Mature Mischief podcast
Greetings, Gremlyns!
Join us on the Mature Mischief podcast with your Host Jesse James and Co-Host Dee Dee.
Embark on a journey filled with mishaps, awkward moments, and adulting wins. Prepare to laugh, cringe, and nod along with every episode!
Ready to embrace the chaos of adulting and find solace in shared experiences? Let the Mature Mischief Podcast guide you through the ups and downs of life.
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Mature Mischief podcast
We're finally back after four months, and we've got stories to tell.
Four months is a long time to be away, but sometimes life throws curveballs that even the most prepared people can't dodge. Welcome back to the chaos as Jesse James and Dee Dee finally return to the Mature Mischief Podcast after an unplanned hiatus that taught them both valuable lessons about adulting, priorities, and self-discovery.
The universe hasn't been kind—Jesse lost his car, moved apartments, and faced the sobering reality of adult responsibilities that don't fit neatly into anyone's budget. But amid these challenges came unexpected moments of clarity. Walking home one night (and screaming at a mailbox he mistook for La Chupacabra), Jesse confronted truths about his physical health and priorities that had been easy to ignore from behind a steering wheel.
This raw, unfiltered conversation doesn't shy away from difficult topics. The hosts dive deep into body image issues, the complexities of modern relationships, and why so many people are operating on emotional autopilot. Jesse candidly acknowledges his own contradictions in how he approaches connections, while Dee Dee shares exciting news about potentially learning to tattoo—proving that even in challenging times, new opportunities emerge.
What makes this return episode special isn't just the catchup on missed time, but the reminder of why this podcast resonates with so many. There's something therapeutic about listening to two friends navigate life's messiness with humor, honesty, and zero pretense. They deliberately avoid current political discussions, choosing instead to create content that offers listeners a break from the divisiveness dominating other platforms.
As they wrap up with plans for new projects and a return to regular scheduling, the message is clear: they're back, they're still figuring it out like the rest of us, and they're ready to bring more mature mischief to your earbuds. Subscribe now and join the "gremlins" for what promises to be an entertaining journey through adulthood's strangest moments.
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What's up, gremlins? Welcome to another podcast. My name is Jesse James. I hope everyone is doing it and doing it well. You know the drill. This is the mature mischief podcast. Oh, my goodness, my goodness, gracious Didi, where have we been?
Speaker 2:we've been lost in the damn sauce um has it really been?
Speaker 1:I mean, I know the recipe is crazy, but god damn, they didn't have to fucking do this that hard.
Speaker 2:They did too many chefs trying to call shots. That's all I know.
Speaker 1:That's all the universe has been a bitch. The universe has been a bitch. The universe has been a bitch. Tell you what man. I know it, you know it, the whole world fucking knows it. I like saying my name twice. I am your host, jesse James.
Speaker 2:And I am your co-host, Dee Dee.
Speaker 1:Dee, dee, what it is, sister Dee, and we're back, and we're back, we're back to being Sister D, we are back and Freaky Fridays is delicious D To assault your ear holes, yeah exactly. You know, I've actually missed doing this. It was a really good therapeutic, where we can kind of just talk about things yes, things that we can touch, things that we talked about or whatnot. I know a lot has happened. I think our last podcast was back in May.
Speaker 2:So the break lasted a little bit longer than we expected May.
Speaker 1:June, july, august, september. Three months, almost, yeah, three, four months. That is insane.
Speaker 2:May, june, july, august. Yeah, three months. Almost. Yeah, three four months of May, june, july, August. Yeah, three months. What was the original?
Speaker 1:plan I don't even remember. If I'm not mistaken, I have to go back because there's two podcasts that we didn't post up. Yeah, so it was. The original plan was to come back on August, end of August.
Speaker 2:That's right yeah.
Speaker 1:So that was the original plan, um, but things have happened.
Speaker 2:I no longer have my car uh, for reasons I just moved, I moved yep, so that was a thing.
Speaker 1:So adulting was just adulting um adulting? Oh yeah it was uh, it's you know. It's been interesting because there's a lot has happened since then, even this month alone. It's just like whoa.
Speaker 2:For any of you guys, that haven't experienced it yet adult math is ridiculous. It really is, it's stupid, it doesn't make sense.
Speaker 1:You know, it's because we would hang out a lot. We would hang out.
Speaker 2:I know my schedule changes Like almost every other day.
Speaker 1:Yeah, we would hang out every at least tuesday, wednesday, thursday that was my hangout time. Now it's changed to sunday, monday, which is great. I like it because I get to spend time a little bit more with my husband, and that was kind of like the idea and the thing that we wanted to do was hang out more often, um, but that's also proving a challenging time, because anytime we want to hang out, I'm just just like fuck, we got to record a podcast, but we're down to one vehicle, right, yeah, but that's just how it is. I think I've been. I was in a small little funk for a little bit, though, but we weren't taking a personal break because of mental health or anything like that.
Speaker 2:I just want to throw it out there. It was literally just us getting blindsided by life. Yeah, literally just us getting blindsided by life.
Speaker 1:Yeah, and all the tappanings, hubby and I were actually packing.
Speaker 2:Right.
Speaker 1:We were just kind of getting stuff in, we were kind of throwing stuff out. Things were coming and going. It was just happening so fast, so quickly. We have our small dog. He finally got neutered. I know People are like why did you neuter him? Look, all my dogs are neutered and in this household there are no alphas in this household. So fuck that.
Speaker 2:Except for Jess.
Speaker 1:I'm the only one.
Speaker 2:You're the only alpha in this house.
Speaker 1:But you know, I do it because it's for their protection, because I don't need my dogs to be fighting, because once they have them and they haven't had any um activities as far as them, because dogs are dogs and they have their own hormones and whatnot and what.
Speaker 1:And there was that. Uh, you already know that I lost nezuko. I can't believe it's already been a year already, holy shit. And then's going to be four this year and it's kind of her birthday is right around the corner, so there's that. So me and the roommate, our former ex, he got his own place. We still talk occasionally here and there, so that's we're still new neutral grounds, which is great, you know. So we have that neutral grounds, which is great, you know. So we have that.
Speaker 2:But yeah, overall, and we kind of we kind of are still surprised on how active our podcast is still with yeah, yo, before we started this recording, we were checking out the stats just to see where things were at, and we were both blown away because, in all honesty, I was telling jess, I did not expect, for I expected everything to tank, to be honest, since we were gone for so long, or a lot longer than we had expected.
Speaker 2:I honestly expected it to tank Because I figured people were probably going to get this idea that like, yeah, they're not going to come back, dude. It's been longer than they said or whatever. But we were kind of surprised Like wait, wait, what? How have the numbers gone up? No way.
Speaker 1:It's been interesting it has been. It's been one of those things that I'm just very happy with. It's very I'm very content to where I'm at. I celebrated my 38th birthday, so that was actually a lot of fun.
Speaker 2:Yeah, it was.
Speaker 1:I don't remember what we did for my birthday.
Speaker 1:We ate at papacito's and we went to go play some board games afterwards. So it was a pretty chill day because I said I didn't want to do anything big, not until I'm 40 because I wanted to save the savor the last two years of uh. On that, uh, I'm actually gonna start hitting the gym. Uh, crunch fitness is where I'm going to be going to. They don't open up until september 24th, so I'll be heading back to the gym again. So I'm going to get my body shape back into working order again. You will actually start seeing our faces by next week, sometime soon sometime soon, I want to say hopefully hopefully yeah, granted, everything goes through smoothly.
Speaker 1:I want to push it for next week so, uh, but because I have this fucking killer, as you know, personal room.
Speaker 2:Now we're in a bigger space, my god, yes, we have my own, if you guys can't tell there is no reverb, there's no echo, because we're not in this big, huge open floor plan apartment anymore.
Speaker 1:No, and it's just pretty much, it's literally its own room?
Speaker 2:Yes, it really is.
Speaker 1:It is smaller because we have a two one. So two bedroom, one bath, the toilet, the restroom is a little bit smaller, so is the kitchen. It's a little bit smaller, but I am making do.
