Dating Drama: From One-Night Stands to Ghosting

In this episode of 'The Talking Taboo with Tara' podcast, Tara and her guest Sean engage in a candid conversation about various aspects of modern dating and sexual experiences. They discuss topics like one-night stands, the importance of using protection, proper condom disposal, and concerns regarding sexually transmitted infections. The discussion also ventures into personal stories about dealing with infidelity, relationship dynamics, substance abuse, and family histories with drugs. Sean shares his experiences with ghosting, reminisces about youthful crushes and lost opportunities, and touches upon his hesitations about falling in love again. The conversation is raw, revealing, and offers a deep dive into complex personal histories and societal issues related to sex and relationships.

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Welcome to The Talking Taboo with Tara podcast, where Tara presents the unfiltered interviews with guests about today's taboo topics. And now here's your host, Ms. Tara.

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Welcome back everybody. Today we have Sean with us again. Welcome back. Sean. Sean. What's going on everybody? Hi, how are you? Hi. You've been doing good. We are doing good. As a matter of fact, welcome everybody to the Talking Taboo with Tara. Taboo Tara in the house as the host. There he is. Welcome back, everybody. Today we've got quite a few subjects we're gonna talk about and see where it goes. Yeah. One night stands. How do you feel about'em? It depends. If I'm feeling it, that's how I feel about it. You just wipe it off with a tissue and go on with the next one. No, I'm kidding. No, you're not. That was for the show. That wasn't for real. That was for the show. Pretty much that's what it is. But yeah. Something like One Night Stands we've all had'em. I've had'em. Yeah. It's not the full end All Cure all. No, it's not the full satisfaction. It was fun. You get a rush from somebody liking you and digging you. You, and most likely this stuff happens from a bar scene or a dating app or whatever. And it's not something when I go to date, it's not something I'm looking forward to or trying to get it, depending on who it is, how fast the connection went, it's if the situation was right and go for it. But if you're asking what I think about it, definitely be careful out there. If you don't plan on coming back and you're just, you guys just gonna smash for a night, have fun. so basically you're saying if you only have sex chemistry, go for it. But if you have a connection, don't no. I'm using the reference as protection. If you're gonna just bank somebody one time and be gone, don't go bare back. That's a good tip. If you're gonna do it, be safe, be smart enough to take one with you. Shit does happen. Let's, we can't act I'm not like that. We all do things that we're all not like sometimes, so it's just best to cover it up, man. Absolutely. Now that means whatever, when you do use your condom, that's a, I have that, I have a question. It's merging into another topic. Of course. Yeah. Do you tie your condom up after you're done with it? Or do you just drop it? Or do you just drop it in the trash can? Do you flush it? I flush it in the toilet. You do flush it? Yeah. Do you take it off? Do you let your girl take it off? I take it off, I take it to the bathroom with me while it's hanging on the Johnson still. There's like that, yeah. So why is that a question though? I'm just curious about it. Where I've been doing some research. Okay. And it was on this Reddit post that this guy thinks that his girlfriend got pregnant by using his using the condom. Oh, now I see where you're going with this.'cause I would even think along those lines. Yeah. That's shady. Okay. I've had a guy ask me before what I've done with the condom and I'm like, dude, I flushed it. It was laying on the floor. It was disgusting. Why would you leave it laying in my floor? No. That's not how I roll. So I picked it up and I threw it away. And I think that he thought that I might, want to push it back inside out into you or something. Yeah. Yeah. I don't know if the, I don't know if that's stuff's gonna work anymore. Maybe'cause of the contraceptive that's on it. The, as soon as the air hits, it's like a fucking, like us landing on Mars. How is that? Because when they jack off into a cup, when you're using that, you capping it off when you're done though. Yeah. But it still air hits it. That makes no sense. Now I know in condoms there is a contraceptive that, that's inside'em that kills the spermicide. Yeah. Spermicide. That's what it's called. Yes. I like those. I always felt safer with those if I was the one, whatever. Most of the time, if I'm bareback and I gotta know the person, or I'm planning on doing more and just sticking with that person, whether it be for a period of time or longer, whatever, there's just, those are the boundaries I'm talking about. If something like that, it's gonna go down, then I'd rather, if there's no protection, just foreplay it out. That's safe. Guys, think about that, ladies and gentlemen. Is it though, it's, it gets it's fun floor playing it out. Is it safe though? Because if that person has herpes and they have an outbreak and you go down on them, you're gonna have herpes on your mouth. That's true. That's oral sex. So you guys probably shouldn't do any of that. Any transfusional activities so people be on the lookout for any warts, bumps, anything that