Refuge Worldwide: Black FM

Day Eve is joined in the studio by Antunga and Deevah, opening a portal into the Particle Accelerator mission- where cosmic highs, loving laughter, and harmonious hope flow freely across the airwaves.

Day Eve also overcomes their fear, stepping out from the bedroom and into the world as a rapper.

Transcript

SPEAKER_05 0:01

Refuge worldwide. Refuge worldwide. Refuge worldwide.

SPEAKER_16 0:11

Last night I was so depressed and I wake up by you and I turned to the book of Revelation. If people would just give read the Bible and read the book of Revelation, they would really turn around and straighten up. This is all we need to do is just get the good books and read it.

SPEAKER_12 6:49

Come on, people. And Tunga and David. We are Particle Accelerator.

SPEAKER_10 6:56

Know what it is.

SPEAKER_12 6:57

And we're just gonna, you know what I mean. We're just gonna be talking, we're gonna be sharing, we're gonna be giving you the vibes that you need, that you're that you're you're begging for, basically. Um so like that's definitely the vibe. Um that was Curtis Mayfield with If There's Hell Below, we're all gonna go. And I chose that song because I've been actually when I when I'm listening to that song, I'm like 12 years old and I'm catching the bus 41 towards school. And it was just like I would be looking at all of these, like going through Wood Green, and like going up this hill, and I just remember just like having repeating this in my head if there's hell below, we're all gonna go. And it's just like this remembrance that even before I allowed myself to be fully all of the things that I am, this was like a calling and a knowledge inside of me that we are in this together or we're all gonna die here together. And like I just feel like also it's so crazy to YouTube comments because people were like even more necessary today, you know what I mean? Like, like it's still easy in 2026. Like, because really we forgetting if there's a hell below, we're all gonna go. I mean, there's just some people who's like, this was the 60s, you know what I mean? But we're gonna get into why it's black FM and why even in the 60s we already knew this, you know what I mean? Because these are this is something that black what like if you exist in a black body and unambiguously black body, you know, you know, because you are the least cared for in society and the most invisibilized in terms of pain. Um but we're not gonna get into that right now. We're not gonna get into that right now. You know what I mean? But I'm not a liar. Um so we're gonna talk about what part who we gonna win what are we gonna do? Y'all lead me.

SPEAKER_10 9:02

You just we should go into the questions.

SPEAKER_12 9:05

So, like, what is particle accelerator? Should I answer first? Okay, since the mic is in my hand. Um what is particle accelerator? Well, that is us. Um tricksters in the creation of destruction in a formidable silence. A scream born and a galaxy is created. In a blink of an eye, they created love. In a blink of an eye, they changed their face. In a moment it was too late. United in grace, divine in every way. Tricksters in the creation of destruction, in a formidable silence. A scream is born and a galaxy is created. In a blink of an eye, they created love. In the blink of an eye, they changed their face. In a moment it was too late, united in grace, divine in every way. Wow. Oh, I loved hearing this is also the first time that we've Um That's emotional. I'm emotional, I'm emotional, I'm emotional. But it's it's like this is also a movement, like we're inviting you into it. You know what I mean? You will be activated because we're in it together. And it's an invitation. So even if you're not in the like you're not chilling with us, jamming in the room, you know what I mean? When we're when we're playing, when we're doing that, that's the moment where you join us. So it's really a calling um for us to to be together. Um so yeah, let's get let's get shall we have a little bit.

SPEAKER_10 11:58

Shall we go ahead on it?

SPEAKER_09 12:00

We can't be stopping real to dream.

SPEAKER_11 12:25

A million voices of doubt about Who am I who dares the dream? Who am I to believe things would be different for me? That I deserve better, and my people deserve better. A million voices of doubt suffocate me. When I try to come out of the air, I try to breathe a breath of relief. When I try to leave the heaviness of monotony and the quick fails of conformity, but who am I who dares to dream? When my own history books teach me more about my limitations and my trauma than my potential in life, the audacity to dream comes to us all at different points in our journey, either in waves of fury or gently like a pleading child. Who am I who dares to dream?

unknown 13:19

Who am I who dares to dream?