Speaker 1:I started cooking more at home. So that's actually another fucking plus, hell. Yeah, that's actually another fucking plus, hell yeah. So that has been, that has been a very great plus, uh, to be able to do. I'm working on right now, uh, my shrine over here, which I might have you help me out, like putting this together. So, if you don't mind of course not.
Speaker 1:I don't mind at all cool beans, but yeah, so it's. Uh, it's been. It's been one hell of a fucking journey. It really has been, because even moving here the money's been tight though, but we've been just putting stuff back into the apartment like, okay, we need this, we need that, what else can I do? I I bought some stuff off the fucking tiktok shop. Don't ever do that. Okay, I have fucking three projectors. Why do I have three fucking projectors and only two of them work? Because the last, the one that I have, doesn't even have a fucking plug to it, for whatever reason. It's the one I bought for like 20 bucks from somebody from quote from work okay yeah, it was so weird, um, but yeah, so it was.
Speaker 1:Um, I'm just like, what the fuck did I just buy? But I have two projectors and the reason for the projecting is because I'm trying to start my own clothing line. I'm trying to create and sew my own stuff, I'm trying to put it together and everything. I just haven't had the creativity to kind of do what I need to do in this room, right, so it's been it's been set up.
Speaker 2:Oh, once it's set up, things are going to just take off.
Speaker 1:It's already set. I just need to get a little of the Lignacs off the ground, because it's just pretty much all it is.
Speaker 2:It's okay because then you'll be able to hit your stations.
Speaker 1:However, you need to hit them, yeah Well because I know, starting tomorrow, I want this to be done 100%, fully. Only reason is because I want to start focusing on this. They've already been calling me already. My cards have been calling me already, my card's, a material deck and everything and whatnot. So I've been wanting to do it as well and I know a lot of it.
Speaker 1:I know we've been getting a lot of questions about this past week that has been going on with. You know the big of the politics. I guess, if you will, we are not going to touch it at all whatsoever. Only reason is because we will say this and I will say this. I don't know if you would agree with me on that. Things are high, emotions are high.
Speaker 1:People have different opinions on both sides. Right, if you agree on one side, if you agree with the other side, they're just opinions on it. How people deal with certain things is up to the person individually who are dealing with those certain situations that are going on. I get it that you may not agree with what somebody else has said and you may agree with him. Rather, if you are on the right or the left or in the middle, I will always say this I'm always in the middle. I'm not for the right, and I've never been for the left. I am like with Wilbur Goldberg there is no name for me, because there are politics that that I agree with the right, and there are some policies that I agree with the left, right, but I just there's just some things that I'm just like okay, I'm gonna listen to both sides. I'm very open-minded. I can't talk about a certain a lot of things, though, but I get. Emotions are high for everybody, yeah and yeah, and people are walking on fucking eggshells, so it's, uh, it's pretty crazy.
Speaker 2:Yeah, that's why I said that I I don't bother to dabble or mention politics or religion, because people do get very sensitive about it. People do and my thing is kind of like if you take those two out of life, guess what?
Speaker 1:life does not change it doesn't stop for anybody yeah, because we are still all human.
Speaker 2:Yeah. So my bait, my thing is just basic human decency and I'm gravy.
Speaker 1:Exactly that's it I'm gravy, you want to start throwing all this other stuff in, like no, I'm cool right, there's enough division in the air, as it is like yeah, I don't want division, I, but I have friends in both parties and yes, exactly, and we can still be compassionate and just have understandings.
Speaker 2:Like you know what we're all. We all have different exactly but just because yours is different from mine and mine is different from yours doesn't mean it has to be hate up in there like I have blocks and people, because I mean from both sides of the spectrum.
Speaker 1:I have blocked people from both sides and the only reason is because I just don't got time for it I really don't, you know and do I agree with a lot of the stuff from both sites? I absolutely do. But these are just opinions.
Speaker 2:At the end of the day, they're just all fucking opinions, because you and I don't agree on the same things all the time. But does it mean I hate you? No, exactly Not at all, you know, I just don't.
Speaker 1:We are built and hardwired differently from a lot of us. Some of us are still sensitive to a lot of it and some of us are just desensitized to a lot of the things because that's just how we were all raised and grown up to be. You know, we we are very in tuned with our emotions. I am very not well into it with. I mean I am, but I'm not.
Speaker 1:I don't have a whole lot to go with you know what I mean so because those everybody's fucked me over so I'm just like I don't care, um, but yeah, so we just want to kind of clear that part out right?
Speaker 2:yeah, because that's something that I know how heavy that. Yeah, if you guys have expectations for us to speak on it, it's probably not going to happen.
Speaker 1:There's reasons why you literally just laid them out yeah, so that's where we stand on all of it and I hope all of you understand and I hope you get where we're coming from when it comes to it. This podcast, as we said in the very beginning, was not meant for politics at all, whatsoever. Um, we're just not wanting only reasons, because people already have a lot of stuff that's already going on right, so we're just here.
Speaker 1:There's already enough of it yeah, we're just here to bring fucking shenanigans and shits and giggles and all of that stuff. That's.
Speaker 2:That's our mission get your mind off of it for just a few minutes and make you laugh and enjoy actually enjoy a little bit of life. Yeah, we've done our job.
Speaker 1:Yes, we'll let you worry about the big things in life like that, because I know how much it yeah means a lot to a lot of people and how to handle it and whatnot.
Speaker 2:And also sorry, don't, don't come with the whole like, oh, you guys have a platform to be able to do. You know what you maybe maybe, but this is what we've chosen.
Speaker 1:Yeah, Period, we both agreed on this Only reasons Cause, at the end of the day, we've have talked about how much we are for women's rights, we've talked about how much we are for LGBT, how much we are for everybody and how more we stand on that alone, but this particular topic in itself has nothing to do with us. That is, we let everybody who has already talked about it, who have duked it out, who have said what they have to say on all other platforms and that is fine, I'm cool with it. Has it been emotionally draining? Because that's all I'm seeing, abso-fucking-lutely, abso-fucking-lutely.
Speaker 2:But yeah, so why would we use whatever we've got left? On continuing that exactly, we're good. We're good, we need, we need to replenish this shit somehow some way. So wait bestie time, here we go, exactly.
Speaker 1:But anywho, we wanted to kind of discuss that really quickly. I know we've been gone such a long time and, uh, I know boo things has been like when y'all gonna come back, when you're gonna come back.
Speaker 1:Yeah, he's been really bugging on it and I've been joking a lot with boo thing lately because, uh, I know that he has. I know he has snapchat and whatnot, and I'm always joking with him like why you're replacing me with somebody else. And I think that I gotta be careful when I'm joking with him because I don't know if he was like he was hurt because he was been drinking or not. So, yeah, because we've already said that he can get, he gets more emotional when he's been drinking, right? So, yeah, I forget this sometimes and when I do it, when I'm like he's having a good time and he's already filling in, but he's.
Speaker 2:Here comes, jess, yeah here.
Speaker 1:I come fucking bulldozing his life.
Speaker 2:Being a petty bitch.
Speaker 1:Fucking very petty dude, Because it's like I do. I do miss Boothang, I do miss my friends and I do miss everybody that's back in Corpus. There's not a day that I don't think about wanting to do what I need to do. Do I want to go down there more often? Oh, absolutely Dude, I haven't been back. Yeah, I don't want to go back.
Speaker 2:No, I'm saying, I haven't even gone to visit.
Speaker 1:I think the last time we visited was to go get your paintings, or did I go sooner than that? I think I want to say I've gone sooner than that. I don't remember why I went down there. For a reason. That's probably the last time I've gone.
Speaker 2:Yeah, was your paintings for you, uh, for me.
Speaker 1:I want to say I don't remember, that's it. I don't remember. I think I went down there for a real quick day trip, uh, just to go take care of something. I think it was christmas. I think that was the last time we went back down there, that was the and our thing.
Speaker 2:Our thing was a day trip too.
Speaker 1:It was literally a go and come yeah, it was just a go and come.
Speaker 2:That was pretty much like in the middle of the day, got the paintings, we met your mom and then, oh no, we had stopped by your grandma's house and then we had gone to have dinner uh-huh yeah yes with uh leah, mary jane. Yes, yeah, all of them we said goodbye to your mom, and then we took off yeah, we took off oh we. I said goodbye to my mom, yeah, and then we went to go see my mom.