doesn't look normal When you've watched porn, you've seen clean pussy. That's what it should look like. Yeah. Yeah. If it's got anything out of the ordinary run. Put your pants on, get up and run that. That's women and men don't even take chances on ingrown hairs, I guess now, huh? I got scars on my waist from ingrown hairs. I've got some, I've got some my too. You can take finger bump. It's just a mark. It's like a black dot. Somebody took a marker and dotted yours. I've got one too on my pussy. That's funny that you said that. This thing fucking reoccurs in the same spot. So I know it's not that I've been tested because of a scare, like about four or five years ago, Uhhuh. I didn't know what was going on, so I went and got tested. I went to the public health department. Yeah. It was free. It was free. So I was like, look man, I got, I said, I got this going on. It fucking hurts. Sometimes it pops up and then goes away. So I'm scared did I fuck up somewhere down the line? Did I get a herp? I'm like, this is gonna destroy my life, and they ran everything. No, you don't have anything. Like you got it. Ingrown hair, stop shaving with a razor down there. That might be the best thing. So I use like a separate pair of clippers with a comb on it. Uhhuh, so I don't skin it down. There you go. So now it's just scars and there's no current ingrown. Oh, that sucks ass. I have some now. You can fool people with that. Yeah. And they'll be like what is that? But you could tell us a scar from a wart or herpes, like herpes is a cluster of a bunch of open source. This is what I've seen. I've never seen'em before. This is what I've seen in books. And if you have seen before, you've probably got No. In books. I've never seen them in real life. I don't have, I don't have anything. There's two types. I heard there's one that you can get rid of. Yeah. And there's one that's stuck with it for life. Yeah. A and B, herpes A and B. Yeah. So one's in your blood system and the other one you just, yeah, we all have it. It's just right when you, I don't know exactly how you get it other than having sex clearly. But food, hepatitis B is through food Hepatitis. Hepatitis B is through food or someone that C and C's like blood transition. Yep. My, my father died of the hepatitis C most of that was probably prison tattoos and heroin. Both sides had dirty needles. Your dad used heroin? Bought it. He used it while he was a seller. He was a baller selling it. And then he became the user and then was doing odd jobs for not gonna mention gang members from the Mexican side and the white biker sides doing jobs for them so that way he could get product to sell, but he just kept using it too. Cocaine, heroin, stuff like that. My dad was a drug dealer too. Yeah. And then he started using his own product. That's what happens. Yeah. I know I've grew up with a lot of people that are good people, but they're shady people.'cause the business, they're in Uhhuh what was in, I've watched somebody go from gold, Dayton wheels on their cars with the hydraulics and systems to being like teeth. Every other tooth is gone. And can't make fucking sense. They're slobbering, they got bad hygiene, they're sweating for no reason. It's not even hot enough out. I tried to tell people that. I'm like, dude, I've watched people go from the baller to the user. I've seen it many times. I have too many fucking times. A real dealer just don't use the supply ever. Just a sense of that. Yeah. If you're a dealer, I think, I feel like it's an evil act. You know what you're doing to people, right? And you're making a killing off it. Yeah. A, if it wasn't for the drug dealers back in the early nineties, America wouldn't be what it is right now because of all the recession. Drug dealers is what kept us up in the nineties. All the crack sales. You didn't know that. That's not what kept this country together. It had kept it going. I know that. That, that's funny. When they say crime doesn't pay'cause it certainly does that. Fuck it. Don't, yeah, it certainly does. The government has the drugs brought in and they get a part of it. They have to. That's why they love convicted people. I don't care if it's small crimes, big crimes. The law processes you you're slated like a fucking item in the warehouse. You got a number when you're born and they give you another number when you go to prison. Fortunately for me, I never saw a prison, but never scared straight or visiting my dad. So yeah, I have walked through prison gates before, but Right, me too. Not for the wrong purpose. Yeah. My dad would never let me go see him, but I saw him when he was in jail, but when he went to prison, he wouldn't let me come see him. He didn't want me to see him there, did your dad ever get cleaned? Yeah, he eventually did. He did 2007. He got out, got paroled. He didn't know how to use the computer very well. But he got parole in oh seven. We went and seen him and stuff like that and hooked him up with the internet and got him POF with plenty of fish dating site and he found his fucking wife on there. Really? Shit. They were together like 10 years and then he passed away and just fell over. Oh wow. So your dad is no longer with us then? No, he's been gone since 2016, I believe. It's been a while now. I didn't see much of him throughout life, and outta prison. Didn't a lot of, yeah, I didn't have a lot of meat on the bone. That, and he just never, wanted to replace any time. He didn't really have nothing to say. Didn't have no, no care in the world for me. He just, I