BCA talks Speculum, Paranoize Fanzine, The Earwigs & Much More!

Episode twelve of season 2 for Beyond the Podcast of 1984. This episode: BCA talks Speculum, Paranoize Fanzine, Fartmonster, The Earwigs, Conflagration & much much more!

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Ray. Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah that I don't I love that, hello. you are listening for beginning to listen experience. New episode. I'll be on the podcast of 1984. What is your. And though parasitic host the bizarre alien. Thank you. Yes. Here we are. Another episode of my show. And, it's nice to be back. Considering that earlier, which technically it was yesterday, I was getting really depressed again and feeling really horrible. Kind of, one, you know, going to that whole side of, I think I'm just going to quit everything, but I'm going to keep doing my podcast. And the funny thing is, I was, say for the record, that this is about the only creative thing that I've been doing for a while is doing this, doing the show. The last creative thing that I did was my comic book, the WTF monster comic book that I did, and I still, unfortunately have not promoted. Well, actually, I did a little bit online. I, mentioned on Instagram, I don't remember if I said anything on Fort Book, but, oh, I'm sorry, I meant Facebook dot. I call it Fort Book if I want for many reasons. Anyhow, I don't remember if I promoted on there. I need to, there's a couple places I need to take my comic book to. I just I don't know, man. Last several years, I have lost a lot of inspiration. It's like I'll start getting pumped up to do something, and then I just, I'm actually really surprised that I did my comic book. I mean, I have not done a comic book in a long time, and, you know, that comic started. I was just an idea like, oh, I'm just going to do a couple frames here and there, you know, maybe like one shot panels, with my favorite scenes from the thing that I thought were hilarious because I know a lot of people are like, oh, I'm always so creepy, and I'm one of those people. The movie's freaking really creepy. It's like one of the scariest horror movies of all time in my in my world, that's one of my top ten. Like most terrifying. Just do you know? Anyhow, I ended up just drew a bunch more pages. And then I told my buddy Tim, who who's also a really big fan of the film, and long story short, got a bunch of copies made, and I need to get off my plane by. But, you know, I really, I mean, God, the last. What was it, three years ago? Two years ago, I don't know, two years ago, I recorded the earwigs, split with speculum. And, that's still not out. Supposed to be a split team. I thought it was coming out. April. I've heard nothing in months, and I know it's going to come out. So this isn't a, a slam or anything on bird eater entertainment. My buddy, Brian, who does, who does speculum is very cool guy. And not only does he put out lots of really cool stuff, lots of noise and like, punk and crazy music and stuff, he also makes these limited edition and action figures and, figurines, and they're frickin cool. He sent me a big box. I'm going to do, one of my next, next episodes is going to be talking about, his label. And I do apologize for like, a freaking idiot right now, but my friend Colton, also known as Dave Mirra BMX on Instagram does a really kick ass label. Also, he specializes predominantly and he's putting out a lot of old grind noise. Noise core tool. This hilarious, you know, old, old school stuff from like the 90s and, also does a really badass fanzine called Deadly Encounters, which is a very low budget, lo fi, dedicated tons of movies. I've never heard of on my damn, but lots of cult films and crazy stuff from all over the world. I freaking love it. And then, of course, Scott, definitely mentioned Bobby Bergeron. I hope I pronounce your last name right, buddy. He's in, the the noise core freak band. Shit load. He's also in a hardcore band, and I said, I gotta apologize. I'm seriously not have sleep. I just don't I don't, have access to my stuff right now, but he does. Oh, my God, my brain's not working right now. Paranoids fanzine. And, of course, he releases. He's put out CD's and stuff of his bands, and, he's a super huge, supporter of the local Marlins. New Orleans Marlins. We pronounce it scene. Zien is freaking awesome. And for the record, yeah, I actually drew the very first logo for him, and he made some stickers of it. I was like, Holy crap. We got back in touch a while back. Anyways, I want to do a focus on talking about these cool labels and the cool stuff they put out. And yeah, I'm going to break stuff out of my collection. Some of it's already out of print, so if you missed out, you missed out. There you go. Listen to your, glossy. Crap. It won't be indie crap, rock or whatever. I don't care. And, back to that. I gotta say, though, and back to