Slippery Sucker

The dangerous territory between desire and restraint is rarely mapped with such raw honesty as in this episode of Unruly Confessions. When Nicole finds herself rejected by Mike, her wounded pride and physical frustration lead her down a path that threatens her dynamic with Mike once again.

After a movie night watching American Psycho turns sexually tense, Nicole makes the fateful decision to sneak to Carter's room while Mike sleeps. Their playful yet forbidden encounter satisfies her immediate needs but carries devastating consequences when Jason catches her leaving in the early morning hours. His confrontation leaves Nicole trembling—not with pleasure, but with the stomach-dropping realization that her actions could end her tour experience entirely.

The morning brings a false sense of euphoria that quickly dissolves into panic when Nicole finds herself seated between Mike and Carter at breakfast. Caught between her guilt and Jason's watchful gaze, she makes another critical error that sends Mike storming away from the table. Now facing an ultimatum to confess everything or be sent home, Nicole must grapple with the consequences of putting momentary desire above relationship boundaries.

What makes this fictional narrative so compelling is how it explores the messy reality of human desire without glamorizing poor decisions. Nicole and Arabella masterfully weave humour throughout even the tensest moments, creating a story that feels authentic despite its dramatic elements. They consistently remind listeners that while the characters' choices create engaging fiction, they shouldn't serve as relationship models.

If you've ever found yourself caught between what you want and what you know is right, this episode will resonate deeply. Listen as Nicole navigates the aftermath of her choices and consider what you might do facing Jason's ultimatum: confess everything by morning or lose it all.

Chapters

• 0:00 Disclaimers
• 0:44 Welcome Back To Unruly Confessions
• 3:17 Recap: The Funishment and Bus Encounter
• 8:20 Movie Night Gets Intense
• 30:42 Sticky Gets Sneaky
• 1:05:29 The Guilty Grin
• 1:18:12 Jason Rains Down Hellfire
• 1:26:49 Idle Hands
• 1:29:57 See You Next Week!

Transcript

0:00

Unruly Confessions Ep 18 – Slippery Sucker

Arabella: 0:03

The following podcast contains adult themes, graphic sexual content, strong language, alcohol and drug references, and some infrequent violence. Everything you need for a wild ride.

Nicole: 0:05

The Band we have created for the podcast was inspired by many of our favourite bands, but they are all made up and fictional and most of the events are fictional too. Some of the events are inspired by things Bella and I have experienced, but the story as a whole is fictional.(Podcast theme music plays – Rat Head by Big Mouse Tree House) Welcome back to Unruly Confessions, everybody! My name’s Nicole, and this is my best friend--

Arabella: 0:10

Arabella...Hi, guys! How’re you doing?

Nicole: 0:12

How’s everyone doing?

Arabella: 0:14

How’re you doing, Nicole?

Nicole: 0:16

I’m awesome! We have some interesting news to share on the subject of equipment ... no...

Arabella: 0:18

Uh huh, uh huh—no, get your minds out of the gutter. This is not that sort of podcast.(Arabella cans herself at her own joke)

Nicole: 0:21

No, obviously not.(Both laugh) Where have you guys been? All we do, we talk here about purity culture--

Arabella: 0:25

Oh my God.(Nicole snorts) Yes, so pure!

Nicole: 0:29

Uhh—gosh. No,

Arabella: 0:32

Ohhhh no.

Nicole: 0:34

We are not talking about that kind of equipment for once.

Arabella: 0:36

For once.

Nicole: 0:38

We are talking about our actual sound equipment. Bella has got--

Arabella: 0:40

A new microphone!

Nicole: 0:42

Whoo!!

Arabella: 0:44

My old one, which Nicole hated--

Nicole: 0:46

With a fiery passion. You will hear this soon in outtakes and some of the gag reel we’re going to post for the second part of the season. Some extra bonus content for you. You'll hear like eight percent of the time; I’m like, FUCK YOUR MIC!(Both laugh)

Arabella: 0:49

Exactly. So finally, I had to send it back because it wasn’t even a year old.

Nicole: 0:51

Yup.

Arabella: 0:53

So, I sent it back and I’ve got the same mic as Nicole, and I’ve got my own little, tiny, mini mixing board that’s really cute. It’s so small!

Nicole: 0:55

Yes. It’s very good. It’s all you need really for this kind of thing.

Arabella: 0:57

Yes.

Nicole: 0:59

So--

Arabella: 1:01

But we hope that you now enjoy the much better sound quality--

Nicole: 1:03

Of Bella’s voice--

Arabella: 1:05

That we deliver to you.

Arabella & Nicole: 1:07

Mmmmm Hmmmm

Nicole: 1:09

And it’ll make my job as the editor so much hhhhh---hhhhh—easier. Why did I say harder?

Arabella: 1:11

It’ll be easier.(Both laugh) I don’t know. I think you’re used to things making it harder.

Nicole: 1:15

That’s true.(Arabella laughs theatrically and like a villain) I have gained skill because of very annoying things making it harder but now—because it’s the exact same mic, our inputs are the same, how the volume is set up is the same, it’s going to be a game changer, y’all. Oh!

Arabella: 1:19

We are—oh, okay, hello American you. Whaaaaaat? Y’all!

Nicole: 1:21

I just—speak to too many Americans these days.(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 1:24

You’ve yeed your last--

Arabella & Nicole: 1:26

--haw, padner!

Nicole: 1:28

Right.(Arabella laughs) So, without further ado, let us get Bella to recap last week’s Episode 17 - Our little Secret.

Arabella: 1:32

Our little secret. Last week on Unruly Confessions, Nicole and I were bored on the bus which leads us to deciding what her funishment would be before she’s allowed to go and play with me.

Nicole: 1:35

Yay

Arabella: 1:37

Because, yes, we need entertainment, people.

Nicole: 1:39

Totally

Arabella: 1:41

Don’t let us get bored.(Nicole laughs) It is not a clever, it is not a safe thing to do.

Nicole: 1:45

No

Arabella: 1:47

After a little chase Mike caught Nicole and doled out her punishment of 20 lashes with Mikes belt whilst she was bare-arsed and facing the entire band and me for a good dose of humiliation…

Nicole: 1:49

Oh, fun--

Arabella: 1:51

which she loved--

Nicole: 1:53

Yeah, I did.(Nicole chuckles)

Arabella: 1:56

She loves it, she likes to pretend that she doesn’t, but she does.

Nicole: 1:58

That’s part of the fun. If you just look like you like it, it’s--not fun.

Arabella: 2:00

Yeah. Mhaa. In a little twist at the end, he decided that Jay would deliver the last two by hand prompting Nicky to give away with her noises how excited that made her. Yeah,(Nicole huffs a laugh) She was trying to moan in pain and it did not work—it was, it was not

Nicole: 2:04

Pleasure.

Arabella: 2:06

Moans of pain.

Nicole: 2:08

Pleasure sounds came out.

Arabella: 2:10

It really was

Nicole: 2:12

But to be fair because of who I am as a person, my pain and pleasure sounds are similar.

Arabella: 2:14

Very similar.

Nicole: 2:16

Just ask my tattoo artist, he’ll tell you.(Both laugh) Are you doing okay there, Nicole? You sure?

Arabella: 2:20

Yup, yes.(Nicole sighs) The next day we were back on the bus to Bern when the bus got a flat tire. Whilst we waited for that to be fixed the guys played baseball with no shirts on.(Both make appreciative, angelic choir noises) I watched appreciatively and Nicky needing a break from all the excitement was reading alone on the bus until Carter walked in.

Nicole: 2:26

Hmmmm

Arabella: 2:28

Fuck my life. They flirted a lot(Nicole huffs a laugh) Which led to quick and dirty sex against the wall half forgetting that anyone could walk in on them….at any moment...the fucking twats.

Nicole: 2:32

Oh yeah, we got carried away, away.

Arabella: 2:34

Yes you did.(Nicole giggles) You like took off tops and all sorts.

Nicole: 2:38

Yeah, nutty.

Arabella: 2:40

Yeah. Luckily just after they had finished and got dressed, almost like she wrote this, everyone else bundled on board again…both Jay and I were super suspicious because we know. Yeah, we could see it written all over your faces.

Nicole: 2:42

Yes, ‘cause Jay knows Carter and you know me--

Arabella: 2:44

You dirty savages.

Nicole: 2:46

And together you were like, what is this?(Nicole breathily chuckles)

Arabella: 2:49

I do not trust this, this is, something has happened.

Nicole: 2:51

Yup

Arabella: 2:53

In the new hotel after Nicole finishes a quick call with her mum, Mike asked what she would like to do that evening as there was nothing planned. This ends up being a movie night. When Nicky goes to find the rest of us to invite us, she came across Jay and Carter and then had a really awkward conversation, not realising they were both talking about different things that happened with Carter. He panics and sends Jay off, Nicole and Carter whilst in a lift, squabble over almost blowing their secret shag and have to stop themselves before it happens again right there in the lift.

Nicole: 2:55

Yes

Arabella: 2:57

You stupid, stupid mooses.

Nicole: 2:59

Thank you. But also, what is really funny about this part,

Arabella: 3:01

You’re welcome.

Nicole: 3:03

Just to give our ages away some more is—this originally was a—um,(Arabella croaks a laugh) this scene originally took place in a Blockbuster.(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 3:08

Because Netflix did not exist and people, you know we went to rent DVDs--

Nicole: 3:10

And naturally, you would just show up with the Rhythm Guitarist of the Band—just like, can we have some DVDs please?

Arabella: 3:12

Yeah, in Blockbuster.

Nicole: 3:14

This is normal.

Arabella: 3:16

Yep

Nicole: 3:18

But that’s all good.(Nicole chuckles) But yeah, I remember we were like, we were like, having this hiii, this hissing argument in the Blockbuster

Arabella: 3:22

Yes

Nicole: 3:24

And pulling each other like into the Adult Section so we could like

Arabella: 3:26

Talk

Nicole: 3:28

Hiss at each other some more!

Arabella: 3:30

Yes(Both laugh)

Nicole: 3:33

Anyway, but obviously, it changed because now we’ve updated it to the times. Sort of.

Arabella: 3:35

Yes, sort of.

Nicole: 3:37

Mostly.(Nicole cackles)

Arabella: 3:40

Mostly with a few, few little bits where we didn’t

Nicole: 3:42

Exactly.

Arabella: 3:44

Remember to.

Nicole: 3:46

So, what I would like to know is—what is going to happen during this movie night. So, Bella, please take us away.

Arabella: 3:48

Yes, for Episode 18 - Slippery Sucker.(Podcast theme music plays – Rat Head by Big Mouse Tree House)

Nicole: 3:51

When we arrived back at Mike and my suite, we found everybody already waiting for us. Standard.

Arabella: 3:54

Standard

Nicole: 3:56

Zander was spread out on the sofa with Bella half-lying on top of him. Seems fun.(Nicole chuckles)

Arabella: 4:00

I like it, I’ll take it!

Nicole: 4:02

Mike was sitting on one of the recliners. Jason was laying down on the floor in front of the television, curled up in a duvet with Noah sitting next to him, eating crisps. There were a couple of six-packs already on the ground between them. And we actually made a note here because, while we were editing it, Bella went, make a note for when we record, because there was a huge typo in this from when I wrote it 16 years ago. That said there were dozens of six packs...(Nicole laughs hard)

Arabella: 4:06

Dozens of six packs! It's like, Daaaammmnnn! We’re going to some sort of party alcoholics here.(Arabella chuckles)

Nicole: 4:09

Yeah, no, there weren't dozens, there were like two six packs you know.

Arabella: 4:11

Yeah, yeah.

Nicole: 4:13

Between these five guys, they could drink dozens of six packs.(Both laugh) No, oh my gosh okay,(Arabella sighs out of laughing) Especially not now--

Arabella: 4:19

Yeah

Nicole: 4:21

Because they would have a stroke(Both laugh) at their age.(Continues laughing) No offense. Forties. Isn't that what they call them in the States?

Arabella: 4:27

I think that was a specific thing though.

Nicole: 4:29

Oh, that's a specific thing, I thought it was like a type of six-pack.

Arabella: 4:31

Americans help us out here.

Nicole: 4:33

What the fuck is a Forty?

Arabella: 4:35

We don’t know. Please tell us we have no idea.

Nicole: 4:37

We could probably google it, but that's boring, so please tell us

Arabella: 4:39

Yeah

Nicole: 4:41

Your thoughts.

Arabella: 4:43

Please do.