think he liked my mom more than me. But they were never married. They never had a long relationship. He got in trouble shortly after I was born. So Ohio, the reason for me being here is'cause my mom, she's from here and all my family related now. I spent pretty much a little over half my life here too, going back and forth and it's just'cause of my dad's patterns. What I'm telling you now is what we kept knocking me back here for a while. They didn't want me there.'cause oh, he's, you're gonna get in trouble. Because that's, we gotta keep him la Huh? It's San Francisco, la close to it. San Diego or San Diego. We're next to la We're only like an hour south. Hour some change, honestly. So they thought you were gonna get what wrapped up in the gangs? Yeah, because everybody seemed to live in the gang territory. But I'm like some of the black sheep. But everybody likes me, but they know I'm a son of my dad. They know him more than me. So in recent times, they see me often when I go out there, I'm just like, the better version of we better polished version of my dad. I'm not out there getting in serious shit. I just, I don't want that life. I just don't want it. That's good. You're not supposed to want it. He was all about it. Half his life was dedicated to it. He had 18 years behind bars. A total rap sheet that wasn't in one setting. As long as one setting was probably nine years. But before that it was probably three or four years here and there. So just different shit. Breaking and entering robberies. Drug sales, violent crimes. The very last one he had was, he was an enforcer. That's what he was. People would pay him regardless if he was affiliated with another gang. So if io io some random street click out there, we'll use MS 13 since everybody's heard of them. But that's probably not who he did. Maybe he did, but obviously I'm not gonna say they don't a station. But let's just say it's an X, y, Z gang or whatever, and they're not even affiliated. They'd pay him to click that. Really? You owe money, you get your door kicked in, or you get stopped sitting in your car and there's a gun to your cheek. So and so said they need this and you haven't paid, you know why I'm here, oh, so he would, okay, I got it now. That's what an enforcer is. Yeah. He's the one that collected the money for, he's veto coming to your door with a pistol. You know what I mean? That's, I don't need to talk much. This is what you owe me. This is what I'm here to get. Not I'm busting kneecaps the freeway's right over there. I really hate to do that. I'd rather just get the money. That's basically, I, it's almost like I'm living through'em at the moment. But that's how he did his business. That's what got him in trouble. Just it's not worth it, man. No, not these days. Shit, that was before the ring cameras on people's doors and cell phones. A little easier to pull shit like that off it now, you can get caught so easily. Everybody's got a camera. Oh, fuck yeah. There's so many cameras. Everybody does. You're not getting away with shit anymore. Not really you always get can't fuckers. Nope. And they got the cameras now whole. Yeah. Now they got the body cameras and they can't take your weed and say, oh, I didn't take his weed.'cause that's how they did me back in the day. They would always take my shit, pull it out, walk on it. Fuck. Huh. Make stomp it out and shit. They well in chill vista. Fuck California. They did? No, here they steal my weed and take it and smoke it. Make me stomp it out where the, really, and Cali and Chula Vista. Me and my friend were packing a bowl and the cops there looked like fucking SWAT enforcement. It's crazy. Damn. They rolled up on us and they found it. They shook it out on the grass. I was like, I want you to step on it. So I fucking did a fake stop. I used the tip of my foot instead of going heel down, went like this and didn't hit a bud. He left. Went on the fucking corner. We just stood there and made sure he didn't wrap back around to see what we do. We're fucking flashlight on the ground, picking up the big buds. Got the biggest bud you can get.'cause all the little crumb shit just went wherever. I remember those fucking days. Now it's legal there too. So I've got three or four different marijuana charges in California from like early two thousands. I have like nineties six here. I've got more, I've probably got hundreds here. Huh? Between marijuana paraphernalia I think I got six altogether. Like I got a long record when it comes to weed, like unreal. I think it's all expungable now. It's like they don't count now. Really? That would be nice. Automatic, basically automatic expungement. In other words, whatever you had in the past, it's just null and void because it's legal. If it came up, it's we can't hold that against him. It's no longer legal. Yeah. So you have what they call a automatic expungement. Okay. Uhhuh. That sounds nice. Yeah. They decriminalized it before they legalized pot here in this county. Really? Yeah. So they went ahead and decriminalize it. If you get caught with weed, they're just not even gonna write you a ticket. That's awesome. They don't prosecute. They didn't. That was before the legalization. They did that. I don't know if you remember that or not. No. So the city of Columbus would just, if they found it on you, they hand it back to you as if it was legal. They're just looking for the paraphernalia. Can you do it in your vehicle? That's, if you can hide that, then you're good. But I know the trick. What do you mean? Like