Speaker 1:The last thing was to see her because she's like she doesn't get my mom's like how can you bring your friend down and everything? Because the reason I told you to wait in the car is because I didn't want to get down and talk and whatnot like I really yes I even told my mom. I think, mom, I think she's already tired. So she, her energy is burnt, it's so is mine.
Speaker 2:I just had enough to come in here and say hi and bye and take off, so but yeah, no it's, I do miss it.
Speaker 1:I, I miss the people that are there. I just don't miss the town, same right same so, yes, uh, family, I do miss them, but I don't miss them as much. I don't miss the drama, because I'm telling you, if I was back in, who?
Speaker 2:misses drama dude, oh my god.
Speaker 1:No, I like drama, don't get me wrong.
Speaker 2:I just don't like my drama.
Speaker 1:I just don't like my drama. I like other people's drama, I don't like my drama you like creating drama.
Speaker 2:That's what you like well, it depends.
Speaker 1:If it's for fun, yes, but if it's just to be a dick, no, because I don't have time for that, right, I just like hearing about other people's dramas and whatnot, because that's that stays with me. Yes, you know. So, when people are talking about it and whatnot and whatever, that's just it is what it is. And uh, but I and again I was texting boo thing, come back to it again and he, he was a little I I don't want to say he was ass hurt, because that's not the right word for it, but he was. I think he was a little hurt by it because I said oh you, why am I gonna go back down there? You've replaced me. He was who am I replacing you with? And the only reason I said that is because he put a ring camera on.
Speaker 1:It was one of his friends who got like literally stripped naked down to his underwear and on his ring camera he pulled down his pants and showed his ass or whatnot, and he just kept like it was very provocative, yeah, and I was here for it and I fucking loved it. And first of all, that guy had a nice ass. So kudos for that one. But I miss that because I do see him hanging around with a lot of people and I miss hanging around with him. I want to go have drinks with him, I want to go and do these things with him and I can't do it because I'm here and I know he's gonna be like we'll just move back already. I don't want to and I I get the same thing yeah I get this.
Speaker 2:I made a post the other day about oh, what was it? Oh, it was literally a joke. I said thinking about moving out of earth, like, if that's possible, right, and I put a little rocket and my best friend one of my best friends from corpus put how about you think about moving back to Corpus? And I was like you're funny.
Speaker 1:I can't move back to Corpus.
Speaker 1:I can't, and the only reason why I don't want to move back there's nothing there for me anymore Other than my family and my friends, right, yeah? And everyone's going to say, well, you keep saying that, but you're contradicting. Yes, I am contradicting myself, though, but if I, if I move back, my family's there, right, and we already know that I don't have the best relationship with my family yeah, they would literally bug me more than usual to come do this, come do that. Oh my God, your sister did this. Oh my God, your sister did that. I moved away because I didn't have to deal with that and I've been so much happier. Has it been stressful, absolutely.
Speaker 2:Of course it's like Absolutely have.
Speaker 1:I wanted to give up and try to go back to Gore Biz, oh yeah.
Speaker 2:Of course I don't know man, I'm just there like that's the last thing that's going to cross my mind.
Speaker 1:You know it was the last thing that I wanted to cross my mind, though, but it was something that I did think about hard, you know, because I was like Like it, worse comes to worse.
Speaker 2:Yeah, it is what it is.
Speaker 1:But I also learned up here that I've I've grown and I'm old in myself a lot, okay. So none of y'all know this, and I know that I haven't quite posted it up yet, uh, but I no longer have my boys. I think I have one boy left, uh, that I barely talked to, but I still, uh, me and uh rad. We made a mutual agreement, and the mutual agreement was that that we just don't have time Like, he doesn't have time for it. He's busy with work, I'm busy with work, he doesn't have a car, I don't have a car anymore.
Speaker 1:So we made the decision to kind of go ahead and scrap the contract pretty much in plain terms, I did get this collar back, his dog tag, so I do have that still, um, but I told him I was like, if you ever want to play, you're gonna have to wear it when you're here, because that's pretty much what it is, and I think a lot of it has to do with it too, is that he doesn't like anybody telling him what to do either, so, but it kind of comes with the whole territory. As I told him before, you.
Speaker 2:You just got to remember that's interesting. Yeah, it really is. It really is.
Speaker 1:But that's the thing with BDSM. It's just that people don't understand and get that. You know, what I mean. There's a big thing Like if you're like, oh yeah, I want somebody to control me and tell me what not to do, what I can and cannot do, Okay, great, but can you do it?
Speaker 2:Yeah, but when it comes down to it, are you still cool with it?
Speaker 1:Yeah, but I will say I will give him credit where credit's due, because that takes a lot of courage for someone to kind of come up and tell me that that's how he's feeling. You know what I mean and I know that he is doing his own thing and I and I wish him well in his endeavors and I hope that he's able to do whatever he wants and just have fun and have a good time and do the things that he wants to do, because at the end of the day, that's all that matters to me because I want him happy, I want to see my boys happy.
Speaker 1:That's pretty much it. But in a way it feels good too, because I'm not worried about a whole lot of stress and pressure, because all you have to do focus on is your life and what's going on in it, exactly as opposed to keeping up with everybody else as well.
Speaker 2:Yeah, to make sure that they're on par with their lives.
Speaker 1:Yeah, and that put it. I mean a lot of you put a damper onto it when I didn't have the car anymore.
Speaker 2:Once the car went, yeah, that's gonna play a big factor yeah, once the car went, because that was that was a good convenience for you.
Speaker 1:Oh, it was a huge good convenience, you know, because I can travel far and wide yeah um, could I still do that? Absolutely do I want to. No, no, I'm good, I'm good. I mean I could walk to work, that's not an issue, but not on this motherfucking heat shit, not on texas, that shit's hot, I think. If it was a little bit cooler then, yeah, I wouldn't mind. I would just have to dress down and then dress up when I got to work.
Speaker 1:Yeah but at the same time I'm not trying to carry a shit ton of fucking bags like fuck that, you got me fucked up, but uh, I have thoroughly enjoyed life with no vehicle. I really have thoroughly enjoyed life with no vehicle, because where does that? It kind of gives me a whole different perspective of life, because I'm so, I was so used to yeah, bitches, go to fucking Buc-ee's Like I want to go. You know what I mean.
Speaker 2:Yes, In a way it's just kind of Hence the convenience.
Speaker 1:Because when your brain was just kind of like, like let's do a thing or we do it, yeah, yeah, but in a way without having a vehicle, it helps me focus more on my projects and my business and get everything up and running and get it to where it needs to be, because that makes sense, you know have I become lazy? Yes, I have, but I'm doing it on my time you know, but and when I'm ready to do it, because I'm doing a lot of research, I'm doing a lot of reading you know, I'm.
Speaker 1:I'll be. Everybody wants me to work on one of his cosplays already. I'm just like bitch. You think I'm a pro, but I was looking, I was like how would you do it?
Speaker 1:and bitch, literally just fucking solid tiktok and how to fucking do it properly. I'm like, yes, like that's fucking perfect, but a lot of it is just, you know, dealing with um. Just putting it all into perspective, you know, like I said, do I miss my friends? Absolutely, do I miss having a vehicle? Absolutely. Am I in a hurry to get another vehicle? No, is it breaking the bank having to take an Uber Lyft every fucking time? Absolutely, absolutely, because Uber is every day, $15. What? Every day? $10. Every day, give or take, depending on where it's at you, all right.
Speaker 2:Yes, my nerve on the back of my neck that runs oh, I saw it.
Speaker 1:I was like it wanted to like jerk uh, yeah, like lock up really quick, that's.
Speaker 2:I'm like oh, uh-uh, don't do that? No, not yet, no, not yet I know I'm getting old, but calm down, calm down body. Don't do this to me.
