you deserve good things !!

Welcome back to the Vulnerability is Cool podcast—recording live from Bali, baby. This episode is all about choosing yourself, fully, unapologetically, and without waiting for permission. We dive into what it really means to believe that you are highly favored, by the universe, by life itself. It’s not about luck; it’s about stepping into the energy that everything is working for you, not against you.

I talk about:
How growing up Mormon made me believe I was "highly favored of the Lord"—and why I still carry that belief, just in a whole new way
What it’s been like starting my yoga teacher training in the Bali jungle (yes, it’s magical)
Reprogramming the mind to stop expecting the worst and start calling in actual good things
Why stepping into your power isn’t just a mindset shift—it’s a whole new way of moving through life

And honestly? This episode is your sign. Stop waiting. Stop shrinking. Stop doubting if the life you want is meant for you. It is. But you have to choose it.

Book I mentioned: A New Earth by Eckhart Tolle

@vulnerabilityiscool
@jennajarvisjarvis
vulnerabilityiscool.com

Thank you for listening, ily
xoxo

Transcript

 Welcome back to the Vulnerability is Cool Podcast. I'm your host, Jenna Jarvis. And Today is wild because we are recording from Bali at the house of OM. I am doing my yoga teacher training, certification here, which I'm hyped about. Today was our second full day, which literally you wake up at 5. 30 and you go all day. Literally all day. From studying anatomy, to doing different meditations, to different forms of yoga, There's a couple meals mixed in there, but like literally go go go all day And I actually set up this whole podcast equipment and everything up in a shala literally in the jungle like the background was Gonna be the jungle and I was so excited and then I just ran out of time and I couldn't record my episode up there.

So the next episode I'm going to do, and you guys are going to be like, Holy shit. Because every time I go up there, I'm like, holy shit. And there was like several different locations that you could choose with House of OM. And I chose the one in the jungle. And I actually didn't even know there was multiple locations.

And once I figured out that I chose the one in the jungle, I was kind of sad. Because it's away from the main cities. But, now that I'm here, I'm like, thank God. Cause I'm just so far away from everything and there's like 65 people in our group. There's 64 girls and one guy and it's just so fun cause there's people here from everywhere.

Like literally everywhere. Tonight I had dinner with a girl from Switzerland, a girl from Spain, a girl from Germany. The guy next to me is from the States. And it's so funny because the more that I'm around them, I feel like I am like picking up on all these different accents that I'm starting to think in different accents. It's so funny

and the craziest thing about this certification is that I've wanted to do this since I was literally 14. I started going and doing Bikram yoga when I was 14. So it's like hot yoga, 26 postures. It's pretty intense and I just loved it. And ever since then I've wanted to do it. And I've always been in like the wellness space.

And so finally here I am. And I'm just making little Jenna's dreams come true. And I don't know if I'll end up like teaching yoga. I know I'll for sure teach it at my retreats and my workshops, my online community and all those things. Maybe little pop ins at different studios or something.

We'll see. Stay tuned. The other exciting thing is that my ticket back to the States is literally not until the end of April, beginning of May. And so once this certification is done, I'm going to stay in Bali and just keep working on my business, working on myself, applying all the things that I've learned. And yeah, I'm just in a whole new era of Jenna Jarvis and it's really freaking exciting.

the focus of today's episode is that you deserve good things. Because I literally never thought in my life that I'd actually come to Bali and do my yoga certification. But things just worked out. Last year, I'm sure I talked about this in another episode, but like last year I just kept feeling like, in February I'm gonna go to Bali, in February I'm gonna go to Bali.

And I just knew I wanted to get my yoga certification, even if I don't teach it, I just wanted to get it. I've also felt in my life like I just need another thing to push me to grow. And, I literally hated school. And so Learning anatomy out here is not, not really my favorite thing in the world, but it's pushing me so much, and just learning about the body, and like, all these different words that they use in yoga and meditation, it's really, really pushing me, so I'm really hyped.

And I'm excited to apply everything that I'm learning into my literal business that I already have. So, anyways, back to the topic, that you deserve good things.

And you deserve to choose yourself truly, fully, unapologetically, and completely choose yourself because as time goes on and as I get older, I just realized that I feel like the universe or God is like pushing me to do something and I know exactly what it wants me to do, but I'll stray away from it.

And I'm reading a new earth by Eckhart Tolle right now. And it is so fricking good. And it's all about kind of like releasing the ego and. There was a part that I really loved and it said Everything that comes in your life is for a reason. It's like the universe is trying to teach you. And sometimes we're like, Why am I experiencing this exact thing right now?

