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Yo, what's up? This is the Story Continues Podcast with your host, Austin Gambrill. Today we have a very special Are you laughing? No. We have a very special guest. He is a genuine, genuine crackhead. Um he just got done cussing me out. This is Don't be so loud. Everybody, welcome, my brother. What's up? Yeah, so uh how are you? Well, I just saw you, so I'm doing good. No, bitch, they didn't see you. Calm down.
SPEAKER_00:I'm doing good. I'm doing good.
SPEAKER_01:Anyway. You alright? Oh, we got me cussing already. Anyway. How you been doing? I've been struggling, but anyway, you're finding it. This I'm finding it. I'm finding it. Yeah. Does it take you that long? It does. It does. So this is a mental health podcast, as you already know. So tell me about yourself. What if what have you been through? I know you don't really believe in it, really. You know, what have you been through in your life? Like to the point where like you were depressed or like anxious, but you didn't know what that was until now. Oh, that's a good question. Well, I would say probably my younger days when um I wasn't. I guess you can say physique-wise, who I am now. I'm sorry, I didn't mean to laugh. I didn't mean to laugh. Go ahead. Like, I was the point where I was laughing. I was a chunky kid. Chubby. I mean, to a point where I looked at younger pictures of myself now, and I'm like, I see why that girl didn't talk to me. It's just because my weight wasn't what I thought it was in my head when I was younger. I thought I looked fine because my parents never said anything. Only you, my brother, would say you fat. So like I used to call him Pillsbury Doveboy. Yeah, so like I didn't know what I did. When I was younger, like I wouldn't say what got depressed, but it it affected me to where uh the physique I have now in fitness and everything, it affected me when I was younger when people used to call me now. You jump in the gun. What? But keep going. I was gonna get to your workout and everything. Oh, well, I'm just saying, you're talking about depression and stuff, mental health. So I would say when I was younger, you know, I went through a lot when I was younger where like, you know, I didn't have good grades in school and stuff, and I was eating a lot to a point where I was a chunky, chunky kid. So but you were depressed. I was depressed, but I didn't know what it was called. That part. But I'm and I look back on it. Yeah, I guess I was depressed, but nobody really knew because I was such a happy, chunky kid. Yeah, you dog, this is gonna be a dumb episode. I will say, like, from my point of view, I didn't know how bad it was until like probably when I went to college, and then you kind of started working out a lot. And I was like, oh wow. So I'm so sorry. Yeah, yeah. It affected me when so I apologized. We had to say sorry, just it think about it. It was like motivation for me to be who I am today. Then in that point, at no regrets. Yeah. So, you know, I I needed that push to like you know where to go. Because I yeah, I'm a big boy now, but I'm not like if if you know me or if you don't know who I am, if you've seen him before, I'm I'm a big boy, but I'm not like oh yeah. His name is Robert, by the way. I'm so sorry that this for people that don't know him, his name is Robert Gambel II. He is also my brother, blood brother, so only brother. Yeah, you know, yeah, only only brother, for sure. Oh, yeah. So tell me about like growing up, because we are obviously ministers, kids. So what what was what was that like growing up for you? From your point of view, from your point of view, because they already know mine. Well, growing up in a household where your father is a very strict preacher, minister, you learn a lot growing up, not only about the Bible, but you're in church a lot. You have an image to uphold in the church that part to a point where your stand the standards are very high for you. Extremely to where it's a lot of pressure to where behind closed doors you're going through something mentally because you're like doing this routine about praying, reading your Bible because you it's just a routine. But when you are older, as you get older, you notice that you find Jesus, Jesus for who he is for yourself, you know, who Jesus really is for yourself.
SPEAKER_00:That part.
SPEAKER_01:But when you're younger and your dad's a preacher and you're in the church, and he, you know, he was an interim pastor at one point and everything.
SPEAKER_00:Yep.