Speaker 1:Let me show you, let me show your old age, your real old age. We ain't waiting until you're 15, bitch, but I think that's what a lot of it had came down to is like I, my weight was one of the things I had walked home right, because, not having a car, I walked home for the very first time. Bitches, bitches. Let me tell you a fucking hilarious story, because I, I, this is something that's been fucking hilarious for me. I am literally walking home and I'm going through the, you know, the homes, the residency neighborhoods or whatnot, walking the neighborhoods at night. It's fucking fun. Okay, it's creepy, but it's fun, because I got to see a fucking raccoon, I got to see a fox, I got to see coyotes. I'm just like, oh, this, is so cute.
Speaker 2:That's that sounds so funny, coming from a city boy, and I'm pretty sure there's so many people that are around the world to be like. It was a, it was a fox, it was a raccoon yeah, but we're in the city, we're in the city we're in a big, so it's like yeah, it's so cute.
Speaker 1:We don't get to see that very often, no, and if you're in the, if you, if you have like the whole land in there, well now you're probably shooting away to get it away from your flock.
Speaker 2:But for me, or you're just so used to them, you just live among them.
Speaker 1:Yeah, you're just walking around a neighborhood, you're driving and you get to see him like real quick pass by.
Speaker 2:But when you're walking it's a whole different fucking feeling because you see him. You're just like, oh look, that's so cute you're like can I, you want a hug?
Speaker 1:literally that. Well, I'm just glad because I saw a raccoon, like just fucking bolt. I'm just like oh, so cute, stay over there. Please don't come this way. I don't feel like fighting with animals right now, because I've seen, you know, you know the coyotes and everything passed by, because remember we were sitting down at my old apartment, we were, we saw a coyote that's right.
Speaker 2:Right, that's right and we were just like oh, we're just, and I was like you could hear them all night, every night, doesn't like? Yeah, okay, yeah because we sat down there, one almost got close to us but we're just like, no, we're just like, just stay over there, dude, just keep walking in the way, because we try to fight.
Speaker 1:I am too fat to run, he's gonna bite me in the ankles, I know it he's like dessert ham hocks she, she's, she's nice and juicy she's, she got legs for days, we don't mean long ways they're gonna bite until you realize how salty you are no, that's you.
Speaker 2:They'd be like this is a salty bitch.
Speaker 1:Ah, I got plenty, that's you surprisingly, they probably wouldn't get to the belly portion. Everything else I got pretty good muscle mass, so I'm okay with that. Yeah, but no, I actually so walking through a lot of the neighborhoods and everything.
Speaker 2:Oh, yes, back to your story.
Speaker 1:So back to the whole thing. That's because I was about to jump into another story too, Of course you were I know Fucking ADD.
Speaker 2:You got four minutes.
Speaker 1:I'm just kidding. Whenever we listen to our own podcast time uh, all the time fuck that.
Speaker 1:They all been hours long. So, as I'm walking home and I'm in the in the neighborhood, we get to one, I get to one part of the neighborhood and you know it's pretty, it's pretty chill, because I get to like the corner story, because I wanted to get some water, because I left my water jug at home, why not? So I'm like shit. So you know, I'm like, okay, I know where I'm at, but gps is like no, go this way. I'm like why am I gonna go this? Does it make any sense? Gps, but whatever. But anywho, we get into the neighborhood, I come around this field and I guess it's like a baseball field. I can't tell you the name of it, but I see it. It's pitch black, like. I can see the houses to my left, I can see the field to whatever, but for whatever reason, when I look to the right, when I see the field, I didn't see the fucking mailbox that was right there, and so I looked down and I fucking screamed a mailbox, y'all.
Speaker 1:I fucking screamed like a little bitch, I'm not even gonna lie, I'm not even gonna lie. But I screamed yeah, literally because the mail I'm, I am six foot, that thing came up to my shoulder. That thing was probably like five, seven. I could be exaggerating the height, I don't know. Yeah, you are, I am, but that bell box was fucking huge. I thought it was like La Chusa or La Chupacabra or something.
Speaker 2:She sounds about that height. She's about my height.
Speaker 1:With the big ass head. Okay, god damn. But it was funny because I just turned around and I fucking screamed because I wasn't expecting a fucking mailbox right next to me. But if I ever walk down that street again, I want to take a picture of it because the shit was.
Speaker 2:So you can laugh at yourself again and realize, like dude, what the I kind of want to.
Speaker 1:If I take you home, I kind of want to go down that way that I took it because it was I want to find it. I want to find it, let's do it yeah, because that shit was because I'm curious bitch, I'm curious too.
Speaker 2:I told him earlier tonight that that should be his halloween costume. I mean, I didn't say it like right outright, but I was like hey, I got a good costume idea for you for halloween. Jesse's like really scary. He's like oh yeah, what? I was like a mailbox, since you said what did ryan say?
Speaker 1:I don't remember what he said.
Speaker 2:I don't know what he said? He said something like oh yeah, oh, he said what he said, the very oh, mailbox you're scared of or something like that it's not being the scariest thing you know, or something like that.
Speaker 1:Scariest thing you know, jess, and I was like oh, bills, bills are scary man.
Speaker 2:Every time I open my bill. Fuck that shit. That's why the mailboxes are so scary. It's what's inside them. I don't know shit bills.
Speaker 1:I'm just like, but walking home, besides screaming at the fucking mailbox, besides screaming at the mailbox when I got home, I mean I was talking to ryan because we were walking I'm just like, oh shit, I was like fucking, finally, here there was. I was telling ryan. I was like already, I'm already home because I found my destination, because my legs were already fucking killing me. I was already thirsty, I was already parched and I'm just like man, this is. This has been a fucking long ass journey Because it took it was only supposed to be an hour to get home. It took me an hour and 30 minutes. So somehow I added time to my time. I don't know how I did that, but I did.
Speaker 2:Maybe it's because you went to go visit the mailbox. Ooh bills Light bill Water bill Credit card your car's extended warranty get off the wavelengths that's what somebody should dress up for halloween as what your car's extended warranty.
Speaker 1:I don't know what you look like, but whatever I'm gonna dress up as the bill from the thing. I'm just a bill oh god but no, in, in all honesty, it was, it was, it was fun. I I thoroughly enjoyed it because it was late at night, it wasn't as hot, you got a lot of the winds, it was coming through, so that was great. Uh, I think the, uh, the walk kicked your ass, kicked my ass, because you know, I didn't realize how big I was or how heavy I was I mean, I knew it was a big bitch, but god damn I think it's just we don't realize how much it takes to walk on
Speaker 2:it for an extended amount of time. That's all. We know our size, we know we're heavy. It's just we're not used to having to walk a long distance in one shot, because at the end of that then we're like, yeah, we felt it. Yeah, we felt it the whole way, because from here to a car, from here to the fridge, from here to a sofa or walking around a small store.
Speaker 1:It doesn't equal that. No, you know what I mean. Not entirely, but, man, my knees were killing me, my feet were killing me, my calves were killing me. I feel like, literally, if I had worn my high heels all day that's how, that's how it felt.
Speaker 1:No, sir, then I, I literally laid on this floor, then I have right here, right on that right after I got out of the shower, dude, I didn't even fucking dry my hair properly, just like, just like. Yeah, I didn't even care and I fucking laid on the fucking uh thing, especially under this fan series. Yeah, you know that's another thing, that's an added perk, because remember I didn't have a fan in the thing so anytime it would get hot, we have to turn the lights off I'm like shit, yeah, but I know it.
Speaker 1:When I got home I I I told ryan, you're taking out the dogs, because I'm too fucking, I'm tired, I'm exhausted and then I try to put my underwear on, I pulled a fucking muscle in my foot.
Speaker 1:I didn't think that was possible. Yeah, I was. I screamed, I was like I was humming a few bars, bitch like oh that shit. But no, it was. It was interesting because I've I haven't really put into much effort as to how big I really am because it didn't comprehend. I think it even, I think it comprehended to me when I was uh it, when I went shopping, it it hit me more.
Speaker 1:When I went shopping, it registered it registered because I'm like, yeah, I'm gonna go buy pants, I'm gonna go buy this, I'm gonna go do everything and the lady I don't think she meant it like being rude because we went to jc pennies and the lady was just like um, if you want, there's a big and tall that's over there on that side.
