Grief Is Not A Dirty Word
Grief Is Not A Dirty Word is a weekly podcast that brings honest, real-world conversations about grief, loss, trauma, healing, and mental health into the light. Hosted by Nick Gaylord, the show creates a safe, compassionate space for anyone navigating the complicated emotions that come with losing a parent, partner, child, friend, relationship, or former version of themselves.
Originally launched as Our Dead Dads, the podcast has evolved into a broader mission: to normalize grief and break the stigma around talking about it. Nick explores every corner of the grieving experience — from anticipatory grief and sudden loss to complicated family dynamics, unresolved anger, identity shifts, and the invisible pain people carry long after the world assumes they’re “fine.”
Each episode features powerful, unfiltered stories from guests who have lived through loss and rebuilt their lives in deeply personal ways. Through conversations centered on resilience, vulnerability, courage, and connection, the podcast helps listeners understand that grief isn’t something to hide — it’s something that deserves space, honesty, and community.
Whether your grief is fresh or decades old, whether it’s tied to death or to a different kind of ending, this show will help you feel seen, supported, and less alone. If you’re looking for meaningful discussions about healing, emotional wellbeing, and the human experience — you’re in the right place.
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Grief Is Not A Dirty Word — because every story matters, every emotion belongs, and healing begins when we speak the truth.
Grief Is Not A Dirty Word
Suicide Grief, PTSD, Sexual Trauma and Finding Hope Again with Erika Shershun - Episode 85
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WHO THIS EPISODE HELPS:
Anyone struggling with suicide grief, PTSD, sexual trauma, survivor shame, unresolved loss, complex grief, childhood trauma, ambiguous grief, or the long-term effects of living in survival mode.
WHAT LISTENERS WILL GET:
A powerful conversation about trauma recovery, grief healing, nervous system regulation, suicide loss, resilience, boundaries, and how healing remains possible even after decades of pain and silence.
DESCRIPTION:
Erika Shershun joins Nick Gaylord for a deeply personal conversation about grief, trauma, suicide loss, healing, and resilience. Erika shares the story of losing her father to suicide at age fifteen, the devastating impact of growing up without emotional support, and how unresolved grief shaped much of her life. She also discusses surviving multiple sexual assaults, discovering how trauma remained stored in her body for decades, and the moment she realized survival mode had been controlling her life. Together, Nick and Erika explore PTSD, ambiguous grief, nervous system dysregulation, boundaries, trauma-informed care, and the realities of healing after profound loss. Erika reflects on the later suicide of her brother, the lessons she learned through her own recovery, and the work she now does helping survivors reclaim their lives. This episode offers hope, practical insight, and an honest look at what healing truly requires. If you've ever felt trapped by grief, trauma, shame, or silence, this conversation will remind you that healing is possible and that you are not alone
THIS EPISODE ANSWERS:
- How does suicide loss affect a child for the rest of their life?
- Can trauma stay trapped in the body for decades?
- What happens when grief and trauma go unprocessed?
- Why do survivors often remain stuck in survival mode?
- Is it ever too late to heal from trauma and grief?
KEY TAKEAWAYS:
- Trauma can remain stored in the body long after the original event has passed.
- Healing does not erase painful memories, but it can remove their power to control daily life.
- Unexpressed grief often resurfaces physically, emotionally, and psychologically.
- Recovery is rarely linear, but meaningful progress is always possible.
- Boundaries, self-awareness, and trauma-informed support are critical parts of healing.
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