SPEAKER_01:Um, so it's like when you have that type of strict parent, like it's hard to grow up in a household like that. But then again, it uh it like I guess you can say it builds you up to the man you're gonna become in the future. Yeah, to the point where nobody can break you down. Yeah, nobody can break you down, literally. Because you know, you have an image in church, but then you have an image at home. But it's like the at home you is different from the in-church you just because that's how you know being a preacher's kid operates. You have to uphold a certain standard in the church. Then when you're at home, it's like you can be a kid, but at the same time, you still have those morals. And my dad was the same person y'all saw I'm at church, he was the same person at home when it comes to the Bible and being strict. Like he made us do a lot of stuff reading the Bible, writing stuff, studying scripture, like between him and my mom. Mom, mom, too. Like, they both were very strict and a Christian, woman, yeah. Christian people, followers of Christ, I call them. They're all followers of Christ, and they set an example and foundation for who we are today. So who we are is just people say, How you guys are so tough, you guys can handle this, handle that. It's because we had an upbringing where our dad was like such a strict man of God, to where it was like we had to we had to follow the Bible, like we were scared to go to hell. And honestly, it kind of prepared us for the world for real. Yeah, because the world is hell. Hello? I didn't mean to go elaborate like that, but that's just that's how it is. That was perfect. No, I appreciate it. So you uh you're 26. Wow. I'd guess, because I don't really I don't really talk about that a lot, but you're 26. How is uh how is life going for you right now in your 20s? How are your 20s as a whole? Well dating and everything. Oh, here we go. Well, I'm gonna say this. Um, I'm trying to summarize it. I'm finding it. I'm finding how do I how do I do this? I will say start wherever. It's a podcast, do whatever you want. In your 20s, you're trying to find out who you are before you hit 30. That's the main thing. That's what they tell you. That's what they tell you. But as I grew up in my 20s, I said, God damn. This shit ain't right. You know, it ain't for the week. It ain't for the week, man. You gotta, it's like you're it's like God is building your testimony and your character before you hit 30. No, haiku. And it's amazing because you look at it like Jesus started his ministry, I believe, when he was 30. So it's like, if we call us as the followers of Christ, right? In your 20s, I feel like you have to figure out where God wants you to be as far as your purpose by the time you hit before you hit 30, if that makes sense. So your 20s really, you just gotta figure it out. Some people figure it out way before they hit 25. Facts. But it depends on the upbringing. With us, the way we've been raised, yeah, get a job, go to school, all this other stuff. But my 20s have been, I can say like it's just it's been rough because I'm I'm trying to figure it out. Still trying to figure it out, but it's just it's not easy. So anybody that's approaching their 20s or in their 20s, don't stress about stuff because at the end of the day, it's I'm 26 right now and I'm not where I want to be. That worked. I didn't expect to be in the situation I'm in right now compared to when I was 20, I said, I'm gonna be successful about 25, 26. God said, You want to hear a joke? God said, um look in the mirror. I'm on you're on my time. Hello? You know, you're not on your own time.
SPEAKER_00:He said, nice try.
SPEAKER_01:As you get older in your 20s, too, you realize when you grow closer with Christ, you realize that everything is up to him, not you.
SPEAKER_00:That worked.
SPEAKER_01:His timing is the best timing ever because let's say you're 26. I'm 26 right now. Let's say you're at the age where you're like, let's say you're you're 21 right now. 21 years old, I'm at the drinking age and everything. Uh, I'm about to do this, do that. I'm in school. Maybe some of y'all in your 20s, early 20s might be in college or whatever. You think when you graduate, you have a plan. And the truth is you don't have a plan, you think you have a plan. But God's up there laughing at you because it's like he knows your plan.
SPEAKER_00:That's right.
SPEAKER_01:He knows what's best for you. Like he knows the plans he has for your life.
SPEAKER_00:That's right.
SPEAKER_01:When you were and you were in your mother's womb, like he knows exactly who you're about to become. Exactly. But that's the beauty about when you're following Christ, you have to really follow him in your 20s because if you don't follow him, you're gonna be lost. Lost as hell. If you think if you think you're struggling now, imagine if you don't have Jesus in your 20s. Your 20s, you have to you have to have Jesus, period. But when you're in your 20s, you're getting at the age you have you gotta put your face all into that Bible, all into the word of God, pray to God every day, five times a day, because you gotta be in alignment. 20 times a day. I mean a lot. You have to pray to God a lot because he's the only way that you're gonna make it through your 20s. That's the only way I'm making it. Long story short, it's just my advice to anybody that's in their 20s, just follow Christ because he's gonna lead you in the right direction. You have to trust him, that's it. Just trust him and believe he's gonna take you in the right direction.
