What Happens When You Realize You’re the Common Denominator? | Tara, Part 2

What happens when you finally recognize that you are the common denominator in your own story?

In part two of Tara’s journey on Monomyth Diaries, she shares the tools, mindset shifts, and daily practices that helped transform her life, marriage, and sense of purpose. Through faith, counseling, discipline, forgiveness, and intentional partnership with her husband Keeley, Tara began confronting resentment, healing old wounds, and building a more grounded and meaningful life.

From completing the 75 Hard challenge to learning how to show up differently in her relationships, Tara opens up about the difficult but powerful work of personal growth and emotional healing.

What daily habits actually create lasting change? How do you move from blame to responsibility? And what happens when healing becomes a choice you practice every day?

If you’ve ever struggled with resentment, wondered how to rebuild your mindset, or wanted to grow into a healthier version of yourself, Tara’s story offers hope, honesty, and encouragement for the journey.

🔗 Links & Resources

Tara is a loving wife, entrepreneur, owner of Hair by Tara, and co-owner of The Picnic Poet. She and her husband Keeley previously owned HTL Training Facility and continue supporting one another’s purpose and calling. Tara is currently writing her first book, Holy Hood and Healing.

If you want to know more:

How to Make Shit Happen by Sean Whalen

Love and Respect by Dr Emerson Eggerichs

HTL Athletics

Picnic Poet

Your World Within Podcast with Eddie Pinero 

75 Hard

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Transcript

Chapter 1: Intro

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Hi everyone and welcome to the Monomyth Diaries, a podcast where ordinary people get to share their hero's journey. I'm Andy and I'll be your host. We'll

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discover powerful insights, critical moments of growth, and much more. Thanks for joining us. We all have a monom to share and someone out there needs to

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hear it. Welcome back to the Monomoth Diaries. Thank you for having me.

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Pleasure to be back. It was so much fun last time we get to do it again. We left off with your turning point and you had

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said you are becoming intentional. So we're going to pick up after the divorce of your second husband. Yes.

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Can you describe what life is like for you as a single mom now?

Chapter 2: Life as a single mom

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So good and bad. You know, you you have the responsibility all on your shoulders. So that can be kind of overwhelming for sure.

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Doubleged sword.

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Doubleged sword. Yeah. But I also look back over those memories. Like what cool times it was like the two of them crawling up in bed with me, begging to

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get to sleep with me at night and helping them with their homework and cooking dinner and doing all those fun things. Like it it was it was good times, don't get me wrong, but there was a lot of still hurt in a in a divorce.

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Obviously, he said, she said, and back and forth and communication wasn't great. It was stressful. It was very stressful. I remember at one point I was

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having such bad anxiety over trying to take care of everything at that time that I actually went to my doctor and asked her to put me on a prescription

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anti-anxiety medication. And I just remember taking that maybe for a week or two. And I remember at one point I literally didn't care about anything.

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And so I went from caring too much and and driving myself crazy trying to balance it all and juggle it all to suddenly I didn't care if my lights got turned off. Oh well, I've got candles.

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That was my mentality. So, I stopped taking as soon as I started kind of noticing that that was where that was headed. But then I realized, okay, I've

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got to figure out some hardcore ways to be able to deal with this stuff.

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Yeah. You had said once that this is a time period in your life where for the first time, you're going to look inward.

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I got to stop trying to put a band-aid on things. It's time for me to really kind of wrestle with, you know, what got me here? How can I not get here again in

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the future? And so we bounced around it a little and then I finally was able to purchase our first home. And so we

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bought a little three-bedroom, two bath house in Mills Point. And there was a church that was right outside of my neighborhood called Current. And so we started going to Current at that time,

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which is really funny because again, Key and his ex-wife used to go to Current.

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Get out of here. I have no idea how we never ran into each other. I have no idea. In the first episode, we talk a lot about Key, who is your third

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husband, but how he pops in and out of your life. Yes. Since high school. Yeah.

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Yeah. So, this is third, fourth time he's randomly popped into your life.

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Yeah. He went to the church. We didn't run into each other at church, which was wild. Now, it's so funny cuz we'll talk about all these different places we've been. Like, he was explaining to our

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15-year-old that the hangout for the Katie people was Sonic and the hangout for the Taylor people was Taco Bell. And so he would say that he would go to Taco

Chapter 3: Looking inward

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Bell to meet Taylor chicks. And it's so funny because like I would go to the Sonic to hang out with some of my Katie friends. And so it was funny that we

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just we literally never saw each other at either of those places. It's funny. God just gave me little glimpses of,

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hey, this guy's going to be a main character for you eventually. Just wait for it.

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That's crazy. So you're attending church as one of your tools.

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Attending church. So, I also had been going to a counselor off and on since I had gotten divorced. Her name was Connie. Connie was a big contribution to

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growing myself and my inner work as well because she was trying to help me sort out some of the stuff from my childhood.

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So, my mom has been married three times.

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She got married when she was 19 years old. She got married again when she was and had me at 23 years old. I was literally repeating the same things that

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my mom had done. And I remember it was in those therapy sessions with her that kind of like that aha moment of, "Oh my gosh, I'm doing the exact same thing my mom did."