I wrote blunts. I don't have papers. It's that means if you lit it, then it's paraphernalia. If it's freshly rolled and you haven't lit it, then it's not Oh, so you can freshly roll them and not like them. Somebody had told me that if you have a bowl of resin in it, that's paraphernalia. That's always paraphernalia. They got me for papers for paraphernalia that you buy at the fucking gas station. Yeah. And a cellophane. Back in the day when I smoked cigarettes, I had a cellophane. The very bottom had two buds in it. They got me for paraphernalia and motherfucking weed, like agram of weed. They got, they charged me with agram of weed. I would get by with that before they illegalized it or before they legalized it. I would separate my paraphernalia from my buds or I would just put the buds in there with it. There's a simple trick to this. Okay. Does everybody know about this? Draw string bags that are small. They're like, looks like eyeglass cases or silk bags. Yeah. You pull the string and it's got a loop. You take that loop and you open the hood of your car. And there's this hose. As long as you're not by anywhere hot in the engine, you can just wrap it around that and pull it through the loop and you got a bag just dangling under the hood. So if they ever go searching for your shit, no matter what they smell, they're never gonna look under your fucking hood. Your engine. Most dealers wouldn't put it there anyway. cause like products like cocaine or all this pow drugs, powder drugs, they melt under heat so nobody's putting shit there. So mainly they won't go there. So I got by with that for years. Did you really? They put dogs on my fucking car. Dog would act weird for a second, but they just couldn't find it like, you gonna tear my car down because you smell a little bit of weed. No. Have a nice day that was a nice trick. I've never heard a cop say, pop your hood. No. They ask if they can search your car and look through your trunk and your seats and glove boxes and everywhere else they can find the door panels. They're not looking under the hood of your car. Ever put your paraphernalia there with glass, it can handle the heat. True. I don't like bulls though. I never have. Mean you do it with your pre-rolls stick. Come in a container and do the same thing. Get by with it. So how do you feel about ghosting people? So you were talking to'em and everything was going fine then all of a sudden, no more contact, no more communication, no more nothing. That fucking happens all the time anyway. Really? With hell. Oh, the motherfucking time. That's just normal course for dating. That's normal course. That to men and women. I don't know why people do it, but ghosting is I never talking to them ever again. If I do that, it's because I truly ain't feeling them and I'm not even trying to fuck. Damn. That's when I do that. And if they piss me off. But if they're nice, let's,'cause I'm a realist. I'm more of a humble guy. Not everybody might not be like that, but you'd have to really fucking throw me off to make me do that. Not want to talk to somebody ever again. Like literally, I would at least say, it's not, I don't feel you like that. I'm, we're just probably better off as friends. That would be me today. If somebody does that, it means they don't have the balls to say that. Exactly. You see what I mean? That I can't stand that. Or they're keyboard warriors and we'll break up with you over the motherfucking text instead of being a man and calling you or saying, look, I don't think this is gonna work. I don't think that we're compatible or we want different things, whatever the case may be. I just don't see why it's so hard to open your fucking mouth and speak.'cause people are coward these days. They're socially awkward and they don't know how to act. They don't know how to conduct that. Yeah. But our generation is not like that. But our, but we're talking about our generation, but we're, our generation is saying we're bad about ghosting people. Like we're bad about it or the new generation's bad. We are. Why are we bad at it? We really, we did it like, I think we are the ones that came up with it, to be honest. Generation Z or X? No, generation Z. I would, I'm so glad I'm not one of them. Okay. That's millennials. I under, no, millennials are people in their low thirties, late twenties. Gen Z are your children right now? They're Gen Z. Oh, okay. See, we're X, we're at the end of X. We're X we're at the, we're the last generation Xes and then it rolls into millennials. So we're ex millennials basically is what we are. I'm just two weeks fading outta x going the millennial. Yeah. It's weird. How is that? I don't know. They have a. I'm marking a year mark for that. For when it's the new generation. It doesn't for when it's the new, yes. I don't know what it is. It's not the eighties, the nineties, the two thousands. I think it's every 10 years, isn't it? That changes the right but generational pattern. So like sixties, seventies, eighties, nineties, two thousands. That's the millennials. So yeah, every 10 years they come up with a, yeah, we're almost due for another one. Alpha, beta. That's gonna be the new ones. God forbid, after Generation Z. It's generation, alpha, beta, Charlie, all that. I feel sorry for the world from this point on because well, we're old and these idiots are gonna be the ones sticking needles in our arms.'cause they don't have no common sense. They're getting dumber. It's just crazy. They are. They are fucking ignorant. Our kids are getting