SPEAKER_00:That's that part. So your dating life.
SPEAKER_01:Oh well. That's mighty deep. My dating life, I will say, has been a roller coaster that it's just been going down. Tell your story, because you might help somebody else. So this is for young men and women. I guess I'll give you a rundown on my dating life a little bit. I've had some girlfriends who didn't deserve me. I've had some girlfriends that I didn't deserve them. My dating life has been a roller coaster that keeps going down. That's what it feels like. It just keeps just going downhill. That's why I don't do it. So I'm waiting for the moment where God sends me the right woman to where I can finally go up the roller coaster and keep going up. Hello? And make sure I find that loop to go up.
unknown:But right.
SPEAKER_01:Can I get the blue streak every day? Can I can I do or the millennium fruit? Not the blue streak. That's that's my right woman. That one, that one. That's my dating life. Did they shut it down? That's my dating life, the blue streak. Mine is probably the carousel. Going in a fucking circle. I'm trying to shorten this up a little bit because make people understand. Now I know what I want in a woman. Before I do. Yeah, before that. Before I didn't know at all. Okay, we get it. You know. No, I'm saying me too. I'm just saying just you. Calm down, Jamal. Don't get mad if it's not true. It is true. That's why I'm mad. Exactly. But I realize a lot as I'm older. When you're more into Christ, yeah, I've been in Christ all my life. Proverbs 31. When women say the Proverbs 31 type woman, that high key. I mean, just about pisses me off. Every time a woman, I'm a Proverbs 31 woman. Girl, shut up. You don't have to say you're a Proverbs 31 woman. You already are one. No, no, that's the that that's the crazy part. Just show it. That's the crazy part. Then I even they they're not even representing a Proverbs 31. That's what I'm saying, but they verbally say it and they're like, oh, I'm a Proverbs. Girl, no, you're not. I'm like, did you read the scripture? No, you're not. Like, have you read have you read Proverbs 31? Hello? In its entirety? Hello? You are nowhere near the last few verses of that chapter. Nowhere near, bro. Like the last 10 verses, you are nowhere near that. I'd be like, sis, be so free. Like our cousins, for example, right? Love them to death. Yes. And they literally show that they are a Proverbs 31 woman. Yeah. Or women as women. Yeah. Like Trinity, Marissa, Michaela, all three of them. Yeah. They carry themselves in like a great way where they can like be a good wife or like companion to someone else. Yeah. Yeah. And that's so true. That's a perfect example of them too. Like, love them. Like Proverbs 31 women, that they're a perfect example. Absolutely. Because when you read it to me, when you read its entirety, okay, a lot of females are not even the first half of that chapter. Like they think how can you say you're Proverbs 31 and you're not even half of this chapter, let alone the whole thing.
SPEAKER_00:L-O-L.
SPEAKER_01:So it's like my thing is though, if women accept the fact that they are not a Proverbs 31 woman, but they're looking for an Ephesians 5 type of love. All right, Bishop. You could legit align with that and become a Proverbs 31 woman if you have an Ephesians type of Ephesians chapter 5 type of love. Uh-huh. So it's like you have to really, it's like the man, I don't know how I got into this, but it hit me. It was like, as a man, right? The Bible talks about he that findeth the wife findeth the good thing, right? Amen. And obtain favor from the Lord. The biggest thing is obtain favor from the Lord, right? If you find a wife as a man, you obtain favor.
SPEAKER_00:That part.