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Yeah. You're starting to identify all the patterns.

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Starting to identify the patterns. I'm starting to notice the picking up and leaving. At what point am I going to set my roots and stay there and deal with

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whatever it is that I'm facing and not just pick up and run away?

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Any other tools or strategies that you're using?

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I did start reading a little bit more at that time cuz Connie was giving me some some books. One of the books that I read that was a kind of a big one at that

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time was Love and Respect. My ex-husband and I did a little bit of a study towards the end of our relationship on that book, but then Connie had me reread

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it myself after we had divorced because she was like, "Before you read it, and you read it in the hopes of saving your

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marriage, now I need you to read it with the hopes of a future relationship." It changed that perspective of that book for me because when you read something

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and you're in desperation, well, I'm no longer desperate at this point. Now I'm just open. I'm open to receiving new information, new thoughts, new

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perspectives. And so rereading that book with that openness. And so now like I could probably read that book again and get something totally different from it.

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Or what do they call that? Confirmation bias. Getting out of it what you want to get out of it. Really you want to get out of it. What you want to get out of it. But it also made me realize that one thing that I was guilty

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of that I had also seen in my past through other relationships is there's a circle. And when you're loving somebody

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and you're not communicating well, it's like they're on the outside of that circle, but you're chasing each other,

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but there's this boundary between the two of you and you never can connect.

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When a man's feeling disrespected, it's hard for him to get in that circle with you. And when a woman's feeling unloved,

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it's hard for her to invite the man into her circle. And so, I started realizing that sometimes stopping and not being in

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the heat of that turmoil, that we're on the same page. We're not fighting against each other. We're fighting against the world with each other. So,

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I've utilized a lot of what I've learned from that book and from Connie into my marriage now. And what was the name of the book? It was Love and Respect.

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Love and respect. Do you know the author? I don't. We can look it up. I was just curious.

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And I think it's interesting that you're recognizing these patterns because you start dating. Yes. And recognizing patterns.

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Oh, I was picking out the exact same thing every time. I was attracted to a lot of similar traits and things that before had not worked. So, what am I continuing to try to push?

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You date a man shortly after the divorce of your second husband. And we don't have to get into all of it. It could be a whole podcast in itself.

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We'll just call him the controlling boyfriend. He was very, very controlling and you recognize that straight away.

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But in this, it's going to propel you again into another relationship where Keley comes in again. I just find it fascinating that he keeps popping in.

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Yes. So tell us about what happens there.

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I had started dating a guy. He was like Prince Charming had finally shown up. At first,

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I mean, he learned me and my needs and what could help me. And man, did he use them to manipulate and Oh, he was good.

Chapter 4: Broken picker

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He was good. I remember one time he had asked me I could go out out on a Friday with him. And I told him, I was like, "I can go out Saturday, but I can't go out Friday. I've got to mow my yard. I've

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got a bunch of things that I need to take care of around the house." And I remember him telling me, "I'll swing by the salon. I'll pick up your house key.

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I'll go to your house and I'll mow your yard if you'll just go out with me tonight." And I remember thinking to myself, "Oh my gosh, I hadn't had a guy mow my yard and I don't even know how long. Hallelujah." Right? So, he comes

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and he picks up my key. Well, little did I know that he actually took my key and made a copy of it. So now he has access to my home when I'm not there.

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Yeah.

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Uh took me a while to figure that one out. So we had a few other random things. Like one day he showed up at my

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door late at night and I had makeup on and my outfit from the day and I just finished dinner and so I was putting the dishes away and stuff and he knocked on

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the door and he was supposed to be offshore so I wasn't expecting him at all. So I answered the door and he came in and of course I looked shocked because I was surprised he was there.

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Well, he asked why I looked so surprised and who's here and I was just like, "The boys? What are you talking about?" So,

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he walks past me and walks on into my living room. Then he walks around into my bedroom and he was like, "You smell good." I was like, "Thanks." He goes, "So, why'd you get all dressed up today?

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Why why do you have perfume on?" "Cuz that's what I do every morning." I don't know. You know what I mean? Yeah. Not out of the norm for me.

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Not out of the norm for me. So, that was a weird thing. So when he walked into my bathroom, at that point I had already know, like red flags were enough for me

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to be like, "Okay, what's he going to do now? Now I'm nervous." And so he reached over and he looked at all my perfume.

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And he goes, "Is that the perfume you're wearing?" And I was like, "Yeah." And so he smashed it on the tile in my bathroom.

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And I had three or four bottles of perfume, nice perfume that my mom would buy me for birthdays or Christmas.

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Always, they always came for my mom. And so he ended up crashing or smashing two bottles of my perfume before I finally was able to get him to stop. So at that

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point I knew, okay, this guy is definitely next level. Like we got to get away from this, right? Mhm.

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When we first started dating, this is where popping into Keley. When we first started dating and before I knew all the crazy yet, my brother was getting

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married and I took him as my date to my brother's wedding. And we're walking into the reception and Key and his

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ex-wife are walking out. Oh. Well, come to find out she had done the cake for the bride. I didn't know that piece.

