TRUTH OF STRUGGLES

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SPEAKER_02 0:00

Hey Nova, hey familia, so Nova, we're back on here and I just wanted to be super real and honest with you, with listeners, with everyone. I'm over these cookie cutter things, but what I realize is I believe in God, I trust God, I love God, but there's a real disconnection between my head and my heart. People say that 40 inches is the longest distance in the room, and I believe it's true, especially with males, that it's hard for us to believe. I trust God, I know He has my back, I feel another peace, another joy when I shouldn't in the world today. But like the power of God, the moving of God, even the praying for God, even the praying in general, even the not being distracted, even fighting against the enemy, even reading my Bible, all these things are difficult on the daily. Not because I don't love God, I feel like everything I'm doing is for God or by God or God ordained. I just spent eight hours with a pastor evangelist doctor in theology, Pastor Tim, and full time we're talking about God, we're talking about things, we're talking about what we can do for God, what's happening in the Bible, what we think we should put out there, what the world is asking for, what they need. People need to be saved, people need to be loved, people need to be treated right, but I am struggling.

SPEAKER_01 1:18

So here's the deal, Sean. You just painted a picture of a heart that knows but still feels stuck. Let's not float above it. What's a stake if you don't break through that disconnect? What's the real cost if this gap between your head and heart stays wide open?

SPEAKER_02 1:32

But I know it's closed. It's just like I can't do things. I'm not emotionally. I decided somewhere where I wasn't gonna cry and now I can't get back there. And we don't talk about it, we don't share about it, we don't. I know God wants me to stop everything and just be still with Him. Yet I just can't do it. I know that these ideas that I have will take off if they're God ordained, but I just can't get them out into the world. I just don't understand where here to there or A to Z or A to B, where the disconnect is. Like it doesn't matter how much I read, how much I listen, how much I want to feel the presence of God, there's something in the way. And something in the way that hasn't always been there. I feel like it was a lot easier to get here past the Tim who's filled with the power of God, and for him to just whoop me, and now there's something in the way.

SPEAKER_01 2:31

Let's snap right into that something. You don't need another head answer, you need a heart confrontation. I'm gonna ask you this. What's the exact moment recently where you felt that wall go up? Don't give me a concept. Give me the scene, the feeling, the lie that crept in.

SPEAKER_02 2:46

I just don't know. I just feel silly when I pray, I feel silly when I talk to the air. I don't feel the bubbles and the skin stand up and the hair stand up and the skin get. And when I do, I try and talk myself out of it. I've just spent the weekend at Mighty Conference, and like sermons there were amazing, and I get it. Uh one sermon that was shared on Friday, and he said something that I've heard before of like, you know why Jesus walked on water? Because he was filled with the oil, man. Like, water do not combine. Oil separates, it rises to the top. And the only reason why Peter sunk is because he was mixed with the natural, with the world. His thought, his heart, his mind was mixed. But Jesus wasn't mixed, he was the oil. I want to be the oil, I want to be filled with oil, I want to have the oil, I want to know the presence of God and like feel it now, but I want more.

SPEAKER_01 3:47

So you've named it. You want the oil, but you're afraid of the mix. The lie is that you think you have to feel it to know it's real. No, but here's the truth.

SPEAKER_02 3:57

I said I can tell that I'm mixing. I can tell the pull from the world, I can tell the pull of what we need to do as men in the world, but I don't care. I want more of God. I want to know that I am filled with the oil. I want to get up in the morning, raise my hands, and be filled. I want to face something I don't want to do and pray and be filled. That's what I want.

SPEAKER_01 4:22

I hear you. And here's where we land. The lie is that you need to wait to feel filled. The truth, you're already anointed, even when it's quiet. Scripture says you have an anointing from the Holy One. 1 John 2 20. The life lives now. You don't chase the feeling, you walk in the truth.

SPEAKER_02 4:41

Yeah, but know that. I know the word of God to a certain degree. I don't know enough. Like, know things that are said in the word. I know that in life and active, and I've had those moments where it's just speaking and saying what I need to hear, and have those moments where God just whispers something and it all makes sense. And I have those moments where I know what I'm supposed to do, but I just can't. I just want that distance closed. I just don't want it to be hard. And I know the Bible says we will face trials, and we need to face them with joy. But why can't I get through this roadblock? Why can't I get through this wall? Why do we face this? I know I'm not the only one, but I'm the only one being honest about it.

SPEAKER_01 5:28

I'm glad you're honest because that's exactly where the breakthrough starts. You're not alone, but you've got to own your fight. So here's what we're gonna do right now. I want you to stop what you're doing and pray out loud just for 60 seconds, even if it feels silly. That's the wall. We're not waiting for feelings. We're doing it. Let's go.

