Tanya's Corner #2-3

In this episode, I am sharing a part of my experience from when I was homeless and some of the things I learned for moving forward and giving encouragement to keep on pressing on. Never Give up!!!

In Memory of my father Robert L Cooks 

Transcript

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Hello everyone, and welcome to another episode of Tanya's Corner. I am your host, Tanya, and I know I've been uh missing for a little while, missing in action. Sorry about the absence. Um, as I always say, life be life, and um, I'm gonna get better at this thing, and I'm gonna try to be more consistent. Um, just had a lot of stuff coming up, a lot of things happening in life, health and situations like that. Um, I'm starting to notice the older I get, the more things are starting to pop up. So, anyone young listening, you need to take care of yourself, take care of your bodies. Today, I'm going to speak a little bit on um some of my experiences. I'm going to speak on um my homeless situation and how I overcame homelessness and the things that being homeless did teach me, and probably a few other little trials or little things that I had happened to me. Um back in um 20, back in 2020, I believe it was. I want to say it was, but it had to be between 2019 and 2020. I'm not sure of the exact dates. Um, I wind up um being homeless. Uh me and my daughters uh were staying in a house, and um I lost my job, so the income, my income, well, my income lured, and um at the time I was doing a lot of things that I probably shouldn't have been doing with my money. So I wound up losing the house. My oldest daughter um was going to go move with her boyfriend at the time, and my baby daughter, she wanted to stay at the school she was going to, and she didn't want to leave her friends, so she moved in with um one of her friends from school and her mom. So um I moved uh to Oakliff, back to Oak Cliff. I was born, I mean, when I was born, I was raised in Oakliffe, um, which a lot of people know that's the hood. Um, that's a place I don't want to go back to because I grew up there. Um, so um I had to go back there, and while I was there, of course, I still didn't have a job, so I was basically didn't have any uh income. So I winded up um losing that apartment, and um now I want to get this straight as well because a lot of people will say, Well, you said you were a daddy's girl, and your dad should have let you come stay with him. Now, my dad would have let me come stay with him, God rest his soul, because he is deceased. No one should be saying anything bad about my dad because I I do get I will get a little ticked off at that. But um, my dad was living in a house that was unlivable, and he had uh another person uh staying with him. So um I did sleep in my car a couple times in his um driveway. There was some times that um I would have to go, I went to the truck stop for a bath or a shower, and then I would go back to sleep in my car. Um I lost a lot of things before I went homeless. I had like any woman, shoes up on so many pairs of shoes until it was ridiculous. I lost all of those shoes um at that time except for like three to four pairs. Uh the movers that we had that I was trying to get get to move me, they were useless. I paid them for two hours and they moved nothing. So they left a lot of my stuff I had to leave in the house. Um I already had a writ of a writ of possession on the door, which meant I had to leave immediately. Um and that I had to find up some movers and they were useless, like I said. So a lot of my stuff wound up getting left. Um I um wounded up sleeping in the car, and it was cold last time. It was it was uh around about close to it was getting close to Christmas, at Thanksgiving, Christmas time, something like that. Um and I would have stayed uh homeless probably longer. I think it was about three to six months, and I would have been longer than that if um I um a friend of mine uh told me he said that he said, why don't you go to um the VA and see if they can help you? Because of course I'm a veteran, but I wasn't receiving you know a veteran pension or anything like that. So um I went to the VA and let them know that I was a veteran and I needed assistance, and I got into Endeavors, got in touch with this organization called Endeavors. Endeavors helped me to um, I knew a landlord that I knew, and he was still renting places, and so I uh went to him, he had a place, and I was able to move in. Um, he let me move in before they even paid all of my stuff, my move-in, because he knew me already from a previous unit that I rented from him that I stayed in a couple years, me and my daughters. And so um he didn't want me to be sleeping in the car. So he winded up um letting me stay in the apartment before all of my monies were paid. And um I'm glad that he did that because I would have been, you know, I I would have been sleeping in the car for Christmas, basically. So that year I winded up getting out of the car and moving into my first condo. Um what uh what this really shows is anything that you are going through, you can come through it. It might be hard. And it might seem like it's hard, but you can't give up. Where there's a will, there's a way. And I know a lot of people say they can't get an apartment with evictions. Oh, I got an eviction on my background, and I can't do this. I got three, four, maybe more, because I've always had a really quick temper. Now I don't have it. Of course, as I gotten older and learned about meditation and inner work and those things, I don't have that temper like I used to have. But now I I will still get to a point where I would have to tell someone, you know, hey, you got to stop, you know. Um, so those things are some things we go through because it's just the universe's way of testing us to see how we're going to act. If you act, I guess you could say, um, if you act childish or immature, then you still haven't learned your lesson. It's about learning lessons and getting more aware and getting more experience. This is just an experience that we're having. We're supposed to be getting the most out of this experience. And sometimes it can seem like it's very hard and you're never gonna come out of it. But keep pushing, keep persevering, keep praying, keep keep going forward. Keep uh keep focused, you know, meditate and just focus and change your reality or change your way of thinking in your mind so your reality can change. Because sometimes you'll think that you, oh yeah, it's gonna be I am positive, but your inner mind is not positive. What's on the inside will reflect on the outside. And if your inside is bad, then your outside is gonna be bad as well. Whatsoever a man thinketh, so he is. And if you think a certain way, you think with a lack of mentality, then you'll have a lack of reality. Which means if you think that you don't have, or you always wonder about, oh, I don't have this, oh I don't have that, you'll never have it. Because it'll never gravitate to you as long as you say you don't have it. You're speaking it into existence. So be more positive. And if you need to say it out loud to convince yourself, then say it out loud several times to convince yourself that you can do it, you have it, it's yours. Act like it's already done, and then thank God in the universe that you were able to get it, or that they delivered it to you. It's already yours. Only thing you need to do is claim it and bring it to your reality. Again, whatsoever a man think it, so he is, and that's something to think on here. All of the things that I spoke about, I have plenty of other stories that I will release as time goes on. Someone told me that I need to share some of my experiences. I'm gonna put them in a book as well, but I'm going to share some of them here with you guys. I think it will be a very good experience and something for you to hold on to. Life can seem hard, but we got to keep going. This is just an experience. Put everything you can to enjoy it. I know it's hard. I've been there. It's still there in some ways, but it's gonna be okay. That's all I got for you guys today. I love you, and you can't do nothing about it. Have yourself a great day on purpose. Thank you for joining in. Have a good one.