Nicole: 4:45

“What took you so long?” Mike asked, frowning.“We—uh—went looking for Noah, Bella and Zander-“ I answered quickly.“But you knew I went to get them-“ Jason looked from me to Carter.“Yeah, well-“ Carter started.“Fine—we were fighting”, I admitted. “Well, disagreeing”. Yeah, ‘cause fighting sounds like—(Both laugh)

Arabella & Nicole: 4:53

Fisticuffs!(They laugh even harder)

Nicole: 4:56

“I thought you guys were getting over that-“ Mike raised his eyebrows. “What were you disagreeing over?”“Choice of movies”, Carter said.“Then it escalated”, I told them, “but it’s okay—we’re good now. Right, Carter?”“Sure- “

Arabella: 5:01

That sounds so, so sure!

Nicole: 5:03

Shhh. We never sound sure so...

Arabella: 5:05

No

Nicole: 5:07

Carter sat down on one of the other recliners on the other side of the sofa Zander and Bella were occupying. So far fucking away from me basically(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 5:11

Yeah, literally putting all the space he can possibly put between you guys.

Nicole: 5:13

Aye-yai-yai!“What are we watching?” I asked everyone, remaining standing.“Shawshank Redemption and American Psycho”, Zander answered.“Interesting”.“I’ve seen you read the book”, Jason added, “I thought you’d like to see the movie- ““Thanks”, I smiled. “It might shock you to learn that I’m not only a fan of girly films-” Jason laughed. “Doesn’t shock at all...I’m a good judge of character!”“Oh, and what does your intuition say about me, Jay?”“You”

Arabella: 5:23

Don’t go there!

Nicole: 5:25

I know why would I ask something like that?

Arabella: 5:27

Why would you ask that question?

Nicole: 5:29

I don’t know.“You sometimes hide your fear of intimacy by being extra blunt and shocking”, he said. “And liking things that are physically intense, so you don’t have to feel the intimacy”. Fuck!

Arabella: 5:33

Nailed you! Nailed, nailed to the door.

Nicole: 5:35

Yup, not in the way I want to be.(Nicole laughs and Arabella cackles) Shitting bricks over here.(More laughter)“Uh--okay, sorry I asked”, I answered sincerely.(The end of that sentence being said with such ennui)

Arabella: 5:42

Oh baby!

Nicole: 5:44

“And for the same reason, you don’t dare to commit one hundred percent to your dreams—in fear of failing”.(Nicole gasps) Woah, woah, woah, woah He’s calling me out again in front of everybody.

Arabella: 5:48

Yeah

Nicole: 5:50

“That’s most people”, I pointed out.“Yes, but you’re incredible and deserve to do what you love, “ he said, compassionately and my heart glowed.“Right”, Mike said

Arabella: 5:54

Oh, like a little care bear.

Nicole: 5:56

I know, he is! He’s also probably trying to make up very slightly for before.

Arabella: 5:58

Maybe, yeah.

Nicole: 6:00

Plus, he must be so—urgh, the lines are so blurred now because we did the whole like, don’t drool over me, and now it’s like, and then we did the whole thing on the bus where he had to spank me as well, and now we’re here.

Arabella: 6:02

Yeah

Nicole: 6:04

He must be like, what the fuck is happening?

Arabella: 6:06

I think everyone’s confused.

Nicole: 6:08

Yep, we’re all getting too bluhlughlughlugh (Noises that make no sense) blurred.(Both laugh) I don’t know how else--

Arabella: 6:13

Can you make that noise again?

Nicole: 6:15

I don’t know how else to explain, all of us just morphing into one ball of energy, basically.(We both giggle)

Arabella: 6:18

Can you do that again(Tries to imitate the same turkey-like noise)

Nicole: 6:21

I don’t think I can.(Nicole attempts the noise again which leads to them both laughing again)“Right”, Mike said, abruptly changing the subject. “What are we watching first?”“American Psycho”, Noah suggested.“I hope I don’t regret this”, I said as I picked up the remote for the tv. “Don’t get any ideas, Mike”. I flicked onto the correct film on Netflix. Oh, we updated that.

Arabella: 6:27

Yes, we did!

Nicole: 6:29

Bella, do you want to tell everyone?

Arabella: 6:31

Not the GPS, though.

Nicole: 6:33

Do you want to tell everyone what this was like 15 years ago?

Arabella: 6:35

DVDs, baby. Hundreds of DVDs.

Nicole: 6:37

You guys know the fight that Carter and I had in the Lift 15 years ago. When I first wrote this, it was in a Blockbuster.(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 6:40

It really was. They went to a Blockbuster--

Nicole: 6:42

We got--I went to a Blockbuster with the rhythm guitarist of the Band, just casual, just like, yeah, we're gonna take some DVDs out, this is normal.(Both keep laughing) I wish we had kept that, just for like. I bet a lot of people are our age or around our age and remember this, or older, you know?

Arabella: 6:46

Yeah.

Nicole: 6:48

Bless us...anyway,

Arabella: 6:50

Ahhh that’s funny

Nicole: 6:52

But now we've updated it to Netflix. Well done us.

Arabella: 6:54

Yes. But our GPS, does still acquire satellites.

Nicole: 6:57

Apparently that part we didn’t update. I laughed at my own joke. “I’m a deep sleeper, so I’d be dead before I feel anything”. What the fuck am I doing?(Arabella laughs uncomfortably) What the shit am I talking about?

Arabella: 7:03

I don’t know.(Arabella giggles some more)

Nicole: 7:06

“If I wanted to kill you, I’d wake you up”, Mike said. “Just to hear you scream”.(Arabella croaks) Ahhhh-

Arabella: 7:10

DAAAYUM!

Nicole: 7:12

He matched my freak!(Nicole laughed)

Arabella: 7:15

Whooo! Oh yeah

Nicole: 7:17

He matched it real good.(Both keep laughing) I looked at him with such concern that everybody burst out laughing.‘Cause he’s obviously kidding, y'all.

Arabella: 7:22

Yeah. Yeah.

Nicole: 7:24

Just ignore that I did that, just ignore that I went, y’all...at the end there.

Arabella: 7:26

Yas

Nicole: 7:28

But he’s obviously kidding.“That was creepy”.

Arabella: 7:31

“No, what’s creepy is that it turned you on”

Nicole: 7:33

“Bella, seriously” I blushed.(Booth laugh) But true. I mean, people know me by now.

Arabella: 7:37

Exactly, nobody is shocked or surprised by this.

Nicole: 7:39

No“Just play the movie, Nicole”, Mike said with a wide, playful smile. Just to make sure, he doesn’t look as creepy anymore.(Nicole wheezes a laugh)

Arabella: 7:44

Yes

Nicole: 7:46

I grabbed the remote and sat down with my back against Mike’s recliner. I played the film and turned up the volume a little bit.“Dammit, the light’s still on”, I said, getting up again to turn the main light off.“Better”. I sat back down as the credits came on.(Both laugh)

Arabella: 7:51

You’re just talking to yourself

Nicole: 7:53

I am because that’s how I roll. Also--

Arabella: 7:55

Even the next line is yours

Nicole: 7:57

Also, these guys are not ready, they’re about to find out how much I talk in movies.(Nicole sucks her breath in through her teeth)

Arabella: 8:00

Yeah, they ‘re going to hate you

Nicole: 8:02

And so do you

Arabella: 8:04

I’m not that bad!

Nicole: 8:06

Sure“Christian Bale’s in this!” I said, excitedly. “I love him!”“He’s the lead”, Mike said.

Arabella: 8:10

“Don’t pretend we haven’t watched it together at least three times- “

Nicole: 8:12

“What?”“Sorry, Jay”, I said. He was lying on my right, wrapped up in his duvet like a burrito.(Nicole laughs)“I didn’t have the heart to tell you- ““Don’t make me spank you again- “ Oh, fuck me!

Arabella: 8:19

HA!(Both burst out laughing)

Nicole: 8:22

I, I wasn’t even prepared for that line!“I didn’t have the heart to tell you- ““Don’t make me spank you again- ““Dude, I’m trying to concentrate”.(Nicole chuckles followed by Arabella) I was thankful that they didn’t, they couldn’t see how deeply I was blushing in the dark.

Arabella: 8:29

“It’s ironic, an English actor playing an American Psycho—have you all seen it before?”

Nicole: 8:31

Everyone said that they had.“Doesn’t matter”, Noah said. “I’ll watch it again”.“The book is way more graphic than the film though. You should read it sometime”.

Arabella: 8:35

“I read it on my gap year, you moose”.

Nicole: 8:37

“You’re not squeamish?” Zander asked her.

Arabella: 8:39

“Not at all”

Nicole: 8:41

She told him and kissed his fingers tips. Oh, baby boy, and girl.

Arabella: 8:44

Yes

Nicole: 8:46

“I love blood”, I said, nonchalantly.(Both laugh)“Not a big fan of decomp” Just like, just like, I love blood! Yeah, it’s fine.“Not a big fan of decomposition. So, rotting corpses are not my favourite—though I’m super fascinated by it”.(Arabella is still laughing in the background) WHHYY am I doing this?? Yeah, so rotting corpses not my favourite—yeah, like whose favourite is it, Nicole?

Arabella: 8:54

Yes!

Nicole: 8:56

Who’s like, bit of rotting corpses, yay

Arabella: 8:58

Not my jam!

Nicole: 9:00

Not my thing, you know“I love blood”!” This is a normal thing to love, guys.(Both chuckle)

Arabella: 9:05

Yes

Nicole: 9:07

Why? Why do I need to tell them this kind of shit? Like--

Arabella: 9:09

Because you just can’t be quiet, you need to inform them of all these thoughts.

Nicole: 9:11

I have a thought!

Arabella: 9:13

Terrence is on holiday

Nicole: 9:15

I have a thought! Please listen to my thought!(Nicole giggles) God!

Arabella: 9:19

Exactly, I thought, I say

Nicole: 9:21

And my thought is blood, decomposition--

Arabella: 9:23

Rotting

Nicole: 9:25

I am a Goth at heart

Arabella: 9:27

Fascinated! Yup.

Take away; blood, decomposition: 9:29

Fascinated.

Arabella: 9:31

Rotting, fascinated.

Nicole: 9:33

Fuck, all right.(Both a chortled the whole way through this exchange)

Arabella & Nicole: 9:37

“You have no idea”.

Arabella: 9:39

“What about the girl who asked you to cut her, Jay? She must’ve been all sorts of- “

Nicole: 9:41

“Yeah, that was weird”, Jason agreed. “But she was probably tripping balls—at least, I hope she was- ““Shut-up, all of you”. Mike groaned. “Watch the movie”.(Both breathily snigger) Big Daddy Energy over here!

Arabella: 9:46

Oh yeah!

Nicole: 9:48

I was quiet throughout most of the film. Oh, look at that!

Arabella: 9:51

Look at you!

Nicole: 9:53

Kudos!

Arabella: 9:55

I’m very proud of you ‘cause that is not fucking realistic!

Nicole: 9:57

It’s not I was quiet throughout most of the film

Arabella: 10:00

Fiction, people, fucking fiction!

Nicole: 10:02

But way too aware of Jason next me and Mike behind me.(Arabella giggles cheekily) We weren’t touching at all, but I could feel everything they did. Wow. Hypersexual! Hyperaware!

Arabella: 10:07

Hypersentiti-Hypersentisis-(Arabella tries once more to say it properly and fails miserably…she can in fact say that word just apparently not then)

Nicole: 10:10

And hypersensitive, yes. When it came to the point in the movie where the main character, Patrick had— Oh, hang on one second, you guys, so if you’ve not seen American Psycho, we’re about to spoil some bits...

Arabella: 10:14

But frankly, it’s been out long enough--

Nicole: 10:16

--that you can fuck off—no—(Both laugh)

Arabella: 10:19

YES!(Even harder)

Nicole: 10:22

Sorry I didn’t mean for it to be that harsh, what I meant was you should've watched it by now, if you were ever going to watch it...okay.

Arabella: 10:24

Yeah

Nicole: 10:26

But anyway, spoilers... When it came to the point in the movie where the main character, Patrick had two prostitutes in his apartment and had put some music on and started giving the girls random facts about the artist, Bella and I laughed.

Arabella: 10:29

Every time

Nicole: 10:31

Then again when he was having very graphic sex with the girls, he kept flexing his muscles in the mirror.

Arabella: 10:33

Yup

Nicole: 10:35

But what alarmed the guys most was when we laughed when he killed a girl with a chainsaw.

Arabella: 10:37

“It’s a little funny, isn’t it? He did run naked and covered in blood and then threw a chainsaw from twelve stories that somehow hit her”.

Nicole: 10:39

“Yeah! It’s super exaggerated to the point it’s almost surreal- “(Arabella chuckles)

Arabella: 10:42

“We’d still fuck him though”,

Nicole: 10:44

“Why?” Noah asked, shocked.“’Cause he’s dangerous. We’re not saying it’s a good thing”.

Arabella: 10:47

“Our hormones are a little screwy”

Nicole: 10:49

Everyone laughed.“Would you seriously be with someone you knew was a psycho?” Carter asked.“Not date”, I clarified, “but most probably sleep with”.

