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S2 34 The Healthy Cycle of Healing and Overcoming Grief

• Homaya • Season 2 • Episode 34

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In this third episode in the grief series I share about the healthy cycle of healing and overcoming grief. I bring a teaching that came as an energetic download from my shamanic lineage almost twenty years ago and translate it into a simple, human map you can use when you are walking through loss, separation and deep sadness.

Episode Summary

I speak about grief as an extensive sadness that arises from loss or the fear of losing something we love, and I honour the depth of those who are living through it. I share how, a little over thirty days after my mother’s passing, I feel a profound respect for anyone who is navigating this level of reorganisation in their life and heart.

I introduce the healthy cycle of grief as four main stages. The first stage is the experience itself, the recognition of loss and the shock that lands in the heart. I explain how mastering sadness and grief awakens the lover within you, because grief opens the heart, softens the body and creates a deep need for intimacy and tenderness.

The second stage is confusion, shock and sometimes anger. This can show up as questions about identity, rage at God, life or others, guilt and shame. People can get stuck here for years, so this stage needs empowerment, clarity and sovereignty.

The third stage is isolation and going inward. I talk about withdrawing into your inner cave, licking your wounds and discovering that this is actually a portal of creation and deep healing, where vision can be activated.

The fourth stage is reconnection. This is the moment you return to life changed, with an upgraded identity and a new relationship with yourself, your mission and even with the one you lost, now in a different dimension. The cycle is not truly linear. You can move back and forth between stages, and over time reconnection becomes more stable and embodied.

Key Takeaways

  • Grief is a sacred, powerful form of sadness that arises from loss.
  • There is a healthy cycle of grief with four stages: experience, confusion, isolation and reconnection.
  • Mastering grief awakens the lover within you by opening your heart and softening your body.
  • Confusion, anger, guilt and shame need empowerment and clarity, not more drama.
  • Isolation can be a portal of deep healing and vision, not just withdrawal.
  • Reconnection is an upgraded identity and a new relationship with yourself, life and the one you lost.

If you are somewhere inside this cycle right now, I am bowing to the depth of what you are carrying. You are not broken and you are not behind. You are moving through a sacred process that your mind might not fully understand yet.

Let this episode be a gentle map and a reminder that there is a path through grief, and that on the other side there is more of you, not less.

I’d love to hear your thoughts, text the show.

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The Calling - The Healthy Cycle of Healing and Overoming Grief

Homaya: [00:00:00] Hey, beauties, since I've recorded two previous episodes about grief and death and separation, I feel like joining another episode, adding another episode about the healthy cycle of healing and overcoming a grief. And the wisdom of what I'm about to share is a rendering of. Energetic download that I've received years upon years ago, probably 20 years ago from my masters, from as shamanic lineage, and the way that I've translated and the way that I could see it in my heart, eyes, in my vision to what is the healthy way to heal from. Grief and deep [00:01:00] sadness that comes from separation.

Homaya: By the way, this is just a little side note. I believe that every emotion is working in a circular way in our body and in our life. And in that specific case, grief, which is an extensive sadness, is coming from a sensation of lost. For something that we had or a feeling that we're about to lose something that we have I take a moment to respect also that those who will be listening and those who will be sharing this specific podcast episode or highlighting or downloading it, probably had to go through an extensive. Grief and sadness, and I wanna acknowledge that for a moment. One of the things that I [00:02:00] feel, it's been already over a little bit over 30 days since my mother passed away, and one of the things that I strongly feel.

Homaya: Is such a deep level of respect for the people who are going through that experience. It's really, really a deep one. In the previous episodes I highlighted and I shared that it's really similar to giving birth, and that is to remind us also how, when. A person is added into your life or a person is being removed from your life.

Homaya: When this weaving is happening at that scale, that demands a lot of re

Homaya: reorganizing. A lot of moment to go deep, a lot of moment to grieve, a lot of moment to forgive [00:03:00] and to find yourself and you. And this is the best way to. Start sharing about the healthy cycle of healing, grief of going through grief, let's say the healthy cycle of grief, and also how we heal and why do we need to heal?

Homaya: Because sometimes some people can be stuck in one stage of this cycle. So the first cycle, the first point, there are four points in this. The first point, the first station, is when an experience happen. When there is a recognition that something lost, someone died, there's an end, there's a separation. It's oh, the shock.

Homaya: The experience itself that many times moves in immediately to the emotional body, [00:04:00] immediately to the chest area, immediately to the heart. Now, every emotion, when it is, it brings an epic powerful quality. Into your life when you are able to master sadness and grief, you're activating the lover inside of you. And if for a spirit of a moment you look at those qualities of sadness, there is softness in the body. The heart is open, there's high level of vulnerability, there's a requirement and need to.

