TheeSoulFuel Podcast
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TheeSoulFuel Podcast
Resisting the old me
Ever found yourself yearning for old dreams and ambitions, even after committing to a new path? Join me on the SoulFuel Podcast as I openly share my personal journey of resisting the pull of former aspirations in film and music. Witness the struggle and the triumph as I prioritize my divine calling as a pastor, husband, and father. Through my story, I reflect on the importance of aligning our roles with our faith and finding harmony between pursuing creative passions and nurturing a spiritually healthy and family-focused life. This episode serves as a heartfelt reminder to stay true to our divine callings and resist the allure of past identities and external temptations.
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I can't look at life from my old views cause it hurts too much to walk in my old shoes. The word of God is my go-to when I go through the valley of shadow and death. Holy Ghost move. Need him to flow through this nostalgic soul tune to let you know don't just go through, but grow too. So many things he gotta show you as he produce fruit of the spirit. So be fueled by the soul fuel.
Speaker 2:What's going on everybody? Welcome to another episode of the soul field podcast, the pit stop for your soul to be fueled for your journey in life, as you do it with christ. I'm your host. Willie robbins iii, aka pastor, will listen. Feel so good to be back. I owe you all so much. I want to appreciate all of the listeners that are listening to the pod right now.
Speaker 2:You know this has been a new thing for me, because it's a little weird to talk to a camera with no audience. I'm so used to doing this with a live crowd. But you know what I think this is good the more that I do it, the more I get comfortable with it, and I think that I am getting better, as long as I stay consistent. So, with that being said, it makes me think about something that it doesn't. It doesn't haunt me, but I make sure that I'm keeping it buried. What are you talking about? No, no, like, really, listen like I. I got it. I got to keep it. I got to keep it buried. Let me sit up like like, let me be proper. I got to keep it buried. Let me sit up like like, let me be proper, I got to keep it buried. Like all the way buried. I can't come back to life. I cannot resurrect the dead. What are you talking about? I'm talking about the old me Resisting the old me me resisting the old me.
Speaker 2:We know what the apostle paul says in corinthians. He says for if any man be in christ, he is a new creature. Old things are passed away and jesus says before paul even says anything, jesus says that you will have temptation right, and these temptations are things that could definitely lead you into sin. But what is it about those temptations and the old me? Well, the temptation of being motivated by seeing people who are not good at what I would like to be doing succeed, being motivated in the wrong way. This is why one of the reasons why, to this day, I don't spend too much time on Instagram, because you know, I'm happy for everybody. I'm glad everybody is doing what they love to do. However, I always feel like and I shouldn't say always, because I'm not on Instagram like that but when I get on, if I'm looking long enough, I'll see people who are doing what I thought I was supposed to be doing and it'll just put me in this mindset of why can't I do it? And then I'm always checked by Holy Spirit. Holy Spirit says you already know what you've been called to do. You already know what you've been called to do, so there's no need for you to sit there and waddle in care for that thing, that thing of wanting success, wanting wanting, wanting to be known for film. You know, there's a lot of things I believe, a lot of things that I would love to be doing, things that I feel like I should have been doing, and sometimes Instagram reminds me of not what I failed to do, but it reminds me of what I've actually been called to do.
Speaker 2:I do believe I've been called to pastor people. Um, firstly, I do believe I've been called to be a husband to my wife and be a father to my children, and then there's the pastor thing. And then there is still my love for film and music. Music and film, whichever order, but seeing people be successful at those things, when you are kind of held to not necessarily a way of living or a lifestyle, but you're held to your priorities and it's not a bad thing. Again, that's what is tempting about the things on Instagram is it's not just the success, the drive and the thing that the way that I used to be Right that goes along, as it wasn't my work ethic, it wasn't the projects that I was doing them with, it was my mindset behind it, because I know, when I get into third, fourth, fifth gear and working on a project, I lose the sight of family. I use the sight of needing to take care of my children, take care of my wife. Do the things that I need to do as a family man right? Do the things that I need to do as a as a as a family man right? And even faith. I feel like faith kind of got dampened when I got off into film, being tired of church.
Speaker 2:In around 2018, 2019, finally moving to California, this was a piece uh, this was, this was the old me, even though I was saved. I consider myself saved and I was still a minister, been a minister or been an elder since 2012, been preaching since what? 20, 2010. So you know that's neither here nor there, but my point is, in my growth I had to understand that, while I still have a gift to do music, I have a gift to do film. I have, I still have an obligation and I cannot let my drive that I used to have from the old me return, because so many other things comes with that and it's like when you open a can of worms, on one end you're opening up something else and you don't even see it. So this episode is about me reminding you and reminding myself to stay away from the old self.
Speaker 2:Now, how will I go about? What will I do? Films and what I'll do music? Of course I'm not done making movies. I'm not done making. I haven't really even got started again with the new me right I?
Speaker 2:The last short film I've done is 2021. Is was in 2021. I did calling and that kind of burns me up. And then that's why I said, when I know the last project that I did by myself, I put out, um, and I'm not doing anything. Now it's been what? Three years? It's unacceptable. It's unacceptable in in my line of thinking and in my timeline of doing things. It's very unacceptable.
