The Calling: Follow your spirit- all the way in

029 Stop Waiting Upon Love: Trust, Energy & the True Nature of Change

• Homaya • Season 2 • Episode 29

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Hello beloveds, Homaya here. This episode was recorded live at my Golden event on August 8th, a gathering truly close to my heart. I’m so grateful to share this sacred space and these deep reflections with you. 💛

Episode Summary

In this special episode, I explore the profound concept of “waiting upon love” and how, as humans, we often feel we must fix or change something before we allow ourselves to love it. I share my thoughts on the conditioning around love, the internal journey of self-acceptance, and the energetic dynamics that shape our reality. We dive into the difference between peace and war on our energy, and I invite you to consider where you dedicate your own life force. This is a call to awaken to your singularity, embrace your truth, and trust your unique way of bringing presence into the world.

Key Takeaways

✨ Love is not something to be magnetised from outside—it’s a fountain that flows from within us.
✨ The idea that we must fix ourselves or our lives before we can love is a powerful but limiting conditioning.
✨ True change begins with loving what is, as it is.
✨ There’s a constant “energy police” in our lives, draining our life force unless we become conscious of where our energy goes.
✨ Peace comes when we’re clear about where we place our energy and what we dedicate it to—not just following routine or external expectations.
✨ Doubt is energy-draining; the longer we stay in it, the more we lose. Trust, though it feels shaky, is a requirement for true leadership and presence.
✨ Machines may create frequencies, but only we can bring velocity and amplitude—our unique signature—to the world.
✨ Bringing God’s presence into the room happens through our own singularity and willingness to stand in the unknown.

Thank you for listening!

Take a deep breath and remember: your energy, your love, your presence—these are your gifts to the world. Trust yourself, love yourself as you are, and let your unique light shine. 🌟

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The Calling S2 EP29

[00:00:00] Speaker: I feel that there is this waiting upon love. If I can, if the, if this sentence even exists in English, I don't know if it exists even, but it's like waiting upon love or waiting upon love to create. We got used as humanity to wait to love. I hope you get it. It simple sentence. And it has so many layers.

[00:00:32] We're waiting, and by that we are conditioning love in order to create. In order to experience, in order to have something like the strongest conditioning that we have around love is not between one person to another or you know, like it's a very internal conditioning.

[00:01:05] How many humans has conditions around our physical body? We first fix it. Then we love it

[00:01:24] and we have this conditioning all over. If we have that towards ourself, we have that towards everything. We first fix it, we first correct it. We first improve it, we first change it, and then we love it. You're an intimate relationship with your partner. There's. The lovey-dovey experience arrive into saturation, and after a certain moment, energy starts to change.

[00:01:49] And then you want to fix, you wanna fix the relationship in order to love the relationship. You wanna fix your partner in order to love your partner. You wanna fix whatever you wanna fix in order to love it. So we're waiting upon love. We feel that love will come afterwards. After our mind will stop or end chewing all the problem that our mind projects upon everything we're trying to chew life and then swallow it, hoping that it'll nourish love.

[00:02:28] It wouldn't, it's love requires something like, I would say even love. Request something else from now on.

[00:02:42] Love request first. Love.

[00:02:47] Then change will happen first, love first. Love it as it is first. Love it as it is first. Accept it as it is first. Open yourself to it as it is first. Really find the love in it. And change will come not the other way around. And I feel that for so long we got lost in the other way around. We are gonna get the love, we're gonna make the love, we are gonna create the love, we're gonna magnetize.

[00:03:20] I heard people, by the way, magnetizing love as it is an external entity that you're calling into your system. You're magnetizing Love. Love cannot be magnetized. Love is a fountain that comes out of you. You're the source of it comes out of us. You're, we're the source of it.

[00:03:42] And can we understand that sacrifice and not loving myself. It's the same thing.

[00:03:50] Take a deep breath for that. Because if you're able to say that to yourself every time that I'm not loving myself, I am actually sacrificing myself, that should be like two gongs in both sides of your head. Every time that I didn't love myself as it is who I am, what I am, I actually sacrificed.

