The House Always Wins

An unexpected career opportunity brings both Khalia and Blair back to Las Vegas and even closer together. How do they navigate as a couple in this new landscape?

"Just when I thought I was out, they pull me back in!"
-Michael Corleone (The Godfather: Part III)

Transcript

SPEAKER_01 0:00

Okay. Okay, okay. How do you think you look, baby? You think you look alright, appropriate?

SPEAKER_02 0:06

Yeah, right. I think you look fine. What do you how do you think you look?

SPEAKER_01 0:09

I think you look fine as hell.

SPEAKER_02 0:11

Oh. Thanks so much.

SPEAKER_01 0:14

You know I realize about doing a podcast, baby.

SPEAKER_02 0:16

What?

SPEAKER_01 0:17

I realize the people don't care about how long it takes for us to record, if there's audio issues, if the camera goes down, if this is our eighth time recording for today, if we had to leave and then go outside, go to the pool, drink a little bit, smoke a little bit, pop a little bit, a kid. Right. They don't need to know about all of that. But all they need to know is that we weren't here last week, but we're back today. Let's fucking go. Start it off, start it off, start it off. Start it off, baby.

SPEAKER_02 0:56

What the heck? Every single week it just gets more and more wild.

SPEAKER_01 1:00

I can only imagine what our season finale might look like.

SPEAKER_02 1:04

Oh, we're coming up on a season finale, huh?

SPEAKER_01 1:07

Are we? We got a couple of episodes. Eight ups. We want it to be a consistent eight episodes, at least to start off, to make sure that we ain't gonna bullshit you talking about, oh yeah, we're starting a podcast, and then we start two episodes and then we're like, nah, we good here. We're done. Yeah.

SPEAKER_02 1:23

We've made it a long way.

SPEAKER_01 1:25

Thank you so much for sticking with us, listening to us so far. Don't worry, I've seen how many people be listening. I'm like, people actually want to listen to us. Yeah.

SPEAKER_02 1:34

We're interested.

SPEAKER_01 1:35

I mean, I'm gonna listen to you. That's why I married you.

SPEAKER_02 1:39

I want to listen to you all day long. Even though you just asked me if we got engaged in San Francisco or San Diego and we just got engaged six months. Details don't matter. They do.

SPEAKER_01 1:48

The ring is on the finger.

SPEAKER_02 1:50

Everything matters, babe.

SPEAKER_01 1:51

I only just put this ring back on because I left it in my bump.

SPEAKER_02 1:54

It's been off for days. I literally went on a work trip and then you just took it off. When I left the door, you took off your ring.

SPEAKER_01 2:01

And I that's not true. I know. They're gonna be listening like, oh, no.

SPEAKER_02 2:07

I'm kidding, I'm kidding. But actually, no, I'm not.

SPEAKER_01 2:09

So, um hold it down, baby. Oh, I forgot about uh the the breakdown of the episode, but we know what we'll do. It's fine.

SPEAKER_02 2:18

Yeah, we got it. All right, well, it's been a day, and we've had a day outside. We're kind of wearing these really random outfits because we're at the pool, so ignore us. Blair's showing a little bit of extra skin under that bottom button.

SPEAKER_01 2:35

Oh, oh. Did camera pick this up?

SPEAKER_02 2:38

Oh if you don't zoom in when you edit, I'm gonna be really upset.

SPEAKER_01 2:42

I'm gonna blur out. I'm gonna have to pixelate. Yeah, cute, cute.

SPEAKER_02 2:46

Like a heart or something.

SPEAKER_01 2:47

Free the nipple.

SPEAKER_02 2:49

Free free them. It's movement. Timples out, dimples out. Uh, but welcome back to the Synced Up podcast. I am your host officially now on paper and in the government documents, Kalia Edwards. Put out the government, baby. Yeah, it was the government.

SPEAKER_01 3:13

Took you long enough.

SPEAKER_02 3:15

I mean, listen, details don't matter, right?

SPEAKER_01 3:17

Facts. Yeah. Facts. We have today.

SPEAKER_02 3:19

And I'm here with my lovely host.

SPEAKER_01 3:21

What's happening? What's happening?

SPEAKER_02 3:24

Who are you?

SPEAKER_01 3:25

Oh, who am I? I'm Blair Edwards.

SPEAKER_02 3:29

A character, a true character. Now, on today's episode of Synced Up, we are going to be talking about some unexpected career opportunities for both you and myself, and a little bit about how we were able to support one another through change and um just you know the bumps that come about when success also arises.

SPEAKER_01 3:56

Right.

SPEAKER_02 3:56

Yeah.

SPEAKER_01 3:57

Perfect. Yeah, I mean, well, they say, what biggie say more money, more problems?

SPEAKER_02 4:02

Yep.

SPEAKER_01 4:03

That's not necessarily true. Because if you're broke, it seemed like you always got problems. I mean, I'll be having problems all my life. But this is the beautiful thing about now again into if we're following the journey of our relationship, it's great that we start having problems, but then we have problems together. Okay, all right, let me stop.

SPEAKER_02 4:29

Uh it's very cute. You're very cute.

SPEAKER_01 4:33

Thanks. It's the it's the peach. It's the peach, Lululemon.

SPEAKER_02 4:38

Doing some ads.

SPEAKER_01 4:40

Oh. It's very cute. Anyway, okay.

SPEAKER_02 4:43

All right, so I think if I recall correctly, we began with my promotion and how I arrived to Vegas.

SPEAKER_01 4:50

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. So last week, what did we talk about? We talked about um the fact that I left Cirque and went on tour, um, was in Miami, then I got presented with the opportunity to come back to Vegas. You see how they do it? Just when you just when I thought I got out of the game, they pour me right back in. You know what I mean? The house always wins. It's not the casino, it's the city. I learned that from a taxi cab driver one time.

SPEAKER_02 5:22

A taxi cab? I don't how do you get one of those?

SPEAKER_01 5:27

This is before your time. Yeah, I mean, before Uber and Lyft.

SPEAKER_02 5:31

I think I've been in one taxi cab my entire life. Also, how loud is that, do you think? I think it should be fine. I think it's fine.

SPEAKER_01 5:39

I think it should be fine. Okay, cool. It wouldn't hurt to turn it off, but let's just keep it going.

SPEAKER_02 5:42

Okay, and also like get up and run. But uh, it should be done pretty soon. Anyway, so uh Blair comes back to Vegas, which I was hoping that he wouldn't have stayed. And he came back and I was like, Well, looks like I gotta move to Vegas because you're not gonna be moving to California when you're in the entertainment business and you're in a new show. So that's when I kind of decided that I would move, I would try to move out here, but I would only move here if I had a job. So I asked you when you moved back, like, hey, do you plan on staying in Vegas for a while?

