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020 Who Do You Perceive Yourself to Be? A Question for Expanding Presence

• Homaya • Season 2 • Episode 20

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Welcome ✨

Hey beauties. In this episode, I’m continuing our journey with the power of questions as portals for light and transformation. Last time, we explored how asking “Why am I doing it?” can help us move through limitations. Today, I want to share another question that has become a guiding light for me, and I’ll take you through the story of how it first arrived in my life.

Episode Summary 🌟

I open up about a personal experience that challenged my sense of belonging and identity. Sitting in a kitchen with someone whose beliefs and expectations were so different from mine, I felt uncomfortable and unsure of myself. In that moment, a new question emerged for me: “Who do I perceive myself to be?” This question became a bridge between my infinite spiritual presence and my human experience, helping me realign with my truth and purpose. I share how this question has supported me in relationships, in moments of self-doubt, and whenever I’ve felt on the edge of my own growth.

Key Takeaways 💡

  • The questions we ask ourselves can open portals to greater light, presence, and possibility
  • “Who do I perceive myself to be?” is a powerful tool for realignment when facing discomfort, judgement, or limitation
  • Our identity is not fixed, and we can choose to show up as the healer, the light activator, or the loving presence, even in challenging situations
  • When we lead ourselves with this awareness, we create more space for love, truth, and transformation
  • Every edge and every trigger is an invitation to expand beyond what we thought possible

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Thank you for listening and for being on this path with me. Keep this question in your heart and let it guide you to greater presence and expansion. 

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[00:00:00] Homaya: Hey, beauties. Last episode, we looked at questions in general as a way to transcend a limitation and to create portals that supports us to bring light to life light on earth. And I'd love us to go through another question, and I'm gonna share that with you through a story, [00:00:30]because this is the way that this question was revealed to me for the first time, and since then I've used it and I'm still using it again and again when I'm arriving to a place where I can perceive myself as limited.

[00:00:43] Homaya: And it is a beautiful way to bridge, as I said, spirit and matter. It's a beautiful way to create a channel inside of your system and to support the physical body. [00:01:00] Emotional body. Mental body to align with the spiritual body. So that is so powerful and so beautiful, and there's a wave for you to pass and to really feel that you're owning the light that is passing through you.

[00:01:18] Homaya: So an intimate story. My man was born in a religious family [00:01:30] and they practice their religious very strongly. They have a lot of ways of being we can say and approach towards life and how life can be and how life should be. What do you do? How do you do things? And this practice is beautiful. [00:02:00] However, it was not my practice, my devotion to God and my perception of divinity awakened within me didn't come with a set of.

[00:02:17] Homaya: Rules of what to do or not to do. Rather an internal perception and my horizon towards what is possible for me and for everyone in life is there for [00:02:30] more free we can say, but also

[00:02:33] Homaya: part of my own journey and inquiry through trial and error. The first day that I arrived to their home, to their house,

[00:02:46] Homaya: a situation was created, whether it was intentionally or unintentionally, we cannot know, although my senses and my intuition. Is saying that it was [00:03:00] intentionally, I was left with his mother in the kitchen, maybe 10 or 15 minutes after we arrived to their home. No one else was around. Somehow his father took him and there were no brothers and sisters around.

[00:03:24] Homaya: There's no one around. And here I'm sitting with [00:03:30] a stranger, a religious woman in her kitchen, in her house with my wild hair and wild attitude to life. A jungle frequencies devoted to God and following no preconceived ideas of how about [00:04:00] how we do it,

[00:04:01] Homaya: and it took her one or two minutes to approach me directly. And ask me questions that at that age, with all the freedom that I was embodying, physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually felt, ooh, a little bit uncomfortable. The fact that you're practicing freedom doesn't mean that [00:04:30] you're really available for everything, right?

[00:04:33] Homaya: So she frankly directly asked me. If I want to get married and if I want to have children,

[00:04:43] Homaya: really this is the question that I don't even ask myself. I don't ask those questions. I don't ask this question. Am I supposed to deliver an answer?