[00:04:23] I wish to believe that everyone present is seeing themself as a leadership of a new era. I, I feel that one of the most important thing that can happen if we want to create a new era is that it cannot be based on pain and sacrifice.

[00:04:47] It cannot be based on scarcity and luck.

[00:04:54] So one of, one of the things that we're dealing with is that the external experience will still be similar, but the changes will come from different internal positioning.

[00:05:10] Where I'm located inside of me, where do I anchor my consciousness inside of me so I can, from the outside look at something as it is changing this? This is a linear change. There's a beginning, a middle of end, and there's something changed with the time. Time doesn't change anything, by the way. It doesn't heal anything.

[00:05:38] Time, time, time doesn't do those things. Consciousness do it. So instead of, oh, there's a transformation, and that transformation is moving from that state to that state, and I am on this journey. There's also, I am located and I am incurred, and my consciousness is incurred. And I am aware of a greater presence inside of me that comes to life through me again and again, and again.

[00:06:11] And again. Deeper and deeper. And deeper and deeper. I don't buy into, I am moving. I am not moving nowhere. I am maturing into the position. I, I don't journey in time and space to become someone else or to become my extended version, to become wealthy, to become in love, to become whatever I want to become.

[00:06:40] The truth is I'm not moving. Nothing is moving. I am expanding my presence in that truth that is alive within me. This is the invitation.

[00:06:57] I'm going to open a very uncomfortable topic, if you may. So. Um, definitely we all have downs. Correct. It's part of, you know, moments where you're shifting from one shape to another shape. Then there is a moment where the balance between the attachment to what there was and the creation or the revelation of what there is, is still not stable.

[00:07:25] And doubt can come in in sovereignty. Doubt is rooted in a complete different place than what we usually experience. And the reason that we experience doubt as something that how, who, who is experiencing doubt as something that suck energy. It's just sucking energy. Doubt is a waste of money, a waste of time.

[00:07:50] A wa is just waste. Yeah, every good business owner knows that doubt is something really problematic. The longer you're in doubt, the money just dropped.

[00:08:03] We are living in reality, A 3D reality where the doubts and actually the comfortability of having lack of energy is high.

[00:08:23] More and more and more people feeling comfortable not to have energy. That was after a long training where we all got used to of living our life with an emotional police. No one can feel comfortably what they want to feel, sadness, anger, joy, joy. I mean like sadness, it's okay, anger. Mm. But joy is really problematic to feel out loud that everyone will see it and everyone will feel it, and that will feel okay without no one judging, jealous, whatever other people might do.

[00:09:02] So there's a constant emotional police doing two things. Take a deep breath. One, activating you to get emotional. And kidnap the energy. This is an emotional police. Or if there's a recognition that you wouldn't get activated, then shut down the system. Look around you look at your laugh. You get your laugh.

[00:09:32] Until now, there's always an emotional police. This emotional is a representation of a greater police. An energy police. The energy police needs your energy. I can say that it's an energy mafia. Searching for your energy, sucking your energy, creating so many things throughout your life that you will feel it is when you are lacking energy.

[00:10:11] Right. But what we name a state of peace, not spiritual peace, a state of peace in the world is that everyone is clear to whom they give their energy. Take a deep breath and let that blow your mind. You get clear. It is clear. You wake up in the morning, you pay your taxes, you do whatever you need to do.

[00:10:45] You run like a little thing from one place to another. You do what needs to be done again and again and again. Again, one day after the other, you feel comfortable scrolling. You feel comfortable losing yourself. You lose ambition, you lose desires, you lose lose hope. You lose. Believe in yourself. You give it all.

[00:11:06] You give it all. All. You just give it all. And you even decorate it at the end. And you say peace. He is peace. That God I in peace, I know exactly whom am I giving my money in the morning, first thing in the morning, I know who am I paying? Everything. And this is peace. And when is it war? When there's a war on your energy.

[00:11:36] There's a war on your energy. There's a war on our energy, and people get confused and think that this is a war from one country to another, from one person to another. There's no, there's just a, a shake in where your life force is going to be directed. Let's take a deep breath. And also open up to the option that as there is a war, this is a great time to get an internal order.