SPEAKER_01 6:16

And you said, Yeah, I think um I don't know. Like I said, if you were listening to the last episode, we made a plan. We were very intentional. I was like, if I'm gonna be going on tour or if I'm gonna be doing some next endeavor, the most time I would commit to it is probably two to three years, maybe. Um, so I think doing a tour, we had a couple months in there. But if I was gonna come back to Vegas, I was thinking maybe two to three years.

SPEAKER_02 6:48

That you would stay in Vegas.

SPEAKER_01 6:49

Stay in Vegas, yeah.

SPEAKER_02 6:51

We're almost at a year. We just pass a year that I've been here.

SPEAKER_01 6:54

Well, also at the same time, I think it was contingent on the job.

SPEAKER_02 6:57

Yeah. For you.

SPEAKER_01 6:59

But I'm not gonna spar what happened later. But basically, yeah. So coming back to Vegas, um, yeah, we were saying two to three years.

SPEAKER_02 7:08

So I got on the Careers website and I searched Nevada. Never thought I'd move to this dry state with not a single drop of water anywhere in sight. But I happened to come across a store that was in the suburbs, and I figured I'd apply. So I did. Shot in the dark, felt good about it, but also you never know what someone's looking for. And we manifested it, just like we manifested me moving to Los Angeles before actually when I met you fast forward, I mean, rewind all the way back to the first day I saw you at Flower Child, I was manifesting my move to LA, even though I wasn't actually, I didn't have a job there yet. So I did the same thing I did for LA to come to Vegas, which is manifest that I would get the job. And I would move. And it was a three-step interview process.

SPEAKER_01 8:02

Okay.

SPEAKER_02 8:03

80 applicants. Give or take, give or take, plus or minus. And I had come out to Vegas for Valentine's Day, and I got offered the job.

SPEAKER_01 8:17

Look at that. So you just be manifesting things and be getting them. Yo, what else can you manifest?

SPEAKER_02 8:24

Anything you want.

SPEAKER_01 8:25

Good, because I got a shopping list of things I want to experience.

SPEAKER_02 8:29

Perfect.

SPEAKER_01 8:30

I'll get to you later. Okay, great. Cool. So congratulations.

SPEAKER_02 8:33

Thank you for getting the job. Yeah, it was great. It was a really fun time. I mean, it was bittersweet, right? I was leaving everything I knew in California. I've I mean, yeah, I moved to Seattle for a couple of years when I was in college, but majority of my time and then San Diego, but San Diego's in California, Los Angeles is in California, Orange County is in California. So I've spent my entire life in one state, which, if you're from Cali, if you visited, you know that nothing compares to it. It's it's in a class of its own, hence why it's so expensive to live there. But thinking about living anywhere else, especially like moving to the desert and to a place that's you know, people come for a short period of time. I was like, I don't know if I can do this, but we're gonna try. For you, I could do anything.

SPEAKER_01 9:18

That's so beautiful, baby. Oh my gosh, I almost got the goose bus. You're already made me cry.

SPEAKER_02 9:23

We just started the buggers. Whatever 10 minutes. I know, but we haven't even stopped. This thing hasn't stopped. This is the best thing we could have ever done.

SPEAKER_01 9:31

Y'all should have seen us before. Like every single time we would record it, we would get to like 30 seconds and it would just cut out. But we gotta we we switched up the program.

SPEAKER_02 9:39

We're ready.

SPEAKER_01 9:40

We got interface now.

SPEAKER_02 9:41

Oh, fancy. So I had six weeks between the job offer and then when I was moving here. Quick. It went by so fast. And then in March of 2023, I ended up moving to Vegas.

SPEAKER_01 10:00

Beautiful. Okay, so I feel like maybe in the past couple of episodes, I've this is what the streets are saying. It's not me, it's not me. They they they they said it. They're like, oh my god, we're learning so much about Blair, but Khalia, I don't really get to know too much. So I'm gonna put you in a hot seat a little bit.

SPEAKER_00 10:22

Okay.

SPEAKER_01 10:22

Khalia likes to be very structured, she likes to talk about the facts of the situation, but not so much about her emotional state. So baby. Six weeks moving into Vegas. What were you feeling? Because you're you're you're you just said you're leaving a place that you pretty much grew up your whole life.

SPEAKER_02 10:43

Yeah.

SPEAKER_01 10:44

You're now moving to Vegas to be with me. What what's what's what's some of the energies that's going on? Are you kind of like goodbye, my home? Are you like what what's going on? Talk to me.

SPEAKER_02 10:56

It's funny because I I don't even think I allowed myself to even feel any feelings because things are moving so quickly that I was like, okay, formalities, like, let's get the we gotta figure out the real location. Where am I gonna live? When's the movie truck gonna come? When am I packing my things up? And at that time, I already I had moved back home to my parents' house from the apartment that I was living in in LA for a few months. So it was kind of like a I knew that when I moved back to my parents' house, it was a stepping stone for what was gonna come next. I knew that it was temporary, I wasn't gonna be there forever. Although my parents probably would have liked me to stay a little bit longer than I did. Um, and so I I felt as the days got closer to me leaving, I felt really sad to leave my store and to leave my parents because I was like, those are the personal bonds that I had with people that that would change immensely when I moved, you know? Yeah. My parents, and I, you know, I don't see them every single day, but I still talk to them all the time. And Bree, like I talked to her pretty much every single day. Still, it's it's different because I don't work, we don't work together. But I knew that everyone else that I was leaving behind, our relationships wouldn't be the same anymore. So it was kind of one, it was kind of um a morning of what my life was, and then but excitement about what it could be and what opportunities would present themselves with me living out here, knowing that we'd be together every single day, we weren't being a long distance anymore. It was there was a lot of um unknowns about like who I would meet here and how we would dwell together and what would it be like for us to cohabitate. So kind of sad, but also very, very excited and helpful for what the future would hold, especially for you and I.

SPEAKER_01 12:32

It's a change you were very much welcoming.

SPEAKER_02 12:34

Yeah. I was ready. I mean, I I think we talked about it in Miami, but when you might have stayed on tour for longer, that's when I was thinking, okay, how how much time can really go by that I'm comfortable with us continuing to be long distance? And not that I not that we weren't doing okay because we were great, but it's just there's something different about living with somebody and being able to spend time with them every single day that we miss out when we're not physically in the same space.

SPEAKER_01 13:00

For sure, for sure. Which uh leads me to my next question. You move it to Vegas. Chances are you're gonna be living with me. How did you feel about that?

SPEAKER_02 13:14

I was really excited about it.

SPEAKER_01 13:18

That's all you have to like. I was excited.

