This One Time...

Boundaries are crossed and consequences follow when Nicole punches Mike during a heated argument. What starts as an impulsive act of violence quickly spirals into a complex exploration of accountability, punishment, and the delicate balance of power within their relationship.

The morning after finds Nicole facing a remorseful reality—Mike's eye sporting a deep purple bruise and their dynamic fundamentally altered. Rather than responding with equivalent violence, Mike crafts a punishment targeting Nicole's specific vulnerabilities: social isolation and sensory deprivation.

This episode doesn't shy away from difficult conversations about consent and anger during intimate encounters. Mike acknowledges his own failing in engaging sexually while genuinely angry, creating a nuanced discussion about the distinction between role-playing anger and genuine emotion during BDSM scenarios. Their frank dialogue reveals both characters' awareness of their responsibilities within their dynamic, even as Nicole maintains her characteristic brattiness despite the serious transgression.

What makes this story compelling is how it refuses to romanticize violence or minimize its impact. The punishment isn't sexualized or easily dismissed—it genuinely affects Nicole emotionally and forces her to confront her actions. Yet even in this painful aftermath, their connection deepens through vulnerability and accountability, culminating in Mike allowing Nicole to choose her own funishment for a previous infraction.

A thoughtful exploration of consequences, forgiveness, and the complex power dynamics that define their relationship, this episode walks the delicate line between fantasy and responsibility, reminding listeners that even fictional explorations of kink require clear boundaries and mutual respect.

Chapters

• 0:00 Disclaimers
• 0:44 Welcome Back To Unruly Confessions
• 2:29 Arabella Recaps Reasonably Well
• 7:54 Consensual Non-Consent Warning
• 9:35 The Fallout (Consensual Non-Consent)
• 13:50 The Aftermath
• 48:19 The Surprise Apology
• 55:15 Definitely NOT A Funishment!
• 1:10:28 Forgiveness
• 1:17:18 See You Next Week!

Transcript

0:00

Unruly Confessions Ep 16 – This one time…

Arabella: 0:03

The following podcast contains adult themes, graphic sexual content, strong language, alcohol and drug references, and some infrequent violence. Everything you need for a wild ride.

Nicole: 0:05

The Band we have created for the podcast was inspired by many of our favourite bands, but they are all made up and fictional and most of the events are fictional too. Some of the events are inspired by things Bella and I have experienced, but the story as a whole is fictional.(Podcast theme music plays – Rat Head by Big Mouse Tree House) Welcome back to Unruly Confessions. I am Nicole and this is

Arabella: 0:10

Arabella. Hi guys.

Nicole: 0:12

Hello everybody, how are you doing? As always, we're very happy to be here, and welcome to Episode 16. This one time

Arabella: 0:14

Indeed it is, indeed, indeed, indeedee

Nicole: 0:16

And we'll let you finish the rest of that in your head. If you're a millennial, you probably know what we're talking about um

Arabella: 0:18

Ooooo yeah

Nicole: 0:20

Yeah. So last week, holy bugger! We left you

Arabella: 0:22

Yeah. Oooooooooooooooo (High pitched)

Nicole: 0:24

On a very high cliff

Arabella: 0:26

A ve, uh, dangling, very precariously

Nicole: 0:28

Yeah

Arabella: 0:30

Off a cliff

Nicole: 0:32

Very, very precariously like we

Arabella: 0:34

Like, like you know, there's like crocodiles underneath and shark infested waters with crocodiles that, they, they've mutated to two things

Nicole: 0:36

Wow

Arabella: 0:38

Yeah.

Nicole: 0:40

Yeah, can you tell

Arabella: 0:42

That’s the danger.

Nicole: 0:44

Can you tell that everything we do in this podcast is improvised around the story? Because what was that, Bella?(Nicole laughs hysterically)

Arabella: 0:47

I don't know, but it's happening.

Nicole: 0:49

It's very good.

Arabella: 0:51

It is happening.

Nicole: 0:53

Well, I hope you guys have a little bit of butterflies in your stomach for what's about to happen. I certainly do.(Arabella lets a giggle of joy escape) But that's mostly because I'm the one who shat the bed.

Arabella: 0:57

Yes, you did

Nicole: 0:59

Reminding you what happened last week, here is Arabella doing what she does best

Arabella: 1:01

I wouldn't necessarily say best, but okay

Nicole: 1:03

Okay

Arabella: 1:05

Last week

Nicole: 1:07

Bella wants me to be incredibly specific, apparently, and not give her great compliments,

Arabella: 1:09

Noooo

Nicole: 1:11

So, I'll say

Arabella: 1:13

I love you. Thank you.

Nicole: 1:15

Here is Arabella doing what she does reasonably well.(Both burst out laughing weirdly)

Arabella: 1:18

Last week, on Unruly Confessions, Nicole and Mike shared an intimate morning together, right up until Nicky lowered the tone by asking Mike why he never (Arabella blows a raspberry).

Nicole: 1:20

That's it, why he never (Nicole blows a raspberry)?(Nicole wheezes a laugh)

Arabella: 1:23

Yes, why he never farts. You know, she's got the big questions going here, guys.(Nicole laughs out loud) She wants to know the real big questions.

Nicole: 1:27

Let me get to know you.(Both laughing) Sorry.

Arabella: 1:31

Tell me about your farting habits.(More laughter) Mike also offered her a get out of jail free card only for minor offences. No big rule breaking or fucking others, Nicole. No, fucking others.

Nicole: 1:35

I haven't

Arabella: 1:37

I know you haven't, but I know what you’re like. But she got this for helping with the photo shoot and generally being like… telling him things which she didn't deserve, as she still hadn't told him about the sleepover with Jay. But don't you worry, guys, she told him about Carter's erection like it was the most important thing in the world.

Nicole: 1:39

Yeah, sorry

Arabella: 1:41

Yeah. Not the thing you're supposed to be confessing to.

Nicole: 1:43

No.

Arabella: 1:45

Ya moose.

Nicole: 1:47

Moose, definite mooseage.

Arabella: 1:49

Then Zander and I had the quickest of quickies, thanks to Nicole's stellar writing skills when it comes to Zander.

Nicole: 1:51

Mmm

Arabella: 1:53

Then he casually drops the question about how many exes I've had. Really, does he need to know yet? We've only just started this. I mean, come on

Nicole: 1:55

He's curious.

Arabella: 1:57

It. Yeah. Oh, and he reminded me about my punishment waiting to come before he left the suite, leaving me gagging.

Nicole: 1:59

Yep

Arabella: 2:01

Yes

Nicole: 2:03

He's good at that.

Arabella: 2:05

Yes, he is. He knows how to exit.

Nicole: 2:07

He does

Arabella: 2:09

Oooof(Nicole chuckles) And I do love watching him walk away. Ha haaaa(Nicolle laughs) Nicky asked the guys to watch the gig from the crowd, which Mike finally agrees to, but not before gaffer taping her phone to her arm. Limiting her bullshit. Always necessary.(Nicole chuckles) As she heads out, Jay comes after and gives her two hours to tell Mike about the sleepover before he does. In her panic to get away, she forgets to collect her backstage pass.(Nicole hmms in agreement) Nicole then waxes lyrical about seeing the show as a normal fan from the front, and then afterwards she's heading back to the stage door, Timothy Fucking Carter appears(Nicole hmms darkly) to talk to her and as she tries to get away. She literally walks off at one point during the centre, during the middle of the conversation. She's like no, no, out, I go

Nicole: 2:21

I do.

Arabella: 2:23

And he, he, he keeps pursuing her(Nicole huffs a laugh) and she gets defensive and tries to not say anything because she doesn't want to give anything away. And then he says something. She snaps and then she gives him too much information. She's like “Fuuuuuck”. And then

Nicole: 2:27

Uh huh (Noise of agreement)

Arabella: 2:29

Yeah, once finally at the stage door, she realises she has indeed forgotten her pass. She tries calling around for someone and when she finally gets hold of me, she finds out that Jay has told Mike and he is pissed and won't come to get her.

Nicole: 2:31

Yep, that checks out.

Arabella: 2:33

While she's waiting to be let in, feeling very sorry for herself, Carter suddenly arrives at the door to bring her in.

Nicole: 2:35

Aww

Arabella: 2:37

As they approach the green room, Nicky learns from me that Mike isn't in there, so she bundles in and has a bit of banter with the boys and then asks how pissed Mike is, who happens to be standing right behind her. Super pissed! (Said with emphasis)(Nicole snorts a laugh) They argue, until Mike finds out that she was crying about Jay's accident. Bottom line, though, if she lies again, she's off the tour. Before getting back on the bus, Jay makes it clear to Nicky that he's going to have to keep his distance from her, as she's made it very difficult for them to be friends. This in turn makes Nicole very quiet on the way back to the hotel. When, in the lift she hugs a surprised Carter, and then Zander and Noah, she spends a little bit too long thinking about if she should hug Jay. Sensing this, he tells her to not even think about it. I then cuddle her and soothe and whisper that it'll all be okay, because you know, like a bestie does, Mike then jokes about where his hug is, to which, thank God for good timing, she walks out of the lift straight to the door, ignoring him.

Nicole: 2:42

Ughhhnnn (noise of uncomfortableness) Okay.

Arabella: 2:45

Once in their suite, Mike and Nicole argue, which climaxes as Mike says Jay can't take her seriously due to her fangirling and before she even knows it, she punches him right in the face.

Nicole: 2:47

Yeahhh (Grimacingly)

Arabella: 2:49

Ohhh shiiiit. So, now get ready for the fallout.(Arabella laughs evilly and theatrically)

Nicole: 2:52

Yeah, yes, what is going to happen? So, it's very important to note that in this episode, there will be a consensual, non-consent fantasy, and it's important to say this because it is in the story. It's a fantasy because it really happens in the story, right? But we didn't talk about it. So, it's very important to just know that we're blurring the lines between what kinky people like to read and what kinky people do. Know this.

Arabella: 2:54

Yeah

Nicole: 2:56

And if consensual non-consent triggers you, skip to the next chapter.

Arabella: 2:58

We will make it very clear in the chapter headings

Nicole: 3:00

Yeah

Arabella: 3:02

What that scene is.

Nicole: 3:04

Yes

Arabella: 3:06

So you can just skip it

Nicole: 3:08

Yeah, but if not

Arabella: 3:10

And it will still make sense because you'll get a hint from, of it from the aftermath.

Nicole: 3:12

Yeah, but if not, you know, remember also, if it is your thing, then you're about to enjoy this, because it goes hard and it's going, if you're, if you're like into the darky kind of fantasy stuff, like I really am, this one presses the right buttons.

Arabella: 3:14

It does.

Nicole: 3:16

Yeah

Arabella: 3:18

It does

Nicole: 3:20

Don't repeat at home unless properly discussed with your partner.

Arabella: 3:22

Yes

Nicole: 3:24

Love you very much.

Arabella: 3:26

Always with clear and frank discussion.

