It's all on the record and I'm not ashamed of it because those things were things that I had to heal. So if you look and you find, you will understand that some of those things were done because there was self-hatred there and the self that I knew was the self that said you did this to yourself.
Speaker 2:So, having to unravel parental wounds, trauma wounds, wounds of self-infliction based on thoughts and beliefs and feelings about everything, I just sat down and I started with and here's the first nugget when do I want to go from here? Where do I want to go from here when we sit in all the shit sorry, you know they're going to bring word for people there's, you know, we're just going word for people there's, you know we're just gonna be, we're gonna be so transparent here when we're we're looking at a mountain of shit. It will overwhelm you. You will, since your body's neurological system and your nervous system cannot take that level of pressure. So you will short-circuit and those short-circuiting things will lead to isolation, will lead to coping mechanisms, will lead to behavioral things, and I've done them all so I can tell you better, best than anybody. That's what happened. I lived it. It was my life. And so by 38, 39, I had started.
Speaker 2:I had an awakening at about 33, 34, trying to put that together and understand that God still loved me. So let me explain to you what happened. I was starting to read the Bible again because I hadn't picked one up in a really long time, and I had a friend who was asking me questions and we were doing like a Bible study together. And I had a friend who was asking me questions and we were doing like a Bible study together and as we were sitting down, she asked me some things about the scripture. So I know I am a licensed seminary, I am a licensed minister, and so I was explaining to her the difference between the Hebrew and the Greek and what these words mean, because they are transcribed and so we have to understand the root of the word first. We can really even break down scriptures themselves.
Speaker 2:So this particular scripture, I read with it and we were talking about it and I just started and I realized, when I say awakening, it was like I woke up from a sleep, literally. I was crying and she was on the phone and I was like I don't know what's happening to me and I feel this overwhelming clarity and this sensation that I hadn't felt and although I had experienced Holy Spirit and a lot of other amazing and beautiful experiences with God, this was like nothing that I had ever experienced before. It was so very clear You're creating from a part of yourself that is so subconscious and hidden from you. If you just learn to bring these things forward and clarify what your real emotions are, you are not this fractured individual, you are not a soul that is lost. You are not a soul that is lost. You are not a soul that is down. These are stories that you are creating. You tell yourself, stories that you tell yourself and your subconscious mind over. It's true, you are creating this and I sat in that for like three hours and then I got angry again.
Speaker 2:I was like why didn't you tell me this all before, when I was injured like these? These health coats could have been so different. And the guy said you weren't ready to take what we're on, yeah, for yourself. And I've been showing you how to do that this whole time. And so it's kind of like you know the guy in a flood and it's raining, and he's all he said. I say, and he saved me, yeah, and what I got. So I was angry and I was like, okay, so now I have to do all this karma, all the things that I've done to myself, to others, and then there's this past life. But now I have to meet through this current illusion to create, which is why I love this song Row, row, row, your boat Chasing down the stream Merrily, merrily, merrily.
Speaker 2:We're talking about gratitude. Life is but a dream. When you are dreaming and thinking, imagining, creating, thinking about life. You are in a co-creative process. Whether you believe in God, whether you are atheist, your thoughts are created Period. That is the universal law, and no man, woman, boy or girl can ever outdo it. It's a fact. And so I sat with that and I was like, okay, let me make a list of the things that I want from here, now, right now. So, wherever you are, whatever you're doing, no matter what in the world is happening yes, it's totally pretty there may be some parts of your life that you're facing right now that are tremendous challenges, filled with obstacles, blockages, stops, delays. It just stops delays and it's making you feel all of these words that we've. You know we've talked about low self-worth, low self-esteem, you know self-judgment, self-criticism, you know, stunk challenges.
Speaker 2:Wherever you are, whatever it is that you you deeply desire, pick one thing, just one thing, sure, like there's a melting pot here at a buffet of I need it all good one, whether that thing be peace, whether it be more income, whether it be a better, loving, healthier relationship, whether it's your health or losing weight. Whatever that is, maybe it's purpose, maybe it's a direction and career, maybe it's a fresh start starting over, you know, maybe it's friendships that aren't healthy. Maybe it's family repair, maybe it's a better relationship with your kids. Whatever that is, whatever that is, you have to look at that one part. It's the only way to pull your thoughts apart. Otherwise you're going to drive yourself absolutely batshit crazy and you're going to give up.
