SHF Podcast, Season 2, Episode 9- What If We Could Stay In Our Hearts...

This Sovereign Heart Frequency Podcast episode features co-host Miriah Feehery sharing her year-long journey of healing and opening her heart. Miriah noticed that over the past 4-5 years, she had lost her ability to feel her heart energetically - no longer experiencing the warmth, expansion, and emotional connection she once felt easily. This coincided with global upheaval starting around 2020 and personal challenges including postpartum depression after her second child was born during the pandemic without adequate family support.

Miriah describes creating a ceremonial retreat to set the intention for heart healing, receiving powerful signs from vultures and a double rainbow. Her daily practice includes prayer asking for divine help to heal and keep her heart open, taking full responsibility for her own experience rather than blaming others, and learning to choose love even when hurt by intimate partners. She emphasizes the importance of breathwork and releasing physical restrictions, explaining how the pericardium (tissue around the heart) can constrict when we don't feel safe. The episode concludes with the understanding that keeping one's heart open, despite vulnerability to being hurt, is both a personal healing practice and a way to contribute to positive change during these intense transitional times.

Find Miriah at https://www.wholebeingcounseling.com/

Find Katherine at https://sovereignheartcoaching.com/

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Welcome to the Sovereign Heart Frequency Podcast. I'm Katherine Finley with Sovereign Heart Coaching and I'm here with my co host Miriah Feehery of Whole Being Counseling. We recognize that we're living through an intense time on our planet. There seems to be more polarization and division and less connected communication than ever before. We are here to change that. We intention to hold conversations in a container of love and authenticity. We believe that when humans come together from a heart centered place, we can not only understand one another, but we can get creative together, solving problems we couldn't solve alone. It's time to reimagine and rebirth a new world in which everyone's authentic voice is included in the harmonic orchestra of human voices, to create a world that works for all of us. Thank you for being part of this conversation, we're excited to have you. Hi everyone. Welcome back to Sovereign Heart Frequency Podcast. We have a really sweet and special episode for you today., Mariah and I are here together and Mariah is going to share with us this, um, beautiful heart opening meditation she's been doing that's really serving her in her life. Uh, this I think, has been. Really intense times for everyone. Probably, no matter where you are on the globe, it's a really intense time in our human history and, uh, we need all the support we can get with our inner practices. And so Mariah is gonna share this really deep in beautiful practice with us today. Um, and we're gonna talk about how we can integrate something like this into our daily lives. So thank you, Mariah. Thanks, Catherine. Hey everybody. I have been on a journey of healing my heart for the past year, and no, I don't have, uh, a heart disease diagnosed by a physician or anything. It's, more of an emotional and energetic, situation or, state of being that i've been aware of for maybe the past four or five years. Just noticing how, how hard it is to feel my heart. And it might sound funny'cause yeah, I can put my hand on my chest and, feel my, my pulse. Or put it on a, a pulse point and and feel it moving. But there's a way that I used to be able to have an experience of gratitude or joy or just contentment or presence or peace or contemplation when there would be a sensation in my heart area of energy or. Uh, warmth, expansion, sometimes it would well up to my eyes and bring me wet eyes, tears of joy. And there was a moment in past couple years where I just noticed that wasn't happening anymore and it kind of alarmed me and I decided to make a heart prayer and I. Took some time away from my family. I went to a place, a cabin in the woods near some water where I like to take myself on retreats sometimes. And I just set the intention to hold a prayerful, ceremonial space to open my heart. And that was almost a year ago. And that was really just a, a starting point. And the, I've been walking with the prayer ever since, every day since then, and it's been quite a journey. I've been through a lot and, you know, my heart has been hurt and wanted to. Closed down. And in those moments it's been exceptionally hard to hold this prayer. But, it's because of the practice that I've been doing of just holding that as my intention. I've been able to change the way I respond in moments when I'm hurt and try and stay open to love. Mm. Even though I could get hurt and to allow that to be part of my