SPEAKER_02 13:23

I thought that you were gonna react, but you didn't, so that was awkward. I remember uh we were out, my parents and I were out with some family friends, and we were at a w uh winery, and I remember this family friend telling me don't get your hopes up too high for what it's like to cohabitate with an with a man. Like there's just certain things that men do that you're just gonna have to live with, you know, like maybe he's not gonna put down the toilet seat, maybe he's not gonna do the laundry or clean up, or the way that you exist is very different. So I was prepared, but I also knew how you lived previous to me living with you, and so I I think it would have been different if I had no experience of what your environment looked like that you lived in before we lived together, and then all of a sudden we lived together, and I was like, whoa, hold the phone. Why is your bedside table full of miscellaneous objects? Speaking of which, I just found a macro go macro bar wrapper in your bedside drawer. When did that get there?

SPEAKER_01 14:35

Yeah, I don't know, but I thought I was gonna be saving it for lay and I saw the same wrapper and I'm like, it's empty. Oh, just put it back in there. Yeah, I'll mind.

SPEAKER_02 14:44

Yes, exactly. It's about uh your bedside um table drawer is is kind of like a magician's hat. There's lots of things in there. If you go like this, you pull out lots of items, keep pulling the same do rag, and you get 10 do-rags.

SPEAKER_01 15:01

Everybody knows in the bedroom that's where the magic happens. I'm just trying to follow the protocol.

SPEAKER_02 15:07

Very good.

SPEAKER_01 15:08

Thanks.

SPEAKER_02 15:08

Very, very good. Uh yeah, so I was really excited to live with you, and I didn't, I mean, there's some things I knew that I'd have to teach you, but that's okay. I'm fine with that. Like what? How to properly cool the home.

SPEAKER_01 15:26

Okay.

SPEAKER_02 15:27

Because apparently Jamaicans, and you know what, to all our Jamaican listeners or West Indian listeners, I know you're out there, I'd love to hear your take on this. Because Blair always poses the question. I'll pose it for you. If you are West Indian, or if you're a Jamaican, do you keep your house in the Vegas heat or any any heat, let's say the outside temperature is above 100 degrees. Do you keep your home at the same temperature? Because Blair does.

SPEAKER_01 15:54

Okay. I don't think we can speak for all West Indians. And I know, I know when you ask me, I would just throw it out there. It's like when people ask me certain things, like certain trivia questions, they're like, Oh, did you see this movie? And I'll be like, nah. They're like, Oh my god, you haven't seen that? And I'm like, I'm British. You know, I mean, it's a nice little cop-out. So when it comes to you asking about the AC and whatnot, the cop-out is I'm Jamaican. Now I can't say Jamaicans like to keep their houses or places where they live, they like to keep it hot. But what I will say is that I'm also a bit frugal, you know what I mean?

SPEAKER_02 16:29

So you're actually not that frugal though, because you're you'll spend uh a lot of money on a Saeebulls, but you won't put the AC on. I'm like, just cut the acai bull eating out in half, and then you can put the AC on.

SPEAKER_01 16:41

You're telling out my business and we're supposed to be staying.

SPEAKER_02 16:44

Yeah, well, sucks. Well, sorry.

SPEAKER_01 16:49

Okay, so let's go back. All right. So you were pretty much you were aware of my living habits. You got some tips, tricks, things to keep in mind of more or less.

SPEAKER_02 17:04

Yeah, and I also, I mean, I'm an only child and grew up in a house where my mom likes things a certain kind of way. And maybe my dad didn't always do the things that she wanted him to do in the way that she wanted him to do it. And so I got to see those interactions and I was like, okay, so if my dad, after 20 years of marriage, continually leaves paper towels in his pockets, sorry, dad, my mom at that point really can't be too mad because it's like pick and choose your battles. You know what I mean? So when I moved in with you, I was like, okay, Calylia, let's be, let's give grace. He's never lived with a woman before. Last time we lived with a woman, it was, you know, 10, 11 years ago with your mom. Different scenario. There were six of you living in the house, or five at the time. So I was like, well, if every now and again he doesn't do the things I'd like him to do, then it's not the end of the world. I just give him feedback. And that's worked really well.

SPEAKER_01 17:58

You're the you've been the perfect roommate. Really? I will say that.

SPEAKER_02 18:02

Do is there any part of living with me, like, is there anything that I do that's very peeving to you?

SPEAKER_01 18:07

Peeving. Peeving.

SPEAKER_02 18:12

You like that?

SPEAKER_01 18:13

I like that word.

SPEAKER_02 18:14

Um give me something. Give me something good.

SPEAKER_01 18:18

No, it's it this is as of recently.

SPEAKER_02 18:20

Oh, okay.

SPEAKER_01 18:22

I'm not a gamer, but now I play games, and as a roommate, I would appreciate a little bit of space while I'm doing something. But sometimes Khalia would be like, hey babe, um, I have such and such on the phone. They want to talk to you. I'm like, oh my gosh, this is this is not good. Now don't get me wrong. I'm I will I will always take time with you over any kind of video game on to connect. Always. That's one thing I've noticed of like when I'm playing something, I'm like, oh, I can't, oh no. This cannot do, this won't do.

SPEAKER_02 18:58

So just like leave you out of it.

SPEAKER_01 19:00

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. Leave me alone.

SPEAKER_02 19:02

Oh, okay. So what you need is a do not disturb sign on our butt. Now that the bedroom has the ability for you to play.

SPEAKER_01 19:08

That's why I put it on the iPad.

SPEAKER_02 19:10

Makes sense. You can like be out of the way so I don't bother you.

SPEAKER_01 19:14

Be out of the way so I don't bother you.

SPEAKER_02 19:16

No, because you just gave me feedback. It's good feedback though. Thank you so much for sharing that with me.

SPEAKER_01 19:20

I think I've told you this before.

SPEAKER_02 19:22

I don't think you have said it as direct.

SPEAKER_01 19:24

Love is choral. We'll talk about this after the show, okay? But yeah, so um so far it's been fantastic living with you. Like right at the beginning. Um, and this is also okay, so that was your perspective. My perspective was, oh my gosh, she's a woman, and she's she likes order, and I'm not saying all women are the same, but I will say this woman, she keeps things very tidy, and I'm just like, oh my god, like I'd like dishes to be piled up in a sink, but they're all done. And I'm like, look, if you clean, I'm just like, let's just maintain. Let's just maintain. I'm not always great at maintaining, but sometimes, like the biggest thing, you make the bed every day. What are you? Uh an army brat? Did you were you a cadet? I'm like, what is that? Well, you do.

SPEAKER_02 20:17

There's studies about making your bed. You sleep better at night when your bed is made before you come back into it.

SPEAKER_01 20:25

Well, shout out. That's probably why I hardly sleep throughout the night.

SPEAKER_02 20:30

You sleep well.

SPEAKER_01 20:31

I probably don't get deep enough sleep.

SPEAKER_02 20:33

We're gonna find out from the aura ring.