But it's exactly what we need. And I think that's so beautiful. And the more that I believe that, the more that I see that to be true in my life. And the more that I'm able to accept things and let go of things. It's hard, but it's good. And I feel like the less we resist change and becoming who we truly want to become and who we truly need to become, the easier things get.

Something else that I want to touch on this episode is. The fact that, growing up Mormon, I was taught that I was highly favored of the Lord. I was so special to receive the gospel. I was so special to be raised Mormon and to be born into the true church, the one true church of God. And I just It's crazy because since I've left, actually my friend Summer brought this up to me, she like explained this to me, she's like, I'm so grateful that I grew up believing I was highly favored of the Lord.

And growing up Mormon, you really do believe you're highly favored of the Lord. God chose you over all the millions and millions of other people in the world to be Mormons so that you could share the gospel. And I don't believe that anymore, but something that has stuck with me is that I am highly favored of the Lord.

And I really think that's so beautiful because I just believe that like good things are meant to happen to me. And now I realize that everyone is highly favored of the Lord or of the universe. And like, all it really takes is us believing that is what I truly believe.

I'm so grateful that I was raised that way. And that belief is just instilled in me because I now want to help other people understand that, they are highly favored of the universe, that things are supposed to work out for them and beautiful things are going to happen to them. They just have to allow it and they have to call it in and receive it. And when we truly believe that everything is working in our favor, that things aren't working against us, but they're working for us, I believe that everything just truly comes into alignment and things just start shifting for you. And the more that you trust it, the more that it happens. I think growing up with OCD and kind of in a, You know traumatic upbringing or all that whatever all the things I am just so prone to believe that Bad things are supposed to happen.

I'm always, especially with OCD, looking for the next thing that's going to hurt me. I'm always trying to protect myself and dah, dah, dah. So I'm constantly almost manifesting the bad, but as I've realized that and I've shifted my mindset, I truly have manifested so much good into my life.

Like the fact that I'm living in Bali after this, that's insane. I never would have thought that would have happened. And it all just happened so quick. And it happened because I truly believed it and I felt called to it. So I did something about it.

And I feel like the premise of all of it was just Honestly, choosing myself and deciding that I deserve good things and that I deserve to progress and that I deserve to experience the goodness of the world and experience all the things that I've truly desired since I was a little girl.

And choosing ourselves always sounds so simple.

But it's really not that easy. It is so hard, but the more that you do it, the easier it gets.

Because sometimes it's choosing to walk away from things that no longer serve you. And things that are so comfortable, but that are not healthy for you.

Even talking about it makes me want to cry, because it's so hard. It really is so hard. But, I almost, I try to view things as like a game. Like sometimes I'm just, especially here, I'm like meditating all day. I'm just thinking and I'm like Okay, like what's the next part of this game that I'm playing of this life because truly I have no idea where we go What's going on?

Like why we're here and I try to make sense of all of it But really I have no idea so I try to view it as a little game and I'm like, hey What's the next step in my game? And also as I'm reading this book a new earth by Eckhart Tolle It's literally so good. Everyone needs to read it, but it's all about letting go of the ego.

Oh my there's a little lizard Cute um, but hopefully it doesn't come into my bed. It's scary. But, it's releasing the idea that, you have claim over all these different things in your life. The chapter that I'm reading right now is talking a lot about death and how this woman is passing away and, she thought she got a ring stolen from her bedroom and she was freaking out.

And, Eckhart Tolle, who's the author, was with this woman and he was, asking her these questions that were really interesting. I'm actually going to get my book.

Okay. The questions that he asked her, which I really, really liked, were,

So this woman was like on her deathbed too. And he asked her, do you realize that you will have to let go of the ring at some point, perhaps quite soon? How much more time do you need before you will be ready to let go of it?

Will you become less when you let go of it? Has who you are become diminished by the loss? And I really love this because this could relate to so many things, whether it's a relationship, whether it's, you know, losing a game or whatever, the question especially will you become less when you let go of it has who you are become diminished by the loss and then he goes on to talk about like the joy of being there's so much joy in just being and not having claim over Everything and everyone and all these things and just being who you are And he said, you can only feel it when you get out of your head, being must be felt. I'm so happy I'm reading this book while I'm here doing this yoga certification because I'm so in my body and connecting with my body and calming my mind every day.

