44. How to Clear Your Energetic Field (So Your Creativity and Intuition Can Flow)

What if the reason your creativity feels flat, your intuition feels foggy, or your inspiration has gone quiet isn't a block at all, it's just energetic gunk?

In this episode of This Is Soul Therapy we go deep into why what you allow into your orbit shapes your creative output, why social media is basically an energetic bus terminal, and what happens to your auric field when you let too many mismatched frequencies in.

I also share something personal, how meditation cracked open the real reason I haven't been sleeping for years and guided me toward a therapeutic art ritual to release something I thought I'd fully processed years ago, birth trauma. 

We Cover:

• Why your energetic field directly affects the quality of your creative and intuitive work
• The "glass of water" metaphor that will change how you think about your aura and what you're absorbing daily
• Why doom scrolling is an energetic nightmare (and what it actually does to your field)
• How old, buried experiences can quietly cloud your creativity long after you think you've healed them
• A guided therapeutic arts ritual over on Substack to identify and release what's gunking up your field

This episode is for you if you're a creative, intuitive soul who wants to make meaningful work and are ready to your energy to do so. 

Transcript

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For the ones unraveling, reorienting, and remembering who they are, this is Soul Therapy. Here we explore the questions that tug at you. What season am I in? What is the universe trying to teach me? How do I support myself through change? We weave intuition, nervous system healing, creative energy, psychology, and the unseen into real grounded conversations. I'm your host, Jen Hully. Let's begin. Welcome back to another week of This Is Soul Therapy. This week, we are going to talk about the energetic gunk that can block both your creative and your intuitive field. And we're going to take a look at something called intentional curation as both a spiritual act and a creative act. When I sat down to write this Substack and to record this podcast, I had no idea what I was going to talk about. Literally, like this is what happens every week. I'm like, I don't know where this is going, but let's sit down with the intention to do the work. And I wrote one sentence. I wrote, I deleted 150 of my subscribers today. I unfollowed a creator whom I'd had great conversations with, but whose recent host ranting about Pride Month gave me the ick. And I removed Claude from my phone. That was it. Three sentences, three random, seemingly unrelated sentences. But they all have something in common. I was curating my energetic field. Now, psychology will say that we are the combination of the five people, places, and things that we interact with most across our days. And spirituality will tell you the same thing in different language. It will say that we are a giant satellite dish and we're walking around and we're picking up frequencies and we're putting down frequencies all day long, and that we become a reflection of the frequencies that surround us. If you asked Claude, he would probably just tell you whatever the sum of the most frequent answers on Reddit or the digital, you know, collective consciousness was that day. But me, I'm gonna say that we are the sun. We are the sun in our universe. We are the center of our own universe. And what we choose to allow into our orbit will dictate the universe that we create for ourselves. And so, yes, I deleted 150 subscribers, people who just never engage. They were, you know, not people opening up the email list or anything. It was just people who hung out on my email subscriber list, but they never opened any emails. Like, I was like, why are you here? And does it really, really matter having people that don't open your emails on your list? Not really, but also yes. Because I really believe that what we allow into our external world will shape our experience of the internal. And so, like, I'm not gonna be impacted across my, you know, day-to-day if somebody chooses to never open my emails. I'm not gonna drop dead or like crash my car. Like, nothing bad is gonna happen in the 3D. But I really do believe there is a compounding impact of keeping what I'm gonna call placeholder people in my orbit. Okay, like little NPCs, people are just going around doing their thing, not giving you the time of day. Like, you're like, are you here? Are you not? Like, what do you do? Like, it's a lot of gray, right? A lot of gray areas, a lot of questions, a lot of doors open. I believe that the impact of that day after day after day has a really intense compounding interest type impact on my self-worth. And it creates like an energetic bar of like, this is the standard I'm setting in terms of my self-worth and like what engagement and relationships are gonna look like for me, what I expect from people. And now I don't know about you, but I spent a lot of my childhood and my teen years, and quite frankly, even my adult years, like feeling like I just wasn't heard. We grow up, our teachers don't hear us. They tell us to be quiet. And you'll say, like, I want to do something. They're like, No, you don't. Like my son, he was