SPEAKER_01 20:36

Yes. Well, now, all I'm saying is um I try and keep it clean. Eh, I don't really. And the first the first months that we were living with each other, it was a very nice time. You know what I mean? I would you would you would cook delicious meals. I got me a lady that cook. You know what I mean? And then you know, you go to work, and I'm because I was so close to your job, I'd be like, hey, can I bring you your lunch? That was so sweet. It's good times, it's good times.

SPEAKER_02 21:02

We have many of selfies on the uh benches outside of the store. So cute. Yeah, yeah, lovely, lovely.

SPEAKER_01 21:10

Okay, so um the other part that I'm also uh interested about. You talked about leaving friends and family and then coming to Vegas. Did you s manifest anything that you would like to experience in terms of circle in terms of circle of friends or anything like that?

SPEAKER_02 21:32

No, I didn't manifest anything around friends. I think I was really focused on our relationship and my job. And I don't want to say I'm good, but I'm good. I'm a solo kind of gal. And I'd love to have more friends out here, but also it's a very interesting place to have friends because it's a city that's about the nightlife. I'm not particularly interested. In that. I also am very particular about what kind of friends I have and who I associate myself with. And that's probably because I've had people in the past um show their true colors after I've like invested in them. And so I prefer to just kind of know off the bat, let me do a little bit of deep diving and question asking to understand who you are, and then I can determine like if I'm good off of you or we can be friends. And so far I haven't really met anywhere that I'm like, wow, this is like a good friend of mine in Vegas. Um but I also think it's it's a reality of when you get older and you move away from your hometown or like your college town, you it's a lot harder to make friends. It's a lot harder to date people because where proximity used to play a big part in who you were spending time with. You're in a work environment. In my work environment, I can't be friends with my people that work at my store because I manage all of them.

SPEAKER_01 22:54

You're in a position of power.

SPEAKER_02 22:56

Yeah. So there's only there's a certain level in which we can engage outside of the store, at least that I feel comfortable with. Uh, and so yeah, am I friendly with people? Sure. But there's also like a level of like, hey, I'm actually your leader. So it's kind of like can be out going out, hanging out, having like slumber parties. It doesn't really work that way.

SPEAKER_01 23:15

Yeah. And also because of your job and a salary and you're working what appears to be 24-7, that doesn't really give you much time for yourself to be able to connect with other people or go to like events or functions.

SPEAKER_02 23:31

I don't even know where I would go, to be honest.

SPEAKER_01 23:33

Well, if you're listening to this, um, Khalia would desperately like some new friends.

SPEAKER_02 23:39

Um not desperate. Let's not get it, let's not get shit twisted. I'm not desperate. Would I like a couple extra friends? Sure. Do I need them? No, I'm good.

SPEAKER_01 23:49

She grew up as an only child, but don't worry, she's not like a weird only child. She's a different child. Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. Yeah.

SPEAKER_02 23:57

Thank you.

SPEAKER_01 23:57

Yeah.

SPEAKER_02 23:58

Hey.

SPEAKER_01 23:59

I'm kidding.

SPEAKER_02 24:01

That's not that's not appropriate.

SPEAKER_01 24:03

All right. That's um that's excellent.

SPEAKER_02 24:05

I didn't feel like a hot seat, but thank you for at least introducting that it would be.

SPEAKER_01 24:09

Okay, first of all, I'll never really try and put you in.

SPEAKER_02 24:11

Roast me.

unknown 24:12

Nah, nah, nah.

SPEAKER_02 24:13

Do it. Do it.

SPEAKER_01 24:14

Do it. No. Okay.

SPEAKER_02 24:16

Um, so about you now.

SPEAKER_01 24:18

What about me?

SPEAKER_02 24:19

So I got the I came to Vegas. Obviously, I have a new job. I moved here in March. You're in a new role. Same company, different role. Main character of the entire show.

SPEAKER_01 24:34

More or less.

SPEAKER_02 24:35

No. Main character of the entire show. I'll say it again. How's that feel hearing that from me now?

SPEAKER_01 24:46

It feels the same as when they first offered it to me. I'll never forget when I told you, I'm like, yo, they they want to put me as the main role. And it was interesting to have a lifestyle where I was ensemble for a majority of my performing career.

SPEAKER_02 25:06

By the way, for those of you that don't know, because I would have never known this without being with you, ensemble means not the main dancer. So the other ones. That's what ensemble means.

SPEAKER_01 25:20

They're all an integral part to the show, but ensemble is typically supporting cost, I guess you could say.

SPEAKER_02 25:28

No, I'm not saying that one is more important than the others.

SPEAKER_01 25:30

I I am.

SPEAKER_02 25:33

Who is?

SPEAKER_01 25:34

I am.

SPEAKER_02 25:35

You are, yeah.

SPEAKER_01 25:36

No, what I'm saying, no, what I'm saying is um yeah, I I never really had an opportunity to shine. Don't get me wrong, I did have moments in the previous job where you can be um say, for example, you do have specialty characters, and sometimes when the specialty character is out, then I would fill in. But it was never like you are this person all the time. So for me to get the opportunity, I was grateful. There was a bit of an imposter syndrome. Um, if you haven't seen the show, who who I've been introduced to as who the main character is, they're like typically top-tier performers. And I was like, yo, I don't know how I'm gonna be able to hold up, you know. I mean, um, but I came to find out that, at least in my own opinion, could be wrong. Art is subjective. Well, the boy was holding that down. I ain't gonna hold you. I was killing that. Of course, there was always room for growth, and as I was doing the show and learning more about myself, I understood how to like iron out certain details, flesh out the character more, and I think I got to a space where I was like, yeah, yeah, I'm actually holding it down. It's a lot, it's a lot mentally, it's a lot physically, but I was I was ready. I was ready for the task. Felt good. You also did tell me. I don't know if I I'm gonna say this. This might be a slight caveat. I don't know. But I remember when you were like, okay, so you're going to be the main character at this show. Look at you smiling. Do you know where I'm going with this? Yeah.

SPEAKER_02 27:21

In fact, tell me what you told me about entering the space as the top dog. And what people's perception might be of you entering that space in that at that level.

SPEAKER_01 27:37

Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.

SPEAKER_02 27:38

What did you kind of not brush me off, but were you like, ah, I mean, yeah, sure, whatever.

SPEAKER_01 27:44

Well, I I'd like to be as humble as possible. And then, yeah, sure, there's a little element of like low self-esteem, maybe. Um, but I never really saw myself as top dog, really.

SPEAKER_02 27:58

I um, okay.

SPEAKER_01 28:00

I never saw myself as top dog going into it because I was already acquainted or familiar with the major a majority of the people in the show.

SPEAKER_02 28:11

Okay, so help me understand, Bridget Ap for me. How does you how how does knowing folks that are already in the show mean that you're not the top dog?