what I was talking about. I'm not be really inspired. These guys are totally inspirational to me. I mean, I don't ever hear them complain. They put out tons of stuff. They're kickin bullet and me, I just, And I don't know, it's been going on for years now, but, you know, I. Yeah, like the very last thing I recorded with Erie's as far as full length was I did I recorded it on my four track before it went kaput. Said the bastard to my buddy Brian from, birding or entertainment, and he said he would mix it. And then, I don't know, I got the I got a message from and I thought I heard it wrong and like, oh, God, I sent you the wrong tape. It's like, that was the tape. I'm like, oh. So I don't know what's going on. I guess it'll it'll be out. But anyhow. And then of course, about three maybe longer than that now, maybe four years ago, I recorded, brush your teeth with shit, which is a CD, Cd-R, and it's one of the worst stuff I've ever recorded. And, it was a lot of fun to do. And I have not put that together. Although yesterday, I finally started straightening my room up. I'm trying to find my stack of burned CDs and put it together, because I already I got all everything together. I just need to find the CDs and put them together. But yeah, I, what is the whole point this whole episodes like, is this like a wine first? Oh. But no, seriously, I was really depressed. I mean, I was trying to do some stuff earlier, sweep my kitchen, cleaned it up, took out a bunch of garbage, recycling, cleaning. It was starting to organize my room, cleaning it up because I am trying to get stuff going. I've just got into this horrible rut. And it doesn't help that a while back I was invited to play, you know, possibly two shows within a short time, and I couldn't because I can't afford to take any days off. And of course, as you all know, I oh, I did get some days off, but guess what? Because I was in the hospital twice, which sucks. And it's just been kind of depressing, man. And, I don't know, it's really hard, but, I mean, I've been getting some inspiration, but again, I get so tired of, you know, telling people it's like, oh, yeah, I'm going to do this. Oh, my voice is crack and I'm fine. I think I just got assimilated. I'm still me, though, if that makes any sense. Anyhow, just I've been getting inspired, but, like, it goes back and forth and I almost feel like being bipolar. I'm up and down. I'm up, I'm down, I'm up and down. And I'm really just. I'm tired of it. And I just have a really hard time focusing. Like, I could start on something and then I don't finish it. And I've just noticed this bad habit of mine. It's been going for years and I just, I don't know, maybe I don't know. I'm an undiagnosed ADHD or whatever the problem is. And I'm really thinking about talking my talk to my doctor about it. But anyhow, so yeah, I'm trying. But anyways, I found this book by a weird coincidence. It's all about believing in yourself and how to exercise your mind. And it's funny because I just found that sitting right there, and I started reading it. It was kind of inspirational and like, oh, so it was a little hokey, but I gotta say, you know, it's kind of nice reading it. It kind of chilled me out and I don't know, I did good when I was feeling better. I was thinking about it because I get that my friend Blaine, that's been, what, a couple of months now sent me the digital for track, and I'm going to give it another shot. I have to I, I just, I give up so easily on so many things and you know, it's been, I don't know, 6 or 7 years that I just, I really haven't done anything. I mean, the last major stuff I was really doing, I was recording a lot of stuff by the Earwigs and Conflagration on my four track and in my four track. I mean, it was working up until I think it's been about almost two years, because the very last thing I recorded was a song by con from conflagration. I Can't even talk right now. It's like a 32nd song was inspired by blasphemy and, I would even say probably earlier extreme noise terror and maybe even discharge bands like that. But, you know, definitely, pretty crazy fast, loud. And it was a lot of fun to do, but. Oh, man. Yeah. So yeah, that's that's been kind of going on and I just I'm up and down. I'm taking 12 pills a day now for my diabetes. My high blood pressure. And then I finally it's been weeks. Finally going to get my colonoscopy. I'm actually getting that done on July 22nd. And I have to fast for two days. Normally it's one day it's going to be two days because apparently my agency still isn't low enough. They said, oh no, you're going to do it. So that's going to be a lot of fun. And I'm thinking with all the bowel movements, I am most likely going to record a new fart Monster album. Disgusting. Yep. And that's the point. I haven't, fought monster has not been documented in a very long time, so I think it's about time. And speaking of for