experience, has just been a really huge shift in my consciousness and in my behaviors, my choices, my, emotional field. And, I wanted to speak to that today because I feel like it's. One of the most important things I'm doing with my life right now. And I feel like if anybody wants to have support in creating that kind of relationship with their own heart, then I wanna be able to share some of the things I've learned along the way. And before you go into that, Mariah, I'm just reflecting on my own life and it's. It's interesting is it feels like a similar timeline. I feel like the last five year, I would say five. You said a little less. Um, last five years for me, it's been much harder for me to access, my heart and, and, I, I think I would've said my connection to divinity. For me personally, but it's interesting that, that you are sharing kind of a similar timeline and I wonder if others of our listeners have experienced something like that as well. Where before that they found it easier to connect to their, their own hearts, their own inner divinity and, because it has been, um, a really energetically intense time on our. On our planet and wondering how that's, how that's connected to, um, feeling disconnected to our hearts. I'm excited to learn more about this practice of yours.'cause it feels like really important timing for all of us. Yeah. And like the only, the only way. Mm-hmm. Right. I mean, there's a lot of ways to live, but. Certainly, to be connected. The only way is through the heart and, not everybody wants that. A lot of people decide that they're fine without connection and that's their prerogative. And, I don't judge that or anything. But, for me, my, my choice is to stay connected to myself through my heart. To stay connected to my family and my community through my heart and to the divine, through my heart, and the world at large. And yeah. That's interesting that you, notice that there's a similar timeframe that you've experienced something like this and. Then when I thought about, well, what was five years ago? It was like five years ago. It was 2020. And we all know what happened in 2020. The great conjunction and the lockdowns and all of that, and the world has not been the same since, and it, it has been a real big struggle with connection. And so life wasn't a walk in the park before that. But there definitely is a difference. And, and it's interesting because the associations I make with what may have caused my heart to feel this way has nothing to do with global issues. It's very much my personal life. But, we, we just lived through a, a cataclysmic weather event. Last October, and funny thing was that, my life was torn apart in upheaval. Not because I lost any property or had any property damage or. Lost any loved ones, but because of my personal life. So I have this interesting pattern I'm noticing. So without, right, um, I can, I can survive the lockdowns and the cataclysmic hurricanes, but I, I can't survive. My relationship woes, I'm emotions that come up in my immediate family and my extended family. Those are a lot harder for me, which is hilarious to me. For my own, for myself personally. Um, but that's good to know. I'm, I've always been somewhat of a first responder, you know, I can go out and help others and crises. But, when it comes to my own personal crises, I can flounder sometimes. And so this heart prayer has been really. Uh, an important way that I have learned how to show up for myself. And for me it's important because, I believe that our heart is sacred and I believe that there is a technology that we can't even conceive of and that I can't even describe or couldn't even begin to try and put into words That our heart is connected to in the whole universe. Mm-hmm. Um, and I have been studying some of sacred geometry for a while, and there's a thing about the teal field that is beyond powerful and mystical and magical. And so for those of our audience who don't know, a toradal field is basically the shape of a donut. It's a energy flow that goes up and down in both directions and, and spins back into itself in this kind of donut like shape. And, it's been. Measured proven. It's just common sense now that our bodies each have our own teal field. The plan, every planet has its own teal field and probably every galaxy has its own teal field. Because our universe is fractal. And so a physicist who, I guess you could call him a quantum physicist who I follow, says that at every, at the center of every AL field is. Basically like a black hole, or a singularity, if you will. And, and it can, every black hole, singularity point, connects to every other black hole singularity point in the whole universe. And so it's in our heart that is the center of our to radial field, in fact. Our heart is the shape of a vortex. If you unwind the muscles of the heart and kind of put it back together in a, from a cadaver or something, you'll see this, spiral shape of