Speaker 2:You put that on a piece of paper, you put it on your wall like a bullseye. Now, this is not visual. Talking about it, bisman gourd, you're just talking about the next one thing, right, you're talking about. You need to fix your, your line on where you are going, because when, when we don't have control of our conscious or subconscious, we need a fixation. Right, we're already doing that. We're fixated on our job, fixated on the kids and what they're doing, our husbands, our wives, our income, our bank account, where we want to go on vacation. We're fixated on these things already, except the conversations that we're having are all over the place.
Speaker 2:So now we're looking at what we want to do differently, better, and when you put it on the wall and you look at it and draw a circle like bullseye on top of what that is, whether you put that on your mirror, I use dry erase markers for the mirror and I write a statement there, the first thing that you're going to come up with is all the reasons, excuses, justifications, denial of why you cannot have it. That's what you've been telling yourself all this time. Write those things down. That's step number two. Write them down or record them and if you get a chance after you write down that thing and you start hearing all the reasons why, now send in your feelings about it and feel what that thing represents, not the thoughts why you want it, why I want more income, because I'm tired of being broke. That's a thought.
Speaker 2:Feel the money, feel the pleasure, feel the desire, feel the happiness. Feel it because your body is disconnected from it. Feel it because your body is disconnected from it. And, having been a survivor of a bodily trauma, I can tell you, when you disassociate from your body the vehicle that your soul is, this is your temple. We are bringing in nothing but thought, thought, and they're all negative, and the body gets programmed. Your organs, your cells, your circulatory circulatory, your lymphatic, your endocrine. You are programming your body to hold this energy. So now you gotta train it. Super simple test a little bit of salt water and a bunch of water, but definitely start feeling what you want and not thinking about all the reasons why you lack it in the first place. That is so critical.
Speaker 2:Then just holding simple gratitude about all the beautiful things that you already manifested, no matter how crappy the current circumstances and states of existence they're in. If you have a home, even if you can't pay the mortgage, be crazy. You've got a nice car, a shitty car. You got a car. The insurance is high. Stop complaining about it. These are belief systems that you were etching yourself. I can't afford the gas.
Speaker 2:There's things that we can stop saying that attribute to us connecting to more and better, and then different. And once you start realizing the seven levels of the things because there's seven in total that we go through in our mind, skepticism being the final one. I can never have that, you know I. I, I got to get a better job. I got a little. You know we're already skeptic.
Speaker 2:So doubt, fear, justifications, reasons, excuses and denial these are all in the list, and some of them sound so super plausible that we buy into the reasons why. But what we're really truly saying at the end of that story is I'm not worthy. So that's why we have to bring back gratitude that we did create that and, although we don't like the circumstances that it's in or the conditions that I've arrived at, I can turn this around so that you can open up the space in order to create the alignment to the next part. So, step one clarify one area of your life that you want to make whole. Step two notice any of the excuses, reasons and justifications, maybe the skepticisms, doubts and denials that you have about even having it. Then write them down somewhere. You need to be aware that this is a co-creative part of the story. Then go back. Number three sit down with the emotional state of what that thing is going to do and then overly sit with those things. I'm going to give you one more, because it's very important.
Speaker 2:Once you notice any of your distortion, once you notice any of the emotional distortion in those seven things that are going to tell you that you cannot have, you need to start reframing that thing. Whether you understand what the belief is coming from, those are later steps. Start reframing, and we're not talking about affirmation. I do really desert, I shouldn't have peace in my life and I give myself permission to have it. Affirmations only work when you believe them to be true Absolutely, and mantras only work when you create them from a new, a new, new, experienced belief.
Speaker 2:So that step of reframing should also then go right next to that on your mirror. So dry erase markers really help, I found when I would look at it in the mirror in my daily routine. So it doesn't take nothing but twice a day, just when you're washing your face, brushing your teeth, putting on your makeup whatever routine that is. It's five, 10 minutes. So it's better than a meditation, because it's your thoughts, and when you look at where you want to go for the day, what energy you need to have in order to be the receiving vibration of it, you're going to start catching yourself when you hear thoughtful thoughts. That's where the reframe is.
