Session 35
Session 35 brought to you by Crystal Wright-Johnson. She decided to bring her at home girls night, little sister big brother conversations to your ears. While collaborating with other hosts, they plan to be authentic and have real conversations. You may relate, learn, disagree, laugh or cry but we’ll be honest and true to who we are. This podcast is obsessed with the truth. New episodes on Wednesdays.
Session 35
From Live Show Highs To Hard Holiday Truths
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Boundaries for the holidays
Back In Studio After Live Show
SPEAKER_02All right, all right, y'all. We are live. So it's been a minute. It's been a minute, so we back in studio. How does it feel after um being back in studio, y'all? After our like our live session.
SPEAKER_06Yeah, I low key missed it though. Like it feels good. Yeah, we ain't been in here for a while.
SPEAKER_02Yes, they are. Yes. It's been the minute. And then um a little just a little bit, because we haven't been here since way before our live in-person um podcast. So wait, we didn't come in here after our live in-person podcast, did we? This is our first time back. So, how did you enjoy your live in-person podcast, Gien? I really like that. Did you? I like it. What was your live feel? I like with the audience being able to talk back right there. We can you know what?
SPEAKER_01I'm trying to find the right words. Look, you know where I've been.
SPEAKER_02Oh my god. You been? Yeah. Oh, y'all. I just really sign in for um did you just ask me that? Yeah, I wanna know where you've been. I'm not gonna say that on air, okay. But the feedback from the audience, like being able to get that feedback right then and there, and just seeing everybody live in the flesh, vibing with us. It was cool. It was what oh I just realized y'all we not on the book. What book? On the book. Oh, we not? No, we just talking? No, we um on YouTube though. Oh, we good then. Yeah, no, that's what I said.
SPEAKER_03Yeah, we got the studio on Facebook.
SPEAKER_00Oh, okay. The studio Facebook Session 35 Facebook, that's where they can come and find us at on Facebook. Of course.
SPEAKER_01But I don't know, I ain't on Facebook, but you know, we we we gotta get over there.
What Made The Live Event Work
SPEAKER_02But uh Crystal, put us on the book. I'm so okay. We're gonna jump past that because I can't stay. I'm telling y'all, y'all, I'm so over Facebook. No, oh, you was trying to convince me to take my way. Somebody else gotta do it. No, thank you. But anyway, no thank you to Facebook. No, thank you. Sorry. So, Brandon, how did you feel about the live um podcast?
SPEAKER_06I liked the live event. Um, did you? I had a great time. Like, I feel like we had a great turnout.
SPEAKER_02What was your favorite part?
SPEAKER_06My favorite part about it was just my mine, probably was the interaction too. It made us made it just feel more real, real, like yeah, more genuine. Like we was on the ground level with everybody. Like you could like feel the energy in the room.
SPEAKER_02So I appreciate the energy. The energy was definitely in there. Like the energy. I was worried, like, little things was going wrong at first, and I was like, okay, then it just picked up and went so well. And I appreciate the energy there because it was there. You know, you had people yelling from the back, nah, they is not agreeing, not agreeing, agreeing, disagreeing. They had opinions, passed me the mic. It was like real live, and I appreciate that. I was like, Oh, yeah, oh my god, he did his thing. Funny. I'm trying to use the bathroom, and I'm out here watching the show. I'm like, I'm trying to go to the bathroom to try to listen to him. He did his thing. Sean E did his thing. I cannot wait to continue to collab with him too. Because, yes, he helped, you know what I'm saying? Like, he really got us going. He definitely broke the ice. All the nerves kind of like went down some once he started talking his best. Yes, he did his job. He did, he did his job. He did shout out to Sean E. I appreciate that. And then how was you real nervous? Yes, you were. I'm always nervous. I'm always nervous when we get on here, too. Yeah, I'm always I don't know why, but it don't make no sense for us to still be nervous, and I still be nervous when we come up in here.
SPEAKER_06When I first started coming up here, I probably was nervous, but like um only thing I was nervous about probably when we when he introduced us and we was walking past it. Oh, yeah.
Poets, Vibes, And Missing Alcohol
SPEAKER_02You know what I'm saying? I've never been to the line. Oh, at the live session, yeah, that was funny. I was nervous. I wasn't nervous. What did y'all learn at our live session? Like with for our next one? Did you learn anything that we need to do different? Or saying I think we did everything how we could do it. I definitely learned a collaboration is for sure for sure a good idea because that was not like a plan thing. And for when Shiny came and collaborated, like we did that collab with him, that was even made it just so much more dope because you have more than one thing going on. I appreciate it. I like that. I think next time we should have alcohol. Amen. That's for sure. That's the thing we was missing with. We was, I mean, and I wasn't missing it, but we was missing it. You're right, you're right. We was not missing it because the vibe was still there, the people were still kicking it and talking in loud. They were so oh, baby, imagine with the alcohol would have got it. I'm not, I'm not that would have been doing a bit more different. Yes, definitely gotta have alcohol alive. Oh, shout out to those poets too. Like they was great. They did, um, they did very good job. They did a real good job. I gotta hear that one point. I never thought I would like live poetry. Really? You gotta go. I wanna go now. Like, I really wanna go now. I've been going since I love jail portrait. No, I never thought I've been going, I've been listening to poetry and going to poetry spots since I was like early 20s. Oh, I'm gonna go. By myself with real people, yes, I would go by myself. Or if anybody, I'm like, I'm gonna go by myself. And I would go. Lay back, relaxed, you know what I'm saying? Just vibe in it. I'm like, okay, I can get with this. You definitely gotta try one. I did, but that's a right. That's probably what inside that's probably what got me there. Being a kid watching that, like, oh okay. I never looked into that part, you know. It's just oh, they went to there, and they it was basically more him saying something to her, you know. Like I really ain't. I think the first uh which was horrible. The first one I ever went to in person, it was this old first off, it was a lot of people there, but they kept introducing this old guy up to do a poem. This old, old man got on stage, and I'm gonna tell y'all exactly what his poem said. His poem was literally just these words over and over, the same sentence, and he over baby. It was a lot of different poets, but him, I remember him because it's just like what it caught me off guard. He said these words over and over and over to the beat, offbeat, like he was like rapping it, but it was the same words over and over. I want to see you done big old titties, because it caught me off guard. I'm sitting there thinking, like, oh, what are you about to say? And they let him come on stage, baby.
SPEAKER_06That was his poem.
SPEAKER_02Okay, I was looking around like it's can't knock it. Like, that was insane. That was that wasn't much, but anyway, let's discuss some holidays, y'all. How did y'all holidays go? Thanksgiving, Thanksgiving first, because we haven't hit Christmas yet, of course. Thanksgiving was okay, a little bit different this year. I don't know why, but it was just a little, it just almost was like a regular day. Like a regular day, yeah. I hate that that's happening now, like our holidays. Like a regular day, you know. My cousin came over, my grandma came over, but that's like normal, you know what I'm saying? So it wasn't like how you used to Thanksgiving being all the family and all the cousins together, and everybody, it just it's never that no more. So I know we got so used to it. I'm over my grandma is around though. My grandma's still here too. It's just I mean, she's not like she's not in a space where she can do those things. I got it. I do my family way too big, and we just be separated in all different houses. It used to always be at my house, and I don't know what happened. Like once that stopped, once my parents moved to a different place and they downgraded and got into apartments, stuff like that. It just that was the end of it. No more, but everybody's house do it. I mean, everybody at different places, and um they do it at their own spots, but it used to be much more fun. But I I used to get real like mad about it, like what the heck? Like, why we ain't all together no more? But nah, I'm probably one of them too. I probably I'm I like being at home anyway in my own stuff. I like being at home, and I think I prefer to host it in my own. I prefer to host and I live far. So it's like for me, it's always oh it's far as so I don't even invite no more. I just be like, oh, I'm being at home and who come come, who don't, don't know, who don't know.
SPEAKER_06So Yeah, mine be mine be pretty quiet. I mean, I cook and stuff for the holidays, but other than that, yeah.
SPEAKER_02I want to hear about your holiday as you single man out here cooking and doing all the food on your own. B you got a big family, no?
SPEAKER_06Yeah, I do, but like we ain't uh I ain't gonna say we ain't close, but we could be closer. Like, you know what I mean? Like we They got like kind of everybody got their own stuff going on. So you know what I'm saying? So it's probably not intentional, but you know what I mean? But it just don't like life. Right, it just don't be we don't be gathering and stuff.
SPEAKER_02Uh so you stay at home the whole time or you go bounce around.
SPEAKER_06Like here and there I have like I have friends and stuff that want to invite me and stuff like that, but like in the late coming years, I I kind of just be wanting to do that stuff at home, you know what I'm saying? Like I still be feeling like a loner kind of at the place. Like I it it's it's weird though, even though I know it's all love, yeah, it's like it's they family though, you know what I'm saying, and they mine.
Holidays Feeling Like Regular Days
SPEAKER_02So I kind of getting older, we just weren't content in being in our own space for our own. For me, I think it's learning people. I think when you learn people, I learn to like I can love you and not be around you. So I'm okay with not being around certain people anymore. So for me, I'd rather be in my own space and my own comfortability. I don't have to be around people that I don't want to have to be around. I don't want to have to run into no awkward moments, and it's no beef and it's no hatred.
SPEAKER_01It's just that you know what comes along with this. The drama, the all I just want to stay away from that. So I agree.
SPEAKER_06I just kind of like being able to have my own plate when I have to come second to third, it'd be looking like I ain't got no action. I eat, I be social, eat one plate here, and yeah, now you gotta go home. Yeah, yeah, I feel you.