the heart muscles that creates a vortex. And so if you think of a vortex, looks like a tornado that's basically one half of a Taurus. And if you made another mirror-like image of a vortex or. Tornado going downward, then that is, that is the image of a Taurus, and then they connect. But um, but yeah, so we have this vortex creator in our heart that is the center of this toradal field. And I believe that magic happens there. And when I'm working with clients, sometimes they can. Really tune into the blocks in their heart physically. And there's a tissue around our heart card called the pericardium that can constrict when we're not safe. And it regulates how open our closed our heart can be. And when we're, when we feel a tightness in our chest, it's really the pericardium clamping down on our heart. And this can happen for a whole lifetime. The pericardium can just stay tight. And I believe that that may be what I, was experiencing for the past four years because I was working with acupuncturists who were, you know, showing that my pericardium points needed some attention. I forget if they were. Too weak or too tense or whatever it was, they, they gave me feedback about, but they could tell that there was some distress in my pericardium and they would, apply acupuncture to those places that might help it. And this was a regular, regular feedback that I was getting from my different practitioners. And yeah, I could feel it too. And, my clients can feel it when they're having pain and hurt or betrayal or fear in their life. They, they always report there's this tightness in their chest. And, and there's a reason we have that language, right? Like, he stabbed me in the heart or my heart hurts, right? Our language has developed to, to represent, this piece. Really physical phenomenons that are happening. Mm-hmm. Yeah. Like, why do we call someone breaking up with you a heartbreak? Mm-hmm. Like, what should that have to do with your heart? Right. They're, they didn't open up your chest and Right. Do anything. But yeah, we all, I think, can agree that our heart is, a gatekeeper of sorts for our emotions. And especially when we feel safe or not safe, emotionally. And we know now too, that our hearts, have neurons and our hearts create their own electromagnetic field. And our heart field is,, much, much bigger than the field created by our brain. And there's many more messages that go from, um, our hearts to our brains than our brains to our hearts. So if we're really conscious and working with the heart. Then we can create more, uh, congruence between our heart and our, our mind and our, feelings. Yes, and I'm glad to use the word congruence because congruence isn't just within us, but it's also interpersonally. And there's, a place called the HeartMath Institute. On the West coast that studies heart coherence and they've done some really cool studies where they can, pick up other people's heartbeats inside of someone's heart that they're measuring with a very sensitive, receiver or microphone or whatever. And they, these other people's heartbeats are. Are maybe in different rooms. They're not able to be perceived by the microphone. It's not interference. It's actually inside that person's heart. And so we really do, perceive deeply with our hearts and we can feel another person's, distress even if we're not in the same room with them. And we can also feel their, their joy and. And so there's so much about our heart that is so mysterious and profound. And heart coherence is, a way that we can, work within ourself to, sink up our breath and our heart rhythms to be, even and regulated by, either just physically trying to calm our breath down or change our thoughts so that we have more comforting or safer thoughts that then are reflected in our body., But yeah, even interpersonally, and this kinda gets into what my journey has been like. You know, when a child is in distress. We have to kind of meet them there and kind of feel their pain for a second so that we can gather them and, and join them, and then bring them somewhere different. We can't just be like, cheer up, you know, or like, make a joke and try to snap them out of like a really big, hard emotion. We have to kind of meet them there and then we can, maybe. Give them a little noogie on their head or, tickle'em and then bring'em into a different state. And it just so happens that about four years ago I gave birth to a baby who, I loved dearly. And as my second child, I have another child. Uh, who's 12 years old, so it was quite a large span of time between the two. He came at a time in my life. It was, you know, 2021. So the world was already in utter chaos and even though I feel like I was pretty sheltered from a lot of that, there was still a lot going on in, in my immediate surroundings that was distressing and so I was not in the most resourced place and didn't have a whole lot of family support around when I was immediately postpartum. My mother