Homaya: Intimacy to attach to softness. This is, the heart is open and it is frequency that seems similar to love and intimacy. It's another version of it. It's. Not the open heart, [00:05:00] happy heart, ah, elated bliss, heart of falling in love and rising in love and getting connected. But there's a lot of similarities.

Homaya: So this is to say that healing from grief and overcoming being dominated by sadness, mastering that frequency is a big gift to awaken. The lover within you. And you can also see, by the way, how there are some people who do you know this story when you're asking yourself I was in a beautiful relationship and the person was so hard, but then we separated and immediately he met someone else and open up.

Homaya: Of course, we can say so many reasons why those things are happening. However, take into consideration that one is that the heart was. Open and available, and even the walls around the heart were broken. [00:06:00] So the heart was ripe, open and available, and. This moment. Maybe you also have experienced or have seen other situations where people broke down, felt the lost grieve over the parents or beloved person or someone, and then there was a moment where an intimate relationship started to be created.

Homaya: In that presence. So it's of course it is in the presence of the lost, in the presence of death that put everything in proportion. What I feel now is how much death is a sacred experience. Grief is a sacred experience, death as honoring life. So in that context of death, there's a new proportion of what is happening, and there's also this experience of grief.

Homaya: The lucky one allow themselves [00:07:00] to open their heart and move into softness. Some others not necessarily are able to really soften their, and it is dependent on what exists in their life in general. And then comes the second part. Now the second stage of healthy cycle of grief is. Now the shock is taking over.

Homaya: Now the confusion is taking over. Sometimes even anger is taking over. Now for each person, it'll show up differently. Some people, the confusion is. They would not know what to do, how to do who they are, how to behave, where to go, how to operate if it is a loss of a partner, if it is a loss of someone who's you are sharing life with, whether it is a business partner, life partner, someone that you are living [00:08:00] in sharing house or.

Homaya: Or business with. Then this confusion of who I am, what am I doing? What am I doing without this part of my life? What am I doing without this person? There can also be just the shock of how can life turn their back on me? How can that take my ground, take my love, take my future? How can God do something like that?

Homaya: How can this person will do something like that? And there's also an anger for some people. There's a real big stage of anger, so it's not like how, because I'm in shock, but it's the how is more like, how have you done that thing to me? And the anger could be towards God, towards yourself, towards the community, towards life, towards the person who just passed towards [00:09:00] others.

Homaya: Towards the siblings, towards those who stayed alive, those who are still, and this is, I had a conversation yesterday with a friend of mine who highlighted something so beautiful. She said, I can understand why people are sometimes fighting over a heritage because they cannot render that storm of fillings.

Homaya: There could be also subtile feelings, not only confusion and sadness and anger can be also subtile feelings like guilt and shame, and I'm calling them subtile, not because they are not super dominant, but because there are a combination of other. Feelings and a mix of feelings and emotions. So the second stage is overall can be an overwhelming experience with mixed emotion and overtaking emotions, and sometimes I would even say a [00:10:00] loss of identity.

Homaya: We take a deep breath and it's really important to understand that this is an important piece of the puzzle. It's an important stage, this loss of identity if you are so plugged. And I believe that some of the people who would hear, I believe that most of the people who are listening to my podcast are people who are already serving, already working as healers as.

Homaya: Light activator as a spiritual guide, mentors, life coach, et cetera. But I believe that some of the people who would listen might experience a loss, and this is why you are now listening to this podcast. It's really important to recognize and to understand that yes, in the 3D experience, you've lost someone.

Homaya: I've lost my mother in the 3D experience. However, at the level of the soul, that is the perfect timing where [00:11:00] I am ripe enough to take full ownership on as the mother that I am. The mother that I am in my family, the mother, as I am to myself, self parenting the mother that I am to my creation. I am in a place where I am ripe to move into a greater level of ownership of my talents, of my gifts, of what I'm here to bring into the world, and this is why I am going through that process.

Homaya: Yes, of course there are questions about identity. All of those questions of identity, were designed in a soul level to happen at that specific time, in that specific combination. And I can share with you, and this is how we move actually to the third, maybe I share that with you on the fourth level.

Homaya: So the third level. Thank you for the patient. As I am just [00:12:00] briefing all as I am. I am here recording. Nothing is predesigned, as you know in my podcasts. So the third level usually is the level of the stage of isolation, isolation, separation. Take a deep breath. This is where you go inward. You go inward to consider who you are.

Homaya: How you going to rearrange your life? Who are you without that person? Who are you with the memory, with that gift that you've received from that person you have lost, like you are going into ah. You're going to the corner of the room, to your womb, to your to your cave, to your depth, because there's this beautiful opening that happen and there's a possibility to dive even deeper, deeper, deeper into places inside of you that usually you haven't [00:13:00] reached.