SPEAKER_01:I'm at the age now where I'm trying to find a wife so I can obtain favor. To me, if I have no wife, I have no favor. So like I'm gonna respect my wife because she's the reason why I have favor from the Lord. That part. And I obtained favor from God. So it's like when it comes to Proverbs 31. He said, I'm trying to find a what is it? A Sarah. Is that her name? Is that the wrong one? Is that the whore? Oh shit. No, no, no. No. Sarah, um, Abraham and Sarah. That's right. Oh, praise God. That is the right word. Sarah's won't have the baby. Oh no. Later on in life, she was like You're trying to find a biblical woman. I'm sorry. That was it. Continue. Sarah's not a bad person, but it's just anyway. But what I was saying, like, it's just I read my Bible though, I promise. My thing is Ephesians 5 type love, right? You read it, Ephesians chapter 5. Okay. You look at Corinthians as well. Love is patient, love is kind. You know that. Everybody knows that. But my thing is though, when you he that findeth the wife, when you actually find the wife, she might not be a Proverbs, a fully Proverbs 31 woman. A fully Proverbs 31. Yeah, she might not be heavy on fully. Fully. But most women that are looking for the man to lead them into it. Exactly. To where when you marry that woman, exactly. Or just be that woman beforehand. But when you marry that woman, she becomes the full chapter. Oh wow. Oh, wow. Because you're making her a better woman because you're leading her. Heard. So that's what I'm looking for in my dating life. It's like I'm trying to look for a woman that actually allows me to lead. Ooh. Pause. Like the sensitivity that men have now, it's like, dog, it it ain't that, it ain't that deep. No. Like, if a girl breaks your heart, suck it up. That's true. Just keep it moving, man. I will say, I mean, obviously, feel your feelings, obviously. You know, we're not against that. But like, don't dwell on it and be like, this is the only woman I ever loved, bro. There are five billion cajillion women out here. Find another one. It's easier said than done when let's say you put your all into somebody, right? And you actually love somebody and they treat you like crap and they throw you away like you're a piece of trash, right? To a point where Speaking from experience? To the point where so I did that. I'm glad you said something. I you did that. The point is where I'm so evil. When they treat you like trash, yeah, you are. When they not in a bad way, but it's just like when they treat you like trash and you put all your love into somebody and you do so much for them to a point where they don't see it because they never they're not used to a good man. Like a woman that I have from personal experience, like you said, personal experience. Legit, I've been, I feel like I've been chewed up, spit out, and back to trash. I've watched you. Yeah, and it's just I treat women, I treat queens. Well, here's the problem though. Let me go back, let me backtrack. I think I've chose queens, but in reality, I dated princesses. I have not yet dated a queen. You know what? Pause. If you haven't shared this podcast yet, share it with somebody that needs to hear this. Thank you. Continue. Princesses and queens. I always say there's a difference. You have some women that think they are queens, but act like princesses. Some women who are humble think they're princesses, but they deserve queen treatment. Wow. So it's like you have to you have to realize that's the whole episode. Thank you for listening. No, I'm playing. You have to differentiate between the two. You have to know who's the queen, who deserves queen treatment, who thinks that deserve they deserve queen treatment. And people think I'm weird when I be like when I date women and I just observe for so long. Yeah. I'm literally observing, and the fact that you got mad because I'm not having sex with you, I'm gone. Yeah. Like that's disgusting. Because it's to me, like, lust is a big factor with our generation. Because I'm an observer. Yeah. Ooh, voice crack. But like, you know, lust, lust is a big thing. I don't know why though. Like, I ain't gonna lie to you. Like, I used to lust. I used to lust back in my 20s. Praise God. I'm still 26, but I used to be a like terrible. I was terrible. I'm more controllable. And as far as like I read the read the Bible, it talks about how lust is a sin. The Bible says even if you so-called like look at a woman, lust after a woman, you've already committed adultery. So I'm trying my best to not lust, and I'm I'm getting better. I'm 26, like I said, but I'm getting better because it's like I want my wife in the future, who's gonna be a queen, who is a queen, I know she's a queen, to know that her man is like rooted into the word of God and like can lead her in the right direction and make her become a better queen. That that was loud. That was loud. Wow. So yeah. This is great. I think this needs to be at a million views or whatever. I hope it I hope it gets out to everybody for real. It's pretty good. It's good for young folks to listen to something like that. That part switching. Um, you are a theater kid. Yeah. Tell me about oh shit.
unknown:Unlimited.
SPEAKER_01:Oh, damn. Here we go. I unlocked something. I'm so sorry. Sorry to whatever happens in in this little snippet. I'm so sorry. But um, yeah, tell me about that. You know, you grew up in theater, we both did, obviously. Yes, yes, yes. Yeah, got it.
SPEAKER_00:Broadway. Broadway bit the it's got me. Everybody. But okay, I'm sorry, go ahead.