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Yeah. So, world key actually knew my exister-in-law's mother really well and my ex-sister-in-law. Well, that was in

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December. Fast forward to maybe first part of March. Key puts on Facebook that he's getting a divorce. And I just remember thinking to myself, oh man,

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like how sad for those babies and having empathy for them as a family. Well, then July, I got to figure out a way to to separate this, but I know he's not going

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to be an easy one to part from. I have to think this through. I have to be, you know, intentional, proactive, proactive. Yes.

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After that, we walk into Mo's place for a CD release party for Dustin's friend.

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We get there and who's standing at the bar right when we walk in the door? Key.

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He's had a few drinks by then, so he's feeling very good. And so I walk in the door and so immediately he goes,

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"Terra," and opens his arms. What he didn't know is the fight that had broke out right before we got there. That

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night turned into a big argument. And then shortly after that, he left for offshore. And when he left for offshore,

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packed up all of his things, moved him to a storage unit, sent a letter with the key to the storage unit to his mom's house and got cameras, new locks.

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Good for you.

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And so he eventually got the message.

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Message and eventually left me alone. I did not want to date anybody after that.

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I I I'm not good at this. My picker's broken.

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I used to tell people all the time, my picker was so broken. Yes. Yes. Anybody with any big problems, come this way.

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Oh, yeah. So, at that point, I'd kind of put up a wall and then here comes Key again,

Chapter 5: Keeley

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the bulldozer.

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Then it's Thanksgiving time. I had three cousins. They were all three in town and

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we were gonna go out go and party the night before Thanksgiving. And so we walk in and Key Bell is on the stage

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singing with the band that was there. So we go out on the dance floor and he and I are just having a great time and all

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of a sudden I see Key standing off to the side and he's talking to another girl named Missy who we're great friends. Uh, I see them talking to each

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other and I would have never have done this had I not had a little bit of liquid courage.

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I think it's important to note you don't drink anymore.

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I don't drink anymore. I haven't drank for 4 years. So, I walked up to Key and the night that Dustin and I had ran into him at Moe's for that CD release party,

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Dustin made me delete him off of my Facebook friends. So, I had unfriended him that night just to keep the piece and keep it from blowing up any further.

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And so I just walked up to Keel and asked him if he would be my Facebook friend again. And he literally looked at me and said,

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"I've been waiting 18 years to ask you on a date." Oh, sweet. You know what? What do you say to that?

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Right. You said yes. 18 years is a long time to wait, right?

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Well, I think the two of you had to go through enough trials and tribulations and learning all of that to bring what you bring to this relationship.

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Through all of that. Yes.

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All right. So, you and Keely have a whirlwind. Yes. romance. Oh, man. We We started dating really,

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really quick. We went from, "Okay, we're not going to tell the kids to a full-time family. We became the Brady Bunch real quick."

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All right. So, y'all date, you get married.

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That was really fast, too, cuz we started dating in November. We were married in July. That is quick. It was really quick.

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But you'd known each other a really long time. You just know when you know. He knew and he told you that. He'd been waiting his whole life.

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But I knew, too. And I don't even know how to describe it. Like my name is Terabel. All growing up, everybody called me Tinkerbell. Now my name is Terra Bell. What?

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God was trying to make it super clear. He was trying to make it super clear, man. Just super super clear. Okay, speaking of God.

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All right, let's talk about that for a moment because you said something to me about hearing from God.

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Yes, this is it. Now, he was very clear that he wanted me to be with Keely, and I knew that love is such a wild thing.

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Like, it grows. It changes. It shifts.

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It's not linear. It's not just one solid thing. Like, the love that I had for Keely from the beginning and the love

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that I have for Keely now, and all the love that has happened in the last 10 years, it's it's wild. But I still to

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this day know exactly what God was wanting for me in that moment. He wanted me to stay stay in that marriage. Mhm.

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Okay. So, you you married quickly. Mhm. And how did that turn out?

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So, our pastor uh he told Keely was like, "Okay, so what are you waiting for?" And he was like, "Well, we're planning a wedding. We're going to get married in November." And he was like, "Okay, well, what are you waiting for?

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You already live together." Um, so we did we went to our pastor's office and my mom was our only person there and we got married in our pastor's office. But

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we didn't tell anybody because we wanted to wait until our wedding. That way,

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everybody assumed that our wedding was the day.

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Okay. So, you married with just your mom. Mhm. And the judge. Mhm. In July. July 21st. But then you had another wedding.

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We had another wedding on November 14th.

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That was where we invited everyone and the kids were a part of it and all that stuff.

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That was so smart. Good for you guys. My husband and I did the same thing. We got married. I think it was like on December 31st or January 2nd or something by ourselves.

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Yeah.

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Just a JP. Nobody else. just the three of us because I wanted to go on my own free will. Like I didn't want the

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pressure of all the people and the expectations and and truth be told, I really just didn't want to have another wedding,

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but you know, he hadn't been married, so he wanted to have a wedding like a big the big he wanted to do all the things, right? Yeah.

