Micro-Dosing God: The Vulnerable Truth

I mean I am truly just over here speechless so I will let this episode do the talking. I almost did not publish this, I'm still getting used to speaking about something this powerful, but... it is time. 

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Oh, she's feisty this morning. 'cause the question that came was , if you could guesstimate how many strangers you've spoken to in 2025, like how many strangers, people you've never known before, have you communicated with like in, in the flesh, like, Hey buddy, or Hi, good morning.

Or how are you? You know how many people even online that you've just gone and commented on a stranger's stuff, if you had to guess like how many I'm thinking, I mean, we're already like on the brink of September, so we've got eight months under our belt. I'm guessing we all have spoken to, I don't know, 20 strangers a month.

What are you thinking? The reason this is relevant and hold onto your knickers the backstory of this shit just gets me, it gets me every time. But yeah, this one's, this one's, this one's frisky. If you've spoken to even just five or 10 new people a month, you've spoken. To like 40 to like almost a hundred, , new people this year, which means in like the last 10 years, it's probably like a thousand, right? Yet you won't have a conversation with God and God's a stranger to you. Like this was the question, like when I think about like, why didn't I talk to God before?

Like you talked to so many other people, you know nothing about. You don't even know if they're good people. Like there's no bad person in the world in a way, but let's not get into that debate. That's just my unconditional love. I just think there's so much more to people's stories.

But yeah, that hit me like a ton of bricks because if we're so open to talking to strangers, like you talk to strangers all the time, and the one stranger that's been glorified for centuries, arguably one of the most iconic figures of our time, and that says a lot too, who were idolizing, you know what I mean?

That we glorify, celebrities and things like that. Yet. Someone that you have access to or something, or some energy that you have access to on tap 24 7, who is in complete devotion to your every moment? Happiness, health, wellbeing, love, prosperity. Like what? You're not in dialogue with that conversation, man, girl, what have you been doing?

I mean, like. This is a conversation that I'm playing out in my head and character role, obviously, but like, I don't know if it's my higher self, my altar soul, just having a little bit of a theatrical moment, but we're out here dialoguing this, just I think in a way to create some sort of humor to the consideration that maybe it's time.

To start speaking up.

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all right guys, the way this all went down and I need to explain this, is that , I often verbally process, especially throughout this experiment and even some of those things end up being podcast episodes.

When I opened my phone this morning, like before I opened my phone. I did something that I have not done for about, oh let's re, let's reframe that. And I'm realizing my age now, all of this experience that I've had, the blessing to live out 37 years old.

Let's go. Alright. I guess I didn't do this since I was like an early teenager, like maybe 13. So that's like what, 24 years ago? Anyways. Yesterday I downloaded the Bible. I used to go to church as a kid in Barbados occasionally.

And in 2023, after, a crazy car accident, I started to go to church and they ask you like, do you accept Jesus Christ as your Lord and Savior? And. I was like, yes. And then they tried to get me to sign up to come and get involved. And they took me into the back room.

I was like, I do accept Jesus Christ as my Lord and Savior, but I just need to discover what that looks like. And so I'm in dialogue with God every day. Like I'm just gonna like listen and. I know I'll be taught. And so it's not that I'm not learning, I just don't feel like I have to come to this place and make a commitment.

I work at really strange hours. I get up at like four o'clock in the morning sometimes to work. I'm sleeping really early. I have calls at different times. You know, like I can't really make a commitment. And it was, it wasn't really from an place of an excuse. It's also from a place that I didn't feel like it was the church that needed to tell me about God necessarily in that moment of my life.

I just felt that I needed a whole space to discover what the best way to build a relationship with God was for me, because I had questions, and I was lightly treading into the intimacy from a lens that was not the conventional lens. I know God from experience, I know God from saving my life.

I know God from protection. I know God from divine intervention. I know God is good. I know that, , but I came at it through the same way, like how I came to manifestation and then into divinity and God, was through frequency. Frequency for me started with mental health and suicide prevention, which led me into emotional intelligence.