Nicole: 3:28

Hence consensual non-consent. And off we go Bella, with…

Arabella: 3:30

With Episode 16. This one time.(Podcast theme music plays – Rat Head by Big Mouse Tree House)

Nicole: 3:33

“What the fuck-?” His hand went up to his left eye immediately as my fist struck him.“Oh my God, Mike—I’m sorry!” I forced out as rapidly as possible before he could focus on me again. He grabbed my wrist.“Shit—I’m sorry, really-“ I tried to pull my arm from his grip. “Let go, please-“He laughed, hollowly. “No fucking way-“I thrashed against his iron grip.“You fucking bitch”, he seethed. He pulled me easily into the bedroom by my right arm and threw me onto the bed. He sat down on my thighs and pinned my arms next to my head. I sucked in my breath in a mix of surprise and sudden excitement. I am a problem.(Nicole wheezes a laugh)

Arabella: 3:42

Yes, you are. Keep going (Whispered)

Nicole: 3:45

“Now what?” he demanded of me. “What are you going to do now?” I pushed with my legs against him with all my strength, but he didn’t even move.“See?” he said, “I’m stronger than you—I could hurt you really badly—" For a second it seemed like he was playing, but his eyes were much harder than normal.“I’m really sorry”, I pleaded, “It was stupid—I know better-“ I swallowed, loudly and held my breath.“You’re going to regret that”, he hissed lowly and in the same breath, pulled his shirt off and threw it next to the bed. I was supposed to be scared, but I'm actually just really happy(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 3:54

So turned on.(Both laughing)

Nicole: 3:57

Gosh, uuuhh sorry,(Arabella croaks a laugh) This is supposed to be scary and I'm just like, yes, that's good. Do that again,

Arabella: 4:01

Read, stop, hey, read!(Arabella chuckles)

Nicole: 4:04

He bit me in the neck, and my body bent itself into his out of habit. I wanted him badly even though it wouldn’t prove my point very well. He practically ripped my new Band shirt off me and bit my right nipple through my bra, hard.“Ow!” I insisted, “ow!”“Does that hurt?”“Yes!”“Good”, he said angrily. “Get the fuck up!” Ooph… He pulled me up roughly from the bed, flipped me around and pushed me back onto the bed on my hands and knees. He pulled my skirt up—(Excited sounds from Arabella)--and ripped a hole, a huge hole in the back of my tights, and then my lovely new knickers, silk knickers!

Arabella: 4:16

Silk knickers!

Nicole: 4:18

Michael!(Both laugh) Okay, I did punch him in the face, so I guess the knickers are—

Arabella: 4:22

Silk knickers be damned!

Nicole: 4:24

(Both laugh despite situation) Yes, guess the silk knickers are done!“Those were new!” I complained. But I’m still trying! Like he’s going to be like, oh, I’m so sorry.

Arabella: 4:29

Yeah

Nicole: 4:31

“Those were new!” I complained.“Shut up”. He pulled me closer by my hips.“Ow, Mike, seriously-“He pulled me up furiously by my waist and put his right hand threateningly on my neck from behind. “Call me Mike again, I dare you-““Sorry, Sir”, I whimpered a little.“Now shut the fuck up before I shut you up-“ He pushed me back down and just as quickly entered me from behind and thrusted in and out painfully until he finished. Well, that’s vague! Until he finished??

Arabella: 4:37

Yeah

Nicole: 4:39

Well okay, how ever long that took…

Arabella: 4:41

Yeah(With an air of ‘you’re not in control here, remember?)

Nicole: 4:44

Okay…I guess I have no say in this…

Arabella: 4:46

No(As though it’s obvious)

Nicole: 4:49

Okay

Arabella: 4:51

No, he’s angry-fucking you—you don’t get a choice in this, don’t be silly, this is all for him.

Nicole: 4:53

When he had finished, he handcuffed one of my wrists to the bedframe on my side of the bed.“Sir, how am I supposed to sleep like this?” I asked worriedly. “I’m tired”.“Not my fucking problem”.“I’m sorry, honestly”, I repeated, “please-““I’m not uncuffing you”, he barked. “Deal with the consequences”.

Arabella: 4:58

SHHHIIITT!

Nicole: 5:00

It’s very hot though—so fu—

Arabella: 5:02

Which was why I was telling you to shut up the whole way through—I was like just keep reading!

Nicole: 5:04

He’s telling me to shut up! You’re telling me to shut up! Very unfair!

Arabella: 5:06

I don’t want your bullshit right now! Just read it to me!(Growling then laughs)

Nicole: 5:09

I woke up the next morning sweating horribly and in a considerable amount of pain. Mike hadn’t exactly been gentle the previous night. But it was so hot…

Arabella: 5:12

Too fucking right(Nicole blowing raspberry laughing) So hot

Nicole: 5:16

It was light outside, but I couldn’t be sure of the time. I also noted that my wrist had been uncuffed. Dude needs to be careful; I might punch him more often if it’s gonna be that—

Arabella: 5:19

Yeah—but do not

Nicole: 5:21

No, I was kidding

Arabella: 5:23

‘Cause if it happens again—

Nicole: 5:25

Oh! I mean it’s already now—I—uh uh (stumbling over words) I don’t know if I’m just—

Arabella: 5:27

We don’t know what’s going to happen

Nicole: 5:29

I could be—they could’ve left without me

Arabella: 5:31

Yeah

Nicole: 5:33

Just leave me there(Nicole chuckles)

Arabella: 5:36

I probably wouldn’t but you know

Nicole: 5:38

Yeah, that’s true…what country are we in?

Arabella: 5:40

Fuck knows!

Nicole: 5:42

(Nicole wheezes a laugh) This to-in the words of my father, ‘this tour is chaotic!’(Both laugh)

Arabella: 5:46

Yes

Nicole: 5:48

So, I slipped out of the bed, showered and changed into a dark blue mini dress of lace. Look hot, at least…

Arabella: 5:51

Yes, you know, if you’re pleading for your life, to stay on tour, look hot as shit!

Nicole: 5:53

Hot, yes It had an under dress in the same colour, but my cleavage and neck were only covered by see-through lace. Very good.(Approving oohs from Arabella) A thin black belt fitted around my middle, and I paired it with black high heels. Oh my God! WHY?

Arabella: 5:59

Yep.(Nicole laughing) You’re going full high-heels – accentuate everything!

Nicole: 6:03

I’m going for high heels! I might call him Master again!

Arabella: 6:05

You, I would be surprised if you didn’t!

Nicole: 6:07

I pinned my hair—

Arabella: 6:09

You’d be on the floor, you know—

Nicole: 6:11

Crawl towards him

Arabella: 6:13

And she’s crawling on the floor

Nicole: 6:15

I am so sorry, Master!

Arabella: 6:17

Yeah

Nicole: 6:19

I pinned my hair up before leaving to look for the others. Obviously, I’m also like, look at my neck, look at my cleavage, look at all the bits—

Arabella: 6:22

Yes, all the sensual places, please, thank you

Nicole: 6:24

I popped into Bella, Zander and Jason’s suite but they weren’t in there. Your suite is getting fuller and fuller.

Arabella: 6:27

It does sound like the three of us are sharing a bed.

Nicole: 6:29

You’re not

Arabella: 6:31

We’re not. There’s different rooms

Nicole: 6:33

I would be very upset

Arabella: 6:35

I know you would

Nicole: 6:37

No, I wouldn’t…not really

Arabella: 6:39

I would be slightly because

Nicole: 6:41

You might be

Arabella: 6:43

(noises of apprehension) No, thank you. I want just—

Nicole: 6:46

Actually, I’m more upset by the fact that these guys are so straight, like none of them are bisexual and that pisses me off

Arabella: 6:48

Yeah

Nicole: 6:50

I was still upset about Mike’s comments, but I realised I had behaved appallingly. I’m glad that I realised—

Arabella: 6:53

So fucking appallingly—yes

Nicole: 6:55

Be conscious!

Arabella: 6:57

Yes! You realised it was appalling

Nicole: 6:59

Yes

Arabella: 7:01

Really? Really?

Nicole: 7:03

Very appalling

Arabella: 7:05

It wasn’t fucking blatantly obvious?!

Nicole: 7:07

Oh no, yeah it was, super obvious but y, I mean it’s more of a matter of explaining(Arabella snorts)

Arabella: 7:10

Yes

Nicole: 7:12

I couldn’t believe I actually hit him in the face like some sort of possessed demon. Exactly!

Arabella: 7:15

Yes

Nicole: 7:17

That what it was

Arabella: 7:19

Flying squirrel went hardcore

Nicole: 7:21

Oh God. I went downstairs to search for him. He actually took it well, you know? I think, just—just like having really angry sex with me(considering noises) which isn’t wonderful, considering boundaries and consent and shit but I think—

Arabella: 7:26

You got off on it

Nicole: 7:28

I did(Noises of how weird are my kinks) There was no one in the restaurant. I walked to the woman at the reception and asked her if she’d seen where the big, tattooed men went. Big tattooed men?!

Arabella: 7:34

I mean, it’s fair! That’s a decent description for them

Nicole: 7:36

It may not be them! I may find random, other, big, tattooed men but that’s okay!

Arabella: 7:38

Oh, hello!(Both laugh) Any big—

Arabella & Nicole: 7:42

--tattooed men

Arabella: 7:44

Yes, please, thank you

Nicole: 7:46

Oh gosh She didn’t. No.

Arabella: 7:50

No

Nicole: 7:52

I asked if they had checked out. She told me that they hadn’t which meant that at least they hadn’t left me there. But of course, Bella wouldn’t have allowed that.

Arabella: 7:54

Damn fucking right! I wouldn’t. I’d call you a dick.

Nicole: 7:56

Oh yeah

Arabella: 7:58

But and I’d let you suffer in your, in your suite for a bit but—

Nicole: 8:00

But you wouldn’t leave me there

Arabella: 8:02

I wouldn’t leave you

Nicole: 8:04

You would wake me up and like, at like six in the morning and be like, GROVEL, NICOLE! FUCKING GROVEL!

Arabella: 8:06

GROVEL!(Both laugh)

Nicole: 8:09

Get on your knees!

Arabella: 8:11

Or, I’ll murder you myself!

Nicole: 8:13

Make a sacrifice in the name of the Band! Go!(Continued laughter)

Arabella: 8:16

I got you all the candles to get the right—

Nicole: 8:18

Yeah sorry – we are unbelievable!(Still giggling away) This is why I think we should do a live reading next because people would fucking love us! But then I heard familiar laughter. Jason and Zander. Of course. And someone else. Probably Carter from the sound of it. That high-pitched squeal!(Arabella bursts out laughing and Nicole follows)

Arabella: 8:27

That was not written there

Nicole: 8:29

No, I—

Arabella: 8:31

But I enjoyed the addition

Nicole: 8:33

I just thought of what it sounds like sometimes and I was like, hmmm(Nicole chuckles)

Arabella: 8:36

Yup, savage

Nicole: 8:38

I walked in the direction of the laughter and found them in the hotel gym. They were all shirtless and sweaty. Ooooh yeah…

Arabella: 8:41

Happy days! (Singing)

Nicole: 8:43

This’ll help, this’ll help!

Arabella: 8:45

Happy days! (Still singing)

Nicole: 8:47

(Singing as well) Oh Happy Days!

Arabella: 8:50

Oh Happy Days!

Nicole: 8:52

Bella must’ve been exercising in the small studio as she arrived in her workout gear but greeted the guys as though she hadn’t seen them yet.

Arabella: 8:54

“Sweet Jesus”

Nicole: 8:56

Bella said as she saw Mike.

Arabella: 8:58

“What the hell happened to your face?”

Nicole: 9:00

She sat down on one of the machines that wasn’t being used. They had their backs to me, but I could hear everything they said by hiding behind the door. Like the brave—

Arabella: 9:04

Like some creep!

