This week on The Gutsy Podcast, we're talking all about something that I didn't even notice until recently, and that's the fear of success.
The entire month of February has been extremely weird for me. I have been on this emotional rollercoaster. Now, granted, I blame half of it on the fact that we live in Pennsylvania and Maryland and it's been great for the last four and a half months, but the other side of it, I had to really stop and digest like, Laura, what in the hell is going on with you?
I started to really break down what actually is happening. So, the very first months’ worth of content for this podcast I planned and recorded in days. Done. The content for February literally took me an entire month, and March, while off to a little bit of a better start because I planned all the content in one day, still has taken me two weeks longer than it should have to actually record the content. Now when I say this out loud, I sound like a super procrastinator. But when I really broke it down, I realized that I got weirded out that you guys actually liked this stuff.
We have been flooded with amazing feedback and I want to thank you guys so, so much and I want you to know that I read every single word of what you guys type and send into us. But if I'm being totally transparent, it also weirded me out. And it's not the comments and what you guys were saying that's weirding me out - it's me that's weirding me out.
See, I have fought the internal battle of worthiness basically my entire life and I know that a lot of you have very similar thoughts like: Who am I to say this?; Why would anyone want to listen to me?; What makes me different than anyone else?; 1,000 other people have already said the things that I'm saying, so why should I do it?
And this year, we bit the bullet and we just did it. And... it's working. I think that part of this whole transition and fear of success that I'm realizing is shedding that unworthiness cape that I've been sporting around my entire life. (Continue Reading)