dumbed down because of the school system. You got ai, you want the fuck, since Google, you got all the answers. You don't need to know anything anymore. If I had this technology, I'd be that student. Everybody loved. You know why?'cause you told me to go home and do my homework. You didn't say I couldn't cheat. That's the leading part to cheating on fucking schoolwork is taking it home. Nobody sees you do it. You don't know if your parents helped you with it. You don't know if you went online to do it. It's all there. Now. You can take a picture of your homework and put it on AI and it'll solve all the problems on that sheet. Are you kidding me? Absolutely. And show the work or just give you the answers. AI's fucking wicked. I can have them. I know. I use AI to edit. Yeah, you could just tell it to do the things like just make me a Excel spreadsheet to Yeah. Somewhat. I can tell, I can micromanage it, but when it's all said and done, I have to listen to it and see what still sounds right and don't sound right. I still have to pick and choose what to edit out and what not to. But it does get rid of pauses. It does get rid of filler words. It does get rid of gaps. Like it gets rid of all kinds of shit. I fucking love it. It's badass. It is. It is the new, it is the new shit. So you literally, these days you don't even have to think for yourself. It's just, you don't have to, you gotta think for yourself. What, how many times wipe your ass. I don't wipe my ass. I use it a day. Huh. Uhuh uhhuh. You do a thing that sprays your butt. Oh, and then I wipe after it sprays my ass. Fuck. Yeah. I know. My shit's clean. How does that do? How does that work? Is it feel good? It'cause up in there squirt, like it shoots up in your asshole and cleans the inside outside. Ain't that one of the oldest forms of before toilet paper? Pretty much. I guess the kings and queens used to use'em. I, when I saw a bidet, I did not know how to use it, but a bide toilet seat, I know how to use.'cause I still sit there over a bidet. You don't sit down, you just over top of it. Like you, you walk, you stand up over it. Yeah. You stand up over top of it. A real bidet. You stand over top of it or you squat over it or whatnot. And then. The bidet that I have is a toilet seat bidet and it comes out the toilet seat. And it aims for your puss or your asshole? It goes both places. So I, yes, I rinse myself every time I get done. Use in the bathroom, I'm clean. Like clean. That's crazy. Yeah. I don't like smelling like urine anyway. And I hate toilet paper. It leaves all kinds of shit behind on me. Like when I wipe the white balls and shit, ugh. I'm good. Like when I wash my ass I always, every once a blue moon,'cause I get up in there with my hands. Oh, you stick a finger up in there and clean it? No, on the outside of my asshole. I'm not going up in Oh, you're not going up in No. Okay. No. Maybe to an extent. Just a tiny bit. Just, you know you wanna get that shit clean as fuck. Yeah. Clean. Yeah. That's the whole point of washing. When you're having sex with somebody for the first time, do you think it's always awkward? Yeah, kinda. It isn't it? You gotta learn somebody a little bit. Yeah, it is always awkward. I don't know why they might ride you funny at first'cause you can't figure out how to, some girls like their legs don't go all the way up so they can sit down a little further. You know that part? Yeah. Where you gotta take your knees like it's for the girl anyway, because I'm tall. Yeah, I know exactly what you're saying. Yeah. To get your angle and shit. Yeah. That's awkward. And then getting on top two, there's once a blue moon. A girl's ha tying her legs behind me to where I can't really get up in there like I should, the legs are almost down all the way. Almost doing cowgirl, doing a butterfly on her back. Oh. I don't know what you're talking about. It's you have to show me, show. I didn't mean like that, but, all right. Hold on guys. We're about to get her legs in the stir up. Okay. So legs are up at the end of the show. She's gonna get me a happy ending on the show. Okay? So explain it to me. Legs up. There's no legs up. And what I'm talking about then what are you talking about? Legs straight down. Oh, her. I imagine her guys don't spread their legs. Jesus. If a girl, okay, instead of going back, she's going like this flat. Okay. He gets inside and she's wrapped behind his fucking thighs. Oh, she's just taking his ass up straight, pushing him in. I do that all the fucking time. Don't do that. Why? The guy can't fucking do his thing like that? He's not supposed to. I'm taking control at that time. Look at me like I'm crazy. I don't know. I didn't like the thing where you say you lay your hips on somebody and just, I don't, what do I don't remember saying anything like that. You sat there, said, you said when you're doing missionary.'cause I was complaining about men laying on top of me, uhhuh, and you were saying my hips are gonna be on you. And I'm like, what do you mean your hips? I'm like, oh yeah, you're dead. Fuck. That's right. You gotta lay on the person to. You don't remember this conversation? I do. Yeah, I do. But you just, I, your whole picture of thought process is nowhere what I'm talking about. Probably not. You sat him on a guy laying his weight on you. And then I tell you, my hip, in other words, I'm up like a pit bull where my bo upper body is not crushing yours, but my hip is definitely on yours. Oh, okay. Yeah. You still gotta get on your knees. Yeah. Yeah. So you