like, I asked to go to the bathroom, and the teacher says, I don't need to go. And I'm like, What? And he's like, Why is she telling me I don't need to go to the bathroom? I'm like, What do you say? And he says, I go to her and I say, I gotta go to the bathroom. And she's like, No, you don't. And I'm like, Okay. I was like, she's really trying to say, like, not right now, but she's using words that are like telling you that, you know, gaslighting you, like saying you don't have to go to the bathroom. It's just a small example, but again, like that, over and over, those little micro moments compound across our life and build up this belief of like, I'm not heard. People don't listen to me. What I say doesn't matter. When I looked at my email list and I realized I had like 150 people that just never opened my email, it was mirroring back that message to me of like, you collect people that don't really care. People who don't really give a shit, people who don't even know you exist. And, you know, vanity metrics have never really had a place in my heart or in my value systems. As much as the algorithm tries to drill it into our head, if I get to the heart of it and I really am honest with myself, I would rather a small handful of people to talk to. Right. I would rather a handful of honest, intimate, deep relationships than this like overwhelming crowd of small talk. Worse is like nobody talking at all. You know, when you go to those parties or those events and like literally everyone's just sitting on their phone, I'm like, why are we here? Why are we here? We're so busy and we have so much shit to do and we have so much stuff going on in our days, but and then we stand there, we're just like placeholder people being like, I'm here because I'm supposed to be, but I'm not gonna get. And it's like, well, what is the what's the purpose of you being here? And so that intention to curate a group of people that were invested or at least aligned with the stuff that I am discussing, the content I'm creating, pushed me to just be like, let's get rid of them. Okay. And so, like, 300 people became 200, and then 175, and then finally we were down at 150. And it was 150 people who really want to hear what I have to say. You know, people who are asking the same questions that I do, who wonder about the same intricacies of life and like the human experience. And like, I would take five of those, just five people. I'd be happy with five people on my email list versus a stadium of people who are gonna sit there and scroll while I'm talking. And, you know, as creative beings, as intuitive beings, as these souls in human bodies put on earth, like trying to figure out what we're doing, our art, our creativity, and our self-expression is really an extension of our soul. It's that soulful flow, that soul energy that moves out from the ether through our brains, you know, through our little receptors and out through our hands as we go about creating our lives. And that soul energy wants to flow where it's ready to be received. Especially because a lot of what we create is created with the intention of connection. We're supposed to connect with people. And so when we have this flow, this soul flow that wants to go through us, a big part of like nurturing that flow is carving pathways of least resistance. You know, we follow the sacred flow of yes, we don't really ask water to flow uphill. If we think of a river or a stream, it will move in shape with like the natural expression of the terrain, right? There'll be nooks and crannies here, there'll be little dips and drops or a rock that will divert it, but it's gently guiding its direction. And it should be the same with our creative flow, our intuitive flow, our communication flow. We don't ask it to go uphill. We don't shove it uphill, we don't shove it into closed doors. We have to get into this habit of paying attention and being like, where does my soulful energy want to flow and where is it flowing with ease? And it doesn't mean that it's all going to be easy, but it's at least moving. That creative energy, that soul expression, it comes through us and out into the world, goes both ways. As we get into this, I want you to think like, yes, we're putting out stuff for people to interact with, consume, connect with, but so is everybody else. Everybody else is like doing their little thing. They're getting their little downloads, they're creating stuff, even if they're not artistic, even if they don't have like what they say, they don't have a creative bone in their body. We all have creative bones in our body, our entire body is creation because your life is your greatest work of art, right? You get up, you decide what clothing you're gonna wear, what you're gonna eat, the route you're gonna take to work, where you're gonna live, how you're gonna spend your time, how you're gonna channel your energy into conversation, what kind of work you do. That is creation over and over and over again. And so, how many people are out on earth? All of us are out there like receiving our soul energy and like putting it out into the world. And when we think about those energetic boundaries, we need to think about the people that we are connecting with, but also the people that we are letting connect with us. Because we go about our day through