passed a few years before he was born, and, she was my biggest support with my first child. And so, it was. I'm sure a scenario that a lot of American mothers can relate to because our society has really isolated the nuclear family and it's not a very good condition to bring children into the world without the support of the extended family. So I experienced some postpartum depression and had a baby who was. Difficult to soothe at times. Difficult to comfort and who knows if it was my distress that was distressing him or his distress, that was distressing me. But it, it created, a negative feedback loop one way or another. I'm sure it went both ways. And so, you know, it that I think that had a lot to do with how my heart became kind of stuck in this closed place that, then I had to address, I. When I was ready, when I was resourced and, and in a place where I could move with it, and that's, that's what I really sat down in a big way in the ceremony I made for myself a year ago. And, I just. Did a lot of cleansing in that that spring. I was also dealing with some respiratory infection stuff that was kind of demanding that I just look at my whole system and really try and find where I might be vulnerable or or weak in some places. So I was doing every kind of cleanse you could ever imagine, and I feel like that was also a part of this heart prayer. But ultimately it, it wasn't about my body at all other than the fact that the heart is an organ in the body. The way I address the heart was, was much more from a emotional, spiritual, psychological perspective and just looking at my patterns of guarding my heart, you know, I can say the pericardium guards the heart and shuts it down, but what does that mean? When it's expressed in your life. And for me it was, maybe shutting down in my relationships, avoiding going into silence, just kind of not being present. Mm-hmm. And so deciding that I was gonna open my heart, I really had to look at a lot of those patterns and be willing to face them. And I had some really beautiful signs from the universe come at that time. In particular, one was on the day of that ceremony. It was actually overnight. I spent the night in the cabin and, the next morning I was still in ceremony, there was a tree right next to the cabin that apparently was housing this huge colony of vultures that I wasn't aware had landed in the evening to rest in this tree. But I was outside in the morning and just watched them rising on the thermals and there was at least 40 of them I counted, and they were just. Literally right above my head doing this kind of double helix thermal spiral thing all morning. Wow. And it was as the sun was rising and I took that as a pretty powerful sign. And Vulture medicine is very much about removing what, is no longer needed. And that was my prayer. Remove the block on my heart. And so I just gave it to the vultures. I just. Asked the spirit of the vulture to, to come and eat the blocks around my heart, the cage around my heart. That was, closing me off from that heart open experience that I had grown so accustomed to enjoying and had longed and missed when it was gone. And one of the dreams that I had around that same time about my patterns, that block me, was about being, in this room with a woman who was starting to turn into a werewolf. And I was watching her and she was scared of, what was about to happen and, didn't know if she would be able to control herself and didn't wanna hurt anybody And I was just like kind of watching her, seeing what would happen. And sure enough, once she fully became a werewolf, she started to attack me and I was like, oh boy. Um, so I took her out to the porch and, you know, it's, it's dreams. So physics doesn't apply there, but I just like dangled her over the patio by her. Foot or something and was like, okay, you need to calm down. You need to stop attacking me. And she kept thrashing and gnashing at me. And so I, I threw her down however many stories, like two or three stories into the parking lot and was like, oh. As soon as I did it, I realized like that was a bad idea. I didn't really want to kill her or anything. I just wanted to stay safe from her. But then. It turns out I didn't kill her and she jumped up and then I was like, oh no, I'm really in trouble now. She's going to be pissed at me for trying to kill her, even though I was just trying to stay safe. So then I went and locked the front door. But I was, obviously, in this predicament where my ways of protecting myself had. We're coming back to bite me like that isn't the right way. I can't just throw away the werewolf woman, and I can't just like, but you know, the, the dilemma that this dream was showing me was, you know, well, what do you do with her? How do you honor these like primal, instinctual parts of yourself that wanna protect you from being hurt while at the same time, not like letting them take over you and hurt you or hurt anybody else, but