Speaker 2:Why I have to give you four things is because when you start reframing why do I doubt that Our evidence bias keeps producing this thought so that we can say that it's real? That proof that it exists is a creation of our experience of the thoughts, and so we're looking for the evidence that we can't have any of the things that we want. So we're telling ourselves there's no way. That's why skepticism is the last and final. Stop telling ourselves there's no way. That's why skepticism is the last and final stop. When you're there saying that you can't, you need to be able to put yourself in the position to say, but why can't? So? So if someone wanted to take this further with you, because you're talking about seven steps and we're given four and we're we're scratching the surface on these four, let's be real. So if someone is very scratching the surface, these, these are, this is deep, and if you want some real transformation, how could somebody find you? How can I work with you? So everything is on a website which is IAM, i-a-m, our word, buylovecom. So, and then you can find me on social media and my name as well as the business, everything is there. You could search me the business name on Google. If you can't remember, I am powered just by love. Once you start typing it in, you'll find it on. It'll pull up on any Google search and Bing, all of those. I'll have that in show notes as well. I will have your I am powered by love website will be in the show notes.
Speaker 2:And this is but one coaching. I call it end, e and d toxic living people through several different formulas, techniques and methods, because everyone learns differently, right? So I'm approaching behavior and thoughts from all the different you know styles of learning and the personality types and trauma, one type of trauma, or chronic, or you know what type of trauma someone experiences is is going to depend on what level and model you use. I'm sure right so that that is a very beginner one and I do that as a group immersion and also you can do it at your own pace. So there's a couple of different options. And then for someone who has you know more, you know concerns than we do, mind engineering, which is a 13-week private coaching, one-on-one. So your coaching is very trauma-informed, yeah, very trauma-level, very trauma-based and, as you know, everyone is not informed, I would say, and so that's very important.
Speaker 2:And you come at it from a place of knowing where you were to where you are today, which is huge. Right, I've been off hard, yeah, and you've become rock star and under the rock, I love that. So I, you know, assign blame and I understand when clients are in resistance because they're still identifying with, I still need the nurturing from this, this part of myself, you know they're very. It's a balance being walked with people because it's an extraordinary period of their life when they're seeking actual help, the power of choice in creating new things, and that's what we're here to do. We're co-creators with God. We're not alone, and I definitely want people to know that.
Speaker 2:Say that one more time the power of choice, the power of choice. The old pod Demetria, breakfast of choices. That is the title, it is our choices and we have the choice. The gold pod, wrapped Demetria, breakfast of choices. That is the title, it is our choices and we have the choice we do. Thank you so much. You're welcome. Oh, thank you. Oh, my gosh, thank you.
Speaker 2:I appreciate you so much for being here today and visiting with me and taking your afternoon. I loved it Again, you and I. I know we could do this all day and just talk and keep going. I know we can't do that for everybody, but thank you for your words and for sharing your story and just for your heart today. I appreciate you putting it all out there and you put it out there in a very loving way and I see you. You know my heart goes out because I truly know that people are struggling.
Speaker 2:Yeah, absolutely, absolutely. We can see the anger and the violence in the world. We can see the detachment, the lack of tolerance. We can see that we are a human race that is set on a mountain of things that we can't dissolve and we just need a friend, we need an opinion, we need a mentor, we need a coach and and just so you know, because you need someone to help you does not make you less than worthy. I have to say that because your mental well-being, your emotional well-being, is so important and and people like myself and other therapists, no matter who you go to, if you do not reach out to me, I'm begging you. Yes, please see a silent body. Today, your mental well-being is everything and there is hope. I'm gonna. I'm gonna leave it with. There is hope. I'm going to leave it with there is hope, absolutely.
Speaker 1:I am so grateful that you joined me for this week's episode of Breakfast of Choices. If you're enjoying this podcast, please subscribe, give it five stars and share it to help others find hope and encouragement. The opposite of addiction is connection, and we are all in this together. Telling your transformational story can also be an incredible form of healing, so if you would like to share it, I would love to hear it. You can also follow me on social media. I'm your host, jo Summers, and I can't wait to bring you another story next week. Stay with me for more Transformational Thursdays.