Arabella: 10:53

“I think it’s more that we’d want to, but not really follow through with it, you know? It’s more the idea of it than really being near someone who shows no mercy”.

Nicole: 10:55

“It’s just fantasy”. Yeah, I feel like, I think we were pretty clear there where we were telling the band but just if anyone has any doubts right now—the mercilessness is a kink.

Arabella: 10:58

Yes

Nicole: 11:00

It’s not we actually want someone to be merciless and kill us with a chainsaw.

Arabella: 11:02

No

Nicole: 11:04

You get what I’m saying?

Arabella: 11:06

Not at all

Nicole: 11:08

The idea that will never become reality, is just arousing.

Arabella: 11:10

The same way you get in books you know, all these red flag things, all these grey men do in books--

Nicole: 11:12

That all these obsessive assholes do

Arabella: 11:14

In, in, in like our romanticies and whatnot

Nicole: 11:16

Yeah

Arabella: 11:18

The stuff that you wouldn’t really allow in real life that is kinda hot when it’s written down. But if it was in real life, fuck off, I will chop your knob off.(Nicole lets a shocked laugh out followed but Arabella quietly)

Nicole: 11:21

I mean, yeah, exactly, I could, I, no notes.(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 11:24

No notes to add to that!

Nicole: 11:26

Yeah

Arabella: 11:28

Yeah

Nicole: 11:30

Because it plays on a different part of your brain, and

Arabella: 11:32

Yeah

Nicole: 11:34

And you can recreate, you can play these things—that's why kink is so great ‘cause you can play a lot of these fantasies—without--

Arabella: 11:36

--it actually being fucking dangerous--

Nicole: 11:38

With—with someone safe, who’s going to listen to you when you safe word or when you say that’s too much, or, you know, you can have these negotiations around it. I have an example,

Arabella: 11:40

Yeah

Nicole: 11:42

I won’t go into too much detail but—I have a play partner right now who’s a lot of fun,

Arabella: 11:44

Yeah

Nicole: 11:46

And we go far! Into like Consensual Non-Consent,

Arabella: 11:48

So far!

Nicole: 11:50

And all these(Nicole laughs) And all these kinds of things

Arabella: 11:54

So far.

Nicole: 11:56

But he is literally one of the safest, kindest, best friends I’ve ever had, basically.

Arabella: 11:58

Yes. But not bester than me

Nicole: 12:00

Man friend – different, Bella.

Arabella: 12:02

So different. Yeah, fucking too right!

Nicole: 12:04

Bella’s marking territory.

Arabella: 12:06

I’m peeing all over this shit!

Nicole: 12:08

I was about to say Bella, I was about to say Bella is three seconds away from peeing on me! But I think she’s actually there now.(Both laugh) You’re fine.

Arabella: 12:12

Like some feral cat.(Nicole grunts a laugh)

Nicole: 12:15

“Are you okay, Sticky?” Zander asked suddenly.“Why?” I asked confused.“You’re shaking”, he pointed out. Mike burst out laughing behind me.(Arabella also laughs) I elbowed him lightly.“How can you see it from over there in the dark?”“Who can’t see it?” Noah chuckled.“Is the movie turning you on?” Mike asked, grinning.“No”, I answered, guiltily. The guys laughed.

Arabella: 12:27

“It’s not that weird. It’s quite common for girls to be aroused when watching scary films. You get scared and your adrenalin starts pumping. That’s it...It’s normal”.

Nicole: 12:29

I love how you’re like, it’s normal, she’s okay! She is normal.

Arabella: 12:31

It’s. She is okay! She is not the only one. There are problems in this room!(Nicole bursts out laughing) Mine, you just can’t see.

Nicole: 12:35

(Nicole is trying to control her laughter as Arabella continues to laugh) There are problems in this room! I love that, that’s a very good, that should be, that could be a tagline for this whole tour. There are problems in this room!

Arabella: 12:38

Yeah, there are problems in this room.

Nicole: 12:40

Okay.(Nicole laughs some more) That’s it, it’s normal.

Arabella: 12:44

You fuckers.

Nicole: 12:46

Mike trailed his hand over the back of my neck. Goose bumps shot down my body.

Arabella: 12:48

Ooooohoohoohoooooo!

Nicole: 12:50

“Mike”, I cringed. “Come on, don’t be a dick”. He’s not really being a dick, but apparently--

Arabella: 12:53

No, you’re like (growling noises)

Nicole: 12:55

It was necessary to say Mike chuckled. My blood was pumping hectically. By the end of the film, I was ready to knock down the walls.

Arabella: 12:59

Sounds about right

Nicole: 13:01

“Hey, Sticky”, Noah said. “Could you not breathe so loudly...You’re sort of turning everyone on”.(Arabella and Nicole burst out laughing) I blushed. “Sorry, I’m going to uh-take a bath”. I got up and half-jogged for the bedroom.

Arabella: 13:05

“I’ll come too”

Nicole: 13:07

Bella said, following me.“Try a cold shower!” Jason laughed.“Har Har”, I said as I reached the bedroom door. I turned to look at them. “Night, guys!”“Sure, you don’t want to watch Shawshank?” Jason called after us.“I love it so much”, I told him, “But it’s better we go calm down. Night, guys!”

Arabella: 13:13

“Too much testosterone in the room. Night!”

Nicole: 13:15

“Kinky dreams”, Jason called, suggestively.“Be good!”“Unlikely”,(Arabella laughs) I heard Carter laugh. The bath was big enough for Bella and I to have a bath together. So, you know how we told you guys ages ago, remember this bath because it’s gonna come back and this is not the only time it comes back but--

Arabella: 13:23

No

Nicole: 13:25

Just so you know

Arabella: 13:27

We like a big bath

Nicole: 13:29

The bath is big for a reason

Arabella: 13:31

Yeah

Nicole: 13:33

The bath was big enough for Bella and I to have a bath together. I told her what had happened with Carter. She was not impressed at all,

Arabella: 13:36

No fucking I’m not

Nicole: 13:38

But I did tell her that I was going to come clean to Mike as soon as possible. Also--

Arabella: 13:40

I will believe that when I see it(Nicole chuckles)

Nicole: 13:43

Also, that it was a one-time thing and wouldn’t happen again.

Arabella: 13:45

May I just repeat what I said, I’ll believe it when I fucking see it.

Nicole: 13:47

An hour later, Bella left to go back to her room and spend time with Zander.

Arabella: 13:49

(Arabella sings some porn music from the 80’s which turns out to be ‘You sexy thing’ by Hot Chocolate)

Nicole: 13:51

Mike walked into—(Nicole laughs) Wow, the porn music--

Arabella: 13:55

(Singing) I believe in miracles!

Nicole: 13:57

Thank you very much, also—that was a very short Shawshank, wasn’t it? If an hour later, you--

Arabella: 13:59

Yeah!

Nicole: 14:01

Oh fuck—the timings are all over the place! Anyway--

Arabella: 14:03

Yes, we did not, we did not--

Nicole: 14:05

No An hour later, Bella left to go back to her room and spend time with Zander. Mike walked into the room twenty minutes later. So, Shawshank Version one hour twenty minutes(Nicole giggles)

Arabella: 14:11

Unless, unless, unless--

Nicole: 14:13

They didn’t watch it all?

Arabella: 14:15

The hour later was after we’d talked about all that stuff, so we’d been in the bath for a while—chatting about all of that

Nicole: 14:17

Oh yeah, definitely, we would’ve been chatting for a very long time.

Arabella: 14:19

And then an hour later, after that...

Nicole: 14:21

Fair, okay, everyone--

Arabella: 14:23

People, we’re going to go with that

Nicole: 14:25

Shawshank was watched apparently

Arabella: 14:27

Yes

Nicole: 14:29

“Have the guys gone?” I asked, slipping out of the bed where I had been writing.“Everyone’s gone”, he said, pulling his shirt off.

Arabella: 14:32

(Appreciative noises from Arabella) I went to stand in front of him and pulled my nightie off, dropping it to the floor. I am not a subtle person(Nicole laughs) You are not

Nicole: 14:39

“What are you doing?” But apparently, he does not--

Arabella: 14:42

No

Nicole: 14:44

Apparently, he’s not taking it“What are you doing?” Mike asked, frowning at my brazenness.“Knitting a sweater”, I replied.(Both Arabella and Nicole laugh)“Nicole, I’m not in the mood”.“You can’t be serious”, I groaned.“Yes, I am”.“Are you punishing me for something?” I asked, picking my nightie up. He grunted. “No, I’m really just not in the mood tonight—the tour is stressful”. I sighed. “Well, I’m not going to beg you”. Oh gosh—I'm all like angry; I’m all like (upset noises from both of us) I pulled my nightie back on.“If you really need it, you can help yourself”, Mike said as he got into the bed. I felt an inward stab of anger. He was definitely being a prick about something. He probably isn’t, can I just—be clear, you guys--

Arabella: 15:00

Yes, no, this is, this is you having a wobble ‘cause he said no.

Nicole: 15:02

This is my internal monologue being rejected for sex and not enjoying it because there’s a part somewhere traumatised part of me that goes, I’m only good enough for that.

Arabella: 15:04

Yeah

Nicole: 15:06

(Blows out a breath to relax) Whooo—that was heavy, sorry, you guys.

Arabella: 15:08

Yeah

Nicole: 15:10

Welcome to our podcast!(Nicole giggles)

Arabella: 15:13

Yes, and then--

Nicole: 15:15

Where we get real vulnerable--

Arabella: 15:17

Although, this next line, you are just—you are just--

Nicole: 15:19

Right.“No”, I said. “I’ll just think sad thoughts and go to sleep”.(Both of us laugh at my reaction) He chuckled.

Arabella: 15:24

So over dramatic

Nicole: 15:26

Yup“God, you’re something”. I climbed back into the bed.“Is it normal for marr—Oh, no! I’m just being a prick now, st—(Arabella and Nicole groan) Sorry, I’m just butthurt, guys, butthurt.

Arabella: 15:33

Yes, you are

Nicole: 15:35

“Is it normal for married men to not want sex that often?” I asked over my shoulder."You’re provoking me is not going to work tonight-”“It normally does”, I sighed.(Both laugh)

Arabella: 15:40

(Arabella makes mocking moaning noises)

Nicole: 15:42

“Hence the warning”, he answered, “I’m tired. Seriously”.“So, you’re saying I’m wasting my time...”“Yes”, he chuckled. “Goodnight”.“Night”. I turned my back on him, but didn’t close my eyes.

Arabella: 15:48

(Arabella hums apprehensively)

Nicole: 15:50

Uh oh(Nicole sucks in her breath through her teeth) Sounds like I’m up--

Arabella: 15:54

Nicole--

Nicole: 15:56

I’m up to something that’s not gonna end well

Arabella: 15:58

Yes, no, no, this is not going to end well

Nicole: 16:00

Okay, just to be, again, just to be clear, ‘cause we’ve talked about what is kink and bratting and what is an interesting story, and this is not bratting, guys, this is being, this is being buthurt--

Arabella: 16:02

A twat

Nicole: 16:04

This is not how you brat, right?

Arabella: 16:06

Yes

Nicole: 16:08

Um—I mean this was light twatting, but the next bits will be heavy twatting and um—a part of what we do is also to show you what not to do. So, we’re being very clear here...this is not how you do it, okay?

Arabella: 16:10

Yes, this is just, we love a bit of drama for a story.

Nicole: 16:12

This is drama for a story, exactly. I waited for the familiar deep breathing that meant Mike was asleep. When it came, I trailed my fingers down his arms. He didn’t move so I decided he really was asleep. Danger move but okay.

Arabella: 16:16

Oh God, here we go...

Nicole: 16:18

I got out of bed and grabbed the keycard Originally said key

Arabella: 16:21

Yes

Nicole: 16:23

Because we had to also update that—because it was keys fifteen years ago, I think, maybe.

Arabella: 16:25

Although it wasn’t even then, but we were...

Nicole: 16:27

(Deep breath) I’m from Africa!

Arabella: 16:30

Yeah, fair

Nicole: 16:32

For me, it’s keys! We don’t do keycards in hotels. Also, I’m exaggerating, there are hotels with keycards—I just, I didn’t frequent them, okay?(Nicole chuckles)

Arabella: 16:35

Yes

Nicole: 16:37

God, Bella(Nicole chuckles some more)

Arabella: 16:40

Jesus

Nicole: 16:42

But anyway, I wrote key. I used keys. I had keys to all the rooms!(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 16:45

Keys; keys, so many keys. She had it on the whole—you know like wardens do in a prison?(Both laughs) The big circle of keys you get in cartoons and old films.

Nicole: 16:49

Yeah. I got out of bed and grabbed the keycard for the door before manoeuvring my way through the dark halls to Carter and Noah’s suite. Oh God, what--

Arabella: 16:52

Oh, fuck my life!