can get all the way up in there. Yeah. Do you have sex or have you ever had sex with food? Hell no. What kind of food does people fuck? Like the American Pie? That's what I gave in my mind. Yeah. Actually today I heard a guy listen to this shit on Reddit guy. This, one of the stories was on Reddit that he had two jars of peanut butter. Okay. Uhhuh one jar was for him to eat out of. And the other jar, I'm just getting the heck, go ahead. The other jar was for him to stick his penis in for his girlfriend to suck the peanut butter off of in the apartment that they lived in. They exclusively have, everybody has their own cabinet. Everybody has their own shelf in the fridge, blah, blah, blah. This one guy kept getting in his fucking food and he had a red X on it, and it said extreme or something, like this is used for extreme stuff. Yeah. And it had a red X and it was labeled, but it was in his cabinet. And dude got into his cabinet and ate some of the X peanut butter instead of the other peanut butter. And dude was like, am I the asshole for telling him that he just ate my dick peanut butter? Or am I the asshole for not telling him? Imagine if he busted in it, no. Just to stick his dick in it hard. Just so there's enough peanut butter on there that so his girl has something lick on. Oh, okay. And suck on like a dog. That's gross. That's not a bucket list of mine. People. You're not end into food and sex. Not at all. I've had the whipped cream looked off me and stuff. Yeah. That's cool. That's a lesser of the chocolate syrups. Too sticky. It's messy as fuck. Unless you're heading straight to the shower after some dirty shit, then. Cool. I hate when somebody wipes my sweat off. That pisses me off. You hate, I hate it when someone takes a towel and wipes the sweat off of you when you're having sex. You had to include towel. You know how you females do it? You take your palms right on their forehead and because you're about to drop on us, it's only sweat, but you're about to drip it on us. What about that towel you said you had? Usually I have a towel when I'm having sex. Yeah. So to catch the cu when it's coming out of me, but I'm not taking my hand and wiping your forehead. I'm using a towel. The fuck? Ew. Oh. It's, it gets sweaty. I know that It gets sweaty, it gets hot. When it starts dripping on me, I gotta stop. That's why I try to mediate the speed a little bit.'cause I hate sweating too crazy. I used to, like I said on a couple episodes before, you're like, fast sex. I used to think about that's how you had to do it all the time. Remember when we were talking about being younger? You thought the deeper, the harder, the rougher fuck that, that girl's gonna fucking love you for life. You're gonna fucking prank her in half is what you're gonna do. Make, and I said, that's what you had to do. But no. These days it's about artistry and knowing to get your partner just fill'em out. Yeah. Getting them in their body. Yeah. That might be the fun part, with somebody new is finding out their trigger and then you could tell that you did, they make that reaction like, okay, that must be it. That must be doing something right. So it's something I like. Yeah.'cause I think for the people listening, you can't judge sex from somebody that you just bang once. No. Do you have a time it might get seasoned better? Yeah. I think through that experience it does get better. It'll hit a ceiling. Of course it hits the best it can get and that's the end of it. What it tears to what? Seriously. You really feel that way? Wow. Sucks to be you, dude. Everything. Always. It sucks to me. It sucks to be everybody then. No.'cause in whenever I've, it's always gotten better. Are you kidding me? It's never plateaued. Sex life. No. My sex life has always gotten better and better with each partner. It's gotten better with each partner. Yeah. And it seems like the longer I'm with that person, the better it gets and the more feelings and emotions that are attached to it. If there is, what do you mean? If you mean if, what do I'm not with'em just to fuck'em. I'm Exactly. If you have the feelings, then yes, it can get better. Oh, if y'all are in love and stuff, the hardest thing to find these days. Oh, what I came to find out, it was one, one sided. Oh, that sucks. Yeah. So you were enjoying yourself. This person was like, I'm right, I'm nuts. No, they weren't enjoying themselves too. It's just they were cheating on me the whole time. I used to use a sex buddy as a obviously for sex, but not to see him once I wanna see him. I like my sex partners to be repeats. Yeah. I always had, I think that's the best way, to expect you've got already crack the ice and it's not weird to grab their ass out of nowhere now. You know what I mean? You got to that point, okay. How I've ended up with my sex buddies is that we dated at one point and it didn't work out. We both went our separate ways, but we were really good in bed together. We had great chemistry in bed six with your ex. But when he would meet somebody or I would meet somebody, we would break it off and tell him like, look, we're seeing someone right now, so we're not gonna have sex anymore. But once that other person was single again, or if we, when we both got single again, then we would start fucking again. And that's just how it worked. Like we were open and honest with each other. I'm seeing this person, I can't fuck with you right now. And that's how it worked for years with him and I, and his name was Will, will Guthrie. I had exes like that too. 20 years. Fucking later. Ex-girlfriend from middle school come around in my thirties, bang it out. Okay. Seriously. Yeah. 20 years later, these bitches are hitting you up saying, let's fuck. I'm 30, 30 years later. And it's the girls that I had crushes on back in the day that would never give me a chance. 