monster, I have an. So I just found the cover, the original cassette cover. But it's funny, it's not the original because I think Billy, from Razorback versus back when he was doing stupidity. I think he might possibly I could be wrong, but, he might. I think he might have the original cover still. But this is a decent, you know, copy of the covers. It's so stupid. It's like 60 minutes of bowel movement, vomit, garbage guitar, muffled guitar crap. And I think it's hilarious. The fact that it's also grossed out some people's beautiful. But anyhow, if all goes well, I'm looking for the CD, but I have to ask buddy of mine. Hey, you know, I think a big me. I do see the need to send it to rusty, but, talking about possibly a nice produced cassette rerelease of the for monster album, I think it'd be funny. It's people like, what the hell's this band? This is a noise is just crap, and I hope it makes people vomit. So, hey, it could very well happen. I'm just honored that people really like my stuff enough to want to put it out. And of course, my update is I still have not begun on it because I need to get, get get some new SD cards and get going on my double LP for the earwigs album, double LP on Breathing Problems, which I think would be great because I'm sure, the thing that makes me happy about it is people put it on. And so I'm hearing this Lo-Fi crap and I hope they hate it. I know a lot of people are like, we will be able to hear your stuff or, you know, like this friend of mine, I was telling him about how I've cleared rooms, singles. What did you do to purpose? I'm like, no, and I don't give a f and crap if people like my stuff or not. You know, these people we're going to entertain. You know, I don't get to scrutiny on YouTube, you know? And high five. I'm not. Screw that man. You don't I am I'm a super villain. I'm a frickin monster. I'm a I'm the freak from planet X. I don't care if you like my stuff or not. I mean, if people like my stuff, that's great, I do. I got people that want my noise and I really appreciate it. I get a lot of nice comments, but honestly, I care for entertaining people. It's like I told my buddy, just the other day, it's like something doesn't work, I don't care, I don't get mad anymore. I used to get really mad, like the PA would go out or something. And, those are recordings. I mean, I'm not even never been released, but just like ten minutes of me yelling, you know, nothing's working and all that crap. Now, I don't care if I, if I, I ever play a show again and nothing works. I don't really give a crap. I'm going to run around. I'll just run around to yell and kick things. I don't care. So people don't understand. Man is when it comes to noise, there's no rules. But oh, if you're the rock and roll band or a punk band or a metal band, oh no. You have all your instruments. You have to, like, play by the rules. And you know what? No, I don't and even annoys, you know, all the snobs out there that, you can't, you know, they mean they bitch about. Oh, you can't use vocals or obetz or. No, no, I hear all this and I laugh. I'm like, you know what? I'm not doing it for you. I do my frickin noise the way I want. If I want to put beats on my stuff, I'll do it. Revenue's vocals. I'll do it. If wanted to be noise from mental, I will do whatever I want. Because you know what? You're not my dad. You're not my boss. You're not my. I'm not your slave. And I do get ticked off. We get tired of these like snobs. Like, don't tell me what to do. So these stupid, it's always these burly, heavily tattooed dom or so-called hardcore birds with loads of tattoos. Yeah. You guys are so tough looking shit about noise in their scene and that you're like, they're crap and it's just pretentious. I potatoes. You're a bunch of thugs. Why don't you just shut your face? Those are in the interior of the band of Maximum Rocker. I can't remember the band is. And even if I could remember their name, I'm not giving you any credit. But they're there. Half their interview is bitching about the Rhode Island, like bands. What was it? They're actually kind of. Oh, we kind of been being landed. I mean, I don't care. I don't even need to really been mentioning what they're complaining about. You know, these noise bands, it's like, well, guess what, don't go to their show. How are they ruining your scene? You got your little clicks. So cold, hard core, your butt. Oh, yeah. You're hardcore. It is. A bunch of bullies is what you are because people aren't doing what you want, I don't care, I've done that. I've played shows and people like as soon as I started, like setting up, they leave. And it's funny of people who. Oh, don't you worry about that. No, I don't care because I'm not doing it for you people. I'm doing it for me. And you know what? I could play the crickets. And I don't care that earwigs are in its own world and I don't care. And I get so tired, like, you