Speaker 1:If you want to try, because all of this goes up to like a size 38, 40, so if you want something that's more around you, that's, we have the big and tall on that side. Just to let you know. That's all she goes. Oh, whatnot? I'm just like bitch the fuck.
Speaker 2:You mean like you're saying, I'm big and tall are you talking?
Speaker 1:you're calling me fat, but I got this. I thought it was more my size, but when I went to go check the try on the pants, yeah that, yeah, that really kind of sunk in, so but it really. But also too, it doesn't help when I didn't have a belt, my pants were fucking falling like every five seconds. So I'm holding up my pants trying to fucking walk. So I didn't have a belt at all. So that really made the journey for walking even fucking more worse. But it it kind of hurt me a little bit more too, because it opened my eyes a lot more. You know what I mean. It's like that was kind of like I want to say five or six miles of a walk, non-stop, nice, yeah, non-stop yeah congratulations, I'm proud of you.
Speaker 2:I mean not that you had a choice, like you're gonna walk whatever the distance was, but still like I'm proud of you yeah, because I could have called the ride and be like nope yeah, it could have been like halfway. Like ain't gonna happen, I need to ride the rest of the way, bitch.
Speaker 1:Well, it was kind of the idea, because ryan just got off work and he's like, well, I'll go pick you up, send your thing. I was like love bug, just go home, I'm ready. Like down the street, like I'm not that far. He's like what? Because, god damn, I was like, yeah, I found, I found a shortcut. I don't know how I found the shortcut, but I found the shortcut. But it's uh, but it was an eye opener for me, because anytime, anybody's who's big, they're very comfortable in their skin, right, but, like you said, a lot of it's just a short distance walks for a lot of people. Yeah, for me. I felt it in my back, I felt it in my knees, I felt it on my feet, I felt it on my calves, I felt in my glutes, I felt it everywhere, even the heavy breathing, like I was just like whoosh, I thought I was having an asthma attack.
Speaker 1:No, bitch, I'm just fat like nah nah now we're just big like that, we just yeah, we, we, we built differently, we built like big backs no, we truly it is, though, but it it kind of got me thinking just a little bit more, like, okay, I probably need to go work on my cardio just a little bit more, even if it's just up and down these streets here, right, so, uh, but yeah, it truly is an eye-opener. It truly did open, uh up a whole fucking ballpark for me or whatnot, because I told ryan I couldn't. My weight really brought me down when I went to go try on clothes, because it made me sad, because I only found, like, maybe, some two-pair khaki shorts, which is great because I need the khaki shorts, right, I love khaki. So, but it it kind of just it put me in a perspective.
Speaker 1:It's just like, damn, this is pretty embarrassing, you know it hurt me more and we went to walmart I was like oh look, I want a onesie and hubby, without missing a y he goes. Bitch, you don't need a onesie, you need a twosie. When I'm already feeling down now, you might as well add that to it ryan pulled a jess, he did, ryan pulled he did.
Speaker 1:But it was funny because it didn't happen that same day. It happened today because I was feeling a little bit better. He goes. You know, you were feeling sad about you waiting and I didn't want to say anything. So I was like why were you gonna say? Because you were looking at the onesie, like I want a onesie. And in my head I was like bitch, you need a twosie that was awesome. I know it's, I just know it no, my, my response would be like a onesie bitch you need a four piece, the fuck.
Speaker 2:You're gonna need a zipper for the size and uh, onesies, like they don't sell parachutes here, it's just walmart. I'm just kidding, that's messed up.
Speaker 1:No it's not. No, it's not.
Speaker 2:So, bitch, we got to go to Academy for some sales, you mean boat sales. You're a pirate now, bitch.
Speaker 1:No shit, I wish businesses were more on water, because I can probably get a boat. I would fit in that just fine shit. But it's just so funny to fucking see, though, because it was. It was just like when he fucking said it. I'm just like damn, I wasn't even mad.
Speaker 2:I was impressed. I was impressed, I really really was impressed.
Speaker 1:I'm just like.
Speaker 2:I can't even be mad. That was petty, that was petty, that was petty. Oh yeah, very much I'm actually.
Speaker 1:That was a petty ass fucking move, but that was good.
Speaker 2:Chef's kiss I love you, I love you.
Speaker 1:He's been hanging around with me too long but I mean, I will say my husband does have a shady side to him, but when he because when he comes out, he comes out swinging it's fucking hilarious. It's fucking hilarious. I'm just like bitches, did that come out of your mouth? He's like, yeah, yeah, it did. I will say that that's kind of one of the things I love about him. I will say that that's kind of one of the things I love about him. It's just that, no matter how down we are, we're just we just know how to make each other laugh. It's just fucking hilarious good that isn't for me, my.
Speaker 2:In my opinion, that is an absolute necessity oh, very much. So there has to be good senses of humor, because if it's not there, oh my god, it's torture.
Speaker 1:It is boring dude you know it, it has been an interesting for me and my hubby to be together for as long as we are. The relationship has been very interesting for the both of us because it's nine years, like when you're in. I guarantee anybody in their first year or second, third year, if somebody had said that in their relationship they would have been pissed right Like are you calling me fat? Are you saying that? I'm just like? I wasn't trying to, I was trying to joke about it. You know how I feel about my weight, but see, that's the thing?
Speaker 2:Is it your question?
Speaker 1:Yeah, but that's the thing with me and Ryan is that I'm more tougher. He's a little bit sensitive, so if I made fun of his weight just a tad bit, he would feel a little bit bad. Yeah, you know what? Not, I'm just like dude, get over it, because it's just like so am I? Yeah, like, how am I like?
Speaker 1:you know, it's a learned thing with your person. That's all it is. It really is, but I We've talked about this before on the podcast and it's not news to us at all. People are trying to find relationships. People want good relationships. People are pissed about gay culture because no one knows how to communicate. I'm just like man. That's not just in gay culture, dude that's awesome.
Speaker 2:That's a human thing. That's just a human thing.
Speaker 1:People are looking for love everywhere. But it's funny because they say gay culture, because that's the only thing they know.
Speaker 1:Oh right, because they don't know, so they think it must just be in the gay community yeah, community, because we do have grinder, we do have this, and you've heard the stories yeah gay people are the only ones saying like to have sex, they don't want the romance, they don't want this, they don't want that that's just people that's just people in general, because straight couples do it all the fucking time. It's just fucking hilarious and exactly but it's, I see it. I'm just like should I interact, should I not? I mean, what if I just said that's not just gay, that's like human?
Speaker 1:nature, that's everybody, you know yeah, but it's true, though, because human, the human body or the human brain not for everybody, but for some people they can't stay with just one partner, right? This is why we have open relationships and pollies, even though we get the fucking shit in the stick for it or whatnot, people just can't be with just one partner. Yeah, they say they're monogamous, though, but who's doing more of the cheating or whatnot? Because, at once, starting to feel insecure about the other, something's going on there, right? So I'm seeing that. I'm just like so somebody tell them, or should I?
Speaker 2:man, let's go it's hard nowadays to speak on that too, because people have adopted the mindsets of how everything just works nowadays and it doesn't function. It's not a one-size-fits-all thing across the board anymore no, it's not, and I'm just kind of like to each their own. To each their own. You know, like I'm I'm the old school kind of person I have to have um understand, I have to have an emotional bond with somebody to even think of anything right sexual later on.
Speaker 2:You know what I mean. Like I cannot if there is not that emotional bond and we could have gone on like all these dates or whatever. I'm I'm sorry, it's just not there right you know, like I can't control it, bro, like I don't know what you want me to say, but like you're thinking you're getting my pussy wet just because we went to a movie.
Speaker 1:Like I'm so wet.
Speaker 2:But there's so many people that have this mindset where you know what they function on just high sexuality and instant gratification, and that's it so their main goal is well, I'm just looking for instant gratifications like cool. I don't, though, so obviously we differ in those two areas, naturally. Guess what? That's already the sign, then. This isn't going to work. It's not going to work because we don't function in the same way.
Speaker 1:And those two ways.
Speaker 2:They cannot coexist because I'm not getting what I want and they're not getting what they want.