[00:12:19] What are you doing with your own energy? What are you dedicating your energy to? Where do you put it? What do you do with it? How do you multiply it? How do you create it? How do you enjoy it? How do you give it? How? How do you play with it? How do you co-create? This is a great time for it. Can you get what I'm saying?

[00:12:47] People are going in the street with flags naming each other. Children are losing taste of life in the age of age of 16. Because we just got so comfortable to be kidnapped energetically all day long. 'cause we lost the self connection. We lost the deep connection, we lost it and breathe.

[00:13:27] There's another piece that we're searching.

[00:13:35] The one that is incurred in truth and for God's sake in freedom and they go together, freedom and truth, they go very well together.

[00:13:53] It is a complete different piece. You can even feel the frequency. I just spoke about another piece. Few mo moments ago, the energy was not Pacific in the room. The energy was quite dense. But I'm speaking about peace now. And when you restrict yourself, you open yourself to feel that peace. Can you see how much air there is in the room?

[00:14:17] See how much space there is in the room.

[00:14:23] If we. I really recognize that we're the healers of the world and we're the light activators and the light leaders of the world,

[00:14:36] then our interest cannot be anymore in creating frequencies because now machines can create frequencies. We went there. Now machines can create frequencies.

[00:14:55] So then we should ask ourself what are we doing? Are we going like slaves, just calling ourself that we're hellers and that we're light activators and we're light leader, and we go as slaves?

[00:15:13] Or maybe we should look at what is the current situation? What exists now in the world, and if I am here to heal it and to transform it, how am I doing it? What am I doing with it? What is my signature? What is my singularity? What, what, what is it in me? Because I'm not gonna give up on myself. I'm just not gonna do that.

[00:15:46] It could be that if everyone, everything machines now can create frequencies, then I'm the one to bring velocity, right? Take a deep breath. Take a deep breath. If machine can now create frequencies, machine create frequencies, correct. I mean, like 15 years ago, I was standing with my hands on the Healy's bodies and creating, bringing frequencies.

[00:16:17] Now I push a button and there's frequency. There's no good and bad in the conversation. It's just awareness of the current state and finding who I am in that river, in that state. It's not about good or bad, it's just really doing the service. If I'm doing what machine is doing. It could be that I'm not doing what I'm supposed to be doing, so I'm, I'm here to create velocity.

[00:16:50] Velocity is the di, it's a vector that moves with the frequency is the speed and the rapidity that the frequency is moving. I'm the one who is creating that now. I'm the one that create the amplitude, like how powerful would that be? How powerful this pre frequency would be. How would it move? How deep would it move?

[00:17:17] I want you to open yourself up to that option. Then you wouldn't give your energy so fast to so many different things, believing that that is the solution to how advanced you're going to get in your life. You're gonna find what you're doing in your life. Again, it's gonna be clear why you are here and what is the next stage of the mission.

[00:17:36] What is the next stage of this experience? And you're gonna align yourself with it.

[00:17:46] So the going back full circle again, the addiction to self-doubt is this comfortability of, I don't know, what am I here to do and what am I here? Where am I going? I don't know. So I can doubt myself. I can doubt myself. I can doubt myself, and I can spend years in doubting myself. I do doubt myself by the way.

[00:18:10] I just not staying there, trying not to stay there, just not staying there. Using that to open and to ask questions.

[00:18:25] Take a deep breath.

[00:18:29] I wrote it not so long ago. Trust is a requirement. It's a requirement. It's a, B, C, it's foundations. It's a requirement. You wanna empower your center and clarify your presence so you will be able to trust like you breathe.

[00:18:58] So you can trust your yes, and you can trust your no, and you can trust those different mudras and whatever, and you can trust whatever you wanna trust. The opposite of trust is judgment,

[00:19:17] the opposite of trust judgment. Why? Because judgment needs to find a position. And get calm. Trust feels and seems like something safe. It's not feels, you want trust to be something stable. It's not. It's not gonna be stable. It's not stable. Trust is not stable, but you want it to be. So you're trying to trust in a way that oblige life to limit themself.