[00:04:57] Homaya: Ah, [00:05:00] my entire body felt. Uncomfortable, agitated.

[00:05:06] Homaya: I really didn't want to be in that kitchen. I didn't want to be in this conversation. I didn't want to be with her. It felt uncomfortable. I felt trapped. It felt unfair, and I was so near to hating her.

[00:05:28] Homaya: Or [00:05:30] really, I was like, ah no, not this question. I'm not, I'm just starting to date this guy. It is intimate. I don't dare to ask myself those questions. I'm not going to ask him those questions. What am I gonna face now? How am I going to answer her? So I took a deep breath and I shared [00:06:00] from my heart my honest truth.

[00:06:03] Homaya: I shared what I thought, what I felt, the way I see it, the way I see myself currently in this kitchen with her. Answering this question, I just honestly shared everything that was my way. That was not necessarily the answer she wanted.

[00:06:29] Homaya: It [00:06:30] was probably not a question from her side and.

[00:06:36] Homaya: It could be that I failed the test, and of course, that influenced everything that happened at that afternoon with this family in this house. Although I opened my heart and spoke and expressed what I feel. The energy didn't shift, the atmosphere stayed the same. It [00:07:00] was as I am supposed to be the one who's coming and saying to her, I want to get married and I want to have children, and this is what I'm doing with your men, with your boy, excuse me, with my men and your boy.

[00:07:14] Homaya: And then we left and we said goodbye. At the door, and I looked at her and I felt super uncomfortable. I didn't know even how to say goodbye. What is [00:07:30] appropriate? To shake the hand, to give her a hug, to give her a kiss on the cheek, like I really felt uncomfortable. I don't recall even what I've done.

[00:07:41] Homaya: We entered the car and we started driving to. Probably his house

[00:07:50] Homaya: and gradually I relaxed and I could connect to myself more.

[00:07:58] Homaya: And I [00:08:00] remember looking at the window and feeling all of those feelings.

[00:08:06] Homaya: And then I said to myself, that wouldn't work like that. You are not building a beautiful future like that. You are not building a beautiful relationship, not with this man and not with his family sitting in the car. [00:08:30] Frustrated feeling that you were trapped in an uncomfortable situation, you're going nowhere like that.

[00:08:42] Homaya: Or other ways to say you're going to the place that you don't want to go.

[00:08:48] Homaya: So with the next breath, I said to myself, who do you perceive yourself [00:09:00]to be?

[00:09:01] Homaya: Who do you perceive yourself to be?

[00:09:05] Homaya: I didn't ask who am I? I didn't ask. What am I doing? 

[00:09:12] Homaya: I ask, who do I perceive my perceive myself to be? Who do I perceive myself to be? That was the question, and that question created such a beautiful and powerful bridge between the [00:09:30] infinite presence that I feel inside of me, the specific identity. That I hold

[00:09:38] Homaya: and what I'm dedicating my life to. Who am I perceiving myself, not only as an extension of the divine and as God's presence, and all of those. Now I'm saying in a little bit of ironic tone. Although those are really high truthful [00:10:00] frequencies, but I didn't go there and I also didn't go to a very limited identification as a human that I am that could easily take me to frustration.

[00:10:16] Homaya: And I said to myself at that time, this is how I perceived myself to be. I said to myself, I perceive myself as a healer. As a master healer. I was just a healer at that [00:10:30] time. I perceive myself as a healer.

[00:10:33] Homaya: And then I said if you perceive yourself as a healer, how do you heal? Heal? How do you heal this? Relationship that you just created with the one who gave birth to the men that you love, how do you bring [00:11:00] light and energy to your relationship with her regardless of Her attitude, her approach, her belief system, her fears, her needs for trust and security, regardless of anything about her, about him, about yourself.

[00:11:28] Homaya: How do you bring light? [00:11:30] How do you bring love? How do you bring truth? How do you bring beauty?

[00:11:36] Homaya: ' cause if you perceive yourself to be a good healer, then sometimes it'll work with your clients.