Nicole: 16:54

I was being a massive, horny idiot.

Arabella: 16:56

Yes, you were!

Nicole: 16:58

How was I even going to get into their suite without a keycard?

Arabella: 17:00

Valid point.

Nicole: 17:02

‘Cause the keycard I grabbed just for clarification was the keycard to my room. So, I could get back into my own room.

Arabella: 17:04

Jesus Christ, Nicky!(Nicole giggles uncomfortably)

Nicole: 17:07

When I arrived at the suite door still without a plan, I leaned my head against the door in defeat— I was defeated real fast by the closed door—(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 17:11

So fast! Thank Fuck!

Nicole: 17:13

When suddenly it gave way, and I had to catch myself to not shout or fall to the floor.(Arabella snorts a laugh) Not quite believing my luck, I quietly shut the door.(Arabella laughs) Yes, this is luck!

Arabella: 17:19

Yes

Nicole: 17:21

Sure

Arabella: 17:23

Ah, fuck my life...

Nicole: 17:25

What on earth am I going to do? I’m just going to like show up--

Arabella: 17:27

I think—I think we all know, I think we all know what you’re doing to do--

Nicole: 17:29

Fuck’s Sake

Arabella: 17:31

You’re going to do Carter!

Nicole: 17:33

Yeah, but—(Nicole laughs over her stuttering) Wouldn’t it be a massive if I’d go for Noah instead?(Nicole continues to laugh)

Arabella: 17:38

Noah, exactly

Nicole: 17:40

It’ll be like whoa, whoa, whoa, what the f—what is going on here? No, no, one at a time

Arabella: 17:42

Luckily, luckily that you get the right door--

Nicole: 17:44

I was thinking that—what if I happened upon Noah, and he was like, Nicole, what the hell are you doing? And I’m like, you know what, I lost my way in the dark!(Nicole wheezes a laugh)

Arabella: 17:47

Yeah, and here I am!!(Both laughing) Oh!! This isn’t where--

Arabella & Nicole: 17:51

I parked my car!(Both laugh some more)

Nicole: 17:54

All right. I snuck through the suite to get to Carter’s room. I really didn’t want to wake or alert Noah to my presence. Carter’s door was open. I closed it behind me and walked through the darkness to where Carter was asleep on his back.“You’re here”, he said in the darkness.(Arabella giggles) I jumped. Obviously. Even though I’m sneak--

Arabella: 18:02

Yes!(Both laugh)

Nicole: 18:05

He turned on the bedside lamp. “You’re the one sneaking up on me”, he reminded me. I giggled. “Did you know your suite door is unlocked?”

Arabella: 18:08

Although, hold on, it makes me laugh ‘cause it sounds like, you know how they do in, in dramas with villains, when there’s someone sitting in the dark...

Nicole: 18:10

Yes

Arabella: 18:12

And they answer and they switch the light on, and there they are! There just sitting waiting.

Nicole: 18:14

That’s exactly what this is, Bella(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 18:17

Yes, it just—ahh, hilarious

Nicole: 18:19

Well done I giggled. “Did you know your suite door is unlocked?”“I left it on the latch”.“Why?”“I suspected I may have a late-night visitor”.

Arabella: 18:25

Hah!

Nicole: 18:27

“Seriously?” I asked, surprised.“Well, I was hoping”.

Arabella: 18:30

Also, seriously, this is what has happened.

Nicole: 18:32

Yeah

Arabella: 18:34

To be fair--

Nicole: 18:36

I suppose I’m just surprised

Arabella: 18:38

It’s not that surprising

Nicole: 18:40

I’m more surprised that I’m not the only one horny-ing, basically, and being silly

Arabella: 18:42

I’m not, I’m not surprised at all

Nicole: 18:44

‘Kay. Seriously?

Arabella: 18:46

Not one iota of surprised-ness

Nicole: 18:48

“Seriously?” I asked, surprised.“Well, I was hoping”.“You don’t feel guilty anymore?” I asked, sitting down on the edge of the bed.“Sure, I do”, he replied. “But my desire’s stronger”.“This is so weird”, I said, putting my face in my hands.“You’re telling me”. He sat up and studied me.“Did he tell you I’m off limits?” I asked him.“Not in those words”, he shrugged. “But he made it very clear that you weren’t allowed to cause shit in The Band”.“He made it very clear that I’m not allowed to sleep with anyone else”, I told him”, but then he said to you guys that eventually you could—like that first day on the bus—so I don’t know—but obviously he wouldn’t like not knowing”.“Yeah”,

Arabella: 18:59

Mmmhmm

Nicole: 19:01

Carter smiled weakly, “I guess if we do this tonight, we have to tell him”. I mean, we should’ve told him already!

Arabella: 19:04

You should’ve told him already

Nicole: 19:06

I know.“I know”. I ran my hand through his hair— It just escalated so fast from there. We should tell him. Yup. Hands in hair.

Arabella: 19:10

Yup, hair.

Nicole: 19:12

“I know”. I ran my hand through his hair and let it linger on his shoulder.“Does Mike know you left?” Carter asked, worriedly.“Oh, yeah”, I smiled. “Told him, I’m just running to Carter’s for a quickie...shouldn’t take long...”(Both laugh)

Arabella: 19:17

So sassy

Nicole: 19:19

So sassy. I can sass him way easier than I can sass Mike. Or Jay for that matter.

Arabella: 19:21

Yeah, yeah

Nicole: 19:23

“Don’t joke”, Carter said, but smiled.“He was fast asleep”, I corrected. “He won’t wake up. But if he does, I’ll say I felt like pretending I was in The Shining and was walking the hallways in a daze”. Carter raised his eyebrows. Bella is not raising her eyebrows. Carter’s like defuq?!

Arabella: 19:28

No

Nicole: 19:30

And Bella’s like, yup, that sounds right.(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 19:33

Yup, sounds about right. To be fair, that is very plausible.

Nicole: 19:35

Yep Carter raised his eyebrows.“He’ll believe me”, I added, quickly. “I’m random like that”. He laughed.

Arabella: 19:40

You really are

Nicole: 19:42

“I can imagine”.“So, Carter, what do you want to do?” I asked, letting my hand drop from his shoulder.“Why don’t you put some music on”, Carter suggested.“I’m on it!” I jumped up from the bed.(Arabella laughs) I spotted the stereo on the chest of drawers. Now that I know I’m going to have sex, I’m like, Yeah! Yes, let’s go!

Arabella: 19:50

Let’s do this!

Nicole: 19:52

I walked to it, then turned to Carter.“Is it 2004?” I’m sassing him again.(Arabella giggles) I asked, surprised. “There’s a stereo in this hotel room!”“Haven’t you seen me travelling with it?” Carter asked.“Uh-no”, I responded, “When you travel with The Band you don’t look out for stereos".

Arabella: 20:00

(In an English accent) Stereos.

Nicole: 20:02

Sorry, that’s such a—that's—are you sure?

Arabella: 20:04

Very

Nicole: 20:06

That’s not just the British way? ‘Cause I swear, yeah but he’s American.

Arabella: 20:08

Yeah, but you say it.

Nicole: 20:10

Oh, yeah but I feel like I say ‘stereos’ (One of the many South-African accents) because I’m a South-African, and that’s my weird-ass accent.

Arabella: 20:12

Fair enough.(Nicole laughs)

Nicole: 20:15

So sorry, guys—my accent is strange.

Arabella: 20:17

Sometimes it is, it’s that sort of thing of actually, yes that is right and--

Nicole: 20:19

Someone pointed out to me as well that I say women like multiple women—see, there, I just did it, I say it like one with my accent.

Arabella: 20:21

(Arabella’s brain not computing) Eh?

Nicole: 20:23

Multiple woman I say instead of multiple women.

Arabella: 20:25

Women, women

Nicole: 20:27

But now how do you say one?

Arabella: 20:29

Woman, woman and women. There’s not that much difference between it.

Nicole: 20:31

Apparently, I say it really with a difference

Arabella: 20:33

Woman, women

Nicole: 20:35

But it doesn’t matter, this is not the point I’m making.

Arabella: 20:37

Okay

Nicole: 20:39

I’m trying to say, maybe stereo is the same.

Arabella: 20:41

Okay, fair enough

Nicole: 20:43

‘Cause I keep saying it like that. How does an American say it? Stereo? Stereo!

Arabella: 20:45

Maybe?

Nicole: 20:47

I don’t know

Arabella: 20:49

I don’t know either (whispered)

Nicole: 20:51

It’s very worrying

Arabella: 20:53

I no longer know how any word is said right now(Nicole laughs during the sentence)

Nicole: 20:56

“Is it 2004?” I’m sassing him again. I asked, surprised. “There’s a stereo in this hotel room!”“Haven’t you seen me travelling with it?” Carter asked.“Uh-no”, I responded, “When you travel with The Band you don’t look out for stereos".“I don’t go anywhere without it”.“There’s something in here already- “ I played it. A R&B tune filled the air. Little, little quirky Carter vibes here, like travelling with his own stereo.“There’s something in here already- “ I played it. A R&B tune filled the air. And if you, I hope, I didn’t change this, so I really hope it doesn’t--I’m very weary when I give their music tastes that people are going to know who it is.(Both chuckle)

Arabella: 21:09

Though to be fair, I think a lot of musicians and all sorts have an eclectic tastes--

Nicole: 21:11

Hmmhmm, okay I turned and raised my eyebrows at him. “American Boy by Estelle?”“And Kanye West”, he added. “Surprised?”“Not really”, I laughed. “I don’t think you guys understand how big a fan I am”.(Strange animal noise from Bella) He stared at me.“I know you like R&B and Hip Hop, Carter”, I shrugged. “You said it in an interview at some point”.(Arabella barks a laugh) He laughed. “Creep”.

Arabella: 21:21

Yes, you are

Nicole: 21:23

I walked back to him and sat down next to him. “Do you want a massage?” Wow! I’m being generous.

Arabella: 21:26

It’s how you got Mike.

Nicole: 21:28

Oh yeah(Both laugh) Guys, don’t let me massage you, you’ll fall in love.

Arabella: 21:32

It’s, it’s, it’s always the way in with her.

Nicole: 21:34

No! It’s not always—wait--

Arabella: 21:36

No, not always

Nicole: 21:38

Not always. But I do remember at uni I was like the designated give everyone a massage person...

Arabella: 21:40

Yes, and frequently that turned into things

Nicole: 21:42

I was very good. I’m very good at it.

Arabella: 21:44

You are. I’m booking one with you when I come see you in France(Nicole laughs)

Nicole: 21:47

I walked back to him and sat down next to him. “Do you want a massage?”“Okay”, he said, looking nervous about the offer, like I was going to stab him in the back or something.(Arabella giggles)

Arabella: 21:51

All is possible I suppose

Nicole: 21:53

Yeah He turned unto his stomach and I admired his tattoos before starting to massage him. Yeah, his back’s tattoos are better. His stomach ones have me pondering sometimes.

Arabella: 21:57

Yeah

Nicole: 21:59

No more details on that.

Arabella: 22:01

Nope

Nicole: 22:03

I rubbed my hands together to warm them. “You’re not really an American boy though, anymore though?” Oh, wow, I’m just talking shit again, aren’t I?

Arabella: 22:06

You are, ‘cause that’s what you do though.(Nicole chuckles)

Nicole: 22:09

“What do you mean?”

Arabella: 22:11

You natter

Nicole: 22:13

“Well, you’re forty”, I laughed. I keep reminding him how old he is.(Nicole chuckles

Arabella: 22:17

(Arabella laughs loudly) It’s like, did you not know, you are old?

Nicole: 22:20

He’s not—it’s not old!

Arabella: 22:22

I think you’ll find you are old.

Nicole: 22:24

It’s not old at all!

Arabella: 22:26

I know

Nicole: 22:28

It’s not remotely old. I’m just being an ass.

Arabella: 22:30

I know. You are.

Nicole: 22:32

I placed my hands on his shoulders and worked the knots out. He sighed.“It’s easy to speak to you”, I said as I moved my hands to his sides. Mostly ‘cause it’s just me speaking and him just like going, okay or what d’you mean?

Arabella: 22:37

He’s just like. He’s just letting you run your mouth—and it’s fine--

Nicole: 22:39

Exactly

Arabella: 22:41

Just like, fuck, there’s no point me even trying to stop her because--

Nicole: 22:43

Now that we’re. That’s the thing though, now that we’re actually having sex, before he was like having a go at me every time I said anything--

Arabella: 22:45

Yeah

Nicole: 22:47

But now that we’re here, he’s like, uh, speak if you must

Arabella: 22:49

He’s like, if, I don’t have the energy to answer everything(Nicole mumbling incoherently at the same time) I’m going to pick and choose what I reply to.