SPEAKER_01:Yeah, I love theater. I've been a theater kid since I can long long I as long as I can remember for real. The way we can recite Incredibles is dumb. Yeah, every scene. I think a lot of movies we can recite, but but you guys know the so you know this thing, like so if I'm like bored anywhere, I don't know why. I can literally watch the entire Incredibles movie in my head. I got nothing to say because I'm the same way. So I I know that's why I just said it because I knew you would relate. It's that Lion King is a lot of movies, but Incredibles is just in there. Yeah, Hercules. The music in Incredibles is insane, dumb. But oh yeah, you said theater kid. Yeah, I'm sorry, go ahead. ADHD. But no, me being a theater kid, I love theater to this day. I my dream is I just posted something on my Instagram actually about a guy singing on a stage. It was empty in the Broadway auditorium. He was singing his face off, and he said, you know, singing to an empty room. It's like so sweet, right? That's the best feeling ever. And it is because I love theater so much. My dream is to be on Broadway. That's my ultimate dream. Like, I don't care about nothing else but being on Broadway. If that's all I do for the rest of my life, I'm cool with it. I love Broadway. Chicago. Oh my gosh. But I want to do that. That's my ultimate dream. You know, I'm of course, you know, I I do music and everything, but Broadway is just a goal. I didn't know you did music. That's crazy. Austin, shut up. I'm sorry. But um in theater, I I was doing theater in junior high, high school. Um, even I was younger, I would act like I would be Martin Luther King or some other roles when I was younger. You did eat that up when you had that Martin Luther King project for that one class. Yeah, that was great. I love to act, I guess you can say, but I love to perform. That makes sense. Um, so I love theater. Always have to be somebody else is so fun to me. Because it's like, I don't know this person, but I'm gonna embody this character because it's just I I know God's giving me a gift to act. So it's like if you see me in a show or act, period, yeah, I enjoy it because when you see you like your intrusive thoughts always win. But so sorry. But every time I hit the stage or anything, it's like worse when I'm with you. Yeah, I know. When you're on stage, what happens? Oh, when I'm on stage, like I'm in a different, different zone. Like, I feel like I'm not the same person. Usually as happened, yeah. Yeah, like I'm but like it's supposed to happen like that. It's supposed to happen, but not everybody has that. Not every literally, not everybody has that. When you work harder and embody the characters, I love theater because I can be somebody else.
SPEAKER_00:That part.
SPEAKER_01:Guess what? Robert disappears is not gonna be on stage. Yep, it's this character.
SPEAKER_00:Exactly.
SPEAKER_01:So at the same time, the audience doesn't see me, they see the character.
SPEAKER_00:That's right.
SPEAKER_01:And that's when you've done your job when people are like, you act like this in real life. No, it's just this is my character. I love it. I've embodied this character.
SPEAKER_00:That part.
SPEAKER_01:So I love theater. Yeah, I'm a theater kid by heart like by heart, man. Like wicked movie. That movie is like probably I don't I can't even explain it. Is it still in the thing? I'm gonna see it tonight. I'm not like telling you, I listen to the soundtrack every single day. Man, like it is a daily day. Oh god, I love wicked. Amazing. I'm just gonna say wicked is because we we just we saw it like twice already. Literally. I'm gonna go see it again now. I think about it. So what would you tell your younger self? Your chubby younger self. Like, I'm sorry. Like Kevin Hart. I guess yeah, what would you tell your younger self? Because like you're buffed now and you're like a fucking rock, Johnny Bravo looking ass. So yeah, what would you tell your younger self? I would tell my younger self like if he was listening to this podcast right now with his like glasses and everything, God's got you. I'm about to cry. Yeah. I'm finding it. Yeah, no for real, like. All seriousness, God's got your back. He always has, always will. No matter what the struggle is right now, he's got your back. Because in the end, he knows the plans. Like I said earlier. And I'll tell my younger self that like God's got you. That's straight up. No, nothing simpler than that. God's got your back. That's a fact, though. It's a total fact. Like when you're younger, you don't know that for real. No, you don't. But if you can tell your younger self that, I feel like my younger self would like be in a different mindset I am now from what I am now. Probably be a lot happier. A lot happier now. Yeah. I'm not mean now, but it's just I'm tough now. Yeah, just a God's got you. That's pretty much it. You can be mean. I won't even lie. I can. I always told people I'm not I'm not this big for no reason. Yeah, that's facts. Like, I be in the gym angry. Oh, yeah. Is that about your gym experiences and stuff? Like, how