know, I don't care what your genre is. Do your own thing, man. Even if you're a country band, you know, have fun. Do your own thing. Why do you gotta follow the rules? Man's be yourself. Whether you're like, you know, whoever you are, I don't or whatever, I don't care, man. I'm I, I just ran here, but, I think about somebody, it just ticks me off. And, you know, I could just go on and on and on, but I don't want to have this whole episode a rant fest, because I ran an opera. Anyways, even that band was bitchin. I was like, whatever. I'm sure you guys are decent. I've never heard their music, but it just really ticks me off. You know, I was reading that interview, I was like, whatever you oh, you guys are oh no, he's been he's ruining ruining your scene. I didn't know you owned. I didn't know you owned the scene. It's like I've heard people I hear you complaining I only knew are standing outside when we were all playing a show. And this isn't even music. Well, then why don't you go home, cry baby, go home, poser. You know, just because we're not doing what you want to do, you don't hear us bitching about your stupid bands. But anyways, I don't, I don't care. I shouldn't care if I didn't. But then again, if I didn't care, I wouldn't be blah blah blah blah blah, and but, and I just don't want all the stuff feeling a little bit film a lot better now. Not so depressed, but I just I'm, I'm at a time, man. I probably is in every episode. I'm trying. I just don't trying hard enough. Although, like I said, I cleared up my room a bit. I'm looking for those CDs. Soon as I find them, it's going to be. It's a breeze. I just take the CDs. I got a little these cases for them, put them in a case. I got these, pages with like think what's all the info about the album? Fold them up, put them in the boxes. I'm hand drawing all the covers, so I'm just going to draw them in advance. And I don't know, hopefully I can sell some. I get to send a few out to some friends because I appreciate you guys sending me a bunch of awesome stuff. I oh yeah, I'm going to do it. And one thing I gotta say that really made me happy tonight was, because I got a new phone about, it's been about a week and a half, and I'm able to get online now, so I was looking up this podcast. I typed in, you know, the name, and it brought up a whole bunch of stuff, and I was like, oh, wow. I didn't realize it was on so many channels. I read in, sites. I mean, they had Spotify, Apple, Amazon. I wish I could remember the other ones. Those that buzzsprout, you know, you just type in beyond the podcast, the 1984 Buzzsprout. I still haven't figured that out. I don't I know, I know, Tim, I need to look that up. A friend. And then I read one review and the guy was pretty cool about it. He's like, yo, it's an intro. You know, something like, I don't know. And since I'm like an interesting show, Denmark, cool films, weird stuff and whatever else, that's what it is, man. Whatever else you know? And then I was thinking about my old favorite, stream, last stream, last stream on the left, and, I'm gonna start. Liz. I'm struggling. I'm going to start watching the show again. I really miss it. I guess the new guy, it has been on there for quite a while. I haven't watched it in months, and I need to, you know, I really need to watch it because those episodes aren't bad. Mean it's a little different now, but, you know, this happens when somebody leaves. But this guy is pretty cool. And I was reading a whole bunch of, you know, stuff about the controversy and all that about Ben and you, if you know that, you know what I'm not going to get into again, I talked about that before, and, you know, say what you want, people. I wish the guy the best. I also wish the best for his ex-girlfriend and all of them. I hope everybody, gets good. But anyhow, I'm going to get back to the show, because I really love it. And then I got online. I was looking up some old Adult Swim stuff and like, weird found footage, horror stuff, and it just really kicked me in the yard, man. And I don't know, I'm feeling hyped right now. I'm feeling, I'm definitely feel inspired. I just hope it stays with me. And the nice thing is, since I quit drinking coffee almost a month ago, I'm getting more of a natural highs now, which is good. I know it's more positive, and I know because anger, you know, that's not good for you. You know, I was just reading something about when you get mad, you're not very intelligent. You can't formulate thoughts, right? Is true. I've caught myself right in the middle of being so mad. I'm like, I got to calm down. And I just. I feel like I can't. And, believe me, I'm trying. But, you know, quitting coffee was a really good thing to do. So I'm drinking decaf, but I'm trying to find, like, a stronger decaf. And I hate to say it, but I might actually start just putting maybe one like, a half spoon, which that's not very much at