also not just trying to dis disown them and or dismember them or get rid of them entirely, that doesn't work either. Just makes them even more mad. So yeah, a lot of beautiful things came through from the universe when I made this prayer that have helped me along the way. Yeah, so is this prayer a particular practice that you can share or share? The framework of or Um, yeah, yeah. More about that. So I do. When I have the time and energy, I do a, a daily practice. I haven't been doing it lately because sleep has been more important and I honor that. But, when I have the time, I sit at my altar with a candle and, um, some pictures that represent important things to me, I say divine father, divine mother, spirit of love. Thank you for this beautiful day. Thank you for my life. Thank you for my family's life. Please help me open my heart. Please help me heal my heart and keep it open. And that's, mm-hmm. That's the, the mantra. There might be more things depending on what's up for me at the time, but. Yeah. And just every, anytime I even blow out a birthday candle or any, anytime I have any, ritual space or opportunity, I just connect, put my hand on my heart and just, pray for my heart to stay open. Mm-hmm. Hmm. And what it looks like more in practice, an example of that could be, earlier this year I was triggered into, remembering a very distressing event I went through last year where my heart was, was hurting. And I actually thought I was gonna have a heart attack. Like my heart would not stop. Just like pounding. Through my whole body and for hours and hours and hours. I was considering needing to go to the hospital or something, but I, I knew that, that it was emotional and I would calm down eventually. But yeah, it was so, it was something triggered me to remembering that. And, I took some space, I did some art with my friend and kind of expressed my feelings that way. We were doing pastels and then when I came home and was talking to my husband and he was kind of like, are you okay? Do you need a hug? So I, I hugged him and then just said, what? I needed to tell myself more than him, which was, you know, I realized that living with someone, being married with someone, we're gonna hurt each other. You're gonna hurt me and I'm gonna hurt you. It's just inevitable and I have to be willing to love you anyways, to keep my heart up open anyways.'cause it's more important to me that my heart stays open, even if it can get hurt, than it is to try and push away or. Or shut down or block off the things that could hurt me. Hmm mm-hmm. Wow. Wow. I'm just aware of how hard that actually is, you know? And, and to go back to reviewing this journey you've shared with us. You know, first there's the recognition that your heart felt more closed, which feels so important. Just the acknowledgement of that, right? Like, I think, our mind can come up with so many stories about why things are happening in our life, or, uh, people aren't being good to us and it's the outside world's fault. Or, but, but the recognition of going inside and. I noticing like, oh, I, my heart is closed. And um, or it's different. It feels more blocked than it used to. And then, and I don't wanna completely gloss over that you did this cleansing, because I do think there's something really powerful about taking care of your body for setting the groundwork for your nervous system to do deeper work. And so I do feel curious about how that. Cleansing impacted you positively. I mean, it's hard. I don't know, but I think if we're really, eating a lot of toxic food and there's the toxic air and the toxic water, it's hard to get to our hearts from that place. So I think it's really beautiful. You intuitively did that as well. Um, and then creating this. A ceremony for yourself. There's something, and you know, that is so, self-loving to do that, to take time away from your family, take time just for yourself to take care of your heart. And so that sacred ritual, I'm gonna take that with me as a really important reminder of. Uh, that we need to do that for ourselves and how then it positively affects everyone around us to do that. And what you just said about turning to love in those moments with, you know, usually it's the people right around us, right? Our close intimate relationships. In my my world, it is at least, it's those moments that are so hard sometimes to be in the heart when we feel injured or hurt by another. But it, feels like really the groundwork that you've been laying by this consistent prayer then gives you mobility or, you're more practiced, you're more ready to be able to soften the heart in those moments. And if we can't do that, then can we soften our hearts to ourselves later? Like, Ooh, I didn't do that. I just said something hurtful back. I protected myself in a way, right? I, um and then can we soften our own hearts to ourselves and forgive ourselves for that? And then,, try again and meet our loved ones again with