SPEAKER_01 28:24

I was already seeing it as me entering in this company, I'm a part of the family. I'm a part of the cost. We're all a team.

SPEAKER_02 28:33

Don't you love when people say, I'm at work and we're a family? It makes me feel like we're in a freaking scary movie.

SPEAKER_01 28:42

Well, yeah, I said it because you know that's like the the PC thing to say.

SPEAKER_02 28:46

Yeah, but then you hear that now and you want to run away to the hills. Of course.

SPEAKER_01 28:49

Yeah, geez. But what I'm saying is as far as that cost, because it's completely new, I'm like, yo, like I get to be a part of the cost. That's what I was really happy about. But I didn't see it as any kind of hierarchy kind of thing. Now, that being said, so I came in with my head like low and just being like, hey everyone, how you doing? I'm really excited. Um, but yeah, I think off after a couple, I mean, I I I didn't pay attention a lot, but as I was being a part of the cost and being in that environment, I could there were murmurings. There was a little seeds planted here and there, just in terms of a narrative about me.

SPEAKER_02 29:36

That you're what?

SPEAKER_01 29:38

Um what what what was what was the what was the word that they used? Was it was it arrogant? And I was like, what the hell does arrogant mean? I had to go to the dictionary. I'm like, what the arrogant, that ain't me. But what I learned is um I think I think entering so when I left Cirque, I never really spoke up for myself. There was there was a I was just very like happy to be here. I'm grateful, I'll take everything that I can. I understood though, and especially with being with you, there's an element where you can still I don't want to say speak up for yourself because that kind of sounds as if like someone's like attacking you and then like you're trying to fight back. Well, I started to learn what it meant to advocate for myself. So there were some times where in certain environments, if you advocate for yourself, some people could see that as you're not grateful for the opportunity you might have. Some may seem as you might be arrogant, you know, and and I've realized that even though I never felt that way, like I'm better than anyone else, I just thought that my actions would speak louder than my words. So I just focused on doing the best in the show. Anybody that really was cool with me, like we would all we would all be cool, or at least this is what I thought my perception was.

SPEAKER_02 31:21

Or maybe it's what you were willing to happen.

SPEAKER_01 31:24

That's what I thought was happening.

SPEAKER_02 31:26

Yeah, I think you're trying to will it. I think you came into it like, hey, I'm not the top dog, and if I come in like this, if I come in grateful, then like you know, no one can really not like me.

SPEAKER_01 31:36

And it's like, well, I mean, I was grateful.

SPEAKER_02 31:39

Right. I know I know that you were, but what I'm saying is for you to come, it's one thing to come in grateful and also be like, I deserve to be here. I don't think that you necessarily thought in the very beginning you deserve to be in that spot.

SPEAKER_01 31:49

Yeah, yeah, impossible.

SPEAKER_02 31:51

So yeah, so like if you enter a space, it's just like a dog, right? A dog knows who the alpha is when the dog walks into the room. If there is no alpha, the dog takes over as alpha. That's why good trainers know how to assert themselves in that position.

SPEAKER_00 32:06

Okay.

SPEAKER_02 32:06

So if you walk into the room and you're like, I'm grateful. I'm grateful. So great to be here. Thank you so much. But you're not like asserting yourself as like, no, I'm here. Like, this is my spot. You know, it they smell blood. It's like sharks in the water, especially in a room full of alpha males. And I and we had this conversation when we talked about you going from Cirque to Magic Mike. It's a very different type of person who's employed by either company. Not everyone from Cirque can go to Magic Mike, and not everyone from Magic Mike can go to Cirque.

SPEAKER_00 32:39

Yeah.

SPEAKER_02 32:39

So for you to for you to exist in both spaces uh speaks to the duality of your personalities. And I think caused you to shift in a certain kind of way.

SPEAKER_01 32:51

Sure. I mean it was it was a learning, it was a learning curve.

SPEAKER_02 32:55

Yeah, and I knew I had foresight into this because I had a similar experience when I transferred.

SPEAKER_01 33:01

Transferred where?

SPEAKER_02 33:03

So when I went when I left Seattle, when I was at UW and I transferred to San Diego State, I had a very similar experience.

SPEAKER_01 33:09

Have you actually told the viewers, the listeners, podcasters, what you're talking about in terms of Seattle, UW, San Diego State? Did you tell them what you did?

SPEAKER_02 33:23

I don't know.

SPEAKER_01 33:24

How about you let them know? Okay. How about speak speak for yourself?

SPEAKER_02 33:31

What I'm referring to is that I played basketball collegiately at the University of Washington for two years, and then I transferred to San Diego State for two years. D1? You know what it is. You know why you married me. You know what kind of kids you want.

SPEAKER_01 33:46

Okay, see you. Large and in charge. There you go.

SPEAKER_02 33:49

The kid talk will never end until you give me what I want.

SPEAKER_01 33:53

Jeez, Louise!

SPEAKER_02 33:55

Maybe your dad inspired me. I don't know. Since your dad was like doing this.

unknown 34:00

Yeah.

SPEAKER_02 34:00

28. 28, 20. I'm like, damn, am I is this a geriatric practice pregnancy?

SPEAKER_01 34:07

That man is a joker for true. Anywho, so you played college and basketball.

SPEAKER_02 34:13

Collagen?

SPEAKER_01 34:14

You played college in wait, no. Oh, what am I saying? You played basketball in college.

SPEAKER_02 34:20

Yeah, I thought you were gonna say, I thought you were saying collegiate basketball, but then you were trying to say the other way. Okay, yes.

SPEAKER_01 34:24

I was mixed up.

SPEAKER_02 34:26

I did play basketball in college.

SPEAKER_01 34:28

What kind of an environment is that? Because we're thinking like that's like damn near right before like WNBA playing overseas.

SPEAKER_02 34:36

Sure. Yeah. I mean, I wasn't gonna it was not a great experience. I did not enjoy my time playing basketball in college. Yeah. Um, and you know, that's a long story. I'm not gonna like we can get into that in a different episode, but everything that I went through prepared me for the like the things that I'm going through now, or at least give me some information as to how I can support you better or support my team better, because I learned so many things so early on. You have to think, I was 18 when I got to college and graduated at 22. I learned more playing and the shit that I went through than I learned in the classroom that when I was in lectures. You know what I mean? So when I transferred, you know, I came from like a this is gonna be a little bit like man's planning or woman's planning, but when I went to University of Washington, that's a division one basketball school, right? So top of the food chain, pack 12, not anymore. Um, and that means it's a big conference, it's a power five conference. Um, so best talent, all the things. Biggest girls, fastest girls, blah, blah, blah.

SPEAKER_01 35:36

Top tier.