Nicole: 22:53

Yup“It’s easy to speak, It’s easy to speak to you”, I said as I moved my hands to his sides.….He jerked and laughed in a really high-pitched way.(Arabella also laughs in this manner)“Ticklish?”“Damn, yes”.“I’ll be careful”, I said, thinking of how adorable he was. Okay, how the tides have turned.

Arabella: 23:02

Yes

Nicole: 23:04

“What were you saying?” he asked.“You’re easy to talk to”. He lifted his head. “Because I’m not responding ‘cause our conversations have gone so well in the past--”(Both burst out laughing)

Arabella: 23:09

Yes

Nicole: 23:11

Yes

Arabella: 23:13

Yes

Nicole: 23:15

Exactly“Keep your head down!” I pushed his head back into the pillows. Oh my God!(Still laughing) I’m like, in a very different mood here--

Arabella: 23:21

Follow the light, go swiftly into the light

Nicole: 23:23

He gave a muffled laugh into the pillow. “Easier than Mike?”“In a lot of ways- ““Easier than Jay?” My smile disappeared. “It’s different”.

Arabella: 23:28

Oh (Sad noises)

Nicole: 23:30

Carter didn’t see that luckily.“Would you have said that a week ago?”“No”, I laughed. “I would’ve said you’re a wanker.”(Nicole wheezes a laugh and Arabella chortles)“Oh, I am”, he said, chuckling. I moved my hands to his lower back.“Nicky, maybe we shouldn’t do this-“(Podcast theme music plays signalling a break– Rat Head by Big Mouse Tree House)“Nicky, maybe we shouldn’t do this-“ Carter said, lifting his head again. Ooo, he’s having second thoughts

Arabella: 23:42

Urgh for fuck’s sake—no he isn’t really—he's doing the bits that you did last time with – we should stop, as he’s untying your top,

Nicole: 23:44

Oh

Arabella: 23:46

No, really this is bad,(Nicole laughs) As he takes off you top

Nicole: 23:50

As he goes down on you

Arabella: 23:52

Yeah

Nicole: 23:54

No! Hopefully--

Arabella: 23:56

This is awful—we cannot be doing this, my face is in your breasts

Nicole: 23:58

Maybe don’t, if he’s saying, No, he can’t be going this is awful while he goes down on me—I will smack him!(Arabella laughs) He’ll suddenly find that I become, I’ll suddenly become a switch real fast.(Nicole chuckles)

Arabella: 24:04

Box his ears!(Both laugh)

Nicole: 24:07

Even though I’ve never switched in my life!(Laughter continues)

Arabella: 24:10

No!

Nicole: 24:12

Uh gosh.“Nicky, maybe we shouldn’t do this-“ Carter said, lifting his head again. I pushed it back down again. “Why?” Carter sighed, deeply.“We said we’d tell him, right?”“Maybe”, he said, “but still it feels wrong, doesn’t-?”“All right, turn around!” Oh God, what am I doing?? I said, lifting my hands from him.

Arabella: 24:22

You are switching!

Nicole: 24:24

Huh?

Arabella: 24:26

You are turning into a switch.

Nicole: 24:28

I am it seems.“Huh?” He lifted his head again. He’s not in the scene though so it’s a bit easier.(Nicole gasps) I have noticed, I’m a bit more controlling if I have vanilla sex...but that’s because

Arabella: 24:34

Yes

Nicole: 24:36

I’m like, be better, for fuck’s sake!!(Nicole wheezes a laugh)

Arabella: 24:39

I want it like this please

Nicole: 24:41

Exactly

Arabella: 24:43

Actually, that’s fair, that’s, when I say I’m a Brat but also kind of a switch, I think--

Nicole: 24:45

You just mean like that

Arabella: 24:47

‘Cause a lot of my, I think a lot of it is because the partners I had, haven’t necessary been Doms, they’ve been—and I’ve been getting them to do slightly kinkier shit--

Nicole: 24:49

Hmmm—trust me--

Arabella: 24:51

So I’m like no, no, do this

Nicole: 24:53

Trust me, when you actually have sex with a Dom, you won’t be. I know you.

Arabella: 24:55

Yeah

Nicole: 24:57

You will suddenly just be like--

Arabella: 24:59

Yeah

Nicole: 25:01

Okay (Little voice)

Arabella: 25:03

Okay (Cartoon voice) Okay then. Sometimes I am like that with Haz, he’s just yeah

Nicole: 25:06

But he’s doing good, he’s learning a thing

Arabella: 25:08

He is

Nicole: 25:10

“Huh?” He lifted his head again.“Come on, Carter!” I lifted off him so he could turn around and then sat back down on his stomach. He stared at me, expectantly. His eyes really were gorgeous, bright and eager. Wow! What the fuck?

Arabella: 25:15

Like the fresh-faced boy he once was!

Nicole: 25:17

No, no, no, no, no, no! Eeew. Bella! Why did you make it sooo weird? Okay.

Arabella: 25:19

I don’t know

Nicole: 25:21

Everyone boo Bella please!(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 25:24

Well, I’m sorry, it’s when you go bright and eager. I don’t know why.

Nicole: 25:26

Well, eager, it’s just—enthusiastic, man, come on.

Arabella: 25:28

Yes

Nicole: 25:30

And then I have another moment of what the fuck!! Where I say.“You really are too cute to be a rock star”, I said in a moment of thoughtlessness.

Arabella: 25:33

Yes

Nicole: 25:35

‘Cause what the fuck does that mean?

Arabella: 25:37

Yes, really, Nicole, come on

Nicole: 25:39

His eyes narrowed tightly.“Sorry, I didn’t mean”“That’s why I’ve got all the tattoos-it makes me look buffer!”(Arabella scoffs a laugh)“Sorry...I never say the right thing”.“Have I turned around for a reason?” Carter asked, enquiringly.“Do you still feel unsure?”“Yeah”. He frowned.“How about now?” I asked. Aww, I’m just, I am problem.

Arabella: 25:50

Yes, yes you are.

Nicole: 25:52

I could’ve just let the guy say no, gone back to my suite, slept in the bed like a good girl.

Arabella: 25:54

Yes. But you’re horny as fuck so that’s never going to happen

Nicole: 25:56

So instead, I’m doing this awful thing.

Arabella: 25:58

Yes, yes

Nicole: 26:00

“How about now?” I asked, lowering my lips to his neck and giving it a gentle kiss. The music changed to Skulls by The Misfits. Oh God, okay, no it’s fine, it’s fine.(Arabella laughs at Nicoles anguish)“Still?” I asked, lifting my lips from his neck and making eye contact. Oh, apparently, I can make eye contact with him no problem.

Arabella: 26:07

Yeah

Nicole: 26:09

He stared at me, trying to figure out what I was doing. “Of course”.“Hmmm-“ I moved my mouth down to his right nipple and flicked my tongue over it. “Now?”(Nicole wheezes a laugh as Arabella barks one)“Uh-I’m not sure-““Not good enough”, I said, moving my mouth further down to his stomach. “How ‘bout now?”“Feeling it ease away a little-“ He started to understand the game. It took him long enough.

Arabella: 26:17

I mean seriously, how he didn’t clock on to that sooner, I do not know

Nicole: 26:19

‘Cause he’s probably just a bit horny himself

Arabella: 26:21

Yes

Nicole: 26:23

“Good”, I smiled, trailing my tongue around his lower stomach, just above the waist of his boxers. “Just a little?”“Uh- “ I smiled and pulled his boxers down and stroked my hand down him, keeping eye contact with him. He was gaping slightly, his eyes wide. I chuckled because it made him look a bit like a Bush baby.(Nicole laughs a little and then increases in vigour until both Nicole and Arabella and roaring) Wow! I write the best fucking smut!!

Arabella: 26:31

A bush baby(Still cackling away)

Nicole: 26:34

Oh Gosh

Arabella: 26:36

Jesus Christ

Nicole: 26:38

Bless him.

Arabella: 26:40

Way to make it sexy

Nicole: 26:42

Oh, so fucking sexy! Apparently, this is my South-African trying to put in a little bit.(Nicole laughs followed by Arabella)

Arabella: 26:45

Yes

Nicole: 26:47

I love—ah, I miss those little things, they were so cute! Anyway, it’s a type of monkey. Little monkey.

Arabella: 26:49

Yes

Nicole: 26:51

Very cute“If you’re still not sure, I’ll stop”, I said.“No, no, don’t stop”, he said, breathlessly. I smiled and was about to lower my mouth when the music changed to Blink 182’s Blowjob Song. I had to stop and laugh.(Arabella cackles)

Arabella: 26:57

Yes

Nicole: 26:59

“Do you have a remote?” I asked, looking at his hand, suspiciously. He chuckled. “That was just luck”.“Smooth”, I smiled. “Real smooth”.“Okay, stop talking”, he said, pushing my head back down. Okay, look at that!(Arabella laughs) Depending on—

Arabella: 27:07

Yup

Nicole: 27:09

It's a very different feeling I think, with him.

Arabella: 27:11

Yes

Nicole: 27:13

But I think what it is, is when someone isn’t kinky, like not naturally in the kink scene, umm it’s more, it’s easier to like-move

Arabella: 27:15

It’s a bit more fluid and playful and--

Nicole: 27:17

No! It’s very fluid and playful in the kink scene

Arabella: 27:19

Back and forth. No, no, I know that but what I mean is like who’s taking control a bit more—that's what I mean by more fluid and playful

Nicole: 27:21

What I mean is I don’t feel that I need that there is submission to be had so I’m just like meh

Arabella: 27:23

Yeah

Nicole: 27:25

“Okay, stop talking”. Me too. he said, pushing my head back down. I laughed, but lowered my mouth over him. It was definitely more playful to have sex with Carter. Yes, ‘cause he’s not Domming me.

Arabella: 27:30

Yeah

Nicole: 27:32

He’s just letting me do my thing I’m not saying I preferred one over the other. But yeah, I totally am kind of saying that. Definitely prefer one over the other. They were just different. I felt a lot more comfortable joking with Carter. We laughed most of the time and it made me feel welcome. Aww.

Arabella: 27:38

Aww.

Nicole: 27:40

And it’s a nice change, I think as well. And I’m horny and you know.

Arabella: 27:42

Yes

Nicole: 27:44

“Come here”, Carter said, invitingly when I lifted my mouth from him a couple of minutes later. I stretched across his body and stared into his eyes. And apparently, I’m just more comfortable. He moved some hair out of my eyes and turned me onto me back. And it just seems a little bit more intimate.

Arabella: 27:49

Yeah

Nicole: 27:51

Hmmm I laughed. I’m discovering this from myself by the way, guys. Like, I didn’t,

Arabella: 27:55

Yes

Nicole: 27:57

When I write these things—I don’t like—think about it for very long, I just write whatever comes up. And it just seems that this is more intimate.

Arabella: 27:59

Yeah

Nicole: 28:01

I laughed. He lifted my nightie up.“Oh my God!” he said. “Your boobs are fantastic!” God.(Nicole laughs) I was momentarily lost for words. I blushed. “Thank you”. I felt my own guilt kick in as Carter lowered his mouth to my nipple. Why then? I wonder.

Arabella: 28:11

Hmmm

Nicole: 28:13

I guess we’re going in and out of it.

Arabella: 28:15

Yeah

Nicole: 28:17

“You okay?” Carter asked, frowning at me.“Of course”, I said, giving him a convincing smile. To prove my point, I grabbed the back of his head and pressed my lips to his. While kissing each other, breathlessly he reached his hand in between my legs. He dodged my underwear... Nice. Righto(Nicole laughs followed by Arabella)

Arabella: 28:23

I don’t know why—I think dodged—it just gives the image of like - hup, out of the way!

Nicole: 28:25

Yes, that’s kind of what I had in mind. Just like, (noises of dodging rapidly) Don’t spend much time here. He dodged my underwear and put a finger up me. I arched my body in acceptance, and he added another. I swirled my tongue in his mouth and pulled at his lip with my teeth. Apparently, that’s thing now. He has really good lips so I obviously keep--

Arabella: 28:30

He does

Nicole: 28:32

I keep wanting to do stuff to them(Nicole lets out a nervous little laugh)

Arabella: 28:35

Yes

Nicole: 28:37

That was a weird little laugh, wasn’t it?(Continues laughing)

Arabella: 28:40

It was

Nicole: 28:42

Carter pulled his mouth away from mine and pulled down my underwear. He kicked off his boxers and looked at me with a smile.“There’s a rubber in the drawer next to you”, Carter winked.“Nothing in your sock?” I teased, “prepared this time?” Carter laughed really loudly.(Arabella chuckles)‘Cause now we’re having sex, I’m funny.

Arabella: 28:49

Yes

Nicole: 28:51

(Nicole sighs)“Shh”, I insisted, “you’ll wake Noah-“

Arabella: 28:54

Everything is more joyous when you’re about to have sex

Nicole: 28:56

For sure“Shh”, I insisted, “you’ll wake Noah-“ I grabbed the condom from the drawer and handed it to Carter, then waited in anticipation as he pulled it on. And I’m also realising that—these guys, we’re in a hotel room for one night, maybe two, he puts condoms in the drawer??