a softer heart. Mm-hmm. It's the inside, inside out work. Definitely. Definitely. And, you know, it really started when I decided that I was gonna take full responsibility for my life and, having to reckon with the ways that I was, blaming others. Blaming my husband, blaming my toddler, blaming my whomever for why I was feeling the way I was feeling. And you can't heal if it's someone else's fault, right? Then you gotta try and control and change the other people around you, which never works and just creates more distance and, despair. And so the solution to opening my heart couldn't really come until I was willing to take full responsibility for my own experience, and take it into my own hands. And that has been quite a journey to, unwind that pattern, that program, I feel like. Yeah, it's definitely pretty pervasive in our culture to feel, victimized. And while I do believe that there are people who are victims of real abuse and real crimes in our society, that, yeah, there's, there's. That's different than what I'm talking about. Being in a victim hood mentality is, is different than actually being victimized.'cause people can recover from being victimized in an abusive relationship or in a, in a act of crime. And, you know, heal and recover from it. Or they can assume a victim personality type and suffer from it for the rest of their lives. And I think forgiveness is a big part of the way out of that trap. Forgiveness is really liberating our own hearts. It doesn't really have anything to do with the other person so much. You know, forgiveness is not condoning any behavior. It's really just, kind of choosing to, to move on, to let it go To maybe make meaning out of it. And that's, I think the, key to really deep healing is meaning making and any tragedy that we go through, whether it's at the hands of someone else or just an act of God, or our own creation, that, yeah. Forgiveness is ultimately, a liberator at any point in the process of going through something like that. And so, yeah, that definitely plays a part in my applying this process. Of heart opening into my daily life. I'm still far from living with an open heart every day. You know, I still will get very frustrated when my toddler wants to. Scream at me for very silly things, for very long periods of time. My nervous system is a difficult time tolerating that. But I can take responsibility and recognize that, okay, he's a toddler, he's gonna do what he's gonna do, and I'm the adult and I need to find my own self-regulation. That's my responsibility. But yeah, it's, it's easy when my animal body is in pain or exhaustion from having my eardrums blown out or whatever it is, that, I, I just wanna get away or, you know, have experienced a shutdown or a dissociative moment, where I, you know, I can't be at my best. And so then I just, okay, try, try better next time. Try to notice in the moment when my heart is closing, when I feel that urge to shut down or push away and breathe into it. On the physical level, the breath has been a really huge part of this journey for me, this healing journey. And, it turns out that I had, some, some deeper layers of, of birth trauma from my first child 12 years ago that had constricted my diaphragm and made my breath pretty limited in that area. And I have been. Working with it ever since I got pregnant again, and my body just like really clamped down on my diaphragm and I couldn't breathe when I was only two months pregnant. And with my second child. And so that was a whole healing journey, that continued up until a couple months ago when a body worker who's amazing, who I was working with, Really helped me actually. I was working with three different body workers and energy healers all at the same time. Not the same day, but you know, the same week or weeks. And, all of'em kind of locked into this diaphragm thing that was happening at the same time. And I had this big release and it was like, oh my gosh, I can breathe. It feels so amazing and so good to take a full deep breath. Uh, and, yeah, there was like a real physical block happening and that has really, I'm sure helped my capacity, to tolerate stressful situations like when my toddler's, tantruming or something. Because you know, when we. Breathe shallow. It sends the message to our nervous system that we're not safe. And then our nervous system is kind of on alert like looking for the thing that's not safe, and it creates this negative feedback loop where there's just this continual shallow breath and alarm system going off in your body. Even, even when you're resting, even when you're just calm in your life, seemingly, you're never quite all the way. Settled in your body and, and safe in your heart and mind. And, and so yeah, that, is something that I encourage everybody to, to look at how, how full of breaths are you able to take and how often are you taking these full breaths? And even when you labor as hard as you can to open your, your