this dynamic web of interaction, connecting with other people's creative energy with all the things that we're thinking, doing, acting like it's just this big web that's getting woven all day. And when we allow somebody to take up space in our energetic field whose vibe is like a total mismatch to us, it will cloud our frequency. So if you think of yourself as a tall glass, like a tall drinking glass, and your energy, your aura, your creativity, your self-expression as water, your spirit and your energy becomes that water that fills up that glass, that vessel. The glass is creating the form and structure, but it's holding the water. And there's all these people going about life. And what would happen to your tall glass of water if you came in contact with somebody who is no better, no worse, just not vibing the way you're vibing, and they're like a deep concentrated red dye. And they begin to interact with you and they begin to get into your glass, and that red dye starts to drip, drip, drip. What is gonna happen to the glass of water? The red hits the water on the surface, it begins to disperse underneath. First, it drops down and then it goes outwards, and then it starts to mix in with the water. Because you don't keep this like red drop contained, it starts to be diffused in the water, and the water changes color. The water starts to get all swirled up with that red dye, and then like it turns pink. And the same would happen to you with your tall glass, your energetic water inside your physical body. Someone comes in dropping red, your glass is gonna turn pink, and then suddenly your soul expression is pink and not clear. This happens regardless. Like it will happen, it's a fact of life. Like your tall glass of water is not gonna stay clear all day because of the nature of the human experience. We're going to run in to people and mishaps and crap and oh God. Like, so you're just you're gonna get gunky throughout the day. The color is going to change, okay? We're gonna talk a little bit later in the episode about clearing the water because I don't want you to think like I must preserve the vessel and it must always be clear, but it's like, no, pay attention to what you're letting into your system because the act of filtering it out later can be quite complicated and honestly like energetically draining. I want to back up a bit and talk about this idea of like the water, the glass of water with the drops of red going into it. When you let someone like with a different vibe come in and be like, I'm just gonna drop this into your oric field. Here we go. Boop, boop, boop, and your water starts to change color. This is where social media becomes a hot mess. Because places like TikTok and our habit of doom scrolling is like an energetic nightmare. And I will be super, super honest. I scroll a lot, like a lot, lot, like way more than I should be scrolling, and I physically feel it when I am. My mind will get scrambled, my nervous system will start buzzing, and I end up like not there. I mean, like I'm there physically, but I consciousness it feels really far away. Time is like slipping through my fingers, I can't recall much of what I've been taking in. I know it's like, holy shit, 90 minutes went by. What did I look at? And you're like, I don't know. You know, science will call that disassociating, and I will just call it like being drip-fed an alternate energy source and an alternate consciousness feed. There's so much energy in spaces like TikTok. It's like a crazy fucking bus terminal or like an international airport. Like there is so much happening there. Within a few swipes, you can go from really funny dog videos to grandmas who are cursing, to then violence erupting on your local streets, to a grief-laden parental post about like child loss, to then recipe hacks for protein and perimenopause, to international war that's breaking out, to then fake news, and then back to like a senior citizen who's making friends with like a neighborhood raccoon, like all within 60 seconds. That is a fuck ton of energy. And if we go back to that visual of your energetic field being like that crystal clear glass of water, and you give every single one of those people all those different energies a different color, and they start to drip into your glass, what is gonna happen? You're not gonna be pink, you're not gonna be green, you're not even gonna be blue. You are going to be an opaque mess of like swamp water sludge. I don't know if what like when you were a kid, did you ever do that thing? Like you made jungle juice, we called it, where you'd be like, I'm putting coke, I'm putting Kool-Aid, now I'm gonna put milk, now I'm gonna put orange juice, lemonade, water, and I'm gonna drink it. Like, why did we do that? I don't know. It was gross. But that literally is like what your container starts to look like, what your auric field looks like. Your body is doing the best that it can to hold it all in there, but the quality of the water and the flow that's in there is pretty fucking ugly and pretty gross. It's just blough, like it's it's a mess. And as creative intuitive beings, we're here to work with our energy, to channel that energy, to tap into our feelings, our thoughts, and our musings of our human experience, to take that as we follow our curiosity and then translate