Arabella: 29:01

Yup, apparently.

Nicole: 29:03

(Nicole laughs a lot) Okay, that’s fine. Nicole, what the fuck?!

Arabella: 29:06

He might have a ritual of unpacking his stuff into a thing

Nicole: 29:08

Sure, yeah, he does, obviously

Arabella: 29:10

Some people do

Nicole: 29:12

Yup. He frowned at me. “You’re shaking”.“That’s ‘cause I’m horny”, I said. “Hurry up!”(Nicole laughs followed by Arabella) He laughed. “Just for that, I’ll take my time- ““Please, Carter-don’t do this again- ““Poor thing- ““You’re mean”, I said, trying to reach for him under the sheets.“No”, he said, grabbing my hand as it grazed him.(Arabella laughs)“Good things come to those who wait”.“Don’t give me that!”“Shhh”. He pushed a finger to my lips.(Arabella continues to laugh) The music changed again. Halloween by The Misfits.“Damn, okay”, Carter said. “You look so sad!”(Both laugh) He gave in well quick!

Arabella: 29:31

He, yeah.

Nicole: 29:33

I just did one puppy eye and he’s like, okay, fine.

Arabella: 29:35

Fine.

Nicole: 29:37

He moved into me and started thrusting to the beat of the music, keeping his eyes locked with mine.

Arabella: 29:39

Also, he was probably just as much gagging for it, he was like, I don’t really want to take my time, but I’ve said a thing now and now I have to get through with it!

Nicole: 29:41

Fuck! I’m just giving up. Also thrusting to the beat of Halloween by the Misfits. Gosh, that’s a beat.(Nicole laughs) What was I doing?

Arabella: 29:45

Yeah

Nicole: 29:47

Okay, apparently we--

Arabella: 29:49

Well it could be--

Nicole: 29:51

Yeah, he could be going um—half time, yeah. Probably.

Arabella: 29:53

Yeah

Nicole: 29:55

He would have to or, this is also a man who once said he has sex to Slayer’s Raining Blood. And I was like, BOY,

Arabella: 29:57

Yessss

Nicole: 29:59

(Nicole imitates the riff of said song with her mouth) I was like nah, nah, nah, nah, nah, no, you have to go half-timies on that shit—(Both laughing)

Arabella: 30:03

Ohhh yeah

Nicole: 30:05

Maybe, maybe even slower, even slower than that. Anyway-- I gasped and panted. (Weird accent)

Arabella: 30:08

Panted! You panted, did you? (Mocking)

Nicole: 30:10

(Nicole tries to explain herself but both are laughing too much) I over, I over, I overtried, I overtried to get rid of the American accent.

Arabella: 30:13

You really did! I panted!

Nicole: 30:15

Oh my God! What would panted sound like?(Tries to make sexy exaggerated noises)

Arabella: 30:18

(Arabella joins in, now it’s chaos!)

Nicole: 30:20

I can’t, I’m sorry. Oh gosh, no, we are ridiculous people.

Arabella: 30:22

Yes we are

Nicole: 30:24

This is why my smut, it can get real heavy but it can’t ever stay too serious

Arabella: 30:26

Not, never

Nicole: 30:28

I gasped and panted. I wrapped my arms around his neck, arched my back and pressed myself closer to him, hoping to avert my eyes from his. Oh!

Arabella: 30:32

Ah. There’s the intimacy

Nicole: 30:34

Is it with intercourse that the issue comes?

Arabella: 30:36

I think so

Nicole: 30:38

I’m look at myself as a therapist, and I’m thinking, yes, it seems like it.

Arabella: 30:40

Yes, because you like it when it’s, when it’s oral foreplay--

Nicole: 30:42

Yeah—it's something to do with intercourse

Arabella: 30:44

And when it’s in the lead-up to it because that’s all hot and intense-looking ‘cause you’re both gagging for it. But once he’s inside you, moving inside you—then it’s a bit too much more--

Nicole: 30:46

Yeah, ‘cause it was the same with Mike like--

Arabella: 30:48

Emotionally

Nicole: 30:50

Yeah

Arabella: 30:52

Yeah

Nicole: 30:54

But anyways, it’s good to know

Arabella: 30:56

There we go

Nicole: 30:58

Good to know

Arabella: 31:00

Yeah

Nicole: 31:02

So… I wrapped my arms around his neck, arched my back and pressed myself closer to him, hoping to avert my eyes from his. When he came— Oh, wow, wow, apparently, I didn’t want to do anymore character searching in this bit.

Arabella: 31:07

No, you were like, I’m moving past this!

Nicole: 31:09

And I, wow

Arabella: 31:11

It’s gotten too serious

Nicole: 31:13

Bless me, so sorry, guys um. We really just, okay, we’ve said this before, we wrote this story when we were, when I was like in my early twenties, right? So, I was having issues with a lot more stuff than I am having currently in my sex life. And--

Arabella: 31:15

Yes

Nicole: 31:17

We don’t edit the actual bits like this very much unless it absolutely needs it

Arabella: 31:19

No, no, we edit, you know, circumstances--

Nicole: 31:21

Yeah

Arabella: 31:23

-and things to

Nicole: 31:25

Yeah

Arabella: 31:27

You know, update it and, or if something was a bit too much--

Nicole: 31:29

Or not kink-safe(Nicole giggles awkwardly)

Arabella: 31:32

Like not okay, or—yeah, not okay,

Nicole: 31:34

Yeah

Arabella: 31:36

‘Cause we had problems

Nicole: 31:38

Yeah. We did. We didn’t know where the boundaries were but um--

Arabella: 31:40

We did not

Nicole: 31:42

So, this is probably from back then but I suppose I just didn’t wanna describe a bunch of intercourse, it seems. So, um--

Arabella: 31:44

Yeah

Nicole: 31:46

But I’m assuming--

Arabella: 31:48

Moving straight on

Nicole: 31:50

-it lasted longer than – that

Arabella: 31:52

Yes

Nicole: 31:54

Okay

Arabella: 31:56

Much like my and Zander’s sex(Nicole chuckles)

Nicole: 31:59

When he came, I let my arms fall at my sides and he kissed my forehead before lying down next to me. Aww, that’s sweet

Arabella: 32:02

Aww

Nicole: 32:04

“Thanks”, Oh, God, I said thanks.(Arabella laughs loudly) I thanked the guy. Thank you!“Thanks”, I said, already getting out of the bed and pulling my nightie back on. Wow, I’m getting the fuck out of there apparently.

Arabella: 32:11

Yeah

Nicole: 32:13

I dove in under the covers and retrieved my underwear.“Sorry to shag and run, love”. WHY am I speaking--

Arabella: 32:17

Love??

Nicole: 32:19

WHY am I speaking like this????

Arabella: 32:21

Are you now a cockney boy?

Nicole: 32:23

WHY am I speaking like this, Bella?

Arabella: 32:25

Sorry to shag and run, love!

Nicole: 32:27

Exactly

Arabella: 32:29

But I gotta get back!

Nicole: 32:31

What the frig am I doing?“Sorry to shag and run, love, but I’ve got to get back”, I said, while pulling on my underwear under the nightie.(Arabella is in fits of giggles) He laughed. “I prefer it this way”.“Of course you do- “ I rushed for the door and turned around to look at him again. He was laying on his back with his arms behind his head.“You’re--welcome!” I shouted at him and finger-gun pointed at him as I winked. NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO!(Arabella laughs boisterously) NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO, NO! WHY!!! (Noises of distress)

Arabella: 32:42

Oh my God!

Nicole: 32:44

Am I having a little guilty, star-struck, whole bunch of different emotions here?

Arabella: 32:46

Yeah, you’re just, you’re just flapping

Nicole: 32:48

Yeah, what is, what is that?

Arabella: 32:50

You’re flapping about!

Nicole: 32:52

“You’re--welcome!” I shouted at him and finger-gun pointed at him as I winked. WOW!“What the fuck is wrong with you?” he asked, amused. Yes, Carter, I would also like to know.

Arabella: 32:56

Yes

Nicole: 32:58

I turned in a circle and bowed. “Goodnight, sweet Prince”.(Both laughing in shock)“Night, you absolute lunatic!” He chuckled as I closed the door. I tip-toed across the living room to the door. I opened and closed it softly before hurrying back to my suite. Then tip-toed to the bathroom and flushed the toilet like the silly person I am, hoping Mike would believe I’d been in the toilet all that time. And had that been the case, he’d probably be very worried.

Arabella: 33:04

Yes!

Nicole: 33:06

He’d be like, you okay?

Arabella: 33:08

Oh my God, that’s hilarious!

Nicole: 33:10

Fuck’s Sake, Fuck’s Sake!

Arabella: 33:12

Jesus Christ

Nicole: 33:14

Fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck, fuck. Sorry.

Arabella: 33:16

Yeah...like I said people, she sucks at that sneaking part(Arabella laughs again) You absolute tool.

Nicole: 33:20

This actually makes me a very good submissive ‘cause nothing stays covered very long. But also um--

Arabella: 33:22

Yeah

Nicole: 33:24

What the heck did I just do there? At the end there? I have no words.

Arabella: 33:26

Well, frankly the whole thing!

Nicole: 33:28

The whole thin, yeah but--

Arabella: 33:30

You little twatty brat you. You didn’t get sex from Mike, and you were amped up so you were like, I’m going to wait till he goes to sleep and then I shall sneak out and sex-up with someone else!

Nicole: 33:32

I would take the brat out of this completely ‘cause this is not bratting.

Arabella: 33:34

No, it’s not

Nicole: 33:36

Not even remotely. This is very no.

Arabella: 33:38

This is very story

Nicole: 33:40

This is story! I wouldn’t do this. I mean--(Big breath out)

Arabella: 33:42

This is not okay behaviour

Nicole: 33:44

No, it’s really not okay behaviour. But it makes it very dramatic and it’s wonderful, and that’s good.

Arabella: 33:46

Yes

Nicole: 33:48

But also, what I would do--

Arabella: 33:50

Hilarious with the gun finger-gun pointing

Nicole: 33:52

‘Cause that end there, I would do! Absolutely, I’ve done.

Arabella: 33:54

Yes

Nicole: 33:56

I’ve definitely done weird like that before--

Arabella: 33:58

Yeah

Nicole: 34:00

Because intimacy—and then I’m suddenly like (nutty, panic noises) and then I either--

Arabella: 34:02

I--I do many things—I am so unsure what is happening!

Nicole: 34:04

I razzle-dazzle you—with weirdness but it’s endearing

Arabella: 34:06

Yes. It is

Nicole: 34:08

Right

Arabella: 34:10

‘Cause you look so ridiculous

Nicole: 34:12

So ridiculous...on that note, let’s see where the chips will, not even fall, like hammer down!

Arabella: 34:14

Yes—your clit is leading you through this story.

Nicole: 34:16

(Nicole laughs) Very true I felt mightily good when I woke up that morning. I’m assuming I mean physically.

Arabella: 34:20

Yes

Nicole: 34:22

Yeah. Having had sex with Carter twice the previous day and my head still swimming with thoughts of it, I found it hard to stop smiling.

Arabella: 34:25

Apparently, not just physically then

Nicole: 34:27

Well, yeah. Mike was still asleep next to me.(Nicole lets out an awkward chuckle) He did look incredibly adorable where he slept on his side, knees up in an almost foetal position, messy hair and his mouth slightly open. Aww, that is kinda cute

Arabella: 34:33

Aww

Nicole: 34:35

I had to be creepy again and take a photo. Oh God...

Arabella: 34:38

Creep

Nicole: 34:40

Eventually I’m going to have to tell him about all of these.

Arabella: 34:42

Yes

Nicole: 34:44

After I stashed my mobile back in my bag and took a shower, I changed into a tight-fitting maroon dress. It was short with thin straps. Trying to look cute again.

Arabella: 34:48

Yeah

Nicole: 34:50

I added some gold heeled boots and was about to go down to breakfast when Mike awoke. Also with all these heels, I’m going to break an ankle.

Arabella: 34:53

You really are, and surely, he should be able to start suspecting things now, whenever you put on tight-fitting dresses with heels—(Nicole giggling throughout)--assume you fucked up bad.

Nicole: 34:57

Oh, he’s gonna assume, don’t you worry, by other stuff—just my face.“You’re up early”, he moaned.“Should I wait for you?” He closed his eyes again without answering. I waited patiently for him. When he opened his eyes again to stare me, I beamed at him. Oh God.

Arabella: 35:05

(Arabella grunts a laugh) Oh fuck

Nicole: 35:08

“What have you done?” Mike asked softly. I shrugged. “Don’t know”. The smile appeared again on my face. “Mr. Solomon, should I wait for you?” He frowned at me.