The self Asia frequencies and the emotions, energy and motion, emotion of energy led me into frequency, and that led me into consciousness, intelligence, divinity, et cetera. And here we are. I downloaded the King James version of the Bible. And the thing about the Bible is you hear that there's so many versions of the Bible out there.

You don't know which version is the right version. The truth has been distorted, and you're just like, it's even overwhelming to make a choice from truth these days. Sometimes you're just like, I don't want to read the wrong thing. I just, I've reached my brainwashing quota for this life.

It can feel overwhelming, so sometimes you're just like, I just, you know, I don't know what to trust anymore.

I do trust God, but I'm seeing some people, there's a guy that. Posted something on Instagram, and I hope I find this guy, I hope I saved the video. But basically the guy was like in the library and he's taking a video, walking through the Library. He is like, all right, God came to visit me last night and told me it's time, buddy.

Like get a Bible. And I was like, say less, like, you know, 'cause God's been really improving his life. And this guy just had like this aura that was so chilled . He had some vibe about him that was understated cool. And I was like, man, so many cool people like out there getting into God.

I was like, you get it, boy. And I didn't think that that moment would actually trickle into like, I'm now only through explaining this, reflecting on it. I'm like, I think that moment had a lot to do with me buying a Bible last night. And I was like, alright, cool. So all to lead to this morning and I woke up at 6:39 AM Thanks universe for being present.

Hello. And before verbally processing and anything like that, I had my nine minute method to miracle, so I'm very. Sacred about the first step in that method, which is disconnect from the noise, and so I found myself then getting up and it was weird 'cause I was like, alright, today operation love bomb is in full effect.

So like when I was walking by the mirrors, I was just like, yeah, we're just gonna, be so embracing, and we're not. Judging we're just like, I love you, and I sat down and I don't know what pulled me to do it. I just like, if it was planned, I didn't have a thought about it.

I didn't go, oh, should I read? I literally opened my computer, opened my Kindle, went to the Bible, and just started reading it. And then I saw the time and I was thinking, gosh,, like it's Saturday morning. There are times in my life when I was still coming home at this time because the sun had come up, and nothing against those people raav on , do you, I know fun and fun nights can be, so long as you're happy in your life and everyone's just doing what's best for them.

There are moments in my life where I didn't know if that was serving my divine assignment, so I had to pull it in and become a bit more selective, 'cause can't pour from an empty cop. And getting rest has been a big priority for me. But this morning I just found myself reading the Bible and this was all to explain that.

Then I took my phone out and I started recording, and I think this is the part that I read from the Bible that prompted the recording and it was about god said, let the earth bring forth grass.

The herb yielding seed and the fruit tree yielding fruit. After his kind whose seed is in itself upon the earth. And it was so, and like I don't get Bible texts the way that they write it sometimes. So if you're not fully grasping, I'm gonna explain the epiphany that I had. And so the next section is like, and the earth brought forth grass, the herb yielding seed after his kind and the tree fruit yielding fruit whose seed was in itself after his kind.

And God saw that it was good and it just struck me. And it was so funny how it's the words after his kind and was in itself. So the tree yielding fruit, like the fruit whose seed was in itself. So the tree, yielded the fruit. The fruit has within. It has seeds itself after his kind. Now this is the part where I'm like, oof, that's every human on earth is the fruit. Who has the seed in itself after its kind? We all have God, we are the fruit. Like, you know what I mean?

Like there's nothing that bears. Without the origin of where it came from, we all have it, the more relatable thing is like you have the DNA of your parents, but we have the divinity of God, the genius origin of divinity.

We are the fragments of total divinity within what we call the human. But we are not a human in the universe. We're the entire universe. In a human. We are whole. The wholeness of God resides in form. That is the human form. And so that part I was down with already, but I didn't think that the Bible was just couldn't speak to me.

Like guys, this is like literally Genesis is like the first thing in the Bible and I'm like literally on the first page, this was, oh my God, I'm just realizing this was 1 1 11. Genesis one 11. Oh wow. Holla. Thank you. Alright, so and, and then I picked up my phone to record, which is the next section of this episode.