[00:19:53] Close the flow, the vitality, the strength. Trusting yourself might feel shaky, and it is a requirement if you wanna lead in life. I, I'm supposed to be here, standing here and bring God into the room. That is the mission that I took on myself. That is where I feel fulfilled. That is where I feel that I am.

[00:20:21] Doing what I'm supposed to be doing here. Although so many people believe that God is written in holy script, no, God exists in one place, and please breathe. You cannot capture it. You cannot write it in script. It cannot, you know, it's just impossible. You cannot capture it. So how would you bring God's presence into the room?

[00:20:50] Through you, in your own singularity, in your own signature, in your own unique way. If you wanna know how to do it, you're supposed to shake while you're doing it. Then you know that great chances, God's gonna show up. If I know it, it's me. It's not the unknown. Then if I know it, it's not the unknown anymore.

[00:21:21] And please breathe.

[00:21:25] Speaker 2: I feel that there is this waiting upon love. If I can, if the, if this sentence even exists in English, I don't know if it exists even, but it's like waiting upon love or waiting upon love to create. We got used as humanity to wait to love. I hope you get it. It simple sentence. And it has so many layers.

[00:21:57] We're waiting, and by that we are conditioning love in order to create. In order to experience, in order to have something like the strongest conditioning that we have around love is not between one person to another or you know, like it's a very internal conditioning.

[00:22:30] How many humans has conditions around our physical body? We first fix it. Then we love it

[00:22:49] and we have this conditioning all over. If we have that towards ourself, we have that towards everything. We first fix it, we first correct it. We first improve it, we first change it, and then we love it. You're an intimate relationship with your partner. There's. The lovey-dovey experience arrive into saturation, and after a certain moment, energy starts to change.

[00:23:14] And then you want to fix, you wanna fix the relationship in order to love the relationship. You wanna fix your partner in order to love your partner. You wanna fix whatever you wanna fix in order to love it. So we're waiting upon love. We feel that love will come afterwards. After our mind will stop or end chewing all the problem that our mind projects upon everything we're trying to chew life and then swallow it, hoping that it'll nourish love.

[00:23:53] It wouldn't, it's love requires something like, I would say even love. Request something else from now on.

[00:24:07] Love request first. Love.

[00:24:12] Then change will happen first, love first. Love it as it is first. Love it as it is first. Accept it as it is first. Open yourself to it as it is first. Really find the love in it. And change will come not the other way around. And I feel that for so long we got lost in the other way around. We are gonna get the love, we're gonna make the love, we are gonna create the love, we're gonna magnetize.

[00:24:45] I heard people, by the way, magnetizing love as it is an external entity that you're calling into your system. You're magnetizing Love. Love cannot be magnetized. Love is a fountain that comes out of you. You're the source of it comes out of us. You're, we're the source of it.

[00:25:08] And can we understand that sacrifice and not loving myself. It's the same thing.

[00:25:15] Take a deep breath for that. Because if you're able to say that to yourself every time that I'm not loving myself, I am actually sacrificing myself, that should be like two gongs in both sides of your head. Every time that I didn't love myself as it is who I am, what I am, I actually sacrificed.

[00:25:48] I wish to believe that everyone present is seeing themself as a leadership of a new era. I, I feel that one of the most important thing that can happen if we want to create a new era is that it cannot be based on pain and sacrifice.

[00:26:12] It cannot be based on scarcity and luck.

[00:26:19] So one of, one of the things that we're dealing with is that the external experience will still be similar, but the changes will come from different internal positioning.

[00:26:35] Where I'm located inside of me, where do I anchor my consciousness inside of me so I can, from the outside look at something as it is changing this? This is a linear change. There's a beginning, a middle of end, and there's something changed with the time. Time doesn't change anything, by the way. It doesn't heal anything.

[00:27:03] Time, time, time doesn't do those things. Consciousness do it. So instead of, oh, there's a transformation, and that transformation is moving from that state to that state, and I am on this journey. There's also, I am located and I am incurred, and my consciousness is incurred. And I am aware of a greater presence inside of me that comes to life through me again and again, and again.