[00:11:45] Homaya: Sometime it'll work with people who are already, Convinced. Sometimes it'll work with the people who will pay to be in your presence and for you to give light and support to [00:12:00]them, and sometimes it wouldn't work with them. It'll need to work with those who do not believe you. Those who do not trust you, those who have a different opinion and a different attitude,

[00:12:20] Homaya: you can wait for life to initiate you to a greater and a greater presence of who you are and what you are. [00:12:30] And you can take those initiations yourself and lead yourself forward. And at that moment I took a decision that I'm expending and I didn't say to myself, oh, I'm going to be a healer and therefore I am the one who knows, and I am the one who will decide how to treat that and how to heal her because she is with a problem.

[00:12:55] Homaya: No, I didn't say anything like that. I said to myself, my [00:13:00] job now is to bring light. Energy, vitality, truth, love into this relationship regardless of the circumstances. This is my job and this is what I'm going to do, and this is how I'm going to become even a greater healer and a greater lover and partner to the one that I chose.

[00:13:20] Homaya: And please breathe.

[00:13:22] Homaya: And since then many times. When I'm arriving to an edge, when I'm [00:13:30]arriving to a place where I don't see how I can move, where I'm facing people who doubt me, where I don't feel comfortable because people didn't like my post, where I don't feel that my, I don't know, my offer are not sold in the way that I want to sell them, that there's not enough people coming into my spaces where a certain relationship is triggering me.

[00:13:53] Homaya: Where. I feel that I am not having, or receiving or [00:14:00] experiencing anything that I would like to, then I go back and ask myself this precious question. Homaya, who do you perceive yourself to be? And as that person, as that light activator. How are you going to lead this current situation without making no one wrong, [00:14:30] not yourself and not others, and please breathe.

[00:14:50] Homaya: Take a deep breath.

[00:14:54] Homaya: So this is a gift I want to give you. I want you to ask this [00:15:00] question from time to time, and I want you to feel what comes, and I want you to have an elaborated mental answer. That will feed your spiritual ego or your little ego, or your big ego. It wouldn't serve you. It wouldn't support you. It wouldn't lead you.

[00:15:18] Homaya: It wouldn't open your horizon. It wouldn't bring more forces in. I want you to ask this question so you can transmute a certain limitation [00:15:30] that you have inside of you into greater presence. I want you to ask this question in a way that will almost, I would say, oblige you, push you, inspire you, activate you to bring more of your light.

[00:15:50] Homaya: I want you to ask this question in a way that will open you and will open what is possible inside of you to become [00:16:00] greater,

[00:16:00] Homaya: greater than what you perceive yourself to be. If you are listening to this podcast, if you're listening to those recordings, then you are on the spiritual path and most likely you are on the spiritual path as a light activator in whatever stages you are. 'cause there's no one on the spiritual path that doesn't lead.

[00:16:27] Homaya: We all here to lead. [00:16:30] How much we are aware of that, how much we really move with that is very different. But the fact is that if you are on your spiritual path, if you're answering the calling of your heart, if you're answering the calling of your soul, you're here to lead.

[00:16:49] Homaya: And sometimes you will be the one who will initiate you yourself to a greater level of [00:17:00] presence. You will be the one who will sum up some in forces and lights

[00:17:09] Homaya: to lead. To be greater than life, to create the impossible

[00:17:17] Homaya: to create a new reality for yourself and for others.

[00:17:24] Homaya: There's so much freedom and so much liberation, and [00:17:30] so much strength and love.

[00:17:32] Homaya: I've shifted the relationship that I had with her the day after. I have embraced her within me and my heart.

[00:17:43] Homaya: I was unshakeable. I had space for her. I created space for her. I created space for her love as much as she could give and space for her opinion and space, for her [00:18:00] judgment. And I created space for myself

[00:18:03] Homaya: in her presence and in my relationship with my men.

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[00:18:10] Homaya: Let it land. Keep it in your heart, the pocket in your heart, and use that question to expand.

[00:18:20] Homaya: Thank you.