Nicole: 9:06

Like the brave, brave girl I am!

Arabella: 9:08

Yes! You’re going to hide and creep on us

Nicole: 9:10

“Ask your bitch best friend”. Also…he’s called me bitch a lot in the last eight hours and um…I just wanna—

Arabella: 9:13

To be fair, you punched him in the face!

Nicole: 9:15

I just wanna be clear, that normally he doesn’t do that

Arabella: 9:17

No, he doesn’t but you punched him in the face

Nicole: 9:19

So fair enough

Arabella: 9:21

He has licence to do so

Nicole: 9:23

(Stumbling a little) It—it, it’s true. It checks out

Arabella: 9:26

Yeah

Nicole: 9:28

“Ask your bitch best friend”.

Arabella: 9:30

“Nicky had something to do with this?”

Nicole: 9:32

“Nicky did this”, Mike informed her.

Arabella: 9:34

“Where is she? What happened?”

Nicole: 9:36

“Probably still in the suite, licking her wounds”.

Arabella: 9:38

“What?” It is shocking!

Nicole: 9:41

It is! I don’t just punch people!

Arabella: 9:43

It is shocking! You don’t just go around punching people

Nicole: 9:45

And for some reason, I’ve chosen the lead vocalist of my favourite fucking band!

Arabella: 9:47

Exactly!

Nicole: 9:49

WHY??

Arabella: 9:51

It’s like even more of a shock

Nicole: 9:53

Exactly

Arabella: 9:55

You know, it’s one thing if it’s like a Trump supporter or something(Nicole bursts out laughing at Arabella’s comment, and Arabella follows suit)

Nicole: 9:58

Fair! Okay

Arabella: 10:00

But your favourite band!

Nicole: 10:02

Yeah

Arabella: 10:04

“Where is she? What happened?”

Nicole: 10:06

“Probably still in the suite, licking her wounds”.

Arabella: 10:08

“What?”

Nicole: 10:10

“Figurative wounds”, Mike told her soothingly.

Arabella: 10:12

“What the hell happened?”

Nicole: 10:14

“She was hysterical and not listening to me”, Mike started. Zander laughed. “Don’t pretend like you don’t like it, Mike. You would be bored as shit if she did exactly what you told her”.“I prefer she not attack me-““I still can’t believe she beat you up”, Noah laughed.(Arabella chuckles)“She didn’t beat me up”, Mike said, sounding disgusted. “She hit me before I even knew I was in a fight”.“Still you gotta hand it to her”, Noah grinned.(Arabella laughs again) Mike ignored him the second time. Also…just a little side note here, these guys aren’t normally dicks, so I don’t why they’re all being so dickish!(Arabella snorts) It’s the gym!

Arabella: 10:26

‘Cause it’s funny!(Nicole chuckles) Well they’ve probably done the concerned bit already, I just wasn’t there for it, you weren’t there for it

Nicole: 10:30

That’s true, that’s—

Arabella: 10:32

Now they’ve reached the banter part—

Nicole: 10:34

That’s true

Arabella: 10:36

--of this

Nicole: 10:38

They’ve been in on it for longer“I don’t fucking get it”, Jason said, who was then lifting weights, “why would she hit you? Seems so unlike her.”“You barely know her, Jay-“ Mike said.

“No, Jay’s right, she doesn’t just hit people for no reason-“Nicole: 10:43

“You’re making me sound like I deserved it”.

Arabella: 10:45

“What happened?”

Nicole: 10:47

Bella asked for a third time.

Arabella: 10:49

Ooo, I’m feeling brave! I’m getting sassy at him

Nicole: 10:51

But you’re a bit stressed, you’re like, my friend isn’t here, apparently, she hit him in the face, he says figurative wounds but what the frig is happening, you know?

Arabella: 10:53

Yes

Nicole: 10:55

You’re having a little, wee panic, a little, wee panic,

Arabella: 10:57

I am, I’m full-on panicking

Nicole: 10:59

a little, little panic(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 11:02

About my little, little friend

Nicole: 11:04

“Fine, so I did deserve it”, Mike admitted, “but it still wasn’t cool that she punched me. Not cool at all”.

Arabella: 11:06

“Of course, Mike, she shouldn’t have punched you but I’m still curious, what did you say?”

Nicole: 11:08

(Nicole sighs dramatically) Mike sighed. “I don’t think it’s appropriate for me to tell you—it will embarrass her-““She did punch you in the face, though-“ Carter pushed for information.(Nicole laughs as she speaks the last bit of the line) Always using it for his gain, not always—it’s not true

Arabella: 11:14

It’s just. No, no, forevermore it’s, she did punch you in the face though(Arabella scoffs a laugh)

Nicole: 11:17

I’m never—

Arabella: 11:19

It’s going to be used—

Nicole: 11:21

I’m never going to live this down!

Arabella: 11:23

No

Nicole: 11:25

Ten years after this tour, I’m going to be at one of their weddings, or someone’s cousin’s things and they’re going to be like, you did punch Mike in the face though

Arabella: 11:27

You did punch Mike in the face(Both laugh) Exactly

Nicole: 11:31

But that’s fair—that’s what you get

Arabella: 11:33

Yeah. You punch people in the face, they have licence to um, take the piss outta you and—

Nicole: 11:35

Yeah

Arabella: 11:37

And-and-and-and use it as a reason

Nicole: 11:39

For sure

Arabella: 11:41

Forevermore(Nicole breaths a chuckle)

Nicole: 11:44

“I told her that her fan girling made it too embarrassing for Jay to be friends with her-““Why do you two keep bringing me into your shit?” Jason asked, annoyed, dropping his weights.“Sorry, dude”, Mike said, “I regret it a lot”.“Clearly”, Noah grinned. Noah! Noah’s being such a dickhead!(Both chuckle)

Arabella: 11:50

I love it! He’s just like, poking, just poking-

Nicole: 11:52

Poking the bear super hard, but that is Noah

Arabella: 11:54

Let’s see what we can do

Nicole: 11:56

That is Noah!

Arabella: 11:58

Exactly

Nicole: 12:00

He’s the sweetest guy you’ll ever meet but the moment something’s like funny, he’ll be a ballsy motherfucker!(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 12:03

Yeah, and he’s there to just jab, jab, jab at you just to see what reaction he can get. In a funny way, not in a bad way though

Nicole: 12:05

Yeah, yeah, yeah in a funny way, like he’ll stop if it was really bothering Mike

Arabella: 12:07

“How come you chose her, Mike? If you two find it so difficult not to piss each other off".

Nicole: 12:09

“Have you ever had a blowjob from her?”(Nicole scoffs a laugh) Why would he ask you that?! You hiding a dick under that little skirt there, Bella?

Arabella: 12:13

I’m not wearing a skirt, I’m working work-out—

Nicole: 12:15

Right. That’s true—you hiding a dick under (lost it noises)

Arabella: 12:17

That aint hidin’ nothin’!(Nicole laughing) Those yoga pants hide fuck all!

Nicole: 12:21

Right, but that’s why it’s just so weird – have you ever had a blowjob from her? The guys sniggered, probably at Bella’s distraught expression.

“Of course not. Well, not exactly. I don’t have a dick-“Nicole: 12:25

“It’s good”, Mike said, “don’t tell her that. She’ll use it against me”.

Arabella: 12:27

“She does certainly care about people’s pleasure”.

Nicole: 12:29

That’s such a sweet way to go, she’s a slut! She does care about people’s pleasure

Arabella: 12:31

It’s all right. You’re a slut, I’m a slut, it’s all good!

Nicole: 12:33

Ethical sluts

Arabella: 12:35

We’re slutties together(Nicole giggles) Exactly

Nicole: 12:39

“How much does she tell you?” Mike asked Bella, curiously.

Arabella: 12:41

“I probably know more about you than anyone should”.

Nicole: 12:43

(Nicole laughs) Everybody laughed.“Does she complain a lot when she’s with you?” Mike asked Bella.

Arabella: 12:47

“Recently, but definitely not often. Nicky’s the friendliest person I know-and probably the most fun. She has more energy than anyone I’ve ever met—except for Jay, of course.”(Nicole snorts)“You know that person you can spend every second of the day with and not get sick of them?”

Nicole: 12:51

“My band”, Mike answered. “My wife, my dog”.

Arabella: 12:53

“Well, Nicky’s that person to me and I’m that person to her. We can never get enough of each other”.

Nicole: 12:55

I smiled to myself.“That’s just ‘cause you haven’t fucked her yet”, Noah commented.

Arabella: 12:58

“I have on several occasions. Don’t fuck with me, Noah”.

Nicole: 13:00

He laughed. He just wanted you to say that! He knew!

Arabella: 13:03

Yes, he knows this!

Nicole: 13:05

Yes, he knows that. He just wanted you to say it again

Arabella: 13:07

Yes, he did“I think Nicky’s overly anxious trying to please everyone at once plus herself. Perhaps you could take that into account?”

Nicole: 13:10

She glanced nervously at Zander who nodded at her. Like, yeah, go on, you got this!(Nicole giggles and Arabella makes nervous noises)‘Cause you ‘re also, I mean, he’s an intimi-he’s wonderful and lovely but when he is pissed and when he is peck-decking, he’s intimidating and you’re trying to like get him to do a thing, you know?“I’ll think about it”, Mike said.“Morning!” Oh no! I’m coming in with way to much energy for this situation.(Arabella giggles) No, no, no, no, Nicole, stop! I called as it felt like the right moment to make my presence known.

Arabella: 13:21

Morning! Good morning dahh-dahh-dah-dah-dah-dah. Morning, good morning to you! (All sung)

Nicole: 13:23

Yes, well that’s obviously the energy I’m coming in with ‘cause I’m like—

Arabella: 13:25

Yes(Arabella laughs)

Nicole: 13:28

--look at me, I’m sexy, I’m fun! Don’t kick me off the tour.

Arabella: 13:30

I’m sexy, I’m fun and you don’t want to get rid of me (Singing)

Nicole: 13:32

No, oh (groans)—how does the cheer go?

Arabella: 13:34

Instead of properly going and—wait, what?

Nicole: 13:36

The cheer…(cheerleading) I’m awesome, I’m loud, I’m gonna make you proud, I’m—I’m N-N-N-Nicky(Both burst out laughing)

Arabella: 13:39

Yes

Nicole: 13:41

Gosh

Arabella: 13:43

I’m popular to boot!

Nicole: 13:45

Yeah—no I’m not—it depends on who you ask

Arabella: 13:47

Not right now

Nicole: 13:49

The clock in the gym read eleven. I walked up to the guys with a smile.(Nicole chuckles at the audacity) Everyone smiled back at me, but Mike and Bella.“It took me a while to find you guys”, I said. “Reception lady wasn’t too helpful...”(Nicole laughs) She needs to know where everyone is at all times!

Arabella: 13:56

Yes (Pirate growl)

Nicole: 13:58

Otherwise, I’m like NOT HELPFUL(Both chuckle) All of them were sweaty and gorgeous...and smelled so good. I never stop, unbelievable.(Bella snorts) Mike was on the Peck Deck; that’s the— If you’ve never been to a gym, you guys, that’s the machine you press with both your arms towards your chest, so you look like you’re flying.(Nicole laughs at herself)

Arabella: 14:08

She has literally written that description in there(While Nicole continues to cackle) I love it!