Homaya: And most of the time, this place is a place of isolation, but it is actually the deepest, deepest place of healing, and it is. A place that invite reconnection. As again, as we can look at it, the people. There are people, and this is why we need sometimes healing the cycle of grief, that in the first stage, which is the stage of the experience.

Homaya: We'll go into profound grief and we'll just be in that neediness and in that sadness and neediness to receive comfort, to receive support, or people can stay on the second stage of, I am confused. I'm in anger, and they can stay in this stage for years. They can separate from their family. They can separate from their siblings.

Homaya: They, they [00:14:00] can change place of life or profession, but it wouldn't be from evolving. It'll be from rage, from revenge, from bitterness, from victimhood. They can get confused, can really feel lost, and they can stay in that place. And on the third stage is isolation. I don't wanna speak, I don't wanna connect, I don't wanna expose, I don't wanna celebrate.

Homaya: I don't wanna experience life like that anymore. Like really isolating me, myself, and I, and all of those three stages. Can have their medicine. The first stage is really being nourished. Nourished, nourished, nourish in your heart, nourish in your soul, nourished mentally, physically. Receiving the beauty and love [00:15:00] of life, of the Divine.

Homaya: I have done such a powerful ritual on the day, the 30 days of my mother passing deep, deep ritual. Of saying goodbye to her, completely liberating her, allowing her to be who she is, regardless of the stories that we have, not holding the story in me anymore, and at the same time, allowing myself to be energetically nourished in such a deep and incredible way.

Homaya: And I'm so grateful for those who supported me and so many, by the way of my people in my community. Were sending so many, so much love and flowers and beautiful things to, to be with me at that stage, so I'm so grateful. Then the healing of the second stage, this stage of shock and confusion and anger and so on.

Homaya: This is a place that is needing an empowerment. If the first stage wanted love and [00:16:00]support, the second stage needs empowerment,

Homaya: power, real power, ownership, sovereignty, clarity. Confrontation. It doesn't need to be with anger. It doesn't need to be with hard emotions. It can be really by looking at life in the most clear and looking clear way and looking at yourself in the most clear, important way. And then the third part, which is the part of isolation.

Homaya: I go to the corner of the room and lick my wounds. This is a place for vision activation. This is a place where as you are going, diving deep within you and licking your wounds and crying and isolating. Look at that cave. Look at that womb as a place, as a portal of creation, because the next stage.

Homaya: The [00:17:00] ultimate fourth stage is reconnection. I'm tapping back to the world and new where that version of who I was before the lost is upgraded, and I'm creating an intentional on purpose

Homaya: upgrade. So this is a beautiful cycle and it is an imp an important cycle, and it is a non-linear cycle, although I explain it as a linear one. One. So that means that yes, there will be some people who will just grow through that cycle.

Homaya: What is important to know about it is that this cycle can happen to some people. Really like one cycle in that order, and that cycle can take a year to complete and it could be the same cycle, but it will take for some people one month in some relationship. [00:18:00] It can also take few months. We must understand that we're griefing all day long if we wanna see that because we're griefing the past as we move forward.

Homaya: So it's very much dependent on the personality, how long it'll take, what will be the depth of the process. For some people it'll be moving from stage one to stage two and back to stage one, and then back to stage two, and then a little bit stage three, then stage two, stage one again, et cetera, et cetera, et cetera.

Homaya: And as you go back and forth in this process, that will come a moment where you're gonna start feeling and experiencing the reconnection coming back and new stage four. And then stage four gonna appear more and more and more until it'll be completely established. Stage four is a change of personality.

Homaya: It is [00:19:00] an upgrade of personality. It's its change in identity, and this is the gift of grief. It is the gift, and I already can feel that for myself. I can already feel for myself the gifts that my mother ascension is gifting me, portals are opening inside of me, aspects that I wanted to feel and to experience, and to claim.

Homaya: Are showing up in the most beautiful way. So it is stage four. It is a reconnection. It's a reconnection to yourself. It's a reconnection to your mission on earth. It's a reconnection to life and to what exists inside of your realm, in your business, in your relationship, what exists [00:20:00] inside of your inner world and outer world.

Homaya: And it's also a reconnection. To that which was lost. However, in a new dimension, a new aspect of the relationship is coming for us, and it'll be different from everything that happened before because both have changed radically. So thank you for listening for to this episode. Thank you for being. Present in your own growth, in your own awareness, and also as you're serving others in light.

Homaya: I really recommend to map this for yourself, to bring awareness to where you are if you're going to through grief, or what are the qualities that you can bring to support those around you who are going through grief and transformation. [00:21:00] And of course to learn it for yourself so you can support and you can escort yourself as you are moving through challenges of separation and grief.

Homaya: To do that with greater awareness and to experience a greater opening of your heart and next level identity, next level awareness. Next level presence. Thank you.