20, 30 years down the line, even up to this day, they've hit me up, not outright saying, do you want to fuck they want to date. That's what they wanna do. They wanna see, Hey, I should have picked you, motherfucker. I'm going towards 50 in four years. It's too late now that I ages better than the assholes you had. And you ain't that cheerleader no more. And you ain't popular no more. And you ain't skinny no more. And you're not skinny no more. And you're in the fucking real world now. You want to call me? Yep. I haven't gave you any of my chance. None. I won't. This is my satisfaction. And hey, it's too late. You had your time. I'm having my time now. My time's on the backend. Being older, I was always attractive. I was always attractive, like for a dude, and in my teenage years and twenties and stuff. But women were mean. They didn't give a fuck. How could you look? It was who had more power. They wanted the older guy, the guy that was more established and stuff. That's natural for a female to want an older guy. It's just how they're wired. You know what I mean? That's how I was too. So that all goes into the saying that women are more attractive to the power they have, or maybe they care about how smart they are or their physique could play a role personality and stuff like that. But for the most part, in that time, men remember how shitty they were treated because they were just a year or two younger. And that guy had the car, and I didn't have one quite yet. I was 17, no, we remember that shit man. We fucking remember that shit. You wouldn't think you could just come back later on. It's all good. You took, you fucking dissed me on my best years and your best years and it's over now and you're getting old and I'm getting old now. You want to fucking peace when it's, you can't have any fun no more. You gave up your best years to these idiots and her name. I'll tell your name. Her name's Misty, but I ain't saying the last name, but her name's Misty and she knows it'cause she's apologized for it. It's not like she's trying to hide it. She knows she fucked up. Oh, she apologized to you for it? Yeah, she's been trying to get me back past couple years. But I mean she, she is, once again, you don't hear me ever talking shit too much about girls. I know. Once again, this is someone else I have nothing bad to say about.'cause she is my best girlfriend, like as a girl. She's my best friend because she was my first childhood friend. When I was in the single ditch, it was elementary school, rode the bus together, us friends. She always dated my friends. And she got knocked up by some dude who was 18. She was 15. What? And then they got together, he beat the shit out of her and then they had another kid and then he died from heroin of an overdose. And then she married his best friend. They just got divorced after 15 years. Here she is. Hit me up. Oh, you want to, you liked me, huh? You That girl was my fucking crush growing up. It's chasing me today. And I diss her, in the in years I waited for an opportunity like that. Oh, you get smart. Too late. I'm just like, it's just not gonna happen. I don't see you like that. You're not attracted to her at all. Not even physically. I don't even wanna fuck what? Nope. Really? Wow. Your whole appearance, your whole. Demeanor and everything to like, Nope. No. Can't, man, I just, I wanted She broke you. Yeah, man. That it's a childhood thing, but she's my friend still. I'm still it's a double-edged sword because this is my best chick friend. I'm always gonna be a friend of her for the rest of life. I think that if she needed my help with something, I'd definitely do it. I gave her the advice to leave her current husband.'cause that guy just really was vulgar towards her. He disrespected her in front of family. She, he treated like dog shit. She deserves somebody good. It's just not gonna be me. It's somebody good, but not me. I don't, I honestly, it, if she would've aged a little better and took care of herself a little more, I think that I could have forgave some of it. But I think I would've had a little jealousy or insecurities that she dated three of my friends. And I remember back in the day, all the talk behind the scenes, the locker room talk that we had and how she fucks and what she want and will do. I already knew all this stuff from my friends. Oh, my. She dated in middle school. Okay. This is middle school. She dated my friend eric p another friend of mine, Aaron, another my friend like Tony. And then I was friend with Jason, the one she was with for 20 years. I know all of her relationships she's ever had. She's only had four men in her entire life. That's it. She don't know nothing like that. That's another thing. She wouldn't know what to fucking do if I put the freak mode on her. She'd fall in love. She'd be hooked. Yeah. She'd fall in love. She done. She'd like, yeah. Her fucking 20, that the ex-husband of hers that's 20 years older than her, didn't rock her pussy. There's no way. Look as you would be over here being confident and cocky. I could rock this bitch's world, but I would flip her fucking, I'm not going to, no. She dissed me all my life. I hated it. I had dealt with same shit I was called, could've been