Nicole: 14:12

His blonde hair was clinging to his forehead and cheeks.

Arabella: 14:14

Dirty blonde hair

Nicole: 14:16

Same

Arabella: 14:18

Okay

Nicole: 14:20

Blonde, dirty, dirty and blonde

Arabella: 14:22

Okay

Nicole: 14:24

I enjoyed myself immensely watching their muscles work that I absolutely forgot about Mike’s eye.(Arabella snorts) Why!(Groans)

Arabella: 14:29

“Nicky!”

Nicole: 14:31

I deserve everything

Arabella: 14:33

You do

Nicole: 14:35

I deserve everything that’s coming to me.

Arabella: 14:37

Yes

Nicole: 14:39

Everything

Arabella: 14:41

“Nicky, what the fuck-?”

Nicole: 14:43

Bella said, rising from the machine.

Arabella: 14:45

“You punched Mike?”

Nicole: 14:47

Mike’s eye looked terrible. It was deep purple on the bone under his eye and a shade lighter in the socket. Holy Shit! I must’ve punched him hard.

Arabella: 14:50

Yeah

Nicole: 14:52

For that—for a black eye

Arabella: 14:54

You are a lethal weapon, my darling

Nicole: 14:56

Yeah, this is why it’s so damn awful—I know how harmful I can be

Arabella: 14:58

Yeah

Nicole: 15:00

And I would never do this

Arabella: 15:02

You would literally be prosecuted as a lethal weapon

Nicole: 15:04

Yeah! He could, he could literally go to the police and be like, this is a prob—sh—this, here is a problem.(Nicole chuckles)

Arabella: 15:07

She is a fucking black belt, and she punched me in the face!

Nicole: 15:09

Yeah, that’s not cool

Arabella: 15:11

That’s not cool

Nicole: 15:13

Really uncool. I could’ve broken his jaw—I’m hor—it’s horrible! Stop. Whoo!

Arabella: 15:15

You could’ve broken his eye socket

Nicole: 15:17

I feel really bad about this—yeah, fucking hell. Okay.“Oh, damn”, I said, cringing at the sight of it. “I’m really very sorry-”“Isn’t it great?” Mike said, monotone.“No”, I said. “You look like Igor, dude”.(Arabella snorts) No! NOOOOOO!(Arabella cackles) I want—argh—have I not had enough? I want him to kill me?(Arabella snorts again whilst laughing) I want him to literally murder me. I want to make him a murdery type!

Arabella: 15:27

I’ve gone bright red(Still laughing)

Nicole: 15:30

You look like Igor, dude (in a fake valley girl voice) NO!! Stop yourself! This is not bratting, this is just being a shit human.

Arabella: 15:33

Pull the lever, Master!(Both laugh)

Nicole: 15:36

The rest of The Band and Bella cracked up.‘Cause how could you not when someone is so audacious?

Arabella: 15:39

Yeah

Nicole: 15:41

Holy shit.“But a very cute Igor”, I added, quickly.(Arabella cracks up anew) They laughed even louder. As you guys can hear.(Nicole sighs in relief) The humour. Then I became serious again. “Look, I’ve said sorry a few times, but I know I fucked up big time. So, I guess I’ll go pack my bag-” He surprised me by grinning.(Arabella makes a noise of surprise) That would be fucking surprising.

Arabella: 15:53

Yeah

Nicole: 15:55

What is--? Is he okay?

Arabella: 15:57

No

Nicole: 15:59

Brain damage—oh shit!

Arabella: 16:01

You fucking damaged his brain(Nicole laughs)

Nicole: 16:04

No, I didn’t

Arabella: 16:06

No, you didn’t

Nicole: 16:08

“You’re in deep shit”, Mike informed me. “But I’m not letting you off that easy-” Ohh! He is—(Arabella makes surprised noises) He is going to kill me

Arabella: 16:13

You’re going to die in so many ways

Nicole: 16:15

Oh yeah“Sending me home is letting me off easy?” I asked surprised. “You’re going to make me grovel, aren’t you?”(Arabella chuckles) Oh just grovel? Okay He smirked. “Actually, you can tie my shoelace-it’s been irritating me”. That’s not too bad, I can do that. I sighed but sunk onto my haunches to tie his shoelace.(Arabella giggles) Jason whistled and Mike and Zander laughed.“Who’s staring at my arse?” I asked while I was down there.

Arabella: 16:26

“Noah”,

Nicole: 16:28

“Noah”, Jason and Bella responded at the same time.“How the fuck-?”“I can feel it!” I replied, pulling the shoelace tight and standing up. “I swear the only reason these mini things were invented-“ I touched the hem of my short dress, “-is so that people can stare at your arse”.

Arabella: 16:32

“They’ll do it anyway”

Nicole: 16:34

“Yeah, but in this you can see my actual arse”, I clarified. “Can’t you, Noah?” He smiled. “Don’t remember. Bend down again”. Wow!(Arabella chuckles) I snorted. Why is he flirting with me when I am literally, apparently just punching people?!

Arabella: 16:41

Because they find you hilarious. And ridiculous.

Nicole: 16:43

Also apparently not, they don’t really, they don’t think I’m very dangerous, apparently

Arabella: 16:45

No, no

Nicole: 16:47

I’m—I’ve punched him in the face and they’re like, this is—this is—

Arabella: 16:49

This is fine. Fine! The balls on this girl!

Nicole: 16:51

Yeah, no, phew. No, it’s bad, guys, don’t do, what the heck?

Arabella: 16:53

You do not get kudos for punching people in the face

Nicole: 16:55

Absolutely not

Arabella: 16:57

This is not okay

Nicole: 16:59

This is really shitty

Arabella: 17:01

Yeah

Nicole: 17:03

Shitty, shitty, I’m a shitty shitty(Nicole chuckles)

Arabella: 17:06

Yes, you are a shitty shitty

Nicole: 17:08

I snorted.

Arabella: 17:10

“Admit it, you enjoy it”,

Nicole: 17:12

“It freaks me out to imagine what people are thinking”.

Arabella: 17:14

“Please! You’re such a cock tease”.

Nicole: 17:16

I gaped at her. “Bella-”.

Arabella: 17:18

“Yes, you are, you love knowing that everyone around you wants you and then watch them squirm”.

Nicole: 17:20

“Don’t make me start shouting your desires out in front of everyone”.“No, please do”, Zander said happily.

Arabella: 17:23

“No-”

Nicole: 17:25

“What was that, Nicky?” Zander asked while Bella tried to playfully cover my mouth.“No secrets”, I smiled. “Bella has no secret desires whatsoever-“(Arabella laughs) The guys laughed at Zander’s false disappointed face. We completely forgot about Mike again! What is wrong with me?(Arabella laughs)

Arabella: 17:32

Yes, literally, we have the attention span of a fruit fly

Nicole: 17:34

(Mocking Arabella’s over-rolling of the R’s) A fruit fly

Arabella: 17:36

A fruit fly (Arabella repeating it for Nicole’s amusement)

Nicole: 17:38

“Hey, Mike”, Zander said. “What are you going to tell the press tonight? You know, about your eye?”“Mike hit me in the face”.“Your driver?” I asked, confused. “Why would he-?”“A microphone, for Fuck’s Sake”.(Nicole’s blows a raspberry while Arabella laughs) I scowled at him. “You could’ve said A mike like a normal person!” Ooo, I’m not helping myself. I need to be grovelling!

Arabella: 17:46

(Arabella laughs nervously) You’re really not. You’re supposed to be like, Master, I’ll do whatever you say, Master right now. But you are just like, Bam, Bam, Bam!

Nicole: 17:49

Apparently, I want him to, apparently, I enjoyed—not apparently, that’s some fucking shit—I enjoyed what he did, and I want him to do more

Arabella: 17:51

Yes, that is what is—now that you you’re not being sent home, you’re like yeah; motherfucker, let’s go!

Nicole: 17:53

Exactly, that was my biggest fear and now I’m like(lightly panting) make me suck your dick in front of the whole band! That’s kind of what I’m trying to gage.

Arabella: 17:57

It’ll be fine!(Arabella chuckles)

Nicole: 18:00

I scowled at him. “You could’ve said A mic like a normal person!”“Change the weight on this machine”, Mike told me.“Why can’t you just do it?”(Nervously giggling from both of us and an exasperated sigh from Nicole)

Arabella: 18:05

Nicky

Nicole: 18:07

“’Cause I told you to do it”, he said. I walked closer to him and leaned slightly over him to get to the weights.“It’s already on 220 pounds”, I told him.“I want 240”, he said, casually.“On each arm?”“Yeah”. Yeah, he could’ve, he could’ve killed me After I picked my jaw up from the floor

Arabella: 18:16

Yes

Nicole: 18:18

I called him a show-off.(Wheezes a laugh)

Arabella: 18:21

Because you want to die

Nicole: 18:23

Yeah I kicked my leg over him, so I stood with my legs on either side of him.

Arabella: 18:26

Which is impressive in a tight li -mini dress—

Nicole: 18:28

It’s very short

Arabella: 18:30

Oh!

Nicole: 18:32

Yeah

Arabella: 18:34

Everyone is seeing everything right now

Nicole: 18:36

Well more or less, I am wearing underwear I kicked my leg over him, so I stood with my legs on either side of him. I leaned forward to move the pin to 240 pounds and conveniently pressed my chest into his face. Well, I think he’ll be more than happy as long as it’s not a fist.(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 18:42

Yes, yes. Boobs, anytime. Fist, no, no.(Arabella makes a weird high pitched noise of eekness)

Nicole: 18:45

Yeah—this is the kind of bratting he likes though, not the part where I punch him—

Arabella: 18:47

--in the face

Nicole: 18:49

Which is not bratting, it’s just—

Arabella: 18:51

That’s just twat behaviour

Nicole: 18:53

Yeah I slipped the pin in place and sunk down onto his lap for a second to push myself back to my feet. “Down boy”.(Arabella burst out laughing) Oh my gosh…(Nicole breathes out) Thin ice“Seriously thin ice”, Mike commented with a smile. See he’s a little bit enjoying my antics…now

Arabella: 19:02

Yes, he is

Nicole: 19:04

“I think I’ve just cum”,(Nicole scream laughs and Arabella follows) Noah announced bluntly to the gym. There was an outburst of laughter throughout the gym.“Do not— Oh!! There it is—we never know what we’re about to read, you guys, I hope that’s clear, we forget the story and then when we read it, we’re just as surprised as you

Arabella: 19:11

Yes, which is just ridiculous (strangely pronounced) Rediecous? Ridiculous

Nicole: 19:13

“Do not make me fuck you in front of everyone-“ Mike warned me.“What?” I asked, shocked but for some reason also excited.

Arabella: 19:16

What do you mean for some reason??

Nicole: 19:18

For some reason(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 19:21

For some reason! You know exactly how you feel about that! There is—

Nicole: 19:23

That and I—

Arabella: 19:25

You’re not wondering why you feel this way, you know why you feel this way!

Nicole: 19:27

Yeah…they would be less okay with that, I think that would be—a lot of boundaries, it’s just a threat now—‘cause that’s a lot of things, you have to check with a lot of people before you pull a stunt like that

Arabella: 19:29

Yeah

Nicole: 19:31

But um…but freaking hell, yes please. So sorry, but yes please(Both laugh)“I’m just messing with you”. Everyone including me laughed.“Good one”, I told him. “I’m still in shock”. Because I kinda wanted it.