it into the making of something. And the things that we make, whether it's an outfit or food or a home or a piece of art, we want that thing to reflect us, to feel like us, and to connect with us on that really deep, soulful level. Because we're trying to take our energetic signature and paint with strokes of our soul, our higher self is guiding us. Now, if we take that metaphor and we take that little brush, that metaphorical paintbrush to get started. Where are you gonna want to dip that paintbrush? Would you rather dip it into a glass of crystal clear water, or do you want to rinse it off in swamp water? Like if you're like, I'm gonna paint a sunset, you're not gonna dip it in the gross ass water because your yellows and orange are gonna look like green and muddy, and you're gonna be like, this looks nothing like what I intended. This is not as calming or energizing as I was. And like a lot of this, I'm seeing in my mind's eye like the Four of Cups when we go through experiences in real life and like, why is this not floating my boat? Like, I should be happy. Why is this not as enjoyable? Why, like, you know, we're just like, why, why, why? Like I should feel better. This should be better. I would question like what your auric field looks like and how clear of like a receptor are you, how clear of a filter are you? Are you like clogged up with other people's gunk and you can't even access the experience of like peace, joy, abundance, pleasure, whatever it is that you're trying to tap into? We have to be painting with clear water. Okay, we can't be rinsing off our paintbrush in that swamp water and then expecting the stuff that we make to be beautiful, meaningful, hit deep on a soul level, and that we're gonna want to do it again, right? We're gonna get into that, like, this sucks. I don't want to do this. So, how we take care of our vessel, like our physical body and our mind is just as critical as to what we let in them and like what we do in terms of maintaining and clearing out and how we filter that energy. Because when we want to call on our creativity or our intuition, and I guarantee if you're listening to this podcast, you are intuitive and creative. You want to make something, you might be an artist or a writer or a dancer or a sound practitioner, a musician, photographer, whatever. Whatever it is that you want to make, that work that you're like, I am here to do something that's you know bigger than what I'm doing right now, has more meaning or whatever. You can't do that with a glass of swamp water. You can only create the work that you are here to create, to build the things that you're meant to build, if you're working with a clear glass of water. Yes, you're gonna have to rinse it out. Yes, sometimes you're gonna have to clean and dry the glass. Yes, you may even have to put new water in it. They're showing me in my mind's eye my my pond in my backyard. I will tell you this story. I have a pond in my backyard. I'm not a pond person, but my house has a pond, and I'm like, okay, whatever. And it's green as shit. Like it is so mucky and gross. I don't know what happened in like the few months that I moved in here. Probably because I didn't know what to do with it. And I was like, I will just leave it. It became like so gunky and gross that like I was scooping it out, I was like pulling out all the sludge. It was not happening. Like, I was doing my damnedest to filter it out and to use like a net and to pull this out and to get a new filter going and all this, and nothing was clearing it. And eventually I was like, I have to get this water out. Like this, it just has to go. And I spent so much time like with buckets, like pulling it out and bucketing it out and pulling out more gunk. And we're down to the fact that there's like an inch or two of water in the bottom, and there's all this like gross debris, and I'm like, it actually has to come out because I know I'm like, if I don't get that shit out, and I just fill it with new water, the water that's in there is going to be cloudy. Now I'm gonna tell you a little side note here that I didn't think I was gonna tell you. This is like the fourth time I've tried to record this podcast. I recorded it on Thursday, it's now Monday. I recorded it twice on Thursday and it didn't work. I had microphone glitches, I recorded it twice on Friday, didn't work. I was like, there's something about not doing this until Monday. And I knew in my intuition, I was like, it's because I'm gonna have to go through the process of what I'm about to tell you to then tell you a different story. But I was like, okay, whatever. And then I just lived it. I lived something this morning. I was like, okay, I see why we're I see why the delay happened. So TLDR, this got delayed because I needed to go through an experience myself to remind me of what this is like when we get sludge in the bottom of our pond or the bottom of our cup. We're meditating, we're journaling, we're like scooping out the shit, and we're like, yup, yup, yup. And then eventually you're like, this isn't working. And you're like, we need to get the water out. And so you start doing, you know, more intensive things. I was like doing Joe Dispenza meditations for something. So I was like, we gotta like clear this out. And you can do all this clearing and