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And I'm grateful that we ended up doing it. Like now I can look back and be like, I'm so glad we did that. But at the time,

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I just wanted it to be us. So we did the exact same thing. That's crazy. So, the beginning of your relationship with Key

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is amazing. Yes. All is great. Kids are happy. You're happy. Maybe a few disgruntled exes, but for the most part, life is wonderful.

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Yeah. You know, I went from two kids though to five and I was working full-time and now I've doubled the square footage of my home. I was in

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overwhelm. I also realized that Key had a drinking problem at that time. Before,

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when we were dating, it was fun and it was on the weekends. It was exciting. I was meeting all these new people. He's Mr. Popular. He knows everybody. So, it

Chapter 6: Troubles arise

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was fun to be out. But I'll never forget the very first time that I realized that he really had a problem. We ended up in the ER after a night of drinking. He

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collapsed. That was the first time that he shared with me that he had some health problems. So, I had fallen in love with this guy and he had not been

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fully transparent with me about his health problems. He had had a couple of heart attacks right before we got married. He had deep vein thrombosis. He

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had rabdomiiosis. He's got kidney issues and liver issues. And I just remember thinking to myself, okay, well, all

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those health problems and then you're drink drinking like this, right?

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And you're not eating healthy and you're not what? And so I realized Keely

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wasn't healthy. And and I mean spiritually, I mean mentally, I mean healthy like all across the board. All

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across the board. And so then the nurture in my personality came out and I needed to help him and fix him and mother him. But alcohol was a big one.

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Weekends became they became not so exciting anymore. So Friday would hit and I would not be excited. I couldn't wait till Monday came came back. Um and

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it was because especially when we didn't have the week of kids because if we didn't have the kids I knew I was going to have to be taking care of drunk keley

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all weekend long. Once he had a certain amount of alcohol in his system, he completely changed as a person. And so Jackal came out or hid, I don't know.

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Yeah. Altered his personality. Yeah. Sure.

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Yeah. And so this alter ego that would come out of Key, I didn't even recognize him. I didn't know him. That wasn't who I married. That wasn't who I even dated.

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We would get home and he would want to fight all night long. And it was the same thing that he would say over and over again to me that made me realize

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through counseling eventually once we got on the other side of it how bad his abandonment issues were. Though his

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parents didn't leave him, they died, but it still leaves that sense of abandonment. And so he was afraid. So

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now obviously I'm going to leave eventually, right? His thing that he would say over and over again, what are you going to leave me now?

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Just out of curiosity, did you ever question God? Because I mean you said you audibly heard him say, "This is the

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man you're supposed to be with. Are you questioning like,

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oh, 100%. 100%. Why did you do this to me?" And then even looking myself in the mirror going, "What voices are you

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hearing?" Because now you start questioning whether you heard it or not.

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But I knew his soul was good. And so I knew that that behavior was the alcohol

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because when he didn't drink, that was not him at all. We had a couple of really big bad ones. And at that time, I had started

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disconnecting from him. And so now, I don't even feel sorry for you anymore.

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I'm just mad at you now. I'm questioning God. I'm questioning all the all the,

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you know, what got me here? How did I get here? I can't be divorced again.

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You've got to be kidding me. I remember I became really good friends with a girl named Rachel and I spent every minute

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with her and just avoided Key for a while. We came together at night, but it was like we did absolutely nothing together except for on the weekends we'd

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go and show up in front of everybody else. Like everything was great and then we'd go home and we'd fight and then all week long I'd spend the evenings doing anything but hanging out with him.

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Yeah. Pretty vicious cycle.

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Eventually we found ourselves in a pickle. Key had an emotional affair. Tell us what an emotional affair is.

Chapter 7: Emotional Affair

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When I talked with you, I think that was the first time I'd ever heard that phrase. In a marriage, your person that you share life with is somebody that

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you're supposed to have a pretty deep emotional connection with. Well, an intimate relationship,

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an intimate relationship. You're sharing your body, you're sharing your home,

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you're sharing your finances, you're sharing everything.

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But when one of them starts connecting with another person emotionally and sharing some of those things that they're not sharing with their spouse,

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that then turns into a really slippery slope. I I don't believe that anything happened physically or anything like that, but she was a friend of ours. And then I remember a comment being made.

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The first one that made me really kind of question some things was I was frustrated with Key about something and she turns around and she tells me, "I'll talk to him. He'll listen to me."

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And I remember just I had this sick feeling in my stomach. So even if nothing's happening, this is not headed in the right direction. I mean, they were talking to each other all the time.

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And so, and it wasn't anything deep. It wasn't deep conversation or anything like that, but if you're waking up every morning and the first thing you're doing is saying good morning to somebody else,

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no, no, no, no. Oh, yeah. That makes sense now.

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Yeah. In his defense, he said, "At that time, I was so busy being mom to everybody and taking care of everything,

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and I was very much in my masculine. I wouldn't answer the phone like I cared to hear from him. I would answer the

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phone like what? And so that was very hurtful for Keely. It wasn't very warm and welcoming.