Arabella: 35:12

Jesus Christ

Nicole: 35:14

“What did you do?”“Nothing I can imagine that’s wrong”,(Noises of betrayal) I lied blatantly.

Arabella: 35:19

Fuck’s Sake

Nicole: 35:21

“You seem abnormally cheerful”.“Would you prefer I be upset?” I asked sweetly.“No”, he said, and sighed loudly. “I just feel like you might plan on stabbing me or something”.“Do I seem that two-faced to you?” (Noises of pain, intense pain)

Arabella: 35:26

Yes! Yes, you do right now!! (Nicole laughs in pain while Arabella groans)

Nicole: 35:28

I hate this for me. I hate this for me so much.

Arabella: 35:30

I hate this for you too

Nicole: 35:32

I am really not this two-faced at all, at all

Arabella: 35:34

You’re really not – I want to ping you with a fork right now!

Nicole: 35:36

I’m really hoping so hard for this—for all of this when it comes to the natural conclusion that I was trying to climax it to with the writing – so I can get rid of this part of me, ‘cause I’m really not enjoying it

Arabella: 35:38

No

Nicole: 35:40

“Do I seem that two-faced to you?” I laughed. I felt a pang of real gut-wrenching guilt as those words just poured out.

Arabella & Nicole: 35:43

Good!

Arabella: 35:45

So, you fucking should!

Nicole: 35:47

“No”, he said. “No, you don’t. Plus, you wouldn’t be stupid enough to break another rule, would you?”(More noises of betrayal and pain)

Arabella: 35:50

Yes, yes you would!

Nicole: 35:52

(Nicole laughs) I shook my head, my smile temporarily vanishing from my face.

Arabella: 35:55

Because you have!

Nicole: 35:57

But when he looked back up at me, I smiled again.(Arabella growls lowly) I sat down on the bed next to him and ran a hand through his hair effortlessly. “I like your hair like this”. He frowned as I continued to play with his hair.“So, breakfast?” I asked when I drew my hand back.“I’ll meet you down there”.

Arabella: 36:04

For all you listeners, I’m just sitting here, shaking my head at her.

Nicole: 36:06

But again--

Arabella: 36:08

With contempt

Nicole: 36:10

Don’t be--

Arabella: 36:12

Contempt!

Nicole: 36:14

At the character!

Arabella: 36:16

Yes

Nicole: 36:18

I cannot stress this enough! At the character.

Arabella: 36:20

Yes

Nicole: 36:22

Good

Arabella: 36:24

That is you

Nicole: 36:26

No, but I don’t--you know I wouldn’t do this

Arabella: 36:28

I know! But I’m still--’cause it’s you,(Nicole grunts) It’s very confusing, okay?

Nicole: 36:32

Yeah, I know but don’t confuse the people. Don't confuse people.

Arabella: 36:34

No, you’re not like this in real life but you as the character, still has your face so...right now I’m shaking my head at the face ‘cause it’s you saying your words

Nicole: 36:36

That’s true, you’re right, gotcha

Arabella: 36:38

As your character

Nicole: 36:40

Gotcha I walked downstairs to find absolutely no one in the restaurant.(Both chuckle) Well done! Where the hell is everyone? Nevertheless, I laid down on the floor between the tables and stared up at the ceiling. Yes

Arabella: 36:48

Yes

Nicole: 36:50

I was smiling like crazy again. Even the guilt couldn’t take the beautiful pleasure out of my stomach. Wow! I suppose—okay, to be fair, maybe this is coming from—I've idolised these men for so long--

Arabella: 36:53

This is true

Nicole: 36:55

And in the space of one week, I have had the dream of having sex with both of them! Of two of them!

Arabella: 36:57

Yes

Nicole: 36:59

I think that this might be blurring my brain

Arabella: 37:01

Yeah

Nicole: 37:03

And in a lot of ways, I feel like that’s kind of where this is a bit truthful of me, I--

Arabella: 37:05

Yeah, there’s sort of the euphoric sensation of, this has actually happened

Nicole: 37:07

That, and that’s why--

Arabella: 37:09

I’ve actually fucked these people

Nicole: 37:11

And that’s why my impulses and all the nutty things I’m doing—it's just like --

Arabella: 37:13

It’s all mixed in there

Nicole: 37:15

--it’s all a bit in freefall

Arabella: 37:17

Yeah

Nicole: 37:19

You know? Nevertheless, I laid down on the floor between the tables and stared up at the ceiling. I was smiling like crazy again. Even the guilt couldn’t take the beautiful pleasure out of my stomach.“Sticky?” Zander stared down at me. Sticky! What d’you doing there, Sticky?! Sticky on the floor! Awwww(Nicole is appalled at her bad joke while Arabella cans herself)“Oh!” I sat up, realising I was no longer alone. “Hey, Zander”. Bella appeared next to Zander, staring down at me.

Arabella: 37:27

“Hey, Nicky”.

Nicole: 37:29

They smiled, amused with whatever it seemed I was doing.

Arabella: 37:31

“What are you doing?”

Nicole: 37:33

Bella asked finally.“I have no idea”, I replied with a great big smile. Zander frowned suspiciously as Mike had, but Bella grinned herself.“Let’s start by getting up from the floor”, Zander suggested, reaching his hand out to me. But just as he finished his sentence, Jason pranced over and laid down next to me. It is prancing, what he does.

Arabella: 37:40

He does. He can prance quite well.

Nicole: 37:42

I turned my head and laughed at him. Then Bella joined us as well. Zander seemed to give up and came to lie down on Bella’s other side.

Arabella: 37:45

Yes, join us!

Nicole: 37:47

“What are we doing?” I ended up asking eventually.“Whatever”, Jason said. “Why do we need to be doing something?”“You’re right”. I smiled up at the ceiling.“What are you doing?” Andrew asked.(Arabella and Nicole laugh) Ok, now it matters.

Arabella: 37:54

Now it matters

Nicole: 37:56

That’s been a lot of what are you doings. The four of us sat up and looked at Andrew who was standing with his arms crossed and one eyebrow raised.“We’re just spending some time with the girls”, Zander replied.“On the floor?” Andrew asked.“You’ll be surprised where you can spend time with them”, Zander replied.(Arabella laughs boisterously) Jason and Zander chuckled and high-fived each other. I wasn’t sure whether I should take offense or not, so I raised my eyebrows at Bella who shrugged.

Arabella: 38:05

Yeah, it’s fair, to be honest, they’re not wrong

Nicole: 38:07

No, they’re not Andrew sighed. “Come on, let’s get you fed”. The four of us took our places at the table. That sounds good! Let’s get fed!(Arabella hums in agreement)“Where’s Mike?” Andrew asked me. I shrugged. “Must still be in the suite...that’s where I left him”.“Was he awake?”“He was”, I smiled. The four of them stared at me, their own lips spreading into smiles.“You’re misinterpreting my smile”, I laughed. “I can’t have that much sex-I’ll die”. This is incorrect.(Nicole laughs)

Arabella: 38:21

Yes, so much so that I’m like yeah, fuck no

Nicole: 38:23

I could, I definitely could Bella raised her eyebrows at me, suspiciously.

Arabella: 38:26

See? Which is indeed what I am doing to you right now as soon as you said that

Nicole: 38:28

“You have so much to learn”, Zander winked.“I thought you and Mike hadn’t had sex since just after you punched him”, Jason said.“How do you know that?” I quickly spun the direction of the conversation another way.‘Cause otherwise I’d have to go, yes, this is correct

Arabella: 38:33

Yes

Nicole: 38:35

To my surprise it was Andrew who answered. “The guys have no secrets from each other”. I bit my lip, nervously.(Arabella makes a honking noise)“Nothing can happen here that the rest of us won’t know about”, Jason said lowly. He was intently staring into my eyes, and I shrunk a little.“Uh- “

Arabella: 38:41

Too right

Nicole: 38:43

“Good morning!” Noah sang as he walked into the restaurant followed by Carter who was grinning as much as I was.

Arabella: 38:45

Fuck’s Sake, you two! Get it fucking together!

Nicole: 38:47

“Hey, Noah”, I smiled as they sat down. “I had a dream about you last night”. At once everyone’s eyes were on me.“Uh-“I looked around me. “I don’t know if I want to tell you anymore”.“Oh, please!” Noah said immediately.“It wasn’t saucy or anything”. I somehow managed to catch Carter’s eye and he winked at me.(Nicole laughs nervously) Oh god

Arabella: 38:56

Jesus

Nicole: 38:58

“I haven’t seen my wife in about two weeks”, Andrew complained, “but you lot are having enough sex for the entire California”.(Nicole wheezes a laugh with Arabella) I laughed. “Not enough for France”.(Both Arabella and I burst out laughing)“Only you will know what you meant by that”, Mike said, joining us at the table.

Arabella: 39:04

And me!

Nicole: 39:06

Hey? Oh, and Bella

Arabella: 39:08

And me!

Nicole: 39:10

“How do you manage to come into half a conversation, but still catch most of it?” I asked expectantly. He shrugged. “One of my many gifts”.“Stop!” Noah said loudly. “Don’t change the subject...tell me about the dream!”“Dream?” Mike asked.“Ah...you’re not that on top of things”, I smiled, crossing my arms and leaning on the table. Mike ignored me and turned to Noah. “What dream, Noah?”“I don’t know yet”, Noah replied. “Sticky said she had a dream about me...” Mike laughed. “You didn’t dream he asked you to marry him, did you?”“Mike, come on—don’t do that—"(Arabella chuckles)“So, what was this dream about?” Mike pressed.

Not wanting to make a big deal out of it, I said: 39:21

“I dreamt I introduced him to my parents”. Everyone burst out laughing.(Arabella croaks a laugh)“Why is that so funny?”“Introducing Noah to your parents?” Zander asked.“You’re crazy!” Jason chuckled. “He’s the worst person you could introduce to your parents- ““He’s the only one of you lot I would introduce to my parents”, I defended. They all laughed louder.(Arabella continues to giggle through this)“Oh, come on”, I moaned. “What is it?”“He literally peed on my dad”, Zander said. “You do not want to introduce him to your parents”. Arabella & Nicole“What the fuck?”

Nicole: 39:35

Bella and I said at the same time.“Of all the things you could dream about me”, Noah complained. “You have to go and dream something so—fucking—innocent”.

Arabella: 39:38

“Where’s Billy?”

Nicole: 39:40

Bella asked to come to my rescue and changed the subject.

Arabella: 39:42

“And the Miller Brothers? They’re forever somewhere else!”

Nicole: 39:44

“Billy’s got some work to do for tonight”, Andrew said. “I suspect he’s baby-sitting the Miller’s. The three of them will be back later”.“Where are you performing tonight?” I asked, looking around at the guys.“We don’t have a show tonight”, Zander answered.“Why?” I asked, alarmed. “So, what’s Billy doing?”“No”, Mike interjected. “Don’t tell her anything yet!”“Her?” I asked, “Do you know what’s going on, Bella?” She nodded, biting her lip.

Arabella: 39:52

“Zander told me yesterday- “

Nicole: 39:54

“Why the fuck can’t I know then?” I asked Mike. “I don’t like surprises- “ He laughed. “It’s not a surprise for you”, he responded, “there’s another reason I’m not telling you yet- “ I stared at Bella for an explanation.

Arabella: 39:58

“Sorry, Nicky. I have no idea why he won’t tell you”.

Nicole: 40:00

“That’s a surprise in itself”, Zander told her and kissed her in the neck. But if it’s not a surprise for me...how is it a surprise for me???? I’m so confused.

Arabella: 40:03

I don’t know

Nicole: 40:05

He’s confusing me

Arabella: 40:07

I don’t know

Nicole: 40:09

Okay

Arabella: 40:11

No, no, no, the surprise itself is also why he won’t tell me why they’re not telling you

Nicole: 40:13

AAH!! It was another buffet for breakfast. I got up to go get some--(Both laugh) I got up to get some buffet

Arabella: 40:18

Oh yeah!

Nicole: 40:20

I got up to go get some, but the guys stayed at the table, wanting to chat about that night I was not allowed to know anything about yet. I didn’t love being kept apart from something Bella was allowed to know.

Arabella: 40:22

Neither do I

Nicole: 40:24

While picking out some fruit, yogurt and muesli, Jason appeared at my side.“Hey”, I said, lazily wondering whether I should have cranberries.(Both chuckle) He was quiet for quite a while, so I turned to look at him. He was looking at me with a strange expression on his face.“Yeah?”(Dramatic music notes from Bella)“I’ve been meaning to talk to you”.“Oh?” My stomach knotted a little bit. “What about?”“I like your dress”.‘Kay, that’s strange.