SPEAKER_11 13:24

Who am I who dares to dream? But who am I who dares to dream? To touch a blue sky and add my own hue, to add my own color to the atmosphere. Who am I to meet the angels when they fly? And add my voice to their choir and their cries. I've dared to dream a million dreams, but only need to act upon one. To act upon the voice of my inner child, who scoffs at the word can't. She screams back in the face of doubt. She runs away from the cages in which she's born. I need only act upon one dream that cosmos may conspire to match my energy, match my intensity. So I let go and I bent space and time. I met the stars on the dance floor of eternity. They ain't never seen moves like mine. I am the daughter of the unknown, the spark that dared to dream a brighter vision. I am the child of the infinite, choosing a human experience in order to test the limits of a system that predates me, a system that did not make me and cannot read my So I set fire to the old me and stepped into my light. When they ask, how dare you? The audacity, I ask, how dare you not? Embrace the unknown with a fortified faith, destroy the mirror that reflects the fear they teach you. How dare you not wake up and rise from the bed of mediocrity that they made for you? I once asked myself, Who am I who dares to dream? Who am I who dares to dream? Who am I who dares to dream? I am me, I am you. Together we can dare to dream a new dream. So big that our inner child says, I told you so. A dream so pure that all a welcome is seen when no one ever asks, Who are you who dares to dream?

SPEAKER_00 16:33

Up again, looking at a man, make a show for the same. Has it been a year, make a show on the stair. The wheel where I am. Cheers to the lone I say, Cheers to the tiny during degrevas. When you write your fears and hopes on the baby, music is the way I acknowledge the makeup. Fortunate needs my heart. What you listen to is my heart. I probably lose heart, cause it shit so much. I probably lose friends, cause I care about my people more than catching our stuff. Peace to the ones on my side as my evils. Peace to the ones, bridge your gaps on the beep boot. My strength don't come from the evil. I sing songs from my heart, cause I am me. From the day I started to the day I departed.

SPEAKER_08 17:08

All that want to be, I am me. From the day I started to the day I departed.

SPEAKER_07 17:16

All that I want to be, I am me, I'm going nowhere. I ain't going nowhere. It's all that I want to be. I'm going nowhere. I'm going nowhere. It's all that I want.

SPEAKER_00 17:36

Me, with it in the pot of gold. With it, cause I'm heart and soul. With it in the end for the lessons I know. With it for the strength that I see, I hold. With it in the eye, I see deeper than the eye. Little in gold, not eye. Wondering why. Now I really understand why. Music is still my life. Yes, it's the greatest. Now I sing high on my greatest. All my kids in my praises. Yes, it's amazing. Negativity is fading. Positive anticipation, feeling like My joy comes in the morning.

SPEAKER_08 18:05

My joy comes in because I am weak. From the day I started to the day I departed. From the day I started to the day I departed.

SPEAKER_07 18:25

I want no way up, I'm going no way up. I am I want no way up, I know no way up.

SPEAKER_00 18:40

Please to the one to a made, peace to the love that I baby, peace to the beast to the art. Love for the love of the vision, strength in the humiliation. Please do the one to a made, peace to the love that I baby, peace to the peace to the art, love for the love of the vision, spring to the humiliation.

SPEAKER_08 19:05

I'm the way that I want no way.

SPEAKER_12 19:37

Okay, so who who chose uh Genesis? That was you, Antonga, right?

SPEAKER_10 19:41

Yeah, yeah, that was me. Um, so yeah, Dare to Dream. The song is called Dare to Dream. She fool. This song randomly like this song randomly like it randomly like popped up in my life like in like November, December, you know what I mean? Then I found a whole album and I was like, I just kind of fire, you know what I'm saying? Then I was like, yeah, I've been in my fields this week. I've really been in my fields, you know. I can't even lie, man, just been thick, you know. And um, yeah, you know, you just get sometimes and like you really see what you're tapped into, then you first put yourself in the world and you see what whatever the fuck is going on is tapped into. And you're like, damn, I'm actually dreaming, you know what I mean? Like, I mean in the best way possible. And it's like, to me, it seems like the conviction is so real why we need to do what we're doing, you know, and why we do it. You know, revolution, liberation, and just to show that we do and change and all of that, you know. But then I realize that some people just sound like a distant dream, like you make a live, so it's actually like who are you that dare us to dream, you know? And I'm like, that's me, and that's the cats I'd be riding with, you know what I'm saying? But yeah, I think it's just uh it's a very affirmational song if you're really about what you're doing in this world as it is right now. It's like do it. Do it.