Arabella: 19:38

Yes

Nicole: 19:40

That’s not written there

Arabella: 19:42

You’re just a slight bit—

Nicole: 19:44

But I wanted it

Arabella: 19:46

Sad that it’s a joke

Nicole: 19:48

I’m a little sad

Arabella: 19:50

Yeah

Nicole: 19:52

He laughed.“And it was strangely exciting”, I admitted after a few seconds.“You’re a bit dirty-” Ah, bless him!

Arabella: 19:57

“You have no idea!”

Nicole: 19:59

Bella laughed, It’s literally, he says you’re a bit dirty like he just met me(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 20:03

Yeah

Nicole: 20:05

Like he didn’t know

“This one time-“Nicole: 20:08

“No, no”. It was my turn to try and cover Bella’s mouth.“This is endlessly entertaining to me”, Zander smiled.(Arabella cackles)

Arabella: 20:12

“Oh, I can tell you things that’ll make Jason blush-“

Nicole: 20:14

Bella tempted.“That’s impossible”, Zander chuckled.“Yes, quite impossible!” I insisted.

Arabella: 20:18

“All right, all right. Get off me now”.

Nicole: 20:20

All the guys awed. Like ah naw…

Arabella: 20:23

Naw!! That was fun!(Podcast theme music plays signalling a break – Rat Head by Big Mouse Tree House)

Nicole: 20:26

After the guys finished in the gym and everyone went upstairs to shower, I had a moment to talk to Mike alone. I knocked on the door so I could go in and brush my teeth. It’s always the teeth! I’m like—teeth!(Nicole laughs) Toothbrush!

Arabella: 20:32

Yes, every time

Nicole: 20:34

“You don’t have to knock”, he called.“I could’ve been housekeeping”, I told him as I closed the door behind me.(Arabella giggles)“They can come in as well if they want”. I chuckled. “That would be a nice little time for them”.(Arabella chortles) Like I know anything about what they enjoy but fine

Arabella: 20:42

No

Nicole: 20:44

I started brushing my teeth. “Plus, I didn’t know what you were doing in the shower-could’ve been anything”.“I can’t hear what you’re mumbling”.(Arabella is still laughing rather croakily) Of course. Daddy’s back!(Nicole chuckles)

Arabella: 20:50

Yes, he is

Nicole: 20:52

Daddy in the kink-sense, just to be very clear, everybody. We have to be very clear here.(Nicole laughs)

Oh God yes…awksNicole: 20:56

I took the toothbrush out of my mouth and spat the foam out before repeating myself.“I don’t mind you seeing that either”.“Really?” I asked, surprised. “My mind just conjured up an image of that”. I love that--Why can’t we say the word? Why can’t we say masturbating? Why can’t we say wanking? Why can’t we say--?

Arabella: 21:01

I mean, you can

Nicole: 21:03

--jerking?

Arabella: 21:05

--but it’s not necessary ‘cause we all what you’re talking about

Nicole: 21:07

All right I thought I heard him chuckle through the water, but it could’ve been my imagination.

Arabella: 21:10

(Mumbles a thing)

Nicole: 21:12

Huh?

Arabella: 21:14

He probably did chuckle

Nicole: 21:16

You have to chuckle if I’m being a moose around you

Arabella: 21:18

Yes

Nicole: 21:20

I finished brushing my teeth—

Arabella: 21:22

‘Tis the law(Nicole chuckles appreciatively)

Nicole: 21:25

I finished brushing my teeth and went out to finish packing my things. Mike came out of the bathroom and walked naked around the room, drip drying while pulling his clothes out of a bag. He’s—

Arabella: 21:29

Oh, yes please

Nicole: 21:31

--punishing me(Arabella makes an agreeing sound in her throat) I tried to ignore him as much as I could which wasn’t much.(Nicole wheezes a laugh)

Arabella: 21:36

Yes

Nicole: 21:38

My eyes kept flicking in his direction. I finished packing as he dressed in black jeans, a blue tank top and a red and white check shirt over it. Aww, it’s delightfully country(Both weirdly croakily go into a laugh)

Arabella: 21:42

He’s going for very Clarke Kent early years, Smallville

Nicole: 21:44

Oh yeah? For me it just screams—

Arabella: 21:46

Blue, red and white

Nicole: 21:48

For me it just screams country! Country, I’m about to get in my tractor—

Arabella: 21:50

I mean, it is, I—I watched a lot of Smallville

Nicole: 21:52

You find my tractor sexy vibes(Nicole sniggers)

Arabella: 21:55

Yeah, it’s just he often wore blue tops with a red checked shirt over it, it was a thing. They were his colours(Nicole makes imagination noises) He was fit as fuck

Nicole: 21:59

I’m sure, I never really watched Smallville

Arabella: 22:01

(Arabella expresses a grunt of disappointment) It was so good. Loved it

Nicole: 22:04

“I’m going to dress you today,” he informed me, suddenly beside me.“Uh-you don’t like this?” I asked, pointing to my dress. “Sir?”(Nicole snorts an air laugh)“It’s fine”, he said. “But I don’t think I’ll be able to handle Jay staring at your ass all day”.“It was Noah- “ Mike snorted. “That’s what he told you- ““I’m very confused”.“Everyone stared at your ass”

Arabella: 22:13

All the time(Nicole snorts) All the time

Nicole: 22:17

(Fake crying) I am very confused!

Arabella: 22:20

I am very confused(Both laugh)

Nicole: 22:23

“Everyone stared at your ass, woman- “ I smiled. “Okay, but what—(Nicole chuckles) I smiled ‘cause I’m like YES! Did it!

Arabella: 22:28

I won that one!

Nicole: 22:30

The dress served its purpose I smiled.

Arabella: 22:33

It literally did though, that was the point of that dress

Nicole: 22:35

It was“Okay, but what do you mean-dress me-as in putting the clothes on me like a doll?”“No”, he said, “I mean as in picking it out”.(Arabella laughs)“Try not to make it too revealing, please”. Says the girl who just had her bum out in the gym

Arabella: 22:42

Yes, also—

Nicole: 22:44

Yeah?

Arabella: 22:46

Also—Also, the idea is to make him not stare at your arse all day—

Nicole: 22:48

Yeah

Arabella: 22:50

So why would he make it more revealing?

Nicole: 22:52

Oh! Because I’m stupid. Oh, he’s going to make it revealing, just not on the arse. Apparently just my arse is his

Arabella: 22:54

That’s true. Yes, he has said that on occasion

Nicole: 22:56

(Nicole laughs) Boobs, eyes, mouth, the rest—

Arabella: 22:59

Whatever

Nicole: 23:01

Is for— is, uh—

Arabella: 23:03

Freefall. Free for all!

Nicole: 23:05

Oh, whoo, okay—free for limited

Arabella: 23:07

The Band Buffet(Arabella laughs)

Nicole: 23:10

Band Buffet but the bum is uh, is mine apparently.

Arabella: 23:12

Is a no-no

Nicole: 23:14

You can’t even stare at it

Arabella: 23:16

No

Nicole: 23:18

Okay I watched him as he rummaged through my already packed things.“I’ll have to re-pack everything”, I sighed.“You call this packed?” he asked. “You just threw everything in”. Daddy is back…as I said

Arabella: 23:24

Yes, as you’re about to say

Nicole: 23:26

“What are you?” I asked. “My father?” I swear I didn’t see that line!!(Arabella laughs) I swear I didn’t see that line!! And I was like—but at least me as the writer, and me as myself, knows

Arabella: 23:31

Yes, yes

Nicole: 23:33

The feels. ‘Cause he is acting a bit Daddy“What are you?” I asked. “My father He smiled. “No, thank God”. Wow, steady on, Mike!(Arabella cackles)

Arabella: 23:39

Well, okay!

Nicole: 23:41

Steady on(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 23:44

Damn

Nicole: 23:46

Thank God! He pulled out two items and held it out to me.“I get to choose the underwear and shoes, right?”“Sure”. I changed into the tight-fitting black three-quarter length trousers and an equally tight-fitting brown leather top. It fastened with strings at the front which revealed some cleavage and a little stomach. How is this BETTER?!

HmmmhmmmNicole: 23:54

I liked the trousers though. They had a skull on the left thigh. But I moaned about the top being too revealing. He doesn’t care about the top; he only cares about the bottom!

Arabella: 23:57

Nope, the butt. It’s all about the butt.

Nicole: 23:59

“It’s fine”, he said. “Trust me”.“Instead of my arse, everyone will stare at my boobs-”“They’ll stare either way”. I finished the outfit with black high heels.

Arabella: 24:04

See, I totally thought you were going to go against the heels, yes, I can finally get out of these! But no, no, no. So now we’re doing the heels

Nicole: 24:06

So, I guess I’m doing a damsel-in-distress kind of teeter around the bus today!

Arabella: 24:08

Yes, and trying to be sexy as fuck!

Nicole: 24:10

While falling straight on my face

Arabella: 24:12

Straight on your face

Nicole: 24:14

Maybe I’m trying to get a black eye to—

Arabella: 24:16

Yes! You’re trying to be matching!

Nicole: 24:18

Yeah(Nicole laughs followed by Arabella) So, I feel better about the situation

Arabella: 24:22

Yes

Nicole: 24:24

I’d honestly feel better if he’d just punch me, but he wouldn’t. He would never do that

Arabella: 24:26

I know, I know

Nicole: 24:28

Not in the face at the very least…

Arabella: 24:30

No not at all

Nicole: 24:32

Well, I feel like he probably also—

Arabella: 24:34

He’d punch you on the arm maybe

Nicole: 24:36

Yeah, and maybe, he probably knows I could deal—

Arabella: 24:38

But not that hard

Nicole: 24:40

--deal with it to a certain extent.

Arabella: 24:42

Yeah

Nicole: 24:44

But nah, he won’t closed fist, I don’t think, I don’t think

Arabella: 24:46

No

Nicole: 24:48

-that’s the vibe(Nicole chuckles a little)

Arabella: 24:51

No

Nicole: 24:53

Even though he wears so many wife-beaters(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 24:56

I know(Arabella joins in)

Nicole: 24:59

He’s way too much of a kind-hearted person for real“Undo your hair”, Mike said. I did.“That’s it”, he said.“Right”, I said. “Did you enjoy controlling me?” Like—(disappointed groan) I’m—

Arabella: 25:06

Ohhh. Ohhh Nicky

Nicole: 25:08

I’m a problem to myself“This is just the start of a lot of payback”, he smiled a dimpled smile. Aww, at least I got that

Arabella: 25:12

Yeah, you got the dimpled smile. We love the dimpled smile

Nicole: 25:14

“Have you eaten?”“No, but I’ll be all right”.“I’ll have Melissa order you something you can eat on the bus”, he said, already texting on his phone.“About last night-“ Mike started.“I’m so sorry- ““No, sorry--I’m sorry that I was rough with you”, he told me.“Seriously, don’t worry”, I told him, “It was hot as hell”.“No, no, don’t do that”, he said seriously, “don’t make light of what I’m trying to say. I know better than to have sex when I’m that angry—it could’ve easily gotten out of hand”. I frowned. “You’re normally a little angry though”.(Arabella snorts) He shook his head. Ahhh, he shook his head. No, laughing, Bella, this is a serious matter

Arabella: 25:27

Sorry, sorry, sorrows, prayers, sorrows, prayers

Nicole: 25:29

(Nicole puffs a laugh) He shook his head. “Fake angry—most of the time—also in control of myself. Last night was—” He blew out a long breath. “I had to fight myself really hard and I almost lost”.“I would’ve said no if I didn’t want- ““You did say no”.“No, I said ow a few times, but I did not say no”, I clarified.(Arabella laughs) I mean, say it as it is“You did say no”.“No, I said ow a few times, but not no”, I clarified.“I still didn’t stop and check”, he continued, “normally I stop and check”.“I would’ve used a safe word if I needed it”, I assured him.“Nicole, you and I both know that you need to feel safe to use a safe word”, Mike sighed, “did you feel safe?”“It was obviously different than normal”, I said, “but I did punch you so…” He shook his head. “Which isn’t cool but what I did-”“It was heated”, I told him, “But I didn’t feel really unsafe”.“I’m sorry for my thoughts mostly”. I laughed. “Well, I couldn’t hear your thoughts. Sounds like you mostly scared yourself”.(Nicole laughs) Aww

Arabella: 25:49

Aww, bless

Nicole: 25:51

He nodded. “I fucking did”.