all. But maybe I have some in a real coffee because I still have a bunch of regular coffee on, but I don't know. I don't want to get back into that habit, so I just, I need to give that coffee to somebody, but, drink it. Try to drink, you know, stronger decaf. I've been kind of on a high, for the last couple hours, which is good. It's a good feeling. And it inspired me enough to want to do this episode, which yet another chaotic episodes all over the place. But, hey, you know, if you know me, you know, I'm like this. And, sometimes it annoys people, but, hey, like, you know what? If you don't like it, don't talk to me. You don't have to listen to my show. You don't have to, like, communicate with me. You can block me online. I don't care. You don't have to call me if anybody out there finds me, overwhelming or overbearing, which I do. I can be. I think about it sometimes. I'm, like, hanging out with friends. I'm like, hey, dude, I'm sorry. You know, I'm not just. It's how I've always been. And I don't do it to be, a butthole. So it's just, I know how I am. I'm not going to say, oh, Fort Street week is. Oh, I'm sorry, are you perfect? Heck, no. Well, anyhow, Yeah, I got to talk to my buddy about get my camera back. A buddy of mine, my buddy John, said, my, I have this VHS camera. Well, it's not really a VHS gear. It's like a high eight mini. What do you call it? It's, hi8 camera. It's an older one, but it takes these small tapes. And friend of mine, Gabe it with a case and everything. I just need to get the batteries for it. But my buddies had it, and, I just need to get it back and find out what kind of batteries it takes. And I think, I don't know, I need one other item for. But anyways, I want to get it to make it like short, weird. Like what the blank am I watching? Basically bizarre alien videos have all these ideas. They may not make a lot of sense to people, I don't care, but I gotta say, reading stuff about some really weird Adult Swim shows. I was the one I just discovered. Oh, what is it called? There are people in this house, and, I think that's what it's called. It's freaking incredible. It's like they receive those, like, stupid reality so-called reality shows. Yeah, kind of like Big Brother. We have cameras set up with different rooms, but in each room, something really weird is going on. It starts getting weirder and weirder and kind of creepy and disturbing and, definitely got, a found footage horror film. I'm already a fan. There's like a 15 minute video. It's one of those animated, the type that it was just on DVD, and they're like, nope. So it's only online, but, I believe it's called there are people in this house, but it'll be easy to find. It was read about some Japanese found footage horror and just a buncha frickin really cool stuff. I love that stuff. I love really low budget, and I want to do more stuff. I. I love low budget. I love shot on video. I don't care about big super fans. I mean, don't get me wrong, if I had a set up, if I had one of my dreams, if I what am I dreams is I wish I had a small, crew. We can make movies and stuff. I wish that's what I could do. I wish I was rich so I could just spend my days, nights working on films with people, you know, or if I had enough money and I have a pretty good camera. I don't mind, like, you know, good quality. But I also like very low budget. I like shot on video and I don't mind, well, nowadays, of course, you don't really have film work. Excuse me? Digital, I don't mind. It doesn't bother me. And it's not even really about that. It's like the story and the, all that stuff and the cool effects, which for me, like practical effects, but, hum, hum. Yeah, I have too many dreams. Unfortunately, they require money, which I don't have much of, and it's very frustrating. I have too many ideas I compliment on that. I really appreciate it. Be really useful for videos. Yeah. And I try to do, But it's very difficult when you don't have anybody around that wants to take part, like try to get people to jam. Nobody wants to jam, you know, and then people will get on my back about, oh, you're not doing anything. And so yeah, because my freaking lack of, of, of stuff. But it doesn't matter. I'm trying, man. I'm seeing what I could do. I'm gonna make the best of it. And, you know, it's just like one of the ideas I have thought about trying to make a full length movie by myself, because I really can't find anybody. And what really makes me laugh is, is, people will condemn you. Oh, here's minimus crab and say, you know what I did? You shut your pie hole because you can't find anybody. At least I would try to do something. You know, that's the thing is, I don't know if I'm really going to do it. I might I don't care. There. Now I'm beginning. Pessimistic. Nah. I'm fine. Im, we're just really tired. Later gets. I've been getting really, really tired. Like I've been passing out a lot