Spoke in Class Today
Travel this journey with me as we fly through space on this magnificent rock. There is going to be laughter, silliness, tears, and rants. I plan to get some interviews done as well. I am interested in learning about all sorts of different things and sharing my experience. There will be music to listen to as well. As an avid listener and lover of all genres of music, I want to share my love for the musical arts and comedy. So join along and lend me your ear, as I walk through this next journey.
Spoke in Class Today
Episode - 27: Unexpected Lessons in a Changing World
Owning a home for over a decade might seem like the ultimate achievement, yet here I am, contemplating the fine line between what we want and what we truly need. Have you ever reached a milestone only to be met with an unexpected sense of solitude? As I prepare for a looming move, I'm embracing the vulnerability and unpredictability of life's journey, sharing my reflections on desires, personal connections, and the skepticism that sometimes surrounds current events—like that reported egg shortage. These musings are meant to resonate with anyone navigating transitions, questioning norms, and seeking deeper meaning in their own lives.
In the midst of all this introspection, a spontaneous interruption from my curious cat adds a touch of humor to the narrative. Amid claw marks and playful antics, I find myself sharing updates about the whirlwind of tasks that accompany my current property adventure. From temporary tent living to maintaining positivity amidst chaos, it's a journey filled with challenges and laughter. I invite you to reflect on your own desires, congratulate those who've achieved theirs, and extend my gratitude for your continued support. Let's embrace this unpredictable path together, with optimism and an open heart.
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Speaker 1:I don't know which one to look at. They're both in my face, so I'll take this off. Well, tonight I wanted to, or today, whatever it is. Again, I ain't ever together.
Speaker 1:I think I wanted to get on here and talk about desires, because it seems like there's a lot going on with desires in regards to things we want in life. You know, some think it's a need, some think it's a want, some think it's a want. But it all has a meaning, I guess, in some sort, some way. I don't know, what do you desire? What's your main thing? What do you want most out of what you've accomplished so far? What's next?
Speaker 1:I ponder that question a lot with myself. I don't know if I ever always know the actual answer. Sometimes it comes, sometimes it goes, sometimes I just gotta fuckin' dive in and hope that I don't hit a rock and crack my head open. But maybe that's the way To go out head first. Um, oh, gotta get in a mood. That's how I'm not. Oh, I did it in a mood, but it's the, the little things that you, that you want out of your life. I guess that you know. I don't know, maybe you've got it all, maybe you're missing something. What is it? What do you need? What do? Is it what do you need? What do you want? What do you desire? I desire connection. This fucking thing's not gonna light. I desire connection with somebody With many people. This fucking thing's not gonna light. I desire a connection with somebody With many people. It's that search for things that are missing. I guess, I don't know, I may be overthinking it all.
Speaker 1:You know, it's the journey of this life, this weirdness of everything that goes on throughout each day and wanting to know what the purpose is, what the reason is, what the end is. You know, and along the way, we want to have those connections with others and strive for those deep relationships. And if you have those awesome congrats, I'm jealous. I don't know. Congrats, I'm jealous. I don't know. Maybe this is how it was supposed to be, maybe it was supposed to be a different way, but this is how it ended up for me. Walk through a large part of my life alone, not 100% sure as to why it happened that way, because I'm trying to get this fucking thing to light, stay lit, but I don't know. Maybe I'm just rambling. Which I always do.
Speaker 1:Sometimes there's a little piece of some kind of nugget. I think I can get from it. At least I learned from it. I don't, but I don't even know why I started this. This song has got me in a weird spot for a moment. It's just kind of like I don't know if you guys can hear it, how loud it comes through, but I can hear it pretty good and I get headphones on and I can kind of hear it through the headphones too. So what to do? I got so much going on, but it seems like I don't have shit going on. It's the final month of being in the spot that I'm at right now.
Speaker 1:The house that I've been in for the last 12, almost 13 years, the house that I worked hard for to get, took time to search it out, to make sure it was going to be correct for that moment in my life at that time, to give me things, to provide for me what I needed, although it's been a fucking struggle to keep and an even harder struggle to keep up. Um, what the fuck is this shit? Alright, we're gonna go. Let's go. 80s, 90s and 2000s greatest hits how about that? Oh, oh, I gotta listen to the fucking ads. Sorry, all right, but I don't fucking remember.
Speaker 1:I was talking about my house and it's February 5th. I got roughly 20, 23 days left left, 23 days left to get everything together and to get everything together and to move on to this next journey. I know I've mentioned it and I'm going to continue to mention it because it's something that's going to come. It's either going to break me or it's going to make me, I guess, in a way I don't know, I don't know what it is that I'm going to share. I'm going to talk to you guys about it. I'm going to, I guess, I guess, let you in on what challenges come at me with this.