Speaker 2:I'm used to cranking out projects and always writing and just putting it out, doing it, incorporating people, and part of the issue is me being in Dallas, me switching up the location. I don't have the actors that I depend on that I was dependent on back in Nashville. I don't have the actors that I depend on that I was dependent on back in Nashville. I don't have the actors that I could call. Even when I was in LA, I established a rapport with with uh, some people that would just come out for me, um, but I don't have that here in Dallas, and it's not that I can't get it, I believe that it's there. There are a few people that are waiting to work with me, and now I just feel a little stagnant.
Speaker 2:I know that it's my fault, I know that I have to get out and do it. I have to go ahead and do it, and the challenge is all in my mind to get back, to prevent, to not get back to the old self, the old grind. I believe that there's a way to grind healthier. Right, there's a way to hustle healthier. And when I say healthier, I don't mean physically, I mean mentally and spiritually, because when you really have a relationship with the Lord, you really have to consider that over everything, because it's God over everything else. And so, with that being said, I just want to hit you with this scripture about you know, voiding, avoiding the old self.
Speaker 2:Uh, paul says this in Galatians, chapter four, verse nine, and the NIV says but now that you know God, or rather are known by God, how is it that you are turning back to those weak and miserable forces? Do you wish to be enslaved by them all over again. Do you wish to be enslaved by them all over again? Do you wish to be enslaved by the miserable forces? Which the miserable forces is being a slave to sin? Right? So many people are looking for the outward sin. So many people are looking for the, the, the, whatever. They consider sin as such, as like smoking, drinking, turning up, partying, um, crashing out. You know all of these things, but one of the biggest things that I had to realize in my walk with Christ is that sin can be just disobedience. It always starts with disobedience, because it's disobedience at the. It could be disobedience at the smallest level, still disobedience, and it's sin. So, as I'm one who still preaches that we can live a life that is free of sin, we still will face the challenges and we still will face the temptations.
Speaker 2:I spoke a little bit about temptations. Now. The reason why temptations will be there, will always be there, is because we will always face challenges in life, that we will try to put our hand in the mix and come up with the solution ourselves instead of giving it to God. Right? And if we are always putting our hand in the mix, we will never trust him like we say we do, it'll just be a habitual activity of going to church, worshiping or connecting online to whatever church service we connect to, with no real connection. It's almost like it reminds me of my, my children, my, my daughters, like as old as they are, like 10 and 8, right. 10 and 8 like they were 11, 11 and 8, right, am I right? I'd be getting that wrong. My daughters they're growing up so fast but they even still play with fake phones. Right, they play with paper phones, they create their phones and, um, they talk on them and they play on them. Right. But that's how we are.
Speaker 2:When we say we know god and then we turn around and we be led off by temptations and because of the trials and tributes and the challenges that we face in in life, we start only mentioning him as a souvenir instead of and as a trophy, instead of looking at him like as, as our actual heavenly father, like he really watches us. He really, he really wants us to love him, he really wants us to draw close to him. But we don't do that because we are being um, we're not being honest and I and, and we have to be honest and I just want to keep it real, like I just, you know that's even in my preaching. I preach what I preach not because it sounds good, not because it's the and I just want to be known to be a truth teller. No, I speak what I speak because that's what the spirit gives me to say and I by all means am held to the same measure in which I preach and teach, right. So I'm going to say we got to continue to water down those temptations. We gotta make sure that we are going in the opposite direction of temptation, making sure that we're aware of the old self not coming back right, because he, he don't have to come back. The old willy, the old will is no more.
Speaker 2:And I wasn't like, I wasn't like terrible, but I just know that I lacked in a lot of places and I know that I've changed so much. I'm just I'm not willing to go back to that mindset of forgetting everything just so I can chase a dream. I'm in dallas now. The time to really do that was in la, and when and when I was in LA, I was a better man, right. But Nashville was my hometown, it was one of the. It's why I had to leave, that's why I had to get out Because I was focused on one end, but I was just slacking slacking as a husband, slacking as a father. You know family time was, and you know it's better, it's better.
Speaker 2:I just have to make sure that I find a way to make film work. I want to incorporate it in our church. I want to incorporate it in everything. I'm trying to get better with YouTube. I'm trying to get better with this podcast thing. I have to do better with my time management, because that was a series that we talked about in our church Time management. I'm on it. I even asked ChatGPT to give me a schedule, a content creating schedule, and I got it. Now I have to hook up the printer and print it out and I need to post it so I can see it and do these things on a regular, just as I do it with scripture sticky notes.
Speaker 2:I write notes, I read you have to be, you have to do things that are practical, and so that's all I wanted to say to you today. I wanted to make sure that you got another episode too, and I want to make sure that I won't be caught lacking. No more Again. This has been another episode of the SoulFuel podcast. Remember to like, share, subscribe. Share this with a friend, a family member, whoever needs to hear it, to let them know that, hey, you have to continue to keep resisting the old self. Submit yourself to God, resist the devil and he'll flee from you. All right, I'll see you the next time. Soul Fuel Podcast. Peace.