SPEAKER_12 20:47

I feel like I want to know why D. Because you played it a lot.

SPEAKER_10 20:59

Yeah. I just think that Diva understood the reference though from a very silly crazy, silly series. Okay, and I just tried to pretend like I didn't say it.

SPEAKER_05 21:11

Okay, okay, okay, now I understand.

SPEAKER_10 21:13

So no one should rewind.

SPEAKER_12 21:17

I believe we shouldn't be live. We should have we should have recorded.

SPEAKER_10 21:24

Something just very silly. Like if you get the reference you about it? You have a tacky humor. That's what it is.

SPEAKER_12 21:35

Okay, uh was it I of me?

SPEAKER_09 21:37

Yeah, that's um yeah, I mean I mean like affirmations uh sampas like one of my biggest idols. Like I'm completely, completely in love with everything that she does. So the song I think was very instrumental in even just the journey of self-love. For myself. So just like yeah, just the clear affirmations. The IME from the day I started. The day I started to the day I departed. It's like it's all that I want to be. It's just really it's a nice reminder. Especially when shit is just like you know, thick. Just always know that like what does it mean to actually have your own back? That also that also comes out when I when I think about that. It says like real. Real powerful, powerful song.

SPEAKER_12 22:28

Always, always. Always, always. It's always the ones that you think that are quiet, you know what I mean? Literally. People don't put enough respect. I was always just telling you with this week, people don't put enough respect or when you just don't say too much, but you'll be saying the right things all of the time. Literally. You know what I mean? So let's diva listen. I'm like, man, this is the just what's going on. No, I always see here Diva's eyes, actually. And his eyes have been here a few times. But that's the realness. Yeah. That's the realness. I've been feeling like, especially this week, I've been like, if you don't have my front, my back, or my side, like what's the point? Like, what's the point? Like, what's the point in these burning times? I don't wanna be, I don't wanna be questioning that. You know what I mean? I need to trust the information that you've already given me because it's like this is a time where it's like, no, only Tony K and Bara, like, I I start off with the understanding that we're at war, but it's like it's so dangerous out on these streets. You know what I mean? It's so dangerous out on these streets, and it's just like, I gotta know if you've got my back. So I'm not looking towards someone who can't help me when I need help. Because I need help. So it's one of those questions with when if you don't see me as a vulnerable person, if you don't fit see me as someone who needs help, then you're also a dangerous person to me. You know what I mean? Because like I'm basically screaming and begging, you know, as much as I can in a world that is insistent on um, once again, yeah.

SPEAKER_10 23:49

Yeah not valuing black life. Yeah, literally. And I feel like because I've been running about this too, ranting, and I feel like sometimes people think, okay, you're just emotional. Yeah, I'm emotional as hell. Because it's like, because I don't know, even like yesterday, you know, there's a whole conversation about community, and I guess for me, it's just seeing how I love anti-blackness are there's like the moment people don't like you anymore or are terrified of you, somehow you're not deserving of being protected anymore. Shit like that. So it's like, are you really my community? If like your desire to see me safe and to see me protected and to see me healthy and to see me well, and to know you know what I mean? Because I really see people always waiting, for instance, to justify their anti-black feelings towards somebody else by villainizing a person and thing like that, you know, always moving us in suspicion. So it's like you had better have my back or front and side.

SPEAKER_12 24:31

Real real, real. Uh so what what was the we have we have like what this is an emotional show. We're like, I was doing the play, I was doing the plays. I was like, oh wow, we're like in our fields. Like in our fields. Like, so you know, we're gonna be speaking to realness. What's the second question? We've got this is all the second question.

SPEAKER_10 24:51

Okay. The second question is what are your everyday technologies of time travel?

SPEAKER_09 24:58

Yeah. Um should you answer no after the next batch of no, they just cause you got the mic first.

SPEAKER_12 25:06

Is it my turn to sing it?

SPEAKER_09 25:07

No, I thought it was.

SPEAKER_12 25:11

Oh, okay, let's go.

SPEAKER_15 26:48

In the land of my mother's ancestors, stand the imposing mighty Shimani Mani Mountain, their summit, wearing a crown of thick grey mist. Shimani Mani.