clearing and clearing, and there might still be a layer of sludge on the bottom. And if you put water back in with that sludge, you've got this like really nasty, gunky, energetic field again. And that's when it's like we need to actually pull out what's in the bottom. And now, over on Substack this week, there is an energetic ritual. It's a therapeutic arts ritual that you can do to basically clean out your vessel. And I just did it this morning. Literally just finished. Like as soon as I finished, I was like, I have to record this podcast because now I understand what the hell that was. Sometimes we're not aware that something is gunking up our energetic field. It can be something that is really, really old, that's been hanging around for years, as it was in my case, or it can be something that is like just a very small drip, something you're being drip fed on a daily basis. If you're gonna do those spiritual practices with the intention of like clearing out your energy, clearing out your aura, whether it's somatic shaking or journaling or whatever, breath work, you gotta kind of know what's in there, right? Because, like I said, sometimes there's something sneaky at the bottom that you don't actually realize that that is what's like clouding the water. You have to identify like all the stuff that's in your field. And that can be really hard to do. Like if I said to you, how many things happened to you yesterday that you think affected you energetically? You could probably name a few, but I bet you there's shit buried underneath that you have no idea exists. We all need practices that can help us identify what actually needs to be rinsed out. So, what happened to me this morning was okay, back up. I have not been sleeping for a really long time, okay? Like chronic insomnia. There's a few things going on that if I was gonna like make my list of complaints right now, one of them is chronic pain, chronic back pain. One is chronic insomnia, which is the insomnia is brutal. And it's not like I can't sleep, it's just I can't stay asleep. I fall asleep really quickly, and then I wake up like every 45 minutes. And this has been going on for a really long frickin' time. Okay, like a really, really long time. And it's driving me nuts to the point that, like, because I feel like shit, it's really hard to feel good and to have a clear field when you are chronically exhausted. And so this morning I sat down and I was meditating. I wrote down questions, and one of the questions I wrote was, Why am I not sleeping? And I went into meditation and I was shown multiple images over and over again, and then hearing stuff. One of the first things I saw was like somebody giving birth, and I was like, okay, whatever. And I see something else, and then I see a birth scene again, and I'm like, What? And then I start hearing Jen, Jen, Jen, Jen, Jen. I'm like, me? Like, my name's Jen. Then I hear Jen Hamilton, Jen Hamilton, Jen Hamilton, nurse, Jen Hamilton nurse. And I was like, Jen Hamilton nurse, birth, birth, birth. So I write it down. Jen Hamilton is like a TikTok creator. I don't know if you know who she is. I don't really know much about her. And I was like, she's a nurse, I guess. I don't know. I do a little Google quickly. She's a labor and delivery nurse. And then I was like, okay, let's go back in. Went back into meditation, kept meditating, got like a full memory snap, but like a full memory download of a moment in my son's birth where it was like, hmm. I was in the hospital bed and there was like a nurse in my ear. She says something to me. And um, then I heard like stretch and sweep, stretch and sweep, stretch and sweep. Sleep, sleep, sleep, sleep. And then I like shot out of it. And I was like, oh my God. And okay, my kid is seven years old. This is like I have talked to death, not on this podcast or in Substack anywhere, but I think I will probably do next week a further in-depth episode about this. But this is like the snapshot that I'm gonna tell you. I was shown basically birth, birth trauma, which I have processed to death in EMDR. Talk therapy, journal. Like I can now talk about it. Like I would say that I'm totally neutral. But when I went into meditation and asked my guides why the fuck am I not sleeping? They started slamming me with birth, birth, birth, birth, birth. And I was like, there's something about the birth that is causing me to not sleep. I did go back into meditation for like 10 more minutes, got a few more in pieces of information, but then they like shotgunned me out of meditation and I was shown just as I was coming out this art therapy process. So then I went to my kitchen space where I do all my therapeutic art and I brought my basket down and I started doing this practice that is on Substack, where we identify what is in your auric field using art therapy and using meditation. And I went through the process and I was like just dumping it all out in there, dumping out the feeling of what happened during birth, the like, and you don't know, like it's not logical. I'm not drawing scenes of birth when I'm doing this, right? You're grabbing colors, you're putting marks down, you're putting shapes, you're writing words, like you are just slamming it out all into the page for about 20 minutes. And then there's always like a reflection and a