SPEAKER_02That's what you're doing.
SPEAKER_06You spend most of your day. Well, I spend most of my day on the holiday making everything I made, but yeah.
SPEAKER_02I and I agree with you, Jan, with that. Like, you dang. No awkward moments, the awkward moments, all that. But you know how you do you remember how quick that was for that click to happen? Like you just became so okay with just not that, like not being around people. You know, the exact moment. I do too, and that's just so weird. I'm like, how this happened? Like, that's crazy. I'm not gonna say my love for people changed, but what I give of me to other people, it changed.
SPEAKER_01So when that changed, people see it and they feel it, so it's like everything becomes standoff and shit.
SPEAKER_02So and I hate that part about my wish. I could like be more reserved when it comes to how I feel about that because I think once I'm turned off and I'm like want to be in my own space, it's kind of like obvious. And people are like, you just trying to be distant. I'm not purposely trying to be distant from like no individual, it's just I don't know what happened. All I know is it clicked and I've just been at home. Like, I'm not pressed to go find you at this event, what you got going on right here. I'm not pressed to go find turn up with you over here.
SPEAKER_06It's just the pandemic happened, it helped it it made people figure out how to do it.
SPEAKER_02I think that's when I was going maybe through it, but it clicked after the pandemic for me. Like it, I don't know when, maybe like a year or two ago, it clicked where it was like I think it always was there, it just was slowly coming up on me. Like, okay, you're gonna get tired one day and you're gonna been locked yourself in your own space, and that's why the less tolerance you got for bullshit, exactly that part, zero tolerance, that part, and showing up for other people, you know what I'm saying? You get it becomes exhausting when it's not reciprocated. So it's like the best thing to do to not hurt yourself is to just stand back. Exhausting is the word. I'm just gonna take a step back and let people lead, yeah, and not follow. So, however, you are to me, that's what I am to you, and I like that. Exhaustiness. Whatever you give me, I'm gonna give you the same. If you give me overly, I'm gonna give you overly. So, how do you so I had a hard time navigating that by not sounding petty? Because when I say that, it comes off to people like, and that's just petty. It's not petty, it's like and I'm not sitting here taking notes of what you've done so I can do it back. No, it's just you, it's a feeling. You know who's caring for you, you know who loves you in that way, you know who's looking out for you and supporting you. So it's a feeling. So if I don't feel that when I I'm just not reciprocating, it's not that you're tallying up things, it's just I know if it was you, that's what I'm saying. It's a feeling, you know. So when it's me, you're not doing the same. So obviously, we don't feel the same about each other. That's how I'm saying. So I just adjusted. So I just adjusted. I see you, I speak to you, I love you, and all that. But me over-asserting myself, I'm not doing that. Yeah, yeah. I cut that off. I love that. I love that though. Yeah, I can't. It feels so much better. Like, I feel like I'm not overextending myself no more ever since I with no person. I don't care who you are, whatever you give me is exactly what I'm gonna give you. However, you make me feel, you're gonna feel it in some type of way. And like you said, it's not intentionally, yeah. It's just that I step door, but the love I give and the overpoint that I give, you're gonna miss it. You're going to miss, you're gonna know something's off. Look, but little people in the brain is working for me. So when I get up to you, they know what to do. They already know, they know how to treat this person because they already know what you did for me. So I don't know, it's not purposely done. But it's just choosing yourself up, it's choosing yourself. Just choosing yourself. Learning. I watched this um this video of a content creator. Her name was Cook Up Cook Up Kai.
SPEAKER_03Cooking with Kai?
Choosing Peace Over Family Drama
SPEAKER_02Nope. Cooking Scoop, of course, you would say that. Of course he would say that. No, no, it's cook up Kai. That's horrible. I didn't even put that together before I said it. Of course you would say that. No, even think about looking at that. Oh my god, it just looked like right now. Of course, you would say that. No, but she was she made this video, she was addressed in her recent Thanksgiving where she felt used by her now ex-girlfriend family. So, whatever. So she she booked the Airbnb so people can be comfortable. So her ex-girlfriend, I guess they were girlfriends at the time, whatever, they were girlfriends at the time. So she booked the Airbnb, she cooked up all the food, she prepped and paid for every single thing for the girl family to come over and others leading up to Thanksgiving. And she was even booked to because I guess she'll cook. She people was also booking her to for their Thanksgivings. So she just been prepping and doing most of everything. So she cooked her butt off. And I saw her spread, she she did a nice little. I mean, I know how it tastes, but it looks really nice. So she bought liquor, she bought again, she bought all the food, she made it real nice and roomy at the Airbnb. So so many people can come over and just feel comfortable and have a good time for Thanksgiving. So she felt used by the people. So she made this video just going over her Thanksgiving, how it went. She didn't say nobody's name, she just said she felt used by the people who were there. People showed up, they didn't bring anything, but they took everything there. She said she mentioned how when they got there, they started complaining about the alcohol that the type of alcohol she bought, saying, like, why would you get a naho? We asked for respito and all that kind of stuff. She said they were just complaining and doing a lot. So apparently they didn't bring anything, they didn't do anything, but they just did a lot of complaining. So she made a video just talking about it. And ever since she made this video, her and homegirls broken up, the whole family coming for her and judging her by saying, like, why would you go on here and go live and say such stuff? She didn't say nobody name, she just was talking about the how she felt in that moment. So, like, have y'all ever been in a situation where you like we were just talking about, like, you do so much people and you just felt using the end. And I I think she was valid in what she was talking about. Of course, we're not there to say what happened, but you can't you know come to somebody else something. I invited you to, and I'd have paid and did all of this, and I'd have cooked everything and I bought everything, you come in here complaining. It's like it's not like you use it, and she felt like the whole family was just using it.
SPEAKER_06You know what life lesson that taught me, like doing over-exhorting yourself like that. A person will tell you, but I ain't asked you to do that.
SPEAKER_02They will, yeah.
SPEAKER_06That's the biggest slap in the face.
SPEAKER_02That's the biggest one ever. I saw something else in the comments of her thing, too.
SPEAKER_06I didn't ask you to do that. See, but by you giving like that and expecting people to appreciate it, yeah.
SPEAKER_02Because that's all she wanted.
SPEAKER_06Yeah, appreciation, like you know what I'm saying, and that was gave back to her lesson where she felt like it was valued, then she felt sad or hurt after that, which is valid. But the most valid thing is that you can over-exhort yourself. If you ain't meeting me at the table or you ain't trying to put this together, or we got this idea together, I'm not even gonna go.
SPEAKER_02And that's a lesson long learned for her. And that's why. And I hate it. Unless you're gonna do it out of the way.
SPEAKER_06Unless you just gonna do it out the kindness of your heart.
SPEAKER_02That's just for who you are, but even doing it out the kindness of your heart, because even you gotta think about it, even without them asking, that's still her doing it out the kindness of her heart because it's her money, her time, her all of that.
SPEAKER_01But even doing so, doing it out the kindness of your heart, you are still going to feel some type of way if people don't appreciate it.
SPEAKER_02It's the simple thing is somebody saying thank you. Like, I get irritated, like damn. She could be saying thank you. It shows real manage that it's it's also learning too. Like, some people really just don't know. So I learned that. I'm like, some people really don't know, some people really don't have it, and some people don't even understand what reciprocation means, what they should be doing for some other people. So it's like learning, people, whatever you give me, we're gonna do it to each other. And if you don't feel no type of way, this is okay for you. Yeah, but this is not okay for me. If you want somebody halfway showing up, halfway, that's okay for you, but that's not okay for me.
SPEAKER_01So I'm not tolerating it.
SPEAKER_02Those are definitely lessons learned. It sucks for some people who have that big heart and they do these things. I have to slap myself sometimes, like no, or be type like, well, I just and then I delete it, like, oh no, because every time that way to me, all of I'm I'm automatically Johnny on the spot for somebody.
SPEAKER_01If you say such, such such such, and it's something that I can fix, I'm gonna try to fix it. But when it comes for me, it don't get done, so I had to stop.
SPEAKER_02And then um, I'll that was me. I had to stop. Like I always I don't know, it's been for forever. I throw events at my house. I don't do it no more because it's been about two years. I just kind of like stopped doing certain stuff. Like I'll throw in a I'll throw a get together and I'll purchase everybody gifts for the get together. I was just doing overdoing stuff, just overextending myself. I'll cook the whole meal. People will always, some people ask, like, you want to bring something? No, I got it, because that's just me, right? I'm weird like that. Don't bring nothing. I got it. I know y'all can't stand it. I'm saying that's me. And I just don't know how to stop it. I just be like, no, don't bring nothing. I got it all. Like, I literally just cover it all. It is a control thing, and I just learned it about myself. I hate that, but I did learn it about myself and then so when I worked on an therapy. But I would do stuff like that, but then nobody will ever go that extra mile for me, like even in the smallest ways. And I was like, damn, like, and I didn't notice it because it's such it was a part of me. So I never looked for that in return until I got to the age I am now, which in the past two years I started paying attention. Like, damn, my cup is too empty, and I I'm gonna constantly continue to pour everybody's cups, but I ain't never seen nobody put nothing back in my eye. And when you start paying attention to it like that, that's when you I didn't cut people off, it just kind of like just slowed back. Of course, people think you stand off is and all that kind of weird stuff, but you really gotta pay attention to what you're putting out there though, because you really need to worry about your cup. I see people already pay attention to that cup to my pay attention. It's crazy that your kids will watch you will give, give, give, and then be like, Well, dang, Ma, don't nobody come for you, don't nobody help you do this, don't so then hearing them, you know, then you start paying attention. Like, well, dang. Especially if your kids see it. Yeah, like, well, dang, nobody knows okay. Well, they paying attention. And then now it's like, okay, every time I do something for somebody else, I'm taking something from them. So it's like, okay, well, they looking at it like, well, you doing this for this person. Or this person's kids and all of that, and they don't appreciate it. Let it go. My daughter be like, uh-uh, we ain't doing that.