chest and your belly to let in more air like. Is it really opening? Mm-hmm. And, I highly recommend network chiropractic for this. They're, just. Basically highly attuned at, tracking your breath as it moves through your body and noticing where it's cut off or restricted, and helping entrain your nervous system to allow the breath to move fully through the body. And it's, it's wonderful. It's been so helpful for me. Um, we had a session with Cynthia Berg on our podcast, a while back, so you can go back and listen to that. She's a network chiropractor in the Asheville area. So it's, a real life changing prayer in every area of my life. And so it's definitely something I'm gonna be walking with for a while. But I've already just felt so, triumphant and so blessed with how far I've come in just a year. Oh, and something I also wanna share about the, science from the universe that I got right when I made this big ceremonial pronouncement to the universe a year ago, I think it was maybe just at a week after that time, I took, by myself at the cabin to set this intention down. I was driving with my daughter back home from school or something and, I. We had right in front of us as we go down this kind of straight valley road to our house, A double rainbow. Mm-hmm. Stretching over the whole valley that we live and we were just. Wow. Going, driving right into it. And we were both just freaking out. We kept stopping and pulling over and watching it and then, okay, we should probably get back and driving on is still there. And still there and still. Okay. Pull over again. It's a beautiful view. And then right as I was turning into the road that I live off of from this main valley road, um, there was this huge bird that was flying towards the rainbow. And I was like, no. It's not, and it was a vulture that just wa, we watched it just fly right through one rainbow and right through the second rainbow. I was like, oh my gosh. It was so beautiful and just, um, that's amazing. I know. And what the rainbow means to me that comes from the Old Testament is the promise, right? Promise of, of. A new beginning of peace. Mm-hmm. That, that it will continue. Mm-hmm. And, um, the story will go on. And so, you know, and of course the vulture connected to that original prayer that I made, so I kind of saw that as like, okay, your wish is granted, you might have to walk with this intention for years or even your lifetime, but like, here it's yours. It's given, you know, and so I have that faith. Um. On this healing journey that helps me stay dedicated and devoted to my heart. Um, and yeah, breathing into my heart, just, just savoring and enjoying all this space it has now that my diaphragm is released and how good it feels to take deep breaths. Oh my gosh, I love it. And, um. And yeah, just holding my heart with my hands, visualizing my heart, um, with all the gorgeous adornments that it could ever want, like bedazzling my heart and imagery, you know, just listening to my heart, asking it questions, and listening to its responses and just following my heart when, um, when I sometimes, you know. It'll be like a gut feeling or a heart feeling where I'll know what to do or what not to do. By tuning into the sensations that I have, it's not always, um, that, um, that I need to change myself or something because my heart isn't opening. Sometimes it's like, oh, well, I can't open my heart in that area of my life, so maybe that area of my life is not right for me. Maybe I need to follow my heart, follow where it flourishes. So that's another, um, way that I'm, um, in devotion to my heart and being, um, mindful of my heart. Um hmm. Yeah. And just as, um, you know, we go through these really intense times of transition that we're in. And, um, I believe for the next several years, if not decade or more. Um, I think it's just the most important thing that I can do for myself and the world is to just, um, honor my heart in this way, to, to be devoted to my heart and doing whatever my heart needs to flourish. Yeah. Mm-hmm. Mm-hmm. Yeah. Yeah. There are plenty of opportunities around to, feel victimized, feel scared, feel angry, feel hateful. You know, we can look around the world and all of that can seem very justified and like, what can we then do? You know, how do we then take responsibility for what we can control, in our bodies and in our little pieces of the world through our life? And, it does feel like one of the, maybe the most powerful thing we can do for ourselves and our loved ones is start to orient towards our heart no matter what. No matter what. And if we all did that, how would our world change? Thank you Mariah, so much for sharing all this with us. Mm-hmm. Um, sharing these, you know, personal pieces of your life and how this practice has changed you, has impacted me for sure. And I'm sure many of our listeners, so thank you. My pleasure. Thank you. Make sure you subscribe, like and share the video for more content!