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No. No. And so he felt like he was not a priority for me or not. But I was tired.

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I was mad at him and frustrated and resentful towards him at that time.

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And you had said that you guys had already started disconnecting.

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We we were disconnecting. And so that was one of the things that I had to do differently was I had to greet him differently and make him feel like a priority in my life.

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But that doesn't happen right away.

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No, it does not. So he has this emotional affair and you actually end up confronting him and giving him some boundaries which I found was amazing

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because you had said you started learning those after the divorce of your second husband as you started working on yourself started learning to set boundaries and what you wanted what you

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didn't want and so you actually now approach him and say this can't happen this can't happen these are clear boundaries for myself these are the

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things that I cannot tolerate the cool thing is is the first thing I said is I want to get into counseling I knew that My first thought was, "Okay, well, now I got to leave."

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Oh, good for you that you didn't, cuz this is Yeah, this is the next step.

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Now I got to pack. I got to leave. That was where it was like, "No, Terra,

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you're supposed to stay here. This is the guy for you, and you're supposed to stay here. God told you this. So, you're being obedient. It's time for you to pull up your pants and figure it out the right way." I love that.

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So, yeah, but you can't do it on your own. He was a participant.

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At that time, Kea had already seen Frank. Hold on, let's back up. Who's Frank?

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Frank is our counselor. Frank is amazing. I think he's exactly what both of us needed in that time in our life. For sure. So, Frank is a Christian counselor.

Chapter 8: Healing journey

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Christian counselor. Yes. He's a magic worker, but not in the sense of he's going to magically fix your equation for you. No, he's going to magically open

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your eyes and make you realize where you need to fix yourself. And so, I remember going in there and pointing fingers at Keely. He's narcissist and he's this and

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he's that and he's drinking. He's having an emotional affair. had an emotional affair and he's just dirt, man. He's just dirt. It's all his fault.

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Yeah. And Frank was the one that made me realize that. And when you're pointing fingers, there's three more pointing right back at you. And he also told me,

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he was like, "And if Keyy's a narcissist, you are, too." Oh. And I just remember sitting there going, "How dare you? You don't even know me.

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I'm the farthest thing, you know." So he just said, "A lot of times in relationships, we become mirrors for each other." Yeah. We have a phrase in Alanon called,

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"You spot it, you got it. You spot it,

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you got it." Yeah. I mean, that's a real thing. That's a real thing. So, so that kind of, you know, led me down a whole

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self-reflective road, too. Hey, I'm playing a part in all this, too. And so,

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it's time for me to kind of figure out what part I'm playing, why I'm playing that part, why I keep reoccurring as this character that's not really who I want to show up as.

Chapter 9: Accountability, Counseling & Date nights

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You said at one point he helps you understand resentment. Yes. And practice forgiveness. Yes.

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And take accountability. Yes. I think Frank sounds like an amazing counselor.

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He really was. So, we went every Thursday to see Frank because, you know,

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we spent all this time avoiding each other. So, now we've got to get to know the person that we were actually married to.

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So, we decided that we would go on date nights every Thursday night after counseling. And so, that was a big deal.

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And I'm still to this day, every Thursday is date night. And we've stuck with that. And it's it's been huge for us. We've gotten to know each other again. We've grown together. We

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prioritized that time, but at first it was ugly. Oh man. Cuz we'd get out of counseling and oh, all the all the wounds were fresh and all the, you know,

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and so you just threw salt in them. Oh man. That's what counseling does.

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Yeah. Yeah. Took off the bandage and just like squeezed it. So some of those date nights were pretty rough. I remember some nights we would

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literally sit across from the table each other and we have I have nothing to say to you. So it was it was torture for a little while, but then it got it got fun. Once I started really being

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intentional because at first we would go to dinner and we'd just sit across from the table from each other. Okay? You know, but then it was like, "Okay, well,

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let's do some things." So, like I bought tickets for us to go to a circus. I bought tickets for us to go to an art show. I bought tickets for us to go to a

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drive-in movie theater. Well, the circus was awesome. Key ended up getting on stage. It was a whole funny skit. So, by

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the time we left there, we felt good. We were laughing. We were really enjoying that time with each other. Next one was the art show. We ended up with two pieces of art, a male lion and a female,

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and we have them on each side of our bed now. And it kind of reminds me of that time of us getting an opportunity to date each other, even though we were

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seven years married and do it again and do it differently this time with a lot more intentionality. A lot more intentionality. Yeah.

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I love that. So, what seemed like a tragedy, him drinking the emotional affair, as strange as it sounds, becomes a giant blessing.

Chapter 10: Boons

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Oh, 100%.

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A giant blessing. and all kinds of boons. Boons are just the gifts and the blessings that come out of really bad situations and all of your hard work. So, let's talk about some of the boons.

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Obviously, we know today you have a wonderful marriage to Key. You two are so cute. Thank you.

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I love following you both on social media, but you have gathered even more boons along the way. Tell us about some of those.

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Both of us got sober. So, we this past September, it was four years.