Arabella: 25:53

Aww, bless

Nicole: 25:55

“I’m dead curious though, what were you thinking?”“Ah, Nicole, I don’t think it’s a good idea to tell you—it’ll just make you scared of me—really scared of me”.“No,” Now I really want to fucking know, tell me!

Arabella: 26:00

Yes! So do I!

Nicole: 26:02

Tell me, Michael!

Arabella: 26:04

I want to know the thoughts!

Nicole: 26:06

“No, I’m mightily impressed that you’re having this conversation with me”, I told him, smiling, “the accountability is on fucking point”. And so hot!(Nicole laughs followed by Arabella)

Arabella: 26:10

So hot!

Nicole: 26:12

“Are you sure you want to continue with the agreement?”“Mike, please, yes”, I answered, quickly. “Absolutely. Now please tell me, my imagination is likely to make up something much worse”.“I really wanted to take your ass”, he said, Oh, My, God that’s so hot though!(Screams of pleasurably agony) I am a problem!(Nicole chuckles)

Arabella: 26:20

Which is why you wrote it this way

Nicole: 26:22

I know. Sorry for writing“I really wanted to take your ass”, he said, “even though I know you don’t want to”.“You’re really frustrated that I won’t, aren’t you?”“It’s fine”, he said, “not your problem. But when I’m really angry like that—” He blew out a breath, “I just want to destroy it”.(Many noises of excitement and kinkiness from both Arabella and Nicole) I’m fine, you guys! I’m fine!(More chuckles from Nicole trying to gain control of herself)

Arabella: 26:30

No, you are not!

Nicole: 26:32

“Considering the circumstances, I’m willing to let you but you can’t destroy anything”.(Both burst out laughing)“Considering the circumstances, and I can’t believe I’m saying this—I can’t when I know you don’t want to”.

Arabella: 26:36

Aww

Nicole: 26:38

“It’s not that I don’t want to”, I clarified for a second time, “it’s just that your dick is really intimidating”.(Nicole chuckles)

Arabella: 26:41

Yeah

Nicole: 26:43

Yeah“I know”, he sighed, “it’s not the wonderful thing most men think”.“Same with my boobs”, I smiled, “mostly a hazard really”.

Arabella: 26:47

(Arabella scoffs) So true

Nicole: 26:50

“On that I can’t say much”, he said, “I like them a lot”.“Same for your dick”, I told him, “I’m just not sure I can take it in my arse--yet”. Ooo…I put a little yet, you see?

Arabella: 26:54

A lil’ Oh! A little yet…

Nicole: 26:56

A little, work up to it

Arabella: 26:58

Oh yeah

Nicole: 27:00

“I won’t do anything you don’t want me to do”, he said sincerely, “and learning from recent experiences, I’ll make sure to distinguish between Dom-angry and really angry. When I’m really angry, I shouldn’t come near you—not in a sexual capacity”. Maybe not in most capacities…(Nicole wheezes a laugh and agreeing noises from Arabella) I nodded. “I appreciate that even though that sounds rather annoying considering how often I make you angry”.(Both laugh)

Arabella: 27:06

So true

Nicole: 27:08

I smiled. “I assume you want to punish me for the punching?”“Last night counted”.“Even after everything you said, I think I still liked it too much to consider it a punishment”.

Arabella: 27:12

Yeah, otherwise you’re going to be punching people all over the place

Nicole: 27:14

Yeah!(Nicole laughs) I didn’t say it like that, but I hope that’s what he’s getting!

Arabella: 27:18

Yeah!(Arabella laughs)

Nicole: 27:21

Oooo, this is what you get for punching people, fuck yeah!

Arabella: 27:23

YEAH! Let’s go! (Growling)

Nicole: 27:25

No, I’m not going to punch people, no

Arabella: 27:27

No

Nicole: 27:29

Don’t do that Bad, bad

Arabella: 27:32

Bad, bad

Nicole: 27:34

Bad, bad

Arabella: 27:36

Bad Nicky, not okay

Nicole: 27:38

He laughed. “You want me to punish you?”“Of course I do”, I smiled. “I’m a brat for a reason”. He grinned. “With pleasure”. He laughed a little in relief. “But seriously, punch me again, and- ““I got it, I got it”.“Andrew will want to leave soon”, he reminded both of us. “I’ll take this downstairs”. He grabbed a couple of bags.“I can do it”, I said.(Nicole scoffs)“Not in those heels”, he countered.(Arabella scoffs)“Besides you can’t even walk on a flat surface without shoes”.“This is true”,

Arabella: 27:50

(Arabella laughs loudly) He called you out so hard there!

Nicole: 27:53

I felt highly uncomfortable as I walked out of the front door of the Hyatt and towards the bus. I hid behind the walls and checked if the coast was clear before hopping quickly onto the bus. Suddenly, I’m shy again!

Arabella: 27:56

You did a gremlin run in your heels! And I love it, I can see it in my mind’s eye, and it’s hilarious

Nicole: 27:58

Ah man, I’m such a moosey moose I would soon come to regret my request of punishment. As I always do when it’s a punishment.(Nicole chuckles) I had in mind a funishment. And I don’t know why I had that in mind ‘cause that’s stupid

Arabella: 28:05

Why would you ever?

Nicole: 28:07

I have no idea Not a real punishment. No, of course—(Noises of Nicole trying to understand her own reasoning)

Arabella: 28:12

You punched him in the face

Nicole: 28:14

Yeah I had in mind a funishment, not a real punishment. When I climbed onto the bus, the atmosphere was completely different. Heavy. Mike, the bus driver was the only one who greeted me. The rest of them, even though they had all been cracking jokes with me an hour ago weren’t saying a word to me. Even when I addressed them directly. Including Bella. That betrayer of sorts(Protesting noises from Arabella)

Arabella: 28:20

Hey(Nicole chuckles) You know I don’t like this

Nicole: 28:24

Every time I would address her; she would cringe and look super uncomfortable but not respond.(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 28:27

Yes ‘cause I fucking hate this

Nicole: 28:29

He punished you alongside me

Arabella: 28:31

I know!

Nicole: 28:33

Yeah“Oh, I get it”, I said, aloud. “This is the punishment-”“Yes”, Mike confirmed from behind me.“It’s a bit hardcore getting everyone to ignore me- “ I love how I have a thing to say, still

Arabella: 28:39

Yes

Nicole: 28:41

“It’s Sir”, he told me seriously, “and this isn’t a funishment. It’s a punishment. You punched me, Nicole”.“I’m so sorry”. He just has to say that for the rest of my life and I’ll be like, Oh I’m so sorry!

Arabella: 28:45

Yeah, oh! So sorry!

Nicole: 28:47

Immediately“I’m so sorry”.“You’re about to be even more sorry”, he threatened. I swallowed.“Have you eaten enough?” I nodded.“Use your words”.“Yes, Sir”.“Drink enough water”, he ordered, “in half an hour, go to the toilet—no one will speak to you”.“You’re preparing me for something really unpleasant”.“You punched me in the face”. I sighed. “Yes, Sir”.

I drank a litre of water. The half an hour of unbearable silence was bad enough but at least I had my phone. I listened to music, until Mike interrupted me, instructing: 28:59

“It’s been half an hour—go to the toilet”.(Nicole scoffs) Okay(Arabella makes and uncomfortable sound) For once, I didn’t question him and went to the toilet immediately. Because it does a feel a bit like, where is this going?

Arabella: 29:06

Yeah

Nicole: 29:08

I don’t want to press too many buttons

Arabella: 29:10

No

Nicole: 29:12

‘Cause it already feels like he’s going somewhere harsh

Arabella: 29:14

Yes

Nicole: 29:16

Why do I need to pee and eat and drink? Oh no

Arabella: 29:18

Yes, agghh

Nicole: 29:20

For once, I didn’t question him and went to the toilet immediately.

When I returned, he said: 29:21

“I’m going to tie your hands and feet. Go sit there—out of the way—you’ll be there for two hours”.“Two hours?” I repeated, panicking inside. “Just sitting?”“No speaking, singing, humming—no entertainment- ““No music?”“No”, he confirmed. “Noise cancelling headphones for two hours”.“Sir…I’ll lose my mind!” At least I said Sir.

Arabella: 29:29

Yeah, you did say Sir

Nicole: 29:31

I, I behaved, sort of. Half behaved?

Arabella: 29:33

Maybe

Nicole: 29:35

I just wanted to voice that I honestly think I’m going to lose my mind

Arabella: 29:37

Yes, yes

Nicole: 29:39

“No, you can meditate on what you did”, he answered. “And how your behaviour is going to improve from now on”.“This is brutal, Mike”.“I beg your pardon?”“Yes, Sir”.“Good”. He pushed me down into a seated position on the sofa in the corner. “Hold out your hands”. I did, and he tied them along with my feet. Good Lord“Don’t look at me like that”, he said, as he attached a panel gag over my mouth. “It can’t always be humiliation and impact play—you love them too much—this is hard and uncomfortable so effective”. He placed the headphones on my ears and the clock started ticking…(Arabella makes a sad uncomfortable noise) Can we just quickly insert here, this is so hard but also, I’m not a Dom at all, um—

Arabella: 29:50

No

Nicole: 29:52

But I know for a fact because I’ve heard this said to me multiple times and I can see it in their eyes—when it’s a punishment, like a real one, they know that’s it’s hurting and you’re struggling with, they don’t love, they don’t like punishing you either, you know?

Arabella: 29:54

Yeah. They don’t like this part of it

Nicole: 29:56

Insert story here! I will not tell you who or what, okay? It wasn’t me—

Arabella: 29:58

YES!

Nicole: 30:00

No, no, no, it wasn’t me I can tell you that much. ‘Cause I know better, this, I know for a fact. It was an inexperienced, or like a, a early Brat, ‘cause bratting is quite advanced, you normally don’t hmmm—

Arabella: 30:02

Yeah

Nicole: 30:04

Anyway, but they were a very inexperienced Brat, and a Dom I know that I respect a lot that I know in France, told me, that they are on a two-week silence which is HARSH! It doesn’t mean she’s sitting there in silence, it means he doesn’t contact her, she’s not allowed to contact him for two weeks.

Arabella: 30:06

Fuck

Nicole: 30:08

And here’s what, and I was like—DUDE! That is hella harsh! ‘Cause I’m Californian now.