SPEAKER_02 27:04

Oh Gomoravakuru. Chimani Mani Chimani Gomoralakuru.

SPEAKER_15 27:40

On that summit, sits some down jagged rocks, yeah in, yeah, out, just squatting under the shadow of the mist, with not a single hope of seeing their own shadows. Shimani Mani. Shimani Mani! One feels compassion, feels like making a prayer. How can such innocent pieces of creation spend a whole lifetime without a sight of their own shadow? Shimani Mani! Shimani Mani! But how can one make a plea with the creator when shadows are just but stolen light? How can one make an argument with their creator when shadows are just but denied light? How can one make a plea with their creator when shadows are just but stolen life? But shall one just stand aside and what? While the mist robs the rocks of their life? Shall one just stand aside and look while the mist blindets them with their own shadow white, why am I light?

SPEAKER_09 31:44

I think for me the song is is a is uh is a is a good example of that. I think music is probably one of my primary ways of time traveling just listening to specific sounds that take me back to a place that feels familiar, even if I've never been there before. Um but like this song, for example, it's talking about the chorus Chimani Mani is like a mountain range. Um I think it's west, southwest of Zimbabwe. It's a very spiritually charged place. That's really that's that's that's mostly what I can say about it. Um just very it's beautiful, like it's one of the most beautiful mountain ranges I've seen. I haven't actually seen it in person, but that's also the area that my mom is from and my mom's family. Um so just like when I listen to some of the songs and I listen to specific music and I desire to be somewhere that I've never really seen before, I always feel like the feelings that come from the music that I'm listening to, specifically the wind, um and how the air travels, I can't I can't even read I can't even explain everybody like in words. But like I feel the wind when I listen to specific songs. Um and I guess when the vibrations and the way the sound travels through air. I feel like I can I can be in that environment or I can I can step into that place, I can step into that space. So your music is definitely my everyday time traveling for sure, for sure. For sure, for sure.

SPEAKER_10 33:30

Yo, um what is your everyday technologies of time travel? I'm like this is the type of stuff that I can very easily start nerding out about, so I was like, I had to write something. Um so I wrote this like yesterday to maybe spur my own thoughts. But I think my everyday technologies of time travel really for me is I'd say intention and memory. Um those sound like abstract things, but really like if you really dip them, you know what I mean? Intention and memory. I feel like when I do something with intention, I create a somatic memory, right? Like my body remembers doing that action because I did it with intention. And that memory that I create stores the intention. And I feel like together those become a portal with an infinite repo effect, you know. Um, one that is no longer dependent on the specific thing itself and its essence. Material things hold significance, but spirit transcends them. So again, like it becomes a portal. This memory I have of doing this, um, it becomes a a portal where I remember why I did it. But the reason as to why I did it informs me of so many different things that I'm able to travel into time beyond even just the specific action that I did. So it even transcends the physical realm. So I'd think about that in the context of like sound, in like taste, and like smells, you know, because you mentioned music, but you even mentioned the somatic experience of listening music, you know. I think for me, holistically I didn't say sensuality, like the ability to really sense wholly and fully with my body and access that because it's allowing my body to move and to feel in ways that basically possibility is infinite, and part of that possibility being infinite is like not existing in this you know, like carceral version of time and space, because I'm actually able to move beyond it and locate things that I didn't know I actually hold within me. You know what I mean? So, yeah, again, intention and memory. Like I'm speaking into this mic, but if I choose to intentionally remember how I got where I am, where this mic got where it is, the semiconductors in it, I can't help but think about how technology has come to this point, what that means for you know, black genocide and black life, what that means for what I have to do when I'm speaking to a mic, you know, and the truth that I have to speak to this mic, ETC, ETC, it becomes a whole experience beyond just speaking into a mic and saying the things that I'm saying, you know what I mean. Um but yeah, maybe I just confused you more. But that's my that's my everyday technology.