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Congratulations. That's amazing. Good for you, too. For me, um, alcohol was never really a thing for me, but to

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support him, I quit drinking. He tells me to this day that if I wouldn't have,

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he probably would have already have been drinking again. So, he's super grateful for that. One of the things that saved us too was I was listening to a book by

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Shawn Whan and I think it's called How to Get Done. And Key at that time thought that I was going to leave him.

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So, he gets on my phone, starts pulling up things on my phone, trying to see what is she listening to, what is she reading. So he starts listening to that book every day on his way home from

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work. Fast forward to that, Key ends up speaking on stage at Shawn Whan's Lines Not Sheep event. In that one thing, that

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book that I was listening to that Keley now listened to, then took us to Utah,

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which then met met us a whole new group of people, which then gave us the nerve to be able to open a business. It has been just a gift that just keeps

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unwrapping. And so I look back at the two of us from four years ago and I look at the two of us now. And don't get me wrong, like negativity creeps in. We

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secondguess ourselves. I mean, all all the old stuff still come tries to come back sometimes. But I'd say one of the biggest gifts that we've received in all

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of this is being able to take a situation instead of looking at it as the demise or like it's going to burn

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everything to the ground and together we look at how are we going to conquer this. M you're a team

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team and so I think one of the biggest gifts was that that we literally turned into a team through that. So for sure.

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Yeah. But there's so many there's so many becoming becoming sober impacts your whole family. Your entire family. None

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of our kids really drink or We have a lot of friends that don't drink. Yeah. Web and I do. But see, at first we were weirdos.

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No, I understand. Yeah, I mean and I drink socially, but we have friends that drink responsibly and we have friends who don't drink at all. I mean, we have

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such an array of friends, but it's not weird to me anymore. Well, you start to socialize, I think, more with people who don't happens. Yeah, exactly. It's the idea of correction. Sure.

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Yeah. So, it took us a while to attract that, but eventually it did.

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And another boon, you all started a business together. We did. Key and I started HTL Athletics.

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It was Hate to Lose Athletics. They're still operating today. Um, it was awesome. It was a whirlwind. I mean, we were operational for maybe six months

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and we ended up seeing an opportunity for us to be able to sell our our shares and move on. And so, we did. We didn't own it for very long, but man, was it

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stretching to to build something like that together. But you own your own business already. You have a hair business. Yes. You have a salon.

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Salon. Yes.

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Salon. Thank you. Want to make sure I say it right. Yeah. I've done hair for 26 years. That's incredible. What else? Let's see. You told me you're writing a book. Yes,

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it's called Holyhood and Healing. Key and I have talked a lot about what was next after HTL. We're gonna have to keep

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moving forward. And so Key can fall victim to depression and anxiety. He started to kind of drift a little bit.

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And now we use our words and we talk about it. We're able to, you know, catch it. But he kind of told me, he was like,

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you know, I'm I'm experiencing some dark feelings right now. I thought I had my purpose. I thought I had my identity. I thought I was moving in that direction.

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And now that we've sold it, I'm kind of lost again. And so we sat down and we talked and I told him I was like, you know, look, that was one thing that we agreed on that we would never tell each

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other no to anything that was going to grow us. He said, "I think I want to hire some business mentors. I want I need I need I need a coach. I need somebody to mentor me." And I told him,

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I was like, "I'm all about that." We hired a couple of guys. They started mentoring him. They sat down with him and started whiteboarding some ideas like what's next? And he tells them,

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he's like, "I think I want to do what you all do. I want to coach people. I want to mentor. I want to share what I've learned." And so they started talking a little more and then it kind

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of developed and now he's speaking to all these offshore guys about mental health and mental performance and it's

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kind of turned into what we know now as grit. I know he's doing really great things. Doing really good things. I remember talking to you about purpose.

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I remember you saying I don't I don't know what my my purpose is, Mandy. And maybe my purpose was to support Key. And I have thought so much about that. See,

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I could cry thinking about it cuz I'm like, maybe that's what my purpose was.

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It's okay to be Webb's wife, to be supportive, to have raised my kids. Why is that not okay? And I was so impressed with you being able to say that out loud. I'm like, good for you, Terra.

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Yeah. Yeah. Yeah.

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You guys are such a good team. I love you guys so much.

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Well, you know, sometimes I think every man that has a good wife, man, the sky's is the limit because when you have

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somebody that's cheering you on like that and loving you and praying for you like that, it's pretty big attribute. Yeah, it's pretty big. It's pretty big.

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So, I'm just glad he recognizes it and appreciates it.

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I hope they do. All right. And you have also started a business with your mom.

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I did. So, we started something called Picnic Poet during CO. There was a company that I had thought of that I wish I would have done. It's picnic

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business where you go and set up picnics for people. And so I thought that was something light and easy that my mom and I could do together. And so we started

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something called the picnic poet. But the one thing that we kind of the snag that we ran into is time. I'm so busy in

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the salon that we were having a hard time on booking that time slot. So we kind of have pivoted a little bit. Now

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we're doing gift baskets. We customize picnic baskets for people or even like gift baskets or any of that. We

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customize them for people and then they just come pick them up from us. These baskets are awesome because she can go and shop for them during the day. I can whip them together real quick at night and then they're ready for pickup.