SPEAKER_02 35:37

Top tier. But then when I transfer to San Diego State, while it's still D1, it's called a mid-major D1 school, which means that it's like if you think about Washington's up here in the Pac-12, the big Power Five Conference now dropped me down, and now I'm in like a still D1 school, but like a smaller conference with less explosive talent than before. So when I transferred, maybe I wasn't the top dog at University of Washington, but when I got to San Diego State, the skill sets that I had, the mindset that I had, the way I was conditioned, all those things was far beyond what my teammates at San Diego State had access to. They they were at a mid-major D1 school. They had a different program, different weightlifting program, different staff, different metrics that we're that we're watching based on our bodies and all those kinds of things, like it's just different, less money, right?

SPEAKER_00 36:28

Yeah.

SPEAKER_02 36:29

So when I entered that space, it was like, okay, well, I'm not when you're a junior transferring in, people aren't necessarily like excited that you're there. You're taking somebody's spot. I'm not here to fucking sit the bench. Sorry, excuse my French, but like I'm not. So if that's the case, that means somebody who thought they might be starting this year, chances are I'm taking somebody's spot that might have thought it was were it was theirs already. They've they've earned it. And so walking into that environment, like you, I can't, I couldn't be like, hmm, grateful. Yeah, I'm grateful that I had another school to go to, but also like I'm here to play and not sit on the bench. So the whole reason why I transferred. So when I was thinking about you entering this new space, I'm like, hmm, I wonder if he's ever experienced this before where he's walked into an already established team and had to and comes in at the as a top dog and has to like try to assimilate himself. And how's that gonna go? And how is he gonna feel? And how are the people that were gonna receive him that are already there?

SPEAKER_01 37:32

Yeah, I mean, you you did mention that, but in my head, I'm like, that's gonna be fine. Like, I'm cool with some of those guys, it's gonna be good. It's gonna be a good time.

SPEAKER_02 37:42

But do you realize that like every every place that you went to, like each you were at Cirque, and then you went to the tour? It's like when you were at Cirque, you were so young, so like you everyone kind of like scooped you under their arm, right? It was like, oh, where's a baby? And then eventually you rose to like dance captain and all the things. One of the best dancers there. That's not my opinion, that's just facts. And I can say that because I'm your wife. Uh, and then you went to the tour where the team was being developed with you in it. Like you were found, you're a founding member of the tour.

SPEAKER_00 38:12

Yeah.

SPEAKER_02 38:12

So you didn't have to assert yourself. Everyone was trying to figure out who they were. But because the show in Vegas was already so established, as some might say, it was a mature, it was a mature market.

SPEAKER_01 38:25

Now, see, this is this is interesting because if I could, if I could have gone back in time, do you think that there was anything I could have done differently?

SPEAKER_02 38:36

Or yeah, be unapologetically you.

SPEAKER_01 38:39

Don't you think that would have made things more worse?

SPEAKER_02 38:41

I don't know, but at least you're being yourself, you're not trying to placate other people. You can only do so much, you know what I mean? Like it's make yourself smaller in some respects and be grateful and like not step on too many people's toes so that you can get people to to kind of like see that you're okay. Or come in on yourself and they just adapt to you. I think there's power in being who you are without and you're not an arrogant person, but that's a label people would typically like to put on people when they don't take the chance to get to know them. And that's unfortunately their problem, not yours.

SPEAKER_01 39:13

Well, I mean, as it it sounds nice, sounds good on paper. I personally I don't like it. I maybe I'm an idealist in that way, I'd like to operate in the best way possible. But I mean, sure, sure, that that could be that could be a reality. I will say that entering in that space, uh, I learned a lot. And I learned a lot about myself. Just when you was like, yeah, you need to be yourself. I think I was shedding a reality from before and trying to figure out who I am now, like outside of my circumstance, and of course, with being with you and learning more about myself through that lens, that's where I started to learn okay, there's there's some things that may not jive well with me, and what do I do? Do I do I just keep silent? Do I raise hell? Do I find a mixture of like a happy medium? And I figured out that um I will always I will always advocate for myself and then try to figure out what the happy medium is. Now, in terms of being in that space, what does advocating for oneself look like? Just like, hey, you know, I I noticed this is what's going on, and I don't really understand why it's like this. Could you educate me more on this? And I could be wrong, and I'm always, I'm always, always happy to be wrong so that I can learn. Like just seemed that every single time I would ask a good question, there just seemed to be um a bit of resistance towards that. I don't know what that is.

SPEAKER_02 41:06

I I mean, I think that that's most, and I don't want to speak for everyone, but I I would say from my observations and experiences through others, that's a lot of job environments where it's not, it's the parents that tell you because I said so, instead of explaining the reasons as to why the answer is no, right? Or asking the question of like, hey, why do you want to go stay up all night long and eat popcorn until your stomach hurts? Instead of being like, absolutely not, you can't, because I said so, right? Uh, I think that's a very normal thing to do because it's hard. Humans don't like change, and it's really hard for us to self-assess and be like, maybe I maybe I could do this in a better way, maybe I could adjust, maybe this person actually isn't wrong, and there is an opportunity for me to be better. It's easier to stay where you're at. It's more comfortable.

SPEAKER_01 41:52

Yeah. Yeah. I feel like what's happening to uh this all falls under the umbrella of being in a new space, taking a promotion, and then understanding how to navigate the space. So that's one thing that I learned in terms of me becoming Mike, one of those things was understanding hey, because you've got more eyes on you, you're now put in a position where you can't just kind of hide amongst the background, so to speak.

SPEAKER_02 42:24

You gotta be a main character.

SPEAKER_01 42:25

I have to be a main character. And if you're gonna bring situations to me where I'm gonna have to address it, if I don't, if I don't take the easy way out and I'm just like, hey, yeah, whatever you want, yeah, it's fine, it's cool, yeah, yeah. Um typically I'm I'm I I was like, I can't do that. I have to be like, uh, this doesn't work with me. Why is this like this? And then if it's like this, can we find a solution? That felt really fucking good to do. That felt amazing to me.

SPEAKER_02 42:52

In the moment. In the moment, but then the backlash.

SPEAKER_01 42:55

The backlash, goddamn.

SPEAKER_02 42:57

If you could go back in time and change anything that you did, or any way that you communicated, or any way that you responded, or anything that you had control over when you were at the mic, is there anything that you would have adjusted now, knowing what you know?

SPEAKER_01 43:20

Leave a paper trail.

SPEAKER_02 43:22

And that's a T. I mean, we probably have a paper trail if I'm being completely honest. We didn't really like get anybody trapped up, but I mean, part of that was me saying, you know what we can do, right? And you being like, nah, no, no, no, it's good, it's good, it's good, it's good, it's good. You know what I mean? And I think that now, um, in hindsight and like through experiences that have happened just recently the business, like understanding that the chess game of business is becoming Something that you're really sound in. Because now you know how to communicate. Now you know how to set a boundary. Now, like in a way that doesn't maybe automatically turn somebody off. Or now you understand, okay, if someone responds in X way, here's where I can counter respond. That's not gonna piss somebody off, but it's still gonna let me get what I need to get out of it. I don't know. I I think I've seen your maturation over the last few months. It's been really cool to see. Yeah.