[00:27:36] And again. Deeper and deeper. And deeper and deeper. I don't buy into, I am moving. I am not moving nowhere. I am maturing into the position. I, I don't journey in time and space to become someone else or to become my extended version, to become wealthy, to become in love, to become whatever I want to become.

[00:28:05] The truth is I'm not moving. Nothing is moving. I am expanding my presence in that truth that is alive within me. This is the invitation.

[00:28:23] I'm going to open a very uncomfortable topic, if you may. So. Um, definitely we all have downs. Correct. It's part of, you know, moments where you're shifting from one shape to another shape. Then there is a moment where the balance between the attachment to what there was and the creation or the revelation of what there is, is still not stable.

[00:28:50] And doubt can come in in sovereignty. Doubt is rooted in a complete different place than what we usually experience. And the reason that we experience doubt as something that how, who, who is experiencing doubt as something that suck energy. It's just sucking energy. Doubt is a waste of money, a waste of time.

[00:29:15] A wa is just waste. Yeah, every good business owner knows that doubt is something really problematic. The longer you're in doubt, the money just dropped.

[00:29:28] We are living in reality, A 3D reality where the doubts and actually the comfortability of having lack of energy is high.

[00:29:48] More and more and more people feeling comfortable not to have energy. That was after a long training where we all got used to of living our life with an emotional police. No one can feel comfortably what they want to feel, sadness, anger, joy, joy. I mean like sadness, it's okay, anger. Mm. But joy is really problematic to feel out loud that everyone will see it and everyone will feel it, and that will feel okay without no one judging, jealous, whatever other people might do.

[00:30:27] So there's a constant emotional police doing two things. Take a deep breath. One, activating you to get emotional. And kidnap the energy. This is an emotional police. Or if there's a recognition that you wouldn't get activated, then shut down the system. Look around you look at your laugh. You get your laugh.

[00:30:57] Until now, there's always an emotional police. This emotional is a representation of a greater police. An energy police. The energy police needs your energy. I can say that it's an energy mafia. Searching for your energy, sucking your energy, creating so many things throughout your life that you will feel it is when you are lacking energy.

[00:31:36] Right. But what we name a state of peace, not spiritual peace, a state of peace in the world is that everyone is clear to whom they give their energy. Take a deep breath and let that blow your mind. You get clear. It is clear. You wake up in the morning, you pay your taxes, you do whatever you need to do.

[00:32:10] You run like a little thing from one place to another. You do what needs to be done again and again and again. Again, one day after the other, you feel comfortable scrolling. You feel comfortable losing yourself. You lose ambition, you lose desires, you lose lose hope. You lose. Believe in yourself. You give it all.

[00:32:31] You give it all. All. You just give it all. And you even decorate it at the end. And you say peace. He is peace. That God I in peace, I know exactly whom am I giving my money in the morning, first thing in the morning, I know who am I paying? Everything. And this is peace. And when is it war? When there's a war on your energy.

[00:33:02] There's a war on your energy. There's a war on our energy, and people get confused and think that this is a war from one country to another, from one person to another. There's no, there's just a, a shake in where your life force is going to be directed. Let's take a deep breath. And also open up to the option that as there is a war, this is a great time to get an internal order.

[00:33:44] What are you doing with your own energy? What are you dedicating your energy to? Where do you put it? What do you do with it? How do you multiply it? How do you create it? How do you enjoy it? How do you give it? How? How do you play with it? How do you co-create? This is a great time for it. Can you get what I'm saying?

[00:34:12] People are going in the street with flags naming each other. Children are losing taste of life in the age of age of 16. Because we just got so comfortable to be kidnapped energetically all day long. 'cause we lost the self connection. We lost the deep connection, we lost it and breathe.

[00:34:52] There's another piece that we're searching.

[00:35:01] The one that is incurred in truth and for God's sake in freedom and they go together, freedom and truth, they go very well together.

[00:35:18] It is a complete different piece. You can even feel the frequency. I just spoke about another piece. Few mo moments ago, the energy was not Pacific in the room. The energy was quite dense. But I'm speaking about peace now. And when you restrict yourself, you open yourself to feel that peace. Can you see how much air there is in the room?