Speaker 1:Yeah, okay cool, everyone's thinking that because a lot of people are just like I'm just wanting a relationship. I'm tired of of these guys are wanting to go out, we take them out and whatnot?
Speaker 1:and there's no date and it's true. People just want a free meal. That's it. Yep, that's all like. If I can get on grinder right now and just put on my little thing who wants a free meal, let's go out to eat like I don't get to fuck who you are. Let's like let's just go eat like I don't need to know you and I will pay for email, but keep it on this fucking budget, because that's where we're at, but.
Speaker 1:I think that's what it is. Is that people just want a free meal at the end of the day when it comes to a relationship, because people don't care anymore? Nope, they just don't. Nope, they don't want the commitment, they don't want the intimacy, they don't want any of that.
Speaker 2:And if it doesn't come from people choosing purposefully, choosing that because that's what they want, that's their preference, whatever and, like I said, to each their own, there's nothing wrong with that. If it doesn't come from that, though, then it comes from mental and emotional damage, and they cannot function outside of that, because they don't know what it's like to be in a healthy state of mind. Regarding that, yeah, that's crazy.
Speaker 1:We as a human, we don't have. We haven't had the ability to emotionally check ourselves. We haven't really sat down to talk to somebody or go talk to a therapist to do that we're. Everyone in this fucking world right now is running on autopilot because they're used to it. At this point, yeah, Everyone's on autopilot because they don't know how to handle the emotion or the stress that's around them. You know what I mean.
Speaker 2:Because either they did, and it wronged them to the point of numbness, or they don't know anything else, because this is the only way they've ever known how to function, and that's it.
Speaker 1:That's it. I see it all the time. It's like oh my goodness, I want love, I want someone to love me, I want someone to care for me, but I want someone to pay for it, but people are like I want them to pay for everything Bitch. I don't want people to pay for me all the fucking time.
Speaker 2:That's not love, then yeah.
Speaker 1:I'm sorry. You're just wanting a check at the end of the day. You know what I mean. Thank you.
Speaker 2:That's kind of like yeah.
Speaker 1:That's not how love works. If my guy or girl can't pay for my extravagant tastes or whatnot, they're not worth it.
Speaker 2:Okay, cool.
Speaker 1:So if they're an abuser, or if they're a pedo, or if they're?
Speaker 2:a killer, they can afford your lifestyle. They're a pedo or if they're killing they can afford your lifestyle they're good, they're good, they're good for you.
Speaker 1:Okay, great make that make sense. I love that for you, but you see, but that's the thing. These are subjects that we've always have been kind of like talking about, for such a very long time and it's nothing, it's never evolving and it always seems never get better.
Speaker 2:Granted though, I can see a collective that is starting to get on the ball and just be like no, we can address all of this stuff healthily. We can reset our minds to relate to people healthily, but it's going to take a while for all of humanity to do that, because there's too many that are still functioning in that other other way that's going to be detrimental to themselves and humanity around them for the time being as much as it pains me or kills me to see people trying to uh fall in love for all the wrong reason.
Speaker 1:It kind of it kills me a lot because it's like I don't want people to fall in love for all the wrong reasons. I want people to fall in love for reasons they need it. You know what I mean. If you treat somebody right and you treat them with respect, they'll buy you the world Like there's no question about it.
Speaker 2:If you're just wanting, they'll give you the world, they won't buy you the world.
Speaker 1:They'll give you the world, yeah no-transcript in the first place.
Speaker 2:How do you expect anybody to choose you?
Speaker 1:that's the crazy part you know it's funny because I don't choose anybody except for r. Ryan was the only person I've ever chose A, b, my ex. I would say we chose them together and decided to do it, but everybody else has come into my life. I haven't chose, I don't. I'm actually having a lot of fun because I'm bored. I got nothing else better to do, but in the evil way I love you. I got nothing else better to do, but in an evil way. I love you. I love you too.
Speaker 2:I want to be with you. Oh, Angie Bitch, you're contributing to the mental issues. Oh, I really am. Stop it.
Speaker 1:I really am Stop, no, stop no, yes, why.
Speaker 2:Because then everything gets ruined for everybody from that point on, that's their fault.
Speaker 1:Why would you do that? What? Because I'm bored. I got nothing else better to do.
Speaker 2:That doesn't give you the right to be a dick.
Speaker 1:I never said, I was nice.
Speaker 2:Okay. But it doesn't give you the right to be a dick Just because you're bored. Entertain yourself, damn it.
Speaker 1:I have. I'm already bored with that. Not by ruining people. Well, hold on, I didn't say it was ruining people's lives. You're ruining people's mindsets. I know I'm not, because I said you're giving them a false sense of hope and love. Well, not really, because I'm letting them enjoy their time having fun, having a good time and they're thinking and they're thinking you're emotionally invested.
Speaker 2:That's fair, thank you, I'm okay with that. Stop it.
Speaker 1:If they ever hear this podcast, we're done.
Speaker 2:You're done.
Speaker 1:I probably could cancel for that one. How dare you ruin.
Speaker 2:Dude, we just came back. This is our first episode back. You're already there. You're already you know what? There's one street that Jess will keep going. It's trying to get us freaking canceled.
Speaker 1:Look, there's already a lot of shit that's going on in the world. You might as well just fucking add that to the mix. You're right. You might as well. You're right, you might as well.
Speaker 2:You're right, because if somebody tries to be like, oh, you're getting canceled. Really, after all of this stuff's going on right now, you want to cancel us, okay.
Speaker 1:Out of all things, really Okay. But you know what? Here's the thing I'm not doing it on purpose. Just to do it on purpose, I mean as shitty as what. I do have an emotional bond with these guys, it's just that I don't feel that same attachment with them because they're not in the same city with me does that make sense like they're yes, because the risk is less.
Speaker 2:So you're willing to say what you need to say for the for the moment it's not like they don't know, because I've already told them.
Speaker 1:So it's like if I told you already, you're saying what you're saying in the moment, but yeah technically no Investing in any kind of vulnerability. Yeah, any kind of commit I'm not trying to, because here's the thing I'm not. It may sound fucked up was for what I do and because it is fucked up. But I know like I use the word me no, I may, because I mean it is fucked up.
Speaker 2:Though, because there's not, it may sound no, no, it is fucked up though, exactly Because there's not, it may sound no, no, no, it is, it's fucked up, let's get it right.
Speaker 1:It's homie.
Speaker 2:Correction.
Speaker 1:So when you meet me and you see me in person, you'd be like you're a dick, I know.
Speaker 2:He's not going to deny it.
Speaker 1:But I've already told you, I'm not a nice person. I've never been a nice person.
Speaker 2:Touche.
Speaker 1:I mean, I am a sweet person yes, but I've never been. I've never given people the notion that I've been a sweet person. Right, I'm a sweet person to you because you treated me sweet.
Speaker 2:Yeah. But when it comes to beyond that, you're only sweet to people who are genuinely good to you. Yeah, but here's the thing.
Speaker 1:I don't like when someone is just like oh well, I love you and I care for you. Would you ever leave your husband for me and everything. Now, when you start saying shit like that, now I get to have fun, Because now you're just undermining my part, my husband, right.
Speaker 2:You're disrespecting.
Speaker 1:So if you're disrespecting mine, I'm going to disrespect yours, but that's just the pettiness in me, though.
Speaker 2:yeah, I've already said that's what I was gonna say. That's just the pettiness, but here's the thing.
Speaker 1:Do they? Do they deserve it? No, could I let it go and just say whatever I have? But they're the ones that keep coming back because I can, I can ghost them and not talk to them at all, and then later on they'll just come back like I haven't heard from you. Why have you stopped talking to me? I haven't stopped talking to you, like the communication works both ways, because I'll go back and I'll show them. Look, I'm the one that's the first person to message you every fucking time. So where do you fall in that? Oh well, I'm always. But this is kind of me teaching them a little bit too as well. It's like, if you want a relationship and you need a relationship and you want that intimacy or love, if you don't got information, if you don't got time for me, what makes you think time you have anybody for anybody else?
Speaker 2:in this world, so don't do it.