SPEAKER_01 44:26

Well, it's because I'm learning from you. I take a lot of keys from you.

SPEAKER_02 44:29

Let's hope I'm correct.

SPEAKER_01 44:30

I think you're correct. Um, it's funny how we were talking about like navigating the business aspect in terms of being in that promotional aspect. I don't even know if that was English what I just said, but sounded good. Sounded good. People that know better, listen, like what he just say. Let's let's talk about how we navigated our relationship as a couple because we were both talking about us being individuals, being in a new space.

SPEAKER_02 45:00

Yeah.

SPEAKER_01 45:00

Well, what about us as a couple?

SPEAKER_02 45:04

When I moved here, you did a phenomenal job of like bringing me in to, or at least maybe not, we didn't like do a lot of things outside of the house with people, like with your friends, but you did a great job of making sure that I felt supported and connected and like there was stability through you and our relationship that I wasn't experiencing elsewhere because everything else had shifted and changed, but what didn't change is like while we were now living together, which is a different thing, but how how we interacted and and how we operated on a daily basis in terms of how we talked and how we were communicating to each other, it stayed the same. So I felt really supported by you in a time where I felt like okay, this feels different. I don't see any palm trees, I'm not seeing an ocean, I don't see my friends. I can't just like zoom around the corner to my favorite gym. Like you were the constant in that experience for me.

SPEAKER_01 45:58

It's a lot of pressure.

SPEAKER_02 46:00

Yeah, you did a great job. Try any uh tips or tricks that you have for anybody that is supporting somebody moving to a place they don't know anybody?

SPEAKER_01 46:14

I'll take a leaf from your book and it's have grace. You know what I mean? I I think I think that I I just wanted you to have the best experience. And I think that if you were gonna move here, especially me being the the the catalyst or the main reason, there's a certain level of ownership that I can have for your experience. So even you working at your job, I I was like, tell me about your day. I want to know, and you're like, Oh, you don't want to know about this, it's just schematics and conversion and UBT. I'm like, no, I'm like, this is you, those are your favorite things to say. Yeah, yeah. I love that. I love that. It's good feedback, you know. But what I'm saying is there's a level of interest and investment that you need to have in your partner to make you feel like you're not just by yourself on this, you know. I mean, I maybe I'm a weird one, but I I genuinely care and I'm interested in everything that you do, especially with your job.

SPEAKER_02 47:19

I appreciate you.

SPEAKER_01 47:21

I will say that um of course, also being at Magic Mike and Navigana relationship, it's interesting working at a job like that and being in a relationship. Not a lot of people get to experience that. There's also being an ensemble, like you you deal with the masses to some degree, but then as as the the main character, like you have a specific partner that you only rarely get to engage with. Besides lap dance, besides yeah, besides the lap dance, and that was that was interesting trying to navigate that. I don't know really well. I mean, it's uh it's very it's very it's intense, it's intense to some degree. It sounds like we're being vague in Magic Mike, and without ruining the show for anybody, but I basically have a pot like a female partner, like that I do a dance with, and it's very um it goes there, it kind of goes there.

SPEAKER_02 48:28

I don't know what I call it a dance. You all are are dancing uh on the ground with water and naked.

SPEAKER_01 48:38

Um, not naked.

SPEAKER_02 48:39

Okay, um, he's wearing a tiny, he's wearing tiny briefs, and she's wearing her brain panties, lingerie style. There's water involved, there's ass slapping involved, there's humping involved.

SPEAKER_01 48:59

Yes, a lot.

SPEAKER_02 49:00

You're she's sitting on your face. I mean, there's a lot of things if you would like it. I would uh we can put the hyperlink um in the comment section below the video. I don't even know what I'm saying, but you know what I'm talking about. You can go on YouTube and find it if you'd like. Um, it's a lot. I remember I got so many questions about it, how I felt about it, what did make me uncomfortable, how would I let you do that? First of all, I don't have a choice, it's your job, technically. Um, and it's like acting. Our favorite actors and actresses are always on TV in some sort of scene that's a little bit racy, and they might have a spouse at home. And it's like, okay, well, it's actually really unsafe for you to be doing that. So you're not thinking, I mean, maybe I don't think you were, you're not thinking about things in a sexual way because it's so dangerous and you're focusing so much on not dropping your partner that you really don't have time to be like, oh wow, this is feeling good. You know what I mean?

SPEAKER_01 49:55

It's like feeling good.

SPEAKER_02 50:00

You know what I'm talking about? Yes, I know. It's like you can't really be thinking like the the audience might be might be aroused by what they're saying, but you are feeling like scared and like trying to make sure that your partner is secure because you're partnered. Yeah, it's important to keep her safe, yeah.

SPEAKER_01 50:17

But as far as like us navigating that kind of aspect, because I've I've kind of been introduced to that beforehand, like in my previous relationship, my my partner was she played Juliet. Wow, yeah, she played Juliet, and so she had a full-on make out scene with her partner and tongue. Ah, see, I don't want to think about it. I don't remember any of the things.

SPEAKER_02 50:45

The people want to know.

SPEAKER_01 50:46

All I'm saying is this every single time I would come to see her show, or better yet, if I brought people to see the show, they'll be watching, and then it would go like this. When they saw seeing a makeout scene, they will look at me like, yo, uh, excuse me. And I'm like, hey, it's acting. I think no, it was acting. Well, so I was already accustomed to it, but I think your temperament and your mindset, just as you said, understand like me breaking it down, like this is my job.

SPEAKER_02 51:18

Top dog, main character energy.

SPEAKER_01 51:21

This is my job, and it's dangerous, and we are locked in. I'm not interested in anyone but you, just making sure that we're still good. Okay, um, that you understand that it's it's more functional than it is pleasurable or arousal if in in a way, no matter what it looks like on the outside. So we were locked in and in that kind of aspect. And there was a certain level of respect there.

SPEAKER_02 51:51

Yeah, well, I'm like, if you want to I I've had someone cheat on me before. So if you want to cheat, cheat. If you're gonna cheat, I can't stop it.

SPEAKER_01 51:58

Wait, are you giving me a whole pause? What no? I don't want that. Take your hand away.

SPEAKER_02 52:06

Uh we're racing against time here because it's getting pitch black outside.

SPEAKER_01 52:09

Yeah, I wonder if y'all can still see us.

SPEAKER_02 52:11

I mean, we probably can like brighten it now.

SPEAKER_01 52:13

Yeah, I'll try and sit brightening it a little bit.