So I guess the whole point was, which I guess was like me reflecting on like my journey with God and I put it down and I really wasn't sure. Like, is that really gonna be a podcast episode? It's coming in pretty hot or going deep, like on the, on the God topic. And I was just like, yeah, cool. And this is how the whole thing started.

Like, all right, so you could get deep with a stranger. Who you will never see again, but God's there for you every day and you're scared to share how you get deep with God. And I was like, whoa. Like, alright. That's when, that's when that spicy little altar soul of mine just was like, all right, let me handle this one, Papa.

I got this. And hence the sort of how this podcast is open. So in all things vulnerability in the name of the divine, I am going to share. That voice note and in the hopes that it lands on the heart of someone who it helps today because I record these things 'cause they often help me verbally. Processing is a technique that I.

Use daily in order to connect with my divinity in order to open the channels of intuition and to hear the voice of my higher self and to welcome the presence of God and my soul. Tribe guardian, angel, spirit, guides, ancestors, light beings, beings of the highest order into my space to, to vibe with me.

Like you have a board of advisors that you never speak to, not all of you, but if you're not doing this. Then you have a board of advisors that you aren't speak to, that you don't speak to, that are literally the architects of your destiny just devoted to you in this life to walk this life to, to connect with what has been destined for you.

And we wanna be like click baited on Instagram to just get guidance from. Strangers again, like how much are we putting our trust in people that we don't even know have never met. But we can't do a test drive on trusting God. Like what if you just trusted God and did it as a little experiment?

You know what I mean? Like, let's see what this is about. You know? And it's funny 'cause another video is now coming to mind how this guy was like preaching how he doesn't believe in God. I'm a nonbeliever. I don't believe in God. If God was real, there'll be a strike of lightning right now and out the back like bam, like strike of lightning.

He's like, okay, we've got a problem. Like, you know, and it was just hilarious. 'cause God, I think God loves to show up in presence for people who are conflicted about. The energy of God. God comes in hot when you're like, I don't believe you're real. Like, you know, I'm not recommending anybody say that 'cause he has mighty ways of awakening that belief.

But it doesn't hurt to just discover, like, if we were to dabble in this and assume that this were true, I love running experiments, you can tell, right? Like. Oh, can I welcome you to give me a sign? How do I know you're real? Like just start with those questions, you know, and see where it leads you.

I'll be here and I can't wait to spill the divinity on that kind of story because I have a feeling it's gonna be fun. I might do this little experiment, on the hero dosing, and if that hasn't been talked about yet, like it's gonna be in the voice clip that I'm about to, to add in here around how God micro doses his presence, because his power is so overwhelming, you collapse under the presence of his power. And I had this thought that maybe he's microdosing that presence. And I was like, I wonder if I should just go in for a hero dose and just see what happens. So without further ado, I guess that's gonna be the most strange.

Start of a podcast episode or not. You know, there's some crazy cats out there delivering incredible content. Shout out to all the podcasters and content creators out there. 'cause man, you're making life so much more amazing. Having access to just like brilliant, intriguing, entertaining, insightful,

media in multiple formats. So thank you, thank you, thank you. And it's an honor to walk alongside you to be a creator in this world. So let me just, yeah, leave that here and let you guys listen to what I recorded this morning.

Do you ever get the feeling that God micro doses his presence, because when you're moved by his presence is so overwhelmingly beautiful, like you literally break down crying.

It's the craziest feeling in the world, and sometimes I feel that, it, it, it just, it can make you almost erratic. Like you want to just do everything. Everything to serve, everything, to honor everything, to just be in devotion. And that's not even from a sacrificial fear forced place. It's from a, you just want to glorify him because the love is like so overwhelming and it's radical and it's not that, that love.

Is the absence of anything that could feel painful because knowing God,

knowing God is the hardest thing because you see yourself, you see yourself in truth, and it's like, wow, and I think you just wanna start being. A person of God because

you are just moved. I guess that's what it means, like you're moved by the Holy Spirit. Like I never knew I could talk like this. I never knew. I would be a believer that would preach, like, preach the word of God. But let me tell you god is number one. Always like, and we are all God.