the notebook story. It could've been oh, look at you. You from Nancy. Yeah, I know about that. I love that. That movie is good. I have a heart. I just choose not to use it. Why? Because I just don't, I don't, I have a hard time these days getting emotionally connected. I don't believe in it. There's so much phoniness in the world. I just can't get myself there. Can't do it. I You can't fall in love with somebody. I don't know what it would take. I really don't know what it would take. I feel bad saying that. I do. I feel bad saying that. I feel like I can either be a robbing myself of something or someone making someone else miss out because I both Yeah, you just can't choose who you fall in love with. That's, I don't want it to work that way anyway. I don't wanna be like, I wanna fall in love with that person.'cause the pussy's good. Are you fucking kidding? What? There's a lot of good pussy out there. Most pussy's, so pretty decent. Okay. So this bitch broke you? I come every time bad. Okay. She fucked you up? No. No, she didn't. No. Not Mr. She didn't. I was still one. Oh, before that. Okay. That you had other episode I talked about your heart out to Yeah. She fucked it. The one that you was ready to have kids with and Mary and everything. She fucked you up so bad. Yeah. Like you're like, I'm never gonna fall in love again. Ever. I could have been fixed easily though throughout the years, but I had a bad run since then. What do you mean? I got it's just everybody I met was like you said they ghost you. Because there, there's always a reason the ex came back around. Or they got insecure or they said they got scared and ran off. I hate when someone does that. I've had girls in my past that came through and I could see myself with them, get excited, maybe tell my friends, maybe I tell my mom even. I met somebody cool. And I feel like we got a lot of chemistry going on. This could go somewhere. And then I gotta be that dumb ass when they ask. Have you heard from that girl? How's it going? I hadn't heard from her. Oh. How long has it been? It's been about 10 days. Guess she wasn't interested. Okay, now when that fucking fades off, hold up. You know what the ghoster does? They come back around two weeks later. That's not a ghoster. A ghoster is someone that leaves and never comes back. Okay, pause. Okay, now I remember. Comes back. Now I re a ghost. Being ghosted means you never hear or talk to that person ever again. Like you were dating them, you were with them, and all of a sudden, boom, they disappear. And you no longer see or talk to them ever again. Can be ghosting, be on the back end where you've seen'em for a while. Ghost st. And they disappear. Ghost, yes, that's ghosting, but ghost. It is completely gone. Okay. Yeah. There's two different, two different phrases, two different meanings. I wouldn't say that I've been ghosted a whole lot in my life. I've had either someone just disappear outta nowhere or for one, I gotta bring her up. I gotta bring this girl up. I wanna know. Inquire months. Wanna know. Let's hear it. I wouldn't date her, but I would want to date her. I can't trust her for the life of me. I don't talk to her anymore. I haven't talked to her in two years. Why can't you trust her?'cause she's fucking loose. She's a big flirt. She's a fucking huge flirt. Cutest little thing ever. Oh my God. I just at least wanted to fuck her once. That's just wanted to know what it was like. You know what I mean? But. Almost happened and she was attracted to me. I mean me, she always went outta her way to flirt with me with her fucking man when her man would go to the bathroom, she's flirt. So that's what you mean by loose is she was flirting with you when she had another man? Yeah. Yeah. She, I knew a shot why she was with Bun. Bun was a little Asian guy. He's real cocky. He was cocky to me but always called me his boy. I don't, it took him a while to give her shit for acting the way she was towards me and I just wouldn't want to be that guy that she was doing those things to. If it was the other way around, I'd just be pissed. They would tell. But I'd go to this bar and Han when I lived out here, the pub not far from down the, I don't know why we didn't run in sooner. Into each other. Sooner. Yeah. I'm surprised. It's not far from where we hung out, down the street further towards 62. Yeah, I know where the pub is. Go ahead. So she became like my chick friend. And I always respect when dudes have a chick, a lot of times you get jealous, insecure, whatever you want to call it. Fuck. That happened all the time and I laugh every time. I'm just like, dude, I, if I wanted your girl, I could have had a way before you had her. I very toxic with each other. She's biting my cock through my jeans. Oh my. And giggling and playing around and biting again and puts her boob in my mouth, this, that and the other. I'm like, oh my God, this is finally happening. And then she's follow me to the house. And I'm like, what to you and bun's apartment? We can't do that. She's pulls her shirt up again. Shows me her titties, gets back in her fucking car and tanks off. Oh yes, we do. And expects me to follow her home so we can fuck at her house. Where her boyfriend's there. I'm like, this ain't gonna work out. No. I started thinking they were swingers there for a minute. I've had a few encounters I could've sworn swingers were trying to get me somewhere and making it sound like it's a joke. I think I thought swingers do it to fill someone out. They'll make like small talk jokes.