SPEAKER_01Nope. I feel like that's it. I'll be like, she's in my mirror. She be like, uh-uh, we ain't doing that. We ain't doing that. Girl, I'm gonna have a list at my funeral, let her tell it.
Reciprocity, Boundaries, And Empty Cups
SPEAKER_02Nope. Look, me. I feel it. Yeah, I feel it. It'd be, you know, a little small things that I noticed too. Again, that's just my character. I didn't pay attention that I was always like, for example, this podcast, right? When you ask somebody to share the post, right? So I say you'll get no shares, right? Or you maybe get one. And I'm not sure. And I'm never asking you again. When I never asking you again, I'm never asking. I wouldn't care if we have one view forever. Ever. Never will never ask you. I will never do my move. But that's why I do it my story. Because my I used to in there right now with 10K views on God. I see you watching me. So keep watching silently. It doesn't matter. I was booked to you.
SPEAKER_01Instagram TV.
SPEAKER_02I was sharing people stuff that I didn't like. It's just in me because I'm all for like shopping black people and doing everything black, right? So if I notice, like I don't even be knowing a person, and this person be selling dinners, I might just share the post. And it's just because you're doing something. I'm sharing it. You know how many flyers I used to share back in the day for whoever was promoting a party or doing it was it's free. So I would do it over a good time. And I'm like, dang, not a soul that came over here. You ain't gotta worry about me sharing shit.
SPEAKER_06I used to feel that way about like certain stuff. I share my music, all this type of stuff. Things that you want, things that you feel important about that you want other people to tap in and share. But you kind of also got to look at it like the hustle. Like I also been outside. And I I might not have started off as your week, man. But you saw me 30 days, my consistency. You turned me down 29 days, and this day you decided to shop with me. You see what I'm saying? Like, so it's never never never personal for real.
SPEAKER_02That's why I can't work in sales. I can't do that.
SPEAKER_06But I had to learn that. Because I feel like I'm because I can answer, but I get it though. I get it. But like long as I'm doing what I'm supposed to be doing, the world's gonna give me back what I need, like whether it be your share or not.
SPEAKER_02That's why I'm looking at it now. I don't care like who I know who share it anymore. I stopped that last year. You're gonna get more uh support from strength. You are you are that's why we moved to the preference. That's why we moved over. But I just thought that was crazy. I'm like, man, I'm over here. I'm not sharing y'all, I'm not buying because listen, my support is gonna do whatever I can't do. If you're selling something, if I can't purchase it, I can't purchase it today. But I'll share it, I'll tell somebody else about it. So I'm gonna my support could be my money or I can do it for free by just sharing and telling the word of mouth. You know what I'm saying? I don't understand why it's so hard for people to do that. That's weird, especially with people you know or people you support in.
SPEAKER_01They rather support stuff that's they rather support strangers, or celebrities talk about that, but they'll come back once you pop, then they come back, and then that's why I don't want to see you, and that's why Trina, a lot of people was attacking her when that stuff happened with her niece. Remember, her niece got robbed or whatever in the projects, and they want to know, oh, she Trina. Why her niece still in the projects?
SPEAKER_02What did y'all expect her to do? Move her entire family, money gone immediately now, exactly. Because she paved the way for herself. Like she said, I was in the basement making raps. Wasn't nobody down there with me. You know what I'm saying? Ain't nobody driving here with us or doing nothing. So it'd be like people wait until you there and then they want to jump on it. No, I I can't. Oh, I can't wait for that there. Yeah, that's fine. It it just and it's just only like that with, like you said, the people that you know. Why?
SPEAKER_01I don't know. But with Facebook, when they let it be known that people can get paid, oh my god, baby. I be looking at people's stuff now, like, oh wow.
SPEAKER_06The people that know you always feel like they can tap into you because they always got access to you, so they don't feel the need to rush and support you if they can't. That's absolutely crazy. That's what I mean. Don't think that about me.
SPEAKER_02Please don't think that about me. Don't think that.
SPEAKER_06Yeah, but like live. You right here, you can just do it right now. Like it's people that you don't went to school with, all types of walks of life with that actually love you, that you ain't gonna never hear us tell you that until you die. You see what I'm saying? You gotta know that though.
SPEAKER_02Like, you know, I know that, and that's I feel very kind of crazy, though, ain't it?
SPEAKER_01It's so sad because me and funerals, oh, and death. I that's a whole nother story. I just don't want to love me when I'm dead.
SPEAKER_06I don't want to give me my flowers when I can't smoke. I don't want that.
SPEAKER_02That's fake to me. All everything pertaining to a funeral is fake to me.
SPEAKER_01Everything all the way down to me renting a casket and getting in there is a scam, a rip-off.
SPEAKER_02I already had that conversation. My family, I don't want to be like, I don't, I don't, I don't know. I want y'all to take my money. I did if you want to do some type of gathering when it comes to me, not a funeral. If you want to do some type of where y'all getting together, just remember, do it at the house. Yeah, y'all can cook some food, bring it over, and y'all can sit there and remember this right there. Yes, my kids, y'all better take this money and do what you're supposed to do. Don't you dare tell homeboy that down the street that you make$20 on my cast.
SPEAKER_06I'll put my picture as some and some necklaces or some tattoos, nigga. I'll be with you for that. But then, like, you ain't gonna come to this funeral home. You ain't gonna come visit me, bro. Stop making these other people rich with all this money.
SPEAKER_02I done say people rich. I done saved this money 37, 40 years, and you want to give it to these people. Don't you do that? Give my money back to them. Look, I watched it one time, that's all it took. When my grandma died, and I got to sit in that seat. When you sit in that big seat, and that's how I was with my daddy. And so they wanted to spend every dime. That was their job. Oh, she got such such left. We need a car, you need three cars, you need doves, you want her, and I'm just looking like hell no. They want their goal is to spend it all the way to zero where no check is returned. And what we do, go sit in there. Yeah, give us doves, give us a train. We want the whole game shut down, hire the police to put the people at the corner. An older person like my grandma that lived 89 or 90 years, all that, they deserve that. It's a celebration. Send them off with horses, carriages. But all of us young people, that ain't no life. Here goes. You done got your kids got a long way to go, so you better put their money to the side. You you done got murdered at 17 and they done spent 50,000 on your front.
SPEAKER_06Here goes some funny shit. So I was in a in a cemetery. I think I was, I don't know if I was burying, we was getting ready to bury my dad or son, but I got other family members at the cemetery. Like my grandparents, like like off the fence line, or like a dandy, right? So the lady walked up to the door. The lady walked into the door and she's like, Yeah, well, it's 10,000. Or I forget how much he said, it's some crazy ass number, like off the fence line. And then she was like, Well, it's like 2,500 over here. So why are we walking through there and my family like listening? Stopping like so, like, what's the difference between that dirt and that dirt other way? Exactly.
SPEAKER_02It's like only grown up there. Why is not a set price? That's crazy. You know why the 2500 is? Because they can come to the gate, yeah. You can come to the gate without coming in and see your loved ones.
SPEAKER_06So that's a special that ain't even working for me.
SPEAKER_02You ain't dirt your ass around here. No, that's the only thing. Why are we going in the building if it's raining or you can come in there and still see them? If it's raining, I can stay at home and still have that 10 bands in my account. I'll watch a lady on TikTok. She said, Don't try, she's telling her kids to cremate me. Take me with you. Don't be paying these people to put me in the ground. They probably need to put me in there anyway, and they using spots and spots and spots on top of people. Like, I talk about you the same thing. Y'all can cremate me. Y'all can split it up if you want to take half of your money ground.
SPEAKER_06Don't even go load money when you ain't gonna come visit this shit. Like, I get it. That's what I'm saying.
SPEAKER_02You got people that live far away, they gotta take flights to come visit a grave.
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SPEAKER_06Look how much well, if you got life insurance, you it's it's a little bit more feasible. But my funerals were like at at real expenses. Like this shit, like 10,000. This shit like 10, no, it does, it changed that shit drastically. I'm saying still paying for it. Yeah, but it's like you just like leasing, it's like money, yeah. It's like you get a yeah, you get some type of leniency. Like, that shit was like all right, 10,000, 10 days.
SPEAKER_02That's what I'm saying.
SPEAKER_06Like, hold on, hold on, hold on, hold on. What?
SPEAKER_02Yeah, we ain't doing all that. Then it's like, okay, so what y'all gonna do if we don't got the money? That's what I be wanting to know.
SPEAKER_01What y'all gonna just hold the body on ice until we come up with and they will.
SPEAKER_06You ever you ever been to uh one of the funerals and the person don't look like?
SPEAKER_00No, I ain't trying to go to none of that.
SPEAKER_06I ain't trying to happen. Yeah, you only get like seven days or ten days. I forget how many days it is, but it's a certain amount of days you get.
SPEAKER_02That's insane.
SPEAKER_06Body start looking different.