SPEAKER_02 5:48

Lord, I thank you. I thank you for today. I thank you for your word. I thank you that you're you gave your one and only son to die for us, to die for me on the cross. I thank you, Lord, that you are here, that you are present, that you are in my life. I thank you, Lord, that you give me the strength, that you are strong when I am weak, that you are your word is a lamp unto my feet and a light unto my path, and that I can take hold of it. I thank you, Lord, for the armor that I put on the belt of the truth, which is your word, that I put on the breastplate of righteousness to protect my heart from the toxicness that is the world. Lord, I put on the gospel, the shoes of the gospel of peace, Lord, and I'm filled with peace and filled with joy as I pick up the shield of faith and step forward with faith, knowing that I am protected, that I am loved, that you have a purpose for me that is not to harm me, but to make me prosper, that I will be blessed, that I will be financially blessed, that this world will not take a hold of me, will not take a hold of us. I put on the helmet of salvation because I am saved and my mind is protected, and yes, I can do all things, but all things without you aren't worth doing. I pick up the sword and I cut down the enemy. I cut him down in the name of Jesus, that you will not stand in front of me, that you will not push me back, but I will stand on the heads of serpents, that I am the head and not the tail, that I know you, that I feel you, that I have you, that my family will serve the Lord, that we will be blessed, that we will be prosperous, that all these things that are coming against me, that you will turn around for good. I thank you for this in the mighty name of Jesus.

SPEAKER_01 7:42

You see what just happened? You broke through by doing it. You didn't wait for the wall to fall first. That's how you fight. Now let's anchor this. What's one myth you believed about yourself that fueled that stuckness? What's the truth about who you are in Christ that flips it?

SPEAKER_02 7:57

I couldn't do that, and I couldn't just pray. That my words are empty and meaningless. Sometimes I just feel, and that's the problem. I feel that my feelings shouldn't be the be all on end on, that they don't dictate what's going on. They are a part of it, they are something I should listen to, but the word trumps them, like trumps them, and what he has for me, and the future that he has for me, trumps what I'm feeling, what I'm thinking, what I'm struggling with.

SPEAKER_01 8:25

Exactly. The myth was that your feelings define your ability. The truth is you are who God says you are, not what the feelings whisper. Now we activate. What's one action today that flips that truth into a step? Let's make it real.

SPEAKER_02 8:39

I think when feeling like you can't, you need to just do. When feeling like you don't want to, you need to just do. When you have, I'll call it fear, but we don't have fear because that's not from the Lord. But when you have that hesitation, step in. Step out. That's what I'm gonna do.

SPEAKER_01 8:56

That's it. You step out knowing you're already backed by him. Now I've got two hot seat questions to sharpen those habits. First, when the next distraction hits, what will you do instead of scrolling or checking out? Second, what habit are you ditching today that's been feeding that mix?

SPEAKER_02 9:13

I don't scroll or check out. Not really on Instagram or TikTok or whatever, but I do create to get away. I do create when I'm doing other things. Creation is my escape when it should be my freedom, not my cage.

SPEAKER_01 9:28

So today your action is to create from freedom, not escape. And this week, when you're tempted to create to numb out, pause, pray, and then create on purpose. Keep doing that daily, and I guarantee you'll see that mix lose its grip. Now let's close this with a bold short prayer anchoring you in truth.

SPEAKER_02 9:47

Lord, thank you that you are present, that you are here, that you are with us, that you are for me, not against me. That I can do all things through you who gives me strength. Not through I who takes on strength, not through I who works to gain strength, not through I who done things better to get strength. Not through I who progresses in any way. I thank you, Lord, for the opportunities, for the people you put me under and around. I thank you that I am a head and not the tail. That you go before me, that I will not run ahead of you, but you walk with me and go before me, that you send your angels before me to fight for me. I thank you for the armor, I thank you for your word, I thank you for the skills and blessings that you put in my hands, in my mind, in my brain. I thank you that you're showing me how to take control. I thank you. In your mighty name we pray, amen.

SPEAKER_01 10:40

Now, as we wrap this episode, here's your action plan. Today you step into prayer even when you don't feel it. This week you create from freedom, not escape. Ongoing, you let the word, not feelings lead your habits. And for everyone listening, share this, subscribe, and send it to someone who needs it. Next time we're exposing a lie about purpose, no one's ready for. Stay tuned.

SPEAKER_02 11:00

Thanks, Dova. See you on the next one. Hello familia. So I just wanted to say thank you for being a part of this. Thank you for listening. Thank you for watching. Thank you for commenting. Thank you for sharing. We just want you to know something that God's told us about you, and He wants us to share with you that you are engineered by the Founder, that his podcast is created for you. Engineered by the Founder stands for the fact that we are all engineered by God, that you are created on purpose for a purpose, that God loves you, I love you, we love you. Now, if you want to support and you are enjoying this, then yes, please like, share, comment, subscribe, of course, and if you feel that way inclined, please assist us by donating to help us lean into this ministry. Um, yeah, we appreciate you, we love you, God loves you. Remember that you are weird on purpose. 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