Speaker 1:Not that any of you give two fucking shits, but I give a shit and as I work through whatever this is, that I'm working through, I'm this is, I feel, important for me to do, not because I'm self, you Not because I'm all about myself, but maybe somebody else can help, or maybe this will help someone else take those next steps that they have a desire for and just haven't been able to figure out what to do. And not that this is a guiding tour of what to do, but maybe whatever it is can spark something in you that I have sparked inside myself myself. I believe we all learn from each other in some way. We have to be. I mean, that's kind of how we I mean, I mean obviously we do we learn from each other in many ways.
Speaker 1:But Maybe I'm just dumb, not knowing what to say Other than just wanting to hear my voice. I guess I don't know. I just I don't know the wondrous weirds of the pondering of life, watching the news and the weirdness of that with. It's like what are we under now? An egg shortage because of this so-called bird flu? You know, and I don't discredit that there's diseases going around and sicknesses, but is there more to what this is all about? Is there more? Is this some kind of way to continue to depress most people in this world and keep us down in some sense? Am I looking at it in a weird eye? Am I looking at it in a different or in a stupid light? I guess Of you know, thinking that there's a reason as to why these things happen, outside of just human nature. You know, it's just kind of odd how we come up with these shortages and then we increase prices and then that price never goes down. It's a weird dynamic of how inflation, of whatever the fuck inflation is, happens. The stupidity of raising the cost of everything to not also there's and I'm not looking for equal balance.
Speaker 1:I get it that you, you get what you put into it, um, and you shouldn't be given a whole lot. I mean, I think that we all should be allowed to have access to things that others that we can't figure out how to provide for ourselves. In a way I don't know, maybe I'm wrong, but man, man, he took the midnight train going anywhere, I don't, or whatever I desire a lot. I don't need a lot. I want a lot Because I'm ready for it, and sometimes it's hard to really figure out the ways of making those things happen, because you've been so far disconnected from it for such a long time, or you've just had nothing but just shit from it.
Speaker 1:Relationships is part of my biggest thing. Relationships is part of my biggest thing. I don't know if it's myself or those that I attract to or attract to me, and I'm not talking about just any relationship. You know, I don't have a lot in my life. I don't have a lot of people in my life, which is fine. But I also at times ponder on that as to why I have my thoughts on it. I have my beliefs, but I might be completely wrong.
Speaker 1:So Went down, looked at the land that I'm buying Again this past Sunday, past week, and then I'm buying again. This past Sunday, past week, was able to get my older boy down there so he could kind of see the vision of what I'm attempting to try to do here, you know, to help him and his brother with having a place to be able to call their own eventually. You know, I mean not that I need to do this, I want to do this, I don't. You know, this is something that I've wanted to do for a long time is to live on some property to have some space between me and the outside world, but still stay connected in some sorts, but be able to have a place that I can fuck around on and make my own, without any kind of restrictions and somebody telling me I can't do something. I don't like being told what to do, plain and simple. But I don't stop believing. So I mean the journey, good old journey, don't stop believing. The journey of life, the journey of music, the journey of everything, me dying because I'm coughing to death. So I don't know it. Oh goodness, the cardigans Love me, love me.
Speaker 1:Well, I think I'll keep this one short tonight, but Not that anybody's listening. Anyways, I wish that you were. I hope that you do One day Understand the bullshit thoughts that go through my head and connect with some way in some form or fashion. Or sit down with me, talk with me, conversate. Let's just see how things flow. I got all sorts of questions I want to know. Maybe you have the answers, maybe you don't. Maybe we can figure out a silly, stupid answer together.
Speaker 1:And here comes the cat, of course. So that means I got to close my door. Alright, you're stuck in here now, fucker. Well, I won't drag it out too much more, since the cat walked in. The cat took the story and ran with it, took the bait. So more to come come, obviously, with the property.
Speaker 1:I got a lot to do, a lot to figure out the next steps. I gotta buy lots of things, uh, and then, uh, um, figure out my living situation. That's going to be the fun part. I'm going to be living in a fucking tent for a bit, which is fine, I'm good with it. So, but hey, my biggest thing, so I don't know, cat's going to fucking bother me because now it wants to back out of the room. It's just because it pushed its way into the room. So, hey, you're going to hear that scratching for a second. So, all right, I will cut it off here and I'll catch back up with you guys another time and hopefully everybody's having a good time and everybody's staying safe out there and you know, and figuring out your desires and what you're going to do to push through it and get to that desire. If you've already accomplished it, then congratulations. So, all right, take care guys. Love you guys. Bye.
Speaker 2:Bye, bye, bye, bye, bye, bye, bye, bye, bye, bye, bye, bye.