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And where can they find that information? Picnic poet. We're on Facebook,

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Instagram, we've got the picnicpoet.com our website.

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And how about Keely's business? How can we find that?

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His is silverbackgrit.com I believe. Um we'll drop all that in the show notes for Yeah. But Keely's Keely's social media is a great place to start for him

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because he posts a lot of cool stuff on there. He really does. Yeah.

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And I know you're not taking any clients. Not right now. You're full because you're awesome. Okay. I know we're running out of time,

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but I really wanted to talk about some tools in your toolbox. Having gone through all of these experiences now. You have gathered a lot of tools. Yes.

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That you currently have in your toolbox.

Chapter 11: Tools

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Do you mind running through just a couple of them really quick? So, one of my favorite things that Key and I still use to this day is like a reset for us.

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So, if we start to go backwards into old pattern thoughts or old behaviors or whatever, then we'll have a reset. And that's called 75 hard. It's hard.

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I mean, it's it's in the title. Uh, but it's 75 days of following some pretty harsh rules. No alcohol for 75 days,

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which was great for us. in in trying to become sober by starting 75 hard with each other and we did it together. If one of us failed, we had to start over.

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That's some extreme accountability, but it's 10 pages of a non-fiction book.

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It's follow a pretty strict diet, diet of your choice, whatever works for you,

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a gallon of water every day, 10 pages of non-fiction book, um two workouts,

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two workouts, and one has to be outdoors no matter what the elements are. But that is a big one. And still to this day, if either one of us feel like we're

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slacking or falling off the wagon on any any aspect, our fitness, our routine,

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our discipline, any of that, we'll go back to 75 hard. And we've done it, I think, three or four times now in the last four years.

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Wow. That's pretty incredible. My son has done it, which is the only reason why I know what it is because he'd be up in the morning before high school working out and I would go work out with him. I'm like,

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you don't realize how little of time you have during the day until you're trying to accomplish all that.

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Yeah. We did a little mini one, my husband and I, called the dirty 30, and that was hard enough. We had to do the same thing, two workouts, separate times of the day. One had to be outside. Yeah.

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You know, the non-fiction, the whole thing. So, it's challenging. It's great.

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What are some other tools in your toolbox?

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Reading. We've read a slew of books. We go back and forth. Like, I'll read a book and then he'll read it and then we'll compare things. That's been a cool thing for us for topics, date nights. We

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walk together still a lot. I mean, 75 Hard really set that precedence for us.

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I remember when we first started, we were still in the middle of trying to figure out if we were going to survive an emotional affair. And so there were still lots of arguments, still lots of,

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you know, disagreements, things like that. A lot of hurt, a lot of yucky feelings. And so we got to a point where we would go on a walk to fight. It's

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amazing how when you're walking, you can't really yell at each other or all your neighbors are going to hear it. It really made us have to sit in our stuff and talk about it.

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It forced you to talk to each other.

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Forced us to talk to each other. That kept us from just sweeping things under the rug and ignoring them. we actually faced them. Date night's another big one

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that has absolutely transformed our our relationship because before we had all these little kids, so it's very easy to

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let kids, careers, all these things come before each other. And so having that one designated night where we would put

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our phones away and we really focus on each other and pay attention to each other. And I mean, it's not always excitement. One night we were both

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exhausted on a Thursday night. And so we took the golf cart to the gas station in our neighborhood and got ourselves treats and then watched a movie in our

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bed, but it was just us and it was still intentional. We still thought of it as a date night. Sure.

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One of my favorite date nights we ever had. He pulled the tailgate down on a truck in the middle of Oldtown Katie and made me a peanut butter and jelly sandwich and we sat on the tailgate and

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then danced to Cody Johnson's newest hit in the middle of downtown Katie with Not a Soul Around.

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That was free. That was free. Daddy nine. My best friend's dad told her once,

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"When the kids are grown and gone, you are all that's left. So, you better like your spouse because you're going to spend more time with that person over

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the course of your life than you do with your own children."

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Oh, and now that we're having kids move out. Yeah.

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Like, we're down to one now. Like, we had a whole house full of kids and now there's just one there. And she's like super introverted and loves being in her room and like, you know, so sometimes we

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even forget she's Did she have a sleepover or is she here? Yeah. No, you do get to a point where the kids are off doing their own thing and now it's just

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the two of us. So, if we wouldn't have dove into that time of, you know, really dating each other and loving on each other and being intentional with each

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other, I'd be living with a stranger right now. Yeah.

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And I think there was one more and it was listening to personal growth podcast. Yes. Thank you for that. Yes. Yes. Yes.

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Big shout out to mine. I hope you listen to me.

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Absolutely. podcast. It helps you to sometimes see first of all that you're not alone in a lot of your stuff that,

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you know, we're all human and we all have different things that we're facing and different, you know, lessons to be learned. So, if there's a lesson that I can learn from somebody else's

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experience without having to dip my toe in that water, then I want to learn it.