We all carry God with us. And so it's easier to love. Like we don't fight our battles alone. So it's easier to have faith when courage was never enough. It's easy to let go 'cause you're just like, I don't have this anymore. But you know that God's got you. So you let God in and I'm just like, I'm still baffled because it feels, scary isn't the word, but the anticipation, I think of the magnitude of knowing God isn't lost on me, and it's like you're really, then I guess it's like when you're going to meet.

The big boss and you have the like, whoa. I dunno if you guys have ever had a meeting with a super important person, or when you're younger and you get called to the principal's office and there's that whole energy of like, oh my God. Like, you know, you're sitting outside the door waiting to be called in and you're like, Ooh.

You know, it's not that you're scared, you know, but you, you know that. That there's a higher authority there that you need to be respectful of and to honor. And I always said life begins where conformity ends, or it's something I've said in the last, you know, decade, especially as the world has.

Going a little tits up, uh, and having its moment. And I never knew what to trust. And I think that I've always believed in God in the energy and intelligence of what that authority is. I as a divine oneness, as a point of connection of all of humanity as a point of absolution and wisdom. And.

Just divine architecture and it didn't really resonate with it necessarily in the way that religion brought it toward the world. And that's okay. 'cause this conversation isn't about that. But it took me a while to find God because I couldn't feel trust in the way that I was encountering the concept of God.

But now that I've been open to God since my car crash and my existential inquisition asserted in on the 4th of November, 2023, I feel like I've been opening and opening, and the more open I get, the more of his presence I feel. And now that I'm so open and so like God. Just God, God, God. I don't know how many times a day I say God's name.

I don't know how many times a day I hold space to be intimate with God, to speak with God, to ask guidance from God, to to share something about God. Like God is just low key, just pulled up and was like, my presence just started shifting you. And now I look at how I am and I'm like, wow, I'm a woman of God.

Like when did that happen? Like I knew I was. Respectful of the omni, potent and omnipresence of God as an energy. But now I think I'm like in that worshiper phase where I'm like, alright, we are going to glorify and now I am. My algorithms caught up and I'm seeing a lot of healing in the name of Jesus and that's not new to me, but.

The way it makes me cry every time I witness it now, it's new to me. I cry so much now. The presence of, oh God, I feel like I could cry right now. Um.

The presence is just, that's how I think. I know. You know, it's like people talk about, do you believe in God? And I'm like, no, I know. I know God. I know God. 'cause I know that

I moved to tears by something real. And so it's like, how could you not know God? You know what I mean? It's not something you believe in when you're living it out, like you believe in things that, you know, I think come from anticipation. Sometimes hope, you know, you believe in experiences too, you know?

I believe if I go to the gym that I'll be healthier, I believe X, Y, and Z. But I think there's a real fine line between believing and knowing, and you can believe a lot of things that aren't necessarily true. And I guess the greatest gift is knowing God is faith brings a lot of peace and a lot of trust in a world that feels overwhelmingly. Sketchy, unsettling, , but it's God's world too. It's God's creation too. This is the power of free will. And you know, you come across conversations people have around God, like, well then why would you let Satan do what he does and the dark forces, and this is the power of free will. It's that.

We wouldn't be in free will if we were controlled in choice. So either it was allow the free will and love so much the free will you have given that you trust that all roads lead back to God, and in my own life with my own free will, they have, not just when I'm coming from a self destructive, self abandoning place, but even when I come from a place of ambition, and this is why I moved outta the manifestation movement, because there's so many things that we try to control when we're like, there's a divine plan, there's a, there's just something else, and there's so few times that there's divine intervention because of free will.

And it's just crazy this is where I do wonder, around the relationship between soul contracts and free will. Like I guess our soul decided on it and our soul tribe comes together to support us. And fulfilling the contract. So when we have things like existential tipping points that navigate us back to our truth, I think those are just our angels and guides and our spirit team and our divine architect.