And it's totally helped me just remember that the only thing I have control over is myself. And that's all I want to have control over in my life. And I think a huge part of coming home to yourself and choosing yourself is letting go of your ego. I highly recommend everybody go read it. I'll link it below. For me, choosing myself has looked like letting go of relationships that weren't serving me maybe putting myself in situations that aren't super comfortable for me, my last episode, I talked about that I'm in my uncomfortable era because what's comfortable for me is not healthy. And so for me, it looks like getting uncomfortable and really pushing myself. And even in this yoga certification, I'm like, Oh damn, I don't really need to force myself to learn all of this, but I'm like, I'm going to because it's, I'm just expanding my mind and learning and it's beautiful.

It's also scary like being here without my family and my friends and like the people that I'm so close with because I went to Europe for four months and when I left for Europe it was so fun and so exciting, but I really was kind of trying to escape my life. I'd gone through breakup and I was like, I just want to get out of here.

Whereas this time when I was leaving to go to Bali, I was so comfortable in Utah. I just felt so happy. I was really nervous to leave. And so this time it's more uncomfortable because I don't know anyone here.

I'm just going to be solo and figuring myself out and really going inward and trying to change my habits. And it's exciting because I really just get to be whoever I want to be here. But it's also. Scary and hard, I know it's pushing me to become the best version of myself and to truly choose myself.

I think essentially choosing yourself is leaving behind a version of you that no longer serves you. Not fully just looking outward at everything you're letting go of, but also a version of you that you have to let go of.

Recently, too, I've just been noticing how I'm spending my energy. If I'm spending my energy in all the wrong places, there's no room for the right things to come into my life. And as uncomfortable as it is to let go of these, things that aren't serving me, But that I'm so comfortable doing, it's been so powerful.

It's like, push those things aside, even just like little things like scrolling, tick talk, or scrolling away too much on Instagram. Like I've been so busy as I've been traveling the past couple of weeks that I haven't been able to do that. And I've just been filling my time with better things. For example, recording this podcast episode instead of scrolling or doing these things, because I want to stick to my goals and I want to become that version of me.

I'm getting to the point where I want to fully reprogram my mind and my body to trust my intuition and to really trust the feelings that I feel and to just follow what I know is right because For a long time, especially growing up in the church, like you're supposed to listen to everybody else.

You're supposed to ask permission for everything and only do this, this, this, and this. And it has to be like, according to this guidebook, it's so exciting coming out and just having your own guidebook and deciding what you want to do. I think it's for me personally, the way that I am able to really reach my full potential.

So like I said, growing up Mormon, there was this idea that I was like highly favorite of the Lord.

And even though my spirituality has changed and I no longer consider myself religious, that belief and that energy has fully stuck with me. I truly do feel so, so special and so cared for by God or the universe or whatever it is, especially with the way I was raised and where I come from and like the different trauma I've experienced.

I'm just like, I don't know how I got through it. I don't know how I got so blessed to go do ayahuasca or, go to Europe for four months or have the job that I do and the company that I do. And I really just feel so blessed and highly favored. And there's been so many shitty things that I could focus on, but I'm focusing on those good things.

I'm like, holy shit, I'm so favored of the Lord or the universe or whatever it is.

And it really is so beautiful to just believe that everything is working out for you. Every little thing. The good, the bad, the ugly. Every little thing is working out for you.

Imagine walking through your entire life and just seeing everything as a blessing or a lesson.

That every opportunity, every moment, good or bad.

Is setting you up for something greater.

That's how I'm fully trying to live my life now. And not in like a delusional way, but in a way that makes me move differently in my life. Because when you know that you're made for something bigger, You will move different.

And maybe not even know, but when you believe that you are made for something greater, then you truly, you just move different and things in your life will shift.

You stop playing small, you stop waiting for permission, you stop waiting for the universe to confirm things for you.

And you just start moving like the person that you truly want to become.

I think it would be so beautiful if everybody could truly believe that they are highly favored. And if they could focus on all the good things. And if we all did that, and even without us all doing that, it's crazy how different everyone is to the point that it kind of makes us all the same, which

We're all so different. We're all so unique. It's crazy that each of us have a brain and a body and we all move so differently and we have different routines and everybody's so different. So mother freaking different that it makes us truly all the same.

And it just connects us so much and we all just think we're so different. We're alone, but we all think that. So literally none of us are alone.

We all, we all have these different quirks, these different beliefs, these different experiences, traumas, you name it, all the things.

But at the end of the day, we're all just humans trying to figure it out.

And I think that the world or religion or friends or literally whatever it is, tries to convince us that we have to be enough.

But what if we all just decided that we are enough exactly the way that we are?

This current, precious, beautiful version of you is perfect just the way they are.

And that you are already highly favored and that you already deserve good things. And you don't need to do the next thing to deserve the next good thing. You just need to be you because you're already so deserving.

And I, I truly believe to my core that your dreams and your desires and your goals It's all divine.