SPEAKER_12 35:43

I feel like I need to know what's ETC et cetera, like oh okay. Like honestly, so this is when I show my age, but I'm like, what the hell? No, I speak a lot in acronyms for some reason. I speak a lot in the I speak a lot in acronyms, but that isn't it, that is some youth that is some baby bloodshed. This has been there for time. Yeah, but then it's like etc. I don't know why you can't say etc. You know, I just didn't understand. But I also realized we didn't even give any explanation, we were just like questions. So we were just like jabbing and hanging, and then we were like, I feel like the reason why we wanted to give is these are also questions you should ask yourselves because really we're always what what we're doing, why I'm on the mic, why I'm not in my room, but the reason why I'm on the mic, the reason why we're here together is because we are we really we believe in liber liberation, we believe in revolution, and we believe that we can get there together. And there are some things, especially if we are comfortable here in the West, here up in Germany, here up in wherever you are, and you are comfortable and you are able to simply be a witness to the extreme amount of violence and genocide that's going on in the world, is that you ask yourself these questions because it's very different for what it means to bring to bring the iron hand onto you just brought some glasses already to the European land, you know. This is an ever-changing room, and I'm with it's so beautiful to be with to be with like to be with tricksters, because I feel like I'm always like I'm a shapeshifting, time-traveling trickster, and that's my vibe, that's my MO, you know what I mean? But it's like there are so many different types, times, and types of tricksters, and we were gonna be doing a bingo night, burning bingo tonight, and it will be co-hosted by all three of us, and we will all have our own trickster magic, we'll all have our own trickster spark um in order to incite to ignite and encourage the liberation and revolution of you all while just remixing a classic game, you know what I mean? Because the way the world works is the power is usually in the government's hands, and the way revolution works is by the power going into your hands. So, how do we, you know what I mean? How do we how do we play with that? How do we take something that you think you know and make it into something that you hold? Um, but let me stay on track now. I've done that. Um, what what's the question? Um, what is your everyday technology for time travel? So write that down and answer that later. Um, I feel like what's my everyday technology? I would say writing. Um I I would say writing. Like time for me is like tomorrow's my experiment, today is my energy. Um like tender intergalactic movements explore. And I feel like I, yeah, writing has always been a way for me to to to hold myself and like even today, I've I've been doing so many things this week, and I was like, let me just stay tuned. And I just I just had to let my spirit speak through my hands because that's one of the ways in which my spirits speak through me. Um, as well as in through my meditation where I actually realize I don't actually exist in time. I think to be a time traveler for me is to understand, as well as to be a shapeshifter, is acknowledging these are all realms that I can explore and exist within rather than something that I am trapped within. But the time, the time, like the the fact is that my body is a capsule of time, you know what I mean. That is what is mean like today is my experiment, today is my energy. Like it's like I am, and it's like time is also circular to me, you know what I mean? So it's just what am I going round in? I don't know, like once again, it's more like is it makes sense if in if you understand that kind of frequency, it's like time, time, time, time is always time life is a spiral whereas time is circular. Um so yeah, time travel is is through writing, it's through it's through the understanding that time is something that I am trapped in within my body, but it's also something that I I don't I don't abide to and I don't abide to it because there are so many ways in which I exist. Of like, let me just also just talk about the forms of time that I hold, please, which would understand why I'm always perpetually late, but also like what it means to just be like fuck this castor of forms of time, you know what I mean? Because I feel like I'm now trying to do a lot of things to ignite my life in forms of productivity, so I have to hold months and stuff, but like, so you've got now, so now is now is now, you know, and then you've got um today, which is and then you've got tomorrow. I'm not gonna go into the acronyms of all of these, where you've got everybody have acronyms, there's worlds within these worlds, you know what I mean? Because there is a whole portal about what it means to be now, what it means to be today, what it means to be tomorrow, what it means to be eternity, you know what I mean, and what it means to be forever. Um, and forever is the passage through your heart. Um, and that is also a time that is constantly changing. So to m forever can feel like one second, and it can also feel like a year, it can also feel like an eternity. It matters how much you are feeling into it. Um, and at that current moment, that's all the concepts of time that is coming to my brain. Yeah, I know there's a probably a big one I'm missing.

SPEAKER_10 40:54

Is it now?

SPEAKER_12 40:55

Now, uh, today, tomorrow, forever, eternity. Oh, always, always, always, always. You know what I mean? Because always, always is a funny one, you know? Always is a funny one, but it's it's always. Um, but yeah, shall we, shall we, shall we continue? Shall we keep on keep the vibes flowing? Let us know how you're feeling in the chat, also. We want to hear from you.