SPEAKER_02Yeah, don't. I already told them what to do with me. Yeah, don't. Don't anyway, scam. So we're coming up on the new year, y'all. Yeah, we can get past this year. Oh, Christmas. What's y'all fans for Christmas? I'm going out of town. Oh my god, here she goes. Where you going?
SPEAKER_01Hold on, look, where you going? Tennessee.
SPEAKER_02Y'all went to the cabins?
SPEAKER_01No, we ain't going to tell you. You want to visit? We're going to visit.
SPEAKER_02Yeah. Back. That's right, because you was down there for so long. How long was you down there? You want to go back? Yes.
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SPEAKER_02I loved it. Yes. I hate when I looked there for so long, moving there. In Tennessee. We would just talk about that. I never, ever, ever looked at Tennessee.
SPEAKER_01I always I go back and well, when I had Facebook, we'll look at the old sentences. I always talked about Texas. I don't know why.
SPEAKER_02I think maybe because I was looking at the houses and be infatuated at what you think. They respect your money.
SPEAKER_01Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah. But the Lord knew that my black ass didn't need to be in Texas.
SPEAKER_02But not for you. That it was for me. I like Texas too, but I always looked at Georgia, but not in Atlanta. Just Georgia in general. And then Texas. Then I got rid of Texas because of the natural disasters. I'm just, I don't need to be nowhere where that is happening. I just love Tennessee. You did. Southern people is just so different. It changed me. It changed me. No life. Everybody up here crazy. That's what I think. Everybody is crazy in the rain.
SPEAKER_06I went to Georgia and they were so I went to Atlanta and they were so nice and warm.
SPEAKER_02I'm like, man, what the fuck is y'all so nice, though, man?
SPEAKER_06Everybody like me so Detroit and me that I was up there like they were so they southern house. Nice ass niggas, man.
SPEAKER_05Come on.
SPEAKER_06But then I was like, but after I stayed down here for a few days and got used to how nice they was, I hate it when I came back. Like, yeah, I gotta be mean again.
SPEAKER_02You gotta be my nephew, went to college in Tennessee, and when we dropped him off, everybody just kept walking past. Hey, how you doing? He's like, What's wrong with that? He was walking up on BB life. Yeah, it was a lot of that, right? So he was back in his response. Man, these people won't stop talking to me. They nice, calm down. He's like, No, I can't take that. Like he was not handling it real well, right? Homeboy has left and never came back. That was almost eight, nine years ago. He live there now. No, he left Tennessee after college. He stayed there for a little while and now he's in Atlanta. Homeboy is never coming back to Detroit. He came up here and visited, he'd be like, No, I gotta go. He is never coming back. Yes, you love it once you go out here. That's why I want to just go.
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SPEAKER_02You plan on going back? I want to when Kyrie graduates.
SPEAKER_01I think we're gonna go back once Kyrie graduates. If it was up to me, I'd go back this year when he started in ninth grade and let him do high school down the road. That was my plan. He don't want to, but he also didn't want to come back here.
SPEAKER_02So I know that he is getting school and you know they have their friends and stuff. But he got it a lot of friends like not right now in middle school. Oh but he let my daughter tell it. I switched her at the beginning of high school and it ruined her life. Let her tell it. Oh my god. Oh my god, girl, she was down there, she was down there, and we came back up here. Oh, you ruined her life. But did not I'm with her.
SPEAKER_01Because if I want to come up here and then now she don't want to go back.
SPEAKER_02Oh god. Yeah. But that's how it is, though. They adjust.
SPEAKER_01They adjust.
SPEAKER_02So that's why I'm like, Corey, we can just take Kyrie, he'll adjust and go now. You go, I'm going with y'all. Take my one as well. We all online anyway. We're coming. Yeah. Would you want to move out of state?
SPEAKER_06I don't know if I want to move out of state. I travel. I want to be a person that can hop around.
SPEAKER_02You said you want to be a person that have around. Yeah, it's places in the world.
SPEAKER_06It's places in the world that I want to just travel. I don't know if I just want to be just stuck with man. It's niggas all over the world. I don't know if I want to be stuck with y'all all every day.
SPEAKER_02You know what I'm saying? You just starting now. That showed your transition. Oh, yeah.
SPEAKER_06I don't travel, but the only thing I got a phobia of traveling by myself. I don't go nowhere by myself for real. Like I ain't going to the club by myself. I ain't doing none of that. I don't give a fuck how lit I am, how much money I got. Somebody tell the story. Look, I was always told you don't go nowhere by yourself because somebody gotta survive this. Tell the story. You see what I'm saying? Like, man, like man, B got man, he got mauled. If I go by myself, don't nobody know how many depends on whoever found you.
SPEAKER_02Like, well, this will happen.
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SPEAKER_06But I do want to do some traveling like that though. I probably, I probably will. I'm not scared to, but I got a little phobias of that shit. Like, I'm I'm kind of like to myself. I'm kind of like to myself, so do it one time for the one time, see how I got it. I got a few uh places I want to go by myself. Uh I've been down to Atlanta, I've been to Miami, a few little places like groups, but I think I want to go to Atlanta. I got some some stuff I want to do down there. I got a couple friends that's doing some music stuff down there. I got I definitely want to go back to Miami. Miami was lit, even though they had a curfew. They had it, they had a curfew.
SPEAKER_02I don't like that. I was excited to get to Miami and I got down there and I felt like I was on Jefferson.
SPEAKER_06Did you go to the beach?
SPEAKER_02Yes. And my foot couldn't get in that scene. It's hot. I went to the beach and had to run for my life. We had to run for my life. It was gone.
SPEAKER_03Oh, you know, baby.
SPEAKER_02It felt like we went probably the worst weekend ever. Memorial Day weekend. Yeah, that was my one time only going. I mean, that was one of the times. But I've been plenty of times in Miami, just not for me. We're going again. You went during the button going my time. Oh, you said I went to Mori weekend. Memorial Day weekend. That's the worst. Not Memorial Day. I'm just too young. You turn it, but no. I done went both. That's what I'm saying. Memorial Day weekend and just not Memorial Day weekend. Miami is just overrated. It's just it is overrated for sure for me.
SPEAKER_06What you do down there?
SPEAKER_02Went out to eat the mall, the all the things that I do. I'm not a clubber.
SPEAKER_06Yeah, I went to the mall.
SPEAKER_02I ain't got I did go to the club though. I'm not a club. I think the early, I think just early turned up people will enjoy Miami more than I would. In my 20s, Miami would have been lit. Very much though.
SPEAKER_06I'm more so just like the nice weather. You know what I'm saying? We can go outside. And nice weather every day.
SPEAKER_01Yeah, the water. But yeah, that's the best part of it.
SPEAKER_06I ain't really no club or nothing like that. But see, that's why Tennessee was hot.
SPEAKER_02The cold Derek, the I'm saying maybe 30 degrees. That's cold. We don't need a coat because it's not the 30 and 40 degrees, it's not 30 and 40 degrees here. So you're not buying a coat. You're wearing a hoodie or a jacket, and the most you deal with is rain. You know what I'm saying? I would love that. It's 70, 80 for majority of the time. Like it's just it's perfect. Like, it's perfect. Oh, I would love that. Atlanta, too much of the culture for me. I don't think I could be just strictly around us.
SPEAKER_01Like, I can't, I can't deal. Like, I can't deal. Like, they literally to Hollywood. They didn't turn more, they more LA. Nah, I can't. They are. Yeah, I can't do it.
SPEAKER_02Atlanta was like, I don't got the Atlanta was like her.
SPEAKER_06Atlanta was too, it was a little too different for me, though. Yeah, you can't do it. It was fun, but it was a little too different.
SPEAKER_02Too different. It was a little too different. It's fast. I mean, it's they gone. It is fast space. It is. It is fast space. We've had a couple times. I'm tired of going a lot of lines. Grocery store.
SPEAKER_01You might see a bitch with a high heels and you will see some shit like that.
SPEAKER_02Damn, bitch is 8 a.m. Tell them to do all the arm. You are seeing that. I saw that. 8 a.m. That's crazy. No, I can't live like that, bro. And it seems like everybody there is doing this. Everybody doing it. Because you adapt what's around, like what's around you. So everybody's doing it. I'm not doing that. I think I'm probably the only one. I really don't like Detroit like that no more. Because I went to Tennessee and I got away from everything being about what you're wearing and what you how your hair is and all. Everybody just living, like living. They don't really care about that. You go me and Corey went to the club and I was like, I could have worn my Crocs. Like, what the like that's how it is in the south. Like they're chilling. They are. They're not wearing the city. They can't run a barbecue. They got on their shorts, they t-shirt. Like everybody takes vibe and they're having a good time. That's for me. I don't got time to do that. Girl, you're making me want to go check out Tennessee. Every day 24-7. That ain't for me. I ain't high maintenance. I ain't I. We supposed to be going this.
SPEAKER_00We'll be going to Tennessee sometime the end of the year for to the cabins.
SPEAKER_02But to the next one. You make me want to go in now. To the cabins. You know Kyrie on that damn traveling.
SPEAKER_01So we be everywhere with this football stuff. But so that's why we keep ending up in the cabins, because we be having tournaments gallery. Yeah.
SPEAKER_06Yeah, but I ain't traveling for the holidays for sure. I'm probably gonna cook again.
SPEAKER_02I think I ain't going nowhere for Christmas either.
SPEAKER_01This is my first time going for well, no, when I was in Tennessee, I came up here for Christmas. But is y'all cooking?
SPEAKER_02I ain't no I don't know. I hope not. I don't know. I hope my mama just hope my mama cooked. I don't know.
SPEAKER_06We gotta be some holiday food.