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Yeah. So, tell us what's your favorite personal growth podcast that's out there right now.

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This is a weird story, too. So, for the last three years, I've listened to a podcast called Your World Within. Eddie Panero. Hey,

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I remember that I really felt this podcast a lot and it and it was all internal. It was all in your own head,

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right? It had nothing to do with any external anything. One time we were getting ready for something and I'm jumping in the shower and so I had to get my podcast on real fast before I

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jumped in the shower. And so Eddie's voice is going on and Key goes, "Man,

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that guy really is good." Well, fast forward, Keely tells me that he wants to go on a men's retreat and he tells me,

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you know, it's kind of expensive. It's right after Christmas. I'm like, "Oo, we don't say no to each other's growth." So, I told him, I was like, "Okay, well,

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this is your budget." Well, then he finds out that they're flying into Phoenix, but they have to drive to Sedona or Soma or whatever it is in Arizona. So, he's trying to keep

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everything within his budget. So, he calls the guys and he's like, "There's somebody else coming in that I can maybe ride with." So, they told him, they were like, "Oh, no. We we've got a buddy that doesn't live very far from the airport,

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so we'll have him swing by and pick you up and bring you out to the men's retreat." So, right before he goes, they send him the information of the guy that's picking him up from the airport.

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His name is Eddie Panero. So, they tells me, he's like, "You're not gonna believe this, but your podcast guy is picking me up from the airport, and I'm going to

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spend a whole week with him at this men's retreat." You know, after you experience that kind of a weekend with somebody, you know, that men's retreat was really extensive. Like, it was a

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lot. They grew together. They did sweat lodges and hiked mountains and cold plunges and pretty intense stuff. And so, got very vulnerable. And so they've created this kind of brotherhood now.

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And so they're great friends. They talk to each other all the time. But it's so weird to have a group chat with my podcast guy.

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How incredible. Oh my gosh, God is good.

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Look at all of those wonderful.

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Oh, and he's incred like nudges.

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He's so incredible in my life. Like like God is just he he's orchestrated some really beautiful things for me. So

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yeah, you grateful. You have gotten a lot of god nods, as I call them, in your time with key. Oh, big time.

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All right, we have two more questions for you and then we'll wrap up because we know you have to go.

Chapter 12: Hope

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How do you hope your mono myth will inspire others? I hope it inspires others to first of all listen to that internal voice. God does

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know what he's talking about when he whispers those little nothings to you now being on the other side of all this. Thank you.

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You know, just because you tried and you failed doesn't mean you'd stop trying. Yeah.

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So, you know, love could have been one of those things that I wrote off as I'm just not good at that and I'm not going to do that anymore. And in reality, it's one of my greatest gifts.

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And so, what a sad thing if I would have chosen not to share that anymore.

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Yeah. So, I'm glad I tried again. Right on. We end every episode with an attitude of gratitude. It's your

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opportunity to lift up any of the heroes in your life that have been a significant part.

Chapter 13: Attitude of Gratitude

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Okay. I'd have to say my parents, my mom for loving me no matter what. It's unconditional till the day she dies,

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she'll love me all of her heart. So, I'm forever grateful for that. Uh the women in my family, my aunts, my grandma's,

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all the women in my family that taught me to be who I am. Uh my husband because he's just the greatest and I love him so

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much. All of our kids, that love is really, really cool. and the love of all that family. Janine, too. Yes. I wouldn't have been a hair stylist. I

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wouldn't have had 26 years of earning six figures and calling my own shots and being my own boss had I not watched what it looked like from Janine. So, yeah,

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super grateful for her. I'm lucky. Very blessed.

Chapter 14: Closing

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You have been very blessed. Well, thank you so much for being willing to come and give up an entire afternoon. A thank you.

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I always enjoy chatting with you. You are a beautiful human inside and out.

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And I love watching you and Keely all over social media. You're a couple that people strive to be like. I appreciate it. I appreciate it.

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Thank you so much for for all of your words of wisdom and your experience today.

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Thank you. Thank you for having me. This was wonderful. And many blessings on you and all the efforts that you put forth with this podcast, sharing people's

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stories and opening people's eyes on the other side of that, too.

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Tara, thank you so much for sharing your monoth with us today. We truly appreciate your honesty, your heart, and your courage. To our listeners, the team

Chapter 15: Outro

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here at the Monomoth Diaries are on a mission to get our message out to as many people as we can. So, if you enjoyed listening and resonated with Terra, please consider leaving us a

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review. Thanks again for listening and supporting us here at the Monomoth Diaries. Thanks for joining us on the Monomoth Diaries. If this episode resonates with you or someone you know,

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we'd love for you to share it and spread the inspiration. Don't forget to follow us wherever you get your podcast or on YouTube to stay connected. We'd appreciate if you could take a moment

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and rate and review the podcast. It helps us reach more people with stories of transformation and growth. You can visit us at monommydaries.com or text us

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directly from the show notes to reach out and keep the conversations going.

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Until next time, heroes, let's journey together through our monoiths.