release process at the end. Um, but I was shown so clearly, like you have to go through this process therapeutically and scrape out the gunk and like get it out of your system because you are not sleeping. If we talk about my experience of my own creativity lately, that water's been super gunky because I'm so tired. We have to think about like as a creative soul, what does our spirit and our vessel need to feel expressive? What does it need to feel safe? How do we learn to care for our vessel and the energy that's flowing within it? Part of it is doing the work to deal with and clear out the stuff that is hanging on. It can be day-to-day stuff, it can be an argument you had with your boss, it can be this, you know, dinky do who like cut you off and flipped to the bird while driving, or it could be something that happened seven years ago that you thought you had completely processed and was gone. And it's like, nope, it's still hanging on. We need to think about what are the things that are in our auric field that are clouding our expression, what we can do to then process it. But the ultimate question is what might emerge from us creatively when we do finally do this. I will be interested to see if I start sleeping a bit better. Do I think it's a one and done that this one, you know, therapeutic art thing cleared it out forever? No, but I think it was a big part of the process. You know, I didn't feel good doing it, but I felt pretty clear at the end. And I was like, this is why I got delayed recording the episode because I wouldn't be able to share this experience if I had recorded on Friday. I had no idea this was going to come up. I just know that I can't sleep and that I haven't been sleeping for a long time. But when the process was done, I was like, oh, I can see why I'm not sleeping. I can see how this is still affecting this and what is causing me to wake up every 45 minutes. And now I know how to work with it. Now that I'm like, okay, we like squeezed the zit, we got the like the goop out. Now I know how to like tend to the wound. Now I know how to like maintain it. Now I know what other band-aids and solutions and maintenance need to happen. I know there's a few things that I need to be doing before I go to bed. Like all of this stuff, this scaffolding starts to come in after we identify the gunk that needs to come out. Go over to Substack. They have a guided therapeutic art ritual for you over there to help you identify what's gunking up your field and how you can rinse it out and cleanse it. And it's really simple. It uses watercolors and it helps us look at all that stuff that's seeping in across the day or across your life and is just hanging out in your energetic field. I'll walk you through the process. It's designed so that you can do it every day, if you want, or every week, or just when you're triggered. And you'll be walked through step by step. You'll make something, you'll reflect on it. Some of it's going to be pretty, some of it isn't going to be pretty ugly. But every single thing that comes up in the process will be information. It will help you look at what you're carrying so that you can then begin to clear the space. Head over to jenniferhully.substack.com. I've got a link in the show notes. You can join the community there. And I'd love to know like what comes up for you when you do this process, when you do this daily like gunk dump that I'm gonna walk you through. What did you notice? Like what is hanging out in your field that you didn't think was? Because I guarantee you it always will bring you to realize that something's impacting you that you were kind of brushing off. Head over, give it a whirl. You can drop a comment on the post, but you can also use the community chat and share your stuff. If you want to share a picture of what you made and what came off you, you can do that. If you want to just ask some questions, that is the space to do it. What I took away from this whole thing for myself was that everything I thought was the problem wasn't the problem. Like I've spent months being like, is it my pillows? Is it my mattress? Let me get this, let me get a fan, let me let me try different supplements. Maybe I need more magnesium, maybe it's the wrong magnesium. I tried over and over and over again to fix the wrong problem. And when I asked and I put it out there to spirit, I was shown, yeah, it's actually this. So if you're trying all the things and things aren't moving, know that there is always an alternative process that will get you exactly where you need to be. If this episode landed, I want to remind you that there is always more waiting for you over on Substack. Substack is where I publish the essays and resources on things like spirituality, manifestation, creativity, healing, all that deep guided soul work. And the Substack community is where the practices and rituals live that we're talking about in these episodes. So whether you're starting your spiritual journey, navigating a creative becoming, sitting at a life pivot, or maybe you're just ready to look at your shit and do things differently, know that there's always something for someone there. You can head to jenniferhully.substack.com, browse the different membership levels, and find one that fits. 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