SPEAKER_02Well, we definitely gonna have some holidays from water park, so we ain't cooking. Oh, where are you going? Opri Land. What is that at?
SPEAKER_03In Tennessee. I ain't never heard that.
SPEAKER_02Oh, that's right, because you gotta be in Tennessee. Okay, yeah. So yeah, we've we gotta have some holiday food. We had something there, so yeah, I ain't cooking my mama gonna cook. All right, so before we get up out of here, let's talk some New Year's resolutions. What you got, Brandon? Y'all got some new years' resolutions?
SPEAKER_06Being a better me. Like, you know what I mean? Like shit. If I was being a little bit more specific, but probably just working on characteristics to become a better man. Like, you know what I mean? Like, I feel like I'm good with my hands. I can create, I can survive if I needed to. But maybe I need to learn how to communicate, be a little more open with my emotions on certain things.
SPEAKER_00How are you planning on doing that?
SPEAKER_06Shit, that shit hard. I'm trying to do that. It is hard.
SPEAKER_00It is hard. It is hard.
SPEAKER_06It's it's hard for me because I ain't y'all see me in a calm state, but I was a firecracker. Like, you know what I'm saying? So this is like totally different for me. Like, so my life done changed, so it's trying to change my perspective. And it slowed things down for me. So I know everything ain't worth crashing out about I know that uh every people, everybody don't got common sense. You know what I'm saying? So that's a big one.
SPEAKER_02That is. When you learn that you got more self-control.
SPEAKER_06Yeah, like hold on, you might just not know.
SPEAKER_02You just don't know, baby. Okay.
SPEAKER_06Matter of fact, you don't even you don't know me. That's what it is.
SPEAKER_03Yep.
SPEAKER_06That's what it is. You don't know me. That's what it is. I just don't get the benefit of the doubt. You know what I'm saying? I'm gonna keep this sweet because it can go left real fast.
SPEAKER_02Common sense ain't so.
SPEAKER_06So I learned I learned how to I learn how to control. But I'm my best resolution would be learning how to put speed limits on my emotions. That'll be that'll be it.
SPEAKER_03Because I could it's hard to say yet about you.
SPEAKER_06But but it's not people think that it might be anger, but it might be passion. I speak passionate about I really believe what I'm telling you, like you know what I mean. So it's gonna come across that way. Okay. But I might not mean it in the words that's coming out. Okay. Like as y'all see in the podcast, it might go left, but I'll bring it back around the block.
SPEAKER_02I ain't never seen you not zit.
SPEAKER_06Oh. My friends have tons of times. I don't hold back when I'm if you my friend, you my friend. Like, so I don't feel as if like uh I gotta hold back no truth. Yeah, I don't gotta dress nothing up with you. I'm gonna tell you this shit straight up. Like, oh nigga, you fuck it up. Or oh man, hell no, I don't like that.
SPEAKER_00You hold your friends accountable.
SPEAKER_06Yeah, yeah. Period. Of course. I'm not a man, don't I chastise you if I'm there, like how you say, like um, look at him back there.
SPEAKER_02I just gotta look, y'all. Y'all ain't see it.
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SPEAKER_06Uh um if you my friend and like I feel like I'm there for you and you're not there for me, I'll I'll call you out on that.
SPEAKER_02Really? I love that.
SPEAKER_06I'll call you out on that shit.
SPEAKER_03You said here too. Well, yes, let me clap that up.
SPEAKER_06I gotta call you out because I I don't see that. Because we think it's thieves, men do that way more than you think. Like, we think it's thieves, right? Okay, yeah, like we think it's thieves. Like, listen, if me and him go out to the club, we don't gotta know each other at all. But we just linked up here. If he gets into it with somebody, I'm into it with him. And then he probably gonna feel like if I didn't jump into it, we gotta get back in the same car. Me and you not alike. We gonna clash. So you gotta be like me in order to be rolling with me. Like, because in some aspect, we gotta be compatible, like you know what I'm saying? So I'd rather weave you out if you're not like me. The guys that's not moving like me got the same ideas as me, or you don't even gotta agree upon this.
SPEAKER_02Women don't do that at all.
SPEAKER_06Yeah, y'all don't hold each other.
SPEAKER_02Now we do. No, we don't know.
SPEAKER_00Now we're getting old accountable. Oh, no, we don't.
SPEAKER_02No, no, no, we don't. We don't hold each other accountable either. But I'm saying that we don't pick our friends. No, that's why I said the older we get, we get friends when we chances, and then we just try to grow with that. Yeah, we just try to. We do that, but you just said something that we don't do. You just said that if y'all not aligned with each other and all of that, y'all you done with it. We don't do that. That's what we're working. That's what that's kind of like what we do now. Yeah, as the older we get, when you know them, you know homegirl not for you, she's not for me. Cutting you off is probably coming. It took us a longer to get to that. It takes a while for me to cut you off, way too long.
SPEAKER_06So I mean you might argue a few times, and that was I see I can't get through to you, man. There's no point in me wasting my energy again and trying to lead you to the water or trying to get you see these to see these ideas because I'm wasting my time. Your stubborn ways of you not being able to open your eyes and see what I'm telling you, even if you don't utilize the advice I'm giving you, you should be at least open-minded to hearing.
SPEAKER_02I want to see it at personal. I thought they fly around with it because you just said, like, if a guy like how you had to check him, like if you needed to check him about something, like it's in the in the playing manner, like where they don't take you as serious. You get what I'm saying? Because I think if you stand firm, like if you was talking to your child about something that a nigga did that was ignorant.
SPEAKER_06Oh no, here we go. I got a I got a situation for you.
SPEAKER_02And you gotta know the friend, too. You don't know who you can talk to.
SPEAKER_06I had a homeboy that had uh expecting, he was expecting maybe a couple years back. And he didn't want to have the child with the girl that he was having it with. She wanted to keep it. But he like, man, I just ain't gonna be in the baby life. I'm like, see, that's nigga logic. So what I taught him was like, bro, whatever you do with her is what you do with her, but you can't be no whole ass nigga to the baby. You see what I'm saying? Like, whatever you're gonna do, you gonna be a man, bro. You see what I'm saying? Like, I don't deal with niggas like that with that ideology or nothing, bro, because you are beneath a way I'm thinking. You see what I'm saying? Like, I teach you, I can teach you, I can show you, but it's just like we don't you might listen to your single friends because that that that appease your ego. But you're gonna really take the the information and stuff for your friends that's married or got things that can attain something that can manage it for a while. You ain't gonna look at nobody that's got people in and out their life and take what they telling you and have that much value in yours. You might look at it like, okay, yeah, I can see that, but then you're gonna analyze the person that's telling it to you, like, I don't know.
SPEAKER_00How you gonna teach me?
SPEAKER_06How you gonna tell me how to keep a job when you ain't got a job? You know what I'm saying? Like, can't really do that. Like, gotta be able to, like, we do analyze our friends. Like, we do got the ones that you sound like that you grow with. I got friends that fuck up some less, but I still love in the same. You know what I'm saying? But I learned that, like you say, you love from a distance.
SPEAKER_02Yeah, everybody can go.
SPEAKER_06So you might still be that way. And I'm fine with you being that way, because you might be fine with it. But I'm gonna excel past that. I'm gonna grow past that. But you still be my friend though. You know what I'm saying? But me and you just ain't gonna be on the same, on the same uh boat, ship, you know what I'm saying? But you'll be able to contact me. I had to learn that. Like sometimes you do gotta distance yourself because holding on to too much uh uh bring you down for sure.
SPEAKER_02Look at Diddy. I'ma just say look, but look how many men is attacking 50 Cent for doing this documentary.
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SPEAKER_06Oh, yeah, but y'all not attacking the abuser, like but because he's a black man, no, they attacking 50 cents because it's because it's 50 cents, no 50 cent doing that shit to him because 50 cents it's no explanation on why that's what people don't, it but what I'm saying is it shouldn't matter because it don't one yeah you the story need to be told, right?
SPEAKER_02These are the things that he did, these are facts. So now that we know that these are facts, what difference do it make who told the story? Right, but it's the fact that it's 50 cents. So if it was somebody a white man doing the story, y'all want to take the respect of why he's telling. But everybody can speculate on why we don't really reason why, but we can't really say that that's the reason because he said with his woman, you don't you gotta be so what? What about this?
SPEAKER_06So 50 cents uh P. Diddy was cool at some point in time. They was cool as well.
SPEAKER_02They never was cool like that, they was hanging out, whatever.
SPEAKER_06You know what I'm saying? They was they were music, they was cordial, yes, they were cordial at some point in time. So if I shake your hand and you sleep with my woman, we got we got problems. You see what I'm saying? I can't she a whore. Everybody slept with her.
SPEAKER_03That could be the case, but men are totally different.
SPEAKER_06Like I get it, what you're saying, that makes sense. But a man is like a what I'm saying. If somebody cheat with your girl and you don't know them, he don't owe you nothing. So you're not mad at him. The guy that I'm shaking my hand say what it's a part of the game. If you go outside and somebody don't know you and cheat with you, cheat with your girl or something, he don't owe you nothing. I ain't mad at him. He's just being a nigga. Okay, but if I'm shaking your hand and we acquaintances and stuff like this, it's a problem. You see what I'm saying? Okay, so 50 cent became 50 cent. And when P. Diddy did that to him, it was already a problem. So he's like, All right, you're gonna do this to one of my women, so we're gonna favorite, we're gonna trump it. It's the one, but what you're saying, hold on. Let me just let me just go back. Let me just go back. Let me just go back to uh what you were saying. It's baby mama, you're right, mama. But okay, but she right, like you know what I'm saying. It it shouldn't outweigh none of that matter, it shouldn't outweigh the truths that just came out, yes. But you said it was about women, women's wars between the wheels.