Arabella: 30:10

Yes

Nicole: 30:12

So, I use words like hella

Arabella: 30:14

Hella, yeah

Nicole: 30:16

(Nicole wheezes a laugh) But

Arabella: 30:19

We’re losing her, we’re losing her, people

Nicole: 30:21

I’m so sorry! My husband’s real annoyed with it sometimes too—

Arabella: 30:23

Yes

Nicole: 30:25

‘Cause I just slip into it now

Arabella: 30:27

You’re not American!

Nicole: 30:29

But

Arabella: 30:31

You are South-African!

Nicole: 30:33

My brain forgets what’s going on, my accents are all mixed together

Arabella: 30:35

Yeah

Nicole: 30:37

Anyway, so—back to the story, stop interrupting—yourself. Stop interrupting yourself!

Arabella: 30:39

Yes, it’s you doing most of it

Nicole: 30:41

So, he punished his Brat by putting her on a two week silence which is—harsh And the reason, ‘cause I was like that is intense, man. And he was like, well let me tell you what she did. And I was like, okay. They were playing, a quite intense, well a decently intense scene, she safe-worded, and when you safe-word it really takes the Dom as much as the Sub completely out of the thing. You stop immediately,

Arabella: 30:44

Yeah

Nicole: 30:46

You untie if they’ve been tied, you remove everything that needs to be removed and then you sit and you have a conversation about what just happened, what just went wrong. Right?

Arabella: 30:48

Yeah

Nicole: 30:50

It’s serious

Arabella: 30:52

Yeah

Nicole: 30:54

I’ve played, I’ve been in the scene, since 2013-ish and I’ve never, no, I’ve safe-worded twice, in how many years is that? Eleven, twelve years. I’ve safe-worded twice. It might’ve been a bit more. But what I’m saying is, when your stuff is properly worked out, you don’t need to safe word normally.

Arabella: 30:56

Yeah

Nicole: 30:58

It’s really just when things go wrong. So, when a safe-word happens, people are on high alert, so she safe-words, and he’s like, oh my god, okay, so—and he’s starting to like overthink as a person—

Arabella: 31:00

He’s worrying

Nicole: 31:02

What happened? We weren’t doing anything super weird, you know, or like, or I was respecting what we discussed, and everything—once he’s got her down, and he goes, okay, what happened? She goes, oh, I was kidding.

Arabella: 31:04

What the actual fuck?

Nicole: 31:06

Yeahhh. Yeah…you don’t, that’s—no.

Arabella: 31:08

You don’t mess about with a safe-word.

Nicole: 31:10

No, hmmm, that is a hard no. So of course, he was like, yeah, okay, get dressed, pack your shit,

Arabella: 31:12

Yeah

Nicole: 31:14

I will see you in two weeks. And I was like okay, I get it now.

Arabella: 31:16

Yeah

Nicole: 31:18

And it worked, they’re still together.(Nicole wheezes a laugh) I mean, they still play together

Arabella: 31:22

Yeah

Nicole: 31:24

But she learnt that lesson, hard

Arabella: 31:26

Hard

Nicole: 31:28

She doesn’t do that anymore

Arabella: 31:30

Yeah, she knows that’s not appropriate, it’s not okay

Nicole: 31:32

And let that, if you guys are planning to dabble, do, that is a no, no, no, no. You don’t know that.

Arabella: 31:35

No

Nicole: 31:37

Just like, you don’t punch your Dom in the face

Arabella: 31:39

Yes, frankly

Nicole: 31:41

Or anyone! I don’t know why I said, your Dom!

Arabella: 31:43

Yeah

Nicole: 31:45

Horrifying! Horrifying! Okay, story-time, over.

Arabella: 31:47

I was admittedly unhappy with the situation. I didn’t like that Mike asked us all to participate in Nicole’s punishment by ignoring her. I also understood that punching Mike was far across the line. It was incredibly hard, and I felt awful.“I need to go to my bunk”, I told them all. “I can’t keep seeing Nicky there so uncomfortable”. She was incredibly quiet besides a little moan every now and again.

Nicole: 31:51

Bless me, I’m doing okay, I’m doing well, sort of

Arabella: 31:53

Your little moans

Nicole: 31:55

Little moans

Arabella: 31:57

They will just be killing me—those little moans

Nicole: 31:59

Exactly, I can tell

Arabella: 32:01

Those little moans would just be killing me!

Nicole: 32:03

It’s killing you more than it’s killing – he’s punishing you more for some reason with me

Arabella: 32:05

Exactly! I’m like—argh, no!(Nicole laughs)“I need to go to my bunk”, I told them all. “I can’t keep seeing Nicky there so uncomfortable”. She was incredibly quiet besides a little moan every now and again.(Nicole moans a little extravagantly)“It’s not going to kill her”, Mike told me.“I know that”, I answered, “though I understand both your perspectives, this is really hard for me to watch”.“She asked to be punished more”.“You chose a really harsh one”.“For her, yes”, Mike confirmed. “I think she needed something to feel like she’s truly off the hook”.“I understand”, I said, “but it’s still hard to see so I’m going to read until she’s free”.“Be our guest”.

Nicole: 32:17

(Little noise of proud of best friend) You’re so sweet, my baby. But he’s right, it won’t kill me(Both making little noises)

Arabella: 32:21

It won’t but neither do I have to deal with it

Nicole: 32:23

Mmm, it would—I would feel like I’m dying!

Arabella: 32:25

Mmm

Nicole: 32:27

But—

Arabella: 32:29

You wouldn’t be able to take it if that was happening to me

Nicole: 32:31

No, for sure, no

Arabella: 32:33

No

Nicole: 32:35

No

Arabella: 32:37

I got up and prepared to read in my bunk.“Bella”, Mike called. “What if after this I let her choose a funishment she’d enjoy?”“That would be cool”, I smiled, “but if you really want her to enjoy it—it can’t be too easy and has to be a little humiliating”.(Nicole chuckles)“I’m aware of who I’m working with”.

Nicole: 32:43

I love like, yeah(Arabella laughs) Just so you know—I know, I know what—I know

Arabella: 32:47

It’s all right, I got her, I got her figured out(Nicole chuckles)

Nicole: 32:50

After what felt like years, because I’m such an exaggerator, but also because it’s so hard to sit still—

Arabella: 32:53

But to be honest, it would feel like a very fucking long time, you’ve got no visual stimulants, no, no, he’s not blind-folded you—

Nicole: 32:55

I do. No, he didn’t blind-fold—ah, ooo—he’s a smart man, he didn’t(Arabella chuckles) He didn’t blind-fold me on purpose…he cancelled my hearing, and tied me—

Arabella: 32:59

--and your speech—

Nicole: 33:01

--so I couldn’t move and my speaking, but I can see all the fun happening around me and I can’t hear what you guys are saying but I can see you talking.

Arabella: 33:03

You would’ve seen me flounce off too

Nicole: 33:05

So, he’s chosen, he was very smart, because I must have FOMO’d, I promise you—

Arabella: 33:07

Yeah

Nicole: 33:09

Also, two hours on tour with your favourite band and now you can’t—now you have to sit in the corner—

Arabella: 33:11

And quietly and you can’t hear, you can’t speak—you can’t move—Ohhhh

Nicole: 33:13

Exactly but I punched him in the face!

Arabella: 33:15

You did punch him in the face. You deserve this.

Nicole: 33:17

I deserve probably a little bit more than this

Arabella: 33:19

Yes, you do

Nicole: 33:21

But thing is, I feel like it was such an awful thing to do, I think he could punish me for the rest of my life, and I’d be like—a little bit more? Is probably necessary

Arabella: 33:23

Please? More! Yes!(Nicole chuckles)

Nicole: 33:26

Mike took the headphones off my ears and the gag off my mouth. I didn’t say anything. He untied my wrists, and ankles.“Do you need the toilet?” I nodded.“Go”. When I returned, he gave me a bottle of water. There was also apple and cheese on crackers.(Nicole puffs a laugh) Bless.“Eat, drink”, he instructed, “do you need to walk around a little?” I nodded.“You can speak now”. I nodded again, and walked up and down the hallway, drinking the water.“Nicole”, Mike said, sounding concerned. “Do you need a hug?” I shook my head.“I know that was really hard”, he said, gently, “I won’t do something that hard on you again unless you really deserve it. I’m impressed; you handled it well. You’ll be off the hook after one more small punishment”. It’s so cute, ‘cause it’s like, he’s like, trying a lot of things, he’s like, I know that was hard, um—you know, but you deserved it but, I’m impressed, you did really well, you know you’re fine now, he’s like--

Arabella: 33:42

Yes

Nicole: 33:44

He’s like, what is happening here?

Arabella: 33:46

He’s like, why, why is she so quiet? Yeah, what is happening?

Nicole: 33:48

Something is not normal!

Arabella: 33:50

He’s panicking! He’s panicking now.

Nicole: 33:52

I nodded.“Are you punishing me now?” he asked, “do you want me to call you a good girl?” AAAAAAAWWWWWWWWWWWWWW!

Arabella: 33:56

Awwwww Bless him! He is hardcore panicking!

Nicole: 33:58

He is, this is, this is, I mean, this is the Dom

Arabella: 34:00

Yes

Nicole: 34:02

But it’s the Dom going slightly into human mode umm

Arabella: 34:04

Yes

Nicole: 34:06

Which is normal.

Arabella: 34:08

Yes

Nicole: 34:10

‘Cause we spend all this time together and we can’t constantly be in Dom-mode. He got shocked out of it, he was like, oh shit!

Arabella: 34:12

Yes

Nicole: 34:14

Oh shit! I nodded.“Are you punishing me now?” he asked, “do you want me to call you a good girl?” I shook my head.

When I still didn’t speak, he said: 34:18

“Shit, did I break you? Call me asshole—”(Both laugh) I laughed. “If you give me permission, it takes away the fun…dickhead”.(Both laugh again) He sighed, relieved, “There you are”.

Arabella: 34:24

Never in the history of his life, has he been so happy to be called a dickhead.

Nicole: 34:26

Yeah, he was like, oh shit!

Arabella: 34:28

I broke her! Oh, crap

Nicole: 34:30

Nah, it’s not that easy to break me, pfft, come on(Arabella snorts) Also I love that he um, yeah but yeah, asshole is thank you in brat, you know?

Arabella: 34:34

Yeah

Nicole: 34:36

Ah, maybe they shouldn’t know—nah, joking“It was intense”, I told him, and without being able to help it, started crying.

Arabella: 34:39

Ohhh, baby

Nicole: 34:41

I cry a lot these days

Arabella: 34:43

You do

Nicole: 34:45

He stood up and hugged me. “It’s okay let it out”. I cried against him for a while. Bella and Jason, Bella and Jason came to check on us, but we assured them that I was just detoxifying the intensity. Yeah, I would definitely need to cry after two hours of just sitting there!

Arabella: 34:49

Yeah

Nicole: 34:51

Mike kissed my head, and in half an hour, I was back to normal.

Arabella: 34:53

Aww

Nicole: 34:55

Aww, look—hitting him in the face, and then him punishing me really harshly, actually brought us closer together?

Arabella: 34:57

Yes

Nicole: 34:59

Don’t do this though!

Arabella: 35:01

No, bad way to do this!