SPEAKER_02 52:15

Uh, but yeah, it's it's definitely a different experience dating somebody in the arts. But I've dated people who are athletes, so I mean, I think it's one the same. One I see on stage and I'm I feel secure in our relationship, and one I don't see, and it happens behind the scenes, and I don't feel I didn't feel secure. So, you know, I think it comes back to your partner, the trust that you have, the communication that you have, and being able to explore things and unpack things that maybe make you feel weird or jealous or whatever, you know. Yeah, if I had issues with it, I would have brought it up with you. But I felt great. I always trusted you. I still trust you.

SPEAKER_01 52:55

They're probably like, what is that?

SPEAKER_02 52:57

Yeah, it's an inside inside a joke.

SPEAKER_01 52:59

Okay, excellent. Um, is there anything that we should address before we're kind of nearing the end of this hour? Is there anything that we should add to this episode in terms of that time frame?

SPEAKER_02 53:13

Or should we Yeah, I think the last thing that I'll that I'll add is you talk you asked about us as in a relationship and how we navigated this together, like all these changes, two promotions, essentially, we'll you also leave a magic mic, um, me going through ups and downs at the store. And one of the things I'd written on was support versus solutions. And I think it's so important in a relationship to ask a question of if someone's telling you something, if you're explaining to me what's happening at work, because of the job that I do and because of the person that I am, I think solutions first all the time. It's a very masculine way, I think. Like a masculine trait to search for or seek solutions in something. And you don't always need a solution from me. Sometimes you just need my support, and vice versa. And so something I learned throughout our time of experiencing so many different changes is asking, or at least trying to understand. If I don't ask it directly, is like, what do you need from me right now? Do you want me to give you a solution? Do you want me to provide solutions that I can maybe see from my vantage point, or do I want to just support you? Because it's two different scenarios. Bless you.

unknown 54:24

Thank you, baby.

SPEAKER_01 54:26

Yeah, 100%. And I think I learned, and that's something that I also learned being a so like they had an opportunity where they let us know what it means to hold the space. I think also being able to implement that in a relationship because I'm always gonna try and be the solution for you, whatever you need. But sometimes just holding the space is more than enough. Yeah, you know. Um so thank you. Thank you for showing up for me. Um it was a tough it was a tough time. It was a tough time navigating all of that. And um you get you gave the best advice. You gave the best support. And that support that support gave me enough to try and figure out my own solution, I would say, for that. So cheers to you.

SPEAKER_02 55:17

Cheers to you, baby.

SPEAKER_01 55:18

I tell you, you're the best partner ever.

SPEAKER_02 55:20

I I'm the best partner for you ever, and that's all that matters. That is very scary to hear on your headphones or in your car. But truly, you are one of a kind, and to see you grow into your main character energy has been such a joy.

SPEAKER_01 55:42

I appreciate that, baby.

SPEAKER_02 55:43

So let's keep it going. We got more things to accomplish. It's just the beginning. Yeah, we haven't even scratched the surface yet. I'm still in my 20s. Can't say the same for you. But life is still young, we are still young, and there's endless opportunities. So I'm excited for us to have a fantastic week.

SPEAKER_00 56:03

Yep.

SPEAKER_02 56:04

Get back on our consistent grind with the podcast now that we have this new setup. It's been great so far.

SPEAKER_00 56:10

Yeah, I love it.

SPEAKER_02 56:11

And I'm excited that you're off this week. I hope that you have the best time doing whatever you want to do. Meanwhile, I'll be working. But you know, I think it's such a I love when you just get to do whatever you want.

SPEAKER_01 56:21

Yeah, honestly, it feels like I do that every single day.

SPEAKER_02 56:24

Yeah, you do.

SPEAKER_01 56:25

But to have you by my side, it it distills the excitement, it distills the experience. It's I'm sorry for everyone else on the rest of the world, but there is nothing like being your partner, being your best friend, just being everything.

SPEAKER_02 56:43

Oh, you're my best friend.

SPEAKER_01 56:48

Okay, so on the next episode, we're gonna talk about me getting fired and understanding how we navigate that.

SPEAKER_02 56:53

Oh, termination, termination, termination.

SPEAKER_01 56:58

Okay, I didn't get fired. I was just released, not renewed, which is basically the same thing as getting fired.

SPEAKER_02 57:05

That's really the next episode.

SPEAKER_01 57:07

The next episode is understanding how do I show up in a relationship when I feel like I can't support you like I would like to. It's happening to those old dynamics.

SPEAKER_02 57:19

What an interesting I also want to touch a little bit about um some highlights of Magic Mike before we get into the termination. Because I think there's a few that I want to get into. Yeah.

SPEAKER_01 57:29

Okay, cool.

SPEAKER_02 57:30

Because that's what the people want to hear.

SPEAKER_01 57:32

The highlights? It was highlights? Yeah.

SPEAKER_02 57:34

Like what? I'm not gonna say it. I'm gonna say it for the next episode. If you want to know the highlights of the next episode, please stay tuned.

SPEAKER_01 57:41

Beautiful. Okay, baby. Uh, let's sign off. Is there anything you want to say to the people, the listeners, viewers? You want to drop your your handle?

SPEAKER_02 57:51

I'm so lucky to be married to Blair Edwards. Is that good?

SPEAKER_01 57:56

And I am lucky to be married to Mrs. Blair Edwards.

SPEAKER_02 58:01

Uh I'm not your property. I think you're gonna say Mrs. Edwards, and I'll say, that's your mom. That's Sheila, that's not me.

SPEAKER_01 58:06

That's what it says on the certificate, Mr. and Mrs. Blair Edwards, no?

SPEAKER_02 58:09

No, it does not say that.

SPEAKER_01 58:11

Okay, either way, I am blessed to be married to you, baby.

SPEAKER_02 58:15

I love you.

SPEAKER_01 58:15

I love you too.

SPEAKER_02 58:16

Follow me. I changed my handle back to my original name, which I'm so excited about.

SPEAKER_01 58:22

You know what it is. Golden Leah. Yes. With the underscore?

SPEAKER_02 58:26

Yeah, so it's Golden Leah with two A's underscore on Instagram. Haven't posted in a long time, but look at my stories daily because those got some things on it. And then what about you, babe?

SPEAKER_01 58:39

Follow me on Instagram, Mr. Blair Edwards, or on TikTok, Black British Guy. I'm getting into my posting thing. It's been a while. I'm trying to figure it out, but we're getting it.

SPEAKER_02 58:48

He's back this week because he's got nothing else to do. And I won't be here, so post away, baby.

SPEAKER_01 58:54

Should have posted today, but it's fine.

SPEAKER_02 58:56

It's fine. I love you. Can I have a kiss? All right, see you next week.

SPEAKER_01 59:02

Take care. Bye.