This vision that you have for your life, you have it for a reason, and I believe that it's meant for you.

So when are we going to stop questioning if these things are meant for us?

When are you going to start embracing this life and embracing all the goodness that is trying to come in?

That's when we stop seeking all this external validation.

That's when we stop shrinking, and that's when we finally start living.

That's when we book our flight to Bali. That's when we get married. That's when we text our crush. That's when we let go of that toxic relationship. That's when we finally start choosing ourselves. Because we know that there's no reason to do anything else.

I just want you to leave this episode knowing that you are worth so much more than you realize. More than we could ever fully realize

that you are allowed to take up space because there is already space for you and there will always be space for you

that you are divinely motherfucking favored. Okay.

And that nothing about you is a mistake or ever has been a mistake.

So, if you've been waiting for a sign to choose yourself, to trust yourself, to bet on yourself,

this is it.

So, please, stop being small.

Stop waiting for life to hand you permission.

Because the second you decide to step into your power, I promise you, everything will shift. The universe is working for you, and not against you. I can't even explain to you how excited about life I feel lately and how passionate I am about stepping into your power and really choosing yourself. There's been so many times that I am choosing myself and I'm thriving and I'm so excited.

And there's been times that I'm not choosing myself. But I think as I've gotten older and I'm coming closer and closer to who I truly am, the ebbs and the flows aren't as big. And I'm able to just come closer and closer to where I want to be. And it's crazy how much time we can just waste doing the wrong things.

And then when we finally choose ourselves and we finally do the thing that we know we needed to do, we're just like, holy shit, why didn't I do this sooner? The way that I wish I moved to Bali five years ago. But it's fine. It's fine. I am here now, and I'm so excited to be here. I do believe everything happens for a reason and everything really just worked out like I'm so grateful I feel like this is the perfect time for me to be here and Just everything like even the people I'm here with at this yoga retreat.

I am obsessed with them They're so fun. The instructors are so fun. I feel so safe and things just work out Things are still even a little scary for me. I don't really know what the future holds, at all. But, i'm so trusting, because everything up until this point has always worked out.

And I believe that it always will. And, I just love you guys so much. And I'm so excited to share all that I'm learning with yoga. I'm gonna do some vlogs, and show you guys this amazing jungle. And The magic of Bali, I am not kidding you. The energy here is different. It is, sacred. I feel like I'm microdosing mushrooms.

And I just, like, feel so connected to the earth. And I'm not, because mushrooms are illegal here. You literally could get the death penalty if you bring them. So, I'm not doing that here. You can't even smoke weed. So, Sober Queen, right here. And Everything just feels so sacred. It is truly just a sacred energy and the people here are so respectful.

I've been to a lot of countries that I just didn't feel very safe in. And I just kind of felt like people were like cat calling me or I don't know, I just felt super uncomfortable here. I feel so safe, so safe, so, so, so, so safe. It's crazy. And everyone here is so respectful. I just wasn't expecting that because other places I'd been to it wasn't that way, but it's so safe here.

So Yeah, that's exciting. I'm so tired too because I literally woke up at 5 30 and now it's 9 p. m I've just been going all day, I have so much to share so much to come and The community, the vulnerability school community. I'm working on the courses right now and all the things and we launched it, but then I didn't, I'm so all or nothing.

And I just want to make it literally the best thing in the whole world. But I know that I need to just like fully launch it so everyone can join and we can start this fun community. But yeah, stay tuned on that. Anyways, I have to edit this episode now, and then I'm going to post it tonight. So that it's, because tonight, right now, it's like 9pm, but in Utah it's like 6am.

So, by the time I post it, hopefully it's like 8am in Utah. Mountain Standard Time. Stay tuned. Uh, I just love you guys so much. Thank you so much for listening and supporting me. Whoever you are, whether you're literally my best friend, my dad, or some Person I don't even know or someone that comes to my events or whoever you are.

I'm just grateful you're here. And I truly do believe that you are highly favored of the universe and that everything is going to work out for you and that you are so divine and you are meant to be here. It's making me emotional, I just truly do believe it and I hope that you can learn to believe that too.

That you are highly favored and that you are so special and that you deserve all the good things that come your way and that are coming your way. And I hope that you will accept them into your life. And if I could have everyone in the world understand one thing, it would be that. That you are highly favored of the universe and that you are such a  📍 divine being with such a divine purpose.

There's so much to come, as always, and I love you so much, whoever you are. I freaking love you, and if you ever need a friend, you've got a friend in me. Those are all the things. I feel like there's something else I wanted to talk about, but I literally can't remember, so. In the name of vulnerability, amen.