did you how'd you start? And like, how did you get to where you are now? Um, big body bitch. I started uh working out when I was like 18. Uh-huh. I think it was after I went to Specs Howard School of Media Arts. Uh-huh. Or during that time, I was like 18 years old. Uh-huh. Started with Oh, wait, pause. Yeah, I meant to get to there too. Uh thank you for the segue. But um, yeah, how did you so from my point of view, there were a lot of people saying, Oh my God, like, why didn't you go to school? Like, why didn't you go to college? Like, you should have gone to college. Tell us about that. Because somebody I'm sure is listening right now, has the same grades you had in high school and think they that they can't go to college. So what would you say to them? I would say look for what's best for you. Like if you want to do something, there's skill trade schools, there's a soldier, you get an associate's degree anywhere else. Anywhere else. Anywhere else with like you have a low GPA and you can still go to a certain type of uh school, college, or take some classes to better yourself. If you want to get a job making decent money, just go to school to your associate's degree. Or take a few classes somewhere to learn more about something that you are doing at your job now. Lucky you can still get your bachelor's because when you get to college, the GPA resets. So it's literally like a fresh start. Yeah, I went to I went to Broadcast Media Arts School because I wanted to be a broadcaster, sports broadcaster. And I'm not gonna get into that, but that has been a roller coaster too.
unknown:Yeah.
SPEAKER_01:To a point where I had to get a regular job eventually. I was actually doing good doing radio and television. Next thing you know, it's like I I went in, I hit shit pretty much. Rock bottom. But you know, I was I was on 105.9 Kiss of M with Mason, and then I was on Shelby Township Television in my hometown. I was on TV doing that. I was on the verge of going to another television station, but they didn't want me. I heard radio was right down the street. I was trying to go there. That didn't happen. Damn. So I had to get a job. I went two months job hunting for radio and television. Gave my resume. They say, Oh, you have a good resume, but then they weren't looking for anybody. Baby, that's what pisses me off with a lot of them. So you have a great resume, but we don't want you. Yeah, what? So, I mean, young folks, just simply if you having trouble trying to find a job, let's say, or you know, having trouble in school or something like that, find something that you like to do and just stick to it. Hello? That's it. Literally just stick to it. If it's music, sing your face off. Yes. Literally. That's what we do now. Literally. We have job a job and everything. Me and my brother have jobs and everything. So it's like, I just I love music. And my goal is to have a career in music. That's all what I all I want to do. That's it. But right now I have to work hard, make some money, yeah, do my thing until that happens. But I sing at church, I sing wherever I can for real. That works. What was your question? Honestly, I don't even know. Okay. I'm just vibing right now. Got you. I understand. If you are fat now, if you got some chunkiness to you now, it's gonna turn into muscle. You gotta lose the fat before you gain the muscle. And you are a trainer, right? Yeah.
SPEAKER_00:Crazy. Talk about that.
SPEAKER_01:Well, um, I started like probably like what two years ago, I think. Sorry, training folks. Um, I'm going to school right now to um be get my official certificate, but I've been training folks for a while.
SPEAKER_00:Period.
SPEAKER_01:To a point where like my teachers have told me at um my university that I take classes at that legit, you can train people. You've been training people for so long, you know, you don't really need the schooling, but it's good to have so you can get paid more.
SPEAKER_00:Yeah, so you have like the certification, certification.
SPEAKER_01:And I can go anywhere, I can legit work somewhere else, work at a gym or something. Yeah, it's actually he actually is a really good trainer. He actually knows what he's doing. So if you need a trainer, just call me. No, for real. But I love I love helping people. It's not even about the money for me, it's about helping folks. Thank you for stopping by, even though we live in the same place. Oh, that's it. What do you mean that's it? What else do you want to talk about? It's a podcast. No, I'm just saying, like, thought more deeper questions, but that was actually good. Deeper, you already said everything. What what how deeper do you want to go? That's why it's called the story continues. But yeah, thank you for listening to the podcast. And um, yeah, like, subscribe, and follow, and all that jazz. Anything else you want to say to the people before we leave? Um, peace and blessings, and keep God first, he'll take you places you never dreamed of. Oh, wow, that was some magical shit. Alright, I'm done. I'm doing too much. Good night, goodbye. Whatever you whatever.