SPEAKER_02So I'm saying is about you're saying he's doing it because he's upset about what happened, yeah. But you say that's why he shouldn't do it.
SPEAKER_06No, I'm saying he should expose these truths because the world wants to know, right? But the men are attacking him because we know the code of it. You see what I'm saying?
SPEAKER_02Like, oh, he's being petty because he's the code of a rapist. No, that's what I don't understand. You saying the code of it's not a mix, you know, you being because all of these things are what he did.
SPEAKER_06True, you mixing the things that he did and the truths that he exposing, right? Versus the narrative of why 50 doing it, like why you do that petty ass shit. Yeah, you're right. That ain't petty though, it's not petty because it's the moral compassing, but but y'all fail to realize that if these were like if Diddy would have beat the story that somebody was gonna pick up, Diddy would have beat every last one of these things, like if he would have got out, he did honestly. He beat everything that y'all attacked me for.
SPEAKER_02And when you watched it, you think he beat him, or you think of course he did because he's supposed to be doing life. I'm saying when you watch it, do you think he got the justice that he deserves?
SPEAKER_06He beat it. I think he beat it. I knew Diddy was gonna come home free.
SPEAKER_02But should he beat it?
SPEAKER_06But it's a lot of if that was the case, everybody that was in that room recording that the TMZ people, Cassie, his mama, everybody needs to go to jail. If I sell dope, you know I sell dope when the house gets raided, everybody go to jail, not just me.
SPEAKER_02No, no, man.
SPEAKER_06I just know about it.
SPEAKER_02But I'm saying you just as guilty. You are right. So I do agree that all of the people, not the TMZ people that's recording and all of that, they getting us, they they getting a story now. So this was for his thing. But my thing is this the words that they're using is 50 cent attacking another black man, 50 cent should be the one who shouldn't be doing it. This is my thing. Somebody was gonna pick it up. Yeah, for sure. Who picked up Ike and Tina Turner's story? Do we know if it was a white or a black man? But they showed us how he beat the crap out of her every single time. It was a story, somebody needed to get paid off of it, right?
SPEAKER_06I do think it was a business move, but I just feel like it made them what you just said, I felt like it made it them natural enemies now.
SPEAKER_01So, what makes so now so if Diddy get out from being should he care?
SPEAKER_06No, he shouldn't. But I'm just saying, all right, so if the culture is black men killing each other, the culture, this is what you listen to. Yeah, the culture is that if you listen to music, that's all you hear now. Black niggas killing each other, all right. All right, so this is the culture. So, at some point in time, by these being older men, you gotta show the young people how to mend wars and how to build bridges to get over things. This is gonna be a forever fire, right? They ain't gonna never squash this. You see what I'm saying? Because it'll be a good thing.
SPEAKER_05Because you was footing my right whatever you need.
New Year Goals And Emotional Speed Limits
SPEAKER_06And now, once Diddy get out from beating everything that he was really unconscious, diddy shouldn't get out. He shouldn't, but he's gonna get out because they're gonna get it. He shouldn't get out. Now that this shouldn't get out. Now, what might happen is he might get out, and by him releasing this footage, he might get pulled back up on charges. You see what I'm saying? Because tampering, witness witness tampering, all of this other stuff that they have the evidence of. But in all actuality, he beat the charges that everybody was was railroading him for.
SPEAKER_02Why do you think he beat him?
SPEAKER_06Because he didn't get the time that was allotted for him.
SPEAKER_02No, but I'm saying why you beat the charges.
SPEAKER_06I go kill somebody and that's and the sentence is normally life, and I go to two years or three years, I won.
SPEAKER_02I beat the system because I made I'm not answering it in that way. I'm saying like he's that what you're saying. It wasn't realistic to Rico. So now that they have this evidence, to the they have proof now that that's just like me. If me and Crystal leave out of here right now, like a sexual thing. They didn't have enough evidence to convict them. So they didn't have enough evidence to convict them on that, a sex ring. That was a major. That's why you that's why I believe everything is a scam in a rig. They knew they wasn't gonna be able to get them on a Rico charge. He didn't sex traffic anybody. That was a charge of something that we know that he didn't do. But we saw all of the things that he did do, but he didn't get charged for none of those things. But if me and you leave out of here right now and I put a gun up to your head and I said, take me to where he lives, or I'm and or I'm gonna kill you, I'm going to jail in US because you took me there. This lady on camera says he came to her house, put a gun on her, made her take him to somebody else's house. He banged on their door, they wasn't there, he blew up their car. All this is valid evidence, okay?
SPEAKER_01Because this a witness. So if if he say Jason says, Oh, yeah, she they was here together, she left and put the pistol.
SPEAKER_06You know why that's not valid evidence? Why it's not because we live in a social time.
SPEAKER_02No, we live in a money capsule, and if your money can't long enough to get you out of it, you're gonna get out of it. That's what this just taught me with Trump being the president and did he getting off because if I go beat somebody in Walmart, you ain't got no money for the loophole, I'm going to jail, okay? They want to arrest me for calling saying I'm slap a bitch to sleep, okay? Exactly. But his money long enough where he can keep playing with the court systems and keep so they letting us know that really money win, okay.
SPEAKER_06I told you money was the but now that's probably the whole thing, anyway.
SPEAKER_02They are having they have all of the evidence, right? Trip him if it's money, all that. But the main thing was everybody attacking the person who putting it out there versus the person that it happened to. My thing is none of these grown ass men, Jim Jones, oh yeah, may know none of them spoke up when all this was going on. Nobody was team Diddy when they didn't know what sentence he was gonna get. Nobody spoke up, no. But now they gotta get it. Why y'all didn't speak up and talk about it then? I I just got a problem with whole ass niggas. But we think about it, niggas getting clicks, right? One man be a man, and they be like, bitch, go get my money, and then they go get it. Women, we don't operate like that. It's not finna be one person running no click until that's the problem I have with men. Now here they all come talking about it when they all was silent like little bitches then, right? They didn't talk, they didn't speak about it, they all was quiet until they knew what the charges was. Yeah, now everybody attacking 50 Cent because he was man enough, no matter what the reason was, he put on his big boy pants and said, No matter if this beef forever, I'm willing to do it. But also, this finna make me billions of dollars in the process. I don't think he cares about the beef, it's the money money.
SPEAKER_04It don't care about the beef, but y'all making it seem like you're speaking about a code, not for the money. Let me speak on what you said. Like for the money.
SPEAKER_06The reason that women don't realize that and don't because y'all don't fall under the hierarchy. Y'all don't realize that it's a food chain. When you step out the house and when you step in a room, you think you're the queen. I am. No, you're not.
SPEAKER_02I am that's the thing.
SPEAKER_05Let me let me explain it to you. Ain't nobody gonna tell me no. I want to learn something, right? All right, go for it.
SPEAKER_06Every man is the king of his own castle, right? They not. If you a man, man, if you stay by yourself, yeah, but every man that you consider a man is the king of his castle. I should say that, right? That means that he's doing everything. So when he goes outside, he go to work and he goes in somebody else's establishment, right? That other man in there is the king of that castle, he follows the lead of that man in order to get his paycheck. But the way you just said that is like a woman to be like, No, I'm not going to go get that money. That nigga ain't doing that. Men win championships, men play football. This is the reason why you don't have these type of things because it's a hierarchy. Me and understand this, like this is like when you see the animals and you see them rams and the lions. No, no, no, no, no. You just it's a pot, no, it's it's you gotta know where you at in this food chain. Like when you see the rams go at each other and they clash, clash, clash. Both of them think that they the man, and they're gonna clash, clash, clash, and then once one of them loses, he gotta go take his spot. All the women go to the one that won, no matter how good the other one was. Soon as he leaves, soon as he loses, everything that he attained goes straight to the other guy. So we understand that y'all don't y'all not break, y'all not even bred for competition. You will go be with your man for 20 years, and then a girl at work like him, and you find find out about this girl, like him, and you would be like, Well, that bitch can have you. I would gonna say that some people, maybe maybe not y'all, like you, but you see what I'm saying? You see how that emotion will go and a man will stick his sword in the mud and be like, uh-uh, you ain't over here, bro. Uh uh, we're gonna we're gonna battle it out, we're gonna die about this shit. Y'all would be like, I'll go find me another nigga.
SPEAKER_02No, we not. No, no, we shouldn't like me.
SPEAKER_06Maybe not you per se.
SPEAKER_02No, maybe not you per se, but these men sitting up here. I'm I'm just saying, look at what you look at uh BMF. What meach running this one man, one man giving orders to 20 old ass niggas.
Accountability In Friendships
SPEAKER_06Don't men run the world, don't a man cut your check. Don't a man as a man a man cut who check? It's probably a man that cut your I cut my own check. When you when you when you go to the bank, when you run with when you run through and just in life, what that means a lot of rich women, but men run money. So that means I have to do follow as leader, like no matter if you like it in the corporate world or not, even in the individual world, even as going out to a customer, right?
SPEAKER_02For me, like that's the explanation to Big Meach running 12 to your bowing down to one leader for some money.
SPEAKER_06All of them niggas was gangsters, all of them niggas was bosses, they just went no super boss. They ain't no war.
SPEAKER_02You don't want those to me, no drugs because you ain't gonna be talking to me like exactly that's the real woman like me. That's a bitch ass nigga taking orders from another man.