Like trying to be like, don't forget like you came here to do this, like we're rooting for you. You know, but you might need a little wake up call to remember. So you know, this is why everyone with their best experiences, they'd have such profound clarity. I think, myself included, I've never had more clarity than when I've been diagnosed with my tumors and been sick and been in the hospital and or had surgeries, or had car accidents, or just have been broken by life.

So I believe there's a plan. God has our back and, and he's never not listening and he's never not available, and he's never too busy and he's never in judgment. And it's where to use the language. He, and I guess that's just the way it is.

I don't know if it's a male, a what I know is it does feel safe, you know? It could be God as a woman. I mean, like, I haven't taken that for a test run, but I'm here just to learn. You know? I'm here to learn and. I am excited and I'm humbled and I rest with permission.

Just knowing that God would not want me burnt out, like the world we live in, is it's always just such a rush, such an achievement drive, the overwhelming thing about it is how much, I'm no longer driven by those things, and so you stand in higher planes of solitude, the timelines you exist on, it's not that they're to the exclusion of the world that operates on different timelines, because I feel like we still walk on the same earth and multiple timelines could be happening on earth and there are multiple earth.

But I'll tell you what, fuck the rat race. And I left that life a long time ago, and I've always said if I go back, I'll die. Like, and I know that I'm here to answer to a higher calling and I know that I'm being qualified. Like I know God call the qualified, he qualifies the called like, and I'm listening and I'm willing, and I had a big conversation about this the other day.

Like willingness actually doesn't require effort. It's so different to being disciplined. Devotion is of the heart, discipline is of the mind, but willingness, it's a different thing completely because it's a, can I hold my presence with your presence? Can I hold my faith without evidence? Can I be willing enough to be still and not move because you'll move me?

Like willingness is different and I think I'm finding out a lot more about what it means. I'm still in it. I'm still learning. I'm still getting to know. All I can share is my experience, which is my everlasting and ever evolving truth, microdose, maybe I'm just gonna, I don't even know if I can curse anymore.

I'm not trying to be perfect, but you know, for the purpose of explaining this, I might fuck around and find out. I might be like, Hey, God. Can I get a hero dose of what it means to like have your presence, and see what that's like. Maybe I am ready for that. Maybe the micro doses of being brought to my knees and being brought to tears and not just tears.

I mean like bawling need to put your hand over your mouth 'cause you're ugly crying kind of vibe. 'cause you're just letting it out. 'cause you're just so overwhelmed with emotion,

I think, yeah, we're gonna be an operation Love bomb. And love is the connection to God. The first part of the experiment was a lot about purification. And the second phase of the experiment is actually a lot about divinity. So I'm rerunning phase one. Just for one more test run to lock what 'cause so profound, what came out the last time around.

But yeah, I'm gonna continue seeking truth. Continue living light always be giving, just vibing with the profound principles that create heaven on earth and really just going deeper and living them out, and just feeling my way into more and more truth and seeing what happens to reality as a response of that.

So that's it for now. Just my little update and. Yeah, love light, state of divine from a very invigorated and peaceful inner power that is like almighty but gentle. Alright, that's it.

Just to close out this episode, that was the recording and it did end there. It actually was more positioned to publish it than I thought it was, but I just wanted to recap a little bit around what we covered on this episode so that you have some key takeaways because the reason I do this is just to help bring some clarity and some faith into your lives about.

Just how beautiful and magical it can be and what's available to you. So don't be scared to start having conversations, speaking out loud, doing that verbal processing. Don't be scared to curate your own approach into your relationship with the higher power, with your higher self, with your soul, with God.

Don't be scared like you've got. Oh, so much again and absolutely nothing to lose. So if anything, I hope this conversation just gives you a little nudge to microdose a bit of that shit and get amongst it because it's fun, it's divine, and it's just liberating and purifying. So. From my heart to yours, just wishing you the most incredible day, the most incredible week, the most incredible life, and we will connect again soon.

Thanks so much, guys. Grateful for each and every one of you that tunes in to not just this podcast, but to yourselves, to your heart, to your truth, and we will see each other again soon.