[00:35:42] See how much space there is in the room.

[00:35:48] If we. I really recognize that we're the healers of the world and we're the light activators and the light leaders of the world,

[00:36:01] then our interest cannot be anymore in creating frequencies because now machines can create frequencies. We went there. Now machines can create frequencies.

[00:36:20] So then we should ask ourself what are we doing? Are we going like slaves, just calling ourself that we're hellers and that we're light activators and we're light leader, and we go as slaves?

[00:36:38] Or maybe we should look at what is the current situation? What exists now in the world, and if I am here to heal it and to transform it, how am I doing it? What am I doing with it? What is my signature? What is my singularity? What, what, what is it in me? Because I'm not gonna give up on myself. I'm just not gonna do that.

[00:37:12] It could be that if everyone, everything machines now can create frequencies, then I'm the one to bring velocity, right? Take a deep breath. Take a deep breath. If machine can now create frequencies, machine create frequencies, correct. I mean, like 15 years ago, I was standing with my hands on the Healy's bodies and creating, bringing frequencies.

[00:37:43] Now I push a button and there's frequency. There's no good and bad in the conversation. It's just awareness of the current state and finding who I am in that river, in that state. It's not about good or bad, it's just really doing the service. If I'm doing what machine is doing. It could be that I'm not doing what I'm supposed to be doing, so I'm, I'm here to create velocity.

[00:38:15] Velocity is the di, it's a vector that moves with the frequency is the speed and the rapidity that the frequency is moving. I'm the one who is creating that now. I'm the one that create the amplitude, like how powerful would that be? How powerful this pre frequency would be. How would it move? How deep would it move?

[00:38:42] I want you to open yourself up to that option. Then you wouldn't give your energy so fast to so many different things, believing that that is the solution to how advanced you're going to get in your life. You're gonna find what you're doing in your life. Again, it's gonna be clear why you are here and what is the next stage of the mission.

[00:39:02] What is the next stage of this experience? And you're gonna align yourself with it.

[00:39:11] So the going back full circle again, the addiction to self-doubt is this comfortability of, I don't know, what am I here to do and what am I here? Where am I going? I don't know. So I can doubt myself. I can doubt myself. I can doubt myself, and I can spend years in doubting myself. I do doubt myself by the way.

[00:39:35] I just not staying there, trying not to stay there, just not staying there. Using that to open and to ask questions.

[00:39:50] Take a deep breath.

[00:39:54] I wrote it not so long ago. Trust is a requirement. It's a requirement. It's a, B, C, it's foundations. It's a requirement. You wanna empower your center and clarify your presence so you will be able to trust like you breathe.

[00:40:23] So you can trust your yes, and you can trust your no, and you can trust those different mudras and whatever, and you can trust whatever you wanna trust. The opposite of trust is judgment,

[00:40:42] the opposite of trust judgment. Why? Because judgment needs to find a position. And get calm. Trust feels and seems like something safe. It's not feels, you want trust to be something stable. It's not. It's not gonna be stable. It's not stable. Trust is not stable, but you want it to be. So you're trying to trust in a way that oblige life to limit themself.

[00:41:18] Close the flow, the vitality, the strength. Trusting yourself might feel shaky, and it is a requirement if you wanna lead in life. I, I'm supposed to be here, standing here and bring God into the room. That is the mission that I took on myself. That is where I feel fulfilled. That is where I feel that I am.

[00:41:46] Doing what I'm supposed to be doing here. Although so many people believe that God is written in holy script, no, God exists in one place, and please breathe. You cannot capture it. You cannot write it in script. It cannot, you know, it's just impossible. You cannot capture it. So how would you bring God's presence into the room?

[00:42:15] Through you, in your own singularity, in your own signature, in your own unique way. If you wanna know how to do it, you're supposed to shake while you're doing it. Then you know that great chances, God's gonna show up. If I know it, it's me. It's not the unknown. Then if I know it, it's not the unknown anymore.

[00:42:46] And please breathe.