SPEAKER_06Like a be what you tell the drugs. You got the person that comes in that's a district manager, you got the CEO, you all gotta be able to do it.
SPEAKER_02And that's not me, you get to slap me. No, that's what they be doing to these niggas. Y'all don't know. Like they don't see it.
SPEAKER_06Man, I mean listen, I mean listen, I have listen, I have been in the streets and I have seen people get their hands put on them. But it's levels, it's levels to it. See, he's still trying to make the explanation. No, no, no, no, no.
SPEAKER_02He's going back after he done got his ass beat.
SPEAKER_06And then I've seen I done seen workers get their ass beat. Right. But I ain't never seen a boss beat another boss ass. It's a war. This shit never the boss. Never. I ain't talking about the biggest. You ain't never be the type of guy that puts me. I'm talking about the little peasants. But they all but they it was they weren't all peasants. They got workers. Everybody that you seen in the position that got indicted was bosses.
SPEAKER_02Every last one of them, they just mean that they sold, they're selling their souls for some money, because that's what you said. They getting a check.
SPEAKER_06They all do. We all do. Every day. You sell your time for money, every day. No. Your time ain't worth the money that you made. That process because you're gonna be talking to me like that. I'm never ever die or listen. Would you agree? Would you would you agree? Would you agree the time that you trade up the for the for the value of the money that you getting, your time ain't worth the money that you're getting? It's not, it's not right then. So we all do it. It's just another aspect. But I get exactly what you're saying. Okay, you gotta have some backbone. You can't be okay. You gotta have some backbone. You can't be no bitch, for sure.
SPEAKER_02So back to them niggas and bosses that I work with, don't bring no ass down here talk to me. They no longer standing back with me. Now here they all come. Where was that at then? Where was Maino? Where was Fab? Where was uh Jim Jim 20?
SPEAKER_05Where was every single permit?
SPEAKER_06Nah, I'm gonna think now FanAp, I don't know about Maino now, but I saw that shit with uh FanA was on that damn drink chain. Drink chain, I would have been far and silent too. Like she didn't party with you, bro.
SPEAKER_02What he was trying to do, he didn't even need to. I was trying to like make him a mixture.
SPEAKER_06Like, yeah, hold on a party with you, bro. Hold on.
SPEAKER_02I don't want to party with you. He was doing too much. Y'all really believe none of these people didn't know all this. They all knew that shit. So they did what?
SPEAKER_06Like when Diddy went probably when Diddy got so powerful, the whole industry knew what type of man he was and everything he was doing. Just like the whole industry knew about R. Kelly. That's what he's saying. But you got to convict everybody then if we all know about it.
SPEAKER_02So why do we have laws? Why is it okay for them to do it, but not you? Because I'm not that's what I'm saying.
SPEAKER_06I don't got enough money.
SPEAKER_02Who who died and said that they is something special because they got money? But that's the reason why we that's but that's why we stuck. Because we look up to these people, we put these people up on these pedestals, and we act like they died right now. Oh, he got money so he could do no, he should be treated just like you or me if I did that. If I went out there and did everything that he did, no amount of money shouldn't be able to save my ass. No amount of money should be able to save him. Why is it guys in jail right now fighting felony charges when the president is a felon?
SPEAKER_06Your legal representation is everything.
SPEAKER_02I'll never understand that. Like how's insane because we letting it happen. Yeah, we're letting it happen.
SPEAKER_06A top seed and lawyer, and then the retainer, yeah, like the retaining and all that. It might be 20,000 to retain this lawyer just because he got a relationship with the judge and he can go reduce your charges. See, that be a thing. When I go in here and get processed, my black ass is gonna be like shit. Check his bank account, check what he's driving. Oh, he don't know nobody. Shit, give him 600 days because we make$1,500 off every day you in this motherfucker. That shit is a business. That shit is not about what you really did. It's not after laws, it's about so I just said they're gonna read my last thing cleared up everything I just said. Because it's not about your guilt for real, it's about what you can prove.
SPEAKER_02I can be guilty as ever, but if you can't prove guilty and they proved it, and he's still walking. We watching it on live television.
SPEAKER_06You're gonna watch him walk right out them courtrooms and say they might don't they might nab his ass back up again, though.
SPEAKER_02Now, if they don't knob them back up, I ain't gonna tell y'all what I'm gonna do, but I'm gonna be getting away with some shit too. This shit ain't about to keep happening. So I'm gonna get away with some shit. Like, what? I'll comment on when you said um why they mad at 50 doing it. It's a lot of our stories, our color people's stories is out there, and I am tired of the other race. They tell our stories all the time, so I have no problem when you're telling it. I do get what you said. I really think you didn't know. I really think he did a good job. I don't really think he didn't know.
SPEAKER_06Hey, look, he could have done more, but in all actuality, the shit was wasn't his documentary, the shit really wasn't his documentary. That's so it was it was Diddy's gonna do something. It was Diddy actually recording this stuff, yeah. And he had a Netflix special. He really wasn't supposed to have been doing none of this. But when he got locked up, he had to give up all his rights, and 50 cents bought the rights of that. So that makes it smart business.
SPEAKER_02That makes that for me for Diddy because he's gonna do everything about his past.
SPEAKER_06Diddy probably was about to have some type of way to capitalize.
SPEAKER_02He was about to let you know he's a sick fucker, okay? He recorded all of this all the way down to him in the mirror with a bottle. Like he needs to rot in jail.
Industry Codes, 50 Cent, And Diddy Debate
SPEAKER_06Seriously, if he would have beat it, that shit would have been a great documentary. It's still gonna it's just that it just it just didn't it just didn't generate him no money, you know what I'm saying?
SPEAKER_02But I think he needs to be castrated, but that's the whole new. I'm just saying, cut his shit off.
SPEAKER_06I'm glad he's so you can't you can't you can't make you can't well, he did entirely too much. He did go out of control, too. But it was a lot of it was a lot of shit that was voluntary for us, right?
SPEAKER_02Yeah, like he just did too much. That documentary made my stomach hurt, like the things that he did, and the fact that people sat back and watched him operate like this and saw it. Like you walk in and see somebody get raped, then you just close the door and walk back out.
SPEAKER_06Like, this is all is it rape if they is it rape if they can send it to it? It's only rape if they're not consenting to it.
SPEAKER_02If you don't remember, oh yeah, yeah, I did.
SPEAKER_06I forgot. I forgot. Remember her ass weight out sleep somewhere. God damn my man said I forgot my head.
SPEAKER_05She was sleeping. See, but like no, no, no. Now you don't consent to something, you too hot.
SPEAKER_06No, no.
SPEAKER_05I I ain't even talking about it.
SPEAKER_02All he all he said was tears was rolling down her eyes.
SPEAKER_05No, no, no. Oh baby, baby.
SPEAKER_02I'm never, I'm never that's what y'all gotta know about me. It's no reason you're gonna be talking about I don't know what happened when I went to sleep, but I'm gonna sleep next there. That's all that should have took. That woman woke up too.
SPEAKER_06He was in it for the he was in it to win it.
SPEAKER_02Had to, had to. You're never to keep waking up with your ass fucked up. I don't know what's going on. That first time you woke up, somebody about to get fucked up. I'm not gonna wake up with a bitch in the bed with me.
SPEAKER_06You would have woke up and not snap out. That part.
SPEAKER_02You talking about I woke up, he was in the bed with me. Oh, we could have fighting this bitch. You didn't snap.
SPEAKER_06See, but look, I think now look, that's a part of this shit though. Like the the Puerto Rican lady that they talked to, and she was crying and shit like that. I do think some of that trauma is real, but I do think some of this shit like is like now, I ain't gonna say satire because maybe some of these events did happen, but they just didn't happen the way that they said it because perspective is everything.
SPEAKER_02Well, yeah, you know, one person goes down, everybody's gonna have a different story to tell to make it worse than what it probably was. I that's just so like people telling stories about the standard we saw on the video, okay. Sick ass man.
SPEAKER_06Oh yeah, oh yeah, they do. See, like oh girl that was like about to lose her child.
SPEAKER_02That's the sickest shit ever. Yeah, like who would think that he who would support these things? That's what I'm saying. All of these rappers, they are weird too. They all weird, so that should show people like us, like, okay, we should be done with them. Y'all talking about canceling Diddy, we should be canceling all the people that are attached to him. That's what I mean by we support the wrong things. They they podcast is getting 700 million views.
SPEAKER_06Capricorn Clark.
SPEAKER_02Who is it? That was the oh, the Portugal. Yeah, but it's like we look up and put them on these pedestals as if they're not human beings like us. I I just don't understand. I've never been a celebrity person, like you are same like me, you just got more money. Just like maybe the bitch next door. I don't know how much she makes, I can't tell you.
SPEAKER_06That's just like um back in the day. Your mom used to watch the stories. That's regular people, but it's regular people live. With a storyline, with a life that you don't, yeah, a storyline that you don't live. So you tune into that shit every day to see what's going on in their life because your life ain't active like that. You see what I'm saying? Like, I'm not no person that I don't even follow, I don't even follow a regular person that got a certain amount of followers because I feel like you're not gonna see my comments, none of this. I ain't listen, I ain't a part of your cult, your cult activity.
SPEAKER_02Total people to be coming in the celebrity post. Happy birthday, I'm straight.
SPEAKER_06Man, I ain't I ain't gonna be a big one. You ain't gonna act me, you ain't gonna do nothing. You ain't even seen this.