SPEAKER_13 41:30

I've been holding down, freaking out, I've been sitting up, looking alone, I've been spinning in my head real fast, flipping things, staying on the screen, no five, high fire, you've been real fast on the first time I've been on the ground, be town, I've been don't even ground, I'll be no hell, don't be able to get over the end, you know, that in my number three, something that was one, just make it under, I know, you thought the song was over.

SPEAKER_12 44:09

Never stops. Never stops. Accelerating.

SPEAKER_10 44:12

We're just gonna trick start. Precisely. Y'all should come to for bingo. You know where bingo is gonna be? Bingo's gonna be at Zonen Alley 100. What's the postcode? 12045 Berlin.

SPEAKER_09 44:25

12045.

SPEAKER_10 44:27

Precisely. Make sure you type in that postcode, Zonen Alle 100. You don't end up in like Leipzig or something.

SPEAKER_05 44:32

You know what I'm saying?

SPEAKER_10 44:33

Come for casino for social medicine. Casino for social medicine. Are you keeping that name, guys? Burning bingo. You know what I'm saying? Come come come get that medicine.

SPEAKER_06 47:14

I am the pride. I hear five. I am something crowded tree. Finding harmony in between our mission to bear with roots deep in the soil of our souls. We have branches reaching to all the skies. I am why I am.

SPEAKER_10 48:33

What's happening?

SPEAKER_09 48:37

So our next question is.

SPEAKER_10 48:39

What's the next question? What does silence mean to you?

SPEAKER_09 48:43

What does silence mean to you?

SPEAKER_10 48:45

Okay. I'm gonna go for this one. Um silence, silence, silence. Silence for me is the space within which I listen for my sound to locate myself. You know, um, I need to retreat to silence in order to listen for my sound, to listen to my voice for sure, but even first to listen for it. Because sometimes it's a whole messy orchestra of the soundscape. You know what I mean? It's overstimulating city stuff, but in general, you know. So it's a space within which I listen for my sound to locate myself. It's the space where I consent my body into being a resounding chamber to host and amplify the processes and the purposes of spirit, you know, because I do believe that whatever I put out of my whatever sound comes from me really is about some real shit. You know what I'm saying? So even in silence is when I really consent to actually being that, allowing myself to be a voice of the spirits in terms of what they are trying to do, what they're trying to say, what they're trying to, you know, bring into this world. Silence for me is the source itself, you know. It is from where sound forms and to where sound returns. Um, silence for me is an invitation to listen and to resound. Silence for me is a clearing, you know. Silence for me is really where I listen to what I call my chaos, which for me, my chaos is uh I wrote down my chaos is a choir tune to the key of love. You know what I mean? And so when I feel like everything outside is just overstimulating me, I need to retreat to silence to listen for my sound and find that chaotic choir tune to the key of love and all the different voices and melodies and harmonies and sounds and patterns that it speaks, you know what I'm saying? So I understand how to then amplify that back out loud in the way I move and the way I vibrate into this world, which is a sound but also an action. You know what I'm saying? Yeah. Wait, silence to you, Diva.

SPEAKER_09 50:30

That's a rush, that's a rush. Um I think for me this is where I found myself. Um Yeah, I think Yeah, I think it's it's it's when I can yeah, I think many powers what you're saying. But like where I can actually listen to myself because I feel like there's so much noise. And noise is not always a bad thing. Um but there's just so many other sounds constantly, constantly, and like when there's silence or when I have silence, then I can actually choose to listen to what I want to listen to. Because I feel like subconsciously, all the different sounds they also influence the different voices that are in my head or that are inside. So also being able to pick and choose what you actually want to listen to, what you want to give your attention to. But also like so many things speak at the same time. Even if I think about it like spiritually, all the different voices that are trying to communicate to me. So when there's actually silence, then maybe then I can actually I can listen more intentionally and not being forced to just hear all the different taking all the different sounds from my environment that I can actually just like focus on specific sounds and hear maybe messages that I actually need to be hearing. Sometimes when I'm just quiet, it's not like the most random thoughts that come into my mind, like, what if I do this? Like, you know, so I should, yeah, actually. This has been ringing in my head so much, like when I'm walking around, whatever I'm doing, certain thoughts are in my head, but when I actually have silence, then I can actually unpack those things, you know. There's actually space um for my voice in in in and for me. I there's actually I can actually make space for my own voice in silence, so that's just you know what's silence.