Speaker 1:Yeah, you know. Does it make me a dick? Oh yeah, absolutely I'll agree to that. Yeah, I don't care. But you know, it's just like it doesn't bother me at all. Yeah, bother me at all. Yeah, if someone did it to me, would it bother me?
Speaker 2:oh yeah, fucking absolutely. But would I care? No, because that's my karma, that's my, that's me.
Speaker 1:I gotta fucking sit on, be like that's what I get, yeah, yeah, but but people are gonna. When you do listen to it, you're just gonna be like, oh shit, he's, he knows, what he's he knows yeah, I know, yeah, I know I'm not stupid.
Speaker 2:You know what you're doing.
Speaker 1:Yeah, yeah because the most inconvenient thing will ever happen to me, like I'll stub my he knows what he's. He knows, yeah, I know.
Speaker 2:Yeah, I know I'm not stupid, you know what you're doing yeah, yeah, because the most inconvenient thing will ever happen to me, like I'll stub my toe or you know, I step in piss or something and it's like, oh yeah that's right.
Speaker 1:Oh yeah, that one time, that one time I called her short. But it's like that with my co-workers too. I'm the same way with my co-workers and, again, never said it was nice. I just I do it because I'm not trying to be the person that's always trying to be a dick to everybody. Right, I'll listen to you, I'll give you your advice, I'll listen to what you have to say and that's it, you know.
Speaker 1:But if they cross the line, then they get a different guess oh very much, and a lot of them have crossed a certain particular line. But at the same time, I'm just like I think you can do it. You are not, and I already know what the outcome is going to be. So they can go and do what they need to do and they'll come back and be like, no, that wasn't the outcome, it was this and that.
Speaker 1:Like you were right about the second, cool, I told you so yeah it does what it is at the end of the day, because that's the same. Like am I bored? Yes, because I got nothing else better to do. Should I be doing it? No, but but it's just yeah, and it's sad though, because it's just like I mean, if someone has did that to me, I'd be really pissy too as well, though, but at the same time, people have hurt me so fucking much that I honestly don't care.
Speaker 2:Yeah.
Speaker 1:I really don't, but I don't. I'm not asking for consequences, I'm not. And I people are like didn't you just say you don't like drama, you don't like producing your own drama, you like other people? Yeah, I know, I know I'm ready, I'm leaving my what I sow.
Speaker 2:Welcome to the walking contradiction.
Speaker 1:Very much so, and I'm okay with that because I know I can say that my life is a very contradicting life. Yeah, my life is very chaotic and very crazy because he knows?
Speaker 2:Yeah, because you know yourself.
Speaker 1:Yeah, that's why?
Speaker 2:And you own it yeah.
Speaker 1:Yeah, exactly. Well, it's funny because I tell him about it and I show him the messages and he's like the messages and he's like I don't know why, but they say they love me and they want to be their boyfriend. Like what did you say? Okay, miyamoto, let me do. Will I ever get to meet him? No, I probably not, but, like I said, I got, I got nothing else to do, but it kind of it kind of feels good at the same time, knowing that they're, they have a great life, they're moving forward, they have someone to talk to, they know they can trust somebody, who they're, whatnot or whatever, yes it's. Will I ever get to meet them or get to see them? Because, honestly, no, I don't think I'll ever get to meet these guys. I think a lot of them are just wanting a nice mental stabilization, to kind of keep that what is it?
Speaker 1:not pheromone in your head. What is it fucking called hormone? No, for depression. Like they're lacking um serotonin serotonin yeah, so that serotonin in their head tends to help them out a little bit more, or dopamine, or dopamine whatever it is, because when you're calling somebody a good boy or a good girl, it's like really.
Speaker 2:I'm just like yeah, of course that's what I'm saying. Everybody's looking for the instant gratification without having to invest.
Speaker 1:I think that's what makes it good, because they're not looking for that instant gratification yeah because there's no commitment required, so it's low risk. Very low risk. It's like I get what I want and I don't have to invest anything and I know a lot of you are going to be like you're still a dick.
Speaker 2:I know Well.
Speaker 1:I mean, I'm not a racist, I don't talk to kids, so those are absolutely valid points.
Speaker 2:I love it, I love it, I love it. You're going to call somebody emotional therapy.
Speaker 1:No, I love it, I love it, I love it. You're going to call somebody emotional therapy? No, I'm not, for what? Like they knew they knew Don't, don't exercise. I gave them fair warning Because I tell them this I give you what you want, I can tell you what you want to hear, but at the end of the day, if you're not going to but that, them this like I give you what you want, I can tell you what you want to hear, but at the end of the day, if you're not gonna. But that's the sorry power, because when the ones I do meet and I, when we have like fucking heavy and I mean heavy like intimacy in the bedroom, and they're just like, oh my god, it's so good, oh my god, it's so great, cool, I won't see him after that and I won't hear from them after that crazy yeah, it's crazy.
Speaker 1:I'm just like, oh well, and then they'll message me. How come I haven't heard from you, bro? I messaged you twice. What the fuck do you mean? Like were you trying to get somewhere else and no one satisfied you at all. Like no, you're the only one that does it well well well, sucks to be you, yeah, but I think that's just kind like. I know I'm not the only person who does that. Yeah, I know I'm not the only person who does that, considering there's so many people that function the way they do?
Speaker 2:yeah, you're not the only person.
Speaker 1:Because if not.
Speaker 2:Then these people wouldn't be in the mental states that they're in.
Speaker 1:I wouldn't be in the mental state I am because it's just like. I honestly don't care, because if somebody was like, what are you doing? I'm just here at home, I won't get a fucking message after that and unless I respond, what are you doing? You know I'm doing this.
Speaker 2:Okay, cool, yeah, cause they want engagement. Yeah, yes, everybody wants engagement, that's it.
Speaker 1:That's all they want. They just want. They know they can get attention from me and that's fine and I you should considering they seek you out specifically for attention.
Speaker 2:It's always on Snapchat, though it's always on Snapchat.
Speaker 1:It's not on fucking Grindr, it's not on Sniffies, it's not on any dating app. It's on fucking Snapchat. I only found one guy. That's so weird. He is not even from here, he is in the state. I mean he's in Russia.
Speaker 2:Oh, I think you told me about him?
Speaker 1:Yeah, I told you about him.
Speaker 2:Yes, that's right, that's right, that's it. Crazy, yeah, crazy.
Speaker 1:And I'm talking to him on the WhatsApp app. Do I know him? No, I mean, I know him personally because we've exchanged conversation, but I don we'll ever meet. And if we ever do meet and he surprises me, oh well then I am fucked and I don't talk to nobody, because everybody that attempts to come into my dms I think it's a lot more scarier for a girl than it is a guy.
Speaker 1:But for a guy it can be more scary because sometimes you got to be very careful because you can give some of those fucking psychopaths that will stalk you like nobody else's business they're just, they're instantly just out the gates.
Speaker 2:Looking, I was like, yeah, let me stop you there, man, I've got a lot of dick pics.
Speaker 1:It's fucking hilarious on my snapchat because I have my pup hood on I get a lot of ads but I won't add anybody that just randomly adds me without no like. Uh, because on snapchat you can see, you can see that you have 50 friends in common or whatever. Oh yes, if we don't have anybody in common, I'm not going to add you right. Anytime I see somebody who I have something in common, they're all hoes. So I have hoes that are with hoes, with hoes with hoes without hoes, on hoes, on hoes.
Speaker 2:Exactly, yeah, hey hey, hey, hey, now I don't actually it's funny because a lot of the, a lot of, and I'm gonna say friends, right that, because I eventually become friends with people. They everybody, almost everybody, assumes it's like oh, you probably have like hella dms, hella dick pics, and I'm like actually I don't, and everybody's like no way. And I'm like I could can show you I legit can open every one of my social apps. I've got none, I've got nothing. And they're like how? And I'm like I don't know. I'm not asking, but I'm not looking either.
Speaker 2:But, I was like I just don't get them. I don't get them.
Speaker 1:And be happy. You don't. I am happy, I am happy.
Speaker 2:But it's funny because now it makes sense when people are like oh, it was probably because you look intimidating, I guess so, I guess so.
Speaker 1:And not intimidating like oh I'm scared of her.