SPEAKER_02I just thought I just but you ain't said your own nephew. Hey, that's your own nephew, or that's the nearest shit I've ever seen. Somebody paid that.
SPEAKER_06Follow regular like this, I can have regular interactions, regular interactions, you know what I'm saying.
SPEAKER_02I might see everyone is for entertainment, but I'm not about to be in nobody's comments talk about some happy birthday freaking.
SPEAKER_06No, I would now I have I have jumped in people's comments and say some funny shit. We can't jump in off the wall. Well, I will jump in your shit and say some funny shit off the dribble.
unknownThat's what I'm telling you.
SPEAKER_02You slow ass and get blocks.
unknownThat's why.
SPEAKER_02Yeah, you said mail that I do, like it just don't make sense. I'm just not with it. I can't, I cannot stand these celebrities now. If I seem I feel like since they led us into their lives, they need to go back and be celebrities, meaning nobody knows what you're doing. It's private with us being able to make it. And no, I don't like 90% of them. I can't stand now because it's like they mentally return. Well, that's good. Now we're gonna be looking and analyzing or whatever the people be doing. This motherfucker just was asking for money, and y'all want to go pay to see him. Ray J. I'm homeless. Help me, whatever he was saying.
SPEAKER_01Something wrong with him. Drugs, Bradis Brian, for sure.
SPEAKER_06Fuck it, man. Give my boy Ray J a couple dollars to go see him wish one time.
SPEAKER_02That's what I'm saying. But we're gonna pay all of this money to go, like even with the concerts and stuff, like everything just out of whack. Like they just made everything just now. Y'all just keep telling y'all Jesus is on his way back. That's why everything's being exposed. Come on, I mean, it's time to everything is open and static. We get to see these people for who they are. This is who this is who y'all listen to in the car, this is what we listen to on the radio.
SPEAKER_06See, but like this is what y'all uh I might have liked people like growing up, but I never analyzed them.
SPEAKER_02I never wanna, I never wanted to be. I never personally had posters on my mobile. In Usher, you see what I'm saying?
SPEAKER_06And that's him as a whole, kind of a person. I think that kind of better shit, though. Now, it might have fucked up society as far as like how people brain waves and what they act, what they what they what they goals and their visions is that, but you got to see because you used to see like Michael Jackson's and stuff like that, and you wouldn't even see none of their flaws. That's why you see superstar.
SPEAKER_03Now you see their flaws, yep.
SPEAKER_06But by you seeing their flaws, you supposed to use your common sense now. You see what I'm saying? To see that this ain't the type of person you thought it was. Exactly. Versus just going with the facade, like you know what I'm saying? Because it's a lot of the shit that you look up to, and a lot of the music that they putting out and stuff like that, and they don't live none of that shit.
SPEAKER_02No, but ain't that ain't that better though?
SPEAKER_06No, no, it was better when I thought that Michael Jackson was the man. That's how you know.
SPEAKER_02When you're talking about Santa Claus, you prefer people to be looking like Santa Claus.
SPEAKER_06Hell yeah, like make believe.
SPEAKER_02We all know that.
SPEAKER_06As a kid, I I wanted to believe Santa Claus was real. Like, I ain't want to run across the kids that knew Santa Claus was fake. You want to be you want to keep that innocence, so let me keep the it's just like with your woman. You know what I'm saying? Like, I don't really need to know your track record. I would like to if you told me, but I don't need to know it so I can keep this vision of you in my head. You an angel to me. Fuck what they're talking about. You see what I'm saying? Let me keep that ideology in my mind. Don't tell me your track record, and then I look at you different.
SPEAKER_03Like, that's my damn.
SPEAKER_02I mean, they just they showing you that they most definitely real people.
SPEAKER_06They going through ghetto drama ass shit.
SPEAKER_02I guess it depends on what they're going through that I appreciate. The the stuff Diddy got going on, but it's more bad shit.
SPEAKER_06It's more bad than social media than good. Like you never know.
SPEAKER_02But of course, social media gonna give you the bad.
SPEAKER_06We know that we that's what we run to for all television and shit.
SPEAKER_02These are all human people. They are, but I'm just saying it's showing you who they really are. So it's like, why would I spend my money with this person?
SPEAKER_01Why would I go to their concert or do any of they just humans?
SPEAKER_02They just people surviving. But I'm just yeah, I'm not supporting that. If you like that person in general, like people they go through. So, would so do y'all think if when Diddy come out and say he does a concert, is people gonna still go? I bet they will. I bet they will. That's what I mean. I would never that's what I mean by I like I appreciate it.
SPEAKER_06You think it's gonna be hard for Diddy to get people to come to the concert? They're gonna be waiting they're gonna be waiting for Diddy to get out to do more freak-offs because now oh they done figured out how to get around this shit.
SPEAKER_05Man, he's gonna be around this motherfucker.
SPEAKER_06See, he's gonna go down in history as an old ass man, and you ain't gonna see him no more, and he's gonna be having freak off Fridays like that. Hell yeah.
SPEAKER_02What's the old white man name? You have freaking. Hopefully. Don't get out.
SPEAKER_06He's gonna get out. They can't desire nobody.
SPEAKER_02He, I think so too. Yeah, they're gonna get out early.
unknownTwo and a half years, bro.
Money, Justice, And Power Imbalance
SPEAKER_06He already did like two. You see what I'm saying?
SPEAKER_02But if I go sell Coke to somebody that won't appreciate it, the law is not for coke being the same, I'm gonna get 50 years, right?
SPEAKER_06You are enterprise.
SPEAKER_02He goes give me baby oil with special magic potion in it that's gonna make me pass out, rape me, molest me, beat me, everything else, and he only get two years. Yeah, yeah. That's it.
SPEAKER_06That shit can't make that shit can't make no the government no money. But you go out this motherfucker and go do some shit that can make you some money, and you can enterprise, they gonna bam your ass. That's messed up, y'all.
SPEAKER_02We living good for no reason. I say that all the time. Like, uh no, I'm not not for no reason.
SPEAKER_06I mean, not for no reason, but like that's the most corrupt people got the best shit. Who? The most corrupt people got the best shit because they don't got no moral compass to get to it.
SPEAKER_02They don't care what you're doing. You know what? I think that that's that's yeah. They'll risk anything real. I'm so happy I don't love money like that. I never have I do not love money like that. As you get ordered, you realize that every that state is very, very good. People would do for some money, it's crazy. It is like the things that they'll do for some money because that's the reason why the internet's so out of control now, because they're paying for this negative content. So it's like, okay, they out here doing all like you you killed somebody on live. You ain't gonna get that check, stupid. This is wrong. Ugh. These people gotta get some hell they going on live doing all everything, like it's just sick.
SPEAKER_06I be wondering sometime when people go on live and do like crimes and shit like that. Do they be thinking, like, when I get out, you know what I'm saying? I'm probably gonna have like a Facebook check. Like, you know what I'm saying? Like, I'd psycho that everybody else gonna have one.
SPEAKER_02You saw that little that story about the 13-year-old girl on her birthday party or something? Did y'all see that? Oh my god, I didn't save it. Did you see that, Jason? Some 13-year-old girl just happened, I guess, about six, seven years ago. A 13-year-old girl, it's pictures of her party all over the place. When y'all get a chance to look it up, she had a birthday party, a sleepover, and like six other girls with her. And you see all their birthday party pictures and whatever, whatever, blah blah blah. Next morning, the girl woke up and all her friends were dead. Oh, yes, I did see that one. Everybody was dead except for everybody's dead except from carbon monoxide. So she came, she did a whole YouTube. She had a whole YouTube where she was talking about her surviving this, how sad she was and all that. But now evidence has come back up that she the one who didn't even found her diary that where she planned it and talked about which cut the eyes on and went in. And she did it because she wants to be famous. So this is how she became famous. And she did on YouTube became famous for this.
SPEAKER_06If I was a lawmaker, I probably I probably would be bad at that shit. Because I'm I'm kind of like eye for an eye. Like you go out and kill somebody, the damage that you do to their family, you're gonna be killing people ripping somebody. I might not kill you, but I gotta you gotta you can't just go in jail and just be well because it's a possibility that you could be a killer outside and go in jail and live a fabulous life and walk down 25 years and then have not a problem. Right. No, we gotta we gotta send you in that bitch up. You didn't you done kill some shit out here? We when we catch you, bro. We don't even need no mugshot. We're gonna send your ass to the back of the jail.
SPEAKER_02We I mean, but we can't even go off there no more because now we know the evidence, nothing don't mean nothing means nothing.
SPEAKER_06And they when they shoot that police office.
SPEAKER_02You know, yeah, that's how it works.
SPEAKER_06I'm talking about the shit that we see, like when you see some wild shit. Like, all right, I say some crazy shit. Like a guy cut this guy's head off, right? And walked down the street, dropped a guy's head in the in the garbage can, and they just police just arrested him regularly. Like, all right, we're gonna put you in here because they should have executed dog, you know, and killed my man in front of his family.
SPEAKER_02That's some sick shit. People are crazy. Well, I'm so sorry, y'all. We can finna cut us off because we know we can go for a very long time. Thanks for tuning in with us tonight, and happy new year, merry Christmas, and we'll see y'all next year. Oh, it's next year when we back, yes, ma'am. Oh, right. Yes, 2026. We come back. We didn't even do our kind of New Year's resolutions. We didn't, but it's okay because I'm gonna I want y'all to we're gonna do it. I'll see I'll text y'all what I need from y'all. Yes, but uh yeah, thank y'all for tuning in. See ya good night. Good night, good night.