SPEAKER_12 52:30

Um what is silence to me? Silence is my favorite sound. Um silence is loud, silence screams, silence is the deep silence within. Is it the home within? Silence is home, silence feels like infinite colours seen and unseen in every particle, finding peace and solids and solace in all of the infinite spaces of me. And anyone who knows me or maybe knows a bit of like my lore knows that I was non-verbal uh for the first few years of my life, and coming into voice and sound was very traumatizing. Um, and I love silence, and knowing that silence is always a home with me was actually how I was able to leave the desert which I was staying at to come into the city to start becoming the form that you see today. And especially in this burning world, it means that I wish I was I wish I could still exist in silence, but I'm also a person where what my what my purpose is is to use my voice. Um so I'm actually gonna rap for you, actually. Come on, um, because well that's what Particle Accelerate actually is. I I I rap in the group. I it's a bit of like I grew up on hip-hop, I grew up in the most vulgar hip-hop. Um I love, I actually was thinking about it, like vulgar, explicit hip-hop, whether or not it's like violent or whether or not it's super sexual, it's somewhat horror. You know what I mean? It gives this sense of like vulgarity explicitness that I love. Like I love it. I I I I really, it's like, I'm just like, I may be a misogynist, but you know what I mean? When I listen to my, when I listen to some particular songs, it's just like you shouldn't be like, I was like rapping along to like Eminem, like kill you, criminal. You know what I mean? Like mystical, like watching the explicit videos as well. You're just like, what's happening here? I'm gay. Um so this is actually, this is this is a rap. We're gonna be playing the final track, but I'm nervous. This when I when I'm nervous, I always always talk sh I always talk shit. Cook that shit, you know what I'm saying?

SPEAKER_10 54:39

Let's cloud take over the room. You know what I mean? This is the sky right here. You know what I'm saying?

SPEAKER_12 54:44

You know, that's why this is my people because they always give me the, they always encourage me. It's a different real, real, real.

SPEAKER_10 54:52

It's a different real.

SPEAKER_12 54:53

Real real. Tears of a clown, I want to tell you jokes, but I gotta tear your ear to the ground, turn you into a comet spitting into sound. A sound that exterminates the civilized, that exterminates the mythologies and all of its rotting fruit, truths that reflects the gods they choose, shape slave ships and shoes, exterminate the civilized, exterminate the rational mind, exterminate the visions of your disguise. You no longer live in my mind. Oh, how you destroyed your own life. Your death is not even the end of your demise. Oh, how the spirits are gonna terrorize. Did you think you could destroy my light? Dark as the night. We don't need to destroy you, just get out of my way. Your smivere's were a waste of space. No more mouse chase. The night does not chase the day. There was darkness before the gods made earth into change. You will not outlive the disgrace, the men who made gods in devilish aims, men who forgot to create, exterminate the civilized, exterminate a rational mind, exterminate all of those who want to tell you lies. We're coming for you tonight. We're gonna come and tell you all of the things that you need to hear. Have no fear, we are here.

SPEAKER_10 55:51

Practical accelerator.

SPEAKER_12 55:53

So that's just a part of what we'll be doing. Exterminate the civilized. You know what I mean? We're coming for you. So if you feel afraid, if you feel threatened, understand it's just the beginning. Come through.

SPEAKER_10 56:33

Tester, you know what I'm saying? When you see particular accelerator anywhere I come through, you know what I'm saying? It's a movement, you know what I'm saying?

SPEAKER_03 56:48

There's a new voice coming. And you can hear it if you try. And it's growing with every day it passes by there's a brain rising, clean and sweet and free. Yes, a new world's coming. You know the one I'm talking about, the one we've had visions of, and it's coming in peace, coming in joy, coming in peace, peace, come in joy, come in, peace, come in, joy, coming in love. And I saw another sign in heaven, great and marvelous, seven angels having the seven last planets, for in them is built up the land, and I saw it as if I sing the last minute. And bum bumper, and it's empty, I'm like, Well comment, and it's not new comments. This is the one that's comments.