earlier, especially on weekends. I fall asleep. The other night was like. It was like a little after one and I started just zoning out. I was trying to watch a movie. I was watching one of the street cat rock films, which is a really kick ass, series of pinky violence films from, like 1970 from Japan, starring the very beautiful Michael Koji, who is still alive. And she's aged very nicely. Anyways, I think I get about 30 minutes into the movie and I just, I kept cranking out sci fi turn it all. I had to force myself to stay up. But, oh, it was flipping. It was like 140. I finally passed out. I just, I used to fall asleep at like four, but it's been like two or maybe even earlier that I pass out and it just like I said, it's medicine and I don't want to blame the heat. It's been pretty hot lately, but, not as hot as it's going to get, but, you know, whatever. But yeah, I gotta say, I'm kind of I'm all over the place now, but I got to say, that was really inspiring big time, just to see how much, you know, the show has been listed online. I think that's awesome. I'm happy. I hope more people will listen to it. I need to get off my butt. I'm going to do that later. I'm going to repost, I put it up on Instagram again and then on Facebook, and I might say if I try to put it on X, I'm going east going éxito, Twitter X, but should be able to I know you put links, so I think I'm trying to put it on there because I mean what have I got to lose. That's my problem is I kind of like just kind of crap on myself. When were you thinking of myself but say nobody's going to care. It's like, well, if you don't actually try, you don't know, you know, just like trying to take my comic books up to some places to see if they if they, sell it, you know, or the promise of getting a show, you know, for my car. I don't know if that's going to happen. I, I gave up on, And then I was like, well, why should I? Because you never know. My grandma would have said, you know, if you don't try, you won't find out. Just like that, saying, of course it's stupid. What's stupid is when you don't ask the question to find out, you know, to learn something. And, Yeah. So, I don't know. I got a few more episodes I'm going to do. All I know is going to be the very special episode coming up. It's probably going to be terrible. Haven't they all been terrible? I don't know, I think they've been. Okay. I kind of go back through and listen to a little bit of my stuff, but I've never sat through an entire episode of my show, which I think a lot of people do, that bands do that. They put on an album and they don't even listen to their own album because they're recorded so many times. But for this, this is just improvised and I'm really happy to be doing this. I know I say that a lot, but it's true. I'm very happy to be doing this. I hope you will enjoy it. You can if you want. It'd be nice if if anybody listened to this, did leave comment, question, rant, whatever. Doesn't matter to me. And like I said, I hear from anybody. I'll be glad to answer any questions if you if, you give a darn. But any who. So this is about it for this episode kind of zoned out here which, you know, I was in outer space with my dream lady, and, wish I could win the lottery, man. And wish I could get over this diabetes and get better. And I'll tell you what. Even if I could clear this out of my system, I'm still done drinking. And I'm done with all that stuff. I don't, you know, I don't have any interest. I got my boob, which I really enjoy. Oh, it gives me a little cake. Tastes good. Love it. Try and drink a lot more water. I'm supposed to be. I haven't been, but anyhow, so this has been the bizarre alien from outer space. This has been, the. On the podcast of 1984, we got more episodes coming up, and I'm very dull. Thank you. I'm monotone, but thanks for listening to my show. And, thanks always to Tim for believing in me enough to do this and for your great editing job, man. And, the cool, creepy intro that you created for the show. It's awesome, I love it. I love what people think about it. I think it's really cool, man. And of course, the the art. Well, I do the art, I do, I do the art, but, the way you render it, Tim, is really cool. I really appreciate everybody. And, go more crazy pictures to send for art, for the themes for each of us of this one. Probably just be. I'm thinking something crazy, like exploded scanners. Exploded headers. It's a and yeah, everybody, thanks for listening to be on a podcast and and you do for I always like to we'll see you next time. But I can't see you. You can't see me. So e so take care. Stay pants keep the filth, keep watching the skies. And, more episodes coming up, including the very special one. You'll find out what it is when it comes out. This is going to be exciting. And, got some other stuff coming soon, too. So anyhow, have fun and we'll talk and blab with you later. Okay? Bye.