Speaker 2:Not intimidating like that, Just like should.
Speaker 1:I. It's kind of funny because it's like same thing with Jamie, because Jamie is very intimidating too as well. Right, she can be very she's that bitch. For some reason, she still gets dick pics. It's fucking hilarious. Yep, I'm just like jamie between me and you. As much as we put ourselves out there, I'm not surprised we get it though but, because you don't do that to yourself. You're very withdrawn back to, kind of just like a voyeur for everybody you live, you live vicariously to everybody else.
Speaker 2:Your voyeur that's your kink, your voyeurism for real life? I don't know it was my kink, but okay, I don't. But you're not watching sex.
Speaker 1:You're just watching everybody's a story like damn bitch dumbass I know don't do it diddy.
Speaker 2:What do you think?
Speaker 1:no, no, don't bring me this and this.
Speaker 2:That's not me don't ask me, don't come. Don't come and ask me that, because I, I will. I will be a therapist for everybody. Y'all not gonna like what I'm gonna say, because, no, because I want. Well, that's too bad.
Speaker 1:You asked me you know, same thing. People are like well, what can I do with this? I'm just like, bro, I'm not the person like like okay, give me the cliff notes really quickly.
Speaker 2:Oh well, this and you're dumb yep, you're dumb, so I'm not gonna tell you what you want to hear. Bro, I'm sorry. I'm sorry like I'm not.
Speaker 1:I'm that way with work, like if somebody asks me can I get your opinion on something, I go. It depends on what it is and how much of opinion do you want? Because I'm I can be very, very nice.
Speaker 2:You just tell me you want sprinkles or if you want it all down, you know yeah you want to fucking pie to the face, because I'll give it to you yeah, that's what I'm saying like I'm gonna say what you need to hear, not what you want to hear, and you might not like it, but if you keep coming and ask me, I'm not going to change my tune just because you want to hear something different. I'm going to keep repeating the same thing over and over again. You can take it if you want to. If not, then don't come and ask me bro, exactly.
Speaker 1:Well, this has been a fun podcast. Podcast, podcast, is it pun? Did I say pun?
Speaker 2:Pun, can you tell it's late guys? Delirium, yes, this is when it gets fun. Too bad we have to cut it off.
Speaker 1:It's been fun, but it's good to be back.
Speaker 2:It really is.
Speaker 1:I will say there are things coming in through the woodworks. Like I said before Me, styler and DeeDee are all working on something. I know, deedee, you are working on a. So I know, didi, you are working on a lot of stuff too as well with your business that you have.
Speaker 2:So all of my things, all of my projects, and I added a new one. I don't know what to say.
Speaker 1:How, why?
Speaker 2:It was just a random ass conversation, what'd you do. Literally, I literally messaged a gif to javier and oh, yeah, he was just like why don't you learn how to tattoo? And I'm like for real.
Speaker 2:He's like yeah, and I was like um, okay and you were so scared look, I was dude, I was, but, like I said, when I went to the shop I was able to to talk to him. He's like just bring your stuff, bring your stuff, we'll see what you have and we'll go from there and I don't know. I think it's just the way he's able to explain things. I'm like, why does it not feel scary all of a sudden, like it's weird?
Speaker 1:Like the way you explain. Probably, because Probably and it's a longtime friend, so.
Speaker 2:Yeah, yeah, and I absolutely trust him. Like, like I said, he's been doing it for over 30 years.
Speaker 1:He knows his shit. Yeah, damn.
Speaker 2:Be old. He brought you up actually.
Speaker 1:Did he really?
Speaker 2:Yeah, he was tattooing somebody.
Speaker 2:the last time I stopped by the shop it was to ask him a couple of questions actually about the about the practice and, um, he was tattooing a chess piece on somebody who's from here and I think she's a comedian, she's a local comedian, oh, really yeah, and he had, uh, but just out of nowhere he's like, oh, she's got a best friend named jesse and when he comes around he's like you can't say nothing around him because that dude will just go off and I'm like they both go off of each other's energy around. He's like you can't say nothing around him because that dude will just go off and I'm like they both go off of each other's energy. Like, yeah, he's not wrong. And she was like he sounds like fun. I was like yeah.
Speaker 1:You have no idea, I miss kind of doing stand-up comedy. I don't know if I would do it again, though I have the balls to do it. Oh yeah, I just don't think I'm funny on stage. I just don't think I'm funny. No, look, I could be funny here, like with me and you I get it. Being on stage and trying to come up with something or trying to write your own material Childhood dude, I don't have Respect because I could never.
Speaker 2:I could, but that's just me.
Speaker 1:I've done it before in Corpus.
Speaker 2:Yeah, I remember. Yeah, I've done it there.
Speaker 1:But poetry I'm still doing. I haven't done a whole lot, though, but a couple of things. So, to come back to what we're doing is that, of course, didi is working on new projects. She's working on doing wanted to do her own tattoo, which I'm proud of you for, thank you. I'm literally trying to get everything situated, because I do have a lot of projects, so I'm just trying to figure out which one I want to work on, which one calls out me, comes, comes out to me the most. So so far, the sewing has been the thing that's been popping up the most, so I kind of want to get back into it, because I do have a lot of pillows that do need to be kind of sold right, yes, so, but other than that, I think, everything else through the woodworks, I'm even trying to learn how to redraw again, because I saw some of my old artwork.
Speaker 2:I was very proud. Okay, okay.
Speaker 1:So I'm kind of learning how to redraw my shapes and you know, 3d symmetrical stuff and everything that I could try to remember. So, but I'm not trying to do it where I kind of want to draw like people and all that stuff. I want to do it where I can draw clothing, underwear, line, all of that stuff Like the littlest details of all. So I'm trying to learn how to draw like leaf, lace, mesh, underwear, stuff like that, things that I know that will come into my head. Yeah, textures, yeah. So I want to get out a little bit more. So I want to go to down to the fabric store again and kind of look at everything again, because there was a lot of beautiful fabric that was like oh so pretty.
Speaker 1:Yeah, there was that clearance section was the best fucking thing ever, because they really had some good shit in the fucking clearance they just had some good shit in that building period.
Speaker 2:Yeah, I'm just like, oh my god. I can picture like whole dresses made of this one thing, like shape, like.
Speaker 1:I'm just like, oh my god yeah, you can tell where, like a lot of the quinceanera dresses and tend to come to play and everything else like oh wow, that is so fucking so pretty, so pretty. But in here that's the end of our podcast. Uh, gremlins and I do greatly appreciate y'all tuning in you know we're back. We had to kind of throw a little bit of curveballs in there for you because it's us right.
Speaker 1:Y'all know how this works and I know that, uh, I know some of you are going to be wondering what happened to styler and his on his podcast. It's still there. It's just we haven't done anything just yet. Uh, we still need to get together and kind of put things together into perspective and whatnot or whatever. It was just kind of getting hard to kind of balance everything, like I said before in the beginning, is that, uh, I just don't have the funds to kind of cover both podcasts anymore. It's getting yeah, it's getting really expensive life be.
Speaker 1:It had been kicking me in the dick man whore.
Speaker 1:Not even a good way. I normally like pain, but shit, it takes a whole level. But anywho, I have my business. I think I need to put it to work, because if I don't put it to work it's not going to become a thing at all. Period, and I've I've kind of sat on I think we've been in the apartment since August and we're already September. I've kind of sat on everything for a bit, kind of got everything through where it needs to be, and I think I'm ready to take that next step. Yes, so that's where we're at. But thank you, g. So that's where we're at. But thank you, gremlins.
Speaker 1:I do greatly appreciate y'all tuning in to the mature mischief podcast. As always, be yourself, be good, be kind, have fun, be adventurous, continue to fight the good fight and always, always, love yourself, no matter what, and I appreciate all of y'all. I do. It's good to be back. It's good to have you back, dd. Same, it's good to be back. It's good to have you back, didi. Same, it's good to be back. Same. We need to get back to our regular schedule, so we'll definitely be doing a shit ton of recordings in the next coming weeks. Hopefully we can start doing lives with y'all too as well, and just kind of have some fun. But until next time, love y'all, bye Ciao.