Nicole: 35:03

Bad

Arabella: 35:05

Bad

Nicole: 35:07

But I hope this story has taught everyone a—a thing I hurried past the small kitchen and bunk beds to where four of the five band members sat with the Miller brothers. Who apparently joined us while I was tied up.

Arabella: 35:11

Yeah

Nicole: 35:13

And probably been like—what the F? And then, you know Bella was sitting on Zander’s lap.

Arabella: 35:16

Yeah

Nicole: 35:18

“Hey, guys”, I greeted, hoping that they would all just not talk about what had just happened.(Nicole laughs) Like very publicly there, like yeah“Where are you going?” Jason asked, raising his eyebrows. All of them turned their attention to me.“With you, obviously. Now stop staring at me”.“You shouldn’t have worn that if you didn’t want people staring”, Zander said, matter-of-factly.“I didn’t dress myself today”, I explained. “That should be obvious. It feels weird not wearing a bra”. Oh God, does it feel weird

Arabella: 35:28

Yeah

Nicole: 35:30

I’m doing a show this weekend, you guys, and there’s like two dresses that my underwear didn’t arrive for—and uh—

Arabella: 35:32

So, we gaffa taped her

Nicole: 35:34

I have to do gaffa tape with like breast—what do you call the little—uh—breastfeeding pads—

Arabella: 35:36

Patches, yeah

Nicole: 35:38

To cover my nipples and then duct tape that to my breast—

Arabella: 35:40

To hold them in place

Nicole: 35:42

It doesn’t even keep them up really, it just keeps them in place—

Arabella: 35:44

No, no

Nicole: 35:46

--so I don’t have a nip-slip

Arabella: 35:48

Because there’s like, there’s like a triangle cut out between her boobs and her ribcage

Nicole: 35:50

Yeah

Arabella: 35:52

In the dress

Nicole: 35:54

Yeah

Arabella: 35:56

So, we gotta be careful that a nipple doesn’t slip out there

Nicole: 35:58

Yeah

Arabella: 36:00

And it’s just like—oh shit. So yeah—we were gaffa taping her up today—well, obviously, I wasn’t physically there doing it, but I was helping—over the phone

Nicole: 36:02

Bella was watching me on a video trying to gaffa tape my boobs

Arabella: 36:04

And giving and giving and trying to give suggestions and work-out how to do it

Nicole: 36:06

The stuff we go through for our, for boobs but anyway, long story short, um—not wearing a bra —not fun. But I guess what he’s making me wear is a lot tighter.

Arabella: 36:08

Yeah

Nicole: 36:10

And it’s like corset-y-er and pushes up

Arabella: 36:12

It’s going to sort of bind you a little

Nicole: 36:14

A little bit more at least push up everything so it’s up here

Arabella: 36:16

Yeah

Nicole: 36:18

‘Cause my—as you’ve heard in previous episodes, I have mutant breasts!(Nicole chuckles)

Arabella: 36:21

She does

Nicole: 36:23

So underwear, ugh, hard, hard, hard, hard“I didn’t dress myself today”, I explained. “That should be obvious. It feels weird not wearing a bra”. I sighed and leaned against the wall next to Mark Miller. “Looks weird too”.“Where’s Mike?” Noah asked.“Somewhere on the bus, surely”, I replied.(Nicole chuckles at the obvious statement)“I hear you give an awesome blow job”, Mark said.“Oh, great!” I said, sarcastically. “So, I guess the whole world can know now. You can put it on a fucking t-shirt”.(Both laugh) Don’t do that! Tell the head of Merch to put it on a t-shirt, he might fucking do it!

Arabella: 36:34

Do it! Exactly, what are you doing, Nicky?! Don’t give ideas!

Nicole: 36:36

She gives a great blow job… The Band and the Miller brothers laughed in unison.“I can hear you moaning from all the way up the bus”, Mike said, materialising behind me.“I think you look good”, Bella said to me.“Kindly direct your comment towards the frontman”, I said. “He’s the star of today’s attire”. Zander chuckled. “You’re very talented, Mike”.(Both chuckle)“Don’t worry”, Jason smiled at me. “At least everyone will know you’re not hiding anything in there”.“That’s not what I was worried about”, I told him,(Both laugh) But that’s such a Jason-thing to comment!

Arabella: 36:48

Yeah

Nicole: 36:50

We can tell you’re not hiding anything because that’s what I’d be thinking about. No, Jason! Stop

Arabella: 36:52

No

Nicole: 36:54

“That’s not what I was worried about”, I told him, then winked, “and you can hide things elsewhere”.(Both laugh) Jason chuckled.“Stop flirting”, Mike said, but not unkindly.“Bella mentioned you did karate”, Zander said.“You did karate?” Jason asked, surprised.“I do karate”, I told them.“As we can see”, Noah said, gesturing to Mike.“For the last time-“ Mike said exasperatedly.“Mike’s right”, I admitted. “I cheated, but I could’ve probably caused the same amount of damage if you did know you were in a fight”. Oh, I’m back!(Arabella scoffs a laugh) I’m back!

Arabella: 37:08

Yeah, there she is!

Nicole: 37:10

Mike narrowed his eyes at me. “That’s an easy accusation to make when you know I’ll never allow you to prove it.”“What does that mean?”“I won’t hit you”.“You never know”, I said, “if I piss you off enough- ““You’re on thin ice already, you know”.“Always am”, I smiled.(Both laugh)“Anyway,”

Arabella: 37:19

Ain’t that the fucking truth!

Nicole: 37:21

Yeah“Anyway, you might want to put some make-up on that eye of yours”.“What would the point be?”“You’d be easier on the eye”.(Nicole laughs loudly) Yeahhh! I laughed, loudly at my own joke.

Arabella: 37:29

Like she did, just there, by herself, because she is a moose.(Nicole sticks her tongue out audibly at Arabella and Arabella sticks hers out right back)

Nicole: 37:32

“That was awful!” Mike said. “Don’t make me tape your mouth shut”.(Arabella scoffs)“Stop flirting”, I told him.(Nicole laughs) The rest of them laughed.

Arabella: 37:38

“You only think it’s lame because it’s about you”

Nicole: 37:40

Bella told Mike.“So, about the rules”, I said, “am I allowed to have sex with women?”“No”.“Why the hell not?” I demanded. “They’re not in The Band- “ He sighed. “You’re in no position to ask favours at the moment”.“But—I have a get out of jail free card because of the photoshoot-”(Nicole huffs a laugh)“I said minor rule-breaking”,(Nicole huffs another laugh) Mike chuckled.(Arabella laughs croakily)“Punching me in the fucking face is not minor, you terror”.(Both burst out laughing) Bless. No one’s ever called me a terror with so much—um—what is the word, like—uuuhh what is the word—like—beautiful softness—like—um—

Arabella: 37:55

Yes—affection!

Nicole: 37:57

Affection! You terror.(Nicole chuckles again with Arabella)“I thought I already paid for that?”“You did”, he responded, “but there’s one more to come, for not telling me about your sleepover with Jay, but I’ll allow you to pick what it is”. Oh that’s right! I didn’t fucking—pay for that one yet!

Arabella: 38:03

No, nope

Nicole: 38:05

But then I did a worse thing and okay--

Arabella: 38:07

Yeah, exactly! So that needed to be dealt with first

Nicole: 38:09

Gosh, bless him, oooof—he must like brats a lot! To deal with this bullshit“Oh, that’s cool”, I said, “I can choose anything I want?”“It has to be a funishment-“ he repeated, “and it can’t be too easy”. Oh, it won’t be easy.(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 38:15

No, no, never

Nicole: 38:17

Where’s the challenge in that?

Arabella: 38:19

And. Exactly, right? And that’s where we leave you for today’s episode. So, guys, so—what did you think? Do you think she was punished enough? Do you think she deserved more? Tell us, tell us your thoughts

Nicole: 38:22

Uh—

Arabella: 38:24

Your feelings

Nicole: 38:26

I definitely feel I deserved more

Arabella: 38:28

Yeah(Big sigh from Nicole) Yeah, and to come back so sassy, straight off the bat

Nicole: 38:32

Yeah—

Arabella: 38:34

Good morning (Singing)

Nicole: 38:36

--it’s a problem, it’s a problem. But at the same time, there wouldn’t be a story without it. It is, it is me, but it’s exaggerated. Again, please don’t—please don’t think—

Arabella: 38:38

Yes

Nicole: 38:40

Basically, I think I’m really nervous, I keep being like, no, it’s not really me, because I want, I know that there are some really lovely Doms going to be listening to this and I don’t want them to be put off! I won’t punch you in the face, I promise! I promise.(Arabella croaks a chuckle) This is just for the story. I will not punch you in the face.

Arabella: 38:44

It’s all fiction, guys

Nicole: 38:46

Especially because I know it’ll be very harmful.

Arabella: 38:48

Yes

Nicole: 38:50

I’m not allowed by law actually,

Arabella: 38:52

She’s really not

Nicole: 38:54

By law I’m not allowed to start a fight first. Because of my training.

Arabella: 38:56

She’s—she’s literally qualified—she’s, she’s um, the terminology is you are a lethal weapon

Nicole: 38:58

Is that what the terminology is? Okay

Arabella: 39:00

I thought you told me that!

Nicole: 39:02

No, I just know that the law—

Arabella: 39:04

I thought that’s what you told me! You’re classed as a lethal weapon!

Nicole: 39:06

The law in Europe says or is it the UK, I don’t know, that if I were to be attacked in any way or if I had to enter a fight, I need to legally tell them that I can harm them very seriously. But I always found that that’s such a shit law because it doesn’t deescalate the situation in any fucking way whatsoever. Someone wants to—

Arabella: 39:08

Yeah, it just puts up a challenge!

Nicole: 39:10

Yeah. Someone wants to come at you and you’re like oh, by the way, I’m a black belt in karate, you sound like a dickhead!

Arabella: 39:12

Yes

Nicole: 39:14

So, I don’t do it, but I also don’t get into fights. The only time I’ve ever had to use it was in competitions, or if I’ve had to use it in the street, it was to literally defend myself—so it was someone like grabbing me from behind—then yes, I’m not even going to think about it and you’re going to be in trouble. It was helping my brother when we got off the bus when people were like giving us crap, and I didn’t have to do anything,

Arabella: 39:16

Yeah

Nicole: 39:18

I literally just put my arm on this guy’s arm, my hand on his arm, and I looked him in the eyes, and I went, ‘let go of my brother’, and he looked me in the eyes, and went, ‘okay’. Because—

Arabella: 39:21

Yeah. ‘Cause you got crazy in those eyes(Nicole laughs) He saw the crazy. That’s where you guys,(Part of the sentence swallowed by a laugh) we’re going to leave you—and we hope you’re back next week, for Episode 17, Our Little Secret.

Nicole: 39:28

Ooooooooooo

Arabella: 39:30

Ooooooooooo

Nicole: 39:32

That sounds so, so creepy

Arabella: 39:34

It really does(Nicole laughs)

Nicole: 39:37

See you next week, everyone! Bye -bye.

Arabella: 39:39

Yeah, bye! Thank you, as always, for listening to us. Please follow us on all our socials, interact with us. We love it, and please don't forget to subscribe and share.

Nicole: 39:43

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Arabella: 39:45

Thank you. Please and thank you, thank you and please.(Theme music plays out with lyrics)“…. Hanging on to everything you said. And everything you did was so wonderful! So unbelievable! What is this world without you? We’re hanging on to what you were, even if it hurts!...”