Arabella: 40:35

Hmmm

Nicole: 40:37

He said, casting an appreciative look down my body. I was suddenly very aware of my clitoris throbbing.(Nicole giggling nervously) That went real intense real fast.

Arabella: 40:41

Yes, sounds about right—oh yeah

Nicole: 40:43

“Thank you?” He’s flirting but I’m suspicious!

Arabella: 40:45

Bait and switch

Nicole: 40:47

You feel the vibe? It’s—“Thank you?” I swallowed, nervously. His closeness was making my body do things I was very uncomfortable with.“Are you wearing that for Mike?” Jason asked.“I’m not wearing it for anyone- ““Or Carter?”(Panic noises, sounding like a car spluttering from both) My heart jumped, but I fought to appear calm. “Carter?” I giggled, nervously. “What are you talking about?”“Cut the bullshit!” Jason suddenly hissed at me, and I almost dropped my plate.“What?” I tried to ask, but it was barely a squeak. Jason’ face and body appeared completely calm. The only thing that gave away his feelings were his eyes. I had to put my plate down on the buffet table so I wouldn’t drop it.

Arabella: 40:59

That’s actually very clever, very clever of you

Nicole: 41:01

Very clever

Arabella: 41:03

Sensible, that’s the word I was looking for

Nicole: 41:05

“What d’you think you’re doing?” he asked quietly. “Turn towards the buffet table”. Without questioning him, I did as he said. He didn’t ask a thing. He leaned towards me, laying his plate with food while talking to me in low tones.“I don’t even know where to fucking begin...” I stayed quiet and let him speak. Wise. He caught me so off guard, I barely knew where I was.“Carter…pretty intelligent choice to be fair- “ I was fighting not to close my eyes in shame, or fear.“…Mike wouldn’t suspect, because you guys dislike each other so much”. I noticed him roll his eyes.“Look, Jay- ““No”, he said simply, and I listened immediately.“Mike told you why this would be a problem”, he said, deadly calm. “You say you care about us, but you don’t act like you do”.“I-” He gave me a stare that chilled my blood, and I swallowed my words. He had laden way too much food on his plate already, but he kept going. “You know you fucked up here, right?” I stood in the uncomfortable silence.“Answer me”, he said softly.“Of course,”.“Why the fuck-?” he burst out but quickly caught himself and dropped a piece of bacon on the ground. He laughed and picked it up, adding, “fucking slippery sucker!” over his shoulder to the other guys to cover up his mistake. He turned his attention back to me. I swallowed again. “Jay, what makes you think I did anything with Carter-?” What is wrong with me?! He-(Mmmhmm from Arabella) He—knows. I swallowed again. “Jay, what makes you think I did anything with Carter-?”“Besides the fact that you two couldn’t look at each other yesterday and today you’re suddenly both grinning like idiots”, he said, calmly near my ear. “I saw you coming out of his room this morning--are you really going to deny it?”

Arabella: 41:34

Shit

Nicole: 41:36

Argh! Why didn’t I notice this fucking six-foot six dude lurkin’?

Arabella: 41:38

Because you are a twat and you can’t sneak!(Noises of frustration from Nicole) At all!

Nicole: 41:42

I shook my head. “It was an-”“An accident?” He tightened his grip on my arm. I cringed. “I was going to say an impulsive decision”.“Even if that’s the case”, he continued, “own up to your shit. Stop pretending you’re being taken advantage of.”“That’s not fair, Jay”, I whispered, “I never said-”“I swear, you fucking bitch”. Oh!!

Arabella: 41:50

Ooo, shit

Nicole: 41:52

Oh, Jay—careful now, don’t swear at me ‘cause I might, this might turn the other way

Arabella: 41:54

Yeah

Nicole: 41:56

“I swear, you fucking bitch”, he hissed right in my ear and an inexplicable wave of pleasure shot down my back. “Don’t fuck with us. I care more about those guys than life itself”. My heart was jumping like crazy, and I decided to keep quiet. Oh, good for me!!

Arabella: 42:00

Good, good for you!! First good decision in a while!

Nicole: 42:02

But honestly, I think at this point, I’m really a bit worried--

Arabella: 42:04

Yes

Nicole: 42:06

-about where this is going“So, what are you going to do?”“Um-apologise?”(Both laugh at Nicoles attempt at grace)“To whom?” he pressed.“To you?”“Fuck’s sake, no—to Mike”, he sighed. “Are you trying to piss me off?”“Absolutely not”, I answered directly. “I’m actually terrified of you right now”. He ignored my declaration of terror.(Both laugh some more)“You are going to tell Mike everything”, he told me in no uncertain terms. “You have until tomorrow morning”. He leaned his mouth against my ear. “Do you understand me?”“Yes”, I said, softly.“If I have to tell him, I’ll make sure you leave for home immediately- “

Arabella: 42:19

Shit

Nicole: 42:21

“Jay, you’ve got to be kidding me-“ Another slip of the mouth.

Arabella: 42:23

Yeah!

Nicole: 42:25

He sunk his nails into my arm.“Ow”. I bit down on my lip.“Does it feel like I’m kidding?” he asked.“No”, I said, cringing and putting my hand over his hand to loosen the pressure. “Jay, I understand what you’re saying but you’re hurting me-“ I meant more emotionally than physically.

Arabella: 42:30

Yeah

Nicole: 42:32

Jason being upset with me felt like physical pain.

He loosened his grip, and I asked: 42:33

“Why aren’t you just telling Mike now?” Yeah, he could just like blow up the whole thing for me, right??

Arabella: 42:36

Yeah, yes

Nicole: 42:38

He could, he can, he can kick me off this tour flat on my arse, just leave me in the middle of—where are we? Bern?

Arabella: 42:40

Bern

Nicole: 42:42

Just leave me in the middle of Bern and I will deserve it

Arabella: 42:44

Yes, but I would, I would come with you. I’d be annoyed at you

Nicole: 42:46

So much – I don’t know if our relationship would recover from that

Arabella: 42:48

But I’d come with you – no, you fucked up our chance!

Nicole: 42:50

Okay. Yup.“I don’t want to upset anyone unnecessarily”, he said, “and for some inexplicable reason I still want you around” (Big sigh) “Don’t make me regret giving a shit about you”. I nodded. “Thank you”. Oh my God, I feel terrible!

Arabella: 42:55

God, yes!

Nicole: 42:57

I feel so fucking shit now

Arabella: 42:59

I feel so awful for you but at the same time, you kinda fucking deserve it

Nicole: 43:01

Oh yes, I know, I’m aware of that which is why I’m like—also I’m getting it--

Arabella: 43:03

But at the same time, it’s just ohhh, oh no

Nicole: 43:05

In a cruel twist of fate, I get Jason! Jason!

Arabella: 43:07

Yeah

Nicole: 43:09

Jason

Arabella: 43:11

Yeah

Nicole: 43:13

Ah...And he’s not cute pissed--

Arabella: 43:15

No, he’s not cute pissed—he's pissed pissed!

Nicole: 43:17

He takes a lot, he is, he’s a very compassionate, very sweet guy but like he’s not going to take me messing around with his bros, that’s for sure.

Arabella: 43:19

No

Nicole: 43:21

For sure, sure

Arabella: 43:23

For sure, sure

Nicole: 43:25

And I should’ve known this was going to happen but anyway Then, he walked back to the table abruptly, leaving his huge plate of food on the buffet and me, trembling from head to toe. And not in a good way. After that there was a brief situation at the breakfast table. It really wasn’t turning out to be my day. That’s what you get! That’s what you get when you do this to yourself!

Arabella: 43:31

Yeah. Exactly

Nicole: 43:33

Everyone had changed their seats around and I ended up between Mike and Carter by some cruel twist of fate.

Arabella: 43:35

HAH!

Nicole: 43:37

Yup Carter on my left and Mike on my right.‘Cause you know, the universe is going, excuse you.

Arabella: 43:41

Yeah

Nicole: 43:43

Jason to my dismay was across from me, keeping his eyes on me the whole time, as though I’d jump onto Carter’s lap right there and then. Bella was also picking up on the sudden animosity between Jason and I.(Murmurs of agreement from Arabella) While I was barely touching my food, I continuously stared at it to avoid eye contact with anyone. And also this obviously makes me look like everything is normal.

Arabella: 43:48

Yes

Nicole: 43:50

Sarcasm

Arabella: 43:52

You looking at your food completely not at all

Nicole: 43:54

Suspicious

Arabella: 43:56

Suspicious

Nicole: 43:58

And also, being silent

Arabella: 44:00

Yes

Nicole: 44:02

I felt a hand on my thigh, creeping in under my dress. My heart faltered. I cast a worried look at Jason across the table who narrowed his eyes at me. Probably because I looked suddenly worried at his face.

Arabella: 44:07

Yes

Nicole: 44:09

I started panicking. The hand crept into my underwear then. I looked at Carter with nervous eyes, but Carter didn’t even look at me. He was cracking jokes with Zander and Bella across the table...and feeling me up! And I’m really not in the mood right now! I bit my lip, and Jason seemed to notice my distress. I looked at Mike next to me who seemed to have noticed something was up too, because he was looking at me curiously with half a smile on his face. Without looking down at his hand, and drawing further attention from Jason, I composed my face and sunk my nails into the skin of his hand. I looked at Carter to see his reaction or at least have him look at me so I could give him a death stare. But Carter didn’t even flinch. And that should’ve been the first sign of what the fuck are you doing, Nicole?

Arabella: 44:17

Yes

Nicole: 44:19

He was smiling widely and talking loudly to Zander and Bella. For Pity’ Sake! I scratched the skin of his hand. But there was still no reaction. They were still laughing and joking but he had to be able to feel that. I jammed my nail angrily into his wrist.

Arabella: 44:24

Oh, Nicole

Nicole: 44:26

To my horror, Mike groaned and brought his arm out from under the table, then glared at me. Fuck!

Arabella: 44:29

Yup

Nicole: 44:31

“What the hell, Nicky!” He got up immediately and left the table. I swore and followed him, leaving everybody else in confusion.

Arabella: 44:33

Yes! Ohhhh, you twat!

Nicole: 44:35

Fuck’s Sake! Also how long are these guys’ arms that they’re sitting on opposite sides—these two sides of me but Mike’s feeling me up but somehow it feels like it’s Carter?

Arabella: 44:37

Well, I think you’ve just confused you--’cause surely, you’ll be able to tell the difference between from which direction it was coming from but at the same time I think you’re just so hyper aware of what’s just happened with Jason--

Nicole: 44:39

Yeah

Arabella: 44:41

That you assume it’s Carter because why the fuck wouldn’t it be? And Mike wasn’t interested in sex--

Nicole: 44:43

Not--well, once

Arabella: 44:45

Recently

Nicole: 44:47

And we decided now—(Nicole wheezes a laugh)

Arabella: 44:50

Well since you, since you punched him

Nicole: 44:52

Which is fucking fair, don’t you think?

Arabella: 44:54

Yeah

Nicole: 44:56

That makes sense, I would’ve been much interested in anyone, having sex with anyone who’d punched me

Arabella: 44:58

So, you assume it’s Carter—and--

Nicole: 45:00

Yes, exactly

Arabella: 45:02

Oh, you twat

Nicole: 45:04

Thank you for the twattiness

Arabella: 45:06

Oh My God

Nicole: 45:08

Do we ever leave an episode where I’m not in some sort of trouble?

Arabella: 45:10

I’m not sure we do actually but let’s be honest, you get yourself in a lot of trouble, a lot of the time

Nicole: 45:12

But it’s, but to be fair, so far this has been awful, new to tour life, trying to be--

Arabella: 45:14

Yeah

Nicole: 45:16

--a submissive on a huge stadium tour with your favourite band with lots of starstruckness with lots of confusion and anxious and horny--

Arabella: 45:18

Which, saying that is the title of our next episode, Episode 19 is called...

Arabella & Nicole: 45:20

Anxious and Horny(Both Laugh)

Nicole: 45:23

So even though I keep saying this isn’t me, it is me but it’s like an exaggerated version of me in like very specific circumstances

Arabella: 45:25

Dramatized

Nicole: 45:27

Completely dramatized. In the same way that in some, in future episodes, you’ll see Bella making things, doing things, that are also

Arabella: 45:29

Yes

Nicole: 45:31

Massively dramatized for literature purposes

Arabella: 45:33

Yas, and on that note, we will see you all next week, for Episode 19, Anxious and Horny

Nicole: 45:35

Love you and bye!

Arabella: 45:37

Love, bye! Thank you, as always, for listening to us. Please follow us on all our socials, interact with us. We love it, and please don't forget to subscribe and share.

Nicole: 45:41

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Arabella: 45:43

Thank you. Please and thank you, thank you and please.(Theme music plays out with lyrics)“…. Hanging on to everything you said. And everything you did was so wonderful! So unbelievable! What is this world without you? We’re hanging on to what you were, even if it hurts!...”